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This weekend Shelly was helping me clean out some things when we came upon a carefully wrapped karaoke machine.  It had been a gift to Kayla the previous Christmas and she loved to use it, being a singer like her mother.  The machine was the source of so many memories that after the accident we couldn't get rid of it and just packed it carefully so we could hang on to it for who knows how long.

But when we came upon it today we stopped in a long pause, thinking back to it's constant use those 5-6 months during the first part of 2004.  As Shelly looked at it I started doing something else until I heard her crying.  She had opened the door - something we had not done previously - and found a cassette "Imagine Me Without You" by Jaci Velasquez, making it likely the last song Kayla sang when using the machine.  Shelly remembered singing the song in church before giving it to Kayla.

In my life You're all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me

Imagine me without You
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day without You there to see me
Imagine me without You
Lord You know it's just impossible
Because of You it's all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can't imagine me without You

She remembered the words well and I hugged her as hard as I could.  We looked up the video on You Tube and watched the background pictures of clouds in the sky, and had another burst of emotion when the video ended showing John 14:27 'My Peace I Give to You.'  It was sort of like, Mom and Dad, Jesus is talking to you in this verse - you know exactly where I am.

In Ryan's book he talks about the loving touches Jesus gives us every now and then about Kayla.  After taking in this precious reminder today I went out the front door and was slightly startled to see a small bird sitting in the flower pot, not two feet from me.  I thought, "Well, of course."  We've been in this home three years already and not once have I come out of the door, garage or whatever, to have a little bird sitting there looking at me, in no hurry whatsoever and as a matter of fact, looking pretty comfortable around me. 

Just a complete hug from our Lord today.


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Diana Calhoun
By Diana Calhoun (and Chase)
You and Shelly always know how to tug at my heartstrings! I love how Kayla is a constant your lives and will always continue to be with all of you, even when some of those little surprises can bring tears to our eyes and happiness all at the same time. It is truly bittersweet and makes me even more closer to God and Heaven above us when we watch and listen! I know Shelly doesn't have any idea how much of a positive influence she had on Chase when he was four to seven years old in her Kindermusik class and how much he loved her and Kayla in his weekly classes. They brought music into his life and through simple childrens songs opened a whole new world for him. He is 18 now and just graduated from MN where he performed in all of the musicals and plays. He is heading off to college in LA for film directing and performing. Please tell her SHE AND KAYLA WERE A PART OF THAT and I THANK THEM BOTH SO MUCH! Your family will always remain in my heart and I will continue to read and watch all of the wonderful things that continue to be brought into your lives along the way, because they touch us all! Please tell Shelly to email me at, so that I can try to email her back some songs Chase has sung, so that she can hear the voice of what was once a little boy in her Kindermusik class!
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Sharon Goetz
By Sharon Goetz
WONDERFUL! Thank you!
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Laurie Bendy
By Laurie Bendy
It looks like a baby Robin. Nice! :)
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Lee & Wilma Gamblin
By Wilma Gamblin
So very special!!!! Thank you for sharing with us!!! May you continue to sense God's wonderful presence all your days!!! There is a great DAY coming when we will once again be with our loved ones who have gone on and hugs,
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connie grigsby
By connie grigsby
What a wonderful story! So amazing how the Lord works and encourages, when we least expect it. The hug was extended to all of us who read your entry. Thank you for sharing!
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Janice Miller
what a wonderful story. God is truly good to meet us just where we need met. Bless you.
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Danielle Weide
By Danielle Rowe
Wow! Love this! You gave me goosebumps at least three times in this post. If you keep your eyes and ears open; you are bound to see God daily! Many blessings! Thanks for sharing.
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Carol Copeland
By Carol Copeland
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