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Angel Estigoy
Angel Estigoy
your latest post was just beautiful.  Thanks for sharing your anger and pain and just being open and honest about your first hours with your little boy.  Yes, no dr's no matter the circumstances should ever take away from the gift that is having a child no matter what the outcome will be.
Judy farnsworth
Judy farnsworth
My grandson Adonis Aidian Grimes was born 11/01/2005 he looked like a normal baby accept for a club foot (but we knew that could be fixed). As he started getting older at 6 months this baby was not acting right. he screamed all the time, doctors wouldn't help until I was really mad and got in their face . They found out he is missing part of his brain and so the journey began. My daughter and I were devastated we cried for a long time. We cherish every moment we have with him, he is now 7 they told us to take him home at 6 months he would not make it. We are still fighting right with him. We love him so much but I cry all the time and ask why? No one has the answers, I know one day he won't be here but I just can't handle at this time that moment .You are a wonderful person to give Brayden the precious time to be with you and experience his smile. 
sue scarella
sue scarella
Dear Alicia,
I love you.
This latest post really touched me. I felt what you were expressing
And of course it broke my heart.
It's not fair, nothing about all of the challenges you faced were fair.
Yet you have inspired others and given them strength that you may not have always felt. How Could you with so many negative people in your world,especially some of the doctors you met along the way?
It takes a long time to mend. I hope this latest person in your life is
Worthy and helps you.
How are James and the girls holding up?
I like picturing you all in that beautiful setting that I have seen in
Your Facebook pictures. I'm sure it can make you feel sad but it looks
Peaceful. Also I know how hard you work to keep your family close and happy.I am amazed at how many interesting and fun things you and James do with the girls.. And did with Brayden.
You are a wonderful momma.your daughters are learning what love and family are all about. Love always aunt sue
Pat and Rick Landreth
Pat and Rick Landreth
I love you so much.  We pray for you a lot and it is amazing how God is still using you.  You are facing your pain and turning it into a positive help for others in your situation.  I know it has to be so very difficult for you, and I totally understand the "not pooping out rainbows" statement.  But you have to understand that you are only human, amazingly strong, but human.  That is what we all love about you.  Just know that you are never alone.  You have a huge following group of supporters, but most of all God will never forget you and He has big plans for you.  I am so proud of the woman Taylor use to call Weesha.  We all love you more than you can ever know.  Continue to take care of you.Love and prayers always!!!!!
JoAnne Lindemanis
JoAnne Lindemanis
There is healing through the words I have read here.  You are on your way.  You are giving to the Lord's healing, although it is going to take time, hang in there even when you want to let go.  Fight through this and see what happens.  Memories have smooth and hard edges, it is my prayer for you that you will allow those hard edges to be smoothed by the Father who has a close hold onto Brayden.  He wants to hold you here so you can indeed minister healing to others who are hurting too.  We who hurt in this life are many. 

Be blessed and comforted in knowing we are still in your story.
Bridgette LaJoye
Bridgette LaJoye
 Hello!  I am a friend of Serena Priest.  Your post was heart wrenching.  A priest told me once that nothing in this world is an accident.  God either allows it or wills it.  He knows what is coming and sees the "big picture".  Because of that He knows best.  And because we cannot see ahead, we do not understand  But, God never wills evil.  There was nothing evil about Brayden's condition. Brayden was an example of innocent, unconditional love.


Unless you threw yourself off a 100 foot cliff, you did not cause Brayden's hydranencephaly.  God had it in His Divine plan.  Look how much support you are giving to others thru this foundation who may have had nowhere else to turn.  Let the guilt go.  God allowed this.  There is a reason or many reasons.  No guilt.  Brayden would not want you to have that guilt.  You gave him a loving home.  He was blessed to have you.


We are praying for you and your family.  I can't tell you how to feel at this time. Everything I see that you have written is what I think I would do if I had the same situation.  I have never lost a child but I have had panic attacks and would not wish those on anyone.  They will go away


Back in my grandparents time, MANY women smoked and drank A LOT all thru their pregnancies.  MANY had normal, healthy babies.  On the flipside, I have friends/family who have done everything "perfectly" in their prenatal care, and still have a special needs child as a result....things going wrong during delivery, stilborns, etc.  My sister in law had a child with a tight knot in her cord.  She was fine when she was born and the doctor looked at them in amazement...that should have been the classic stillborn.  But she wasn't. She was fine.  It was what God wanted.  This is how God wanted Brayden to be.  You didn't cause it.


Please keep the updates going...I think it could be a good part of the healing process...


Bridgette LaJoye
Cindi Kerr
Cindi Kerr
You're a psych student, so you know that these emotions are to be expected. More than that, you're a mom. Moms hurt when their children hurt; moms feel righteous anger when their kids are overlooked or wronged; and moms do everything in their power to make the world a better place for their kids. You did all of that and more for Brayden. You made his world the best it could possibly be and, through your writing and sharing, you gave Brayden's life a purpose that stretched beyond his immediate family and out into the entire world. I know you miss him and there is nothing I can say to make that better. I don't know all the decisions and supposed failings which haunt you in the night and follow you into the days. Thank you for generously sharing your feelings about some of them. I do know this: you did the best you knew and were capable of doing at every given moment of Brayden's life. That is all any of us moms can do for our children. Be at peace. 
Veronica Wallace
Veronica Wallace
Please dont doubt yourself. I know that is hard, believe me I know. Brayden was a perfect child, maybe not in society's version, but in God's version. I think people using the word normal or perfect to describe a child doesnt have any real aspect of what that really means. You love Brayden, he is your son, that alone makes him perfect. Every child is a gift from God. It is my belief that some children are just too special and perfect for the cruelty of this earth. It sucks that we are left to mourn and grieve the loss of our child (in my case it would be children)

On March 10 it will be 3 years since Gabriel died. And it still sucks. I also feel guilty for some things. I still get angry and feel deeply depressed. The first few months upto probably a year after his death I had severe panic attacks and was quite suicidal. At one point shortly after his death I wasnt eating and tried to take my life and was hospitalized for 4 days in a psychiatric hospital.

You did everything in your power to give Brayden a good quality of life. He was happy, that was apparent from all the smiles he gave you. He loves you. You love him. Society may not have thought he was a perfect child, but I do.

Love another grieving mommy,
Veronica Wallace
www.caringbridge.org/visit/gabrielwallace
Judy farnsworth
Judy farnsworth
My grandson Adonis Aidian Grimes was born 11/01/2005 he looked like a normal baby accept for a club foot (but we knew that could be fixed). As he started getting older at 6 months this baby was not acting right. he screamed all the time, doctors wouldn't help until I was really mad and got in their face . They found out he is missing part of his brain and so the journey began. My daughter and I were devastated we cried for a long time. We cherish every moment we have with him, he is now 7 they told us to take him home at 6 months he would not make it. We are still fighting right with him. We love him so much but I cry all the time and ask why? No one has the answers, I know one day he won't be here but I just can't handle at this time that moment .You are a wonderful person to give Brayden the precious time to be with you and experience his smile. 
Pat and Rick Landreth
Pat and Rick Landreth
I love you so much.  We pray for you a lot and it is amazing how God is still using you.  You are facing your pain and turning it into a positive help for others in your situation.  I know it has to be so very difficult for you, and I totally understand the "not pooping out rainbows" statement.  But you have to understand that you are only human, amazingly strong, but human.  That is what we all love about you.  Just know that you are never alone.  You have a huge following group of supporters, but most of all God will never forget you and He has big plans for you.  I am so proud of the woman Taylor use to call Weesha.  We all love you more than you can ever know.  Continue to take care of you.Love and prayers always!!!!!
JoAnne Lindemanis
JoAnne Lindemanis
There is healing through the words I have read here.  You are on your way.  You are giving to the Lord's healing, although it is going to take time, hang in there even when you want to let go.  Fight through this and see what happens.  Memories have smooth and hard edges, it is my prayer for you that you will allow those hard edges to be smoothed by the Father who has a close hold onto Brayden.  He wants to hold you here so you can indeed minister healing to others who are hurting too.  We who hurt in this life are many. 

Be blessed and comforted in knowing we are still in your story.
Cindi Kerr
Cindi Kerr
You're a psych student, so you know that these emotions are to be expected. More than that, you're a mom. Moms hurt when their children hurt; moms feel righteous anger when their kids are overlooked or wronged; and moms do everything in their power to make the world a better place for their kids. You did all of that and more for Brayden. You made his world the best it could possibly be and, through your writing and sharing, you gave Brayden's life a purpose that stretched beyond his immediate family and out into the entire world. I know you miss him and there is nothing I can say to make that better. I don't know all the decisions and supposed failings which haunt you in the night and follow you into the days. Thank you for generously sharing your feelings about some of them. I do know this: you did the best you knew and were capable of doing at every given moment of Brayden's life. That is all any of us moms can do for our children. Be at peace. 
Angel Estigoy
Angel Estigoy
your latest post was just beautiful.  Thanks for sharing your anger and pain and just being open and honest about your first hours with your little boy.  Yes, no dr's no matter the circumstances should ever take away from the gift that is having a child no matter what the outcome will be.
sue scarella
sue scarella
Dear Alicia,
I love you.
This latest post really touched me. I felt what you were expressing
And of course it broke my heart.
It's not fair, nothing about all of the challenges you faced were fair.
Yet you have inspired others and given them strength that you may not have always felt. How Could you with so many negative people in your world,especially some of the doctors you met along the way?
It takes a long time to mend. I hope this latest person in your life is
Worthy and helps you.
How are James and the girls holding up?
I like picturing you all in that beautiful setting that I have seen in
Your Facebook pictures. I'm sure it can make you feel sad but it looks
Peaceful. Also I know how hard you work to keep your family close and happy.I am amazed at how many interesting and fun things you and James do with the girls.. And did with Brayden.
You are a wonderful momma.your daughters are learning what love and family are all about. Love always aunt sue
Bridgette LaJoye
Bridgette LaJoye
 Hello!  I am a friend of Serena Priest.  Your post was heart wrenching.  A priest told me once that nothing in this world is an accident.  God either allows it or wills it.  He knows what is coming and sees the "big picture".  Because of that He knows best.  And because we cannot see ahead, we do not understand  But, God never wills evil.  There was nothing evil about Brayden's condition. Brayden was an example of innocent, unconditional love.


Unless you threw yourself off a 100 foot cliff, you did not cause Brayden's hydranencephaly.  God had it in His Divine plan.  Look how much support you are giving to others thru this foundation who may have had nowhere else to turn.  Let the guilt go.  God allowed this.  There is a reason or many reasons.  No guilt.  Brayden would not want you to have that guilt.  You gave him a loving home.  He was blessed to have you.


We are praying for you and your family.  I can't tell you how to feel at this time. Everything I see that you have written is what I think I would do if I had the same situation.  I have never lost a child but I have had panic attacks and would not wish those on anyone.  They will go away


Back in my grandparents time, MANY women smoked and drank A LOT all thru their pregnancies.  MANY had normal, healthy babies.  On the flipside, I have friends/family who have done everything "perfectly" in their prenatal care, and still have a special needs child as a result....things going wrong during delivery, stilborns, etc.  My sister in law had a child with a tight knot in her cord.  She was fine when she was born and the doctor looked at them in amazement...that should have been the classic stillborn.  But she wasn't. She was fine.  It was what God wanted.  This is how God wanted Brayden to be.  You didn't cause it.


Please keep the updates going...I think it could be a good part of the healing process...


Bridgette LaJoye
Veronica Wallace
Veronica Wallace
Please dont doubt yourself. I know that is hard, believe me I know. Brayden was a perfect child, maybe not in society's version, but in God's version. I think people using the word normal or perfect to describe a child doesnt have any real aspect of what that really means. You love Brayden, he is your son, that alone makes him perfect. Every child is a gift from God. It is my belief that some children are just too special and perfect for the cruelty of this earth. It sucks that we are left to mourn and grieve the loss of our child (in my case it would be children)

On March 10 it will be 3 years since Gabriel died. And it still sucks. I also feel guilty for some things. I still get angry and feel deeply depressed. The first few months upto probably a year after his death I had severe panic attacks and was quite suicidal. At one point shortly after his death I wasnt eating and tried to take my life and was hospitalized for 4 days in a psychiatric hospital.

You did everything in your power to give Brayden a good quality of life. He was happy, that was apparent from all the smiles he gave you. He loves you. You love him. Society may not have thought he was a perfect child, but I do.

Love another grieving mommy,
Veronica Wallace
www.caringbridge.org/visit/gabrielwallace
Angel Estigoy
Angel Estigoy
your latest post was just beautiful.  Thanks for sharing your anger and pain and just being open and honest about your first hours with your little boy.  Yes, no dr's no matter the circumstances should ever take away from the gift that is having a child no matter what the outcome will be.
Pat and Rick Landreth
Pat and Rick Landreth
I love you so much.  We pray for you a lot and it is amazing how God is still using you.  You are facing your pain and turning it into a positive help for others in your situation.  I know it has to be so very difficult for you, and I totally understand the "not pooping out rainbows" statement.  But you have to understand that you are only human, amazingly strong, but human.  That is what we all love about you.  Just know that you are never alone.  You have a huge following group of supporters, but most of all God will never forget you and He has big plans for you.  I am so proud of the woman Taylor use to call Weesha.  We all love you more than you can ever know.  Continue to take care of you.Love and prayers always!!!!!
Judy farnsworth
Judy farnsworth
My grandson Adonis Aidian Grimes was born 11/01/2005 he looked like a normal baby accept for a club foot (but we knew that could be fixed). As he started getting older at 6 months this baby was not acting right. he screamed all the time, doctors wouldn't help until I was really mad and got in their face . They found out he is missing part of his brain and so the journey began. My daughter and I were devastated we cried for a long time. We cherish every moment we have with him, he is now 7 they told us to take him home at 6 months he would not make it. We are still fighting right with him. We love him so much but I cry all the time and ask why? No one has the answers, I know one day he won't be here but I just can't handle at this time that moment .You are a wonderful person to give Brayden the precious time to be with you and experience his smile. 
JoAnne Lindemanis
JoAnne Lindemanis
There is healing through the words I have read here.  You are on your way.  You are giving to the Lord's healing, although it is going to take time, hang in there even when you want to let go.  Fight through this and see what happens.  Memories have smooth and hard edges, it is my prayer for you that you will allow those hard edges to be smoothed by the Father who has a close hold onto Brayden.  He wants to hold you here so you can indeed minister healing to others who are hurting too.  We who hurt in this life are many. 

Be blessed and comforted in knowing we are still in your story.
Bridgette LaJoye
Bridgette LaJoye
 Hello!  I am a friend of Serena Priest.  Your post was heart wrenching.  A priest told me once that nothing in this world is an accident.  God either allows it or wills it.  He knows what is coming and sees the "big picture".  Because of that He knows best.  And because we cannot see ahead, we do not understand  But, God never wills evil.  There was nothing evil about Brayden's condition. Brayden was an example of innocent, unconditional love.


Unless you threw yourself off a 100 foot cliff, you did not cause Brayden's hydranencephaly.  God had it in His Divine plan.  Look how much support you are giving to others thru this foundation who may have had nowhere else to turn.  Let the guilt go.  God allowed this.  There is a reason or many reasons.  No guilt.  Brayden would not want you to have that guilt.  You gave him a loving home.  He was blessed to have you.


We are praying for you and your family.  I can't tell you how to feel at this time. Everything I see that you have written is what I think I would do if I had the same situation.  I have never lost a child but I have had panic attacks and would not wish those on anyone.  They will go away


Back in my grandparents time, MANY women smoked and drank A LOT all thru their pregnancies.  MANY had normal, healthy babies.  On the flipside, I have friends/family who have done everything "perfectly" in their prenatal care, and still have a special needs child as a result....things going wrong during delivery, stilborns, etc.  My sister in law had a child with a tight knot in her cord.  She was fine when she was born and the doctor looked at them in amazement...that should have been the classic stillborn.  But she wasn't. She was fine.  It was what God wanted.  This is how God wanted Brayden to be.  You didn't cause it.


Please keep the updates going...I think it could be a good part of the healing process...


Bridgette LaJoye
sue scarella
sue scarella
Dear Alicia,
I love you.
This latest post really touched me. I felt what you were expressing
And of course it broke my heart.
It's not fair, nothing about all of the challenges you faced were fair.
Yet you have inspired others and given them strength that you may not have always felt. How Could you with so many negative people in your world,especially some of the doctors you met along the way?
It takes a long time to mend. I hope this latest person in your life is
Worthy and helps you.
How are James and the girls holding up?
I like picturing you all in that beautiful setting that I have seen in
Your Facebook pictures. I'm sure it can make you feel sad but it looks
Peaceful. Also I know how hard you work to keep your family close and happy.I am amazed at how many interesting and fun things you and James do with the girls.. And did with Brayden.
You are a wonderful momma.your daughters are learning what love and family are all about. Love always aunt sue
Cindi Kerr
Cindi Kerr
You're a psych student, so you know that these emotions are to be expected. More than that, you're a mom. Moms hurt when their children hurt; moms feel righteous anger when their kids are overlooked or wronged; and moms do everything in their power to make the world a better place for their kids. You did all of that and more for Brayden. You made his world the best it could possibly be and, through your writing and sharing, you gave Brayden's life a purpose that stretched beyond his immediate family and out into the entire world. I know you miss him and there is nothing I can say to make that better. I don't know all the decisions and supposed failings which haunt you in the night and follow you into the days. Thank you for generously sharing your feelings about some of them. I do know this: you did the best you knew and were capable of doing at every given moment of Brayden's life. That is all any of us moms can do for our children. Be at peace. 
Veronica Wallace
Veronica Wallace
Please dont doubt yourself. I know that is hard, believe me I know. Brayden was a perfect child, maybe not in society's version, but in God's version. I think people using the word normal or perfect to describe a child doesnt have any real aspect of what that really means. You love Brayden, he is your son, that alone makes him perfect. Every child is a gift from God. It is my belief that some children are just too special and perfect for the cruelty of this earth. It sucks that we are left to mourn and grieve the loss of our child (in my case it would be children)

On March 10 it will be 3 years since Gabriel died. And it still sucks. I also feel guilty for some things. I still get angry and feel deeply depressed. The first few months upto probably a year after his death I had severe panic attacks and was quite suicidal. At one point shortly after his death I wasnt eating and tried to take my life and was hospitalized for 4 days in a psychiatric hospital.

You did everything in your power to give Brayden a good quality of life. He was happy, that was apparent from all the smiles he gave you. He loves you. You love him. Society may not have thought he was a perfect child, but I do.

Love another grieving mommy,
Veronica Wallace
www.caringbridge.org/visit/gabrielwallace