Two years of missing BJ and my lifetime still yet to get through without her. I wouldn't trade a minute of the heartache I feel now for a single moment I spent with her. Her heart was so pure and full of love. Her faith was so strong, I wished many times I could see situations through her child like faith. She always knew Jesus would take care of her. And now she is with Him - safe at last, free from all cancer and pain, finally completely whole. I just miss her so much! and I always will.
I came across this poem this morning. Thank you all for being there for me. I seem to only come here to update when I am feeling at my lowest, like no one else remembers. Your messages all touch me and help me find comfort. I don't want the world to forget that my BJ was here - that she made a difference in people's lives, even in the lives of those who didn't get to meet her.
May all you all have a very Merry Christmas and your New Year be blessed.
The Loss Of A Child
The moment that I knew you had died,
My heart split in two,
The one side filled with memories,
The other died with you.
I often lay awake at night,
When the world is fast asleep,
And take a walk down memory lane,
With tears upon my cheek.
Remembering you is easy,
I do it every day,
But missing you is a heartache,
That never goes away.
I hold you tightly within my heart,
And there you will remain,
Life has gone on without you,
But it never will be the same.
For those who still have their children,
Treat them with tender care,
You will never know the emptiness,
As when you turn and they are not there.
Don't tell me that you understand,
don't tell me that you know.
Don't tell me that I will survive,
How I will surely grow.
Don't tell me this is just a test,
That I am truly blessed.
That I am chosen for the task,
Apart from all the rest.
Don't come at me with answers
That can only come from me,
Don't tell me how my grief will pass,
That I will soon be free.
Don't stand in pious judgment
Of the bonds I must untie,
Don't tell me how to grieve,
Don't tell me when to cry.
Accept me in my ups and downs,
I need someone to share,
Just hold my hand and let me cry,
And say, "My friend, I care.
