Connor Tait Cruse

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Journal

Tuesday, August 9, 2011 10:07 PM CDT

A couple weeks ago, I participated in a bootcamp competition at my gym. In the parking lot, they set up several weight-lifting stations and an obstacle course to run. The first station was pushing a sled like football players use. They set an additional 90 pounds on the sled and we had to push it for 100 yards on uneven, sloped grass. I took off feeling pretty strong, but it wasn’t long before my legs were feeling pretty exhausted. When I turned around at the 50 yard mark, it was uphill going back and I felt like I had hit a wall. I was thinking to myself “I don’t know if I can make it back. It’s too heavy. It won’t even budge. I’m not strong enough!” I started praying that God would give me the strength to finish the course (because this was just the first station). It reminded me of how I felt when Connor was sick. I would tell God, “I can’t handle this. It’s too much for me to bear. I’m not strong enough to endure any more of this!” About a month ago, I heard this song by Matthew West called “Strong Enough”. It’s exactly how I have felt – and still feel sometimes.

You must think I'm strong
To give me what I'm going through
Well, forgive me
Forgive me if I'm wrong
But this looks like more than I can do
On my own

I know I'm not strong enough to be
everything that I'm supposed to be
I give up
I'm not strong enough
Hands of mercy won't you cover me
Lord right now I'm asking you to be
Strong enough
For the both of us

Well, maybe
Maybe that's the point
To reach the point of giving up
Cause when I'm finally
Finally at rock bottom
Well, that's when I start looking up
And reaching out
Cause I'm broken
Down to nothing
But I'm still holding on to the one thing
You are God
and you are strong
When I am weak

I can do all things
Through Christ who gives me strength
And I don’t have to be
Strong enough

Thank goodness, I don’t have to be strong enough on my own when these trials of life hit. It’s just not possible.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light”. Matthew 11:28-30.

Always believing,
Joy

Hospital Information:

Children's Medical Center
1935 Motor Street
Dallas, Texas75235
214-456-7000

Links:

E-mail Author: christinewarrick@sbcglobal.net (Connor's aunt)

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