It's been 7 monthes since we lost Alex. We honored him in the best way that we could. We participated as Team Alex in yesterdays Lockport's Relay 4 Life. For our first year doing it we more than doubled what we set our goal as. We are a small team with alot of heart honoring my little boy. Unfortuantly due to bad weather the event got rained out and therefore shut down around 1130pm. I was all set to go until 6am when the event would have ended. It gives me a goal for next year then.
During the relay they had a survivor's lap which had be crying, and then they did a caregiver's lap which i walked in that one carrying my son's photo and i was really crying through that, Julie came over and hugged me during that as she knew what pain i was feeling. And then they had a team lap which my friend and sister were both their with me and we experienced the sadness together. But, it wasn't all sad we were not only walking in memory of my son Alex, we were also walking in honor of his long fight that he endured for so long. We all love and miss him so much everyday. I met another mother there that had lost her son a year ago and we hugged and spoke for alittle bit. She said the one year mark is terribly painful and it will still hurt after that but to embrace it and understand it. And always remember everything the good and the bad.