Diario de Kylie Doniak
Kylie's Post :)
Escrito el Feb 2, 2013 8:36pm por Alyssa Doniak
Written by Kylie:
Thank you everyone who has been involved. This has been one of the hardest journeys I’ve ever gone through. I’m still struggling with things today but I’m so thankful I was given another day and I wouldn’t change that for anything. Right now one of the hardest things is my memory. Just thinking things and remembering things is hard right now but I’ll take that of being given another day. And my family works great with that because they know I’m having a hard time remembering and they’re answering all the silly questions I have.
Thank you for anyone who has done things for my family. I don’t think I could do this without having them there for me. My family has put up greatly with any craziness I’ve thrown at them. I’m just so thankful to have another day with them. I would also take this again if one of my sisters doesn’t have this happen to them. They are working amazingly at all the silly questions I throw at them and they never make me feel sad for anything I throw at them.
I’ve been back to Texas since the accident. I was given the opportunity to speak at the half time of a soccer game for the Bev Kearney Award. This was such an honor for me. This is just another way for anyone to thank God. He got me safely back there and safely home.
It's funny now because a lot of people think I should be mad that this happened, but I’m not. I’m just thankful to be given another day and thankful that this didn’t happen to one of my sisters. I don’t think I could have reacted as good as they have helping me.
God is the only one. I’ve never questioned my belief in Him after having this happen to me. He was the only reason I got another day. I think He gave me another day because I’m suppose to make a difference in someone’s life. I wish I could tell you exactly why He gave me another day but I can’t. That’s the beauty of His power.
What I’m doing right now:
Right now I’m working on getting better. Everyday me and my sister start at the gym. I try to help my mom with dinner. I’m writing everything now in a journal so I can remember. Then we see what the day throws at us.
I’m starting to work each week at a family friend's classroom. English isn’t the students' first language and I’m working with them on reading. I’m really excited about this. It’s awesome to see their abilities improve. I also love it because I spoke Spanish so I can understand what they think should be the way to say it. It’s just awesome to help them at a younger age so when they get older they’ll be great. I’m just so thankful to be given this opportunity.
One of the best things is that I didn’t have to handle this crazy year alone. My boyfriend Shane has been there with me every step of the way. This year would have been so much harder if I didn’t have him there for me. Shane has gone through all this craziness with me and he’s still there for me. I don’t think I would try as hard if he wasn’t there. He makes these troubles so much more worth fighting for. So I want to thank Shane for making this all worth fighting for and for putting up with all this craziness
Walk by faith. Always and forever walk by faith.
One Year Anniversary!!!
Escrito el Feb 2, 2013 8:28pm por Alyssa DoniakWritten by Alyssa:
“For I know the plans I have for you declared the Lord. Plans of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart.”
My mom wrote this verse in the card she gave me when I graduated college. Of course I had heard this quoted many other times, and I thought, what perfectly applicable words to the next journey of my life. Little did I know what God really meant by this, and what He promises us every day through this short verse.
He had a plan on February 3rd, 2012, and He has a plan today as my family and I continue to fight the most difficult battle we have ever come across. God says He will give us a future, He will give us hope, He will give us peace- when we trust in Him and completely turn our hearts over to His loving hands.
The improvements have not been as easy to come by this past six months as they were in the first six months, but they are still present and giving us hope. Kylie’s physical abilities are absolutely amazing. She jogged a 5K in December, and her and me are at the gym every single morning! We do cardio, weights, core, and balance work. She still needs to regain a little of her balance, and her knee causes her pain and gets stiff throughout the day, but other than that she is in great shape.
Kylie’s mental capacities have also improved greatly. She values routine and schedules greatly, and we keep a journal every day of what we do and what she needs to remember to do. Her short-term memory is still not working that well, but she is getting better at forming some longer-term memories of important events. The every day, mundane things don’t stick in her head and she sometimes forgets conversations. I have learned that she learns (and remembers) best by seeing and doing, not by hearing. We are not sure if her memory will ever fully return, but that is not something we spend time worrying about because it is not our plan- it is His! We just figure out ways to make a new normal and ways to work around the challenges we face.
Never have I seen such a strong-minded person face something so terrifying and come out with a more determined nature than before. Kylie motivates every single person around her every day- not only through her words but also through her actions. We all know her brain is still healing, still rewiring, still building new pathways, yet she continues to engage in the world around her the best she can. She makes us laugh every day and her personality is starting to shine through more and more.
I know God still has a lot of healing yet to do, but I can say that I trust in His plan for Kylie, and for my family. In Jeremiah, God promised us His unconditional love, hope, peace and a future, and really, what more could we ask for?
What a year its been!!
Escrito el Jan 31, 2013 9:05pm por Alyssa DoniakWritten by Lori (Kylie's mom)Almost one year ago, we received the phone call that every parent fears, and in the blink of an eye our world was turned upside down. In that moment I had no idea what the future held, but from then on there wasn't a moment I wasn't held."For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear. I will help you".Isaiah 41:13God has a way of providing when you don't even know what you need. He dropped people into our lives, many we didn't know or know well, right at that moment when we needed them most. He surrounded us with love, support, and strength to hold us up when we could no longer stand. He's provided grace, endurance and perseverance to continue the fight, and just enough miracles, victories and joyful moments to give us hope and encouragement to follow His plan, step by step, in His time."For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future". Jeremiah 29:11We have been overwhelmed by the outpouring of love, support, and prayers given to us by family, friends, work, the entire soccer community and people we don't even know. We have read EVERY CaringBridge post and took great comfort in knowing that someone at any moment was on their knees praying for us when maybe we couldn't do it ourselves. We were covered!!So many people reached out to us in so many ways. The events and fundraisers that were planned, the financial contributions, the thoughtful, everyday things that were done for us to make life easier and allow us to concentrate on the job at hand, were just incredible. The cards, notes and emails came at just the right time as did the texts, phone calls and well wishes from people everywhere.We have been constantly surrounded and blessed by family, and friends that we call family, so that we have never felt alone on this journey. Together we have trusted the Lord with all our heart and "Let Go, Let God".When I am afraid, I will trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me? Psalm 56:3-4 We are not scared of tomorrow because God's already there!I am thanking God for giving all of us this opportunity to show our faith and I am honored he chose us, especially Kylie, to rise to the challenge ahead. As I wrote in Ky's senior yearbook - "When you have come to the edge of all light that you know, and are about to drop off into the darkness, FAITH is knowing one of two things will happen. There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly".We will continue to WALK BY FAITH and He will lead us through!On 12/1/11 @ 6:41 AM, (2 months before Kylie's accident), she had text me the following message:Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your heart be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27Who knew how appropriate this would become.