I just happened to have a vacation this last week that was planned months ago. I of course know that God is in charge of my schedule book and therefore planned appropriately. Yesterday and today, I was back at it. Naturally it is very difficult to carry on at work knowing what awaits me at the hospital. Although Blake is so much more alert, I feel like his days and nights are backwards. He wants to watch TV, or have me read him a book, or play the ipad any time after midnight. Throw in the "I gotta go to the bathroom" every 30 minutes (thanks IV fluids) and it makes for a restless night. Then I get to "wake up" in order to go to work. My office has been so understanding and supportive of my family through this entire journey, and they are indeed part of my family.
Just as the neurologist are predicting, Blake is improving quite steadily. It is a little difficult for Connie and myself to judge how far he has come in 4-5 days since we tend to stare at him whenever we are awake. But as we look back, Blake was virtually comatose this time last week, and now he is walking around the unit and playing his ipad. He still speaks in extremely short sentences or just randomly says single words in a monotone voice, but he is getting there. Unfortunately he pulled out his NG (feeding) tube last night so we told him that since he did that he would have to start eating on his own. Otherwise the tube goes back in. He is eating milk shakes, some candy, pudding (which arguably is his normal diet anyway). He still has weakness in his left arm but that is improving also.
Our hope is to leave the hospital early next week, which with the progress that he is making is very possible. As mentioned, we are saddened with the knowledge that the surgeons want to perform open brain surgery to remove the aneurysm. However Connie and I are finding our peace. We faithfully see the providence of God along this journey and we have to feel that this is a continued piece of the puzzle. The puzzle could end up being an awful picture in the end, but because of God's faithfulness, we can have peace with it. We of course opt to feel that this is for Blake's best and the outcome will be good. We dread the rehab, but the Raders are used to challenges. We survive. We have to. There is not a good alternative.
We thank you all from the bottom of our hearts for your support through prayers, visits, cards, donations, grass mowing, etc. We are blessed because of you.