It was January 18th at 4am that my family received a phone call that changed us forever. It was a year ago today that I picked up the phone after a late friday night to my mom's trembling voice and inability to get out a full sentence. She said, "Amanda, your brother was in an accident."That phone call and her words will forever be engraved in my memory. Even a year later I cannot describe to someone how that moment in my life felt. Losing someone or even the thought of losing someone that you love is the hardest obstacle God asks us to overcome on this Earth. And when or if you experience this, there is no way of knowing how you will react or feel. I find myself waking up in the middle of the night not because of a nightmare but because I am so thankful to have my brother in my life.
I am thankful that I can say he still teases me as a big brother should and he still makes me laugh so hard I cry.
The other day we were laying by the pool and he grabbed my hand and I said, "let's not hold hands because that's weird," and Brian responded , "come on Amanda, I love you!" I just smiled and said, "I love you too Brian and I am so happy I am sharing this moment with you," as we then held hands.
Brian has been through a year of pain, sadness, rejoicing, embracing and a year of change. We love him and the overwhelming out pour of affection and care for Brian over this past year has shown us that he has love all around him.He is the light that guides my family, he is our solider, and he is always there for us! This post is a reminder that life is a gift and we can't take anything for granted because it could all change in a blink of an eye.It was one year ago today that God had my brother in his hands, and it was one year ago today that God decided Brian was not done living.
My parents and I Thank every one of you for this past year we could not have made it without you.
Love the Nagel Family!
Here are a few pictures showing some laughs and hugs this year.