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Welcome to our Cannonball's Page! Cannon Wiggins is so lucky to be loved by so many people that we wanted to create a page for everyone to keep updated on his progress. Cannon is a very special boy and he needs all of your prayers to fight this nasty disease of neuroblastoma cancer.Please pray for our son. He is our world.Facts: Cannon was born on August 10, 2011 and was diagnosed at 20 months old on April 19, 2013 with Stage 4 Neuroblastoma: Nymc-amplified, poor histology, COG protocol at Arnold Palmer Children's Hospital, Resection surgery by Dr. Michael Laquaglia at Memorial Sloan Kettering Hospital scheduled August 2, 2013 Current status: about to go to Stem cell transplant after 6 rounds of chemo. Tumor: in abdomen, both legs, armpit - bone marrow and lymph nodes Prognosis: will cannonball this cancer out and be cancer free

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Not Cancer Free... A People Pleaser NO more....

Apr 17, 2014 7:10am

Not Cancer Free...A People Pleaser NO more....

So we don't get to hold the sign up saying cancer free... Just yet... But stay positive people... It's coming... I just know it is....I am not disappointed... Instead I'm ever more determined....

Cannon is so close...

The urine numbers are shrinking and I'm positive after this round Cannon will be officially NED... But not today... And that's okay...

When I came into this cancer world heavily pregnant with twins and as a new mum... It was safe to say people would call me a people pleaser... I enjoyed making people happy... I still do... I was the person who if I ordered coffee with no sugar and it came with sugar ( even though I hate sugar in my coffee) I drank it... because I didn't want to upset or inconvenience the waiter or cause any issues...please don't think I was a push over... I wasn't... I just liked everyone to be happy and if people were unhappy I was unhappy... So I kept the peace .. Always...

The cancer world changes you... No matter how hard you try you change...

This world is not for the timorous.... and as for people pleaders like me? Well you realize it's a life or death situation your in and REALLY there is no room for people pleasing....

When Cannon was diagnosed and Michael and I were researching what hospital to go to I recall saying to Michael ' what if they get upset about us going elsewhere ?' .... He shot me down like you wouldn't believe... And I'm ever grateful he did...( ps my husband is defiantly not a people pleaser and I love that about him) ...

In the beginning mentioning other facilities to the doctors, nurses was so uncomfortable....

Here is the reality....

Arnold Palmer does not do stem cell transplants ( yet) they don't have the capacity here to do it... Again I say yet....

Arnold Palmer does not have proton radiation ... Again I say yet ....

Arnold Palmer's surgeon had done 3 or 4 surgeries ( his words not mine) similar to what Cannon needed in his lifetime...

That was the reality.....

So when a nurse on the fourth floor made a rude backhanded remark ( most recently) to me that we hadn't been here in a while and that's why Cannon's photograph was not up on the desk with the other kids... She was absolutely right... We had not been here in a while... And I guarantee if she was fighting for her son's life she would also not have been here for a while either.. Before coming into the cancer world I would have said nothing to her rude remark and instead smiled... I did not do that... Instead I responded very politely and said ' your right... But that remark is very harsh and unnecessary' ... Today I don't need to smile to please others...if people are rude I can tell them... And when it comes to Cannon... I have done many things to fight for him.. Including asking that a nurse with crappy attitude not be his nurse again ( my right as his parent)...something I would never have done before because what if the nurse ended up not liking me? Here is what I've learnt......

I learnt...the hard way... There will always be people who don't like me.. Maybe I remind them of someone, maybe my accent annoys them, maybe my laugh bugs them, maybe I said something as a joke that hurt their feelings.... Lots of people don't like me.. Won't like me .. And guess what? That's okay today....I don't need everyone to like to me... Not today...

I am the type of person who NO matter how bad something is.... There must be good... There is always GOOD...If you look....Always...

So me being the proactive person I am .. While we were away like the nurse pointed out ;) ( sense my sarcasm there?) I asked doctors at Sloan and CHOP questions for Dr Guisti at Arnold Palmer and reported back the answers... I wanted so much to SHARE what I had learnt...and I did....why not share it? I did that to help better my home hospital... Even though we were away....

I am happy to listen to opinion, reasonings, etc ...But when it comes to Cannon... Well ... There are NO LIMITS to what I will do to make sure HE lives....I must educate myself and be ready to fight for him when I need to.

During antibodies last time I got into it with one of the doctors ... I fought for Cannon so hard to receive them and even though they told me they strongly suggested we stopped.. I knew he needed them I knew they would save him ... And they are....the doctor and I were at it for over an hour....( by at it, I mean I felt like I was in court arguing for my client ..just this time my client was my son)....

If you would have told me a year ago I would strongly disagree with a doctor and tell that doctor to his face ... Me? The people pleaser? I would have said no way... Today.... It's life or death... There is no room for people pleasing... Cannon needs me to suck it up and DO... And trust me today 'I DO'...

I am still extremely polite, no curse words are needed or necessary in my opinion... I can be articulate and passionate ... Yet to the point....and that's the goal today...

I know as we enter next week where we do the IL2 and the antibody that I will face the challenges again.... I'm ready... For what is worth fighting for more than your own child? Nothing I can think off...

Cancer changes your child..
It also changes you...
And if your lucky you learn some REALLY valuable lessons along the road.....

I also want to take a moment and thank everyone who writes comments ... Yesterday there were some long comments and it was so nice to read them during Cannon's nap. I love to hear positive stories and what telling this very intimate story is doing for others.. I started writing here ( always from my iPhone - hence the poor grammar) to let Michael and I's families know updates since our families don't live close ... It's turned into so much more for me... I have in the last year realized I have a passion to write to express my feelings.. I truly in my heart believe it has helped me be the best advocate for Cannon and wife to my husband. Writing has become something I have become passionate about. Having a real blog someday can only be my dream ...... But I just wanted say a huge thank you to everyone who has and is traveling this roller coaster ride with us... I started writing here for you and somewhere along the way it's helped me too... Thank you... So much...

Ps ' said nurse' is a minority here... Like my mum used to say ' there is always one' ;)

Written by Mumma-Bear
Cannonball Kids' Cancer
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