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In Memory of Lance Gilbert Kowalski

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY LANCE!


Born March 13, 1990 in Laguna Beach, California
Born into Heaven on October 23, 2003...
after his courageous battle with one of the deadliest forms of pediatric cancer... NEUROBLASTOMA

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Drawing of Baby Lance
Done by Justine
1998
**I have FINALLY posted the website containing my artwork for those of you who were interested in having a drawing done of your child/loved one. The link is at the bottom of this page THANK YOU!! **




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Looking back, on the memory of,
The dance we shared, beneath the stars above,
For a moment, all the world was right,
How could I have known, that you'd ever say goodbye,

And now, I'm glad I didn't know,
The way it all would end, the way it all would go,
Our lives, are better left to chance,
I could have missed the pain,
But I'd have had to miss, the dance.

Holding you, I held everything
For a moment, wasn't I the king.
If I'd only known, how the king would fall.
Well who's to say, you know I might have changed it all

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end, the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance,
I could have missed the pain,
But I'd have had to miss, the dance.

Yes my life, is better left to chance,
I could have missed the pain
But I'd have had to miss, the dance ...

I would not have missed dancing with you my precious Lance for anything in this world...

The Dance.. Garth Brooks



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During Lance's galliant fight against this very deadly pediatric cancer, he never lost his spirit, his sense of humor,
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his
compassion, his love for others, His FAITH in Jesus and God, or his LOVE OF LIFE, even though he was dealt the worst of hands.. I am so proud of you my special Angel Lance..


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I'M CALLING ON AN ANGEL..
written by Justine
almost 24 hrs before Lance left this world

I'm calling on an angel
to take my baby's hand
take him where there is no pain
to your distant land

I'm calling on an angel
to wrap your sacred wings
around my little boy
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who longs to hear you sing

I'm calling on an angel
to lead him into flight
away from all this agony
for so long now, he has been in this fight

Please comfort him and cradle him
and let him feel your peace
he is so very tired now and now he needs to sleep

Im calling on an angel
surround him with your love
and let him be free of this broken body...
and soar just like a dove....
.. to Lance, Love Mom 10/22/03





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I GIVE YOU THIS ONE THOUGHT TO KEEP
I AM WITH YOU STILL, I DO NOT SLEEP
I AM A THOUSAND WINDS THAT BLOW
I AM THE DIAMOND GLINTS ON THE SNOW.
I AM THE SUNLIGHT ON RIPENED GRAIN
I AM THE GENTLE AUTUMN RAIN
WHEN YOU AWAKEN IN THE MORNING'S HUSH
I AM THE SWIFT, UPLIFTING RUSH
OF QUIET BIRDS IN CIRCLED FLIGHT
I AM THE SOFT STARS THAT SHINE AT NIGHT
DO NOT THINK OF ME AS GONE
I AM WITH YOU STILL, IN EACH NEW DAWN.
--Native American Prayer

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Lance made this for me shortly after his diagnosis



HE IS FREE

I knew you had to go away
it was your time you see
but I didn't take the time to face
that you were leaving me

You weren't afraid of dying
for you knew what lay in store
in the blinking of an eye
or the closing of a door.

You shared with us a journey
that only you could see
and helped us understand God's way
as it was meant to be.

Life had so restricted you
your spirit is now free
to go explore the universe
for all eternity -- Author Unknown





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Lance and his mom's final photo..


MY MOM IS A SURVIVOR
My mom is a survivor, or so I've heard it said.
But I hear her crying at night, when all others are in bed.
I watch her lay awake at night and go to hold her hand.
She doesnt know I'm with her to help her understand.
But like the sands on the beach that
never wash away,
I watch over my surviving mom, who thinks
of me each day.
She wears a smile for others.. a smile of disquise.
But through Heaven's door, I see the tears
flowing from her eyes.
My mom tries to cope with death to keep
my memory alive
But anyone who knows her,
knows it is her way to survive.
As I watch over my surviving mom, through
Heaven's open door,
I try to tell her that angels protect me forever more.
But I know that doesn't help her or ease the burden she bears.
So if you get a chance, go visit her and
show her you care,
for no matter what she says, no matter what she feels,
My surviving mom has a broken heart,
that time will never heal!
--Author Unknown..






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Lance's Last Photo

REMEMBER
Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me, in your memory

Remember, when your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
Just remember me

I am the one star that keeps burning, so brightly,
It is the last light, to fade into the rising sun

I'm with you
Whenever you tell, my story

Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me, in your memory
Remember me

I am the one voice in the cold wind, that whispers
And if you listen, you'll hear me call across the sky

As long as I still can reach out, and touch you
Then I will never die

Remember, I'll never leave you
If you will only
Remember me

Remember me...

Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory

Remember, when your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
I live forever
Remember me

Remember me
Remember me... Josh Groban



GOD BLESS AND WATCH OVER ALL OF OUR CHILDREN~~~ THOSE STILL WITH US AND THOSE WHO HAVE GOTTEN THEIR ANGEL WINGS.. HOLD THEM TIGHT LORD, KEEP THEM SAFE, LET THEM FEEL YOUR LOVE

Journal

Thursday, March 13, 2008 11:06 AM CDT

Happy 18th Birthday
to the best son a mother
could ever have!!
I love you and miss you so much Lance!
I just know that you are having the biggest birthday bash ever
because you are celebrating it in heaven with God and Jesus
and all of Angels that are so missed here on earth.
Today, I celebrate you Lance..
I celebrate the gift of being chosen to be your earthly mother.
I celebrate your smile.
I celebrate your kindness.
I celebrate the incredible love you gave to me in your short life here on earth.
I celebrate our friendship.
I celebrate your laughter, I even celebrate your tears.
I celebrate your sense of humor and I celebrate our “belly laughs”
I celebrate your courage.
I celebrate your love and compassion for every living being you encountered.
I celebrate your faith.
I celebrate your love for God and Jesus.
I celebrate the very essence of your soul Lance.
I celebrate you my love.
Happy 18th Birthday Buddy.
I miss you.... forever..

Love, Mom
March 13, 2008

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