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Just a short message to say I am thinking of you this Christmas.


Love

Vikki
www.postpals.co.uk

Dear Mr. Hallmark,

I am writing to you from heaven, and though it must appear,
A rather strange idea, I see everything from here,
I just popped in to visit, your stores to find a card,
A card of love for my parents, as this day for them is hard,
There must be some mistake I thought, every card you can imagine,
except I could not find a card, from a child that lives in heaven,
they are still a parent too, no matter where I reside,
I had to leave, they understand, but oh the tears they cried,
I thought that if I wrote to you, that you would come to know,
that though I live in heaven now, I still love my parents so,
they talk with me, and dreams with me, we still share laughter too,
memories are our way of speaking now, would you see what you can do?
my parents carry me in their heart, their tears they hide from sight,
they plants flowers in my garden, there my living memory dwells,
they writes to other grieving parents, trying to ease there pain as well,
so you see Mr. Hallmark, though I no longer live on earth,
I must find a way, to remind her of her wondrous worth,
they need to be honored, and be remembered too,
just as the children of the earth will do,
thank you Mr. Hallmark, I know you will do your best,
find a way to tell them, how much they mean to me,
until I can do it for myself, when she joins me in eternity.


I know Christmas must be so hard for you although I can't comprehend how difficult it must be.

All my love,

Viks

I was posting this picture of Cassie's site, and thought I would swing by your page to say "hello". how are spaz and snuggles?

Lots of love

Viks

Sweet Angel In Heaven

HAPPY EASTER LOVE WWW.POSTPALS.CO.UK

Thinking of you this Christmas,

Love

Viks

Just stopping in to say hello.

Just stopping by to let you know my thoughts and prayers are with you. God bless and *warm hugs* ><>†<><



http://lightingchildrenslives.org

My website

Im sending all my love to you all,

Love

Viks

Hello, just dropping by to send a hug to you









Love Viks on behalf of everyone at Post Pals

Thinking of you this Easter, Love everyone at Post Pals

im sure you must get bored of hearing it, and i wish i could find something more orginal to say, but i AM thinking of you,






Love viks from BWC and Post Pals

- Sunday, November 23, 2003 9:15 PM CST

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Tricia and Ken: Wow, I have just spent an hour with you reading your journal entries after seeing Ashley's beautiful face in the Spec. My prayers are with you. My brother lost his little girl to cancer 18 years ago. Sara was our daughter's best friend. Eighteen years later, I can still go by the picture of the two of them in our livingroom and cry. Our daughter is now married, and my brother and I are always wondering what Sara would be doing now if she were here. She is in God's loving arms, but as you know, sometimes God's arms seem so very far away...I wrote a story about the girls that was published in Chicken Soup for the Parent's Soul....."I Believe in Angels". Since the day the story took place I have always had an angel pin on. All those years. Our daughter went to Redeemer University, and met her husband there. I was so pleased to know what they had done for you.
Know my prayers are with you on this long hard journey.
Wendy Lowden/Hamilton Ont.
Wendy Lowden <fibrofog@mountaincable.net>
Hamilon, Ont. Canada - Sunday, November 23, 2003 7:35 PM CST

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Tricia and Ken, Family Ijust happen to go through the Sat Newspaper and I came across your daughters beautiful face. I cannot imagine the loss your family has gone through. I have children of my own 3 and 11. This web site was created out of love and I think it's wonderful. I hope that life brings you much happiness to you and your family.
Lisa Levesque <helselsstore@surenet.net>
Dwight, Ont Canada - Sunday, November 23, 2003 8:49 AM CST

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Tricia and Ken
You have said that unless you have experienced the loss of a child, you cannot understand. I would have to agree and I would not want to ever have to empathize. However know that from my limited scope, I send you all of the understanding that I possess. Your year has been tragic at best. Ken I am deeply sorry for the loss of your father.
Celebrate and remember however makes you feel right and never mind anyone else's opinion.

Remembering Ashley and remembering you!

Lori Anderson <landerson3@cogeco.ca>
Burlington, On Canada - Friday, November 21, 2003 9:45 PM CST

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I think a celebration of Ashley's life on both her birthday and her day of entry into Heaven are a wonderful way to rejoice in the life of this beautiful child. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
Rhonda and Bill OConnor <rocon99@aol.com>
Monee, IL - Friday, November 21, 2003 3:09 PM CST

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Hello
A friend referred us to this website and we found yours .. know that we have lost a child as well ... she died in a stillbirth in Oct. 1985 ... Our thoughts are with you ... yes, each anniversary is hard, but you learn to lean on your friends and know that your daughter is in Heaven watching over us, just like ours is !!!
K and M Hodges <kirbrcd1@aol.com>
Tulsa, OK - Friday, November 21, 2003 11:12 AM CST

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Remembering our little friend today and missing her a lot. We have many wonderful memories of Ashley Today has been a quiet day of reflection and remembering for me. What an inspriation Ashley has been to us and so many people whose lives she touched. (Hey Ash, did you get the purple balloon with the big smooch from Brittany? We love you and miss you!!)
Love Brittany and Karen
Karen Scharringa <SCalvinkaren@aol.com>
Waterdown, - Thursday, November 20, 2003 4:02 PM CST

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Dear Ken, Trish, Derek, Danielle and Nathan:
Trish, what a beautiful, touching entry! Your family was so blessed to have such a beautiful daughter and sister. And Ashley was so blessed to have such wonderful parents and siblings. Our thoughts and prayers are with you today as you reflect on the one year anniversary of Ashley's passing, and we will continue to pray for you as you walk through life's journey without Ashley.

God Bless!


Renee Simpson <rsimpson27@cogeco.com>
Dundas, Ont Canada - Thursday, November 20, 2003 3:35 PM CST

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Dear Goud Family:
May God's love shine upon you all today as you celebrate Ashley's life. She was so sweet, and her smile like sunshine. Today we all celebrate the sun shining, as I know it is Ashley looking down on you all.
Thinking of you today and always.
Suzanne Langford
Highland Secondary School
Dundas
Suzanne Langford
Dundas, Ont Canada - Thursday, November 20, 2003 1:58 PM CST

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Tricia,
Good Afternoon!! Today is truly Ashley's day!! My prayers and thoughts are with you as you Celebrate her 1 year Anniversary. Just want you all to know that I am thinking about you. God Bless. Love ya.
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Thursday, November 20, 2003 1:18 PM CST

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Dear Goud Family:
Today is a beautiful, sunny November's day, not like the dull, dreary ones we have had so many of this month. I would like to think it is such a beautiful day, weather wise, to help you get through such a difficult day. So many memories flood back on anniversary days. Please try to remember all the wonderful memories of your special daughter and sister and try to find solace in the fact that Ashley no longer has to endure the world of childhood cancer. My thoughts and prayers are with you. God Bless!
Mary Lou Thomson
Exeter, ON Canada - Thursday, November 20, 2003 11:25 AM CST

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Goud family:
Just writing to let you know that we're thinking of you guys today. What a beautiful entry Trish. We'll miss your gift but look forward to your April entry. Thanks again for keeping us updated. Our thoughts and prayers are with your family daily but especially this week.

Ingrid Louwerse <louwerse@sumpatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON - Thursday, November 20, 2003 9:55 AM CST

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Trish & Ken & Nathan, Danielle & Derek

Letting you all know that I am thinking of you today and many other days and remembering Ashley.
I feel very lucky to have been able to have been one of Ashley's nurses not only at Mac, but Sick Kids & Camp.

Thinking of you all, with fond memories of Ashley,
Stephanie Van Gilst
Stephanie Van Gilst
- Thursday, November 20, 2003 9:42 AM CST

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Tricia, Ken, Derek, Danielle & Nathan
I have shed many tears this morning reading your beautiful journal entry. Ashley was the first thought in my head this morning when I woke up and I will be paying her a brief visit at some point today - it's something I feel I have to do. I still don't know how any family can get through all you have had to deal with - you are truly very special people. Our thoughts and prayers are constantly with you, but especially today and you know Tricia, if there is ever any way I can help, you only have to call.
With precious memories of Ashley, a very special little girl.
Beryl & John
Beryl Collings
Paris, ON Canada - Thursday, November 20, 2003 7:18 AM CST

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I know I don't know you and you don't know me but I know what its like to lose a loved one and unfortunatly at the age of 8 I had to witness it for the first time, I am now 13 and still losing loved ones I no its hard to lose someone close to family, at the age of ten I lost my rolemodel, my friend, my sister, my everything I lost my mother from a rough battle of cancer and shortly after I lost my grandfather in June its hard for me to get one with life because I still wonder why me? I was only 8 when the terrifing word came into my head Death. No one knew what it meant or how it felt to lose someone at that age accept for me. I felt as though I couldn't get on with life and I know that your probaly going through the stages I went through but guys just remember your little baby ashley is Always with you,and you know that you can always go to her for comfort and help to get you through these rough times. I always went from a quote if god brings you to it, he'll bring you through it. Well i've said enough for now thank you and if you would like to e-mail im always here. Bye,
Severina
Severina <baby_gatto_xo@Hotmail.com>
Hamilton, ON Canada - Thursday, November 20, 2003 7:16 AM CST

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I will be thinking of your family and praying you find comfort within eachother's arms on Ashley's angel date. I am also very sorry to here of your recent loss as well. Thinking of you all,

Tracy mom to angel Trinity Luna 5/25/01 to 12/7/02 <seatra@hotmail.com>
Snohomish, WA USA - Wednesday, November 19, 2003 6:44 PM CST

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I am so grateful to our Lord for Heaven and His blessed hope of an eternity with Him and our beloved who have gone Home before us. During this difficult time as you not only suffer the burden of separation from Ken's father but also as Ashley's Homegoing anniversary approaches, we pray that our Lord strengthen and comfort you and that you may know the peace of His everlasting arms in a very special way.
Yolanda Rogers, Mom to Anna, http://www.galatians5.com - <galatians5@truevine.net>
Altamonte Springs, FL USA - Wednesday, November 19, 2003 6:35 PM CST

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Tricia and family,
Good Afternoon! I am so sorry to hear that Ken's Dad passed. My prayers and thoughts are with you. I also wanted to let you know that I was thinking about you all. May God heal your pain. God Bless. Always in my prayers.
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Wednesday, November 19, 2003 1:06 PM CST

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You are in my thoughts and prayers..
Kasey Gunde <topgund@aol.com>
Mount Holly, NC US - Tuesday, November 18, 2003 8:40 PM CST

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I'm so sorry to hear of your loss.
You are in my prayers.
Kim (Austin's relative) <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, Ont Canada - Tuesday, November 18, 2003 6:40 PM CST

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Dear Ken & Trish: My condolences to both you and Ken in the passing of your father and father-in-law. I keep you in my prayers every night. What a difficult week this is for you. It is my prayer that Jesus grant you peace and grace and mercy. We all remember that it was almost a year ago that Jesus took Ashley to be with Him. Now Ken's dad, what a comfort to know that both John and Ashley are together in Heaven praising our Lord and Saviour Jesus. I pray and hope that this is a comfort to you both.With Christian Love Martin and Jodi Mobach and girls
Jodi Mobach <MjMobach@aol.com>
Flamborough, Canada - Tuesday, November 18, 2003 5:54 PM CST

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Ken, my condolences to you and your family. You and Trish are in my thoughts.
Stefanie Upshaw <stefanie@rogers.com>
Scarborough, Ontario Canada - Tuesday, November 18, 2003 9:54 AM CST

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You are in my thoughts and prayers today and for this whole week. Please give Ken my condolences. I pray that you will have the peace and strength to get through this week.

Josie Pynn <josie_pynn@yahoo.com>
- Monday, November 17, 2003 4:00 PM CST

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Just checking in on you.....I know that this week
will be especially hard on you and the family.
It is so hard to believe a year has passed.
Thinking of you, Praying for you and once again
Thanking you for being there for Beth and Glen.
Michele McDonald ( Austin's relative) <McMcDn@cs.com>
Burlington, - Saturday, November 15, 2003 3:10 PM CST

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I can not even begin to imagine the depth of your grief and pain so I wont pretend to. I know my stoic, German grandmother fell apart when my mom died. Its something no one should ever have to go through, losing a child.
I just hope somehow you find some peace and solace in her memories and her love.
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Saturday, November 15, 2003 11:32 AM CST

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I will be praying for Austin & Ken's Dad. The tree story made me smile. What a set of similarities. Take care.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Thursday, November 13, 2003 12:28 AM CST

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Tricia,
Good day! How are you doing? How is Ken's dad doing? Is he any better? My prayers are with you that he will get better. You and your family are in my prayers. God Bless. Always thinking about you all. Love ya.
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Thursday, November 13, 2003 10:22 AM CST

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Just to let you know I'm thinking of you all.
Hugs from Australia
Colleen - Kaitlyns mum

www.caringbridge.org/ne/kaitlyn/
Colleen <ozi_gal@hotmail.com>
Rockingham, WA Australia - Tuesday, November 11, 2003 2:50 AM CST

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Tricia

I'm still silently thinking and praying for you and your family. I'm sure these next few weeks are going to be one of the most difficult times in your life but just remember you're not alone :)

Reach out to your friends when you need to, they will always be there for you.

Martina <martinac32@sympatico.ca>
Hamilton, - Sunday, November 9, 2003 2:58 PM CST

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Tricia,
Hey there! How are you doing? Please know that I hope that Austin and your Dad gets better soon. My prayers are with them. Also, I hope that Danielle has a great time being a Junior Bridesmaid. That should be fun. Always in my thoughts and prayers. God Bless. Love ya.
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Thursday, November 6, 2003 8:56 AM CST

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Sounds like life is busy as usual for you. Just wanted you to know I think of you often. That is a neat "small world" story. Take care. Sending hugs & prayers your way.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Tuesday, November 4, 2003 4:26 PM CST

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Dear Trish,
I said a prayer for you today
And I know God must have heard,
I felt the answer in my heart
Although He spoke no word

I asked that He'd be near you
At the start of each new day,
To grant you peace and blessings,
And friends to share the way

I asked Him to give you lasting memories
Of all things great and small,
But it was for His loving care for you
I prayed for most of all

Trish,
It's been almost a year now that Ashley has left your loving arms and found peace with Jesus. You, Ken and your family are in our prayers.
Doreen
Doreen Gringhuis <dgringh@redeemer.on.ca>
- Sunday, November 2, 2003 10:27 PM CST

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I know our Angels were beautiful up in Heaven last night.. I am sorry for your loss of Ashley, she is a beautiful little girl. I pray for your continued strength. This was our first Halloween without Madison, no mother should ever have to feel this pain. My thoughts are with you, what a nice website. www.madisonsmemorial.homestead.com/index.html
Laura Kevin Nathan and Angel Madison <arizfamof4@cox.net>
Gilbert , Az - Saturday, November 1, 2003 9:59 PM CST

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I AM A MOTHER OF A 2YR OLD GOING THE THE TREATMENTS OF NEUROBLASTOMA. JAYDON WAS DIAGNOSED MAY,2003, JUST 2YRS SHY OF MY BREAST CANCER DIAGNOSIS. MY HEART GOES OUT TO YOU AND ALL THE OTHERS. WE RECEIVED THE DIAGNOSIS OF STAGE 3 HIGH RISK ON MAY 23, 2003. WE ARE PLACING JAYDON TOTALLY IN THE LORD'S HAND. WE ARE SO TORN BY WATCHING THESE SMALL CHILDREN ENDURE SUCH SUFFERING. HE HAS ENDURED 6 ROUNDS OF HIGH DOSE CHEMO AND A 10HR SURGERY THAT WAS SUCCESSFUL IN REMOVING 99% OF HIS MELON SIZED TUMOR. OUR NEXT STEP WILL BE A STEM CELL TRANSPALNT THE LAST OF NOVEMBER.THIS SILENT KILLER HAS JUST MADE ME SO SICK OF THE WORD "CANCER". WE ARE PRAYING FOR A GREAT HEALING. GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY, YOUR DAUGHTER WAS SO BEAUTIFUL.
STEPH MAYFIELD www.caringbridge.org/ky/littlejaydon <sjmayfield@msn.com>
OWENSBORO, KY - Friday, October 31, 2003 11:44 PM CST

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My name is Kathy Giambattista. My father Joe Mateus and Kens father have been friends for years. We just want to tell you that are family thinks about your family all the time. May God bless you and your family in the years to come. Love always the Mateus's
Katherine Giambattista <mgiambattista@sympatico.ca>
Dundas, ont Canada - Wednesday, October 29, 2003 9:23 PM CST

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I haven't posted in a very long time, but I keep you in my prayers daily. I understand your being "tired". Grief is so very tiring. I am now in Phase 2 of my grief -- Phase 1 was the 20 months of having to watch the suffering that cancer placed on the most precious person on earth to me. Phase 2 is the new grief of having to live the rest of my life without him. This new phase is not any easier. I have this fear that because the Good Lord has given me the grace and strength to actually go on living that people will expect me to be all "normal" now. But I don't ever expect to be "normal" again in this life. I don't even know what that word means for me anymore. I'm just holding to the Lord's hand with all my might and taking it one day at a time. I pray that you will continue to hold to the Lord's hand also and find comfort in thinking about the perfectness of Heaven. I'm looking forward to meeting Ashley there someday. I hope it won't be very long.
Love,
Kim
(Romans 8:18)
Kim Rutherford
Knoxville, TN USA - Monday, October 27, 2003 3:24 PM CST

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I want to encourage you to continue the Caring Bridge site, not necessarily with journal updates, but to continue reading your guestbook entries.

You see, the point of the site is NOT just for you to share, but for us to share too. We do that because we care about you, because we CANT understand exactly what you feel, but we can show you how important you are to us.

I post the bird pictures to offer something different, something pleasant, for those moments that you would like to get a lift from all those "tired" moments. My birds make me smile (when I'm not cleaning poop) and I would like to share some smiles with you, or try to, anyway. So if you don't post in your journal, that's quite alright...just PLEASE keep reading the guestbook entries. We care about you.

That said....

This little cutie just dazzled me when I visited the bird nursery..so we've added a FIFTH bird to our flock! I couldn't believe the sizzling blue coming through..and he's only TWO MONTHS old! He's a boy (they did a DNA blood test) and he wobbled onto my finger and said, "Dah bop?" My heart went "pit pat" and the rest is history. I was lucky, because these guys aren't that common. This breeder has only had one other one...five years ago!

We are known for our unusual and original bird names. Well, this little guy is a BLUE HEADED PIONUS. So, meet DASANI. You know, like the BLUE bottled water by Pepsi? And guess what his nickname is? SONIC, (derived from the "sani") another BLUE item, ie, the Sega blue mascot? (think video games) How perfect!

Dasani will have a hot blue/purple head, it's awesome! But what you'd love the most is their smell. They have a fruity smell! Dasani smells like a cherry-orange mix! Well, we just wanted to share our baby news with you. Dasani will be in the nursery for another month or so. Bye for now, more bird pics coming soon.
cathie Feathers 'n Smiles Texas <haldago@earthlink.net>
Houston, - Monday, October 27, 2003 12:02 AM CST

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We too lost our Daughter to Neuroblastoma. We feel your anguish. Kaylen passed September 10, 2003. Just last month. A long battle. A horrible disease. Thanks so very much for sharing your thoughts and feelings. I love your honesty. I am thinking of you. www.caringbridge.org/in/kaylen
Julie May <rilkay@msn.com>
Indianapolis, IN USA - Monday, October 27, 2003 7:24 AM CST

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Trish, I read your journal because I think about you and your family all the time. I continue to pray for all of you and like to hear how YOU are doing. Those of us that read I guess fell like even though we cant actually be there for you maybe reading your journals is how we can be. There to listen if you need to vent. I hope you continue to write because I think that even after the one year mark you are always going to need someone to listen and all of us will be here for you
Josie Pynn ( www.caringbridge.org/canada/ayden ) <josie_pynn@yahoo.com>
Pembroke, ON Canada - Sunday, October 19, 2003 5:48 PM CDT

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As usual Trish, you have written honestly and from your heart! I commend you in your decision to finish the journal next month...I know that this journal has been a way for all of us to connect with your family. It's words so inspiring, it's pictures so touching, it's meaning so beautiful, it's legacy...everlasting! You and your family will always be in the hearts of the people who have logged on to this website, those of us who signed the guestbook, those of us who have followed your family thru your good times and bad. We will support you in any decision you make, and we will continue to think of you and love you!
With much love xoxo
Becka <hawkytrainer@hotmail.com>
Hamitlon, - Tuesday, October 14, 2003 12:17 AM CDT

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Tricia,
Happy Thanksgiving!!! How are you doing? I am glad to see that you wrote how you felt. I just want you to know that I think about you and your family all the time. God Bless. Hope you have a great day. Always in my prayers.
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Tuesday, October 14, 2003 8:51 AM CDT

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I still check Ashley's website as often as I am on Austin's.
It saddens me to hear that your healing time is no where near to being over. We can only imagine
as parents the terrible void you must have, and yet I'm sure there is no way we are even coming
close to imagining the unthinkable.
You are not forgotten, just as Ashley will never be forgotten. I hope your Thanksgiving was a blessed one.
I will miss your updates if you stop putting entries in after November. Take Care.
Michele( Austin's relative)
- Monday, October 13, 2003 9:38 PM CDT

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I just wanted to say that it was a beautiful poem and it made me cry. There's no words for what you've been through except for, I'm so sorry for it.
Love from
Janna <jannahempel87r1@skola.trelleborg.se>
Trelleborg, Sweden - Monday, October 13, 2003 8:06 AM CDT

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Wow! This guestbook IS getting pretty wild!!!

Just checking in to say hi! Haven't heard from you guys in a while! Hoping my package finally made it to you! Also wondering how Danielle made out yesterday! Can't wait to catch up! Talk to you soon!

Lots of Love xoxoxo

Becka <hawkytrainer@hotmail.com>
Hamilton, - Thursday, October 9, 2003 5:54 PM CDT

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Instead of posting my birds' pictures, this time I thought we'd go wild. I hope your kids enjoy them. This is one of 300 pictures I took. Did you know Indochinese tigers LOVE to swim? They do. We watched these two for about an hour at the Houston Zoo. They have a huge area to lounge around in, and a wide "river" to swim in. The Houston Zoo is known for its natural habitats...some are so good, you can't see the animals. We never did spot the leopards (no pun intended.) which were hidden up in their rocky area.

Here's some fact about these tigers for you! They are found in mainly in Thailand, but also Cambodia, China, Malaysia, Myanmar, Jamaica, Virgin Islands (U.S.)
They like forest but also hills and mountainous areas. Their stripes are narrower than the Bengal tiger..but folks OFTEN get these guys mixed up! And guess how much they weigh when they are born? TWO ounces! The mom usually has 2-4 babies and by a year and a half old, they are skilled enough hunters to say, "See ya later!"

Click on the picture to go to the Houston Zoo page ..I've linked you the page where you can click on any of the mammals and see great pictures and facts. (I spent about an hour surfing the page myself! You can also go to birds, fish, reptile pages, etc.) Enjoy!





cathie Feathers 'n Smiles Texas, Hugs and Hope <haldago@earthlink.net>
Houston, - Thursday, October 9, 2003 5:33 PM CDT

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Hey Trisha!

Well i have visited the sitea few timesnow and sincethelast timei signed the guest book you havent put in a new entry! O well... So how are you guys? Fine i hope! Well i better be goin so write me an Email.

Lots Of Love!!!
Kate Flett <shimmering_angel@hotmail.com>
Merritt, B.C Canada - Thursday, October 9, 2003 5:05 PM CDT

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Hi Tricia

I hope everything is going well with you and your family.

I just wanted to let you know, as I had mentioned to you in an email that I was looking into donating blood. Well today I did it. I donated blood for the first time. It sure felt good sitting in that chair knowing I was doing the least I could do.

It was a piece of cake and I plan on becoming a regular donor and have my next appointment already booked. I talked alot about Ashley while I was donating since I was donating in memory of her.

For anyone that has procrastinated (like I have for years) about donating, don't procrastinate anymore, just go and do it. It was my first time donating and I was in and out in less than an hour and the whole process was painless.

Think about the lives you could be saving by donating. It makes it all worth it.

One donation can save the lives of 4 people.

Thank you Tricia for giving me the kick in the butt that I needed to finally donate. I only wish I had done this years ago. :)


Martina Cannon <martinac32@sympatico.ca>
Hamilton, - Wednesday, October 8, 2003 3:57 PM CDT

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I'm Rebecca Reardon's Great Uncle and although we never met, I am aware of the long and hard fight she put up from a very early age and of some of her friends who were fighting their own battles with life destroying diseases. Lives are never lost, they are just relocated....
W.H.(Bill) Smith
- Tuesday, October 7, 2003 8:29 PM CDT

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Thinking of you.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Tuesday, October 7, 2003 12:07 AM CDT

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My yellow nape amazon, Tripoli, thought you'd like a picture of a bird in your guestbook. She is a show off! Did you know she she sings Yankee Doodle, Saints Come Marching In, and Old Mac Donald Had A Farm? She also says 150 different things, such as (wolf whistle) "Wow! You're a ten!" Other things are "You're my baby," and "I love you" and "Whatcha doing?" and "I want outside!" She also tells me, "I want food." She also does MY laugh then says, "You're funny!" The last time I corrected her singing, she told me, "There ya go!" like SHE was teaching ME!

We are working on "Uh oh. I taste like chicken." Aren't I mean? Hee hee hee. Total, I have four birds. Tripoli, Pompeii (a severe macaw) Callao (a Half Moon Conure) and Mirage (a Congo African grey) They keep me busy! We're all thinking about you and your children..we never met Ashley but what an incredibly beautiful child Jesus is babysitting!
(And I KNOW there's lots of birds for her to play with!) I thouoght your other kids would enjoy the bird entries.

(BTW, If anyone who owns birds would like to join our Feathers 'n Smiles group, just click on the picture. We sign guestbooks of these wonderful kids and tell them briefly about our birds. )(You don't have to do pictures.)

cathie Feathers 'n Smiles Texas, Hugs and Hope <haldago@earthlink.net>
Houston, Texas - Tuesday, October 7, 2003 11:38 AM CDT

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Hello Tricia,
Just stopped by to see how you are doing and wanted to say hi. I think of you often, as well as Ashley's beautiful face.
Hugs,
Leah (who is looking forward to more fun in Chicago in June!!)
Leah <imperialbeek@aol.com>
Sauk Rapids, MN USA - Monday, October 6, 2003 7:59 PM CDT

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Just checking in to see if you guys are O.K.? Been missing your entries!
Jamie
Troy, ON - Monday, October 6, 2003 2:47 PM CDT

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Sorry I haven't written in a while. Hoping no news is good news. Take care.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Thursday, October 2, 2003 2:25 PM CDT

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I just looked at Ashley's web page. She is a very beautiful little girl. I can just see her with her little Angel wings up there in Heaven with my Dillon playing. Take care and God Bless you
Lisa Rolins(mom to Angel Dillon) <LisaRolins@aol.com>
Conway, AR USA - Wednesday, October 1, 2003 12:23 AM CDT

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hey aunty trish,
well i added Janine to my msn and we have been talking. the last time i talked to her was on her 19th (a few days ago). she has been giving me lots of updates on you guys and how all of you are doin. i just finished reading your entry and some of the poems ( also the one o the stars page ( the one with all the stars)). I cried to hear the poems they really touched me. i am really sorry to hear about your and kens buisness! that must be a bummer. well i am going to go and hopefully i will recieve and email from you soon, because i email you a few days ago. i will talk to you soon.

love katie

P.S if you see or hear from gramma jackie tell her to email me because i havent got an email from her latly.

katie flett <shimmering_angel@hotmail.com>
merritt, b.c canada - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 5:33 PM CDT

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Just stopping by to see how you are doing. I think of you and Ashley often. It is hard to belive that her and Trinity's angel dates are so close. I am wishing you peace always.
Tracy Rierson mom to angel Trinity Luna <seatra@hotmail.com>
Snohomish, WA USA - Friday, September 19, 2003 11:11 PM CDT

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Hi! Just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you. Thanks for keeping us all updated. Take care. Have the best weekend possible.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Friday, September 19, 2003 2:47 PM CDT

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Hee Hee!! Kristen is right...we are a CRAZY bunch!! It sounds like our mcdonalds/bowling/ice cream concoction really did your guys in!! The day off school?! EXCELLENT!!! Sorry Derek, doesn't sound like you ate enough ice cream!! Hope your presentation went well!! We had such a great time with all of you last nite! The kids were a blast and our "chit-chat" time afterwards with mum and dad was also really fun! Thanx for a fantastic evening!! You Goud's Rock!!!
PS....next time we are definitely packing our sleeping bags and having a slumber party!!
Becka Soyka <hawkytrainer@hotmail.com>
Hamilton, ON - Thursday, September 18, 2003 10:32 PM CDT

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Hi Derek, Nathan and Danielle!
So I just heard about the very special 'date' that you three have coming up with some friends of mine. Man am I jealous! I hope that you guys know what you are in for because Becka, Steve and Emily are pretty crazy when you get them together :) Have a great time - Can't wait to hear all about it. Given any thought to Youth Group? Starts next month and we'd love to have ya'
Kristen, Camp Trillium
- Wednesday, September 17, 2003 4:59 PM CDT

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Tricia,
Hey there! Again I am so sorry to hear that Rebecca lost her fight. Please tell her family that they are in my prayers. Also. I wanted to let you know that you and your family are always in my prayers. God Bless. Hope you have a good day.

Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Tuesday, September 16, 2003 10:11 AM CDT

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Dear Trish and Ken,Danielle, Derek and Nathan,
We are so saddened to read that Rebecca has also lost her earthly battle with cancer. We try to imagine the heavenly rejoicing now that Ashley and Rebecca are together in the arms of Jesus, but sometimes it's hard when we remember the deep sorrow and sadness in their families here.
We are praying for you and Danielle and Rebecca's family that the Lord's strength may be yours every minute of the day. You are all in our thoughts and prayers.
Love,
Annette and Rob Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton, ON Canada - Monday, September 15, 2003 8:10 PM CDT

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They really are two beautiful angels. Thoughts & prayers are with you during this time. Take care.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Monday, September 15, 2003 5:56 PM CDT

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Hi Trish
Just signing in to let you know we still think about you all and Ashley too. We will add Rebecca to our thoughts as well. So many angels!!!!
Kim (Austin's relative) <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, On Canada - Monday, September 15, 2003 4:58 PM CDT

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Hi Beth, Ken, Derek,Danielle and Nathan
It was good to see you despite the sad circumstances. I've been thinking about putting a few thoughts about Rebecca down on paper. Your beautiful journal has inspired me. Take care all! Jessica sends her greetings from Kingston. Your Trillium friend, Martin
Martin Dooley <dooley@mcmaster.ca>
Dundas, - Saturday, September 13, 2003 7:35 PM CDT

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Signing in to let you know that you are very much in my thoughts and prayers. Blessings and lots of love to you. I will continue to check in on you.
Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Friday, September 12, 2003 1:20 PM CDT

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Tricia,
I am so sorry to hear that Rebecca lost her fight. I am sending my prayers and thoughts to you. God Bless. Always in my prayers.
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Friday, September 12, 2003 8:02 AM CDT

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I have just come across your site, all day I have sat reading your journals, thankyou for not only your feelings and love you have shared but your medical information.
My thoughts and heart are with you.
Kaitlyns mum

Colleen <www.caringbridge.org/ne/kaitlyn>
Rockingham, WA Australia - Thursday, September 11, 2003 10:51 PM CDT

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My deepest thoughts and prayers are with ALL of you tonight.
Tricia & Ken, Kelly & Rick, Beth and Glenn......it is true,
only you parents can relate to what this horrible disease
has brought to your families. I can hear giggles from
heaven above,new layers of nailpolish being applied and
the brightest rainbow of all. God Bless Rebecca and Ashley,
and EVERYONE send special prayers to our little Austin.
xoxo Michele McDonald ( Austin's Relative)
- Thursday, September 11, 2003 5:55 PM CDT

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Our prayers and thoughts are with you and your friends. Each child is such a gift. Remember we care...the Pepper girls.
Debbie, Sarah and Jane <deborah.pepper@sympatico.ca>
Lynden, On - Thursday, September 11, 2003 5:29 PM CDT

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Trish

You have been told over and over what a truly special person you are. The unfortunate passing of Rebecca and your unconditional support for her and her family is just another example of your big big heart :-)

I cried when I read your post. Both sad tears for the family and friends that Rebecca has left behind and happy tears knowing that Ashley will now have her best friend with her forever :-)

I did not know Rebecca or her family but please let them know that I will say a prayer for them.

Rebecca and Ashley are both beautiful children. It is comforting to know they are no longer suffering and can enjoy each others company :-)

Thank you so much for your big heart Trish and for always thinking of others. The world needs more people like you :-)

Take Care


Martina Cannon <martinac32@sympatico.ca>
Hamilton Ontario, - Thursday, September 11, 2003 5:24 PM CDT

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Hi Trish & Ken,
Just wanted to say hi and check in. Sounds like you guys enjoyed the camp. Sorry to hear that Rebecca isn't doing well. Well take care, I'll talk to you soon! Say hi to the kids! My thoughts are with you guys.

Stefanie
Stefanie Upshaw <stefanie@rogers.com as of Sept. 17/03>
Scarborough, Ontario Canada - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 4:12 PM CDT

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Ken & Trish,
I just want you to know that I think of you often and my prayers are with you and your family.
Marilyn Jack
- Monday, September 8, 2003 9:42 AM CDT

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Tricia,
Hey there! How was the kids first week back to school? I can not believe that Fall is just around the corner. I hope all is well. Always in my prayers. God Bless. Have a wonderful day!
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Monday, September 8, 2003 8:01 AM CDT

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I am sorry for your loss. I met Ashley once when she was a baby, so i dint know her all that well. Although i didnt really know her it cause me great pain to hear of her passing. I give my sympothy Autny Trish. love you guys all!
katie flett <shimmering_angel@hotmail.com>
merritt, b.c canada - Sunday, September 7, 2003 12:55 AM CDT

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Hi Tricia & Ken: Just a short little note that I thought everyone reading Ashley's website would appreciate. My Brother George went to Dr. Griffoen's (spelling??) clinic last week in Bracebridge - he has set up a new medical office. There on the wall was a collage of pictures, and lo and behold in the center of all the pictures was a beautiful one of our Ashley. George was so emotional seeing her lovely smiling little face - he found it so touching. This is just a further testament as to how Ashley has touched hearts far and wide.

Love to you all - my thoughts and prayers are always with you.
Jackie (Morrow) Upshaw and Bud, of course! <jupshaw@muskoka.com>
Muskoka, - Sunday, September 7, 2003 7:12 AM CDT

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Hi, Just checking in on you guys. Ashelys stone is just beautiful and a wonderful tribute. I know she looks down from heaven with much pride. Take care. God Bless you and keep you.
Treys Aunt Kathy www.caringbridge.org/va/trey
kathy <kathyphilw@hotmail.com>
nc - Saturday, September 6, 2003 6:44 PM CDT

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Hi Trish... its Steve from camp...

Well its the end of the summer and I'm done camp now, back to the real world... ewww. I had to laugh at your entry regarding camp... especially the part about you coming back to the cabin after parents lounge and finding me "all red eyed" HA! The truth is that most of the time I fell asleep on the couch and would wake up when I heard the front door open (I hope Kelley the camp director doesn't read this, lol). And yeah, even though I was usually up at 7am for fishing the next morning I absolutley loved it... I loved hanging out with Nathan and Derek, and Danielle too, although she hung out with Emily more than me (Peshaw!)

It was so great to get to hang out with you guys for the week! Emily and I definitley lucked out when it came to being assigned families!

My only regret is that I never had a chance to meet Ashley... I've seen pictures and wow, what a cutie... and from what I've heard about her she's a special child!

Trish my prayers are with you guys... I know Becca keeps in touch with you and I with her, so hopefully we'll figure something out and get to spend a day together or something!

Until then Gog Bless...

-steve-


Steve Reale (Camp Trillium) <steviereale@hotmail.com>
Hamilton, Ont Canada - Sunday, August 31, 2003 1:08 AM CDT

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Where all do you plan on putting the boxes. Let me know if you want some in my area I would be glad to do it. You are in my thoughts daily. Hope you enjoy the long weekend
Josie <josie_pynn@yahoo.com>
Pembroke, ON - Friday, August 29, 2003 8:36 PM CDT

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Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you. Take care & have the best week possible. Prayers & hugs, Candice
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Monday, August 25, 2003 12:18 AM CDT

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Hi Trisha

I'm happy to hear your presentation went well last week. Can't wait to see those purple ribbon boxes around town. I'll be the first in line to donate :)

I also can't wait for school to start again. My daughter is driving me nuts with her "boredom" LOL

I've said an extra prayer for Austin and Rebecca. I too, was wondering if you could post Rebeccas caringbridge site so that I can leave them a message. I searched this site high and low hoping it would be there but I came up empty handed.

If there's anything I can do to help with the purple ribbon campaign please don't hesitate to ask.

Thinking of your family often.



Martina Cannon <martinac32@sympatico.ca>
Hamilton, Ontario, - Monday, August 25, 2003 9:00 AM CDT

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Tricia,
Hey there! I am glad to had a good time at your Rotary Meeting. Is there any way you can send me Rebecca's website? I would like to send her my prayers and thoughts. Did you have a good time at Austin's birthday party? I'm glad to hear all is well. God Bless. You and your family are in my thoughts always.
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Monday, August 25, 2003 7:34 AM CDT

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Hi Trish...thanx for the wonderful words of praise last week!! i wish i could do so much more for you and your family, but to know that you enjoyed my company at camp really means the world!! i have just finished reading yesterdays entry! i would love to join you at one of danielle's soccer games...if there's any left?! keep me posted!! i hope that she is doing well...we chat often and yesterday we played some games online together!! it was like being on your living room floor just hanging out with a board game!! lots of fun!! i am hoping to arrange a visit soon!! danielle and i need a girls day out!! thanx also for the updates on rebecca and austin...i have just sent austin a birthday wish and have sent my thoughts to rebecca and her family also via their guest books!! you all are an amazing circle of strength for each other! you are lucky families to have found one another!! my thoughts are with you all! much love...xoxoxo
Becka Soyka <hawkytrainer@hotmail.com>
Hamilton, - Sunday, August 24, 2003 11:36 AM CDT

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Hi Guys

Just checking in to see how things are going. Hope you enjoy your day. Thanks for updating :)


Martina Cannon <martinac32@sympatico.ca>
Hamilton , - Saturday, August 23, 2003 10:42 AM CDT

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Hello to you all. Just to let you know you are still very much in our thoughts and prayers. "Bear with one another..." if only we could take some of your pain away, many of us would gladly take it in your place. I had an "internal meltdown" at work awhile back and I thought afterwards "if only I could have the meltdown today and save Trish from it..." Too bad it doesn't work that way! Thanks for the "heart-on-your-sleeve" entries lately (as always) they allow us to pray more effectively for you and to love you all the more!! Take care, press on, hold tight to each other! love Marnie
Marnie Hood <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, - Tuesday, August 19, 2003 8:14 PM CDT

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Hello there. Just stoped in to get your update. Glad to hear you all had such a wonderful time at camp.Ayden is getting results this week so I will be updateing his site soon. Hope everyone is well. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers
Josie Pynn www.caringbridge.org/canada/ayden <josie_pynn@yahoo.com>
Pembroke, On Canada - Monday, August 18, 2003 9:54 PM CDT

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Hi Trish!! I was so excited to tune in today and see a new entry!!! It was wonderful to hear you recount camp stories! Camp Trillium is such a wonderful place, i am so blessed to have had such a great week with you this summer!! I can't wait for pictures! Emily and Steve will be thrilled to read how much you appreciated their presence! You guys lucked out with some pretty wicked counsellors!!! I can't wait until next year! Lots of Love! xoxo
Becka Soyka <hawkytrainer@hotmail.com>
Hamilton, - Monday, August 18, 2003 8:35 AM CDT

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Tricia,
I am glad hear that you all made it through the black out. I bet that was alittle scary. It was also good to hear that the kids and you had fun at Camp. In my prayers always. Have a wonderful day.
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Monday, August 18, 2003 8:20 AM CDT

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Trish....i feel such a connection to your family (even more so since we have shared such a special week together and with all the continued communication!) and it is always such fun to sign onto CaringBridge and read about what the kids have been up to and how the summer is going...but please take your time, write again when you are ready! you have wonderful stories to share and we will always be here to read them...whenever that may be! please know that you are continously in my thoughts and in my heart! I love you all! xoxoxo
Becka Soyka <hawkytrainer@hotmail.com>
Hamilton, - Friday, August 15, 2003 10:11 AM CDT

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Good morning! Hope today your mood has improved. Can't wait to hear all the fun you had on vacation. Take care.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Tuesday, August 12, 2003 1:42 PM CDT

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Tricia,
Good Morning!! Hope you and your family have a wonderful day. God Bless. Always in my prayers.
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Tuesday, August 12, 2003 6:24 AM CDT

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I cant imagine the depth of your pain and suffering, so I wont pretend to know what its like.
But you are in my thoughts & prayers
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Tuesday, August 12, 2003 1:02 AM CDT

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Hey Ken and Tricia,
Thinking of you and yours and sending you a cyber hug! (()) We sang "Jesus Loves Me" in church Sunday morning. I couldn't stop the tears. Hang on to HIM, He knows your pain and knows how to make it bearable. Love you all!

Karen <SCalvinkaren@aol.com>
- Wednesday, August 6, 2003 2:11 PM CDT

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Tricia,
Hey there! How are things going? I was just checking your site to see how your weekend was. I hope all is well. In my prayers always.
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Wednesday, August 6, 2003 6:20 AM CDT

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What a beautiful song. Thankyou for sharing. And thank you for being there for Beth and Austin. I think of you and Ashley each day as I read Austin's web site. I wish I knew the words to say .....please know that you are in our hearts.
Kim & family (Austin's relatives) <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, On Canada - Saturday, August 2, 2003 8:01 AM CDT

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I just wanted to stop by and let you know that I am thinking about you. I care for you and will continue to keep you in my prayers. Blessings to you.
Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Thursday, July 31, 2003 8:50 PM CDT

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Good Morning to Everyone, from the Pepper Girls - Just wanted to pass along a wonderful CD that brings smiles and tears to us. The CD is called Music through Heartsongs, by Billy Gilman, singing to the words and poetry of Mattie JT Stepanek. Another young child struggling with a life threatening disease and like Ashley, making a difference in other people's lives. I know you will love his messages. He is an inspiration. We keep one pinky finger painted gold in rememberance of Ashley and to remind us to make the best of each day. Thanks for letting us share. As always, the Pepper girls, Janie, Sarah and Debbie
Debbie <deborah.pepper@sympatico.ca>
Lynden, Ont - Thursday, July 31, 2003 8:06 AM CDT

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WELL TRISH

ASHLEY HEADSTONE IS BREATH TAKKING. YOU HAVE ONCE AGAIN DONE A ADMAZING WAY TO EXPRESS TO EVERONE YOUR LOVE FOR HER. WELL DONE LIKE.A BEAUTIFUL TRIBUTE TO A BEATIFUL CHILD IS SO WELL SAID


LOTS OF LOVE
SUE
SUE TREMBLETT <STREMB0906@ROGERS.COM>
CAMBRIDGE, ON CANADA - Tuesday, July 29, 2003 7:25 AM CDT

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The pictures are amazing. A beautiful tribute to a beautiful child. It is one of those things that you are taken by the beauty of it & the sadness of it all at once. I can't imagine how hard driving to the college was for you. Remebering you in prayer. The purple ribbon idea is terrific.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Monday, July 28, 2003 4:17 PM CDT

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Tricia,
Hey there! HOw are you doing? I just wanted to say that the pictures of Ashley's headstone are beautiful. Did you have a good time at camp? Hope you all had fun. In my prayers always. God Bless. Your friend
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Monday, July 28, 2003 6:34 AM CDT

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Hi Trish

Of course I don't mind you posting in the journal how Ashley has touched our lives. She's just a special little girl who was sent her to touch the hearts of everyone and I think she accomplished that.

That's so great to know the back of her headstone will never be covered up. It's just too beautiful to cover. I can just imagine how happy you are.

I hope you and your family are enjoying your summer.

Martina
Martina Cannon <martinac32@sympatico.ca>
Hamilton, Ontario, - Friday, July 25, 2003 7:49 PM CDT

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What a beautiful, amazing little soul Ashley was blessed with. You are amazing people and I admire your courage so. I was totally drawn in by her darling little face, and read her entire story, though another chapter has begun for her - a sweet, healthy, chapter that will last for eternity. I will keep you and your family in my prayers, for I just am in awe at the strength and dignity that you have. I have a 4 year old daughter and will cherish her even more, hold her a little longer, read her an extra book... Thank you so much for sharing your angel with us. She was blessed.


Donna Maier <donnamaier@yahoo.com>
Cushing, WI USA - Friday, July 25, 2003 1:59 PM CDT

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Sending you a hug - just because!
Love Beth <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, ON Canada - Thursday, July 24, 2003 10:23 PM CDT

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The dragonfly story was beautiful. I have always loved them and admired the many we have around our house. I will think of Ashley whenever I see them now. You are always in our thoughts and prayers.
Kim & family (Austin's relatives) <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, On Canada - Saturday, July 19, 2003 8:46 AM CDT

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Hi! I am so excited that you signed up for the bone marrow registery. Wouldn't that be so awesome to be a match & save a life. My cousin Alexandra got a match & she is now post transplant by two years. Her little brother Matthew is still seeking a match. I pray everyday one will be found or as he says a big giant miracle will occur & he won't need one. They have a website if you ever want to check it out it is www.alexandmatt.com We (husband Larry & I) actually just got back from visiting them in St. Louis. Sounds like you have lots going on. I hope you have the best time possible at Canada's Wonderland & Camp Trillium. I bet the headstone is just beautiful. The lady that made it will surely treasure the curly haired angel you gave her. At church a few weeks ago we sang a song about angels watching over us. All I could think about was a perfect beautifully purple winged Ashley looking down on me. Thanks for sharing stories with us. I guess I am kind of like you I didn't think I had much to say, but look how long this is :-). Take care. Love & prayers, Candice
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Friday, July 18, 2003 10:17 AM CDT

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The dragonfly story was beautiful. This morning I went back to feed the fish and I have NEVER seen so many dragonflies around our pond. There must have been at least thirty of them. I've never really looked close at them, they really are beautiful. Of course you know I'll never overlook them the same way again :-) You're always in my thoughts!
Love Beth <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, ON - Thursday, July 17, 2003 12:51 AM CDT

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So many times after I read Ashley's journal, I sit and sit looking for some words
of comfort to say and end up not saying anything. I still read your entries religiously
and pray and think of you often.
Your dragonfly story was lovely.
Michele ( Austin's relative)
- Wednesday, July 16, 2003 12:53 AM CDT

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To Ashley's family,
I have been reading your journal. Your Ashley was a beautiful little girl. Your Ashley has touched many peoples hearts. My daughter, Amanda, passed away on Oct.19, 2003 after a cord blood transplant at Duke. Amanda was in remission from AML Leukeima but had some heart complications due to the chemo and radiation. The pain is undescribeable. She like your Ashley, was and still is our sunshine and center of our world.
Tonight at our house, there was the most beautiful rainbow, and I was looking at it and I thought that this can not even compare to the beauty and sweet spirit our children are actually get to experience, (sheltered in the arms of Jesus).
Ashley's headstone sounds absolutely beautiful. It would be wonderful if you could post pictures. We need to go and get a headstone for Amanda, but I haven't been able to do it yet. The light/candle sounds like a wonderful tribute to your daughter. I think of the song "This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine". "Noone or nothing can burn our childrens light that shines within our hearts.
Together Forever.
I pray for your peace and God bless your family, Kathy Massey
- Monday, July 14, 2003 9:38 PM CDT

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Hi A quick note of apology to you and Ken but also to everyone: as soon as I hit "add to guestbook" on my last entry, I had a feeling in my gut that I should not have quoted Bradley so directly, that maybe seeing certain things "in print" is a bit much... I'm sorry. Secondly, if you ever call yourself a "bad mommy" again Trish, I will personnaly come over and smack you!! :-) Thirdly, since Ashley's passing, I have had the overwhelming sence that I am supposed to be praying WITH you (I pray for you daily- This is a WITH you feeling...) so I will call you to see when you have a few spare minutes (ha, ha!) Does anyone else have a similar conviction- coordinating 2 or 3 of us would be even more fun! :-) "Whenever 2 or 3 of you are gathered in his name, I am there." (Sorry, I don't have the ref'c) Take care, love Marnie
Marnie Hood <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, - Tuesday, July 8, 2003 2:10 PM CDT

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Yes, we are still here watching you, seeing how you are coping and I know there are lots of other people out there who still want to know how you are coping, but don't necessarily write down their thoughts. Write as long as you need to purge, it has to be good for you otherwise you would have given up already. Until you want to stop posting, keep it up, your loss is still so new and we are always ready to read! Take care and I hope to bump into you over the summer so that I can give you a hug!
Sharon Byrne <aberdaregirl2003@yahoo.ca>
Dundas, Canada - Tuesday, July 8, 2003 10:05 AM CDT

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Tricia,
I'm glad to hear that you had a safe trip when you went to the Conference. I think it is cool that Ashley's lantern came in. I hope that this week is less crazy for you. Hope all is well for everyone. In my prayers always. God Bless.
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Monday, July 7, 2003 6:45 AM CDT

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Hello theree. So glad to hear that the confrence went well. Maybe I could get around to going sometime. I think it would be really intresting. I continue to think of you every day and pray for you and your family. You are in my thoughts and prays so often sometimes I think I am obsessed with caring for other NB familys. Hope to hear from you soon .
Josie Pynn www.caringbridge.org/canada/ayden <josie_pynn@yahoo.com>
Pembroke, ON Canada - Sunday, July 6, 2003 10:43 AM CDT

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Hello! Just so y'all know I didn't fall off the face of the earth... just kidding. Sorry I haven't signed in for forever- no excuses. Thanks for allowing all of us to stay in touch with your journey; how my heart aches for you guys...
I have a little story to post from Father's Day, a bit belated now but here goes. It was Sarah's BD on Fri Jun13, so by Sunday morn the helium balloons were getting a bit "low". The kids got the idea to take them outside and "release" them... "It won't work now" I said, "they're too pooped." Of course they had to try it anyway... Well doesn't little Bradley figure out that if he ran really fast with it, like launching a kite, that he can get it kinda airborne... "MOM, MOM!!" They're hollering at me. "The orange one's going UP!!" (Bonus: orange is Sarah's favourite colour) Sure enough I guess they found an updraft and we watched it for several minutes until it was out of sight. "That's goin' all the way up to heaven to Ashley" Brad says. "That's very neat that you got one to go up today because it's Father's Day and I'm sure Ashley's Dad and Mom are missing her an extra extra lot today" I said. "Ya" Brad said "missing her 'cause she's dead in heaven now" "No" Sarah said, very kindly but very emphatically, "she's NOT dead in heaven Brad, she's ALIVE forever more. She's singing and dancing with Jesus, Brad!" They smiled a big smile at each other. It's neat to see a child's faith in action. I don't think we will ever have balloons in our house that we won't let at least a couple free in remembrance of our dear Ashley.
Keep your chins up, press on, hold tight to Jesus' hand... He's reaching out for yours. We continue to pray for you daily. lots of love, in Christ, Marnie

Marnie Hood <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown , - Thursday, July 3, 2003 8:58 PM CDT

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Hi Trish & Ken,
I stopped in to see Ashley's headstone at the cemetary the other day and all I can say is "WOW"! It is beautiful! My camera is in for repairs (finally) but when I get it back I'll try to get some good shots for you. I'll let you know if I do.
You are in our thoughts and prayers so often. Thanks for sharing your journey with us!
love jamie
Syd & Jamie Buisman
Flamborough, ON - Thursday, July 3, 2003 4:42 PM CDT

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Tricia,
Hey there! How are you doing? I am sorry to hear that people stole those items off of Ashley's gravesite. I wish you luck in Chicago. Hope you have a safe trip if you go. Have a Blessed day. In my prayers always.

Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Friday, June 27, 2003 7:35 AM CDT

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Tricia

Reading your last entry has brought tears to my eyes. I wish there was something I could do or say to help take away the pain you are feeling.

Just know there are lots of people that are thinking and praying for you and your family.

Keep your faith.


Martina Cannon <martinac32@sympatico.ca>
Hamilton, Ont - Wednesday, June 25, 2003 11:05 PM CDT

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Just checking in to say hi & let you know you are in my thoughts.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Tuesday, June 24, 2003 5:22 PM CDT

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Just wanted you to know that I am thinknig about you and praying for you as always. Blessings to you.
Khalita My Caringbridge site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Sunday, June 22, 2003 5:55 PM CDT

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Tricia and family, I just wanted to let you know that I have been thinking of you. I hope your doing well and enjoying your new home by now. Our son Seth is about to graduate preschool and I am glad because I am really needing some time with him. I wish you well always!
Hugs, Tracy mom to angel Trinity Luna
Tracy Rierson <seatra@hotmail.com>
Monroe, Wa USA - Thursday, June 19, 2003 10:25 PM CDT

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Glad you made it home safely. Bummer about the windshield. At least the rock didn't cause you to wreck. PTL. Take care.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Thursday, June 19, 2003 5:54 PM CDT

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I have been busy reading your journal entries. I'm part way through them and my heart aches for you. You are both exceptional parents. I cannot understand why children get cancer. Ashley certainly sounds like she brought many wonderful moments into your lives. Why is it that children that have the misfortune of being sick with some horrible disease are usually extremely happy? Please accept my heartfelt sympathy in the loss of your precious daughter. She was an angel on earth. We take our health for granted, but shouldn't. All my problems are absolutely nothing compared to the cancer treatments you have experienced being the parent of a child with cancer. May God continue to watch over you and your farmily and give you his blessings.
Mary Lou Thomson <mlt.csi@hay.net>
Exeter, Ontario Canada - Thursday, June 19, 2003 12:40 AM CDT

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Tricia,
I am happy to hear you had a safe trip home. Please tell Ken that I wish him Happy Father's Day! I can not beleive that it is the middle of June. I hope you have a great day! In my prayers always. God Bless.
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Monday, June 16, 2003 7:10 AM CDT

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You truly are a wonderful person. I feel blessed to have found your site. The bear story was so sweet. What a caring man. Take care. No speeding tickets on the way home :-)!
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Sunday, June 15, 2003 1:26 PM CDT

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Trish you are such a beautiful person and such a great friend to be there for Austin and Beth. You are so thoughtful in the things you do and say to people. I am so glad to have met you first online and then in person. Even on your down days you are an inspiration to me. Hope all is well with the family. Keeping you in my prayers
Josie Pynn www.caringbridge.org/canada/ayden <josie_pynn@yahoo.com>
Pembroke, ON Canada - Friday, June 13, 2003 10:44 PM CDT

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OK, first the angel, and now the guestbook entry. You're trying really hard to make me cry, aren't you??? Ditto to everything you said and more. Thank YOU for being here for Austin and I, it means more than the world to us. You have turned a pretty boring week into one that is full of good memories. You are one of the few people Austin has let into his "personal" space, well now you're stuck - you've seen his goofy side, you'll probably be wondering where that quiet little boy went to! It means alot to me that you've finally met the "real" deal!! See, he knows how special you are too :-)
Love Beth (& Austin)
The Ronald McDonald House, Philadelphia - Friday, June 13, 2003 9:31 PM CDT

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Tricia,
I am glad to hear you made it to Philly safe. I hope that you haven't had much bad weather up there. I know here it has been bad thunderstorms. Have a safe trip home. God Bless. Always in my prayers.
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Friday, June 13, 2003 8:44 AM CDT

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Hi Tricia
I too wanted to thank you for always being there for Beth. She is lucky to have such a good friend. Whenever I check Austin's site I always think of Ashley and often read your postings although I don't always sign the guestbook. Ashley will always be in our hearts.
Kim Marshall (Beth's cousin) <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, On Canada - Friday, June 13, 2003 8:13 AM CDT

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Hi tricia and ken!!!
I am so glad that everything worked out the way that you wanted at the studio. Danielle and Kate-lynn danced awesome! I was driving home tonight and a song came on the radio that always makes me think of you and Ashley. It is the song that I would dance to in memory of Ashley if the chance ever came up. It's a good "have a cry" song. I have those days sometimes when I just want to be alone and cry so I am sure that you do as well. You may have heard this song but if you haven't than you should listen to it when you are having one of those days. It is called "This Womans Work". A bunch of different people sing it but the version I have is by "Maxwell". If you can't find it than ask me about it at the studio and I will burn it for you.
I think about Ashley all the time. I still have her purple ribbon pinned up in my car from the last time I saw her in the hospital.
Wishing your family well!!
Love Corrine
P.S Thank you sooo much for the gift you gave me at the recital, I will really enjoy it(I might even take Anthony!)
Corrine Davis <CDavis6@cogeco.ca>
Ancaster, On Canada - Friday, June 13, 2003 0:39 AM CDT

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Tricia

Wishing you a safe and uneventful drive to Philadelphia. I will say a prayer for little Austin and his family. It doesn't surprise me that you would take time out of your life to help someone else in need.

I'm sure Philadelphia will bring back many memories. Some of which will make you smile and some of which will make you cry but I'm sure Ashley will be there with you :-)

Take care and check in and let us know how little Austin is doing if you can.


Martina Cannon <martinac32@sympatico.ca>
Hamilton, Ontario, - Friday, June 6, 2003 9:18 PM CDT

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Oh my gosh you weren't kidding about a long entry. I loved it. Journaling is such a great thing it is so helpful looking back when you are trying to remember what went on. An uneventful week planned, I don't think you guys have those :-) The dance studio sounds like they out did themselves. What a wonderful tribute to a special little girl. Bumma (as my little cousin Matt www.alexandmatt.com) say on the headstone. That is so frusturating. That is too cool on the two license plates. I guess as you said great minds do think alike. I enjoy hearing all that is going on with you & your family. I'm happy your birthday was better than expected. Take care. Have the best weekend possible. Sending love & prayers your way.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Friday, June 6, 2003 10:30 AM CDT

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Trish,
I just want to thank you for being there for Beth
and Austin. I'm sure Phil. will bring back many
memories......good and bad for you. Beth is very
lucky to have found a friend in you.

Michele McDonald ( Beth's Relative)
- Tuesday, June 3, 2003 7:01 PM CDT

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Trisha,
I am so glad that you had a good Birthday. Also, I am happy to hear the Danielle's Dance recital went really good. Do you have a link to the newspaper that published your "COOL PLATES"? I would like to see them. In my prayers always. God Bless.
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Tuesday, June 3, 2003 7:35 AM CDT

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Good Morning
We really enjoyed the recital on Sunday. The girls did an excellent job. We can't figure out how Danielle remembers all those different dance numbers. When you start dancing when you are 3 probably helps though.
We hope everything goes well in Philadelphia. Nice that you can be there for Beth and Austin. They continue to be in our prayers as well as your family also.

Love Bugs and Lin
- Tuesday, June 3, 2003 6:20 AM CDT

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Hi Ken and Trish and family,
Great pix. in the Review with the COOL license plate!!
Praying for you all daily,

Annette and Robert, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton, ON Canada - Sunday, June 1, 2003 11:37 AM CDT

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Hi Ken, Trish and family.
Thanks for sharing the Hallowe'en photos -- truly a gold mine -- and what a Princess!
Remembering you in our thoughts and prayers!

Ken and Gwen Bosveld <kbosveld@cogeco.ca>
Waterdown, On Canada - Saturday, May 31, 2003 4:15 PM CDT

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Hey Goud family!!! Kate-lynn told me about the tree planting for Ashley at the dance studio. Kate-lynn and Danielle showed me their dance. It is really good. I really enjoyed the halloween pictures of Ashley they are sooo cute!!!!!:-)! You're in my prayers,
Sarah Weemhoff
Sarah Weemhoff <roxy_chick_@hotmail.com>
Carlisle, Ont Canada - Friday, May 30, 2003 7:58 PM CDT

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Still praying for you every day. I know that this does not take the pain away, but maybe it helps to know that someone cares. (2 Thessalonians 3:16)
Kim Rutherford <kimruth1@utk.edu>
Knoxville, TN USA - Wednesday, May 28, 2003 8:06 AM CDT

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What a great find the camera was! Thanks for posting the photos. What a pretty princess. Trusting your birthday went well & the cold is gone. Take care. Love & prayers being sent your way.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Tuesday, May 27, 2003 10:08 AM CDT

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Tricia,
I hope you and Kathy have a Great Party on Saturday. Happy Birthday!! I want to wish Danielle good luck for her dance recital aswell. Hope you have a Blessed Day. In my prayers always. I'll be thinking of you tomorrow. Have fun.
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Friday, May 23, 2003 10:09 AM CDT

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Happy Birthday Tricia!
I hope that today has been a good day for you. You and Ken are in my heart always. I know that you have been asking for favorite stories of Ashley so here is one that will live in my heart forever.
I'm sure you remember this story Tricia, but for all those that don't, It was Ashley's first day in kindergarten, and as most parents do they have to pack almost everything except the kitchen sink. And there was Ashley waiting for the bus, ever so patiently, and then it was time to cross the road and climb on the bus, well try as she might, she had such a hard time getting up those stairs with that heavily loaded pack, Nathan tried to help shove her up those stairs. I will never forget the look she gave Nathan that said "back off, I can do this by myself" The look of determination on that girls face will live in my heart forever. Right then and there she became my hero. She kept that same strenghth going through everything she had to deal will, and I will remember and love her always!
I hope that brought a smile to your face on your birthday, love and think of you always,
Carol ann
Carolann <Carzwa@yahoo.com>
Lynden, - Thursday, May 22, 2003 9:41 PM CDT

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Dear Trish, Ken, Derek, Danielle, and Nathan,
I hope that your birthday has had some happy moments, Trish. May God continue to be your strength.
What a gift to find the camera with some great pix., too!
I wish Danielle and Katelyn well with their dancing on Sat. I will be praying for you then, for strength and courage as you go through Saturday.
You are all still in our prayers.
Love,
Annette and Robert, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton, ON Canada - Thursday, May 22, 2003 8:58 PM CDT

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What a treasure to find those hidden pictures in that
camera! My heart still aches for you as a Mom.
My thoughts and prayers are very focused on Beth and
Austins' family right now, but still have had you and
your family in my thoughts and prayers as well.
I still read Ashley's journal daily......
God is Watching....
Michele ( Austin's relative)
Burlington, - Wednesday, May 21, 2003 6:11 PM CDT

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Hi everyone!
It's been some time since I last talked to you - I just wanted you to know you are always in my thoughts...especially these past few days. All the best for as happy a day as you can muster on the 22nd Trish. Hope to see you soon. Love to all.
Char, Dave, Brady and Carson van Tol <cvantol@sheridannurseries.com>
Rockwood, ON Canada - Wednesday, May 21, 2003 12:55 AM CDT

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Hello there, Checking in as usual. I really enjoyed meeting you guys too.
Josie Pynn <josie_pynn@yahoo.com>
Pembroke, On Canada - Tuesday, May 20, 2003 7:10 PM CDT

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I had never really met ashley. She went to My school. I had many friends who were closly related or just knew her well. Since I didnt know her I didnt know their true pain, but I felt bad for them and hope your family makes it through.
Anonomous
Dundas, ON Canada - Friday, May 16, 2003 3:08 PM CDT

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Loved the new photos. I always like when new ones are posted. I liked the one with all the kids so I could see what they all look like. What a nice looking group! Great job on dance & baseball. Hopefully a win for soccer next time. Sounds like you are busy, busy, busy. I bet the new license plate looks perfect. Have a good weekend. Take care.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Friday, May 16, 2003 12:11 AM CDT

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Tricia

Once again, thank-you for sharing your personal journey with all of us.

Your family is stunning. Good luck to the girls with their dance recital.

Can't wait to spot the Ash mobile on the road :-)




Martina Cannon <martinac32@sympatico.ca>
Hamilton, Ontario, - Thursday, May 15, 2003 2:19 PM CDT

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You are more than welcome dearest. I'll continue to keep all of you in my thoughts and prayers as you try your best to get through the most difficult time in your lives to date. Blessings to you!
Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Tuesday, May 13, 2003 11:06 AM CDT

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How sweet of them to make you breakfast. They must of learned how to make those eggs from their Mom. How I wish the day could have been sadness free for you. Take care. Sending love & prayers your way.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Tuesday, May 13, 2003 10:24 AM CDT

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Dear Tricia,
Happy Mother's Day.I hope you are doing O.K.And Try to have a good day.
love brianna <bumblebee8181@aol.com>
jessup(pa), - Sunday, May 11, 2003 3:36 PM CDT

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Dear Mommy,

I wish you a Happy Mommies’ Day
from my new home up above
A wish that's really special for you
That’s filled with all my love

I love both you and Daddy
and miss you so much too
Even when it’s dark at night
I’ll still watch over you

I know it's the first Mommies’ Day
you've had since I've been gone
I talk each night to let you know
my love still carries on

I know you’re sad I’m not with you there
To share your special day
But Mommy I’ll send you signs of love
In my very own special way

I'll help you in the garden
We’ll plant lots of flowers too
And when the flowers shine so bright
I'll look at them with you

God will keep you dearest mommy,
He'll help you through your pain.
And one day I know for sure
we’ll be together once again.

Please close your eyes now Mommy
And think of you and me
I know you feel me in your heart
And that’s where I’ll always be.

I love you Mommy





Martina Cannon <martinac32@sympatico.ca>
Hamilton, Ontario, - Sunday, May 11, 2003 12:23 AM CDT

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Good Morning Tricia

We can't stop thinking about you this morning. You have lost your mom and Ashley in one year. Today will be difficult with it being Mothers Day. You are in our thoughts and prayers always but especially today.
Love Bugs and Lin
- Sunday, May 11, 2003 7:56 AM CDT

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Hi Tricia
Just wanted to stop by and wish you a Happy Mothers Day. I know Ashley is looking down and reflecting on what a great Mother you are and how wonderfully strong you were for her. She most be sooo proud!!!! Love Treys Aunt Kathy www.caringbridge.org/va/trey
kw <kathyphilw@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, May 11, 2003 6:10 AM CDT

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I'm looking forward to seeing the "coolest" license plate ever!!
Thanks for the wonderful updates. We continue to pray for each of you. God bless you.
love Annette S.

Annette and Robert, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton, ON Canada - Thursday, May 8, 2003 8:10 PM CDT

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Thanks again for a great entry. You amaze me and you inspire me. Your kids are turning out great because the apple doesn't fall far from the tree... or you build the foundation on The Rock and it will weather the storm.. or something like that... you're doing a great job. God Bless. We continue to uphold you in our prayers. Love in Christ, Marnie
Marnie Hood <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, Ontario, - Thursday, May 8, 2003 8:02 PM CDT

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Hi Goud family
you might not remember me but I am derek's friend.I feel bad for you. Even I cried a bit at the funeral.So stay strong.

Nathan DeCarlo <nategreat38@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, May 7, 2003 8:22 PM CDT

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Mother's Day is right around the corner and I know your going to be missing your Ashley. I wish I had some words of wisdom for you, but I too will be struggling with that day. I am actually hoping to totally avoid the day myself. I know that our angels are with us but not being able to touch them and give them the love and kisses that we as mothers love to do will make it very difficult. I wish you some peace this Mother's Day and every Mother's Day following.

Tracy Rierson mom to angel Trinity Luna <seatra@hotmail.com>
Monroe, WA USA - Wednesday, May 7, 2003 2:42 PM CDT

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Hi Trisha, I just read your last entry and I have a memory of Ashley that I want to share with you. It was the first time that I met Ashley in fact. We were at the soccer, Joseph was on Nathan's team. My daughter Katie is a year older that Ashely, but they are close enough in age to be able to play good together. I remember this little girl walking around, smiling and tenatively coming up to us to see what goodies we had. You see, Katie had her colouring book and pens of lots of different colours! Ashley was definitely interested in what we had, but was a little too shy to ask if she could join in! Anyhow, I decided that I would make the first move and I asked her if she wanted to play with Katie and she nodded and looked at me and came forward. You were not there Tricia, Ken was there as he was the coach that year. I talked to Ashley and I couldn't find out who she belonged to! I didn't know she was "coach Ken's" so I asked her where her mom was. She said her mom was not there, so I asked who she was with and she said "my Dad". I said. "who's your dad". I felt like I was interrogating her! Anyhow, that was the first time I saw her and she was such a sweet child and at that point, I sort of fell for her beautiful brown eyes and her toothless smile. She was adorable, a cutie and so polite! I saw her lots of times after that and I never knew she was sick until a year or so later when you told me after we started chatting on the soccer field. So that is how I met Ashley and that is how I remember her, adorable, sweet and very pretty. It's nice to read your entries and for you to know that we are all still "with you". Take care, Sharon
Sharon Byrne <aberdaregirl2003@yahoo.ca>
Dundas, Canada - Tuesday, May 6, 2003 12:12 AM CDT

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I think the plate is cool! I will be keeping you and all the mothers in prayer this weekend.
Shelly Hammett <Shammett2003@yahoo.com>
Louisville, KY - Tuesday, May 6, 2003 7:07 AM CDT

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Tricia,
I hope you have a Happy Mother's Day! I hope Danielle has fun this weekend. In my prayers always. God Bless and Have a Blessed day!
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Tuesday, May 6, 2003 7:04 AM CDT

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Tricia,
The new pictures on the site are great! First, your grandma R. looks fabulous!!!!!!!!! Second, I cant tell you how much Ashley looks like you. She certainly looks exactly like you! The picture of the kids on the summer vacation is great- they are all so cute!!! Sending my love, support and prayers to you, Ken and the kids. Ashley is with you each and everyday, she is soooooo alive and you keep her memories so very alive! I love listening in on your stories of Ashely. Thank you for postings on her site. THey are just beautiful. God bless.

Love,
Shannon
Shannon <www.caringbridg.org/page/johnrussell>
Eden Prairie, MN - Sunday, May 4, 2003 7:34 PM CDT

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Tricia and Family

I'm so happy to hear you had a good time last weekend.

The new pictures are excellent. Your grandma Rousseau looks FANTASTIC for 100 years old.

I'm also sad to hear it was tough for you without Ashley even though I'm sure she was there with you. Again, I didn't know Ashley personally but something about her touched my heart dearly.

I will continue to pray for you and your family and ask that God guide you through your hard times.


Martina Cannon <MartinaC32@sympatico.ca>
Hamilton, Ontario, - Sunday, May 4, 2003 4:30 PM CDT

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Hi Trisia,
Its good to see you post. I check on you everyday. Ashley touched my heart the very first time I saw her sweet little face and your storys and courage continue to touch my heart. Ashley is my favorite little angel to talk to. I often ask her to be by Treys side in some of the tough times. I know she knows exaxtly what hes going through in a way none of us do. Take care. Love, Treys Aunt Kathy
Kathy Whitt <kathyphilw@hotmail.com>
Garner, nc - Saturday, May 3, 2003 6:36 AM CDT

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DEAR ASHLEY'S PARENTS
SO HOW ARE YOU? EVERY TIME I READ ASHLEY'S PAGE I CRY.I AM REALLY SORRY.YOU PROBELY DON'T KNOW ME BUT I AM 13 AND MY NAME IS BRIANNA.AND MY FRIEND HAS LUEKEMIA AND I SAW HER PAGE AND OTHER'S BUT I THINK YOUR'S TOUCHED ME THE MOST.YOU DAUGHER IS BEAUTIFUL:) I HOPE YOU GUYS ARE DOING GOOD.
BRIANNA
JESSUP(SCRANTON), PA US - Thursday, May 1, 2003 4:25 PM CDT

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Thanks for sharing with us. Grandma Rousseau does look terrific. I often just read your journal with such mixed emotions. I can not fathom the roller coaster of emotions that you feel. I love the new pictures. What a doll! Sending thoughts & prayers to you & your family. Your family is never far from my mind. Take care.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Thursday, May 1, 2003 1:57 PM CDT

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I am glad you had a good weekend too. Please keep sharing.

((((((Ashley's Family))))))
Shelly Hammett <Shammett2003@yahoo.com>
Louisville, KY - Thursday, May 1, 2003 12:13 AM CDT

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I am so happy to hear that you had a good weekend with your Grandma. The pictures are so pretty. In my prayers daily. God Bless.
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Thursday, May 1, 2003 7:34 AM CDT

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Quick Hi! (Sneaking on at work...) Belated thanks for including us in the celebration of Ashley' BD. It is a priviledge to have been part of her life and a priviledge to share that evening with you. Thanks so much for the pins, they are treasured. Thanks SO SO much for the school pic of Ashley - Sarah very proudly brought it out of her school bag, did a quick surveylance of the house, and decided the best spot for it is on the kitchen windowsill. "So we can see it every single day and so the light can make the flower look beautiful" ("almost as beautiful as Ashley!" mom adds) Thanks again, it means alot to us. Thanks also for sharing the pics of the grammas - especially "the big hug". That is GREAT!! Gotta run... Love Marnie

Marnie Hood <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, - Wednesday, April 30, 2003 1:27 PM CDT

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I am glad you are going to have a good weekend. I'm sure Grandma Rousseau will enjoy having you all around her on her Special day! Even though I am only in my 20's, I can't image being 100 years old. I think you and your family really have something to Celebrate. Always in my prayers. God bless the family.
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Friday, April 25, 2003 7:25 AM CDT

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Hi! You did wonderful on posting the photos. What great pictures & memories they are. Glad you made it through Easter. I prayed for you a lot that day. Have the best time possible at your Grandma Rousseau's birthday party. 100 years what an accomplishment. Take care.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Thursday, April 24, 2003 2:19 PM CDT

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Good Morning
Love the new pictures that you have posted. We just wanted to tell you to have a great weekend in North Bay. Say hi to Jackie for us.

Love Bugs and Lin
- Thursday, April 24, 2003 6:58 AM CDT

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Hello. I know that it must be hard to try to celebrate Easter without Ashley and on top of it being exactly 5 months since she has been gone. I hope that your family can find some peace and try to enjoy the holiday knowing that Ashley is pain-free in heaven with all her angel friends.
Sarah <SaharaDuck@aol.com>
- Sunday, April 20, 2003 10:41 PM CDT

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Hello there. I thought I would stop by and wish you and your family a happy easter. I know it must be hard celebrating without Ashley but if we celebrate what Easter is really about maybe God will give you some peace to get through all the Easter bunny stuff without hurting too much

Josie <josie_pynn@yahoo.com>
Pembroke, Canada - Saturday, April 19, 2003 8:45 PM CDT

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I am not sure what to say, as I dont want to pretend to even begin to imagine what you are going through. But I wanted to drop by and extend our condolences and wishes that Ashley is pain free and at peace, looking over you all.
Kaye is amazing, I love her stuff, and bought one of her books that was just recently published. She is so incredibly talented in my opinion. She let me post some of her poems on my son's site and everyone loved them.

Chris ~ Gooch's Site


- Saturday, April 19, 2003 4:31 PM CDT

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Hi Trisia,
Just wanted to wish your family a very happy Easter! I know it will be difficult with out Ashley but just keep in mind how grand the Easter celebration must be in Heaven!!! Love, Treys Aunt Kathy
Kathy Whitt <kathyphilw@hotmail.com>
- Saturday, April 19, 2003 5:43 AM CDT

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Ashley

I have never written to you before and you are probably wondering who I am. I know you don't know me but I wanted to wish you a very Happy Easter with all the other angels.

I know you probably don't understand how so many people can care so much about you without even knowing you but we do :-)

Please keep watching over your family. You must be so proud of them as they are so proud of you.

Hoppy Easter Pretty Angel.



Martina Cannon <martinac32@sympatico.ca>
Hamilton, Ontario, - Friday, April 18, 2003 8:04 PM CDT

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hey ashley it is a little later but have a great birthday and i hope god is taking get care of you
TO Ashley`s parents
i feel so sad for you!!:(
Jenna Johnston
Dundas, ont - Friday, April 18, 2003 9:34 AM CDT

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Dear Trish and Ken, Derek, Danielle and Nathan,
We are praying that this Easter may be special for you as you reflect on the love of our resurrected Lord and Savior. It is because we believe that He is alive that we have comfort in knowing that Ashley is with Jesus.
May you feel some comfort this weekend and may God continue to give you His strength, one minute at a time.
P.S The grade one students and I love the pictures of Ashley that you gave us.Thank you so much.
Love, Annette

Annette and Robert, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders
Rockton, ON Canada - Thursday, April 17, 2003 9:47 PM CDT

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I visit your site often to keep myself inspired and to somehow reinforce the power and priviledge of being a parent. I can only speak for motherhood, and reading your journal entries helps the world of motherhood to share your grief and growth. Recently, I was profoundly moved by a young man with MS whose name is Mattie Stepanek. A young man destined to have a short life and whose goal is to be a peacemaker. He has joined with another young man called Billy Gilman and together they have created a CD called Heartsongs. Beautiful music, beautiful poetry, profound message. Please take a moment and listen to his words. He has lost his siblings to this disease and his mother is also fighting for his life. It made me think of your journal and how taking your journal and transferring it into a book would not only help thousands of parents cope, but the funding would make huge steps towards eliminating these killer diseases. I have not lost a child but your journal helps me to make the best of my life each and every day. I always tell my girls to surround themselves with excellence, because garbage in, garbage out. So, on this windy, cold night, remember that there are thousands of us who pray for the children of the world every day. I love your ribbon campaign idea, my Jane's life changed the day she met Ashley. Who knows what journey lies ahead for her because of the gift Ashley gave her. We send our love as usual, from the Pepper Girls
Debbie Pepper <deborah.pepper@sympatico.ca>
Lynden, - Thursday, April 17, 2003 9:16 PM CDT

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Hey Ash!
We miss you tons! Today is the day 21 years ago that my little 2 year old brother Jason became an angel. We miss him tons too. Can you give him an angel hug and kiss for me? Thanks babe!
Love you forever
Karen
Karen Scharringa <SCalvinkaren@aol.com>
Waterdown, - Tuesday, April 15, 2003 7:24 AM CDT

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My prayers are with you. What a beautiful child - what an ugly disease!! Please find comfort in knowing others care! Please take care of you!
Love,
Christi's Mommy (NB - IV - refractory disease)
Angela thomas <www.ChristiThomas.com>
Tiffin, OH USA - Sunday, April 13, 2003 10:12 PM CDT

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DEAR ASHLEY'S PARENTS,
I READ YOU PAGE AND IT MADE ME CRY SO MUCH.I AM SO SORRY ABOUT YOUR LOSS.I AM 13 YEARS OLD AND I WISH YOU AND YOUR FAMILY THE BEST OF LUCK RECOVERING.MY BEST FIREND HAD LUEKEMIA AND I KNOW JUST HOW SAD I WAS AND I CAN'T EVEN IMAGIN HOW HARD IT IS FOR YOU.I AM SO SORRY.HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ASHLEY:) :) AND I WISH YOU THE BEST OF LUCK
BRIANNA <BUMBLEBEE8181@AOL.COM>
SCRANTON,JESSUP, PA - Sunday, April 13, 2003 7:20 PM CDT

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Ashley's parents,
I am sorry about the "cat" sentence, I got your website mixed up with another caringbridge friend. May God continue to send comfort to your family and God bless you.
God bless your family, Kathy Massey
- Friday, April 11, 2003 6:20 PM CDT

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Ashley's parents,
I came across your website today and it is so obvious how much you love your daughter. We lost our only child, Amanda,. She passed away from heart complicatons after a cord blood transplant at Duke for AML Leukeima. We were almost 100 days out, and things were going good and then suddenly she ran into complications.
I am so thankful that the love for our children never goes away. It is for eternity and always. Sometimes I just say things to Amanda, from my heart to hers. I beleive that she hears. There is a song out now that " Diamond Rio" sings, called "I believe" and it talks about how when you die, your life goes on and it doesn't end when your gone. I read on your site how you were taking cats to other children. I admire you for passing love on to other children and making them smile. Your daughter's picture is very precious and I'm sure Ashley is very proud of her parents.
Our daughter too had alot of courage, and we too try to take it day by day, and show some of that same courage.
May God send comfort to your family.
From one mother to another, I just wanted to share this with you. Kathy Massey www.caringbridge.org/nc/amanda
- Friday, April 11, 2003 6:03 PM CDT

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Happy Belated Birthday Ashley...I know your mommy and daddy miss you soo much.. Have fun in Heaven witha all of your friends...
Jodie Summers..... http://www.caringbridge.org/ca/lindsayjohnson <jsummers1@bak.rr.com>
Arvin, California United States of America..."Pray for Our Troops" - Thursday, April 10, 2003 5:42 PM CDT

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You are truly examples to live by. I am hoping & praying the weather allowed many to come to Ashley's birthday party. I wish there was some words I could come up with to express my thoughts, but am having a hard time figuring them out. Just know prayers are being sent your way. I bet the kids at school will be so excited to get your photo Ahsley. What a treasure that will be for them. Take care. I bet Ashley is having a heavenly party.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Thursday, April 10, 2003 1:39 PM CDT

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Dear Ken and Tricia
Once again, Janine said it all with the beautiful poem she wrote. You all continue to be in our thoughts and prayers.

Love Bugs and Lin
- Tuesday, April 8, 2003 6:55 AM CDT

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The Caring Bridge

There's a bridge you cross over.
Sometimes it takes a while.
When you get to the other side ...
You look back and see her smile.

~Kaye Des'Ormeaux~
April 7, 2003
For Ashley and her family
Kaye Des'Ormeaux <KDezamo@aol.com>
Hackberry, LA USA - Tuesday, April 8, 2003 1:11 AM CDT

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Dear Uncle Ken and Aunt Trish,
This is a little late, but I wanted to write something special for Ashley on her birthday. So, here is a poem that I wrote . . . . . .

A limb has fallen from our family tree
I keep hearing a voice that says “Grieve not for me”
I know Ashley is in heaven safely wrapped Jesus’ arms
Away from the pain, in a wonderful place, far away from harm
I know God had a plan and purpose in all that He did
But she was just five, she was only a kid
“Why??” is a question constantly running through my head
I do not understand, and sometimes I wish, that it were me instead
Then she would still be here with her family and friends
Celebrating her 6th birthday . . . a couple of years from my own life I’d lend.
But God did have a plan and purpose for putting Ashley here
And I must always be reminded that in those mere five years
She was taken away and although it is really hard to accept
Millions of memories in many touched hearts will be kept
It really hurt to see her suffer and it was even harder to see her go
Dear Lord, I miss her so much and it’s her birthday you know
I know that there's a party in heaven being thrown
Because Ashley is special and deserves a good home
I miss her ever constant smile and the tough girl she always was
I miss shopping sprees at the dollar store and hospital visits . . . Just because
Just because she showed me a new way of life
Even in the midst of pain, hurt, and strife
She stuck it out, she stayed strong, and she never gave up
She is my inspiration and she will always be
So fill me another cup and fill it to the top
Fill me another cup of unforgettable memories
And let’s celebrate Ashley’s life
Happy Birthday Ashley!!
Thank You so much!

Love always,
Your cousin,
Janine
Janine Kemper <janine_521@hotmail.com>
Waterdown, ON - Monday, April 7, 2003 6:54 PM CDT

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Dearest Ashley,

You have been on my mind continuously these past few days. I hope that your first birthday in heaven was everything that I imagine it would be! I am having a hard time thinking about what it must be like for your Mommy & Daddy to be missing you so badly. I couldn’t bring myself to check your webpage the other day, I knew that your Mommy was going to send you a letter. I did read it yesterday, it was beautiful. Your Mommy always knows the right things to say and do! She is an amazing person, as is your Daddy - you must be very proud of them. I wanted to go be with them Friday night, but the weather was so yucky. I hope you loved your balloons. Austin & I will send some more another day. Sending our love to you always,
Beth & Austin (and Aaron, Amber, Erika & Glen) <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, ON - Sunday, April 6, 2003 10:50 AM CDT

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Rainbow Balloons for Ashley

Red and yellow, orange and blue,
Green and pink and purple too.
Rainbow balloons, we let them soar,
Free!! Like you! Pain no more!!

The angels in heaven I'm sure are not the same,
Since Ashley arrived, things are not "so tame".
"Plain old nails??! That will never do!"
It's rainbow manicures, through and through!

"That'll be a loonie - I don't work for free!
And as you can see they're done IMPECABLY!"
The angels might ponder and give a meek shrug,
Then smile at her sweetly and give her a hug.

"Don't worry" Ashley says "I know you've got no loot!"
"I was only teasing - you guys are such a hoot!!"
God must chuckle, Jesus smiles with delight,
"Boy, we gave a big attitude to that little might!!"

So we let our balloons go, high in the sky.
Heavenward bound, with tears in our eyes.
We celebrate your birthday, the day you were born,
We try to feel joy, we try not to mourn...

Yes, Heaven has changed since the day that you came,
And down here on earth,
Nothing... no nothing...
Will ever be the same.


Marnie Hood and family <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, Ontario, - Saturday, April 5, 2003 2:01 PM CST

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Happy Birthday Ashley!!!!
Thinking of you always.... I hope you like the balloons.
Kim (Austin's relative) <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, On Canada - Saturday, April 5, 2003 9:22 AM CST

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Dear Ashley,
Happpppppppppyyyyyyyyy Birthdayyyyyyyy!!!!!!! Honey!!!!!!!
It must be a wonderful gift too look down from heaven and see how much your family loves you and how very very strong and giving your Mom is in your memory. Love, Treys Aunt Kathy www.caringbridge.org/va/trey
kathy <kathyphilw@hotmail.com>
garner, nc - Saturday, April 5, 2003 6:06 AM CST

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My thoughts have been with you guys quite a bit this week but especially today. May God give you strength as you "celebrate Ashley's birthday". I'm sure today is one of those days that she'll feel close to you. Rest assured that you still remain the focus of many prayers.

Trish, you mentioned in one of your entries that we could/should share something that Ashley has touched in our lives. I'd like to share that because of your brave Ashley, I have become a blood donor and have gone 3 times since Nov 20. Thanks for the inspiration and the motivation, Ashley!!

Ingrid Louwerse <louwerse@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON - Friday, April 4, 2003 7:25 PM CST

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Dear Ken, Trish, Derek, Danielle, and Nathan,
We continue to read the journal and remember you in our prayers. May God give you an extra measure of strength for Ashley's birthday today.

Jake & Janet Ringelberg, Kathryn, Deanna, Mikayla <j.ringelberg@sympatico.ca>
Troy, Ont - Friday, April 4, 2003 7:07 PM CST

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Tricia,
I am in tears reading your entry today. Today sounds like a very special day for you and Ashley. I know she will be with your family today, even if she is not here on earth. I wish you some peace and strength today. Many hugs!
Tracy mom to angel Trinity Luna
http://caringbridge.org/wa/trinityluna/index.htm
Tracy Rierson <seatra@hotmail.com>
Monroe, WA USA - Friday, April 4, 2003 6:26 PM CST

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Trish and Ken

My hart go out to our family today, as I wish to could be there tonight but with this weather I cannot make it. I so wanted to be there so I could write memories that I have of Ashley, so hear goes!!
We all know how Ashley likes to paint nails so much and it did not matter to her what she painting then with. Trish and myself went to get lunch and of course Trish gave Ashley markers and a Barney colouring book with a Barney movie play to keep her busy so we could have lunch. We were gone for about 1/2hr when we came back with the biggest smile in the whole world, Miss Ashley paint her toe nails and finger nails with the marker and said aren’t they beautiful.
When my grandfather passed my sister was asked to say a eulogy. And her poem gave me some comforted so I give it to you to read
My journey starts with a soft voice calling me into the early morning light,
I am lifted up and drawn towards a beautiful light,
I am leaving my family, friends and all other earthly things,
I am like a bird going towards the heavens, trying out my new wings,
But as I soar upwards – everything becomes so clear,
Special arms are wrapped around me, removing all my fears,
I am a eagle, climbing high over the trees, the lakes, oceans and the land,
A special love is gently leading me, taking my hand,
I have wings, I go higher into the deep blue of the sky,
But I am leaving you – and you all wonder why me, Oh God, why,
I fly like a eagle – but am more like a dove,
For I am leaving you all with a heartful of love,
My journey is taking me home far away,
And that same voice is promising me that I’ll see you all again someday,
I leave you with so very much regret,
And at night when you look up into the sky and see the stars shinning so bright,
I am one of these stars and I am winking at you and smiling with delight,
But please – do not grieve for me, for my soul and spirit are finally set FREE,
I go at peace – into eternity.

God Speed Ashley, we all love and will sadly miss you,
Its not goodbye its, until we meet again.
Happy Birthday Ashley

Susan Tremblett <stremb0906@rogers.com>
Cambridge, on canada - Friday, April 4, 2003 5:45 PM CST

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thinking of ashley today on this her special day, it is one more thing that her and James had in common. he celebrated his birthday on april 2 with his sister Danielle and brother Nathan. I read with great interest your story of Ashley's life and how you had made the decision not to have another one but God took it upon himself to decide that you needed Ashley to make your life complete and how very special she became to you. James entered this world in much the same way and when he was diagnosed with cancer in the summer time it allowed me to put so much of my life into perspective. I pray each and every day for a cure for cancer and I thank God everyday that when James got sick he was not given a life sentence but rather a lifes lesson. He has changed my life in so many ways Trish and when i read your journals about Ashley i mourn for you ever so deeply. I remember when my 29 year old sister died and the first easter, the first christmas, the first thanksgiving , the first everything after she died were so painful. I didn't lose my son and for that i am eternally grateful. My thoughts and prayers are with you all the time but especially today on ashley's birthday but also your birthing day. God Bless you and James and i will burn a purple candle for Ashley tonight. take care. Josie Middleton.
josie middleton <josie.middleton@sympatico.ca>
hamilton, canada - Friday, April 4, 2003 5:10 PM CST

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Happy 6th Birthday Angel Ashley :-)

Tricia. I can only imagine how hard this day must be for you and your family. I just finished reading your message to Ashley and it brought big tears to my eyes.

I hope you will find comfort in this page that I made for you on Ashley's special day :-)

Celebrating From Heaven
Martina Cannon <martinac32@sympatico.ca>
Hamilton, Ontario, - Friday, April 4, 2003 4:41 PM CST

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To the beautiful angel who has touched the lives of so many... Rainbow wishes, glitter glue kisses, and many peaceful "Goodnights" . Happy Birthday Ashley!
Kristen, Camp Trillium
- Friday, April 4, 2003 12:16 AM CST

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"Happy Birthday" Ashley, you're still the same special little girl we all knew and loved. To Mom & Dad - I know we don't say much these days but be assured that there is hardly a day goes by when you are not in our thoughts and prayers. We will always remember Ashley with love and gratitude for the priviledge of knowing her and for the lessons she taught us.
Love, Beryl & John
B. Collings
Paris, Ont - Friday, April 4, 2003 11:55 AM CST

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHLEY! I bet your nails (and everyone elses) are beautiful. Have a fun day with all your angel friends.
Kelly www.caringbridge.org/nv/baileyaustinjohnson <mom2baycam@charter.net>
Lake Tahoe, NV USA - Friday, April 4, 2003 10:10 AM CST

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHLEY!!!! I love you so much and I knwo everyone will be with you on your special day today. Lots of love from the pepper girls..
Jane Pepper
Janie
Lynden, On Canada - Friday, April 4, 2003 9:22 AM CST

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Dear Ken and Trish, Derek, Danielle, Nathan,
We are praying for you, especially on Ashley's birthday, as you remember many special memories and make new ones now. May God bless you all and help you all to keep believing and trusting in His promises.
P.S Save a little picture for me, too, okay? I am sorry that I can't be in class tomorrow.
P.S GOOD LUCK DANIELLE IN YOUR DANCE!
Love,
Annette and Robert, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton, ON Canada - Thursday, April 3, 2003 8:39 PM CST

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We know how intense these special days can be. As you commemorate Ashley's first birthday without her physical presence, we pray that sweet memories of yesterday and precious promises for tomorrow may offer you solace and comfort.
Yolanda Rogers, Mommy to Anna, http://www.galatians5.com - <galatians5@truevine.net>
Altamonte Springs, FL USA - Thursday, April 3, 2003 7:47 PM CST

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Hello Tricia Ken & Family

We read the Journal entries weekly which keep us informed and close to you and appreciate that at times it must be difficult for you to write what you do. It has been difficult finding words to say or write expressing our sadness and feelings to you over the past months. I apologise for that and promise to ring you soon.
We remember fondly Ashley, especially now her birthday is here. It is almost 12 months since our visit when we had a wonderful time seeing everyone. How pleased we are that we made that visit and met Ashley - we have fond memories of her we will never forget. We would like you to know that we will also be sending off a Barbie balloon in the skies over England in memory of Ashley on Friday. What ever you do for Ashley's birthday, our thoughts will be with you all. Our Love to you all,

Aunty Mavis and Uncle Max
Doncaster, England - Thursday, April 3, 2003 3:58 PM CST

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Dear Trish and Family,
Holding you all in our hearts and praying that God grants you all peace and serenity. Sending lots of love, thought and prayer your way (jack-colby's daddy forever and ever and ever)
www.caringbridge.org/pa/colby
UNIONTOWN, PA USA - Tuesday, April 1, 2003 8:01 PM CST

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Dear Ken and Trish and family,
I have just updated myself on your website and on the guestbook entries. When I came across Marnie's I said "yes" because that's how I feel too. It seems that when times are tough, we cling to God more. It doesn't make the pain go away but we are able to see things in a more positive light and are able to cope. We continue to pray for you all especially this week which is going to be tough for you all. I pray you will find comfort in those around you and in those you know are praying for you, especially now.

Take care, Sylvia
Sylvia VanDyk <dsvandyk@sympatic.ca>
Orkney, ON Canada - Tuesday, April 1, 2003 6:32 PM CST

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It was SO wonderful to see you all on Sunday afternoon at Youth Group! Will see you Friday.
Kristen, Camp Trillium
- Tuesday, April 1, 2003 8:01 AM CST

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I've not signed in for the longest time and I apologize for that. I think part of the reason is that I have too much to say ( anybody else have that problem...??!! ..oh I'm not thinking of you Trish... ) Anywho, just to say hi and we love you ... I think of you often throughout the day and pray for you at those times. Thank you so much Trish for your wonderful entries, they make me laugh, they make me cry and best of all they always send me back on my knees in prayer. I'm trying to think that if someone asked me "What did knowing Ashley mean to you or how did she affect your life?" how would I answer? Hard to put into words. Most significantly, my prayer life changed. Instead of a couple "designated" times a day, I opened a never ending line of communication... I think there were days when I didn't stop praying. I've read books I might not have read, I've listened to radio messages in a new light, I've searched my heart for answers to the big "WHY" question and I've come a whole lot closer to God. I've come to accept His sovereignty, His wisdom and His power in a new way. Be still and know that I am God. (Ps 46:10) In her book "Am I not still God?" Kathy Troccoli says often when we come to God with questions, he answers us back with a question of his own, like: AM I NOT STILL GOD? Someday we'll have all the answers and until then He calls us to " press on... " I think another reason for not signing on is because I'm afraid to sound trite or canned or something... I don't mean to come across with a "come on, pull your socks up" attitude. Anyways, enough right. I love you guys. I pray the Lord will continue to uphold you all, and bit by bit things will get easier(not the same, but easier, even just a little...). I hope all goes well for Ashley's birthday- you will be in our thoughts and prayers especially that day- we will send some balloons heavenward on Friday in Ashley's honour, as a symbol again of the freedom she now has. lots of love, stay strong, Marnie
Marnie Hood and family
Waterdown, Ontario, - Monday, March 31, 2003 2:27 PM CST

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Dear Ken & Trish and Family,
Just a note to let you know you are still in our thoughts and prayers daily. After reading your last entry I really just wanted to hop in my van and hunt you down and give you a big hug. Since that was not possible I hope you can somehow sense the love and support we have for you out here in Guelph.

Cor and Yolanda Vanleeuwen
- Monday, March 31, 2003 2:25 PM CST

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Happy birthday to your beautiful Ashley. She was a trooper-huh?? I thankfully have not lost a child only my dear brother at the young age of 27 to lung cancer. It is such a dirty word. I would like to offer you all the hugs in the world on Ashleys birthday and everyday. Send all those balloons to her I know she gets them!! Eileen
eileen <franklaperuta@yahoo.com>
Staten Island, NY - Monday, March 31, 2003 12:04 AM CST

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Hi Tricia, I just wanted to say Hi and let you know I still check on you often. Your family has remained in my heart and prayers since the very first time I saw Ashleys picture in her site back in September. I so admire your courage and strength. It's so amazing to me that you can continue to be there for other families enduring this battle. Thanks for sharing your journey even now. Love, Treys Aunt Kathy- www.caringbridge.org/va/trey
Kathy Whitt <kathyphilw@hotmail.com>
NC - Sunday, March 30, 2003 6:47 AM CST

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We just read your new entry in your journal. We check every morning and it is alway nice when there is a new entry. We get to know how you are doing and how you are coping. It sure is difficult for you all but we know that you are all troopers just like Ashley was. We have a great admiration for the way you are dealing with all your emotions. Ashley must be smiling down on all of you.
Love Bugs and Lin
- Sunday, March 30, 2003 6:19 AM CST

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We will be sending some balloons from Wisconsin. I pray God gives you strength to continue to live through every Mom's nightmare. Your daughter is beautiful.
Pam <phodermann@hotmail.com>
Glendale, WI - Saturday, March 29, 2003 6:14 PM CST

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Hi! Hoping you have a the best weekend possible. Sending prayers your way.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Friday, March 28, 2003 4:19 PM CST

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I just visited Heavenly Lights and saw your daughter's star. My son, Liam, was born on 4/1/97 and became an angel on November 26, 2002 at 11:45pm. Our children were so close in age. Liam had been battling rhabdo since he was 10 months old. Yesterday was 4 months for us too and I can't stop the tears. Next week we will both have birthdays...our first without our children. Have you made any plans? I really shouldn't ask you that because I hate when people ask me that. Liam loved rollercoasters and the beach so we'll be driving to Santa Cruz with our 2 other children. I hope our angels are together and in a much happier place. www.memcgrane@aol.com
Mary-Ellen McGrane
oakley, ca - Friday, March 28, 2003 0:13 AM CST

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Hello,
I was in the car today with my significant other (my booooyfriend!) and all of a sudden it hit me that several children I knew well have passed away. It just seems too unreal and it makes me sad that you feel that disbelief probably 1000 times more intensely...it just doesn't seem fair. I can only continue to hope for you and everyone in your family that you will have the strength and desire to carry on and live life in good health and with a lot of love.
Jane
Hamilton, ON - Sunday, March 23, 2003 3:41 PM CST

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Hi! I hope the dinner / auction was a huge success. Also I hope Danielle's dance competion was a fun time. Take care. Can't wait to check out the other site you spoke of.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Sunday, March 23, 2003 12:24 AM CST

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Hello Goud Family
This is Jane, it has been so long since we have talked. I have been reading the journals and checking everyday for more. I am astonished by the people that are still comming up to me and asking for more information about where to donate and just more news about the family. I am still seeing purple ribbons on peoples cars, shirts, purses and anywhere that is visiable to the public. I have donated my money that I raised to Help A Child Smile Foundation. Other fundraisers have donated the money themselves to many foundations. I am pleased to read the journals and just hear the everyday errands that can be so difficult ( such as setting the dinner table) I love you with all my heart Ashley and you will always be with me. Ashley touched my life like many others. Congradulate Danielle for me. I am completely jealous, as I use to be the one going to competitions.. I wish her the best of luck. I loved going to competitions. My mom and I would love to come and watch sometime. My mom misses going to them.. I will be going to the recital I wish I could see you perform.. To the rest of the family I send all my love. Keep in touch..
Janie Pepper
Lynden, - Thursday, March 20, 2003 9:51 AM CST

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Hello Goud Family!
Just wanted to say how much we have missed you all lately. There are just a few Hamilton Youth Group events left before the summer is upon us and we're hoping you'll come and join us for these special afternoons! We miss all your smiling faces and the fun to be had when you are there!
Take care and give us a call at the office if you need more details!
Kristen Dawson, Camp Trillium
Hamilton, - Wednesday, March 19, 2003 5:14 PM CST

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Dear Trish & Ken & children:
Do you know our little girls (4 & 2 yrs.) still pray every night at the supper table "& please be with Ashley Goud and her family!" Ashley and her life story have made such a lasting impression on their little lives, as well as to all of us. Thank you Trish, your courage and faith has been and is an inspiration to this world, truly a God-send to us all.
May God keep His loving arms around you till you meet again....

Susan & Robert Huckins & family <susan.huckins@scottcapital.com>
Carlisle, ON Canada - Wednesday, March 19, 2003 4:01 PM CST

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Hi Aunt Trish and Uncle Ken I just found this poem on a website here it is.

When you feel a gentle breeze,
Caress you when you sigh,
It's a hug sent from Heaven,
From a loved one way up high,

If a soft tender raindrop,
Lands on your nose,
They've added a small kiss,
As fragile as a rose,

If a song you hear fills you,
With a feeling of sweet love,
It's a hug sent from Heaven,
From someone very special up above,

If you awaken in the morning,
To a bluebird's chirping song,
It's music from Heaven,
To cheer you all day long,

If a tiny little snowflakes,
Land upon your face,
It's a hug sent from Heaven,
Trimmed with Angel lace,

So keep the joy in your heart,
If you're lonely my dear friend,
Hugs are sent from Heaven,
A broken heart will mend.

I just thought this poem was nice for you. I hope you like it
Love: Kae-lynn :)


Kate-lynn Kemper <kate_lynn_316@hotmail.com>
Canada, Ontario, Hamilton - Tuesday, March 18, 2003 5:32 PM CST

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Hi Trish (and the rest of the Goud family)
While I was looking at some other Caringbridge sites I found this little quote...

"I think about how much I miss her, and start to feel sorry for myself...
but then I think about all the people who never got the chance to meet her,
and I start to feel sorry for them."

Hope you guys are doing OK. Our thoughts and prayers remain with you daily.
Ingrid Louwerse <louwerse@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON - Monday, March 17, 2003 12:52 AM CST

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When I read your enteries it is as if I am reading something that I wrote myself. The pain you are feeling is the worst and I am so sorry for the loss of such a beautiful little girl. I for one feel bad each day that I am unable to kiss, hug and just smell our baby girl as I am sure you too feel. Please know that you are in my thoughts all the time. If you ever need to chat, please email me. Hugs to you and your family. Tracy mom to angel Trinity Luna 5/25/01 to 12/7/02 dx Neuroblastoma IV
Tracy Rierson <seatra@hotmail.com>
Monroe, WA USA - Tuesday, March 11, 2003 8:36 PM CST

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Glad the move went well. I pray for you often. The tree planting is very nice. Once again so thankful you have such a good support system.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Tuesday, March 11, 2003 2:18 PM CST

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We're thinking of you and your family always. I came across this poem and thought it might put a smile on your face.

When tomorrow starts without me
And I'm not there to see
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me.

I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today.
While thinking of the many things
We didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me.
As much as I love you.
And each time that you think of me
I know you'll miss me too.

But when tomorrow starts without me
Please try to understand
That an angel came and called my name
and took me by the hand

And said my place was ready
In heaven far above
And that I'll have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.

But when I walked through heaven's gates
I felt so much at home,
When God looked down and smiled at me from
His great golden throne

He said "This is eternity And all I've promised you"
Today for life on earth is past
But here it starts anew

I promise no tomorrow
For today will always last
And since each day's the same way
There's no longing for the past

So when tomorrow starts without me
Don't think we're far apart
For every time you think of me
I'm right here in your heart
Martina Cannon <martinac32@sympatico.ca>
Hamilton, Ontario, - Monday, March 10, 2003 2:30 AM CST

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I am also from DaybyDay and came to look at Ashley's pictures. She is beautiful and has a wonderful smile. The way her face lights up when she smiles reminds me of Delaney's smile. Delaney is also an angel in heaven and has a birthday in April.
www.caringbridge.com/ca/delaney

Angels are with you every step of the way
and help you soar with amazing grace.
Amy, Mom of Angel Delaney and Kevin, age 10 <Wright_Amy@hotmail.com>
San Diego, CA USA - Sunday, March 9, 2003 11:56 PM CST

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dear Trisha and Ken,
I sat here today and read all of journal from beginning to end.. I am so touched.. your precious Ashley is amazing and so are both of you.. I too lost my precious son Adam after 12yrs 6-16-85 - 2-19-98.. 10 of them facing a little known disease. I know there is nothing I can say that will take any of the pain and loss away, but know you are not alone. Please know you are all in my heart and prayers. Thank you for sharing your wonderful little daughter with us.. You can visit my Adam at www.adamkevinkidd.com
He too was a fighter- Drs. were amazed he lived as long as he did. It is amazing how these special children are so loving and wise beyond their young years. You are the most awesome amazing family I am truly touched to have shared your story. Your Ashley and my Adam are now able to do what they never were able to do here on this earth.. I just so wish they could do these things with us.. Thank you again for sharing your story. Love to you all.
Susan Kidd <akkidd@pacbell.net>
Santa Rosa, Ca USA - Sunday, March 9, 2003 8:07 PM CST

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"Some souls pass through this life like a gentle summer rain. They touch our hearts and then return to heaven once again."

I am sorry about your loss. Ashley is a beautiful angel with a lasting influence.
Sarah
- Sunday, March 9, 2003 5:40 PM CST

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Wanting to tell you that it gets better is not something I can tell you. Telling you that happy memories will take over the bad ones is something I can say...not saying the bad won't swoop back down on you.
Ashley is a beautiful little girl.
I lost my sweet daughter, Jordyn Ashleigh on May 8, 2000 after a 14 month battle against AML leukemia. My best friend lost her daughter to neuroblastoma. I hate these cancers...all cancers.
I've been here a couple times before and apologize for not signing the guestbook. Please know that your Ashley will live on.
I was led here today through Heavenly Lights....Jordyn was the inspiration behind the site..and to watch it grows makes me smile and cry all at once. I know there are so many other families out there mourning and longing for their child to be remembered and Heavenly Lights is such a beautiful place for that to happen.
I pray that you feel Ashley all over in your new home...as long as you keep her memory alive I have no doubt you'll see her in your home! Thank you for sharing her.
http://www.geocities.com/ourangeljordyn/Welcome
http://www.caringbridge.org/page/fitzpatrick (these journals are being transferred to "Our Angel Jordyn" but is kept updated for now)
God Bless
Christy Fitzpatrick...Angel Jordyn's Mommy <Ourangeljordyn@aol.com>
Fort Riley, KS USA - Saturday, March 8, 2003 11:29 AM CST

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As a woman could never describe the birth of her child with words, so she cannot ever describe their death. Only someone who has been there could understand and even then it still remains wordless. Our hearts and prayers go out to you. Our daughter went to be with the Lord in May of 1997. I will grieve as long as I live. I will, however, grieve in hope, precious hope, for I will hold my Anna again. I pray that we will continue to turn our faces towards the healing Light of Jesus and allow His compassionate embrace to comfort us in our anguish. And as the pain is, even greater will be His Grace...sufficient to sustain us until we who have believed in His precious, precious Name are all reunited in His holy presence.
Yolanda Rogers, http://www.galatians5.com; <galatians5@truevine.net>
Altamonte Springs, FL USA - Saturday, March 8, 2003 7:55 AM CST

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Your little girl Ashley was so beautiful. I am so sorry for your loss. I too lost a little girl, my Sarah was 5 when she drowned while my ex mother in law was supposed to be watching her. I know the pain, and the wanting to hold them again. I pray that God will give you a sense of peace, and you know that you will see her again. Lots of cyber hugs, Chandra mommy to Angel Sarah Helaina-Lee Moore
http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/m/myangelsarah
Chandra Moore <chandrankids@aol.com>
Sand Springs, OK USA - Saturday, March 8, 2003 7:51 AM CST

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I am so sorry for the loss of your angel. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers!
Heidi <momof3@chartermi.net>
Grand Haven, MI USA - Saturday, March 8, 2003 7:29 AM CST

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I was touched by the picture of your beautiful little girl Ashley. In her pictures taken at Disney Land she looked so happy and grateful, just like my little boy Rashid, who died of a brain tumor.
I am so sorry for your loss of this gorgeous girl. You must miss her a lot.
Thank you for sharing your precious angel with us.

Love, Marianne, Rashid's mom
http://www.rashid.nl

Marianne <mariannepoulie@hotmail.com>
Amsterdam, Netherlands - Saturday, March 8, 2003 4:10 AM CST

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I'm glad the move was such a success! Enjoy the new house.
Kim (Austin's relative) <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, On Canada - Thursday, March 6, 2003 4:29 PM CST

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I came here from DaybyDay to see your daughters page. What a beautiful website you have created in her memory. There are 3 of us on DaybyDay with daughters named Ashley, all young and blonde, all gone because of cancer. My favorite quote that I must remember always:
They died not because of what we didn't do,
They died in spite of all we did do.
Teri
Lake Havasu, AZ USA - Thursday, March 6, 2003 3:34 PM CST

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What a doll your Ashley is. My daughter Lindsay died from Medullablastoma (brain tumor) 4 days before her 7th birthday. I read your entry on day by day and I wish you lots of warm memories as Ashley's birthday approaches.
http://www.geocities.com/inlovingmemoryoflindsay/
Diane <dsrivard@cs.com>
Chesapeake, VA USA - Wednesday, March 5, 2003 4:25 PM CST

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Dear Ken & Trish & family: Hope that the move went well. I can't imagine leaving the home of so many memories and moving into a new one, but remember it is the people in the home that make the memories and I am sure you will never forget all the magic momemts you had in your old home, as I am sure that there will be more memories made in your new home. Remember that where you are God is also. I read your entry about Ashley's birthday and I think that you should do whatever brings comfort and healing to you. We continue to hold your family in our prayers. I pray that each day you get the strength you need and each tomorrow God will give you the wisdom and grace needed for that day. All our Love Martin & Jodi & kids
Jodi Mobach <bikemech28@aol.com>
Flamborough, - Tuesday, March 4, 2003 2:32 PM CST

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http://www.geocities.com/hlcmstars1/MitchellFraser.html

As a mother who has lost a child to Neuroblastoma, my thoughts are with you. We lost Mitchell at age 23 months, after an eight month battle at the Hospital for Sick Children in Toronto. For such a rare form of cancer, there certainly seems to be an outbreak. If there is anything I can do to help you get through this journey, having just completed my year of "firsts" without Mitchell, please do not hesitate to ask! I have sent you the link to Mitchell's site. If you feel up to it, please visit and be sure to sign the Guestbook! Take Care!
Laura Fraser <laura_john_fraser@sympatico.ca>
Bowmanville, ON Canada - Monday, March 3, 2003 5:08 PM CST

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Hello there - I stumbled across your website as you had signed my friend Donnell's guestbook for her little Angel Kaitlyn. I just had to sign and let you know how sorry I am for your loss. Your little Angel Ashley is absolutely adorable, and looks so happy in the pictures on her photo album! Thank you for sharing your story.
Peace & Love, Jenn Borjeson <JennBorj@aol.com>
Jefferson, MA www.geocities.com/jennborj/index - Sunday, March 2, 2003 3:11 PM CST

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Hi! Praying the move goes smoothly. I bet it is even better than "striking gold" & much more precious. I loved the new pictures. What a bathing beauty in the one. My favorite was the one of Ashley in the tube. What fun she looks to be having. Memories are so precious.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Friday, February 28, 2003 1:15 PM CST

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I am so sorry to hear of your loss.
Your daughter was very beautiful.
I doubt I will ever understand why these kids go thru so much.
I cant even begin to understand your heartbreak.
{{hugs}}

Chris ~ Gooch's Site


- Thursday, February 27, 2003 8:30 PM CST

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I came across your webpage for your precious Ashley and am just in tears. I am so very sorry for your loss. I have an online childrens memorial...and would be honored to add a star in memory of Ashley if you would like one.
My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your whole family....Praying that God's love will be a source of comfort and strength to you - now and in the days ahead…
God bless
Laura/Heavenly Lights Childrens Memorial
http://www.heavenlylights.homestead.com
Laura/Heavenly Lights Childrens Memorial <heavenlylights@charter.net>
mn - Thursday, February 27, 2003 7:14 PM CST

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Beautiful photos!!!
Hope the move goes very smoothly.

Michele(Austin's relative)
Burlington, - Thursday, February 27, 2003 4:27 PM CST

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Trish, as always your journal entries are looked forward to. They are so well written and touch our hearts so truly. We all want to keep READING them for the same reason you are WRITING them. They have been a true COMFORT for us all. Oh, I don't know how to write this. I feel that when we as family and friends come to help you and Ken move this weekend, that we will be able to comfort and support you both. As you move out of your home of MEMORIES and into your new home many new memories will be made, but the cherished ones will never be FORGOTTEN. I feel Ashley's spirit is going to be with you because she knew of her new home and her new bedroom, and she will be there, whenever you need her. I'm glad you have a special spot for her now, and hopefully you will be able to be given some comfort there. The new pictures of Ashley on the special Children's Wish and Help a Child Smile Foundation trips are beautiful. These trips truly made her SMILE!!!! They showed her happiness for her life. These pictures really make me remember the sound of her laughter (so happy, what a great feeling). Love you lots Ken and Trish, a BIG HUG {:} from me to you. Missing you TONS Ashley {:} Love Kathy
Kathy Kemper <kempersgreenhs @sprint.ca>
Waterdown, Canada - Wednesday, February 26, 2003 12:17 AM CST

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Tricia,
Your thoughts,prayers,support and friendship towards
Beth and Austin are needed now more than ever.
Thanks for being there for all of them.
Michele ( Beth's cousin)
Burlington, - Saturday, February 22, 2003 2:36 PM CST

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Good morning. I will add Austin & Rebecca to my prayer list. What heart wrenching news. Glad you have such good girlfriends to help you out. Sending more balloons up sounds like such a nice thing. As you said though whatever you guys decide will be o.k. because it will be your decision. Keeping you close in thoughts & prayer. Have the best weekend possible.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Saturday, February 22, 2003 11:38 AM CST

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Dear Tricia
Thank you for all the support you give to Beth & Austin and the rest of their family. Since I live so far away I always feel that I cannot do enough for them. I am glad that they have such a strong support system which includes you.
I hope all is going well with you too.... I think of Ashley often.
Kim & family (Austin's relatives) <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, On Canada - Thursday, February 20, 2003 3:46 PM CST

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Dearest Tricia and Ken,
Your strength and your kindness are evident in the way you walk through life. You continue to support others with so much on your heart and in your lives.You have become an inspiration to so many.You are such caring and compassionate beings. We think of you and your family so often and hold you in prayer before God. How graced your family and friends are to have you. You remain in our thoughts and prayers, especially during this time of hope and healing.

With much love,

Piera, Pete, Julia and Olivia
Piera Graci-Bonnah <piegraci@enoreo.on.ca>
Woodbridge, Canada - Thursday, February 20, 2003 8:49 AM CST

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Good morning! Glad the dance was such a success. Praying the move goes smoothly.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Monday, February 17, 2003 4:19 PM CST

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I just found your site. I have't had an opportunity to pass on my condolences. On behalf of the deboer and mercer family my God continue the healing process and bring joy through the memories of your dear daughter and the time she now spends with our Lord and Saviour. God Bless you and your Family.
Chris DeBoer and Sarah Mercer.
Chris DeBoer <deboer_chris@hotmail.com>
Hamilton, on Canada - Sunday, February 16, 2003 8:22 PM CST

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Hi
I too check Ashley's sight regularly. I hope the new moving date has taken a little of the pressure off and that the move goes smoothly.
Kim & family (Austin's relatives) <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, On Canada - Sunday, February 16, 2003 2:52 PM CST

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I still check Ashley's website everyday after I
read Austin's. She is still very much in all of our
thoughts and prayers. Don't feel guilty about
going about "normal" and everyday events as I'm
sure Ashley would want it no other way.May God Bless
you with His strength and Love.
Michele (Austin's relative)
Burlington, - Sunday, February 16, 2003 7:47 AM CST

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Hi Guys
Thinking of you every day and missing Ashley everyday. Brittany and I talk about Ashley a lot and she has many memories that now make her smile instead of cry. Oh to be a child. Love you guys!
Love Karen
Karen Scharringa <SCalvinkaren@aol.com>
- Saturday, February 15, 2003 11:02 AM CST

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Dear Tricia ,Ken & family
"To Life Eternal"
Words cannot express what we want to say, we share in your sorrow, for all we will pray. Your loved one's not lost though, yes "taken away". Your loved one has gone where life will increase, where love is eternal to the Father and Peace.
Aunty Jean & Uncle Keith
Malvern Worcs. , England - Saturday, February 15, 2003 4:17 AM CST

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Just a quick note to let you know that we are thinking of you all. We find ourselves often sharing special memories we have of the time spent with Ashley and the rest of your family. Take care.
Kristen - Camp Trillium <dawsonkd@hotmail.com>
- Friday, February 14, 2003 1:14 PM CST

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Just wanted you to know that I had stopped by to visit and see how you Guys are doing. I know holidays are tough. Your strength continues to amaze me. HAPPY VALENTINES!!! XOXOXOXO, Kathy (aunt to Trey www.caringbridge.org/va/trey)
kathy whitt <Kathyphilw@hotmail.coml>
- Friday, February 14, 2003 5:47 AM CST

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Hello there. Still checking in too see how you are holding up. I hope it helps a little to know that as I stranger I still wish I could reach out and give you a great big hug. So here is a big cyber hug to you. I know it must be hard daily and we will continue to pray for that strengh for you and your family to deal with every day life. God Bless

Josie Pynn <josie_pynn@yahoo.com>
Pembroke, ON Canada - Thursday, February 13, 2003 10:51 PM CST

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As always, your journal entry was very touching. It has left me in tears and with an ache in my gut. I miss you guys so much! I miss Ashley and I miss you and our talks. Sounds like the fundraiser was a huge success, it is totally amazing what people can pull off - what a wonderful blessing to have so many people near who care so much!!

Thinking about you always and sending my love and prayers,
Beth <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, ON - Thursday, February 13, 2003 5:26 PM CST

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Hi just checking in to let you know you are in my thoughts.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Tueday, February 11, 2003 2:12 PM CST

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We are so sorry for your lost,it seems that is the way it goes with neuroblastoma. We lost our grandson March-12-02 with neuroblastoma.He has a site on caringbridge. His name is Dillon Rolins. We will pray for you all.
James and Marshella Byrd <jbyrd@cswnet.com>
Russellville, AR USA - Monday, February 10, 2003 7:31 PM CST

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Hi Trish,
Since reading your entry the other day, I too have been visiting many of the caringbridge sites at chubbychica.com. I've been leaving messages on some but it's by far easier to sign books where you "know" that they believe in God. Anyway, I just wanted to let you guys know that we're still keeping an eye on you :). Have a good weekend and God bless!

Ingrid Louwerse <louwerse@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON - Saturday, February 8, 2003 0:03 AM CST

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I read Ashley's page everyday, sometimes before
Austin's,sometimes afterwards.
I don't sign Ashley's very often as many times
you leave me speechless. You speak so openly and
honestly of your feelings it leaves me speechless
but very touched. I've yet to meet you in person,
but know through Beth how much I would cherish
your friendship.You've touched us all so much
through Ashley's Journey.Please don't stop your
entries....
hopefully it helps you cope as much as
it helps us cherish our loved ones.
Michele McDonald (Austin's relative)
- Friday, February 7, 2003 6:13 PM CST

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Hi Trish
Just wanted to let you know that I stopped by to see how you Guys are doing. Its good to see you still keeping Ashleys Journal going. It is such a tribute to your little angel. I think its wonderful and very couragous of you to continue to visit the hospital and to support other Kids and there families. Ashley was very lucky to have such a special Mom with so much Love and compassion. Im sure she is very proud of you now! Take care, Kathy (aunt to Trey NBIV www.caringbridge.org/va/trey)
Kathy Whitt <kathyphilw@hotmail.com>
Garner, NC USA - Friday, February 7, 2003 5:36 PM CST

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Hi Tricia and Ken,

The main page looks wonderful, you have done a beautiful job. I always get teary reading your entries. I am completely amazed with your ability to open up and express what you are TRULY thinking and feeling. I think that it is a privilege to get to read this website.
Jane Cassano
Hamilton, ON - Thursday, February 6, 2003 2:54 PM CST

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Dear Ken and Trish

I am embarrased to say I have not read your jounal entries for quite some time. I enjoyed catching up with you and your family events and emotions. I think about you guys MORE than you know. But you know how very busy 3B can be.
Trish I saw the roses you left the ward at
Christmas I'm sorry I missed you, I as always work alot of nights. I miss our conversations and I miss Ashley ever so politely asking me to move so she could see the TV. I hope you and your family are coping, your faith is strong and I'm glad for that. I get asked how I can work in such a difficult place and I tell them it is because of families like you and great kids that make me want to help and brighten there days with silly humour. I read about ashleys fund raiser and I want to try and make it. I hope there are still tickets if that is what I need to get. I hope to see you there. TAKE CARE.
Kim Hruska.

Thank you for sharing Ashley with us all.
Kim Hruska
Ancaster, Ont - Wednesday, February 5, 2003 8:36 PM CST

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Good morning! I don't know what other words to say than I find your entries intersting. I think it is a great way to express yourself. I wish you never even had to learn about caringbridge sites then your little girl would have never been sick, but I guess all things happen for a reason. It is just so hard to understand what that reason is. Even though the hopes for the site were different when it started I hope you continue to update us on you & the rest of your family. I wish I lived closer so I could attend the fundraiser it sounds like it is going to be a good time. I will be praying you have a good turn out. My cousins (www.alexandmatt.com) who have Fanconi Anemia are also having a fundraiser coming up that I live to far away to attend also. I will just pray that both events turn out fabulous! I can't pretend to imagine what you are going through, but do hope the prayers & messages from everyone help. Will check in again soon. Take care. Love & Prayers :-)
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Wednesday, February 5, 2003 1:58 PM CST

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Hi Trish
Good luck with the move to the new house.
With all you have gone through I would like to say thankyou to you for your constant concern for Austin's well-being. I appreciate it and I'm sure Beth & family do so much more.
Ashley was truly blessed with such a family as yours.
Kim & family (Austin's relatives) <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, On Canada - Tueday, February 4, 2003 5:22 PM CST

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My prayers and thoughts are with your family. I would like to say Good Luck in moving to your new home. Hopefully it won't be to crazy for you. God Bless and Have a wonderful day!
Michelle <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Tueday, February 4, 2003 9:59 AM CST

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I am so glad that you have come to peace with some of the most difficult decisions you have had to make. Remember that you are always still in our prayers. Love Martin and Jodi and girls
Jodi Mobach <bikemech28@aol.com>
Flamborough, - Thursday, January 30, 2003 at 12:18 PM (CST)

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Sending prayers & loving thoughts your way.
Candice Behm <candice333@netzero.net>
Portland, OR USA - Wednesday, January 29, 2003 at 01:27 PM (CST)

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Thinking of your little girl. May she always rest in peace
Amanda Shiomi
- Monday, January 27, 2003 at 09:57 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish,
What a beautiful web page with the angels and soft colours!!
I think Ingrid's poem is fitting, too.
I think your kids must be sources of strength and amazement for you. Like Nathan being such a big boy to say he will have a different bedroom. I am so glad you can have peace about that now. We are thankful with you that they are doing well in school. The students still pray for Ashley and for her family, including for Derek, Danielle, and Nathan.
May God bless each of you in this coming week, with moments of peace and many moments of His strength and comfort surrounding you.
Love,
Annette and Robert, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton, ON Canada - Sunday, January 26, 2003 at 07:39 PM (CST)

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Trish

Just a real quick note to let you know we're still with you. We check back here on a regular basis to see how things are going for you. We continue to pray for you and your family and are happy to see things are going okay for you.

The main page looks absolutely beautiful.

I'm glad you are at ease about Ashley's room. I think the idea of a sitting room is just a beautiful choice until you are truly ready to move on with it. Nathan has to be such a trooper for understanding. In fact, all your children must be so strong and courageous having gone through what they have at their tender ages.

God's taking good care of you and your family and I will continue to say a prayer for your family.



Martina Cannon <martinac32@sympatico.ca>
Hamilton, Ontario, - Saturday, January 25, 2003 at 03:19 PM (CST)

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Tricia:
I checked up on the web site today as I do almost everyday, and when it came up was I ever suprised! No more purple and pink rainbow but a little angel. It is BEAUTIFUL! She is so cute and could very well be Ashley with that curly hair!!! Thanks for the suprise! It looks Great!
Love Karen
Karen Scharringa <SCalvinkaren@aol.com>
Waterdown, ON - Saturday, January 25, 2003 at 01:46 PM (CST)

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Ken and Trish,
Good to hear that you could have a relaxing couple of days "away from it all". It's also great that the other kids are doing well in school. Jesse has mentioned that Nathan has fewer episodes. I suppose the stress level is easing somewhat for him (as you wrote in an earlier posting, stress is definitely a factor). Anyway, I thought I'd share this little "poem" that I received in my email this week. I read it and thought about you guys immediately.

I wish for you ...

Comfort on difficult days
Smiles when sadness intrudes
RAINBOWS to follow the clouds
Laughter to kiss your lips
Sunsets to warm your heart
Gentle hugs when spirits sag
Friendships to brighten your being
Beauty for your eyes to see
Confidence for when you doubt
Faith so that you can believe
Courage to know yourself
Patience to accept the truth
And Love to complete your life.

God Bless you!!!

Ingrid Louwerse <louwerse@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON - Friday, January 24, 2003 at 11:13 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish and Derek, Danielle and Nathan
Thank you for still keeping us in touch with your family how everyone is doing an how you are coping with the great loss of your precious daughter and sister Ashley
Good to hear that you have enjoyed your skiing trip with Paul and Kathy and some other outings in between the difficult times at home. It is wonderful to hear also that your children are doing so well in school in spite of all the hardship they also had to go through. We see that the Lord provides! It is our prayer that you may continue to experience that and be given strength and courage from day to day.
Rien and Minnie VanStrien <rimistrien@sympatico.ca>
Millgrove, Ont Canada - Thursday, January 23, 2003 at 06:55 PM (CST)

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Dear Trish
I'm praying that this journal you are writing will bring you a measure of joy in years to come and that you will be able to share it with other parents who may be struggling through the same pain as you have gone through. Only someone who has been through such an ordeal will be able to truly understand and bring comfort to others who have lost a child and are in such pain. Thank you for opening yourself up for us to see your pain, struggles and your good times so that we can learn from this and know what to pray for. Our family still uplifts you in our daily prayertime.
Jennifer Adams
Waterdown, - Tuesday, January 21, 2003 at 10:00 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish & Family
Even though I didn't know Ashley as well I as wish I had! Her story, and passion for life, moved me very deeply! I attended her funeral with two of my close friends, just felt like I was pulled to go and say good-bye! You and your family have been in my prayers. God bless you as you over-come this terrible lose of not being with her. yet we know that she is one of God's little Angels.

Mike and Angela
Michael Scharringa <litledutchboy@hotmail.com>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Monday, January 20, 2003 at 04:57 PM (CST)

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Tricia

We always think of you, Ken and your family. Our hearts ache for you all. Take care of each other.

Wishing you moments of peace, Tracy, Mike, Scott, Matthew & Tyler(forever 2yrs)
Tracy Sherk <thesherks@rogers.com>
Brantford, - Monday, January 20, 2003 at 02:12 PM (CST)

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Hi Tricia
I am touched by all you write. You are so brave to write all your thoughts and feelings as you do. I hope your days improve soon. It must be sooooo hard. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Kim (Austin's relative) <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, On Canada - Sunday, January 19, 2003 at 07:41 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken & Tricia: This is my second attempt to email you my message, since the first one was full of sleepy errors.

It has been a great pleasure meeting both of you. Thank you for sharing this beautiful tribute to your daughter with me. Ashley's memory shines through with every heartfelt word that you write. I am sure your words are comforting to thousands of people and I hope that it also gives you comfort too. Your strength and courage amazes me, you are an inspiration to all. Your faith shines through in your love of your children, each other and life itself. We all forget how fortunate we are and how little we appreciate what we have. My heart goes out to you and your family. I truly hope you had a wonderful getaway and hope to see you again sometime soon.

Your Server - Bear Trail Inn Resort

Nadine Partridge <theladybugplace@hotmail.com>
Whitney, ON Canada - Sunday, January 19, 2003 at 05:46 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken & Tricia

It has been a great pleasure meeting both of you. Thank you for sharing this beautiful tribute to your daughter with me. I am sure your words are comforting to thousands people and I hope that it also gives you comforting too. Your strength amazes me, you are an inspiration to all. Your faith shines through in your love of your children, each love and life itself. We all forget how fortunate we are and how little we appreciate what we have. My heart goes out to you and your family. I truly hope you had a wonderful getaway and hope to see you again sometime soon.

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Nadine Partridge <theladybugplace@hotmail.com>
Whitney, ON Canada - Saturday, January 18, 2003 at 11:26 PM (CST)

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Hi Guys
I hope you have a great weekend get-away with Paul and Kathy. Tricia, good luck on that snowmobile.
I just wanted to tell everyone the story that Tricia and Ken already know about. Sometimes people ask me how Brittany is doing since Ashley passed away. She has her happy and sad moments but is taking it like a child would. Very matter of fact. She chose a picture to color for Tricia. It was a picture of a rainbow castle. As she was coloring, she said, "Mom, I'm pretending that God lives in this beautiful rainbow castle and Ashley lives there with Him." She brought me to tears and the picture is now in the possession of Tricia. She also tells me that she gives Ashley hugs when she is in bed by simply hugging the air. She feels Ashley's spirit is with her all the time and even pretends Ashley is sitting on a stool beside her when she is coloring. So you can see she misses Ashley, but is comforted knowing that Ashley's spirit will never leave her.
Thank you Ken and Tricia for sharing your wonderful daughter with mine.
Love Karen
Karen Scharringa <SCalvinkaren@aol.com>
- Friday, January 17, 2003 at 07:05 PM (CST)

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Hi Tricia, I am glad that you have come to a decision about Ashley's room, and that some of the NB suggestions helped. You are right about the tissues. I just wish with all my heart that there was something I could do other than just cry with you. Hugs,

Iris (Courtney's mum)
Rockhampton, QLD AUSTRALIA - Friday, January 17, 2003 at 04:49 PM (CST)

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Hi there Tricia, I keep coming back to read this website, I can't stay away and I wish that it were all a nightmare too so that you didn't have to cry anymore. Thinking of you all..

Sharon Byrne <sbyrne@cogeco.ca>
Dundas, On CA - Wednesday, January 15, 2003 at 10:47 AM (CST)

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I lost my daughter Rachel on 7/3/01. I wasn't ready to move any of her things either. My oldest daughter wanted to use Rachel's dresser. Her explanation was that Rachel didn't need it anymore. I was very angry but I boxed up Rachel's things- I did it with no one in the house so I could have a good cry. I have created a Memorial to Rachel in my Living room. I have placed her baby cradle in the corner with pictures and very special things that belonged to her. That way it is for me and anyone else who wants to look. I hope this helps. Meg
Meg Lawless Crossett <meglawless@cox.net>
Centreville, va usa - Tuesday, January 14, 2003 at 09:18 PM (CST)

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Hi Ken, Tricia, Derek, Danielle and Nathan.
We just wanted to let you know that you're still constantly in our thoughts and prayers. May God grant you comfort and the peace which can only come by knowing His promise for those who trust and love Him.
Ken, Gwen, Rachel and Michelle Bosveld <kbosveld@cogeco.ca>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Monday, January 13, 2003 at 10:13 PM (CST)

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I'm just signing in to let you know that you are still very much in my thoughts and prayers. God's blessings to you as you walk this extremely difficult road.
Khalita www.caringbridge.com/nc/khalita Duke Peds BMT aplastic anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Sunday, January 12, 2003 at 03:14 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish, Derek, Danielle, and Nathan,
Thank you for the recent update. The new pictures are very moving and precious. Thank you for sharing them. We continue to pray for each of you. We hope and pray for Ken that he will be given the time and space he needs to be able to grieve too.
Michael thinks Nathan is a cool friend and prays for him too.
Sending love to you,
Annette and Robert, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton, ON Canada - Sunday, January 12, 2003 at 12:17 PM (CST)

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Thinking of you often. Following your entries
religiously. Very touched at the recent
photos that were posted. Hoping that everything
turns out well for Nathan.
Michele McDonald ( Austins' relative) <McMcDn@cs.com>
Burlington, - Saturday, January 11, 2003 at 05:52 PM (CST)

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Ken, Trish and Family
Please know that you have all been in my thoughts and prayers. Ashley was a wonderful, brave little girl. I will keep Nathan in my prayers as well.
Sharon Mountain <mountaineer@sympatico.ca>
Burlington, ON Canada - Saturday, January 11, 2003 at 01:04 PM (CST)

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Thinking about you lots today. I enjoyed your visit the other day Tricia. You are a wonderful, special person and such an inspiration for me and so many other people. Ashley must be so proud of all of you!!
Love Beth & Austin <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, ON - Thursday, January 09, 2003 at 08:07 PM (CST)

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Hi, you don't know me but I know a little about your plight with neuroblastoma, a friend of mine, Josie Pynne told me a bit about you, my son Jaymz also passed away, but not from neuroblastoma, he passed away the day before your daughter actually on Nov.19 so I know exactly what your going through, my son was only 6 months old and he passed away from an infection known as Seratia(I think thats how you spell it) but it all began with something called bowel hernia. I know what its like to fight with the ups and downs the "rollercoaster effect" as I like to call it. Having good days and bad days, but all I really wanted to say was it will all be okay. I don't wanna say the cliche' "I'm so sorry" because ofcourse everyone is sorry for the loss, especially of a beautiful child. and I know I am rather tired of hearing that from everyone, yet i still just kinda nod, a weak smile on my face. This is probably the first time I have really written anything about what happened to my son since it happened, I have spoken about it with a very few people, just close friends and family. But I'll stop rambling now, I'm not really to sure exactly what I've typed thus far, just kinda typing thoughts as they pop into my head. Once again, Everything will be alright.
Danielle <the_kat_19@yahoo.com>
- Monday, January 06, 2003 at 08:47 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken & Trish
Our family has prayed for your family almost every day and will continue to do so. We are praying for God's strength to see you through one day at a time. Love from The Adams Family
Jennifer Adams <jendave@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, - Friday, January 03, 2003 at 11:05 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken & Trish & Family,

Just a note to let you know we have been thinking of you daily throughout the holidays. You and your whole extended family. I'm sure it was not easy for any of you who knew and loved Ashley as family does. We are continually praying for you and Opa's and Oma's and Grandma's and Grandpa's and Aunts and Uncles and cousins, all who were touched by Ashley. May the Lord continue to give you the strength you need to get through every moment of every day.
Yolanda & Cor <corandyo@aol.com>
Guelph, - Thursday, January 02, 2003 at 09:03 PM (CST)

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Hi guys! I hope you had a great Christmas and New Years, and may you always find strength in God's love and His promise. Ashley is forever in my heart, I'm so glad I get to wear the most amazing bracelet! So many people always ask me what it symbolizes and I get to share Ashley's story and touch everyone's heart all the time! thanx again for it! see ya soon! Keep in touch,
Love always,
Melanie
Melanie Groen <igotu_babe@hotmail.com>
w. Flamborough, on can - Wednesday, January 01, 2003 at 06:54 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish, Derek, Danielle & Nathan,

You have been in our thoughts over the holidays and we wanted to send you our best wishes for the New Year. May you find strength and comfort in the knowledge that Ashley touched so many peoples lives (and hearts). You have been an inspiration to so many and I am certain that Ashley was very proud to call you her family.

We hope 2003 brings you continued strength, peace and the love and support of family and friends.

Best wishes,

Andy & Marny Burnett <andyb777@cogeco.ca>
Waterdown, Ont - Tuesday, December 31, 2002 at 01:31 PM (CST)

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Thank you Tricia for sharing your and Ashley's life with us. I for one have really gotten some strength from all that you have wrote. I even managed to set up a web page for Trinity, one that should have been set up long a go. Better late than never, and I can use it as a way of getting through this pain that I am so filled with. So, thanks again.
Tracy Rierson <seatra@hotmail.com>
San Pedro, CA USA - Sunday, December 29, 2002 at 07:24 PM (CST)

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Trish

I'm so happy that you and your family had a good Christmas.

Keeping busy always helps. I was so happy to see you had written in the journal. I was wondering how you made it through the holidays :-)) I couldn't help but shed a tear thinking about you lighting a candle next to Ashley's picture. I know Ashley is so proud of the strength her family has and I am positive she is just bragging to all the other angels about all of you.

We wish you all the strength in the world as you bring in the New Year.

God Bless


Martina Cannon <martinac32@sympatico.ca>
Hamilton, Ontario, - Saturday, December 28, 2002 at 02:16 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken & Trish and Family: I just finished reading your lastest entry. Your strength amazes me. It gives me great comfort to read your messages. I hope as you write them that some comfort comes to you as well. Our family has been thinking of you over this Christmas season and as I know it is very difficult for you it is our prayer that you have a blessed Christmas and I pray God bless your family in the New Year.
Jodi Mobach <bikemech28 @aol.com>
Flamborough, - Thursday, December 26, 2002 at 11:13 AM (CST)

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Merry Christmas to all of you. I hope you got through these past few days, as difficult as it must be for everyone. I am thinking of you guys, xoxox.
Jane Cassano
Hamilton, ON - Wednesday, December 25, 2002 at 09:50 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish, Derek, Danielle and Nathan:

Our family has been thinking about you all alot over this holiday season. Please know that you are always in our prayers and think of you often. We wish you a very Merry and blessed Christmas and new and wonderful blessings for the coming New Year!

I just went on today to get an update from your family and I think you are AMAZING to share so much with us. It is absolutely amazing that you are willing to do so. Believe me, it is not depressing to read such things, but very inspirational and I thank you.

God's richest blessings to everyone you hold dear!
Love,

Jen de Jager <Dundejager@aol.com>
Dundas, Canada - Wednesday, December 25, 2002 at 09:17 PM (CST)

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Ken, Tricia, Derek, Danielle, and Nathan,
We wish you a Blessed Christmas today. (Ken enjoy that snow!)
Love from our family to yours.
Karen,Calvin, Ryan, Nick, and Brittany.
Karen Scharringa <SCalvinkaren@aol.com>
- Wednesday, December 25, 2002 at 01:13 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Tricia, Derek Danielle and Nathan
We can't stop thinking about you. We can't imagine the loss you must be feeling right now. Our prayers and thoughts are with you this Christmas. Hopefully the joy of Ashleys first Christmas with Jesus can help take away some of the pain.
Lots of love to you all, Bugs and Lin
Bugs and Lin <904752@ican.net>
Dundas, On Canada - Tuesday, December 24, 2002 at 02:35 PM (CST)

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Goud family:
Wishing you all a blessed Christmas and new year!! I'm sure it will be emotional. You'll now have to endure "firsts" without Ashley, just as you have all the memories of "firsts" WITH her. You're right Trish, it's the other kids who will get you through this. God uses them in such awesome ways, doesn't he?


Ingrid Louwerse <ouwerse@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON - Monday, December 23, 2002 at 10:55 PM (CST)

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i'll be prayin for ken and tric may good be with u in yur troubled time and give the strenth to carry on.
herd about ashley just the other day made me feel said just had to cry the cutest of all girls and the sweetest smile but one day you'll be with her again and here her voice cut through yur soul like a thousend shrap knives shes in a better place. better things are to come so like they say in the barber shop "keep yea head up"
jesse andree <Studebaker_Racing@hotmail.com>
st george, ont canada - Monday, December 23, 2002 at 10:40 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Tricia, Today I am having a sad day. I’m missing Ashley very much. It has been over a month already. Sometimes it seems like yesterday and sometimes it feels like quite some time ago. I wanted to write something in the guestbook immediately when we came back from the Christmas program. But I had to think it out first. I really tried to prepare myself, knowing our little Ashley wasn’t going to be there. WAITING and WATCHING those beautiful little kindergarten girls dancing. Picturing Ashley singing and dancing too. There were tears of sadness and joy. When the choir sang the song Hallelujah at the finale’ Oh, to hear them sing! I think Ashley could hear them in heaven. These children of ours sang with there hearts. “Suzanne, you did an amazing job with our children’s voices! How you brought the love and feelings of this music.” I truly believe down in my heart that this song was for Ashley. Without the instrumental music included it was just beautiful. Sue, I know you worked hard with these kids. They have amazing talents. I know NOW I can go through Christmas with having good feelings too. Maybe God has given us some peace to this all. I thank God for giving us the Grace He have given so far. To carry us through the rest of this year. And to start the new year with Him. Trish thank you for holding me up too. The bracelet is beautiful. I will treasure it daily. I feel I am carrying Ashley with me. It gives me comfort knowing that I have her with me everyday. We will still have some hard days ahead and I hope we will be able to savor the good memories of our dear Ashley. And to uphold each other as a family through this FIRST Christmas together. Love always your sister Kathy xoxoxo
Kathy Kemper <kempersgreenhs @sprint.ca>
Waterdown, ON - Monday, December 23, 2002 at 08:50 AM (CST)

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Trish, Ken, & Family
I just wanted to wish you all a Very Merry Christmas & a Happy New Year!
Kim & family (Austin's relatives) <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, On Canada - Monday, December 23, 2002 at 08:38 AM (CST)

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Trish,
I just wanted to stop by and wish you and your family a very Merry Christmas. I hope you can find some comfort in knowing that Ashley is spending Christmas with Jesus this year. For he is the very reason for our celebration. What a huge Birthday party they must have in Heaven on Christmas!! I can just see Ashley attending with her Grandma.
I don't know who it was in the guest book that said they could just picture jesus' fingernails painted with rainbows since Ashley' been there with him but that is the picture I see in my mind everytime I visit your site and think about Ashely and its a very sweet picture. Thanks for continuing to share so much of yourself. It so very brave and kind of you and so helpful to other NB families like mine.
Big Hugs, Kathy (Aunt To Trey NB,IV www.caringbridge.org/va/trey)

Kathy Whitt <kathyphilw@hotmail.com>
Garner, NC USA - Monday, December 23, 2002 at 06:38 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken & Trish, I have been following your journal since the end of October so I am fairly new to your story. My heart goes out to you. I just wanted to share a verse that has been special to me. Ps.30:5b-"weeping may endure for the night, but JOY comes in the morning!" I am praying for your family that you will begin to feel the stirrings of joy as our Father comforts you in His arms.
Linda Blaak <taralin2000@yahoo.com>
Brantford, ON Canada - Sunday, December 22, 2002 at 09:19 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish, Derek, Danielle and Nathan,
We continue to hold you all up, by name, before the throne of grace of our heavenly Father, for His comfort, strength, and inner peace in these days. We miss Ashley too, and the poem in the guest book is quite beautiful, we think. May you "get through" these difficult days in God's strength, leaning fully on Him. He is there for you!!
We also pray that Ashley's memories and videos will bring you some moments of special family times now too.
We love you all,
Annette and Robert, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton, ON Canada - Sunday, December 22, 2002 at 01:16 PM (CST)

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Ken and Trish:

Thinking of your family during this holiday season. Thought you might find some comfort in this beautiful poem.

MY FIRST CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN

I see the countless Christmas trees
Around the world below,
With tiny lights like heaven's stars
Reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so spectacular.
Please wipe away that tear.
For I am spending Christmas
With Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs
That people hold so dear.
But the sound of music can't compare
With the Christmas choir up here.

I have no words to tell you
Of the joy of their voices bring.
For it is beyound description
To hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me.
I see the pain inside your heart.
But I am not so far away
We really aren't apart.

So be happy for me dear ones.
You know I hold you dear.
And be glad I'm spending Christmas
With Jesus Christ this year.

I can't tell you of the splendor or the peace here in this place.
Can you just imagine Chirstmas with our Saviour face to face?
I'll ask Him to lift your spirit as I tell him of your love.
So then pray for one another as you lift your eyes above.

Please let your hearts be joyful and let your spirit sing
For I am spending Christmas in heaven and walking with the King.

So have a Merry Christmas
And wipe away that tear.
Remember I am spending Christmas
With Jesus Christ this year!


Kevin & Emily DeWeerd <kdeweerd@aol.com>
Caledonia, Canada - Friday, December 20, 2002 at 12:59 PM (CST)

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Ken and Tricia
Thinking of you today. It has been a month without Ashley and sometimes it feels like it has been forever and yet sometimes it feels like it was yesterday. But I feel her spirit living on in my heart and many others. God Bless!
Love Karen
Karen Scharringa <SCalvinkaren@aol.com>
- Friday, December 20, 2002 at 07:53 AM (CST)

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Dear Trish & family,
I've been reading your guest book entries and what a testamony.
To have people from everywhere praying for you all is truly a gift.
We continue to pray for comfort for you and the biggest hugs are sent to you all.
The girls are always talking about Ashley.
You are an amazing family, to have the courage to continue this website is truly the
work of God's strength. I pray that the pain you feel will be filtered to love and enjoyment
of your family here and the thought of one day being with your special angel.
There isn't a doubt in my mind that God has big plans for us all, we just have to keep our
minds on His will.
We wish you all a very Blessed Christmas and a journey that will reward you with peace.
God Bless,
liz martorano <martorano@sympatico.ca>
brantford, on canada - Thursday, December 19, 2002 at 08:51 PM (CST)

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Hi! This is my first time visiting Ashley's site. I've been a follower of Toireasa's Dream, treated at CHOP in PA and Alex Scott's site who is presently being treated at CHOP in PA. I am sincerely sorry for your loss. It is true what you said about not being able to understand what a parent goes through until you as a parent goes through such a devastating event.

My neighbor passed at the age of 5 after a 2-1/2 year battle with NB. It was a horrible time to see what this disease does to little children. I keep pictures of my neighbor as well as Alex on my fridge so that I can be reminded of what is happening to little children and how some are suffering. Alex has a lemonade stand which she sets up several times a year to raise money for research. It has been very successful thus far.

Just wanted to let you know that I plan on making a donation in Ashley's name to Alex's fund. I truly feel you and your family's pain and will keep you in my prayers this holiday season. I am always amazed at how strong you parents have been and continue to be throughout these terrible events. Believe it or not, knowing you through this site and what you have had to endure and what Ashley has had to endure keeps things in perspective for me and I'm hoping and praying that it is making me more deserving of my children.

My sincere wishes for you and your family through this difficult time.
Kristin A. Milosek <kmilosek@saul.com>
Philadelphia, PA USA - Thursday, December 19, 2002 at 08:00 AM (CST)

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Dear Tricia,
No, you are not the only ones--you are not alone, although I know it seems like it sometimes. Christmas will be hard, so will all the "firsts", and it's OK to be sad or angry. We are continuing to keep you in our prayers. This is our first Christmas without Charles, too, and with God's grace both our families will get through it, thank God we have other children to keep us going! Lifting you daily to Him.
Susan DeGroot <Homeagainfarm92@aol.com>
Mason, MI USA - Wednesday, December 18, 2002 at 01:20 PM (CST)

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Hi Tricia and Ken. Your last journal entry made me really think about Ashley and her cute little requests. When you write about her and the things she said or did, it makes all of us feel closer to her. Thank you for that. We miss you, I hope to talk to you before the holidays, xoxoxo
Jane Cassano
Hamilton, ON - Wednesday, December 18, 2002 at 10:39 AM (CST)

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Trish - We all keep reading for the same reason you keep writing, I think there is a connection that helps to heal. Its something we all need.

I'm another one who feels the pain of loss and I don't even know your family - Ashley truly touched so many lives in this community, brought out the best in so many, reminds us all what is important in this life.

Trish, your faith will see you through this journey. Look how far you've come so far. I ache for you as a mother and I pray with hope that ALL our daily prayers get you through this. Time doesn't heal, its love that heals. God Bless you and your family. Many blessings, peace and grace.
Denise <dmoxam@cogeco.ca>
Waterdown, - Tuesday, December 17, 2002 at 10:52 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken,Trisha,Derek,Danielle and Nathan

I really don't know what to say. Reading your last journal makes me so sad knowing how much pain you guys are going through. Yet, your strength and gift of writing this journal is so amazing!! I find myself checking your website to see how your doing and also to just look at Ashley's pictures. I find comfort in looking at her beautiful smile. What also amazes me is the very last picture on this website of Ashley showing off her crafts. I was there when you took that picture and I will not forget how we went to the hospital to see Ashley because she was not doing very well, and there to our surprise Ashley was proudly sitting up doing her crafts. She had no worries. She always AMAZED us !! And thats the way we are going to remember her!! Ashley was the person she was because God chose great parents like you who gave her a great life.

We pray you are able to find some comfort and joy this holiday season. We do believe Heaven is a great place to be, but we also understand your pain because being with you was also a great place for Ashley.

We Love you lots and pray that God will continue to uphold you give you much needed comfort at this time.
Chris and Michelle Deweerd
Greensville, Ontario, - Tuesday, December 17, 2002 at 01:57 PM (CST)

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Hi Tricia
My name is Kathy. I have been following Ashely's story since late Sept. when as I begin searching the internet for help when a member of my own family , My 4 year old nephew Trey was also diagnosed with NB stage 4. Ashley's site was the frist childs site that I visited. I have to tell you, her sweet little face just melted my heart. I read your entire journal that frist night. I gained a wealth of medical information as well as an instant attachment to Ashely. Thank you so very much for sharing not only very valuable medical information but also your sweet brave liitle girl. My neice (Treys mom) is a 24 year old single parent. Just watching her bravery as her Son endures this treatment is unreal. I know she is dying inside. Reading your personal feelings has help me understand what she must be feeling even when she act so brave. I just wanted to let you know that sharing Ashley's and your families incredible fight is a true inspiration to other families fighting this fight. Im so sorry Ashley ultimatly lost her fight here on earth. I cant imagine your pain. I visit your site everyday and pray for your family constantly. Thanks again for your sharing. (Treys site: www.caringbridge.org/va/trey)
kathy whitt <kathyphilw@hotmail.com>
garner, nc usa - Tuesday, December 17, 2002 at 12:10 PM (CST)

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Wow. I just read through the last 10 or 12 guess book entries... I always think I can "sneak" into the website quickly, just to make sure you're all OK... never happens. The quick peek I mean. Thank you Eric and Martina (sorry I forgot your last name already) for the BEAUTIFUL poem. I managed to read through your last entry Trish for the second time with only a couple tears (the first time I lost it by the last paragragh), but then I hit the poem... I picture Ashley with wisdom that we can't begin to imagine, with her biggest most beautiful smile, looking down to us and saying "Com'on guys Don't worry, Be happy... Everything you taught me, everything I held in my heart while I was there with you...IT'S ALL TRUE!!! Jesus is the absolute neatest guy..." I never thought I'd be picturing Jesus with a rainbow manicure... Thanks Ken. Trish your last entry was encouraging because I think we can sense the healing beginning and I praise the Lord for that. Its so comforting to know that you have such strong support through family like Kathy and Paul and friends who helped with the kids' Christmas shopping... to mention a few. So many of us are upholding you in prayer, it's heart-warming to see God provide for you in so many ways, through so many human hearts and hands. Thank you Lord.
Marnie Hood and family <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, Ontario , - Monday, December 16, 2002 at 01:45 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken & Trish,

I have been meaning to write you for a while. My husband and I have been keeping you and your family in our prayers for a very long time and were saddened to hear of Ashley's passing. We are thankful to the Lord that you have comfort in knowing she is with Jesus and please know that we are still thinking and praying for you often.
Cor and Yolanda Vanleeuwen (nee VanAmerongen) <corandyo@aol.com>
Guelph, Canada - Sunday, December 15, 2002 at 09:15 PM (CST)

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Trish and family:

We have been following your journals for quite some time now and would like to thank you for sharing so much of your personal lives with us. In doing this you have allowed us to share your sorrow, pain, happiness, sadness and grief.

After reading the journals leading up to and directly after Ashley's passing I was left asking myself how I could feel as though I had lost someone close to me without even knowing Ashley. Your family has touched many lives with your open hearts and willingness to share your personal lives with complete strangers and for this we thank you.

I would like to post this poem for you to read in hopes that it might put a smile on your face this Christmas season, even for just a brief moment. When I first read it both my husband and I said it reminded us of Ashley :-)

God Bless you and your family. Be strong Merry Christmas :-)

My First Christmasin Heaven

I see the countless Christmas trees
around the world below,
With tiny lights, like Heaven’s stars,
Reflecting on the snow.

The Light is so spectacular,
please wipe away the tear.
For I am spending Christmas with
Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs
that people hold so dear.
But the sounds of music can’t compare
with the Christmas Choir up here.

I have no words to tell you ,
the joy their voices bring.
For it is beyond description
to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me,
I see the pain inside your heart.
But I am not so far away ,
We really are not far apart.

So be happy for me dear ones,
You know I hold you dear.
And be glad I’m spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year.

I sent you each a special gift,
from my Heavenly home above.
I sent you each a memory
of my undying love.

After all, love is a gift more precious
than pure gold .
It was always most important,
in the stories Jesus told.

Please love and keep each other,
as My Father said to do.
For I can’t count the blessings or love
He has for each of you.

So have a Merry Christmas
and wipe away that tear.
Remember I am spending Christmas,
with Jesus Christ this Year.

Eric & Martina Cannon



Eric & Martina Cannon <martinac32@sympatico.ca>
Hamilton, Ontario, - Saturday, December 14, 2002 at 09:42 PM (CST)

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trish, ken, derek, danielle and nathan
may you continue to feel God's comfort and strength through this time. you're still all in my prayers. and how blessed you are by God to have such a wonderful family for support and love. thank you for everything you've shared, ashley's story has given me a new perspective on so many things in my life. thank you again, and God bless.

kimberly dykstra
caledonia, ON canada - Saturday, December 14, 2002 at 08:13 PM (CST)

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Hi Tricia
...still thinking of you and wishing you the best ....
Kim (Austin's relative) <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, On Canada - Friday, December 13, 2002 at 07:53 PM (CST)

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Hi Trish and Family...just wanted to wish you all a Very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year...you will be always be in my Prayers God Bless Luv Uncle George LOL
George Morrow <electrongeo@yahoo.com>
Port Carling, Ont. Canada - Friday, December 13, 2002 at 06:14 PM (CST)

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I just wanted to sign in and let you know that I'm still following your story. I wish I had been able to know you before Ashley passed away, but I'm thankful that the Lord allowed our paths to cross anyway. I will continue to pray for your family during this difficult time. Sounds like you are leaning on Him and He is taking excellent care of you. Blessings!
Khalita www.caringbridge.com/nc/khalita Duke Peds BMT aplastic anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Friday, December 13, 2002 at 10:37 AM (CST)

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To Trish:
Thank you for continuing to share so much. I've wanted so badly to tell you how beautiful Ashley looked. It makes me catch my breath to picture her with her angel's wings! Thinking of you and sending love and warm thoughts,
Kathy Baird
Kathy Baird
Millgrove, On - Thursday, December 12, 2002 at 08:04 PM (CST)

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May God comfort you and give you strength during this difficult time. We have been praying for your family for the past few months and we will continue to do so. I pray that God will bring healing to your broken heart. I have not experienced this same heartache, but I know how losing a child feels as though you've lost a part of yourself. Maybe our angels are playing together in Heaven.
Julia Kooy <kooyj@crcna.ca>
Ancaster, ON Canada - Thursday, December 12, 2002 at 11:05 AM (CST)

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Dear Friends,

Mike and I hope that you are hanging on. I still have no words to comfort you or ease your pain, but I think of you both every day. Mike and I are still in disbelief with our own loss and lost in a sea of pain and heartache. Scott and Matthew are our saving grace, they breathe life into us every day. Take care of each other and know that we will get through this.

Love Tracy
Tracy Sherk <thesherks@rogers.com>
Brantford, - Wednesday, December 11, 2002 at 05:13 PM (CST)

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To The Goud Family
You are in our prayers , we think of you often, more so now that the holidays are near, As we celerbrate jesus 's life we are sadden with the emotions you will endure over this wonderful time of year . Remember God is with you , turn to him daily , hourly and by the minute and he alone will get you through this, because he loves you and your family. Wishing you and your family a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.May god bless you and be at your side this christmas..

alicia & sean hicks
strabane, - Wednesday, December 11, 2002 at 02:53 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish, Derek, Danielle and Nathan:

Just to let you know we think of you often and continue to pray for you as you go day by day, and carry on in life without your dear Ashley. As the Christmas season is near and we have joy in the celebration of Jesus' birth, may you find comfort in knowing that others are thinking of you and praying for you as you go through this season without Ashley. I'm sure that every day brings on different emotions ... sad ones and happy ones. Sad ones because you miss Ashley and happy ones because of the wonderful memories your precious little girl has given you.

God Bless You All!

Randy, Renee, Danielle and Kyle Simpson
Renee Simpson <rsimpson27@cogeco.ca>
Dundas, Ont Canada - Tuesday, December 10, 2002 at 03:57 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken & Trish: I just finished reading your latest entry and am amazed by your faith and God's grace as you let us know what you are doing now. God has truly given you the gift of comforting us. I know that Christmas will be hard this and every year from now on but it is through Christmas that we are assured that your little Ashley is with Jesus. I continue to ask God to be with you and your children and give you the strength to carry on. I wish you the peace and comfort of this season to be with you and Ken and Derek and Danielle and Nathan.
Jodi Mobach <bikemech28@aol.com>
Flamborough, - Tuesday, December 10, 2002 at 12:53 PM (CST)

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Hi Trish and Ken and Kids, I just wanted to let you know that we are still here and still eager to know how you are all coping with life right now. The people who cared about you before Ashley leaving still care very much and I hope that you have as near to normal Christmas as is possible, with all the pain you are feeling right now, may you also feel some of the joy and love that is being sent your way every day.

Sharon Byrne <sbyrne@cogeco.ca>
Dundas, On CA - Monday, December 09, 2002 at 10:06 AM (CST)

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Trish,
Please don't feel that you shouldn't continue to keep
in touch with all of us through this website. I, as
well as many, many others will often(usually daily)
come to this site for your thoughts, feelings,
spritual guidance and strength. Ashley will Never
die in our memory and our thoughts and prayers are
with you every passing day.
Peace, Love and Joy this Holiday Season
Michele McDonald (Austin's relative) <McMcDn@cs.com>
Burlington, - Sunday, December 08, 2002 at 07:39 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud family,
We pray for you every day and we also went to the funeral and we went up to see ASHLEY. I was really sad.
Michael Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton, ON Canada - Sunday, December 08, 2002 at 04:27 PM (CST)

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Hi Trish & Family;
When I first heard of Ashley's passing, I could not stop crying - as a parent - I couldn't imagine the pain you were feeling. Since Ashley's passing I have been visiting the site and reading the journals every couple of days. Although I am still brought to tears, it is different, there are now tears of joy as well. Having read the entries of the people whom Ashley has touched in her short life is overwhelming, yet I keep thinking that she has the same strength as her mom, and it seems the rest of her family.
I am only a business acquaintance with Trish but when Ashley was first diagnosed I was stunned at how Trish was able to discuss Ashley's disease without being reduced to tears. I saw a strength in Trish that impressed me beyond words, and reading the journals it seems that strength is a family characteristic. My thoughts and prayers are with the Goud family. God Bless.

Sandie M <bssltd@rogers.com>
Markham, On - Sunday, December 08, 2002 at 03:08 PM (CST)

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Thank you for your words which are so heartfelt and continue to inspire us. Your family continues to be in our prayers and thoughts. When we go to the hospital your Ashley's presence is still felt. We will definately be lighting a candle this evening not only in memory of your beautiful angel Ashley, but for every family whose child has passed into Glory.
Piera and Pete <piegraci@enoreo.on.ca>
Woodbridge, Canada - Sunday, December 08, 2002 at 03:00 PM (CST)

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Ken and Trish and kids,
I am sending this little note in the hopes that knowing people are still thinking and praying about you over the recent loss of your daughter will be some small comfort as you grieve. We pray for you daily and ask God to strengthen you in this difficult time.
Benj and Grace Vander Meulen and kids
- Friday, December 06, 2002 at 07:46 PM (CST)

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Dear Trish and Ken, I too am feeling the way that Jane has said in her e-mail recently about Ashley. Thank you for teaching us about Love, Patience and Hope. Ashley made us believe in Miracles and Hope. Ashley was a Miracle always defying the odds up against her. And the Waiting taught us how to be patient. She made us believe in the word Hope. That word was a big one. Whenever you guys came over as a family. We did what families do. The kids did what kids do. And Ashley would do what she would do, “Aunt Kathy you got anything good to eat?” She would go directly to my fridge and pull out the cheez-whiz and kielbasa. Walk over to my drawers and grab Ritz crackers or vegetable crackers. She was quite comfortable doing this. She knew she had to eat. Her joyful spirit and those Smiles…..she was always happy to visit us. What a good memory. Well just to let you and Ken know that we always held onto the word HOPE. We still do. I HOPE you will be comforted by us a family. I HOPE you will embrace us forever as a family. I HOPE you will be able to be a family again. And to be able to go on as a family. I HOPE, HOPE, HOPE!!!! I trust and believe that God is embracing you both Trish and Ken, with
His Grace to carry on. We truly and sincerely are humbled and honored to be part of your lives. “ As the days go on take them hour by hour, one day at a time” (as Trish says) We love you guys. Love always Kathy (and Paul).


Kathy Kemper <kempersgreenhs @sprint.ca>
waterdown,ont., - Thursday, December 05, 2002 at 10:44 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken & Trish & Family: Not a day goes by that I don't think of you and the pain and loss you must be feeling, but I want you to know that also a day does not go by with out me praying that God will grant you grace and some peace as you go on from here. It is my hope that you feel God's presence and take comfort from all these entries. Your family has truly set an example for by which we all can learn. Praying for you always Jodi Mobach
Jodi Mobach <bikemech28@aol.com>
Flamborough, - Wednesday, December 04, 2002 at 12:52 PM (CST)

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Dear the Goud family. I am 23 years old and I lost my mother to cancer four years ago. Although this caused me much pain I cannot imagine the pain that you are feeling right now as you bury your precious daughter. I read about Ashley online at the Spectator website and felt that although I never knew her or saw her that I had to write to you and say that I am so sorry for your loss. Cancer is such a "mean illness" I doesn't discriminate taking young and old alike, however I like to think that cancer can never kill the spirit of the person in our lives. Yhe person lives on in the hearts of those they touch. I pray that your little girl will live on in those she touched and that she will live in heaven forever with God. God bless you and Ashley. Pslam 23 + Psalm 91
Amanda Shiomi
Burlington ON, Canada - Wednesday, December 04, 2002 at 10:01 AM (CST)

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I had the chance to meet Ashley, and was she special. She was my first cancer patient. I am a student nurse and I took care of her. I could not believe the spirit she had. The first time i walked in the room she smiled at me and asked if she could paint my nails. The next shift i brought her a nail polish and a Barbie nail file. I just wanted to let you know that she touched my life. She made me think about a lot of the little things. God bless her.
Rachel Gagnon
Hamilton, ON - Tuesday, December 03, 2002 at 10:15 PM (CST)

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My deepest sympathy to your family on the most tragic loss any family could possibly go through. I understand what you are feeling because we also lost a child only 31/2 years ago and she was only three. We somehow continue and manage to put one foot in front of the other each day. We also have other children but were to young to remember their sister but through our stories and memories we keep her spirit alive. There is a great organization called Bereved Families of Ontario that was a great help for myself. If you have any questions or would just like someone to talk with who has experienced the loss of a child please feel free to email me sometimes I feel that talking helps me when I'm having a bad day. Our prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.
Maria Commisso <vincec@worldchat.com>
Ancaster, Ont Canada - Tuesday, December 03, 2002 at 03:33 PM (CST)

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To All The Goud Family,
Kim has just said my thoughts. I too am Austin's
relative and am grateful at your spiritual guidance
and strength you have shown the Davis Family.They
need all the support they can get now. Happy
Belated Birthday Nathan and God Bless Your Family
this Christmas Season.
Michele McDonald (Austin's relative) <McMcDn@cs.com>
Burlington, - Tuesday, December 03, 2002 at 07:54 AM (CST)

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Tricia
Thankyou again for sharing your thoughts ... I could not be at Ashley's funeral but I wanted to be so thankyou for printing the words that were spoken... what an inspiration! Thankyou too for all the support you have given and are still giving to Austin and his family. I too hope he can be the one to defie all the odds and survive this horrible disease.
Kim (Austin's relative) <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, On Canada - Monday, December 02, 2002 at 04:06 PM (CST)

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You are not so much as a thought or a prayer away from me... how my heart aches for you; I'm sure these are most difficult days. I will continue to ask Him to provide for you in every way. Hold tight to each other and Jesus will hold tight to all of you. Lots of love, Marnie
PS I heard a Bible verse quoted last week: Ps 30:5 :
"Weeping may endure for a night,
But joy comes in the morning."
I wasn't in the best frame of mind and so my thought was " Yeah, but it can be a long long night..." and for about a day and a half I felt like a cloud was hanging over me, I was feeling like "How are we ever going to find joy in this??..." Then I heard John McArthur's radio talk (which I normally never hear because I'm not in the car that early but Thursday morning I decided for some reason to leave early for work (which I virtually NEVER do) and I got a great lesson on "Joy"... part of which was this:
Christian joy is the emotion springing from the deep-down confidence of the Christian that God is in perfect control of everything and will bring from it our good in time and our glory in eternity. (taken off the Grace To You website)
That has helped me get a bit better perspective on things... sorry everyone for the long entry, I was going to email it instead of guestbooking it but then decided to share it in general. Jesus promised us the Holy Spirit and the first 3 fruits of the Spirit are LOVE, JOY, PEACE... Let us hold on to that. Lots of love
Marnie Hood <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown Ontario , - Monday, December 02, 2002 at 03:06 PM (CST)

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Tricia & Ken,

After reading your last entry, the first thing that popped into my head was 'don't thank me - THANK YOU'. Thank you for so many things. I'll give you a few examples - thank you for bringing laughter to my job, even during the most difficult moments. Thank you for allowing me into your lives and for showing your appreciation every step of the way. Thank you for being so kind to EVERYONE at the hospital - no matter how stressed you were. You are both amazing people that I will never forget. You and your wonderful daughter have taught me alot and I truly appreciate it. I miss you but I know that I will be talking to you soon - hang in there. xoxo
Jane <cassanoj@hhsc.ca>
Hamilton, On Canada - Sunday, December 01, 2002 at 07:40 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family:
Our thoughts and prayers are still with you. We trust that God is giving you the strength to go on. May you have a restful day filled with many precious memories, love and peace.
Also, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NATHAN!!!!!!!!
From Steven and David Nightingale and their family.
Steven and David Nightingale
Dundas, ON - Sunday, December 01, 2002 at 11:14 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish and family,
Ashley's spirit was a joy to many and is an inspiration to us all.
With deepest condolences, John Siegner (zenon) and Family

J. Siegner
Waterdown, ON - Friday, November 29, 2002 at 05:31 PM (CST)

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My heart goes out to you in your time of grief.
Marilyn <mja1959@msn.com>
Stoney Creek, Ont Canada - Friday, November 29, 2002 at 11:56 AM (CST)

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To the Goud family: Our sincerest condolences on the loss of your beautiful little girl Ashley. I have a mental picture of Ashley from her dance class on Saturday mornings, with her fancy purple outfit, her big wide semi-toothless smile and her mostly shiny round head.I remember
thinking how happy she always seemed, and I realize now that truly we were all seeing the joyful face of one of God's truly special little angels. She has shown you and your family that you are extraordinary people and despite your grief, I know that you understand and appreciate what she has shown us all about the importance of our time here with each other.
Sincerely, the Foley Family,Ancaster,On
C.Foley
Ancaster, Canada - Thursday, November 28, 2002 at 02:36 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken & Trish,

My condolences to your tragic loss. It is so sad when someone that young dies of something like that. I will be donating blood this coming Wednesday at the clinic in Ancaster. As for who I will donate in memory of, I will donate in memory of your precious little girl.

Rest in peace, Ashley. We will all miss you.
Ron
Ancaster, ON Canada - Thursday, November 28, 2002 at 08:24 AM (CST)

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Trish, Ken and family: You are always in our thoughts and prayers. May your beautiful Ashley be singing with the angels.


Suzanne Langford
Highland Secondary School, Dundas, - Wednesday, November 27, 2002 at 09:07 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Family,
I heard of your loss. My prayers are with you and your family. Hold fast to our dear Father in heaven. Be assured that He loves you and is holding your little one close to him. I have been inspired by your website...I have read and wept...I have gone and given my children a kiss while they sleep. May God give you peace that passes all understanding.
Jeanne Kloet-Fisher and Family
Jeanne Kloet-Fisher <jeannekloetfisher.hotmail.com>
Waterloo, ON - Wednesday, November 27, 2002 at 08:56 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish, Derek, Danielle, and Nathan,
At supper time, our Michael prayed "Please be with Ashley as she is in heaven now. Please be with her family as it is not normal without her."
The students in grade one (Ashley's classmates from last year) have such beautiful, child like faith and that is really helping them as we go through these days together.
They have drawn pictures full of pink and purple balloons, angels, and rainbows.
The Lord is truly strengthening you, Trish, as you write these journal entries. Thank you so much for sharing so much of Ashley's life with all of us.
Go with God, one day or one hour at a time, and I believe He will go with you and Ken, and the children.
We continue to pray for each one of you, by name.
Sending love and prayers,

Annette and Robert, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 27, 2002 at 05:18 PM (CST)

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hi ken and trish,
I just want you guys to know that you are always in my heart and prayers. It's been so difficult for you...

"But through all the tears that we cry
We'll survive
Cause when we're torn apart
Shattered and scarred
God has the love and grace to save us"

May God be with you and comfort you with His loving arms.
Love always,
Melanie


melanie groen <igotu_babe@hotmail.com>
w. flamborough, on can. - Wednesday, November 27, 2002 at 12:56 PM (CST)

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Thinking of you guys always and wishing you all God's comfort.
Monique <Monalisaw81@aol.com>
- Wednesday, November 27, 2002 at 07:31 AM (CST)

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To the Goud Family- I have always found comfort in this poem...I hope you will too.

Do not stand at my grave and weep. I am not there. I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn rain. When you awaken in the mornings hush, I am the swift up-flinging of quiet birds in circling flight. I am the soft star that shines at night. Do not stand at my grave and cry. I am not there. I did not die.
Lori Watson
Etobicoke, Ont Canada - Wednesday, November 27, 2002 at 07:14 AM (CST)

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I don't know if you remember me but I only ever met Ashley once and she was really nice to me. I came with my Aunt Joyce, Uncle Rob and their two daughters,Kelsey and Mandy.I remember she asked Kelsey," Isn't she going to make something with playdoh, too?" I was just watching them have fun and didn't except to invite to do whatever they were doing.But it was very nice of Ashley to do that.This web page is amazing and you are all in my heart and I'll pray for you. My parents give their condolences even though they never met Ashley,I am sure they would have loved her to tears. Thanks,Ashley, I will never forget you and I'll see you in heaven.And thank you to her parents for being so nice to me.
Gifty Afful <freckles33@hotmail.com>
Brampton, Ont Canada - Tuesday, November 26, 2002 at 06:20 PM (CST)

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Thank you for sharing with us your last moments together with Ashley. You will always treasure the joy she brought into so many lives. I was fortunate enough to be with my Father when he passed away and it was a very religious experience for me to be a part of his wish. I will always carry with me that special moment. He passed away on Father's Day and it comforts me knowing that he is in heaven with our Father. I do remember the numbness that accompanies life altering events and trying to carry through the motions of daily routine. Goodbye is very hard to say to our loved ones. Trust in God, family and friends will help you through the long days ahead. Ashley was a very special person who touched many lives. God Bless.
Arlene M Gerard <amgia@hotmail.com>
North Liberty, IA USA - Monday, November 25, 2002 at 11:56 PM (CST)

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Good evening Trish & family,
Thank you so much for sharing Ashley's life with so many of us. She truly was sent to teach us and that's exactly
what we felt on Saturday. Our girls keep praying with us so God will continue to guide all of you. They have
had moments when I thought they kinda understood but then they go back to thanking our Lord for her being
in our life and asking Him to remove the cancer.
Life through a child's eyes... it's true.
The ceremony on Saturday was Beautiful, Sweet, Uplifting and most of all a wonderful way to say good-bye
to a very special angel. We are touched by the thought that God put us all together to learn. Thank you :-)
Your strength can only be explained by our Holy Father, who gave you all and will continue to nurture you
throughout your lives. You all will be forever in my prayers and I look forward to spending some time with
you all.
AAAAAAAAnd a very big "WOW , YOU GUYS ARE AMAZING" to Karen, Kathy, their families and many more
people who put Saturday together. God sends the best kind of help when you need it the most. GOD BLESS
YOU ALL :-)
Keep praying, keep believing and know He is near. Luv Liz & family
liz martorano <martorano@sympatico.ca>
brantford, on canada - Monday, November 25, 2002 at 09:23 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken & Trish and Family: I want to thank you for sharing those moments that you shared with Ashley and your family. Your strength amazes me, I sure the grace of God is with you and it enables you to write. Please be assured that you are all still very much in our prayers. I hope that you remember to rely on Christ, for He assures us that when we are in the depths of sorrow, He carries us. I to was moved by your "celebration of Ashley's Life" and I have kept everything in a special box for Renee, so in time when the sorrow is not so hard we can look back and remember Ashley with fond memories of a little girl who had more faith and love and showed what it is to be a child of Jesus. You are always in our hearts and prayers, Jodi Mobach


Jodi Mobach <bikemech28@aol.com>
Flamborough, - Monday, November 25, 2002 at 08:28 PM (CST)

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dear Trish, Ken and family

The Celebration service for Ashley was very moving. We were especially touched by the launching of the balloons at the cemetery. For a brief moment those balloons took form in the shape of a rainbow. I'm sure that Ashley is very pleased and is very proud of the way she is being remembered by the many people who have come to know and love her.
I was thinking of you this evening and remembered a song which ministered to me when we first lost Sarah.I would like to share it with you. It is called WITH HOPE

This is not at all how/ We thought it was supposed to be/
We had so many plans for you/ We had so many dreams/
And now you've gone away / And left us with the memory of your smile/ And nothing we can say ? And nothing we can do/
Can take away the pain/ The pain of losing you/

but..."We can cry with hope/ We can say goodbye with hope/
'Cause we know our goodbye is not the end, oh no/
And we can grieve with hope/ 'Cause we believe with hope/
There's a place by God's grace/ There's a place where'll see your face again"/

And never had I known / Anything so hard to understand/
And never had I questioned more / The wisdom of God's plan/
But throught the cloud of tears / I see the Father smile and say well done/
And I imagine you / Where you wanted most to be/
seeing all your dreams come true/ 'Cause now you're home
And now you're free, and...

We have this hope as an anchor/ 'Cause we believe that everything/ God promised us is true, so...
We wait with hope/ And we ache with hope/
We hold on with hope/ We let go with hope.

by Stephen Curtis Chapman

It is my hope that these words have brought some comfort to you as they have to me. I will continue to keep your family in my thoughts and prayers. Please know that both Dave and I are here if you need somone to talk to.
With love, Mary Smith and family
Mary Smith <dwsmith@ionsys.com>
grimsby, ont canada - Monday, November 25, 2002 at 08:04 PM (CST)

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Ken and Trish,We were saddened to hear about the passing of little Ashley. Your family has been in our thoughts all day today. We really don't know what to say, except for that we know the Lord is there, near you at all times, especially so when you go through difficult times, and others are holding you up in prayer! May the Lord give you peace and comfort beyond all understanding. We will continue to pray for you in the days, and months ahead! Romans 8:28 is a great reminder of God's faithfullness, it sure has helped us through many difficult times in our lives.
Henry and Mirja Linde (friends of Bugs and Lin) <hml@worldchat.com>
Millgrove, Ontario Canada - Monday, November 25, 2002 at 05:30 PM (CST)

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My prayers are with Ashley's family during this horrible time. I will never begin to understand the agony of losing a child as my Husband and I have not yet been blessed with one of our own, but I lost my Mother four years ago to lung cancer and I know the pain of watching someone you love so much suffer. Hold on to the fact that Ashley is now one of Gods Angels and she is no longer in any pain and will always be in your heart and at your side watching over you and the rest of your family. I wish you all the best and I hope in time, the hurt will lessen for you. Remember, you now have your very own Guardian Angel watching out for you.
Jennifer Kerkow
Burlington, ON Canada - Monday, November 25, 2002 at 01:45 PM (CST)

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I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. My prayers are with you.
Rita Alexander <ritaalexander49@hotmail.com>
Hamilton, Canada - Monday, November 25, 2002 at 11:20 AM (CST)

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Miss Angel Ashley:
Many prayers and special thoughts to you. A girl of such bravery, courage and wisdom...you are so special. I put in a special request to my angel John Russell (who also fought the Nblast bug)...I told him to find you right away and take you to his special heavenly farm where he has magical butterflies, a heavenly healing house (very similar to his healing house he received from Make A Wish) and special rainbows. I just know that both of you are up there playing amongst the fluffiest clouds. I am sure you are sparkeling the brightest star for all of us tonight. John Russell always enjoyed Buzz Lightyear...so with Buzz..you can fly to infinity and beyond to shine the brightest star! God bless you angel Ashley and your special family. Your new pictures are so beautiful.

Thinking of You!
Shannon 0:-)
Shannon <www.caringbridge.org/page/johnrussell>
Eden Prairie, MN - Sunday, November 24, 2002 at 09:50 PM (CST)

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My thoughts and prayers have been with you all, all day. Thanks for the last journal entry, I'm sure its very difficult but perhaps it is somehow therapeutic for you. Karen N.(and others) expressed my thoughts more eloquently than I could have about "the day after..." and trying to return to "normal" life... I feel numb myself and I am "on the fringe" so we can only begin to imagine your level of "numbness"... Trust Him, Cry out to Him...
Marnie Hood and family <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, - Sunday, November 24, 2002 at 08:26 PM (CST)

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I was given a link to this site by a friend. I am sitting here in tears having read the latest journal entry. I pray that you all will be able to stay strong just like Ashley and continue to be supported by those who love you. I work at a daycare and I can't imagine what it must be like to watch a sweet little child get sick then get well and then die. God is mysterious sometimes but I beleive there is a bigger plan that none of us could fathom. Best wishes to you all.
Brandon <brandon2dollar@yahoo.com>
Radford, VA USA - Sunday, November 24, 2002 at 07:20 PM (CST)

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Ken and Trish
I was at my parents' the other day and they said that they had prayed for your family at Bible study (they're members of Ancaster Independent CRC). One thing they prayed for was your journey to becoming a "normal" family again. Ever since that conversation, I've been somewhat dissatisfied with it. It seems to imply that the last few years of your lives are a mistake or something. Although I know you wouldn't wish your past couple of weeks on anyone, and the worry etc. of the last couple of years, whatever God gives you for your life, THAT's normal. I'm sure you can't imagine your lives without the doctors, hospitals, clinic visits, you also likely can't imagine life without this journal and all the support and love you've received, by God's grace, through it. I'd just like to let you know that our prayers will continue for you in the days and weeks to come, on your journey to becoming an "abnormal" family.

I'd also like to take this opportunity to thank you again, for caring enough about everyone on the fringes of Ashley's life, for updating this journal so faithfully. Also, the guestbook provides just as much comfort to everyone else as to you. We find ourselves reading other entries and taking comfort from the messages of hope, peace and love.

God bless you all!

Ingrid Louwerse <louwerse@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON - Sunday, November 24, 2002 at 02:35 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish, Nathan, Danielle, and Derek:
So here we are the day after. It's the day after a wonderful celebration of life and hope. But the sadness is still very great. Yet in the sadness there is faith to help us. That faith in the promises of Jesus is STRONG AND TRUE! It's okay to be sad but in your sadness please allow the LORD to cover you with His unfailing love, as a blanket, warm and comforting. We all are sharing thoughts and prayers with you in our own homes today.
May God's love and peace uphold you all.
Karen Nightingale
Dundas, On. - Sunday, November 24, 2002 at 11:45 AM (CST)

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Ken,Trish and family

Ashley may be in GODS hands but the joy of being part of her life and watching the effect she had on everyone around her will always be in my heart.
My eyes swell with tears of sadness and joy from the great honour and previlage of being part of the service for
Ashley's wonderfull journey to Gods side in Heaven
Barry,Jenny,Murray&Dakota McDougall <jenbar@interlynx.net>
West Flamborough, ONT - Sunday, November 24, 2002 at 11:15 AM (CST)

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The Goud Family,
You may not know me, but my name is Marijke Lammers and I just wanted to tell you how blessed I feel to have just been present at your beautiful daughter's "celebration" service. Celebrating life is something we all need to do more often! But I just wanted to share with you a memory that I have of my mother as she was suffering from the disease cancer: I can remember watching television with her, and a fundraiser was on for children who suffer from leukemia. My mother, hairless herself from the effects that chemotherapy was having on her body, broke down. She, a 'grown' woman (although only 48 years of age), could not understand why God would allow such a devastating and evil disease to take over a young child's life. I tell you the truth, nothing in this world brings a person and a family closer to God than having to suffer the ravages of cancer. I can only imagine how strong and courageous your little Ashley must have been. Ken Bosveld used the term "trooper" in his eulogy yesterday morning... I could only smile, because that was the very word we used to describe our mother. We all need a little humour during times like the present. And that is okay. But ever since that time when my mother and I watched that show on television, I always imagined her as being one of the angels in heaven who would help to care for the young children who had to suffer like she did. Maybe Ashley and her will share their stories with the other angels in heaven. Just remember that Ashley has been restored to God's original intent for her life. She has been given a body free from the misery of this earthly disease, and now she can dance and sing all day long! She's praising her Heavenly Father and trusting that He will now take care of her earthly father and mother...
Nothing compares to the PROMISE we have in Jesus. Somewhere "over the rainbow" (which is a symbol of God's promise), is where your precious gift will remain until you can be with her again. I hope that you will find comfort in the memories and in your family. Be there for one another, that is what God is calling you to do right now. In doing so, I am sure will discover (as you probably have already) that God's love is present inside each and every one of your family members. God's peace and understanding be with all of you. Ashley is watching :)
Marijke Lammers <mlammer@redeemer.on.ca>
Waterdown, Ontario - Sunday, November 24, 2002 at 09:53 AM (CST)

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To the Goud's family
Our deepest sympathie for the lost of your angel Ashley.
She will always be miss and will always be remembered.
We wish for your family,peace,strenghtand courage.
The Melville family,Denise Mathew Justin
Simcoe,Ontario November24/02

Denise Melville <melsan@iaw.on.ca>
Simcoe, Ont Canada - Sunday, November 24, 2002 at 07:11 AM (CST)

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Trish, Ken, Nathan, Derek and Danielle:
I am so very sorry for your great and tragic loss. I couldn't imagine the pain you are all going through, though now that I am a parent myself, I imagine it is tremendous. I pray for you all for strength and for peace, and I want to let you know that you are in our thoughts and prayers. The funeral service today was absolutely beautiful and I know Ashley was shinning down on you all. It was so moving ~ I cannot even begin to express the emotions I felt. Unfortunately my husband was out of town for the week-end, but sends his deepest condolences along to you all as well. We will continue to pray for you and your families, and offer you our support. Praise the Lord for the comfort that Ashely is safe in the arms of Jesus and free from pain, and may He bless you in mourning. God Bless!
Michelle and Derek Steenhuis
- Saturday, November 23, 2002 at 09:08 PM (CST)

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ken and trish: as i was walking to my seat at the funeral today, i took one look at ashley and was immediatly sad. As the service went on I heard the voice of a couragous young girl telling me not to cry because she is free at last. Free of cancer i mean. I have a feeling that she is in good hands now, and i have a feeling you are to. I am very sorry about your loss. Just think ashley has a real cell phone now if you really need someone 2 talk to just give her a call. I'm sure she would love to hear the voices of the people who were healthy but at the same time battling to keep the same disease she was fighting away. I didn't know her that well but i've come to know her th
roughthe journals. don't know what to say as u can tell so I'll lighten the mood with a corney joke that might make you laugh Why did the chicken cross the road? to get to the other side ha ha ha ha. my heart goes out to u and your family in this difficult time.
stefennie jagt ( daughter of john and nancy jagt)
- Saturday, November 23, 2002 at 07:42 PM (CST)

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Dear Trish, Ken, Derek, Danielle and Nathan:
I am thinking of all of you today and my prayers are with you. Ashley was so very lucky to have had such a loving family. She was a remarkable girl, so full of enthusiasm and love. I enjoyed spending time with her, and knowing her, and will always admire her fight, tremendous courage and strength.....Through all that she endured, she has definitely earned her wings!!
Maria Restivo <mrestivo@worldchat.com>
Stoney Creek, ON - Saturday, November 23, 2002 at 06:40 PM (CST)

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Ken,Trish,Derek,Danielle and Nathan
It is our prayer that you will find comfort in knowing that Ashley is safe in the arms of Jesus. May He give you His strength today and in the days to come.
Clarence and Annette Visser , Ashley, Alaina, Kimberley and Nathan
Dundas, Ont Canada - Saturday, November 23, 2002 at 06:31 PM (CST)

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I had to let you know that you have been in our prayers.
I can't imagine what you must be feeling right now but know that through all of this the Lord has used your family in such a special way. He truly must have such a special place for Ashley in His loving arms.
Twila Paris has a beautiful song called
VISITOR FROM HEAVEN
A visitor from heaven,
if only for awhile,
a gift of love to be returned,
we think of you and smile!
A visitor from heaven,
accompanied by grace,
reminding of a better love ,
and of a better place,
with aching hearts and empty arms,
we send you with a name,
it hurts so much to let you go but we're so glad you came!
A vsitor from heaven,
if only for a day,
we thank Him for the time He gave,
and now it's time to say,
we trust you to the Father's love,
and to his tender care,
held in the everlasting arms,
and we're so glad you're there!
This song helped me through the loss of our stillborn baby and pray that it will in someway comfort your family and friends.
Bless you and may the Lord strengthen you during this very difficult time.


Chris and Neil Errington (friends of Bugs and Lin) <cadycroft@cogeco.ca>
Burlington, ON Canada - Saturday, November 23, 2002 at 04:45 PM (CST)

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tammy
- Saturday, November 23, 2002 at 04:30 PM (CST)

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i feel really bad for her and her family
Raychell
waterdown, ontario - Saturday, November 23, 2002 at 04:28 PM (CST)

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My heart goes out to you and your family. I pray that God will continue to give you the strenght to continue on. So that one day you may join your beautiful daughter in a better place.
will deepest simpathy
Tracy and Chris Robb
Lynden, Ont. canada - Saturday, November 23, 2002 at 03:47 PM (CST)

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Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Lou Alber & the Staff of Xegas
- Saturday, November 23, 2002 at 01:19 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish,
As you know, ward 3B never closes, so unfortunately some of the nurses had to work today instead of attending Ashley's funeral as we would have wanted to. We still felt we needed to do something for Ashley to celebrate her life, so at 12:00 five of us went outside with pink and purple balloons and set them free, as you had suggested in your last journal entry. We stood in awe as they were wisked away higher and higher until they were only dots in the sky. You are all in our thoughts today and we will miss Ashley's beautiful smile and amazing personality.
Kelly Graves RN <gravesk@sympatico.ca>
Dundas, Ontario, Canada, - Saturday, November 23, 2002 at 12:18 PM (CST)

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my parents went to the funeral home last night and got me a purple ribbon pin... ill wear it all the time. i also heard ashley used to dance at dancesations... which i where i used to dance too!! i know there are a lot of people there who are going to miss ashley a lot.
lauryn g
lynden, ont canada - Saturday, November 23, 2002 at 09:17 AM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family,
We are all very sad to hear of your loss of your beautiful daughter Ashley. Lydia sends an extra big hug for Danielle and hopes to see her soon at Dance. God bless you all, you are in our thoughts and prayers.
With our love
Julie, Simon, Jemima, Eloise and Lydia Fogarty
Ancaster, - Saturday, November 23, 2002 at 08:37 AM (CST)

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Dear Tricia, Ken and Family. I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Ashley was a beautiful little girl, I know what it is like to lose a child and you have to experience it to know how it feels. You and your family are in my heart and in my prayers. God Bless You.
Wendy Parnell <wendyparnell121@hotmail.com>
Welland, Ont Canada - Saturday, November 23, 2002 at 08:11 AM (CST)

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Dear Goud family
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
my paryers are with you
hanna
- Saturday, November 23, 2002 at 07:51 AM (CST)

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May the promise of His return and the resurrection His, be a comfort to you all. May He give you strength.
Jack and Cathy Scholtens and family
Burlington, - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 11:34 PM (CST)

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Ken, Trish & Family,
My sincere sympathy on the loss of such a precious little girl.. May the Lord strengthen you & all your family & extended family..To know that she has been promoted to glory is such a comfort. Although I don't know you that well, my thoughts and prayers are with you in these most difficult times. May God Bless you and your family.
Yvonne Jagt <yvonne.jagt@sympatico.ca>
Burlington, On Canada - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 11:09 PM (CST)

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I wish from the bottom of my heart that time helps you heal at least some of the pain you must be feeling. I have no words to tell you how sorry I feel for such great loss. God gave her to you for a reason( to touch your lives in a possitive way ) and he must now take her, however, she will forever live in your hearts and thorugh your love for her.
marcy estrada
burlington, ontario canada - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 10:31 PM (CST)

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We covet the Lord's special blessing of comfort and strength during this difficult season of your lives as parents. Knowing that your precious daughter is safe in the arms of our heavenly Father is your greatest comfort.
God bless you and your family.
Kleis and Mary Jane Hensen
Brantford, On Canada - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 09:53 PM (CST)

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Dear Ashley,
On my purple balloon I'm going to write "yes Jesus loves me"
because It was your favorite song.
Jack Wilkinson age 6.
Calvin Christian School.
Jack Wilkinson <bkwilkinson@cogeco.ca>
Dundas, - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 07:43 PM (CST)

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I just read my mail from my sister, Esther, who let us know that your little daughter has been promoted to glory. We send our condolences and wish you much strength as you must lay Ashley in her final resting place. We pray you may receive comfort in the days ahead as you start to live with an other focus in your life. Ashley may be gone but never forgotten.
Jessica and Douwe Vandermeulen
- Friday, November 22, 2002 at 06:05 PM (CST)

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I am a student at Redeemer University College and I just read about Ashley's battle with cancer in the newspaper today. When I checked my email I discovered that her funeral is to be held at our school tomorrow morning. I also found a link to the website.

I've never been very good at knowing what to say during difficult times, but I can say that I will be praying that your family will know God's comfort during this time of loss. I would like to include a poem by Emily Dickinson called "Memorials":
Death sets a thing significant
The eye had hurried by,
Except a perished creature
Entreat us tenderly

To ponder little workmanships
In crayon or in wool,
With "This was last her fingers did,"
Industrious until

The thimble weighed too heavy,
The stitches stopped themselves,
And then 't was put among the dust
Upon the closet shelves.

A book I have, a friend gave,
Whose pencil, here and there,
Had notched the place that pleased him,--
At rest his fingers are.

Now, when I read, I read not,
For interrupting tears
Obliterate the etchings
Too costly for repairs.

Remember that it is OK to feel the pain, the sadness, the loss. God does not turn His face from such emotions, instead He feels the loss with us. John 11:35 says, "Jesus wept." He felt the loss of a loved one then, and He can still relate to our suffering now.

God be with you,
Janna Masey
Janna Masey <jmasey@redeemer.on.ca>
Ancaster, ON Canada - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 05:22 PM (CST)

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I felt compelled to send our condolences to your family. I have been following Ashley's story through the papers and my heart has been touched deeply. As a mother of four, I cannot comprehend the absolute despair and anguish you have suffered. I wonder at the strength your family and Ashley have shown. While reading today's paper (22/11/02), tears welled up in my eyes and a sob caught in my throat. How do I explain to my questioning children why I am crying and why I feel such a bond to such a courageous child I have never met. May the love and strength of family, friends and God help you through this impossibly difficult time. Our prayers are with you.
Mike and Michelle Murphy and family <mmurphy12@cogeco.ca>
Waterdown, On Canada - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 04:26 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish and family,
In the garden of God's blessings there are flowers sweet
and fair. And among them is your Ashley, free of suffering
pain or care.
May you have the comfort of knowing little Ashley is home.

Jake, Doreen, Jessica, Erica and Lauren Gringhuis <dgringh@redeemer.on.ca>
Ancaster, On Canada - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 04:20 PM (CST)

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i feel really bad for her parents and in my town we are having a dance to help rase money to cure canser and we will still have the dance
Elisa age 12
- Friday, November 22, 2002 at 04:17 PM (CST)

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i think yhat she is very cute
Elisa .R. age 12
- Friday, November 22, 2002 at 04:14 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family,
I am sorry for your loss, I can only imagine what you are all going through. Ashley was a wonderful little dancer, with so much spirit and grace. I have never met some one with so much energy! I've been reading the journals and I have learned so much from them. I never realized how much strength and courage she had. Through it all she still came to dance class with the biggest smile on her face. I loved teaching her, she will always be rememebered. My prayers are with all of you.
Jennifer Milne (dance assitant) <jen_milne_@hotmail.com>
Ancaster, On Canada - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 04:03 PM (CST)

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I'm so sorry for your loss - the dancers at Dancesations will miss Ashley so very much. May God be with you always.
A.J. LoPresti <cooldude7@hotmail.com>
Ancaster, On Canada - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 03:58 PM (CST)

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To the Goud Family,
I have not had the great honor of ever meeting Ashley, but through updates at Bethel CRC, we have kept your family in our prayers. I continue to pray for your family through this tragic time and pray GOD's peace will flow over you. It sounds like Ashley has lived a great deal more in her short life than many of us ever do. I pray we can learn from you beloved child and focus on the true gift of life. God Bless and sustain you all.
Sue Van Egdom & family <sue@xtendabox.com>
Greensville, ON Canada - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 03:41 PM (CST)

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I am so sorry for your loss. While I didn't know Ashley personally, it was clear to me that she was a very special little girl. My friends and I were all deeply saddened at her death, and we are all thinking of you at this difficult time. Best wishes for your family.
Emily Hubling
Waterdown, Ontario - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 03:18 PM (CST)

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Dear Parents: the story I read of Ashley and her family has touched my heart! How lucky she was to have you for parents and how hard, we can only imagine, to let her go. She is a beautiful angel now and you must take comfort for that and her painful journey here,is over. God Bless all of you! You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Anna Orr <healeygal@sympatico.ca>
Stoney Creek , Ont. Canada - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 03:18 PM (CST)

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I heard about Ashley's illness sometime around Halloween when I was taking my children to purchase a pumpkin, and (I am not sure of the name of the farm)we went and bought them so the money could go to her for her treatments in the States. I have since read most of your journal and I have no words to describe how this child has touched my Heart. I only wish something more could have been done for Ashley and your family. I wish to express my sincere and heartfelt sympathies to you and your family. I was totally devastated to hear of her passing. I can only wish your family the strength to carry on and just know that she will never be forgotten.
Sandra Hutcheon <shutcheo@hamilton.ca>
Dundas, on Canada - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 02:58 PM (CST)

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Dear Trish,Ken&Family
We were so sorry to here about Ashley. I have been reading your journal over the past little while and I can't imagine having the strenght you have shown us all .You both are very strong which is what has made Ashley such a strong child. Our thoughts will be with you.
Debbie & Hank Boonstra
Greensville, Ont Canada - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 02:49 PM (CST)

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Dear Tricia and Ken and family:
Just to let you know that we are thinking about you at this difficult time. We are comforted to know that Ashley is safe in the arms of Jesus- She just went from life to life. What a promise we have in knowing that our children have a hope beyond this earth. We will continue to pray for you all that the days ahead will be filled with the peace that only comes from Jesus. In His word we find comfort, as it says in Hebres 12:15"Rejoice with those who rejoice, and weep with thos who weep". We are weeping with you now, but not as those without hope, for we know Ashley is in glory. We will all miss her, but not as much as you will for sure. May you find comfort in knowing you are not alone. Love Ron, Yvonne and Benjamin Niemeyer
Yvonne Niemeyer <niemeyer@netrover.com>
Dunnville, Ont. Canada - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 02:23 PM (CST)

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I would just like to say to you & your family that my heart goes out to all of you. And Ashley did sound like a very likeable & courageous little girl, and now she is with the angels
God Bless You All at this tramatic time in your lives.
In my prayers
Lou-Ann Sabourin <mamalou43@hotmail.co>
Hamilton,ON, Canada - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 02:21 PM (CST)

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Dear Friends

Although Mike and I lost our dear son Tyler only last week, I don't know how to comfort you. Ashley worked hard to give you memories, so be sure to use them. I just don't have the physical or emotional strength to come and support you right now, but know that my thoughts are with you. I would like to keep in touch with you and maybe we can help each other.

Love Tracy and Mike, Scott, Matthew and Tyler (forever 2yrs)

Tracy Sherk <Thesherks@rogers.com>
Brantford, - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 02:10 PM (CST)

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Goud Family,
After reading your journal entries about your beautiful Angel Ashley, I felt compelled to write and extend my heartfelt codolences to all of. May the memories you have of your beautiful daughter bring you some comfort at this very difficult time.
May God bless you all and give you continued strength.

Vera Faiazza <verafaiazza@bellnet.ca>
Stoney Creek, ON Canada - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 01:37 PM (CST)

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Tricia and the Goud family,
Though I have been through the loss of Justin, I still am at a loss for words whenever I hear that another of our brave children have gone to heaven. I wish that I could say some words to you all that would provide some comfort, but I know there is none. The days, weeks, months and years ahead will be hard and if you are like me you'll wonder if you will make it through, somehow you do. Once things settle down, feel free to contact me if you would like to talk. There were several of the N-BLAST parents who helped me through the first weeks and it always was comforting to talk to someone that really understood what I felt. I'm very sorry that Ashley is no longer with you and I will continue to pray that you and your family may find comfort and peace.

Patrick Flynn, stepfather to Justin Gray(2/3/95 - 5/19/2002)
Patrick Flynn <pflynn@lsil.com>
Wichita, KS USA - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 01:26 PM (CST)

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Occasionally, we are graced
with the presence of an earth
bound Angel. They are unable
to stay with us for long, but
while they do, they bring
unprecedented joy and happiness
to all they touch.While they are
here, we bask in their goodness
and marvel at their contribution
to the world. When they leave,
we are left with the devastation
that comes with losing such a
wonderful being...but we must
remember...the earth bound Angels
are not ours to keep. They are ours
to enjoy,learn from, and behold
until they return home.

Thankyou for sharing your Angel
The Jagt Family
Brantford Ontario, - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 12:55 PM (CST)

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It really touched my heart to read about your daughter Ashley. I heard of her from a friend of mine, Pina. I am truely sorry for your loss. ((((((((((HUGS)))))))
Ranae
- Friday, November 22, 2002 at 12:11 PM (CST)

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As i read thru some of the journal entries today expressing feelings, sorrow and thoughts on Ashley death I cannot seem to find the right words to say. Our "journey" with cancer started in August when our son was diagnosed with Hodgkins at twelve years old. I thought my world had come to an end and kept asking God why me as i felt that i had already been tested enough with life's challenges. We had the privilege of meeting Ashley one day in clinic and James thought she was so grown up at 5 years old spreading her own cheese whiz on her bread. It made me put things into perspective. If we could all learn through our children how to deal with life's challenges what a wonderful world this would be. We again had the opportunity of spending some time with Ashley at the beginning of November when James and her discovered that they had siblings with the same name. That common bond has kept James smiling for the last few weeks. We were both so sad to hear of Ashley's passing on Wednesday , but so ever grateful for our short journey together. She was a great little girl and for that you should be proud. Our sincere sympathy goes out to your entire family.
Josie and James Middleton <josie.middleton@sympatico.ca>
hamilton , ontario canada - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 09:31 AM (CST)

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My heart goes out to your family. I cannot imagine how hard it must be for you at this time. I have lost a lot of close friends and relatives in the past but never a child. God bless and keep you.
Jean Cox <jcox103@hotmail.com>
Hamilton, on canada - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 08:30 AM (CST)

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My heart is with you for your loss.

Tears In Heaven
Would you hold my hand, if I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand, if I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way through night and day
'Cause I know I just can't stay here in heaven
Beyond the door, there's peace I'm sure
And I know there'll be no more tears in heaven
Would you know my name, if I saw you in heaven?
Would you be the same, if I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on
'Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven
- Eric Clapton, Will Jennings

Elisabeth Ossadnik <eossadnik@hotmail.com>
Hamilton, ON Canada - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 07:50 AM (CST)

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Dear Trish, Ken and family
We are deeply saddened by the news of Ashley's death. We know from experience the depth of your pain. It isn't easy but God and the many loved ones he has provided you with will help you to make it through.
Ashley is now in a place too wonderful to imagine. She, like our Sarah, has full knowledge and understanding of why. One day we will understand also. Until then we must trust in God's choice and take comfort in knowing that our precious children are safe in the arms of our loving father in heaven. Praying for you all.

Mary and Dave Smith and family <dwsmith@ionsys.com>
grimsby, ont canada - Friday, November 22, 2002 at 01:06 AM (CST)

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Dearest Tricia, Ken and family.
I just wanted to thank you for allowing me into your lives during Ashley's last days. She was an amazing child, and i truly enjoyed our craft times together! my thoughts are with you all at this difficult time.
Becka Soyka <hawkytrainer@hotmail.com>
Hamilton, ON, - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 11:45 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Tricia & family - Our loving thoughts & prayers are with you as you travel through this devastating time with the loss of your little daughter Ashley...we have travelled this road as well when we lost our Jeff in a car accident, and have experienced the loving hand of God work in our hearts and the hearts of the community that is so supportive & understanding of your loss. God is good and knew when it was TIME to take our children and we gain our comfort by that strength, that He will keep them in the palm of His hand in Heaven. Our thoughts & prayers are with you also as you say your final goodbyes in the so difficult days to come, but God WILL give you His strength, peace & love to carry on in your future that lies ahead.
Love, Cor & Appie Schuurman. <MShrmn42@aol.com>
Branchton, Ont. - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 11:07 PM (CST)

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Thinking and praying for you all in this tough time. May you experience God's comfort and strength in the hours and days ahead.
Henry and Liz Westerhof
Millgrove, ON Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 09:34 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish
I have followed Ashley's journey the last year as we ourselves journeyed through a battle with cancer with our 20 year old son. My heart breaks for you. God has an amazing way of walking with us through the valley of the shadow of death. We are never alone. Your courage and faith are an inspiration.

Rina Vanderlingen <len.vanderlingen@sympatico.ca>
Millgrove, ON Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 09:30 PM (CST)

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Dear Tricia, Ken, Derek, Danielle and Nathan,

Gord and I, Michelle Jr. and Austin wish to express our deepest sympathy upon the tremendous loss of our angel Ashley. Remember the good times, celebrate her life, and most of all call upon us whenever you need some encouragement, company or favors. Thinking of you all the time,and sharing in your grief,
Love from the Eaves family.
Michelle Eaves
Hamilton , - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 09:20 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Tricia, Derek, Danielle and Nathan,

We are very, very saddened to hear of Ashley's passing. She brought so much joy to you, and touched so many people's lives, in so many ways. Thank you for letting us get to know you and Ashley, through your website, and for sharing the real side of cancer with all of us. Our prayers are with you, as you cope with your loss of such a beautiful and happy little girl. God Bless.


Eckhard, Fiona, Monica, William and Patrick Lutz <thefarmer@lutzorchard.ca>
Troy, ON - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 09:18 PM (CST)

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Dearest Trish, Ken, Derek, Danielle, and Nathan

We have all been sending out our love to you, knowing what a dark hour this must be. Each of you, including Ashley, have taught us so much about the power of love, support, continuing on, strength, the healing touch of humour and death as a teacher. Thank you for all you shared with us throughout Ashley and yours journey. It is a gift beyond measure and words and we are such richer people for having played witness to it in some small way. You deserve to mourn and grieve the loss of Ashley and all that you've been through. Please don't forget to breath deeply and, in doing that, feel the love and connection with all of us, the universe and God. We are surrounding you like the wings of your beautiful, courageous, and wise angel, Ashley.

I've been playing this song by Leonard Cohen, thinking of Ashley during her time of parting ...

Alexandra Leaving

Suddenly the night has grown colder.
The god of love preparing to depart.
Alexandra hoisted on his shoulder,
They slip between the sentries of the heart.

Upheld by the simplicities of pleasure,
They gain the light, they formlessly entwine;
And radiant beyond your widest measure
They fall among the voices and the wine.

And you who had the honor of her evening,
And by that honor had your own restored -
Say goodbye to Alexandra leaving;
Alexandra leaving with her lord.
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In faith, love and hope
tina, conor and lia
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Tina Turner
Burlington, ON Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 09:01 PM (CST)

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Hi Goud family its me- Sarah at school all of my friends and i have been thinking of your family and have been sorry for the recent sad news. Your family will always be in our prayers.
Sarah Weemhoff <sweet_sugar146@hotmail.com>
Carlisle, Ontario Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 08:51 PM (CST)

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Her wings spread wide and ready for flight
Is my guardian angel so full of light
So radiant her face is to me
Such pure beauty for me to see.
Her hair like strands of liquid light falls to her waist.
A wonderful glimpse of heaven for me to taste.
Under the shelter of her wings
All peace and beauty sings.
She is watching all the day and night
Always keeping me in her sight.
She communes with God above
Showing to me his wondrous love.
She is there to guard, tend and care
Always for me I know she will be there.
I know when I see her all things will be alright.
To safely guard me through the darkest night.
God has commissioned her work here on earth.
he gave her to me at the moment of my birth.
Its a wondrous thing she's stood at his throne
Now here with me I am never alone
Wings wide spread and ready for flight.
Bathe me now in Angel light.

I was reading some peoms and I came across this and I thought of your family.
I will see you on Firday night

Lots of Love
Sue


Susan Tremblett <stremb0906@rogers.com>
Cambridge, On Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 05:57 PM (CST)

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Dear Mr & Mrs. Goud and family: We are praying for you in your time of loss. We are going to miss your shining star who shone so brightly. Renee hopes that you are being comforted by the Lord, and she misses Ashley. We are glad that Ashley is with our Jesus, Until we meet again, Stephanie, Rebecca, Nicole, Melissa, and Renee Mobach
Jodi Mobach <bikemech28@aol.com>
Flamborough, - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 05:43 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish and Family: We are saddened to hear about your loss and hope your strength can help you through this difficult time. No words can lessen the pain you must be feeling. After meeting Ashley at your home and in the hospital I can now say I was touched by an Angel. Take joy in knowing she now looks over you. Susanne and I have nothing but admiration for the strength you have shown and continue to show.
Karl, Susanne, Breanna, Jessica, And Tyler Cookson.

Karl, Susanne, Breanna, Jessica, and Tyler Cookson <k.cookson@unifedalloys.com>
Burlington, Ont. Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 04:07 PM (CST)

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I truly have no words. I am so sad and devastated for all of you. You are all in my heart and in my prayers.
With love and sadness,
Leah <imperialbeek@aol.com>
Sauk Rapids, MN USA - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 03:56 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish, Derek, Danielle and Nathan:

Tears for you, joy for Ashley! We can only imagine the pain and sorrow you must be going through. But, we are happy for Ashley as she no longer suffers.

May you find comfort and strength in knowing that Ashley is in Heaven with Jesus. And Jesus said, "Let the children come unto me".

We continue to pray for you and your family. Danielle and Kyle came home from school today and said the assembly was very nice. Lots of songs and meditation, lots of tears also.

May you find comfort in God. God answers prayer. He will ease your pain and sorrow and will continue to give you beautiful, treasured memories of your special little girl, Ashley.

Randy, Renee, Danielle and Kyle Simpson
Renee Simpson <rsimpson27@cogeco.com>
Dundas, Ont Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 03:47 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish & Family: Jay & I were deeply saddened to learn of your loss. When terribly sad things happen to a sweet little girl & her family everything seems so unfair. Know that she is all around you & will always be. Our prayers go out to you. We will see you on Saturday.
Denise & Jay Miller <denise.miller@economicalinsurance.com>
Paris, On Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 03:20 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish, Derrick, Danelle and Nathan.
I give my sympathy to all of you. I am very happy that I could still see ashley before she died. She was amazing. tell us that the butter cake was for everybody. that will always be in my heart to here her say thst. I wish you all the best and may the Lord strengthen you and be there for you.
Gerdien Goud <gernade25@hotmail.com>
Courtland, On Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 02:13 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Tricia and family:
Our family would like to send you our sincere condolences. May our Father in Heaven comfort you in this time of sorrow and give you strength for the difficult days that lie ahead of you. Always remember that when the door of little Ashley's life was closed here on this earth another door opened. The door of Heaven was opened for her and our dear Lord took His child into His arms. She is now free of suffering and pain and rejoicing with the angels in Heaven. Remember the words of Job, The Lord has blessed and the Lord has taken away , blessed be the Name of the Lord.
Arnold and Anita Hulzebosch and family.
Anita Hulzebosch <anitahulzebosch@hotmail.com>
Waterdown, Ontario Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 01:59 PM (CST)

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Sorry for your loss. She was such a beautiful young girl and will be dearly missed. I used to be Nathan, Danniella and Derek's preschool teacher and I remember when Ashley was born.
Sheri Mainprize (maiden name Nichol) <sprize@cooksmill.com>
Dundas, Ont Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 01:39 PM (CST)

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sorry about your loss.
gloria pearce <gpearce@sheridannurseries.com>
- Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 01:22 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family
My family and I would like to give you, our condolences.
We are so sorry. We will see you all on Friday and on Saturday. We are all going to bring Ashley pink and purple balloons. Just remember that God is with you.
Jose,Maria ,Melanie,Mary and Paul Mateus ,Max and Kathy Giambattista <mgaimbattista@sympatico.ca>
Dundas, ont - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 01:08 PM (CST)

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Ken, Tricia, Derek, Danielle and Nathan.
I would like to express my deepest condolences to all of you. I have 3 girls of my own and couldn't even begin the imagine what you are all going through. From what I've read in this journal Ashley is truly an Angel and an inspiration to us all. She has made you stronger.
Lori Zanon and Family <the.zanons@sympatico.ca>
Guelph, Ont Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 12:48 PM (CST)

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Ken and Trish
I gave blood for the first time today. I've thought, many times over the past years, that I should (but got really squeamish at the thought) and again when I read your entire journal history a few weeks ago and you saying that "if we feel the need to do something, to GIVE BLOOD". After reading your entry Saturday (about Ashley getting blood and then coming back to eat, drink, play etc)I made an appointment on Monday morning to go today. Little did I know how emotional a journey it would be for me. I thought I'd share it here because I know that as many people read your guestbook as visit your journal. It's really easy to do everyone!! I'll definitely be returning in 56 days and challenge you to do the same. While I was there a group of students from HDCH arrived ... I'm sure they were there for the same "reason" I was ... way to go guys. Anyway, just thought I'd encourage everyone to help give someone else a miracle too.

Former blood-donor chicken
Ingrid Louwerse <louwerse@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 12:44 PM (CST)

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Sorry to hear of the passing of Ashley. Nothing can be said to ease your pain. Ashley will always be in our prayers and will not be forgotten. Keep the time spent together with Ashley close to your heart and she will always be with you.
Rino Basciano <rino.basciano@ps.ge.com>
Guelph, Ontario Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 12:39 PM (CST)

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Ken, Trish and family.

I am so incredibly sorry for your loss of Ashley. My thoughts have been with you and will continue to be with you in the weeks to follow. Thank you for sharing with us Ashley's Journal. God Bless.
Anita Unwin <aunwin@on.aibn.com>
Dundas, on L9H 1B8 - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 12:24 PM (CST)

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Peter, who was in Ashleys kindergarten class last year, has been keeping us up to date on Ashley. Yesterday he came home with the innocense and faith of a little child to inform us that Ashley had died. He told us he was very sad and very happy. He was sad because she would miss her family and friends at school, and he was happy that she could be with her oma in heaven, and maybe she could even learn to fly in heaven. And she wouldn't be in pain any more.
Peter has also asked that we find a picture of her to put on our fridge so that he can remember her better.
Oh to have the faith of a young child, and to see the impact of Ashleys faith on the other kids whose lives she touched is a special gift.
We wish you much strength as you deal with the big hole she will leave in your family.
Peter van der Meulen & Joyce Van Egmond and kids <vandermeulenp@hdsb.ca>
Flamborough, Ont - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 12:09 PM (CST)

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Trish, Ken and family,
I can't put into words the true saddness my family and I feel having heard of Ashley's passing. I am so sorry. I feel very humbled when I read your journal entries - you and your family are all very strong and loving people. Our thoughts and prayers are always with you - we love you!
Char, Dave, Brady and Carson van Tol <cvantol@sheridannurseries.com>
Rockwood, ON Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 11:22 AM (CST)

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She's free of pain now and has earned the right to dance with the angels.
Tony Fitzgerald <tfitzgerald@thespec.com>
Hamilton , Ont Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 11:20 AM (CST)

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Goud Family,
I just wanted to thank you for welcoming so many of us who work for Camp Trillium into your lives. We are truly saddened by the loss of Ashley but will forever remember her beautiful smile and the joy she brought to those around her. I will always cherish the memory of her 'thumbs up' when introducing her to her new Special Friend. I will hold dear the countless Trillium shirts that I have covered in glitter and paint from crafting with Ashley in 3F. Looking forward to celebrating old memories and making new ones with you all.
Much love

Kristen Dawson <dawsonkd@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 10:54 AM (CST)

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As you say, it is hard for someone who has not lost a child to fully comprehend the profound saddness you feel. Please know you are not alone. I'm sure your Angel will be watching you and will help you with your greif. GOD BLESS.
Laurie & Gerard Picco
Brampton, on Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 10:53 AM (CST)

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We send our sincere sympathy in your loss of Ashley. It is a blessing that you have your memories to keep her alive in your thoughts and hearts when you can no longer see her in her physical body. Your love for her will never die just as Jesus 'loves thou' His Holy Spirit will carry you through the days of grief that come to us all when someone or something precious disappears from our sight.
Rick and Deb Harper
Brantford, Ont. - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 10:01 AM (CST)

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My thoughts and prayers go out to your entire family. I have a 3 and 5 year old and cannot imagine the pain you are going through and have gone through. She was a beautiful little girl with what sounds like a big heart and beautiful soul. Just know that she is in a better place and will be watching from up above on you always. God bless you in this very difficult time.
Michele Hudson <michele.hudson@hrcc.on.ca>
Hamilton, On Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 10:00 AM (CST)

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Dear Trish and Ken, Nathan, Danielle, and Derek:
In addition to all the wonderful words of support and comfort expressed here, I wanted to say thanks for sharing the life of Ashley-Ann with me the past year. She was a joy to teach and just a joy to know!
Maybe others will join me in asking God for a rainbow over the Zion Cemetery on Saturday afternoon.
"GREAT IS THY FAITHFULNESS OH GOD OUR FATHER; THY MERCIES ARE NEW EVERY MORNING."
With love and prayers,
Karen Nightingale and family.
Karen Nightingale <kjnightk@aol.com>
Dundas, ON - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 09:57 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish and kids,
We cannot begin to imagine what you are going through but we share in your grief. We lift you up before the Lord in prayer every day. May God give all of you His peace in these difficult days and may the knowledge that Ashley is now with Him bring you comfort.

Cecil and Tracy Alkema and kids <calkema@cogeco.ca>
Waterdown, ON - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 09:56 AM (CST)

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Ken, Trish & Family:
I am Esther Roukema's brother and for the past many months have been closely following your story. It came with great sadness to read your posting yesterday morning announcing the passing of Ashley. My heart aches for you. You should be proud of your accomplishments with Ashley and your family. Although we have never met or spoken, I feel, as I'm sure many others feel, that I personally do know you and your family, because of your wonderful postings on this website and constant updates from Esther. I thank you, among many others, for your time and dedication to your faithful postings, which have kept us all up to date. I thank you for being an inspiration to all of us other parents. I thank you for Ashley. I understand that she was really something special! Our prayers and thoughts are with you and your family for the days and weeks ahead. Remember, chin up - be proud!
Bart & Sonya Altena, Philip, Adam, Brent & Cameron <oriole12@sympatico.ca>
Hamilton, Ont Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 09:52 AM (CST)

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Our deepest sympathy with your loss of Ashley. God bless you and your family and give you His peace which passes understanding through this difficult time.
Siebolt & Diana Hart <sdhart@bfree.on.ca>
Brantford, Ont Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 09:23 AM (CST)

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As you so touchingly wrote: "We think we understand, but we don't." Our hearts ache each time our nb family loses as child. I am inspired by your decision to write down all the cute and happy moments in Ashley's last days here on earth. I will look forward to seeing those when you're able. Our thoughts are with you,
Natalie, Vladimir & Lina Rak (www.caringbridge.com/fl/lina) <vladanat@attbi.com>
Jacksonville, FL - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 08:44 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken,Tricia & family,
We continue to hold you in our prayers. May Gods love
surround and sustain you.

Andy and Cathy Stewart & family
- Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 08:43 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Tricia & Children:
God took your little angel home, He gave her to you for such a little while, yet He gave you many precious moments and much joy. Kathy has been filling us in with all of Ashley's journey. We've been inspired and in awe with her courage and her zeal for life, I can't help but think she is one of God's precious little angels. Life is so precious and she beamed with it. Your family is in our thoughts and prayers and may God surround you with abundant love.
We know in our hearts she is safe in the arms of Jesus. What a comfort, what a joy! God Bless.
Ed & Elaine Scharringa and family

Ed & Elaine Scharringa & family <dutchmil@skylinc.net>
Millgrove, ON Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 08:10 AM (CST)

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You are in our thoughts and prayers during this very difficult time.
Angeline van Arragon
Hamilton, ON Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 07:34 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish and kids. I can just see Ashley running into God's arms and His face just beaming as he holds her close. We stand in awe of your courage and your faith. May you feel God's loving arms around you also in the days and months and years ahead.
Brenda Lammers
Waterdown, - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 07:26 AM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family:
Our hearts ache for your loss. We can not fully understand your pain but we can continue to pray that our gracious Lord will strengthen you in the days and weeks ahead.
Ray & Dina Schuurman <schuurman@networx.on.ca>
Hamilton, - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 06:37 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish and family
We are very sorry to hear of your loss.
Ashley was an angel, and has had an effect on many
people during her brief stay on earth.
She is with the Lord in heaven now.
The spirit of you and your family has been
an ispiration to Maureen and I.
Love, Bob and Maureen jacob
Bob and Maureen Jacob <bobjacob@fastmail.com>
Stoney Creek Ont., Canada - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 06:17 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish, and kids.
So you had to give your little treasure back to the Lord.
I know we cannot begin to imagine what it must be like to lose one of your children. We hope and pray that you may receive strength to survive the coming days, and to find a way to live through the time after that, when things will start to sink in. Love and prayers from all of us.
Uncle Anton and tante Grada.
Netherlands - Thursday, November 21, 2002 at 02:51 AM (CST)

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I am so very sorry for you all, you have experienced so much in the last few years. Ashley will be missed terribly by everyone she touched. She is a real fighter and a true angel. This will be the hardest time for you as a family, but you have proved how strong you are and I am sure will continue to be. Our best wishes for you all, you are always in our thoughts and prayers.
Meg, Riley and Jan
jan morrow
Muskoka, - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 11:50 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Tricia, Derek, Danielle and Nathan
We have no words to express the sorrow we are feeling over Ashley's passing. Our hearts go out to you all - and our prayers that the God who has given you strength every moment of the past will uphold you now. Much love, and God bless.
Rick & Sheryll Kloetstra and Family
Lynden, Ontario - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 11:14 PM (CST)

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Dearest Trish, Ken, Derek, Danielle & Nathan;
Words can never describe how we feel right now. Our Lord is our Sheppard and when He calls us we are
truly blessed. He sent Ashley here to do His teachings, she did all that He needed her to do. How many wonderfull
times you were able to share, He gave you (& all of us) our lessons. Ashley and all of you have truly been
our educators in Christ Jesus. The amazing strength it took for the past 5 years was given also as a gift. As sister in Christ I admire your acceptance of the challenge He gave you.
We pray that knowing the New Life Ashley has now will give everyone the courage to move forward to Our Maker and get even more intimate with Him. He will show you what is next, He will guide you when you ask, Trust Him & talk to Him & may Peace be with you All.
Liz, Mark, Mikayla, Mya & Markie Martorano
Liz Martorano <martorano@sympatico.ca>
Brantford, on canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 10:40 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family, I visited your site for the first time yesterday, directed by someone else. I was touched by her plea for prayers. My own daughter was sick with Hodgkin's twice while growing up. She just celebrated 6 years of remission last Halloween. We made friends at the hospital and my daughter was always the one who was the least sick. Not that we didn't have rough days but those days pale in comparison. A special camp called the Heart Connection helped my daughter and she returns as her schedule allows it to be a counselor. My daughter will have completed her Master's this December and I pray that she finds her job eventually to help sick children and their families. You have my sincerest sympathies and I know that you will rely on your faith in God and your family and friends. The ache never goes away, but someday there will be more smiles.
Arlene M Gerard <amgia@hotmail.com>
North Liberty, IA USA - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 10:34 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family:
We are truly at a loss for words. We feel like we've came to know Ashley and your family through this website. Your family has been such an inspiration, not only to us but to the whole community. Ashley was such a courageous, beautiful girl, and now she's safely in Jesus's arms. We will continue to pray for your family for strength, thank you so much for sharing with us all your moments spent with Ashley, you have a remarkable family. God Bless you all. Love Teresa, Nicole, Chris & Alicia.
The Moning's <moning@interlynx.net>
Millgrove, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 10:07 PM (CST)

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The Goud Family
I have thought of your family all day today. I hope it gives comfort to read over all the condolences and to see,
just the tip of the iceburg, the number of people who care.
I pray that God will help you through this difficult time.
That you remember that no one can take your lovely, happy memories away of Ashley. Reading this journal has sent a strong message to many that you must cherish every moment you have with your family and live life to the fullest. I pray that your family ties will now be stronger than ever with God to support and guide you.
Lee VanWyngaarden
Dundas, ON - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 09:43 PM (CST)

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To the Goud family,
you've watched over ashley for so long, and now she is in heaven with God watching over you. May God give you the strength and love you need at this time. all our prayers and thoughts are with you. psalm 121
Kimberly Dykstra <dykstra_k@hotmail.com>
Caledonia, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 09:33 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish and family: Our prayers and thoughts are with you during this time of sorrow and loss. Although we cannot bear the pain and grief for you we will carry you in our prayers the our Heavenly Father who can and will comfort you. Thank you for the illustration of faith that you have been to us all. God Bless You.
Rick & Laura Veenstra and family <lveenstra@themanor.net>
Millgrove, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 09:28 PM (CST)

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I'm glad you had some wonderful times with Ashley over the last couple of days. I know you'll treasure these memories that God has given you. As for sorrows? Cast these on Him! He can handle your burden (much as like in the Footprints poem ... "in the lowest times of your life, that's when I carried you") Our prayers and thoughts remain with your family throughout this time. God bless you in the coming days.

Ingrid Louwerse <louwerse@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 09:27 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish and family we hold you in our thoughts and prayers now more than ever in the hope we have in Jesus.

ken and karen tigchelaar ,amy,katelyn,aron,and paul <ktig@sprint.ca>
rockton, ont canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 09:22 PM (CST)

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Angel Ashley and Family,
I am so sorry to hear about Ashley. I just know she is up there playing with our special angel John Russell. He will take care of her. She is such a special angel...such bravery and courage. Please know I am thinking of you all during this time. She will be with you daily, sending many special angel Ashley treasures. God bless you all.

Many prayers your way.
Love,
Shannon
Shannon <www.caringbridge.org/page/johnrussell>
Eden Prairie, MN - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 09:20 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish, Derek, Danielle and Nathan,
I just wanted to write to share that your Nathan's grade 3 Bible verse memory work this month is:
Psalm 90:1-2 "LORD, YOU HAVE BEEN OUR DWELLING PLACE THROUGHOUT ALL GENERATIONS. BEFORE THE MOUNTAINS WERE BORN OR YOU BROUGHT FORTH THE EARTH AND THE WORLD, FROM EVERLASTING TO EVERLASTING YOU ARE GOD!"
May our everlasting God hold you close in His comfort.
Annette and Robert, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 09:16 PM (CST)

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Ashley provided us all a bright light in the clinic. Her sense of humor and winning smile will forever be in my heart. Every time I hear a whoopy cusion or remote control flatus machine :-). I will smile with Ashley in my heart. It was a honor to share part of her life. I am sorry for all of you.
Marilyn Eves <meves@cogeco.ca>
Burlington, On Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 08:50 PM (CST)

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I can't even imagine the pain you are going through. I am so sorry for your loss, I did not know your daughter but from the stories I heard she seemed like a wonderful person. My thoughts are with you, take care. We love you!! Your families stories have touched the hearts of millions.
Kate Loates <evans_gurl73@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 08:45 PM (CST)

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Dear Mr and Mrs. Goud,
I was sorry to hear about Ashley this morning at school. Ashleys story touched me and many other people i know.
Sarah <babyblue1487@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 08:34 PM (CST)

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Ken,Trish and family; Like so many others I am writing with tears in my eyes. Ashley faught a great fight, kept the faith and is now with our Lord. She is finally free from pain and disease for this we are greatful. I have a poem I would like to share it is called " When I Must Leave You" When I must leave you for a little while, please don't shed wild tears, or hug your sorrow to you, through the years. But start out bravely with a gallant smile; and for my sake and in my name, live on and do all things the same, feed not your loneliness on empty days, but fill each hour in useful ways. Reach out your hand in comfort and in cheer, and I will comfort you and hold you near; and never never be afraid to die, for I am waiting for you in the sky. I hope this helps just a little. May knowing that others love you and are praying for you help ease the pain of your loss. Lots of love
Colin and Sandra Regnerus and family <colsan.regnerus@sympatico.ca>
Dundas , Ont - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 08:32 PM (CST)

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I have been following Ashley's Journey through Austin's site - I must say that I am so proud of You All - to be able to share your story and pain must have been so very hard - I am sure that Ashley is in a better place now - The Lord works in mysterious ways - and this most certainly is a mystery - The brightest star out tonight is most surely Ashley - knowing that she is smiling down on you as the brightest star in the heavens tonight (and it sure is bright) must be a comfort - I am truly sorry for your loss.
God Bless you all in your time of need

Robinson Family
Hamilton, Ont. - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 07:30 PM (CST)

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Our Sincere condolences...our prayers are with the entire family. We know that Ashley is in a good place.
Natalie, Michael, Mary and Brian (Daughter and grandchildren of Joe Mateus) <shorty_83ca@hotmail.com>
Waterdown, ont Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 06:56 PM (CST)

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hello gouds i am sorry about the loss of ashley. i don't know what to type so bye matt zwart
matt zwart <rockstarmatt2002@hotmail.com>
lynden , canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 06:53 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Tricia and family
May God grant you the strength and courage in this time of great need and dispair. I would like to thank you for allowing me to come and visit Ashley and your family in the hospital on Sunday. I will never forget the way she asked everyone to leave so she could stick those tiny glow in the dark stickers to her ceiling and paint her tiny finger nails. I also would like to thank you for having this webpage... every time I read the journals and guestbook entries I am saddened but also energized knowing that so many people are raising the story of Ashley's life to glorify His name.
Jenny Groen <jennyg131@hotmail.com>
Millgrove, ON - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 06:52 PM (CST)

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one child....touching so many lives..thanks ashley
britt
- Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 06:49 PM (CST)

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Dear Trish, Ken and Family;
What to say, where to start? No words could express the sadness that I feel for your family today. Although I know it is part of God's great plan, my heart aches for your loss.
I have never met a stronger family and that is part of God's blessing -
Be Strong in God's Love
May God be with You all.

Sandie Murphy <bssltd@rogers.com>
Markham, On Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 06:46 PM (CST)

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We would truly like to express our deepest sympathies to your family at this time and words cannot express how truly sorry we are. I thank you for being so open and heartfelt in sharing Ashley's journey through the website and local papers, making us realize to appreciate each and every day with our son . You truly are angels.
The Lachapelle Family <Tricdal@aol.com>
Stoney Creek, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 06:34 PM (CST)

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dear ken,trish and family. we came and visited you on sunday, and it was a vey special visit for us. when i told kurtis this morning of ashley's passing, he told me that he would never forget her and he knew that she was with jesus. hopefully cell phones work in heaven. love always kurtis and mikey
kurtis deboer <mkcontracting@yahoo.com>
lynden, - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 06:30 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish, Derek, Danielle, and Nathan,
My class and I (Irene) here in Haiti have been praying for you and Ashley; tomorrow I will have to tell them that Ashley has gone to be with Jesus. Alexa shed tears today when she heard the news. Our thoughts and prayers are with you, and we feel so far away. We're thankful that you had precious last moments with Ashley. May God give you special strength for these next few days as you say your final farewells, and in the days and weeks to come. Love, The Geleynse Family
Carel and Irene Geleynse and family <cigeleyn@skylinc.net>
Port-au-Prince, Haiti - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 06:13 PM (CST)

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We just started a donation drive at work today. Hopefully the donations will make it to you and yours in this very sad time, or for someone else in need. My thoughts are with you.
Lyn Ashurst <lynashurst@yahoo.com>
Toronto, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 06:04 PM (CST)

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Dear Tricia, Ken,Derek, Danielle & Nathan - There are no adequate words to say how deeply saddened our whole family is today. However we are sure that now Ashley is safe and pain-free forever with Grandma Noel but our hearts break for you all who miss her so dreadfully. I believe that Ashley was a very special little girl sent into a very special family for her short time here on earth. God knew that by placing her with you she would get the best love, care and attention she could possibly have. I think she will already have started a new trend with the angels for "painted nails" and from now on I will never paint mine without memories of Ashley. Please know that you are in all our thoughts and prayers through the difficult days ahead.
Beryl & John Collings
Chris, Ferma,Stephanie & Adam(Whitby)
Paul, Dena & Ben(B.C)
Mark, Celia, Erik & Laura(Paris)
Beryl Collings <john.collings1@sympatico.ca>
Paris, Ont Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 05:42 PM (CST)

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Dear gouds

i'm very sorry about the loss of ashley.But ashley will
have an eternal life in heaven.


FROM:ALEX.ZWART
Alex.zwart <gex_1@hotmail.com>
lynden, - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 05:42 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud family,
My heart aches for all of you. I can't imagine the pain of losing a child. Ashley touched so many lives, she was so very special. Mixed in with the feelings of sorrow is a bit of joy knowing that now she is free of pain and happy with all the other angels in heaven.
May God continue to give you strength and courage throughout this difficult time.
Austin's Nana
Lorettta Mego <loretta.mego@sympatico>
Smithville, On Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 05:40 PM (CST)

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I send my deepest sympathy to you for what you have lost but ashley is in a better place now with family and friends and of course jesus. Ashley was a miricle a beautiful child with lost of love to share and we gave her that love back,and now her cancer and pain is gone. i did not know ashley that well but I at least knew she was strong and was extrmly brave. i give my love is to you!
love your friend Elisabeth Jagt
Elisabeth jagt <htebasiletgaj@hotmail.com>
Brantford, ON. Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 05:34 PM (CST)

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I had just come across your site and taken the time to read back through your history. I am so sorry for your loss. I'll keep your family in my thoughts and prayers during this very difficult time. Blessings to you.
Khalita www.caringbridge.com/nc/khalita Duke Peds BMT aplastic anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 05:18 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family
Our deepest sympathy goes out to you all at the passing of Ashley.She was an amazing and adorable little girl.It brought tears to our eyes when we read your entry this morning.We have been reading your journal since we heard about the site a couple of months ago.Our thoughts and prayers are with you at this difficult time.
Lori & Lloyd Butler & Family <thebutlers@interlynx.net>
R.R.#1 Dundas, Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 05:16 PM (CST)

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She will be remembered everytime I paint my
daughters fingernails,everytime I see a purple
ribbon and everytime I think of how much
she has changed all of our lives in the way
that we cherish our moments together with our
families.
As you share your stories and memories of
Ashley and how very much she meant, may you
find comfort. Throughout this difficult
time, may you also know the deep sympathy
that is felt for you and all your family.
God Bless.
Michele McDonald (Austin's relative) <McMcDn@cs.com>
Burlington, - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 05:12 PM (CST)

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Ken, Trish, and Family,
We are at a loss of words to hear the news today. May you take comfort that Ashley is at last cancer free and will no longer have to suffer. May God give you strength in this difficult time. Your family is in our prayers.
Calvin and Ria Kemper <kemper@primus.ca>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 04:59 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Tricia, Derek, Danielle and Nathan.
May God's peace surround you and sustain you, and may you find comfort in knowing that Ashley knew and trusted in Jesus. Our thoughts, tears and prayers go out to you.
Ken, Gwen, Rachel and Michelle Bosveld <kbosveld@cogeco.ca>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 04:57 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken & Trish,
I can hardle see the computer screen to type this because of my tears of sorrow for you and your children. I will pray that you will feel God's presence right with you as you travel this most difficult road. Our hearts and prayers are with you.
David and Jennifer Adams
- Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 04:48 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish, Derek, Danielle, and Nathan,
We, too, are at a loss for words for you. We are praying that God's Strength will guide you through the coming days and nights. Stay close to Him and to eachother and He will be your Guide. We love you all and are praying for you all.

Annette and Robert, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 04:46 PM (CST)

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I heard this morning at school about your loss and looked around the room to see many tear-faced students. many people in my class (grade 8- calvin in hamilton) didnt even know your daughter until a few weeks ago and are still affected greatly. may God comfort you during this difficult time...
"But God DID promise strength for the day..comfort for the tears..and light for the way"

Lauryn Griffioen
Lynden, ont canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 04:45 PM (CST)

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You have my deepest symathies. Please know that I and my family are thinking of you. Thankyou for having written your journal and letting us get to know Ashley (even a little).
Kim & family (Austin's relatives) <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, On Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 04:42 PM (CST)

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Ken, Trish, Derek, Nathan & Danielle
We are at a loss for words, and can't imagine what you are
going through. We wish you much strength and comfort in
the coming days.
Love from Rob, Grace, Merissa, Mandy and Kelly Nyman
Rob & Grace Nyman <Nymanfarm@aol.com>
Troy, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 01:32 PM (CST)

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We send out deepest sympathies to all of you.
We are so far away in England but remember we are thinking about you all at this difficult time.

Our Love

Aunty Mavis & Uncle Max
Doncaster, England - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 01:30 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish-this is the nursing student that was working with Kim during Ashley's last moments with us. Thank you so much for giving us the opportunity to know Ashley and know that she is in all our hearts. She was a sweet, precious bundle that we will all dearly miss. Many tears were shed this morning as the 3B staff heard the news that Ashley had lost her battle-it was a sad morning. May God take care of her now and keep her safe. GOD BLESS

Shinead Callery, Mohawk College Level 3 student
Hamilton, On Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 01:13 PM (CST)

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To the Goud family

How awesome a task you were given by God, and how admirably have you and your daughter given witness to Him. Your story has all of the power of Job, and we weep for you today. My children, and all the other children at DCCS have been changed by knowing Ashley. Thank you for sharing her with us. Our prayers continue for your family.
The Trites/Pettigrew family <jtrites@morrislawyers.com>
Dundas, Ont - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 01:11 PM (CST)

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Our deepest sympathy. Thoughts and prayers are with your family during this difficult time.
Desiree & Antony Zimbalatti
Oakville, On - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 12:43 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family,
I'm at a loss of words what to say and cannot imagine the pain your family must be feeling. Ashley was an incredible girl, with so much positive spirit and energy what an incredible daughter you raised.
Ashley, you will be very missed my little fishing buddy.
Thoughts and prayers are with you all
Luv Tara
Tara Johnson
- Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 12:37 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family
Through tears of sadness and joy I write. Ashley's cancer is gone! She's happier and healthier than anyone could ever imagine in heaven. When I told Leah about Ashley's condition earlier this week we sang "He's got the Whole World in His Hands". "He's got the mothers and the fathers",
"He's got the brothers and the sisters" in His hands. May you find comfort in His strength.
Debbie, Arnold, Colin, Leah, and Joel Wouda
- Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 12:36 PM (CST)

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what words do you say at a time like this , your pain is felt by many, some ,who knew Ashley and some, who didn't,many people today have shed many tears , tears for the loss of a child ,tears for the family who is in pain, and for tears that, this little angel is no longer in pain.. For many yrs you have watched over her, protected her and did all you could've done, and now along with your mum and dad ,she will watch over you. she is at peace and in a wonderful place . May God bless in your time of need , turn to him when you are sad and in pain and in him you will also find peace . God bless ..

ALICIA AND SEAN HICKS <aliciahicks73@hotmail.com>
strabane, ontario - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 12:26 PM (CST)

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What does a person say now? It is a natural human emotion to hope for a miracle. My deepest sympathy to all of you. I believe a miracle did happen. Ashley suffers no more. Her pain is gone! She's with friends, family and of course Jesus. She will look down from heaven in the arms of Jesus with total love and admiration for the best parents any-one could hope for. You have been through some of the worst emotional rollercoaster rides for going on 4 years. Take comfort that Ashley is happy and cancer free now. I cannot imagine the pain you feel. I feel a loss just like so many others. I pray that you both find peace and that the rest of your lives are filled with goodness and hapiness.
Love John
John Jagt <jjagt@mackinnontransport.com>
Brantford, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 12:20 PM (CST)

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My heart and prayers go out to your family during this difficult time. May God guide you through the difficult days ahead and peace be with you.
Kelly Johnson www.caringbridge.org/nv/baileyaustinjohnson <BAJ31199@aol.com>
Lake Tahoe, NV USA - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 12:15 PM (CST)

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Trish and Ken It has been a long path you have followed. I am sure Ashley is at peace now and out of pain. Your mother Trish is going to watch out for her now together with Jesus. My heart is very heavy for you. But know that I am praying for your whole family throughout this time and for years to come.
Lori Anderson <landerson3@cogeco.ca>
Burlington, Ontario - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 11:52 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken and




Dear Ken and Trish,
I just want to send my sincerest condolences to you both on the passing of your precious daughter, Ashley. As a fellow parent I can not even comprehend what you and your family have been through. I pray that you
will be able to find strength and peace and healing for your hearts. I know that the Lord will provide these things for you in time. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.


Carol-Ann Koevoets (nee Vyn) <matt.ca.koevoets@sympatico.ca>
Hamilton, Ont. Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 11:49 AM (CST)

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DEAR KEN AND TRISH I JUST TOOK CARE OF THE THE MOST LOVING BRAVEST PARENTS AND THEIR EVER SO PRECIOUS DAUGHTER THROUGH THE NIGHT, I AM SO SAD FOR YOU AND YOU FAMILY AND I CAN'T HELP FEELING RELIEF FOR ASHLEY, SHE WAS SO BRAVE AND I HOPE THE WALK WITH THE ANGELS WAS EVERYTHING I PICTURE IN MY MIND TO BE. I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU ALL AND ASHLEY'S BEAUTIFUL FACE. YOU ARE GREAT PARENTS!!! AND WE ALL ON 3B SHED TEARS THIS MORNING, WE WILL MISS HER DEARLY.
KIM HRUSKA RN
ANCASTER, ONT CANADA - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 11:34 AM (CST)

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Dear Gouds, I just want you to know that scores of people are feeling your loss right now. We cannot imagine how empty your lives must feel at present. Ashley has touched our lives and she will live forever in our memories. Love from Sharon, Kerry, Joseph and Katie
Sharon Byrne <sbyrne@cogeco.ca>
Dundas, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 11:32 AM (CST)

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I've been praying for her at home and with my sundayschool class at Dundas CRC. I will still pray for you to give you comfort now that she has died, but she is in a better place now.
Jennie Donker
Dundas, - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 11:25 AM (CST)

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Tricia, Ken and Family: I was so sadden to read the update this morning. I feel as though I know you all, although we have never met. I came upon your website through a collegue of mine, and continue to read all the articles about Ashley. Ken, your article in the Flamborough Review was very touching, and the words constantly repeat themselves over and over in my mind. We know one thing for sure and that is Ashley is no longer suffering and can be re-united with friends and family once again. My heart goes out to you all, and may all the happy memories of Ashley's life live on in you all forever.

Lisa A. Stys
Waterdonw, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 11:07 AM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family,
So sorry to hear of your loss today. Our thoughts are with all of you. Ashley found a special place in all our hearts!
Linda Donaldson and The Flamboro Skating Club <rdonaldson9@cogeco.ca>
Waterdown, Ontario, Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 10:56 AM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family,

We send our deepest sympathy to your entire family and you will continue to be in our thoughts and prayers.

The Majcher Family <pmajcher@cogeco.ca>
Ancaster, on - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 10:42 AM (CST)

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Ken, Trish and family:
I am so very sorry to hear of your loss. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Your faith, love and courage are an inspiration to us all.
Mary Lawrence (Howard Marten Co.) <maryl@howardmarten.com>
Pickering, Ont Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 10:34 AM (CST)

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To the Goud family.I am so sorry for your loss and I sympathize with all of you.May the sun shine in your lives and dear Ashley always be part of the strenth you all posses.May GOD bless her soul and keep all of you strong. Ken and Trish I will be there for you anytime you ask.May GOD be with you all.AMEN
JIM BAKER <Silverado_94@hotmail.com>
BRANTFORD,ONT., CANADA - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 10:28 AM (CST)

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To the Goud Family
I am so sorry to hear this news. Ashley is a beautiful girl and has touched many lives within the community. May God bless you and your family in the days to come. Lots of Love Nicole Moning
Nicole Moning <moning@interlynx.net>
Millgrove, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 10:27 AM (CST)

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Ashley and Toireasa are both dancing the Jellicle Ball! Our own personal Guardian Angels! We Love YOU!!!
Julia, mom to Angel Toireasa <www.caringBridge.com/page/toireasa>
Philadelphia, PA USA - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 10:16 AM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family, my heart is so sad today. I know I don't know you personally, but Ashley had become personal to me through this website. I wish I had some magic words that could make all the heartache disappear. But since I don't, I thought of the words to an old, old song, "Does Jesus Care?" -- "Does Jesus care when my heart is pained too deeply for mirth or song; as the burdens press, and the cares distress and the way grows weary and long? Does Jesus care when my way is dark with a nameless dread and fear; as the daylight fades into deep night shades, does He care enough to be near? Does Jesus care when I've tried and failed to resist some temptation strong; when for my deep grief there is no relief, though my tears flow all the night long? Does Jesus care when I've said goodbye to the dearest on earth to me, and my sad heart aches till it nearly breaks, is it aught to Him? does He see? Oh yes, He cares, I know He cares, His heart is touched with my grief. When the days are weary, the long nights dreary, I know my Savior cares." -- I know that Jesus does care dear family, and I pray that you will feel His care ever so present in the days to come. I Peter 5:7.
Kim Rutherford
Knoxville, TN USA - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 09:50 AM (CST)

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I was searching for an apple orchard earlier this fall and I found your webpage through Lutz Orchards. I have read your past and current journal entries and have prayed for Ashley along with many many other people. I am very sorry for your loss. Please take comfort in knowing that many friends and strangers (like myself) have prayed and will continue to pray for your family in the days and weeks to come.
Cheree Martin-Campbell <chereelee@hotmail.com>
Hamilton, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 09:49 AM (CST)

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So sorry to hear about Ashley, my prayers are with you.
George Howson <applebycons@sprint.ca>
Hamilton, - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 09:37 AM (CST)

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ashley will always be remembered in our hearts. She has brought great inspiration to all our family. May the love of God provide strength for you in this time of need.
Orlando and Anne De Carlo and family <odecarlo@hotmail.com>
Waterdown, Ont. Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 09:30 AM (CST)

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Ken and Trish, Derek, Danielle and Nathan,
We are so sorry for the loss of Ashley. Our hearts break for you. I tried explaining to our kids that this is a sad and happy time because Ashley is in Heaven with Jesus and wouldn't want to be anywhere else, but that her family and everyone touched by her will miss her terribly. It's so hard to understand. We are keeping you all in our prayers that God will grant comfort and peace to you. We pray you will feel His loving hand holding you through this.

In Christian love, Drew & Liesl Neven and family
Drew & Liesl Neven <dlneven@skylinc.net>
Dundas, ON - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 09:05 AM (CST)

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I have been reading about Ashley since I saw the article about her in the Spectator at Hallowe'en. I lost my mom to brain cancer almost 5 years ago. I know the loss is nothing like loosing a child. My thoughts are with your family.
Heather McMurray <4macs@sympatico.ca>
Grimsby, Ont Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 08:58 AM (CST)

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Goud Family,

From everyone here at Camp Trillium, we share in your sorrow. We have received many phone calls today from our volunteers and staff who have been touched by Ashley over the last few years. We remember the happy times with Ashley and hope to share new ones with your family in the future.
Camp Trillium Staff & Volunteers <nelsonm@camptrillium.com>
- Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 08:51 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken & Trish, Derek, Nathan, Danielle: I am at a loss for words right now, I can't imagine the pain. I know that our Heavenly Father is holding your little Ashley, I pray that this be your comfort. May God's grace be with you and we will pray for you. All our Love Martin & Jodi, Stephanie, Rebecca, Nicole, Melissa, & Renee Mobach.
Jodi Mobach <bikemech28@aol.com>
Flamborough, - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 08:43 AM (CST)

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My sorrow is too deep for words. Trust Him. He will get you through this. Know that we all love you. We will keep you in our prayers non-stop over the next few days. Love Marnie
Marnie Hood and family
Waterdown, On - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 08:29 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish and family
Our prayers are with you and your family during this time. May the love of our heavenly Father guide you, give you the strength that you need and comfort you. May the knowledge that Ashley is in our Saviour's arms right now be with you always.

Always thinking and praying for you,

Terence, Jen, Megan and Emma deJager <jennifer_de_jager@hotmail.com>
Dundas, Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 08:27 AM (CST)

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Ken and Tricia, I can't stop thinking of you guys...that's all I have to say. You are wonderful parents.
Jane Cassano
Hamilton, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 08:26 AM (CST)

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I'm so very sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine the pain you're going through. I've been following your postings for the last month or so and I can hardly stop crying now myself. Ashley's story has given me new perspective on everything and I treasure each day with my family.

God bless you all.
John Elliott <jelliott@zenon.com>
Oakville, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 08:25 AM (CST)

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Ally and I were doing our devotions the other day and we ran across the verses in John where Jesus told us in His word that "In my Fathers House are many rooms.....I'm going to go to prepare one for you." Ally and I just took a few minutes to imagine what our rooms would look like and what Ashley's room looks like and it made us smile because the room is much more beautiful than we can ever imagine. God is a good God......we continue to pray for all of you.
Ally and Helena Nyland
- Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 07:08 AM (CST)

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hi ashley. we are still praying for you.
from TYLER
tyler
waterdown, on - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 05:54 AM (CST)

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Trish, Ken & family
I believe in god, and I believe in miracles. I'm praying for little Ashley, and it's my hope that my prayers will be strong enough to make another miracle.
Bent.

Bent Kristensen <bentkr@tdcadsl.dk>
Middelfart, Denmark - Wednesday, November 20, 2002 at 04:32 AM (CST)

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Trish, Ken & family,
We are continuously praying for a miracle to happen. Ashley has been blessed with a wonderful family and
is only as strong as she is because of her environment. Keep strong, keep believing and trust that Our Father will keep her where He believes she should be. Our prayers, our hearts are here for you all. Trusting that He will spare her the pain, trusting that He will give you the strength to continue to support eachother and savour the time that is left. God Bless You All, with our hearts.. Mark, Liz, Mikayla, Mya & Markie Martorano
liz martorano <martorano@sympatico.ca>
brantford, on canada - Tuesday, November 19, 2002 at 10:11 PM (CST)

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Ken, Trish, and family,
May God carry you through this difficult time in your life. We have been reading the journal since the beginning and have been praying for you.
Calvin and Ria Kemper <kemper@primus.ca>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Tuesday, November 19, 2002 at 09:21 PM (CST)

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I wish you the best of luck, and don't forget to always keep faith with you, and always remember to believe!
Stephanie
Canada - Tuesday, November 19, 2002 at 06:24 PM (CST)

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Today when we were leaving, Austin found a purple ribbon in the hallway and picked it up. I told him he could put it on his coat and he asked what it was for. I told him that it meant we were thinking about Ashley. As I was bent over talking to him, he took my coat in his hands and placed the purple ribbon on my collar. He gently patted it and looked directly into my eyes, and said "There, now you have two, this way people will know that you're thinking about Ashley ALOT!"
Beth <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, ON - Tuesday, November 19, 2002 at 05:12 PM (CST)

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"There can be miracles... if u believe... though hope is frail... its hard to kill."
My thoughts and prayers (as well as many of my friends) are with you at this time.
With love,
lauryn griffioen- 13
lauryn griffioen <hiphopchick321@hotmail.com>
lynden, ont can - Tuesday, November 19, 2002 at 05:06 PM (CST)

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Dear Ashley & Family

This is the first time I have written to you, but have followed your courageous fight in conjunction with my grandson Austin Davis. My prayers go out to you as well as to your Mom & Dad, that God's blessings will help you through this very difficult time. What an inspiration you have been to all of us who have come to know you.
God Bless You.
Marj Davis and Art <akirk9@hotmail.com>
Stoney Creek, Ont Canada - Tuesday, November 19, 2002 at 03:11 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken & Trish, Ashley and Family: I know that I wrote a message yesterday, but I wanted to write to you again today. It amazes me the amount of people continuing to uphold you in their prayers. It is my prayer that you feel the presence of God's Holy Spirit each and every minute of every day you have with Ashley. I am doing as you asked and praying for Ashley and praying that her suffering may not be great. Remember that comfort that God has assured us through His Son Jesus. I leave you with this poem: My Life is but a weaving between my Lord and me; I cannot choose the colours, He worketh steadily. Ofttimes He weaveth sorrow and I in foolish pride, Forget that He seeth the upper and I the under side. Not till the loom is silent and the shuttles cease to fly, Shall God unroll the canvas and explain the reason why. The dark threads are a needful in the Weaver's skillful hand, As threads of gold and silver In the pattern He has planned. All our love and prayers Martin and Jodi Mobach, P.S. Renee sends out a big hug and love you to Ashley.
Jodi Mobach <bikemech28@aol.com>
Fllamborough, - Tuesday, November 19, 2002 at 01:25 PM (CST)

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Dear Ashley Goud & family
It is amazing how many families your life situation has touched. Ashley is beautiful and very courageous! I
pray that you alway feel God's presence and love for you.
I pray that God will answer your prayers.
Lee VanWyngaarden <fms92@hotmail.com>
Dundas, ON Canada - Tuesday, November 19, 2002 at 12:18 PM (CST)

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Hello, I am a friend of John and Candy. I am moved by your situation and I wish you peace, in the midst of the storm. I don't know what could be worse than seeing a child in pain. I lost my mom to cancer a few years ago, she was 50. Although I do not understand how it is to go through this with a child, I do understand it from a perspective of losing a loved one. My thoughts and prayers are with you all and may God bring so much love and peace at this time to carry you all through your journey with Ashley.
Sherry Nichols <shabooabby@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, November 19, 2002 at 11:41 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish & Family
We pray each day for Ashley and your family. I read a passage this morning that I want to share with you. "You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book" Psalm 56 Vs 8 (New Living Translation). God knows what you are going through, may he comfort you in this very difficult time. Roy, Alice , Brad & Sarah Weemhoff
Alice Weemhoff <weemhoff@cogeco.ca>
Carlisle, Ont Canada - Tuesday, November 19, 2002 at 11:12 AM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family:

There are no words that we can say that can accurately express how we feel. We uphold you in our prayers every day and still pray for a miracle for your precious little girl. We as Christians can take comfort from John 14. "Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going." My daughter, Kianna, was in Ashley's class last year and wanted to let Ashley know that she prays for her every day and that she misses her. Ashley has touched so many people and has brought the community together in ways people never imagined. Our lives have been changed forever by one amazing gift from God. May God strengthen you during this very difficult time.
Annette & Kianna Nyland <adnyland@hotmail.com>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Tuesday, November 19, 2002 at 08:59 AM (CST)

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Ken, Trish and Ashley: We are praying and you are all in our thoughts. We hope Ashley had a good night.

Suzanne Langford and class.
Suzanne Langford
Dundas, - Tuesday, November 19, 2002 at 08:37 AM (CST)

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Austin Davis is our nephew and thru his webpage I've come to read about Ashley. Our thoughts are with you now and our prayers.
Jerry and Corinne Lamb
Auckland, New Zealand - Tuesday, November 19, 2002 at 06:26 AM (CST)

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Although we have never ever met, my family prays for yours daily. My children have learned about Ashley's story through school. I weep when I read your story, and I can't begin to imagine what you are going through right now. Your courage and faith are inspirational to me. We will continue to pray for you, even after Ashley has finished her battle.
Hilda Schuldis and Family
Bowmanville, On Canada - Monday, November 18, 2002 at 11:47 PM (CST)

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nd through the changing scenes of life we can find a haven there!

Dearest little Ahsley...God be with you til we meet again.
With love and prayers, The Van Berkel family
Sam and Laurie Van Berkel <sberk@attcanada.ca>
Copetown , Ont Canada - Monday, November 18, 2002 at 09:52 PM (CST)

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My prayers are with you.
George Morrow <electrongeo@yahoo.com>
Port Carling, Ont Canada - Monday, November 18, 2002 at 09:19 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish and Family:

As I sit in front of my computer, tears filled in my eyes, my heart aches for you and my family. We, as parents, sometimes wonder what it would be like for us to lose our parents, or our children not to have parents, but not as parents to lose a child, or as brothers and sisters to lose a sibling.

As I tucked the children into bed tonight, we prayed that God would gently take Ashley into His arms and not make her suffer anymore.

God Bless You and your family, day to day, hour to hour as you walk through this most difficult experience.

Thinking of you often,

Randy, Renee, Danielle and Kyle Simpson

Renee Simpson <rsimpson27@cogeco.com>
Dundas, Ont Canada - Monday, November 18, 2002 at 08:02 PM (CST)

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I have never actually met Ashley, but I have heard so much about her! She is in our prayers at home and especially at school...she sounds like an amazingly strong little girl, and I hope that God continues to watch over her and her family. God Bless~
Jen Deweerd <jennififi@hotmail.com>
Caledonia, ONT Canada - Monday, November 18, 2002 at 07:52 PM (CST)

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dear gouds
Just wanted to let you know that we are also praying and thinking of you constantly.The LORD be with you to sustain you.
arnold, debbie, colin, leah and joel wouda <woudaislandboy@aol.com>
harrisburg, ont canada - Monday, November 18, 2002 at 07:19 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish
It is with tears in my eyes that I write this note to you. We have only met a couple of times but our bond as brothers and sisters in Christ has kept you close to our heart. We are praying for God's strength for you right now.
David and Jennifer Adams <jendave@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, - Monday, November 18, 2002 at 06:26 PM (CST)

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Hello there...I am truly sorry for all that has happened. May God take care of Ashley forever. She's going to be an angel with Shannon now.
Krysta Pouliot <angelp2000@hotmail.com>
Stoney Creek, Canada - Monday, November 18, 2002 at 04:52 PM (CST)

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Ken, Trish, Ashley and family, Our lives have been altered forever by the very gracious gift of our visit with Ashley. There is no doubt in my mind that Ashley will change the face of heaven as she has changed the face of this earth. I know she will feel love and security in her parent's arms every moment of every day. Thank you for letting us be a part of this blessed child even for a moment. We will cherish our purple ribbons forever as a symbol of her beauty and strength. Our love to everyone in that great big beautiful family.

Debbie and Jane Pepper <deborah.pepper@sympatico.ca>
Lynden, On, - Monday, November 18, 2002 at 04:44 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trisch and Ashley and brothers and sisters from Ashley. May the Lord help you all in these difficult times . That Ashley may get strenght for all her pain. We pray for you all. That psalm 39 may strenghten you. Maralina our Little girl is very sad about it. She always sings this song: The mothers of Salem , the children brought to Jesus . The stern disciples drove them back and bade them depart . But Jesus saw them er they fled and sweetly smiled and kindly said , suffer little children to come unto me.With love from Derrick, Marie-christine,Maralina,Nathan de Bruin-Goud
Marie-christine de Bruin-Goud <bruindb@execulink.com>
Tillsonburg, Ont Canada - Monday, November 18, 2002 at 02:24 PM (CST)

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Ashley and Family,

Thinking of you a lot lately...sending many prayers and angels your way! Keep fighting hard...sending you much love. Hope and power is your greatest gift from within...keep it up.

God Bless You Ashley!
Your Friend,
Shannon

Shannon <www.caringbridge.org/page/johnrussell>
Eden Prairie, MN - Monday, November 18, 2002 at 01:34 PM (CST)

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I cannot even begin to imagine what you are going through. I have been praying for you continually, and now I pray to our wonderful Lord for strength for you both and your family in this time. I want to share with you the most important and definitely the most difficult lesson I have ever tried to learn, and am continuing to learn today. "Let go, and Let God". He is always there for you, watching you, and guiding you. May you find strength and comfort in His unfailing love and grace. You're in my prayers, kim
psalm 62:5-8
Find rest, o my soul, in God alone;
my hope comes from him
He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, i will not be shaken
My salvation and my honor depend on God
he is my mighty rock, my refuge.
trust in him at all times o people,
pour out your hearts to him
for God is our refuge.
Kimberly Dykstra <dykstra_k@hotmail.com>
Caledonia, ON Canada - Monday, November 18, 2002 at 01:15 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish and Family: I just read your latest entry and am very saddened by the news, I am also amazed at the grace of God speaking through you as you said it is almost time for Ashley to go home to our Father and our Saviour Jesus. I cannot imagine being in your situation right now, but I will continue to pray that our Heavenly Father watch over you and Ashley and keep you in the palm of His hand. Your courage and your faith is a testament to us all. I pray that God's hand has taken yours and Ken's and together you walk this journey. We will constantly pray for you and Ashley, and know that the community is standing behind and beside you. All our love and prayers Martin and Jodi Mobach and family.
Jodi Mobach <bikemech28@aol.com>
Flamborough, Canada - Monday, November 18, 2002 at 01:08 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish and family:
Please know you and your entire family are in our prayers and we wish for you much strength and comfort.

PS. Megan was in Ashley's class last year and says hello!! She often says to us, "Don't forget to pray for Ashley!"
Jennifer de Jager <jennifer_de_jager@hotmail.com>
Dundas, Canada - Monday, November 18, 2002 at 12:35 PM (CST)

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Dear Trish, Ken and Ashley: Our thoughts and prayers are with you everyday. Jane Pepper told the parenting class about her visit and about your beauty, strength, and courage. We are all thinking and praying for you.

Suzanne Langford and class


suzanne langford
- Monday, November 18, 2002 at 10:41 AM (CST)

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Praying, praying, praying for the strenght that you need at this time - I'm still hoping and PRAYING for a miracle (they do happen) - My grandson has this terrible disease also and I know you are going thru my greatest fear right now - but never give up hope and keep the prayers going !!
I am praying constantly for all of you now -
Eileen Drayer - grammy to Billy, age 4 NB dx 2/27/02

Eileen Drayer <dray@penn.com>
Reynoldsville, Pa Usa - Monday, November 18, 2002 at 10:26 AM (CST)

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as i write i write w/ tears. tears full of probably every emotion possible. hope, fear, comfort etc. etc. i'm sure everyone who has shed tears for ashley can relate. after reading your last journal Trish, i was planning on writing in this guestbook again, but i was at a loss for words. i mean what do you say in a time like this. What do you say that everyone else hasn't?? It seems there is nothing. Once again, Ashley, you are such a brave little girl and will make the most beautiful angel in heaven...Ken and Trish you have done such a wonderful job of portraying the Love of our Father in Heaven to his children as you do to Ashley, you must be so proud. To see how many lives you all have touched is every bit of amazing and awesome. My constant thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, as well with us, the community. It is the most wonderful thing to see everyone pulling together at times like this, even though it's the hardest. Ken, Trish, and Ashley, you are in my heart forever. "Neither life nor death shall ever from the Lord His children sever; for to them his grace revealing he turns sorrow into healing."
Rachel VanBerkel <raych_1088@hotmail.com>
Copetown, On Canada - Monday, November 18, 2002 at 10:03 AM (CST)

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What a special little girl to keep so strong through this. Your strength and courage for your little Ashley makes me treasure my little girl so much more and appreciate her more. You are wonderful parents.
Elisabeth Ossadnik <eossadnik@hotmail.com>
Hamilton, ON Canada - Monday, November 18, 2002 at 09:07 AM (CST)

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Ashley & the Goud Family,

You are close to our hearts during this time.

Sending lots of positive energy,
Natalie, Vladimir & Lina Rak from the nb list-serv (www.caringbridge.com/fl/lina) <vladanat@attbi.com>
Jacksonville, FL - Monday, November 18, 2002 at 07:26 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish, Its not often i write to people but i thought that i would let you know that you are on my heart.

I got your letter from a friend in Canada and myself and all my other friends (from Scotland) are praying for you and your daughter.

I personally beleive in the power of prayer to work in peoples lifes and i have seen it work in my own so please do not give up hope.

Be assured that all is in the hands of Jesus, whatever the outcome and that he is with you all always.

Yours in Christ.

Dave Gillan <soulsrus2000@yahoo.co.uk>
Dingwall, Ross-shire Scotland - Monday, November 18, 2002 at 05:17 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish and Family:

We just read your latest journal on Nov. 16, 2002 and have talked to Melanie. Ashley continues to be a bright shining light in our lives, hearts and minds. Ashley always was and still is in Gods hands whether it be here or in Heaven. Ken and Trish - you have been a tremendous source of inspiration and courage to all parents - your love and devotion to your children and to Ashley has touched the lives of thousands of people and has left a mark on all those who have been involved one way or the other. We do not know what the future will hold but we do know Who holds Ashleys future and our futures as well.

Many tears have been shed and will continue to be shed by your family, friends and the Community. We pray that God will sustain your family and Ashley and that He may be especially merciful to Ashley in the coming days. The rest I just can't find the words for. If there is anything we can do, please call us.

I am also touched by the way Janine and Melanie have given their hearts for Ashley. She has been a source of joy and inspiration to them and they will be forever changed by her zest for life in good times and tough times.

Sincerely

Harold, Mieke and family.


Harold and Mieke Groen <hmgroen@hotmail.com>
West Flamborough, ON CAN - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 09:46 PM (CST)

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hello! i just wanted you and your family to know that my family, church, school and myself are constantly praying for ashely and the family. i hope that God will bless you all. i have been reading some of the enteries myself. well i hope that ashely will get better and that i will continue to pray for her and the family
katie schotsman <kschotsman@hotmail.com>
waterdown, on canada - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 09:34 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family:
We don't know where to begin, our family has been so drawn to any word about Ashley, we think and pray for you constantly. We pray for strength for your family in the days to come, may the Lord comfort you all.

Lots of love, Teresa, Nicole, Chris & Alicia Moning
The Moning's <moning@interlynx.net>
Millgrove, ON Canada - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 09:23 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish
We thought that we might share with you something that our five year old said that brought a smile, (alright, it outright made us laugh) in the midst of our tears over the latest update that we had received. The kids wanted to know why mommy was sad and crying. We told them in carefully chosen words that it looked to the doctors and to all of us that God has chosen for Ashley to go home very soon to be safe in the arms of Jesus. After further discussion Katie decided that she wanted to go to the hospital to say good-bye, to which we replied that Ashley was sleeping alot right now, aswell as reminding Katie that this is a very special time for Ashley's family to be spending the time with her when she is awake etc.After more of this back and forth we finally reminded Katie that Ashley already knows how much she is loved by everyone,and we dont need to say good-bye because we know that we will see Ashley again when we get to heaven. Well, "That's a long time," she moaned. We said, "It might seem like a long time right now but it really isn't ...". At this point Shelley is still tearful, and trying to say the right words, and everyone is serious, and Katie blurts out "Well, it might not seem like a long time to YOU (meaning that her parents are very old!?!) but to US (kids) its a very loooonng time!" Well Cal and I burst out laughing. Out of the mouths of babes! Anyway, we are thinking of you just about constantly now. Thanks for such current updates. May God hold you in the palm of His hand, and we pray that you feel His presence at each moment. Please pass along our love to Ashley-especially from Katie!
Love Cal and Shelley
Cal & Shelley <bosveldfamily@netscape.net>
Freelton, - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 08:54 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family
Although I have only met you once and Ashley as well I have been updated regularly by my sister-in-law Jane Boesveld. I have prayed for you when news was not great and rejoiced when it was. I was saddened to hear that Ashley only has a short time left and will pray for you and your family that she will go with little pain as possible so she may enjoy eternal life in Heaven with God our Father. May he give you stength in the coming days.
Jackie Boesveld and family <hlgmspot@bserv.com>
Milton, On Canada - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 08:16 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family,
I have been keeping up with your fabulous entries that have shown me how strong everyone in your family is.
It brought me great grief to read your latest entry. Having only spend 2 precious weeks with your family the last two summers I have come to know a truly incredible family.
Keep on fighting I'm thinking about you all.
Love always your Special friend
Tara
Tara Johnson
- Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 07:25 PM (CST)

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Dear Ashley,
Keep fighting, you're stronger then cancer! You are in all our prayers. Please get better! We love you lots!!!!!
Lot of Love from Samantha
Samantha & Alyssa Jagt, Margaret DeGroot <degroot@canada.com>
Ancaster, ON Canada - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 06:58 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family,
I am so sad to read the update on Ashley. I have felt a strong connection to you and her since we got to meet this past summer. This breaks my heart, and I wish there was something that I could say or do to ease the pain. I will keep all of you in my prayers and close to my heart.
With love and prayers,
Leah (Christopher's Mom) <www.christophershope.com>
Sauk Rapids, MN USA - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 05:13 PM (CST)

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Ken and Tricia, there are no words to express the sadness we feel for all of you. Ashley has touched our hearts in a very special way and we hope to help you in any way we can as you begin this journey. Our thoughts are with you.
Jane & Nelson <janenelson@execulink.com>
Hamilton, ON Canada - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 05:12 PM (CST)

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hi all
I found this web page through Toireasa's site. When I read the latest news, I burst into tears. My prayers are with you now and forever.
Lots of love and God Bless.
Jenny
xxxx
Jenny Wilson <jennysjellicles@yahoo.co.uk>
London, England United Kingdom - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 05:00 PM (CST)

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My heart so aches for you and your family. God is the great comforter, and provides peace that passes all human understanding. Hang on to and draw on Him, and the knowledge of Ashley's peace. Nothing can take away all the beautiful memories you have, and thank you for sharing some of them through your journal.

It's so wonderful to know you have such great support with friends and family around you, and from people you don't even know in the community. I've felt the love that has been there at the hospital these past few days for you and your family, as we were there with our son for treatment. Its during these times we see how wonderful people can be.

God bless and provide you with all the peace you need at this time, I pray for you daily, much love and comfort to you all.
Denise Moxam <dmoxam@cogeco.ca>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 04:57 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud family;
Its so sad to hear wat is happening to your daughter ashley.Im wishing that everything will be better very soon and i hope that every ones prayer or wish will come true.
Bridgit Rewald <kidy_69@hotmail.com>
Lynden, Ontario Canada - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 04:55 PM (CST)

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I am so sorry to hear your news. My prayers are with you.
Kim (Austin's relative)
Humphrey, On Canada - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 03:40 PM (CST)

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Thank you for sharing all your thoughts throughout this time - You are always my thoughts and prayers - I cried this morning reading your website - i can't even begin to imagine what you are going through - I hope you guys feel the comfort and strength that everybody is praying for, for you. I've only met Ashley a hand full of times - but as so many other people have said - she is definitely a little hero.
Jodi Vanderzwaag <jodiv@accglobal.net>
Hamilton, Ontario - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 03:37 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish & family,
Your special angel Ashley, is being readied to be called to God's side. She will forever be in your hearts and just as you have watched over her, she will soon help watch over you. May God bless you, guide and hold your hand during this stressful time. Our thoughts and prayers are with all of you.




Rick and Deb Harper
Brantford, Ont. - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 03:34 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family
There are no words I can say to bring you comfort.... I only wish I could.
My husband asked me why I read your families website, "It makes you so sad" he says
I replied that " I hope I will never forget how precious life is. And I tell him that I wish I could just hug and kiss you all and make it all better" I'm so deeply sadden for your family.
When my niece Kayla went into remission, it was easier to close and to try and put this cancer stuff behind us, like it never happened...like it was not real "Forget". But it is so Real and we shouldn't Forget , it is just the beginning for so many children and their families, this is a horrible horrific disease.
And if we ever learn anything from this senseless, cruel disease I hope it is to never forget how important life is and what really matters in life - " don't sweat the small stuff & hold tight to your families and suck up every wonderful moment of it."
Your families journey is one that has touch the hearts of so many, Ashley will live on forever in these hearts that she has touched. She is such a brave little girl....who fought a good fight, God loves her. She will be with your mother now, and I know that your mother will embrace her and hold her tight until you guys can be with her again. And I'm positive that all the beautiful Angels, will be lined up for miles just to have Miss Ashley do their nails.
God Bless you...your are in my prayers and thought for always.

Madonna Pacheco <mpache0421@rogers.com>
Stratford, On Canada - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 03:33 PM (CST)

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DEAR GOUD FAMILY.
HEllo, We are sincerely sorry to hear about this news we have and will continue keeping you in our prayers.May God give you the strength and guidance to carry on
God Bless

Love Ken, Karen, amy. katie,aron & paul Tigchelaar <ktig@sprint.ca>
- Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 02:50 PM (CST)

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Hi Goud family ; My heart goes out to you all at this difficult time. At least there is comfort in the fact that Ashley will no longer be in pain and will be in the arms of God (the number one man in her life) and with your loving parent Trish. May our thoughts and prayers sustain you in these incerdably difficult times ahead. All our love The Regnerus Family
Colin and Sandra Regnerus And Family
Dundas, Ont - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 02:26 PM (CST)

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dear goud family
hi, i just want you to know that our grade 8 class @ Hamilton Calvin Christian School has been praying for you for the last few weeks, may God be with you in this difficult time!
luv megan-13
Megan <sunshine_gurl62@hotmail.com>
Hamilton, Canada - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 02:16 PM (CST)

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dear goud fam wehope and pray that you may find strenght in these very difficult times may God keep you and hold you in his hands love dini and paul vos ps psalm23
paul vos <pvos3@sympatico.ca>
carlisle , - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 02:14 PM (CST)

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Hi Ken, Tricia and family
Our thoughts and prayers are with you all at this time. I once did a Bible Study on the names of the Lord. We discussed how God allows "bad things to happen to good people", that He often uses these instances in ways we would never dream of. We also discovered that, as a Christian, even these bad times are made easier because whatever God sends us, he filters through fingers of His LOVE. Although I can't imagine your feelings at this time, you can be assured that without Him your days would really be filled with despair. Ashley has touched so many lives and although I've only met her a few times, I know she'll live forever in our hearts. Rest peacefully, sweet Ashley. We love you very much!


Ingrid Louwerse & family <louwerse@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 02:01 PM (CST)

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How hard it is to let God be God. Trust Him. He will not let us down. I'm so comforted to know the strong support of family and friends are there with you. Ashley, you have touched my heart in a way that know one else will ever will. Through Christ, I love you SOOO much. I'll miss you, but look forward with great joy to seeing you again- under very different conditions!! Lots of love to you all. Let's keep our eyes and our hearts on the Father.
Marnie Hood and family <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown , - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 01:10 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family,

We are so deeply saddened to hear that Ashley is losing the battle of which she has fought with such courage and strength. She has touched the hearts of so many; her family, her friends and a countless number of strangers who have been inspired simply by her story and her smile. In her 5 years on earth, she has taught more people about courage and love, than most people do in an entire lifetime. And although the disease may be able to take away her body -nothing will ever be able to take away her spirit - which will live forever in the hearts of all of those she has touched.
The Majcher Family <pmajcher@cogeco.ca>
Ancaster, On - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 01:08 PM (CST)

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dear ken and trish , it brakes my heart to read your latest entry thank you for taken time away to let us know about your little angle.I along with so many others shed so many tears you and your family. Soon she'll have no pain, her little body can rest, she has touched so many lives ,so many people love her,and have learned from this BRAVE little girl. may god bless you and your family through this most difficilt time ,you are in my prayers . i pray for ashley ,for you and ken ,and for the other children.
ALICIA AND SEAN HICKS <aliciahicks73@hotmail.com>
strabane, ontario - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 12:55 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud family
the lord loves you all and so do i. you never know God still might send a miracle.
love you all lindsay noordam <jnoordam@beeserve.com>
dundas, ONT canada - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 12:49 PM (CST)

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Dear;Goud family
My heart goes out to you and your family. I read about how Ashely does not have much time left on earth. At least we Know that Ashely will go to heaven
Luv always Meghan Vanderkruk <rvanderkruk@sympatico.ca>
dundas, ONT canada - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 12:37 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family,my thoughts and prayers are with you..May the Lord sustain you and all your family and friends in these difficult times.
Yvonne Jagt <yvonne.jagt@sympatica.ca>
Burlington, On Canada - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 12:10 PM (CST)

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Ken & Trish. I have no words to say. My heart bleeds for you both, as well as your other children, family & all those who have been so suportive and involved with you ans Ashley. I am amazed at youe strenth with all the ups and downs you have faced from the first day until now. I cannot imagine youe pain. As you know we have been blessed with 5 children and I could not imagine going through what you are facing. All I want to say to you is that My prayers are with you, and that you are able to have strength in the days and weeks to come. Nancy and the kids read your web page quite regularly and we have difficulty dealing with this way over here. I know Ashley is going to a better place and I know that your Mother is a great babysitter so she will be in the best of hands. Keep the faith and lean on whoever you need to help you through this difficult time. You have one of the best support teams in the world with all the family and friends around you.
With love
John Jagt
John Jagt <jjagt@mackinnontransport.com>
Brantford, ON Canada - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 12:06 PM (CST)

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hi, sorry i dont have much to say, except good luck!! (and i dontated to you too!!)
Ally
- Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 12:04 PM (CST)

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hi- its me again... lauryn griffioen. i have been checking up on your site to find the news regarding ashley's CT Scan. i expected a bright and happy page filled with good news... i didnt expect the bad. im thankful that your outlook on this isnt all bad. may god be with your family and ashley at this time. lauryn- 13
lauryn griffioen <hiphopchick321@hotmail.com>
lynden, ont canada - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 11:27 AM (CST)

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I am so sad after reading your last entry. As always our thoughts and prayers are with Ashley and your family.
May God spare Ashley pain and may he help you all to find strength and courage during this difficult time.
Desiree Zimbalatti
Oakville, On - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 10:53 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish,
Several times I have come to read your journal entries and this amazing guest book, but I could never bring myself to write my own entry. But someone told me that is never too late to send someone your love. So here it is, and it has been building up for some time now, so there is a lot of love in this little message. Ken, you are so right about words like awesome and amazing being wasted on such unimportant things. There are no words to describe how awesome the strength of a family can be. Ken and Trish, your faith and hope are so amazing, it's infectious.
My thoughts and prayers are with you all.
Hugs and Kisses from,
Tammy
Tamara James <tamara.james@sympatico.ca>
- Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 10:40 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish and Ashley and family,

We are deeply saddened over the latest events in Ashley's life. We continue to pray for God's love and support to uphold and give you the strength needed in the time to come.
Please know that Ashley's struggle has touched the lives of people far beyond your immediate community. In her short years she has taught others what it means to truly live, following whatever path God has set before us. In this way she will live forever in the hearts of strangers who will always remember what lesson she, and your family, had to teach. Thank you for sharing your story with us....allowing us to send our love to your family and allowing us to see first-hand the peace and strength that only faith can bestow.
Mark Groen and Renee Benardi-Ronan <mrgroen@uwo.ca>
London, On Canada - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 10:28 AM (CST)

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hi there,
I just wanted you guys to know that yesterday when Janine and I visited for a while it made me realize so many things in my life need to be changed...I have to stop taking life for granted and to give thanks to God for everything in my life ,especially Ashley. I also want to say thank you for letting me share a part of my life with Ashley, words can't express how much it means to me. So many prayers are out there for you guys, including mine and my family and they will continue to be forever. Take care, see ya soon,
Love always,
Melanie
Melanie Groen <igotu_babe@hotmail.com>
w. flamborough, ont. canada - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 09:24 AM (CST)

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May the love of Christ be your strength during this time. Our prayers are always with you.
Orlando, Anne Marie, Jessica, Sara, Nicole, and Nathan De Carlo <odecarlo@hotmail.com>
Waterdown, Ont. Canada - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 09:14 AM (CST)

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hello gouds i am so sorry to hear this very bad news and i hope ashley will have a good everlasting life in heaven and our prayers are with you
matthew zwart <rockstarmatt2002@hotmail.com>
flamborough, ontario canada - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 07:28 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish, Ashley, Derek, Danielle and Nathan,
Thank you for sharing your latest update of sadness and yet also faith in God. We pray that you all will continue to keep the faith in these days when you feel so so sad.
I guess it is time for all of us to let go and let God. May God our heavenly Father be your true source of comfort and hope in these days. Ours, too, as we try to understand the why. We know that many, many people and being blessed through all of this. We continue to lift you all up before His throne, praying for peace and strength.
Love,
Annette and Robert, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton, ON Canada - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 07:20 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Tricia,
God's grace is already evidencing itself in your lives. I will pray that Ashley's suffering be minimal. When Charles was dying, it was a time that was both wonderful and horrifying, if that makes any sense. We were surrounded by friends and family as you are--to know your child is so loved is wonderful, but to have to say goodbye, even if only temporarily, is agonizing. I will not stop praying for you in the days and hours ahead. Life is tough but God is good, even when that's hard to see. Charles and Toireasa, Karsha and Gabrielle (two more NBS angels) will be waiting for Ashley with lots of Scooby-Doo movies! With you in spirit always, you are not alone.
Susan DeGroot <Homeagainfarm92@aol.com>
Mason, MI US - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 07:20 AM (CST)

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Dear the goud family and ashley
we know that God has perposes for everything and everyone not nowing what they are and what to do but we know that
God has a SPECIAL plan for everyone. Ashley you are a very special person! praying new prayers and old prayers we know that prayer works throught God!.
amanda zwart <c_r_e_a_m_13@hotmail.com>
lynden, ontario - Sunday, November 17, 2002 at 07:10 AM (CST)

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Thinking and praying very hard for you all during this time. I will send some special messages up to my special angel, John Russell, to keep eye over Ashley (he also batteled the Nblast monster!!). Please know you are all in my everyday prayers. Thinking of you all..sending many special angels and prayers your way from Minnesota. God Bless You Ashley! 0:-) Shannon

Shannon <www.caringbridge.org/page/johnrussell>
Eden Prairie, MN USA - Saturday, November 16, 2002 at 11:43 PM (CST)

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May peace be with you during these difficult times! My heart goes out to your family and Ashley! She is such a fighter and I know she will have the BEST nail salon in heaven! PEACE
Kelly Johnson www.caringbridge.org/nv/baileyaustinjohnson <BAJ31199@aol.com>
Lake Tahoe, NV USA - Saturday, November 16, 2002 at 10:39 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish & family - Our thoughts & prayers are with you in this trying time with Ashley - may God give you His Love, Strength & Peace. We love you all!
Cor & Appie Schuurman <MShrmn42@aol.com>
Branchton, Ontario Canada - Saturday, November 16, 2002 at 08:33 PM (CST)

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You all are in our prayers. Tonight at the dinner time devotions, our 6-year old prayed for Ashley. May you feel God's peace at this difficult time.
Diane VandeMeent
- Saturday, November 16, 2002 at 08:04 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family
We pray to hear good news soon. I know what it is like to have a sick child, But you just have to put your hands in gods. Love always the Mateus Family
Kathy Giambattista (Mateus) <mgiambattista@sympatico.ca>
Dundas, ont Canada - Saturday, November 16, 2002 at 07:46 PM (CST)

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Dear Ashley and family,
I am keeping you in my prayers daily and hope that you are strenghthened by it.

Meghan Vanderkruk <bvdk1410@aol.com>
Dundas, ONT Canada - Saturday, November 16, 2002 at 05:32 PM (CST)

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Ken and Trish,
We are sending you our love and prayers......Hang on to your faith in God.....Give Ashly our Love......
Alan , Kim, Tiffany and Gwyneth Noel (NBL 4S ,now 16 months old)
Alan and Kim Noel <gwyneth@horizonview.net>
Chillicothe, OH US - Saturday, November 16, 2002 at 04:19 PM (CST)

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Ken / Trish
We constantly pray and wonder how you're holding up.
We do not understand the why's but we can continue to trust and hold on to the promises of God! May his strength give you strength.
Helena Nyland <hnyland@bserv.com>
Millgrove, Ont Canada - Saturday, November 16, 2002 at 03:44 PM (CST)

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To Our Dear Hurting Ones,
I turn to the Great Comforter and ask Him to give you comfort and peace in your hearts as you endure these difficult days. May you find some solace also knowing that many, many others are on their knees by your side, if not in body, at least in spirit.
Our love to each of you!
Syd & Jamie
- Saturday, November 16, 2002 at 02:41 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Tricia and family,
May the Lord hold you in the palm of His hand as you face these difficulties. You are in our thoughts and prayers daily.

Jake, Janet, Kathryn, Deanna and Mikayla Ringelberg <j.ringelberg@sympatico.ca>
Troy, ON - Saturday, November 16, 2002 at 02:14 PM (CST)

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Hi Guys. Tricia I know how hard it was for you to write that last entry. Thank you for being so honest. Take comfort in the fact that God knows your inmost fears and turn to Him for comfort and strength. We love you all and are constantly bringing you and Ken and your kids before God in our prayers.
Love Karen
Karen Scharringa
- Saturday, November 16, 2002 at 08:03 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Tricia and family.
We're deeply saddened to read that recent days haven't been well for Ashley. Our constant thoughts and prayers are with you.

Ken, Gwen, Rachel and Michelle Bosveld <kbosveld@cogeco.ca>
Waterdown, Ont Canada - Saturday, November 16, 2002 at 06:43 AM (CST)

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You will be in our thoughts and prayers. We will watch closely for your next update regarding the CT scan.


The Nichol Family (N-Blast List Members) <kjnichol@earthlink.net>
New Fairfield, CT 06812 - Saturday, November 16, 2002 at 05:44 AM (CST)

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I pray for God to give you all strength and that he will hold Ashley in his arms and comfort her. God Bless you and make you strong.
Regina Neal (Alicia's Mom)
Etobicoke, On Canada - Friday, November 15, 2002 at 06:19 PM (CST)

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Goud Family- You may not know me but my name is Lauryn Griffioen and my oma and opa attend your church (Flamborough CRC.) I have heard a lot about ashley and how special of a little girl she is. My school and friends are all keeping your family in their prayers. may God be with you... keep faith and smiling. love, lauryn
Lauryn Griffioen <hiphopchick321@hotmail.com>
Lynden, Canada - Friday, November 15, 2002 at 05:09 PM (CST)

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Dear Ashley's Family,
I am praying for your little girl to my favorite Saint -
Padre Pio - he has helped me thru many difficult times with my grandson who also has NB - I will pray for one of his healing miracles - and I know he will hear me !!
God Bless You all and remember that you are strong!

Eileen Drayer <dray@penn.com>
Reynoldsville, Pa U - Friday, November 15, 2002 at 04:02 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish and family
Indeed your pain is hard to describe, we can only imagine what it must be to see your precious little daughter suffering physical and also mental pain(her crying the other day). It brings tears to our eyes, our hearts go out to you in all this. Hold on to the Lord who knows exactly how you feel and who gives you strength and hold on to eachother. We pray for Ashley and all of you.
Rien and Minnie VanStrien <rimistrien@sympatico.ca>
Millgrove, Ont Canada - Friday, November 15, 2002 at 03:58 PM (CST)

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Hello Mr. and Mrs. Goud
I am keeping Ashley and your family in my daily prayers. May God keep you in his hand as you experience such pain and heartache.
Jenny Groen <jennyg131@hotmail.com>
- Friday, November 15, 2002 at 03:11 PM (CST)

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Ken and Tricia
Our thoughts and prayers are with you, Ashley and your family as always. Please be strong and know that many thoughts and hopes are with you.
Desiree Zimbalatti
Oakville, On - Friday, November 15, 2002 at 10:18 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Tricia,
Remember, even when life seems so dark, God is holding all in His hands. It doesn't seem fair or right, but I know God loves Ashley, and both of you, far more than we can comprehend. Charles went to heaven March 10 so I can so relate to everything you're feeling right now. I am constantly lifting you up to the Father, He will never leave you. We're here for you. Hebrews 12:1-2
Mark, Susan, Audrey, and Jonathon DeGroot <Homeagainfarm92@aol.com>
Mason, MI USA - Friday, November 15, 2002 at 10:16 AM (CST)

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Hi Ashley, My name is Kathy. My 4 year old nephew Trey has neuroblastoma too. He was diagnosed stage 4 on Sept 29th. He has started some of the same treatments you are going thru. I am sorry to hear that you are sick again. Just keep fighting sweetheart and just remember that people everywhere are praying for you to get better including me. Mom and Dad, stay as strong as you possibly can. I know how hard it is to watch my nephew suffer thru this. Its got to be even harder for the Parents. God bless you and keep you. Ashley, I see you are a computer wiz, Trey will get a lap top next week maybe the two of you can comunicate his web site is caringbridge.org/va/trey.
Kathy Whitt <kathyphilw@hotmail.com>
Garner, Nc usa - Friday, November 15, 2002 at 09:20 AM (CST)

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Ken & Trish, you're right, we can't imagine what you are going through. Thanks for sharing all of this with us.It does help us to know specifics as to what to pray for. Know that your entire family is in our constant prayers. We'll pray for Widsom and Strength for the both of you in the decisions that lay ahead.
Drew & Liesl
Drew & Liesl Neven
Dundas, ON - Friday, November 15, 2002 at 09:12 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish, ASHLEY, Derek, Danielle, Nathan,
We pray for strength for each one of you during this difficult time. May God give you His comfort and love. Jesus loves each of you so much. So many people are being reached and blessed through this all. You all are blessings to us. Love, Annette, Rob, Stephanie and Michael
Annette and Robert, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton, ON Canada - Friday, November 15, 2002 at 08:27 AM (CST)

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Hi Trisha and Ken, I don't know what to say about the pain that you are going throught, except you are in our thoughts all the time, we love you all, please hug Ashley for us.
Sharon Byrne <SharonByrne2@netscape.net>
Dundas, On Canada - Friday, November 15, 2002 at 08:03 AM (CST)

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Ashley and family -
We pray that God holds you all in his comforting arms during this very difficult time.
The Hammer Family <www.caringbridge.org/mn/danielhammer>
Lakeland, MN - Friday, November 15, 2002 at 07:55 AM (CST)

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thank you for writing that hard entry, Ashley is in our prayers. be brave little one so many people are praying for you. You have touched so many hearts. God Bless
ALICIA AND SEAN HICKS <aliciahicks73@hotmail.com>
- Friday, November 15, 2002 at 07:49 AM (CST)

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Hi Guys.
Just finished reading your last entry and I can see how scared you are. Thank you for sharing your fears with us all because the more people carrying these fears, the better for all of you. Hang in there Ken and Trish, you are a blessing to Ashley who needs you so much right now. Our prayers are constant.
Our love to you all,

Cliff and Esther
Caledonia, ON Canada - Friday, November 15, 2002 at 07:24 AM (CST)

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Hiya Ashley!
I was just flipping channles on the TV and guess what... Scooby-Doo was on! It was the one with the snow monster! One of my personal favorites! Barbie and the Nutcracker is going to be shown her on TV soon! Have you watched the video yet? I love that movie! I miss you sweetie! Keep fighting! I love you!
Your Friend, Julia
Julia Barry, Angel Toireasa's Mommy <www.caringBridge.com/page/toireasa>
Philadelphia, PA USA - Thursday, November 14, 2002 at 05:15 PM (CST)

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ken, trish, and ashley.
my thoughts and prayers are with you every moment of every day. Along with that May God be with you every day. Ashley, Ken and Trish all of you are such an inspiration to everyone, and as a student of HDCH we are by your side every step of the way. The fundraising will be such a success and the community is to thank for it. Ken and Trish thank you for letting me share this with you through the Journals...you all are amazing, brave, wonderful, everything...
Rachel VanBerkel <raych_1088@hotmail.com>
Copetown, ON Canada - Thursday, November 14, 2002 at 05:00 PM (CST)

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My name is Kate, I am part of Mrs. Langford's parenting class, helping out with the fundraiser. This friday the class is spending the period baking for a bake sale to raise money for Ashley. After I had heard and read all the stories about Ashley I could not stop crying, your stories truly inspired me. The stories touched my heart. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Hold your head up high, NEVER GIVE UP!! Be brave Ashley, we love you!! Hugs
Katie Loates <evans_gurl73@hotmail.com>
Dundas, Canada - Thursday, November 14, 2002 at 03:07 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Tricia and family:
Just want to let you know that you are in our thoughts and prayers. May our Heavenly Father surround you with His loving care and give you strength and courage to go on each new day. Remember that He will always be there for those who trust in Him. Jesus said, Let the little children come to me for to them belongs the kingdom of Heaven.
Arnold and Anita Hulzebosch and family.
Anita Hulzebosch <anitahulzebosch@hotmail.com>
Waterdown, Ontario Canada - Thursday, November 14, 2002 at 09:25 AM (CST)

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Hi Ken, Tricia and Ashley
God answers all prayers, but not always in ways we understand. May He lift you up and carry you. Our prayers are with you.
Thank you for your beautifull testimony. To God be the glory.

Jack and Cathy Scholtens and family <scholtens@jackscholtens.com>
Burlington, - Wednesday, November 13, 2002 at 09:27 PM (CST)

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Hi Trish, Ken & Ashley!
I just want you to know that you guys are remarkable! you are all so inspiring to me everyone! you all are always in my prayers, I will be by soon to visit, take care!
lotsa love,
melanie
melanie groen <igotu_babe@hotmail.com>
w. flamborough, ontario canada - Wednesday, November 13, 2002 at 09:06 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken & Trish, Ashley, Danielle, Derek and Nathan,
Just wanted to let you know that we are still praying for you daily. Sometimes when each of the kids pray after us, we sometimes have four or five prayers for Ashley at a time! I can't imagine the turmoil that you are feeling and when I read what is going on in your life, it humbles me. We pray that you will continue to feel upheld by the prayers that are surrounding you and your family and that you will have some peace admidst the upheaval.

Take care,
The Van Dyk's
Sylvia Van Dyk <vandyk@rogers.com>
St. George, - Wednesday, November 13, 2002 at 06:13 PM (CST)

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Good Morning Ashley!!!!!
Just wanted to stop by and say hello! Keep fighting my little one! I Love You Ashley Ann Noel!

Your Friend, Julia
Julia Barry <www.caringBridge.com/page/toireasa>
Philadelphia, PA USA - Wednesday, November 13, 2002 at 09:37 AM (CST)

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Ken and Tricia - what a wonderful journal. Thanks for reminding me to read the recent ones Tricia, it was worth it. We are both thinking of you and your family.xoxo
Jane & Nelson <janenelson@execulink.com>
Hamilton, On Canada - Tuesday, November 12, 2002 at 09:22 PM (CST)

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Hi Goud Family,
We just heard your story from Ashleys friend Janey P. We have a beautiful little Ashley of our own and can only try to imagine how difficult this has been for you all. Please stay strong and know that so many of us are thinking about and praying for you.
The Kennelly Family <larrykennelly@hotmail.com>
Dundas, Ont Canada - Tuesday, November 12, 2002 at 05:58 PM (CST)

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Hi
I hope it is only a little flu bug and you are all home again soon.
Kim (Austin's relative) <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, On Canada - Tuesday, November 12, 2002 at 03:28 PM (CST)

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Only good thoughts for Ashley and her family from our family
John Moning <jmoning@zenon.com>
Burlington , Ontario Canada - Tuesday, November 12, 2002 at 10:40 AM (CST)

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Hey Ashley!!!!
It's your friend Julia! I miss you and I'm sorry that you're not feeling well. BUT, you keep telling mommy and daddy what you want to have happen! Keep fighting sweetie and watch all those Scooby Doo Videos!
I Love You!!!!
Your friend, JULIA :-)
Julia Barry <www.caringBridge.com/page/toireasa>
Philadelphia, PA USA - Monday, November 11, 2002 at 09:40 PM (CST)

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I just came across your page and haven't had time to read your history, but I will take time to come back and do that. In the meantime, I will be praying that this is a short visit to the hospital and something that is fairly easily resolved. Blessings to you!
Khalita www.caringbridge.com/nc/khalita Duke Peds BMT aplastic anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Monday, November 11, 2002 at 08:29 PM (CST)

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Hi guys. I agree with Carolann-both of you write very eloquently - lots of heart and soul - thanks for sharing with us. We rejoice with you on the good days and lament with you on the difficult days. We continue to pray that the rough days will be ALL gone SOON! We will pray for Ashley that her worries will cease - may the Lord continue to provide her with boundless energy and an unending sunshine spirit... Love to all, keep up the good fight, God Bless!
Marnie Hood and family <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown Ontario , - Monday, November 11, 2002 at 01:28 PM (CST)

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Ken Tricia and Family.
Ken my tears are still drying after reading your article in the review. I thought that Trish was the only one with writing talents in the family. Thank-you for sharing your feelings with us. I hope that all will go well with Ashley as she is back in again,and will be praying that it is just a normal kid flu!
Ken, once again thank you, and as Karen said, lemonade will always remind me of Ashley and her lemons.
love always,Carolann. P.S. Lots of kisses to Ashley(the kind that don't rub off!)
Carolann Zwart <carzwa@yahoo.com>
Lynden, - Monday, November 11, 2002 at 09:13 AM (CST)

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Ken, here it is.
What an awesome article you wrote for the paper. It was heartfelt...heartbreaking...heartwarming; there are not enough words. Ashley is my hero and knowing how much I love her, makes me realize how much more you guys love her as she is your own flesh and blood. I am honored to be a part of her life and yours. I pray for continued strength for you and your family. How many ways have we seen God use your precious girl as a witness of His love and power as she braves through and makes every lemon into lemonade. Thanks Ken and now everytime I drink lemonade, I will think of my little hero.
Love Karen
Karen Scharringa
- Friday, November 08, 2002 at 06:43 PM (CST)

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Hi Goud family,its me,Sarah Weemhoff. It was nice to see Ashley on picture day at school. It is nice to hear about Ashley from Kate-lynn - and sometimes Derek. Well, your family is in our prayers.
Sarah Weemhoff <sweet_sugar146@hotmail.com>
Carlisle, Ontario Canada - Friday, November 08, 2002 at 06:22 PM (CST)

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We are so happy that things are turning around for
the better. Not a day goes by when your entire
family isn't being thought of. Keep the Faith and
strong Love you have for one another.God Bless.

Michele McDonald(Austin's relative) <McMcDn@cs.com>
Burlington, - Friday, November 08, 2002 at 04:25 PM (CST)

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Hey Ashley:
I heard about your story and you touched my heart. You helped me realize that there is more to life than school and friends. I think you are too cute! I love your idea of painting nails. That's fun hey? I love to do that too. Well keep your spirits raised because you are my hero! I will do my best to raise my money for your cause.
Love always,
Victoria Vandermeulen
P.S. Jane Pepper is a friend of mine thats how I know about you. Also you are in my thoughts and prayers
Victoria Vandermeulen <dazzled48@hotmail.com>
Lynden, Ont. Cananda - Friday, November 08, 2002 at 09:44 AM (CST)

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hey ashley
my names shannon i'm part of jane peppers parenting class. i just wanted to say hi and good luck with your fundraiser.
shannon davey <pretty_chick3@hotmail.com>
lynden, ontario - Friday, November 08, 2002 at 09:43 AM (CST)

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Hey Ashley
Your page has made me realize to not take life for granted
You are a strong girl that doesn't give up hope. I wish you all the best! Keep smiling!
from Lisa
p.s. im a friend of Jane Pepper
Lisa Bouwmeester <lillisa60@hotmail.com>
Sheffield, Ont. Canada - Friday, November 08, 2002 at 09:41 AM (CST)

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Hey Ashley.. How have ya been.. Long time no talk... Well I am so glad you are feeling better... I cant wait to talk again.. Trish keep emailing me I have so much to talk to you about.. I am here with my whole class looking on your website probably all crying I know Mrs. Langford Mel and I are. Well I will TTFN hun... Stay Smiling...

Mrs. Langford, Mel, Jane
- Friday, November 08, 2002 at 09:41 AM (CST)

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your page really touched my heart adn i am apart of the highland parenting class that your friend Jane Pepper is in and i am also going to help raise money for you.
i hope you stsrt to feel better
-Leeann
Leeann Labrie <peachi_keen15@hotmail.com>
Orkney, ontario canada - Friday, November 08, 2002 at 09:37 AM (CST)

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Dear Trish,
I learned of Ashley's page through Toireasa Barry's page. My son, Charles, did MIBG in Philadelphia twice beginning last December and I know Dr. Maris and Julia Barry. I have been reading all your journal entries since the beginning and am at about January 2002 so far. I am just totally glued to them as I can so relate to everything you've gone through. I will pray for you to be able to continue to trust our Father above, for His plans are always for good, even when it doesn't seem so to us. If there is ever anything we can do for you, or if you ever come to Michigan, please let us know.
Susan DeGroot <Homeagainfarm92@aol.com>
Mason, MI USA - Thursday, November 07, 2002 at 09:31 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish,
Thanks Ken for your heartfelt article in the Review today.Thanks for sharing some of your private feelings and fears. We praise God with you all for the good/happy moments that Ashley has had this week. These are blessings and miracles from above. May you continue to let God be your guide and strength each minute of every day. He loves each of you so much.
Love, Annette and Rob Schreuders, Stephanie and Michael
Annette and Robert, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton, ON Canada - Thursday, November 07, 2002 at 09:20 PM (CST)

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Hello Ken,Trish and the rest of the Goud family! We were excited to read your last journal entry! What a thrill to be given precious moments. God is good! Thank you for your detailed journal entries, Trish. They are never boring. We continue to remember you all in our prayers.
The Geleynse family <cigeleyn@skylinc.net>
Port-au-Prince, Haiti - Thursday, November 07, 2002 at 01:15 PM (CST)

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Ashley - your smiles, bravery and courage are an inspiration to all of us. You are certainly in our thoughts and prayers.

the Majcher Family <pmajcher@cogeco.ca>
Ancaster, Ont Canada - Thursday, November 07, 2002 at 09:33 AM (CST)

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You are all in my thoughts and prayers.
Elaine Voskamp <lainey44@hotmail.com>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 06, 2002 at 08:49 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken & Trish & family: I am very happy to read that Ashley is having good days. We will continue to hold your family in our prayers. Love Martin and Jodi Mobach and Family.
Jodi Mobach <bikemech28@aol.com>
Dundas, - Wednesday, November 06, 2002 at 02:03 PM (CST)

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Yahoo, Ashley...you go, girl!!!
kathy baird <kathy_baird@hotmail.com>
millgrove, on canada - Wednesday, November 06, 2002 at 06:43 AM (CST)

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Hi Ashley and Family, I saw this site in the Waterdown paper online, and of course had to read more about you, and see your adorable pictures. What a sweetheart! I heard about you originally from Flamborough Baptist Church, and many people are praying for you. You are much loved by many here on earth, and especially by your Father in Heaven! My mom makes each of my family members a little sticker card for our place settings every Thanksgiving, and this year mine was: "Give thanks for simple blessings" That has made a difference in my life lately, through so much. Remember to do that everyday, and you will see how truly blessed you are!
Lots of love, Leanne <lianarute123@hotmail.com>
Burlington, ON Canada - Tuesday, November 05, 2002 at 09:06 PM (CST)

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Hey Ashley it is Jane Pepper again. How are ya? I hope everything is going great. I would really like it if we could email each other I mean I am young to and lone to get emails from people. If you ever want to chat, I want to know everything about you like whats your favorite colour? Mine are blue and Purple. Well if you find the time email me I would love to hear from you.
email me at jane.pepper@sympatico.ca
Janie Pepper <jane.pepper@sympatico.ca>
Lyden, - Tuesday, November 05, 2002 at 12:56 PM (CST)

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The hole family is with ours. We pray every night for Ashley in hopes that she will be better soon. My father and Mother hope to see you all soon at the farm together. As Im writing this kens father (john) has just walked in. We all hope to hear good news soon love always the MATEUS FAMILY

Jose,Maria,Paul,Melanie,Mary Mateus and Max and Kathy Giambattista <mgiambattista@sympatico.ca>
Dundas, ont Canada - Tuesday, November 05, 2002 at 10:28 AM (CST)

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Hi Ashley, I am Jane's Mum and we are honoured to start a fundraiser for such a brave girl. My daughters love to paint their nails and I will paint both my baby fingernails gold to remind me of you each and every day. Jane is launching a purple ribbon fundraiser so when you see lots of purple ribbons all over, you know they are for you. Our prayers are with you and we will keep in touch. Here's a big hug from the Pepper Girls....
Debbie Pepper <deborah.pepper@sympatico.ca>
Lynden, Ont, - Monday, November 04, 2002 at 05:19 PM (CST)

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Hi
I'm so happy to hear things seem to be going well with Ashley. I hope you are home from the hospital soon.
Kim (Austin's relative) <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, On Canada - Monday, November 04, 2002 at 04:37 PM (CST)

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I just found your website - Tricia, were do you find the time??? I saw Ashley last night, but she was asleep so I'll have to get my nails done another time! Ken updated me on the events of the last few weeks, and I'm so impressed by the courage and emotional strength you have all displayed. As always, you are in our prayers. Stength and love to you all.
Rick and Sheryll Kloetstra and Family <rskloetstra@aol.com>
Lynden, Ont - Sunday, November 03, 2002 at 11:54 PM (CST)

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Hi My name is Jane Pepper and I am 16, when I read the article about Ashley I couldn't believe my eyes. This adorable little girl is fighting for her life over money. I am from Lynden and I hear about people with cancer all over the world but this little girl was just around the corner. I have started my own fundraiser and I hope that one child to another I can help her regain the life she once knew. My wishes of love are sent to you. And don't worry Ashley, you will be hearing from me soon, with my donation. Love Jane Pepper
Jane Pepper <funny_bottoms@hotmail.com>
Lynden, ON Canada - Sunday, November 03, 2002 at 03:30 AM (CST)

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Dear Ashley Goud and Family,
hey how are you, hows ashley
I really like the pictures in the
Photo Album. I am really looking forward
to babysitting you kids again. I really hope
ashley feels better again.

P.s. your in my prayers :-)
Mandy Nyman <mandy113@hotmail.com>
Hamilton, Ont. Canada - Saturday, November 02, 2002 at 03:28 PM (CST)

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Ashley Ann Noel.......

I miss you sweetie! I hope you had a fun Halloween, I thought of you in your Bride costume! Did you find the perfect vail? Call me soon! I Love YOU!!!
Julia Barry <bjulz@aol.com>
Philadelphia, PA USA - Friday, November 01, 2002 at 09:33 PM (CST)

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Good morning Gouds.
Trish, your summation was very well done and you explained things beautifully! Your message again brings home not only the long road you have taken but the long road ahead of you all. Keep the faith and strength guys - I know you are getting tired but you are all doing a tremendous job. If anyone can beat this, it will be Ashley with God's help.
Love you!
P.S. save that Flamborough Review article for us "out of towners"
Cliff, Esther, Zach and Michelle Roukema <eroukema@kpmg.ca>
Caledonia, ON Canada - Thursday, October 31, 2002 at 08:54 AM (CST)

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Mr. and Mrs. Goud, your precious Ashley is in my prayers daily. I, too, live in the dreadful world of cancer, and it is a place I would not wish on anyone. Keep holding to your faith. A scripture I have found especially comforting is Lamentations 3:22-23; I hope it will be a comfort to you as well: "It is of the Lord's mercies that we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is Thy faithfulness."
Kim Rutherford
Knoxville, TN USA - Thursday, October 31, 2002 at 07:11 AM (CST)

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Hi Ashley I just read the up date and I am glad you are doing well keep up the good work.You are one brave little girl.I hope to get to se your school pictuer so have mommy add it please.
Sandra H. Whitley <GMCSURBURBAN@AOL.com>
Hamilton, ON Canada - Wednesday, October 30, 2002 at 10:34 PM (CST)

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Hi Goud family. It was great that Ashely could go to school today to get her pictures taken with the rest of the class. Too bad she couldn't stay for too long but Tyler told me that it was because "she could get even more sick if she stayed" so I guess she wasn't up to it for today. What a blessing! A week and a half ago she was SO sick and now she's out of the hospital during the day! Anyway, just thought I'd drop a note to tell Ashley how cool it was that she could be at school for a short time. And to let you know that you continue to be in our prayers.
Ingrid Louwerse <louwerse@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON - Wednesday, October 30, 2002 at 07:04 PM (CST)

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I have a daughter about the same age so I am also hopeful
that Ashley recovers completely. We will continue to read with great interest trusting we will hear the news we are
hoping for.
Vince Oriente
Ancaster, on Canada - Wednesday, October 30, 2002 at 04:00 PM (CST)

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hello Ashley, Faith and I would like our nails done,we are girls and have the money up front LOL, we are praying for you and your family. God Bless Little one you are so stronge and brave.
Alicia and Faith Hicks <aliciahicks73@hotmail.com>
Strabane, ont - Wednesday, October 30, 2002 at 02:15 PM (CST)

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Wish you all the best in the future and let GOd be with you
uncle Chris, tante Hanny and Gerdien and her friend Michelle vanblyderveen <Gernade25@hotmail.com>
Courtland, ONT Canada - Tuesday, October 29, 2002 at 09:52 PM (CST)

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Greetings from Chicago! My name is Ellen Oberle and I'm Julia Barry's sister. Ashley - Julia told me all about you and said you were AWESOME! You take good care of yourself and your family. We're thinking of you and sending lots of big hugs and smiles!

All the best
Ellen, Mark and Madeline
Ellen Oberle <eboberle@sbcglobal.net>
Chicago, IL USA - Tuesday, October 29, 2002 at 08:51 PM (CST)

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Our Prayers are with you. The comfort of family and friends is one of the nicest things life can send.
The Howse Family <lynda.howse@sympatico.ca>
Norval, ON - Tuesday, October 29, 2002 at 07:40 PM (CST)

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Keeping you in our thoughts and prayers..... I'mn glad to hear that you had a successful trip to Philly -- welcome home!
Michelle and Derek Steenhuis <dmsteenhuis@sympatico.ca>
Hamilton, On Canada - Tuesday, October 29, 2002 at 07:01 PM (CST)

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Hi Ashley. I'm going to be a frog for Halloween. Can you eat candy? If you're not allowed to right now, I'll save some for when you can. Hope to see you at school soon!! From Tyler

Hi Ashley. I'm in your brother Nathan's class. Hope you are feeling good and can come home from the hospital soon. From Jesse
Jesse & Tyler Louwerse <louwerse@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON - Tuesday, October 29, 2002 at 06:57 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken & Trish, I finished reading your recent update and I can't even imagine what you as parents are feeling. All I know is that God promised us He would never leave us and I hope that you feel His presence. We as a family are continuing to hold your family in our prayers. Renee want's Ashley to know that she prays for her each and every night. Although Renee does not understand how sick Ashley is she continues to think about Ashley and says to us "She really still is my friend" So to you and your family we wish all the best and We know that by prayer and petition, God does listen. If there is anything that we can do for your family please call. All our love and prayers Martin and Jodi and Family.
Jodi Mobach <bikemech28@aol.com>
Flamborough, - Tuesday, October 29, 2002 at 01:02 PM (CST)

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Our thoughts and prayers are with you all during this time. We have been following Ashley's story since the beginning and wish you all the very best. She is such a beautiful little girl. Welcome Home Ashley!
Stys Family
Waterdown, ON Canada - Tuesday, October 29, 2002 at 12:36 PM (CST)

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I wish Ashley all the best.
Evelyn Vassallo <vasallo@moontaincable.net>
mt. hope , Ont. Canada - Tuesday, October 29, 2002 at 07:55 AM (CST)

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Hi Ken and Trish We just wanted to say hi and that we just learned about your website. May God continue to uphold you through this journey. Thinking of you, and praying for Ashley and your family.
Wendy and Randy Colyn
Wendy Colyn <wendy@randycolyn.com>
Smithville, ON - Monday, October 28, 2002 at 09:57 PM (CST)

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Ashley and Family,
I just want to let you know my families thoughts and prays are with your family.


Linda Carriere and Family <lindajim1@rogers.com>
Brantford , On Canada - Monday, October 28, 2002 at 08:16 PM (CST)

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Trish,
May all our prayers be answered.
Love ,The Holubeshens
Blonde friend <wahol@attcanada .com>
- Monday, October 28, 2002 at 07:43 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish & Family,
Heard of the web site from a friend...saw the article in the paper.My thoughts and prayers are with you..God Bless you all..
Yvonne Jagt <yvonne.jagt@sympatico.ca>
Burlington, on Canada - Monday, October 28, 2002 at 05:35 PM (CST)

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Hi Ken, Trish, Ashley, Derek, Danielle, Nathan,
Welcome home from Philly. We pray that Ashley may come "home home" soon to be with her sister and brothers!!!
I hope you can get some rest soon!! Take care of eachother!! God will provide your needs, He always does!
Love, Annette, Rob, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders
Annette and Robert, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton, ON Canada - Sunday, October 27, 2002 at 05:44 PM (CST)

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Hi
I'm so glad Ashley has responded well to the treatment in Philidelphia. I hope she can go home soon. Thinking of you often...
Kim (Austin's relative) <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, On Canada - Sunday, October 27, 2002 at 04:36 PM (CST)

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Hi hope you are feeling better Ashley keep on smileing.
Sandra H. Whitley <GMCSURBURBAN@AOL.com>
Hamilton, ON Canada - Sunday, October 27, 2002 at 04:32 PM (CST)

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We are praying for you.
Jeff and Maria Neven <jneven@interlynx.net>
Hamilton, ON - Sunday, October 27, 2002 at 03:37 PM (CST)

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Ken/Trish
We are so sorry to hear about Ashley ,we pray that things will work out for all of you .Keep a positive attitude and and as our little Sarah would say "Mommy were is your smile"
Dave /Mary Smith <dwsmith@ionsys.com>
Grimsby, ont Canada - Sunday, October 27, 2002 at 08:59 AM (CST)

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Tricia, Ken, and Ashley,
We are so glad to hear everything went well at CHOP. Ashley will be in our prayers.
Jennifer and Phil Kwasinski parents of John <jrkwas@msn.com>
Chicago, IL USA - Sunday, October 27, 2002 at 08:09 AM (CST)

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Welcome Home!!!!!
Its great to know that you are all home safe and Brittany and I look forward to seeing you very soon. (When I read to her your entry about coming home she was dancing and saying "She's coming home!" over and over again):)
Love Karen
Karen
- Sunday, October 27, 2002 at 07:58 AM (CST)

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Hey Ashley! I am so glad that you made it home to Canada so quickly. I hope you continue to feel better each and every day.

:-) Iris Taylor (Courtney's mum from N-blast)
Rockhampton, Qld AUSTRALIA - Sunday, October 27, 2002 at 02:53 AM (CST)

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Hi Ken & Trish & Ashley! Thank God for the good news so far. He really does hear us through prayer. We will continue to pray for Ashley and you and family. Hope your trip back here was good. With much prayer and thoughts,
Doug, Lu, Ashley, Emily, Amy & Bradley Sluys <d.sluys@sympatico.ca>
Greensville, ON Canada - Saturday, October 26, 2002 at 09:31 PM (CDT)

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Hi Ken and Trish. We continue to keep you and Ashley in our prayers on a daily basis. Nathan gives me daily updates at school and we pray for you in class as well. May God grant healing and may He keep you all in His care.
Tracy and Cecil Alkema and kids
Waterdown, Ont. - Saturday, October 26, 2002 at 03:55 PM (CDT)

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It's unfortunate that we must experience the bad so we know when the good is upon us. It sounds as if you have a very brave, strong, special little girl. No words can be said to fully console you guys, but know that you have many, many people praying for you, sending their good energy your way, and keeping your little angel in their hearts through her most difficult of times.
♠ƒ®€Ãκ♠ ™ <wicked_existence@hotmail.com>
Kitchener, Ontario Canada - Saturday, October 26, 2002 at 12:08 PM (CDT)

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Ken, Tricia and Ashley,
Welcome home. We are so glad that things went well and hope that Ashley is feeling better soon. We will continue praying for good news!
Desiree Zimbalatti
Oakville, On - Saturday, October 26, 2002 at 11:14 AM (CDT)

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I am so glad to hear that the MIBG seems to be working and that you are all back home! I will continue to pray for health for dear Ashley and look forward to posts with wonderful news!
Kelly www.caringbridge.org/nv/baileyaustinjohnson <BAJ31199@aol.com>
Lake Tahoe, NV USA - Saturday, October 26, 2002 at 10:39 AM (CDT)

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Hi Ken and Trish and children: Marie and I were thrilled to read that the treatments went so well. The battle Ashley is fighting against cancer is a very big one for her and all who love her. Thank God we know her life is inGod's hand. God bless, heal and strenghten. Love. Pastor John and Marie
Rev. and Mrs John W Jongsma <jmjongsma@interlynx.net>
Hamilton, Ont. Canada - Saturday, October 26, 2002 at 10:24 AM (CDT)

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Hi Ashley! Welcome "home". Thankful to see that you're jumping back as quickly as usual. I had never visited your website until last night after we got the Flamborough Review. I read ALL your Mom's journal entries (stayed up almost as late as you apparently do). Just wanted to let you know that you and your family are in our prayers.
The Louwerse Family

hi ashley. from tyler (in your K class)
Ingrid & tyler <louwerse@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Saturday, October 26, 2002 at 08:01 AM (CDT)

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The Gouds: I just read the article in the Spectator and was truly touched by the Lutz's genorousity. We will head to Lutz's on Sunday because tomorrow is Avery's coming off treatment celebration. My heart aches for what she has been through however, let's keep the good news rolling after you arrive home. I want you to know that Ashley will be in our thoughts and prayers. Ashley you truly are an amazing little girl and I look forward to seeing you back at Mac soon.
Tricia (mom to Avery) <Tricdal@aol.com>
Stoney Creek, ON Canada - Friday, October 25, 2002 at 11:10 PM (CDT)

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We think of you guys every day, and we hope that things continue to go well. We miss you at Mac. Take care.

Tracy, Mike and Tyler
Tracy Sherk <thesherks@rogers.com>
Brantford, - Friday, October 25, 2002 at 09:47 PM (CDT)

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Hi
I'm so glad things have gone so well...I'll keep praying
Kim (Austin's relative) <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, On Canada - Friday, October 25, 2002 at 07:24 PM (CDT)

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To Ashley & Family:
I just finished reading the article in the Spec about Ashley. Ashley's picture was beautiful! It makes my heart ache to hear how brave you are all being. I'm sure Ashley will be happy to be back home from Philadelphia. I'm anxious to hear how things go over the next little while, as I'm sure so many people are.
We'll be going to Lutz's tomorrow to buy a pumpkin for Ashley!
Good luck and God bless,
Kathy
Kathy Baird <kathy_baird@hotmail.com>
Millgrove, On Canada - Friday, October 25, 2002 at 06:34 PM (CDT)

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get well soon we prayed for you at gems
brittany aubert
- Friday, October 25, 2002 at 05:37 PM (CDT)

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I've been reading everyday with High hopes...
So glad to hear things went so well.I hope
your trip home is uneventful and things are
only uphill from now on. Thoughts & prayers
are still all in Ashley's favour.
Michele McDonald...(Austins' relative) <McMcDn@cs.com>
Burlington, - Friday, October 25, 2002 at 05:19 PM (CDT)

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Hi Trish, Ken & Ashley!
I've been following the updates everyday and I'm soooo happy that she is doing well and she did great in Philidelphia! All my love and prayers are with you guys always, Janine and I will see ya soon for sure! :)
Love always,
Melanie
Melanie Groen <igotu_babe@hotmail.com>
W. Flamborough, Ontario Canada - Friday, October 25, 2002 at 04:51 PM (CDT)

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Hello Ashley, Ken & Trish - although you don't know us personally we are or will be closer neighbours in Greensville and we have mutual friends (John & Anna Maria Eygenraam) They have been keeping us posted on all that Ashley and your family has been going through.We were so happy to hear the good news and glad you are coming home. Our thoughts are with you all.

Joanne & Doug Roche <djroche1@cogeco.ca>
Greensville, Ont Canada - Friday, October 25, 2002 at 04:42 PM (CDT)

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Dear Tricia, Ken & family,
We have been deeply touched by your personal story of struggle, pain, confusion....hope, perserverance and faith. We pray for your family every day and for your little angel Ashley. What an amazing inspiration and testimony she has been to us all! May God wrap His loving arms around you at this time. P.S. We will see you at the pumpkin patch tomorrow.
Susan (Tigchelaar) & Rob Huckins & family <susan.huckins@scottcapital.com>
Carlisle, ON Canada - Friday, October 25, 2002 at 03:48 PM (CDT)

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Hi Tricia,Ken and Family

I have been checking the web site daily keeping up with Ashley's progress. Just to let you know you are all in our thoughts and we are wishing you a safe journey home and hope that the treatment is sucessful. It was lovely for you and Ken to have the company of Kathy and Paul, I guess it was a lovely surprise for you. Love to all

Uncle Max and Aunty Mavis
Doncaster, England - Friday, October 25, 2002 at 03:14 PM (CDT)

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To Ken and Tricia: You are one courageous couple! May God continue to give you the strength to continue in this battle. Please know that we will be lifting Ashley in prayer before our God, Who is a great Lover of children.
Jack and Adrie Huisman and Family <kobus@globalserve.net>
Campbellville, Ontario Canada - Friday, October 25, 2002 at 02:41 PM (CDT)

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I seen Ashley's picture in the Spectator today, October 25 and I wanted to tell you I think she is very beautiful. I wish Ashley all the best, and I will say a prayer.
Veronica Richardson <Randbexotics@aol.com>
Hamilton, Ont. Canada - Friday, October 25, 2002 at 12:10 PM (CDT)

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My prayers are with your family....Ashely is a beautiful brave girl...Diana McGuigan
Diana McGuigan <dianam@mountaincable.net>
Hamilton, ont Canada - Friday, October 25, 2002 at 11:19 AM (CDT)

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My prayers are with your family....Ashely is a beautiful brave girl...Diana McGuigan
Diana McGuigan <dianam@mountaincable.net>
Hamilton, ont Canada - Friday, October 25, 2002 at 11:18 AM (CDT)

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To the Goud Family
I wanted to tell you that everyone at MUMC NucMed is thinking, and praying for you. Your family is very special to us and you are never far from our thoughts.
lots of love Sue
sue wesley-james <rcraske@cogeco.ca>
dundas, ont canada - Friday, October 25, 2002 at 11:09 AM (CDT)

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Hi Ashley, Ken & Trish - So happy to hear all is working out well so far!!! Our thoughts and prayers are with you! Hope you have a good trip home! Love & Blessings -
Cor & Appie Schuurman <MShrmn42@aol.com>
Branchton, Ont. Canada - Friday, October 25, 2002 at 10:10 AM (CDT)

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Hello. Wishing you a safe trip back to MAC. You are in are prayers daily.
Ann-Marie & James Devries <adevries@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Friday, October 25, 2002 at 10:09 AM (CDT)

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Dear Goud Family; I have a daughter who will be turning five on October 29th. She too has a beautiful smile and wonderful blonde curls as does your daughter. I am blessed by God that my daughter is healthy and can only offer you our prayers of hope that your daughter will overcome her illness and get better soon. Our hopes and thoughts are with you. We will attend the fundraiser at the pumpkin patch tomorrow as it is the only way we can help you during this difficult time. May God bless you all.


Sheila Stephen <ses@nas.net>
Hamilton, ON Canada - Friday, October 25, 2002 at 08:53 AM (CDT)

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Hey Gouds; It was great of you Trish to keep us so up to date, like so many others i checked many times each day just for a little news. We are so glad to hear that things are going well and you will be back home in time for the weekend. Keep the faith,Our prayers are with you, the Lord has continually proved He will supply for all your needs. ( i think it was sooo great of Paul and Kathy to come) Love to you all
Sandra & Colin ,Jeff, Kris, Dayva,Drew and Aaron Regnerus
Dundas, Ont - Friday, October 25, 2002 at 08:25 AM (CDT)

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hello, i read about you in the hamilton paper and just wanted to send you my best thoughts and wishes... we were on our way to the rockton berry farm for pumpkins but found out that the lutz farm is sending you the proceeds from their pumpkin sales... we'll be heading there first thing in the morning! Best wishes and luck... my husband and i know how hard it is to almost lose your child and to feel so uncertain... keep up the good work Ashley, you can beat this thing!
Heather, Paul, Gareth and Hannah
Cambridge, ON Canada - Friday, October 25, 2002 at 08:18 AM (CDT)

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Hi!! Good luck for today!
hope everything goes well. May God be with you.
Blessings
The Zorns <zipzipmimmi@hotmail.com>
- Friday, October 25, 2002 at 07:13 AM (CDT)

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Great news guys, keep the faith
John & AnnaMaria <johney@atsspartec,com>
- Friday, October 25, 2002 at 06:56 AM (CDT)

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I will be praying for a safe trip home tomorrow! Our children are such little miracles! Can't wait to hear how well the MIBG is working!
Kelly www.caringbridge.org/nv/baileyaustinjohnson <BAJ31199@aol.com>
Lake Tahoe, NV USA - Thursday, October 24, 2002 at 07:50 PM (CDT)

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I've been in the site to check everyday but hadn't signed on because I was lost for words. Thanks for keeping us so closely informed- this is an awesome tool, which you Trish do a fantastic job with. Its a blessing to read the other entries in the guestbook- I'm glad they can be such a source of encouragement for you- you guys certainly need and deserve all the encouragement and strength you can get! What a priviledge we all share in being part of the body of believers. God is SO GREAT: May we give Him the glory as He continues to heal Ashley. I hope your trip home is calm and uneventful. Looking forward to you all being safe and sound at this end. God Bless,Love Marnie PS. Don't give a second thought to the money thing... it's not an issue.
Marnie Hood and family <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown Ontario , - Thursday, October 24, 2002 at 07:41 PM (CDT)

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hey guys, great news. we look a few times a day to see what is happening, and it was great to see that things are going good. we hope and pray things go as planned in the next day and that you get home before the weekend.
carolann, dirk, amanda, matthew, and alex
- Thursday, October 24, 2002 at 07:16 PM (CDT)

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Tricia and Ken, Great news I will keep my fingers crossed for you tommorrow love and kisses to Ashley
Steve
Brantford, on - Thursday, October 24, 2002 at 06:51 PM (CDT)

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I never thought I'd ever be praying for an MIBG scan to light up!! My thoughts and prayers are with you all. Good luck tomorrow, have a safe trip home :-) See you soon!
Love Beth & Austin <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, ON - Thursday, October 24, 2002 at 06:09 PM (CDT)

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Hello!! We are so glad everthing is going great!! We check up on the site daily. Have a great trip back we continue to keep you in our prayers. Love The Moning's
Teresa, Nicole, Chris and Alicia Moning <moning@interlynx.net>
Millgrove, ON Canada - Thursday, October 24, 2002 at 05:48 PM (CDT)

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Ashley, Ken & Tricia:
You GO GIRL!!!!!!!!!!
We can't wait to see you all when you get back!
Hugs and kisses from Canada!
Love,Rob,Joyce,Kelsie and Mandy
Joyce Jagt
Binbrook, On - Thursday, October 24, 2002 at 05:18 PM (CDT)

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Dear Ashley. I like seeing you at school. I'm praying for you and God is with you. I hope you get better soon. I care for you. From Aaron D. in your kindergarten class.
Dear Ashley. I hope you are feeling good. You are a great kid. I've been praying for you and your family and I pray that God makes you well. From Alexandra D. (Danielle's friend).
Our thoughts and prayers are with your family daily. We trust that God will extend His hand to you during your stay in Philadelphia. "The Lord will watch over your life no matter where you go, both now and forever." Psalm 121:8.
The De Jong's <pgdejong@look.ca>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Thursday, October 24, 2002 at 10:41 AM (CDT)

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Dear Goud family, Our appreciation and admiration,Trish for keeping us informed about Ashley,even there in Philadelphia in all the trials and hardship you are going through for such a long time already. But God is in it all and we pray that you will keep your trust in Him.Our prayers are with you all and especially for Ashley,such an adorable child. Today it is good to hear that she is doing better. How nice that Kathy and Paul came all the way to see you just at a time when you needed it. The Lord provides. We are thinking about you and wishing you much strength and courage. Love Rien and Minnie VanStrien.
Rien an d Minnie VanStrien <rimistrien@sympatico.ca>
Millgrove, Ont Canada - Thursday, October 24, 2002 at 08:40 AM (CDT)

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Dear Ken and Trish,
Thanks so much for the news from Philly. How super that Paul and Kathy are there. I wish we all could be there, and yet we are, in our constant thoughts and prayers for each of you and Ashley. We give praise to our heavenly Father for how things are going. He is with you there!!! WE will continue pray for Derek, Danielle and Nathan too and for their caregivers here, too. May God continue to carry you through this storm on His arms of power, strength and love. Each day you all are such blessings to so many people. Keep up the faith and keep up the fight.
Love, Annette, Rob, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders
Annette and Robert, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton, ON Canada - Wednesday, October 23, 2002 at 09:28 PM (CDT)

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Hi
I hope things go better in the days to come....I'll keep praying for you and for Ashley... all my best...
Kim (Austin's relative)
Kim <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, On Canada - Wednesday, October 23, 2002 at 08:52 PM (CDT)

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our thoughts and prayers are with you all!!!
joe & terry betzner <tjbetzner@sympatico.ca>
copetown, ont canada - Wednesday, October 23, 2002 at 08:24 PM (CDT)

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I am so glad that things went better today, you had me a bit worried last night Miss Ashley. We hope you were able to play with some of your things today, Austin was very happy to hear that you liked your surprises!! He thinks you probably like your crown the best! We miss you! Hurry home,


Love Beth & Austin <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, ON - Wednesday, October 23, 2002 at 08:18 PM (CDT)

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Ken and Tricia - special prayers were said this morning for Ashley at Jordan Coffee Break group (and I continue daily prayers for her). Thanks for the "from the heart" update on this website - it's good to know what's going on in Philadelphia. God bless you all.
Sheila
Jordan, ON - Wednesday, October 23, 2002 at 08:03 PM (CDT)

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Hi Ken, Tricia and Ashley:
We've been thinking about you all constantly. Thank you for taking the time to let us know what's going on. We're still praying fervently for Ashley! We hope to see you by the end of the week. We love you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Rob, Joyce, Kelsie and Mandy
Joyce Jagt
Binbrook, ON - Wednesday, October 23, 2002 at 04:42 PM (CDT)

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Ken + Trish

Its great to hear from you while your in Philadephia !!
I was thinking of you all day yesterday its such a great feeling to know that your actually there safe and sound. Thanks for up updating us!! We're sending all our prayers your way that God will guide the doctors, because we know only he can heal Ashley. Hope to see you all real soon!!

Michelle Deweerd <deweerds@aol.com>
Greensville, - Wednesday, October 23, 2002 at 01:48 PM (CDT)

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Dear Ken and Tricia and Ashley
You guys are all heroes. With all that you have been through in the last 2 days you are still able to post on the web site, which we are all very thankful for, and Ashley seems to be still able to charm everyone. We can picture her with those sunglasses on. Keep up that fighting spirit. You are in our thoughts and prayers all day long.
Love you all, Bugs and Lin

Bugs and Lin <904752@ican.net>
Dundas, Ont Canada - Wednesday, October 23, 2002 at 10:56 AM (CDT)

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holy cow, what a roller coaster. we miss you here but i am glad that she is getting what she needs - all our thoughts are with you guys, talk to you soon....jane
Jane Cassano <cassanoj@hhsc.ca>
Hamilton, On Canada - Wednesday, October 23, 2002 at 10:18 AM (CDT)

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Dear Tricia,Ken & Ashley
"Never give up hope in the midst of your distress. Place your trust in God. He has the solution to all your problems and will show you a way out."
Always in our thoughts and prayers
Love & God Bless
Jean & Keith
Jean & Keith Plumridge <jean.plumridge@talk21.com>
Malvern Worcestershire , England - Wednesday, October 23, 2002 at 09:44 AM (CDT)

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I found myself checking the web site 2 or 3 times a day. I was so excited to see your entry and get the scoop on what you guys have been up to. We miss you guys and pray for a successful week so you can come home soon. It sounds like Ashley is a little of her old self by pouring on the charm for these new doctors and nurses she is meeting. Remember God loves you all and depend on Him to carry you through. Miss You TONS!
Love Karen
Karen Scharringa
- Wednesday, October 23, 2002 at 08:08 AM (CDT)

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Wishing and praying for good things for Ashley, especially on the visit to CHOP
Marilyn <meves@cogeco.ca>
Burlington, On Canada - Tuesday, October 22, 2002 at 09:02 PM (CDT)

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Dear Ken & Trish.
Thanks so much for sharing your journal with us, it is such a valuable tool that you use so wonderfully. As I was reading it, I was struck by the nervous tension that I was feeling and can only imagine how you and Ken are feeling today. We will all be praying twice as hard here that the poor luck you have been experiencing will turn around quickly and that Ashley will receive the treatment very soon so that it can work to alleviate the pressure of the tumor. I can only imagine how your sweet little girl is handling all this with her charm and good sense - what a treasure she is!
"God moves in a mysterious way, His wonders to perform; He plants His footsteps in the sea, and rides upon the storm." We truly hope and pray that you can feel Him riding this storm with you and that He will perform His wonder with Ashley.
Love you guys,
Cliff and Esther Roukema
Caledonia, ON Canada - Tuesday, October 22, 2002 at 08:14 PM (CDT)

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Dear Ken & Trish,

Wanted to let you know that Ashley is on our minds so much. Our prayers are with you and Ashley during this time also. Take care, thanks for the update and may God grant you His strength every moment. (Give Ashley a big hug and kiss from Mrs. Sluys) Love,
Doug, Lu, Ashley, Emily, Amy & Bradley SLUYS <d.sluys@sympatico.ca>
Greensville, ON Canada - Tuesday, October 22, 2002 at 07:30 PM (CDT)

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Dear Ken, Trish and Ashley;
We continue to pray many, many times each day that the Lord will bless and be with you in these difficult days, and that He will grant you a miracle. Trish -- thanks for the prompt update from Philly; it is much appreciated by all those here in Flamborough who dearly wish we could do more.
Love and Peace,
Ken, Gwen, Rachel and Michelle Bosveld
Ken, Gwen, Rachel and Michelle Bosveld <kbosveld@cogeco.ca>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Tuesday, October 22, 2002 at 06:10 PM (CDT)

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Dear Ashley & Family - I am a friend of a friend of your dad's. I just want to let you know that my prayers and thoughts are with you. I wish you a speedy and successful recovery with this treatment.
Vivian Smith <vivian.smith@nstarch.com>
Brampton, Ont Canada - Tuesday, October 22, 2002 at 10:25 AM (CDT)

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Hey Ashley & family,
We are thinking of you all. What great news! The Government pulled through! We're keeping our prayers ongoing
for the trip to be a success. God Bless you all xox The Martoranos'
liz martortorano <martorano@sympatico.ca>
brantford , on canada - Monday, October 21, 2002 at 09:00 PM (CDT)

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We read your article in the newspaper. Our thoughts and Prayers are with you, Ashley and your family. We wish you God's guiding hand through these times to come. Love Teresa, Nicole, Chris and Alicia Moning
Teresa, Nicole, Chris and Alicia Moning <moning@interlynx.net>
Millgrove, ON Canada - Monday, October 21, 2002 at 04:09 PM (CDT)

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Dear Ken, Trish & Ashley:

All the best in Philadelphia. Our thoughts & prayers are with you.

Your friends at ZENON Environmental
John Elliott <jelliott@zenonenv.com>
Oakville, ON Canada - Monday, October 21, 2002 at 11:55 AM (CDT)

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Dear Ken, Trish, Ashley and family,
We just want you to know that you continue to be in our thoughts and prayers. Just remember that our strength comes from the Lord who made the heavens and the earth. If He can make the heavens and the earth, just think what He can do for Ashley and you! We pray for strength and courage for you all and that all may go well.
Love, The Van Dyk's
Sylvia VanDyk <vandyk@rogers.com>
St. George, ON Canada - Monday, October 21, 2002 at 08:19 AM (CDT)

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Ashley and family, We are so happy to hear the gov't is helping as they should. Good luck with Philly. Many many prayers are being said on your behalf to help sustain you through this trip.Best wishes and Love to you all
Sandra Regnerus and family
Dundas, ont - Monday, October 21, 2002 at 07:57 AM (CDT)

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Hello to the Goud Family,
We have followed your story through the paper and some local friends, and are so saddened by the pain that Ashley and your family are enduring. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
Fiona and Eckhard Lutz and family (Nathan was in preschool with our Monica)
Fiona Lutz <thefarmer@lutzorchard.ca>
Troy, ON - Sunday, October 20, 2002 at 08:13 PM (CDT)

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HUGS& KISSES to Ashley as you leave for Philly... God Bless to all of you. Trust Him. He will see you through. See you when you get back.
Marnie Hood and family <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown , - Sunday, October 20, 2002 at 07:58 PM (CDT)

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He can calm the troubled waters
When you walk in dark despair
There is hope when you feel helpless,
knowing that the Lord is there
Amen.
It's another bump in the road as my sister Sue would say, well... may this bump in your families road be calmed by the thoughts and prayers of all those who love your family.
Never,never give up, my family can attest to MIRACLES, they do and can happen!
My family will be thinking and praying for your family, we think of you all the time.
May God be at your side, to light and guard, to rule and guide, through these bumps in your road!
GOD BLESS!!!

Madonna Pacheco -- Kayla Bakers Aunt <mpachec0421@rogers.com>
Stratford, ON Canada - Sunday, October 20, 2002 at 02:18 PM (CDT)

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Dear Ashley and Family;
I just read the article in the Flamborough Review tonight and I was truly touched by your story. Too many of us can become complacent about our health when have not personally been touched by tragedy. My prayers are with you and your family. If there is more that we can do please email us back. Sinceely, Vic Gayed
Vic Gayed <victorgayed@hotmail.com>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Friday, October 18, 2002 at 05:02 PM (CDT)

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Ashley, Tricia, and family,
Our thought and prayers are with you. As a fellow NB parent the decisions we a forced to make on behalf of our children are grueling at best. Tricia you are truly an amazing mother as Ashley is an amazing child. Have a safe journey to CHOP and keep us posted.
God Bless,
Jennifer Kwasinski
Mom to John NB III
www.caringbridge.org/il/johnkwasinski
Jennifer Kwasinski <jrkwas@msn.com>
Chicago , IL USA - Friday, October 18, 2002 at 03:20 PM (CDT)

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we have never met, but I wanted to let you know my prayers will be with you on your trip to Philly. I am a friend of Beths and follow Austins Website.
Lori Prestney
Smithville, Ontario, Canada - Friday, October 18, 2002 at 09:52 AM (CDT)

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Hi Trish and Ken, It was so good to hear that Ashley had those good days this week, it seems that she is preparing herself for her treatment in Philly. I feel the urge to write even though I don't know you very well personally, only though Nathan's soccer, and to say "hello, how's it going" however, I want you to know that there are people who care, even though at the moment you feel that your responsibility is so great. Ashley, you get well, your Mum and Dad and brothers and sisters need you so much. There is a little church in Wales called St. Joseph's, were people will be praying for you all, this weekend. Have a good trip ya'all!

Sharon Byrne
Sharon Byrne
Dundas, On Canada - Friday, October 18, 2002 at 06:28 AM (CDT)

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Hi Ashley & family,
We just want you to know we are thinking of you often. We believe God CAN create miracles when we really
believe. Our prayers are constant throughout the day and we pray for a successful journey for you. The
days are getting closer to your travelling down to the states, BIG prayers for all of you. Remembering that God
is a loving God and will take care of you.
Our brief visit at the hospital has been a life learning experience. The girls never leave Ashley's name out whenever we talk about loving and caring for one another (discussed daily). They can't wait to have a visit with you again so be strong and know that we know your a special girl. God does things for many reasons and the girls believe that you are one of their best friends:)
So here are big hugs xxxxxxxxxxxx and we'll keep checking in on you. Luv & Prayers Liz & Family Btfd.

liz martorano <martorano@sympatico.ca>
Brantford, on canada - Friday, October 18, 2002 at 12:01 AM (CDT)

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Dear Ashley
We had hoped to visit again this week before you leave but Katie has a cough and cold that kept us away from the hospital. You are always very,very much in our chats and prayers. See you soon! Love Katie and Lindsay Bosveld
The Bosvelds <bosveldfamily@netscape.net>
Freelton, Canada - Thursday, October 17, 2002 at 09:01 PM (CDT)

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DEAR KEN ,TRISH,AND FAMILY
SEAN SOMEWHAT KEEPS ME INFORMED OF ASHLEY WHEN HE HEARS ANYTHING AT WORK , FROM DAY ONE THE FREELTON LADIES COFFEE HR HAS HAD ASHLEY AND THE FAMILY IN OUR PRAYERS. TODAY I WAS TEMPTING TO TELL THE LADIES WHAT SEAN TOLD ME ABOUT YOUR TRIP TO THE STATES AND THEN I SAW IT IN THE PAPER, AND INFORMED THE LADIES TO READ IT AND VISIT ASHLEYS WEB PAGE. ASHLEY WAS A BLESSING FROM DAY ONE , I REMEMBER THE DAY YOU TOLD ME YOU WERE EXPECTING. ASHLEY IS HERE FOR A REASON , GOD CHOSE YOU AND KEN AND ASHLEY IS ONE LUCKY GIRL TO HAVE PARENTS LIKE YOU. I PRAY THAT YOUR TRIP TO THE STATES WILL BE BLESSED IN MANY WAYS, ASHLEY KEEP FIGHTING SO MANY POEPLE LOVE YOU AND ARE PRAYING FOR YOU , KEN AND TRISH KEEP STRONG , MAY GOD GUIDE YOU IN ALL YOU DO MAY HE OPEN THE DOORS THAT ARE CLOSED. THANK YOU TRISH FOR THIS WEB PAGE AND KEEPING US INFORMED.GOD BLESS
ALICIA AND SEAN HICKS <aliciahicks73@hotmail.com>
STRABANE, ONTARIO - Thursday, October 17, 2002 at 07:20 PM (CDT)

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Dear Ken and Trish, Derek,Danielle, Nathan and Ashley,
What a great write up in the Flamborough Review!! Beautiful pictures, too! We pray daily for each of you for strength for the day, the hour, the minute. You are all such blessings to so many of us. Like Kate-Lynn wrote, you are teaching us a lot--about being strong, about being fighters, about looking to Jesus and His strength in all of our needs. So keep the faith, all of you, and keep fighting, Ashley.
We send our love and prayers that you may get to Philly and be richly blessed there. May God surprise us all in His infinite love and grace.
Love, Annette, Rob, Stephanie and Michael

Annette and Robert, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
RJockton,, ON Canada - Thursday, October 17, 2002 at 05:22 PM (CDT)

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Hi Ashley
We are all praying for you. We hope you get through this struggle and get to Phyledelphia safely.
Love ya lots and I hope you get well! Just depend on God and he will guide you through the tough times and the not so tough times. I hope you get better bit by bit! and remember God loves you!
Love from your cousin

Kate-lynn <kate_lynn_316@hotmail.com>
Canada/Ontario/Hamilton, - Thursday, October 17, 2002 at 05:04 PM (CDT)

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Ashley, I hope that you will be okay in Philadelphia, Our family is praying for you, your sister, brothers, mom and dad. You have taught us a lot, and we thank you for that.
Kristine VandenBerg <KristineVdBg@hotmail.com>
Dundas, Ontario - Thursday, October 17, 2002 at 11:20 AM (CDT)

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Ken, Tricia, Ashley and Family,

Could not visit your website without letting you know that you are in our thoughts and prayers. Esther keeps us updated on what fighters you all are. Best of luck next week in Phil. By all accounts, Ashley is an amazing little girl. We will be thinking of you and keeping an eye on the journal entries. Good Luck and God Bless.
Judy Mills and Family <judymills2@sympatico.ca>
Dunnville, On Canada - Wednesday, October 16, 2002 at 07:58 PM (CDT)

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Although we have never met,I wanted to let you know
how much your beautiful little Ashley has touched us.
I am Beth's cousin and read Austin's Website religiously.
Ashley is now in our prayers and we hope that your trip
to Phil. is successful. Hang on a little longer Ashley....
don't give in to this terrible disease just yet. You
can beat this!

Michele McDonald <McMcDn@cs.com>
Burlington, - Wednesday, October 16, 2002 at 05:37 PM (CDT)

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Dear Ken, Trish, Ashley, Derek, Danielle and Nathan
Wow, It's hard to come up with words after reading all the things you are going through. What a testimony your thankfulness is! We continue to pray for Ashley, that she will be able to hang in until you go to Philidelphia, that the treatment there may go well, that you will receive good news from the government on coverage and that you will receive much strength and guidance in the days ahead. We are praying for you all as it affects each one of you.

Take care.
Sylvia VanDyk <vandyk@rogers.com>
St. George, ON Canada - Wednesday, October 16, 2002 at 03:13 PM (CDT)

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To ashely and the rest of the goud family,
wow ashely you look really pretty on your picture! I hope you feel better soon. Your in my prayers!
Erica Gringhuis <candy_girl5@hotmail.com>
Troy, ON Canada - Wednesday, October 16, 2002 at 12:40 PM (CDT)

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Dear Ken and Trish
I pray that you would find strength in knowing that the prayers of others go before you. God bless you
Jennifer Adams <jendave@sympatico.ca>
- Wednesday, October 16, 2002 at 11:14 AM (CDT)

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Dear Ashley and family; I wish that there was more that we could do. You are being so brave and strong. We are praying for God's strength to uphold you through all this, especially this next week as you wait to go to Philidelphia for the MIBG therapy. ( we pray that it is a big success) .May you feel his strength and peace in a very big way.
Lots of love Sandra
Sandra Regnerus
Dundas, Ont. - Wednesday, October 16, 2002 at 07:21 AM (CDT)

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Dear Ashley, I am your teacher's (Mrs. Nightingale) friend, Diane VandeMeent. I am also a teacher. Please be encouraged to know that my school family and my own family are praying for you and your family. Keep being brave and trusting in our Great GOD who loves you!!

Diane VandeMeent <jdvandemeent@primus.ca>
Bowmanville, ON Canada - Monday, October 14, 2002 at 08:33 PM (CDT)

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Ken+ Trish: Our prayers will be for you and your family
Bernie+Anita <voortman@skylinc.net>
waterdown, on. ca - Sunday, October 13, 2002 at 04:18 PM (CDT)

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Hello
My hopes and prayers are with you. (I am Beth's cousin. She added your web link to Austin's page) I hope all goes well until you can get to Phillidelphia and that the treatment there is a success.
Kim <kimmarshall@cogeco.ca>
Humphrey, On Canada - Sunday, October 13, 2002 at 01:54 PM (CDT)

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Hi Gouds, I have no words to express the sadness and disappointment with the latest news. Please know that Ashley and your entire family are in our thoughts and prayers all the time. Keep the faith and turning to the Lord for the strength and courage ( I'm sure feels like it's running on empty) you need to help each of you through this battle with this monster. Best wishes the treatment in Philidelphia. lots of love
Sandra Regnerus
Dundas, - Saturday, October 12, 2002 at 08:16 AM (CDT)

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Dear Tricia and Family

Words can not tell you how much I feel for you and your family. I wish there was more that I can do. When I think of Ashley and the first time I meet Ken, and yourself. In room 321 (I think) when you both open you little girl to me to see how the nurses use the port. I remember as if it was yesterday. I think you and your whole family are the braves people I could have ever meet. When putting the girls to bed I asked then to pray for this special little girl.(that loves nail polish) You are in my thoughts and prays

lots of love
Susan Tremblett, Kayla Baker, Kennedy Baker, and Frank Baker
Susan Treblett <Stremb0906@rogers.com>
Cambridge , on Canada - Friday, October 11, 2002 at 09:11 PM (CDT)

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Hi Goud family, I am Sarah.(I'm in Derek's class)I get a lot of news about Ashley from Kate-lynn.(And sometimes from
Derek.) It is nice to find out how she is doing. I hope Ashley will get better and she will be in my family's prayers.
Sarah Weemhoff <sweet_sugar146@hotmail.com>
Carlisle, Ontario Canada - Friday, October 11, 2002 at 05:00 PM (CDT)

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The Goud Family,
Our thoughts and prayers are with you daily, asking God to walk with you on this journey. May you receive his strength and power to go through this difficult time. Even in the horror of it all may you experience his peace.
Love,
Joyce Werder & Family <Monalisaw81@aol.com>
St. George, ON Canada - Friday, October 11, 2002 at 03:48 PM (CDT)

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Tricia and Ken,
I was so sad to read the latest updates. Please continue to be brave and know that we are all praying for Ashley and your family.
Desiree Zimbalatti <TonyandDesiree@aol.com>
Oakville, On Canada - Friday, October 11, 2002 at 09:07 AM (CDT)

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Ashley, you sound like such an amazing brave girl! We are holding you and your family close in our hearts. Love from Florida,
Natalie, Vladimir, & Lina Rak (www.caringbridge.com/fl/lina) <vladanat@attbi.com>
Jacksonville, FL - Friday, October 11, 2002 at 08:22 AM (CDT)

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Tricia, I pray for Ashley, and your family. I know only too well what this disease can do.

God Bless
Kim Carswell <kcarswell@rogers.cm>
Ottawa, Canada - Friday, October 11, 2002 at 06:57 AM (CDT)

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Hi Ashley!
You are such a beautiful girl! You keep up a powerful fight, beat this monster!! Good luck during MIBG, know that prayers are coming to you all the way from Minnesota. God bless you....fight, fight, fight Ashley!!!
Love,
Shannon
(Angel John Russell's friend)
Shannon (www.caringbridge.org/page/johnrussell) <shannm07@hotmail.com>
Eden Prairie, MN - Friday, October 11, 2002 at 01:35 AM (CDT)

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Ashley,
I met your mommy in Chicago a few weeks ago, and she told me all about you! You're such a brave and strong little girl! I'll be waiting here in Philadelphia for you and we'll play every day! Keep fighting sweetheart and I'll see you soon!
Julia, mom to Angel Toireasa <www.caringBridge.org/page/toireasa>
Philadelphia, PA USA - Thursday, October 10, 2002 at 10:03 PM (CDT)

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I really hope ashley feels better soon
Erica Gringhuis <none>
troy, ont. Canada - Thursday, October 10, 2002 at 07:47 PM (CDT)

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Dearest Ashley and family,
I will be praying hard that the mIBG therapy kills the monster once and for all. Please know you will all be in my thoughts and in my heart.
Much love, many hugs and a LOT of prayers
Justine, Mom to Lance, Age 12, NBIV
Lake Oswego, OR 97035 - Thursday, October 10, 2002 at 05:30 PM (CDT)

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Ken&Tricia:
It truly amazes me to see the support group Ashley and your family has, especially when I read the comments in this guestbook. I'm more than sure that this is God at work. Our prayers are constantly with Ashley, but you already know and feel that too. This Thanksgiving I plan to thank God for Ashley's life because everytime I see her, she puts a smile on my face. She truly is God's little girl!! And as she said the other night, God is the number one man on her list!!!! (Sorry Ken, you were number two :) )
We love you all
Joyce Jagt
- Thursday, October 10, 2002 at 03:17 PM (CDT)

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We will hold Ashley and your family close in our prayers. May the MIBG therapy be the key that opens the door to a bright future for your angel!
Kelly www.caringbridge.org/nv/baileyaustinjohnson <BAJ31199@aol.com>
Lake Tahoe, NV USA - Wednesday, October 09, 2002 at 09:16 PM (CDT)

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Tricia, Ashley, and family,
We are thinking of all of you and holding you close to our hearts. I pray that MIBG gets rid of the NB once and for all!
Hugs,
Leah (Christopher's Mommy) <imperialbeek@aol.com>
Sauk Rapids, MN USA - Wednesday, October 09, 2002 at 08:43 PM (CDT)

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Dear Ken, Trish, Derek, Danielle, Nathan and ASHLEY,
We are devastated with all of you at the report on Ashley's condition. We love you and we are praying that you will feel God sustaining each of you in His love now.
Ashley is His child and so are all of you. May He strengthen each of you one minute at a time.
Keep looking up to our Father above- somehow, especially with your concerns and fears and with your questions.
Love, Annette, Rob, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders
Annette and Robert Schreuders
Rockton, ON Canada - Wednesday, October 09, 2002 at 06:23 PM (CDT)

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Hi Gouds.
Trish, it was good to be with you and Ashley today - sad and difficult circumstances, but good too. That precious girl can teach us so much as I was again reminded of today - and I mean not only the colouring skills but the patience, politeness, self determination and open mindedness that she exhibits - even when she is feeling badly.
Please know that we continue to send you our prayers and our love.
Esther Roukema <eroukema@kpmg.ca>
Caledonia, ON Canada - Wednesday, October 09, 2002 at 04:57 PM (CDT)

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We don't have the words to accurately tell you how disappointed and saddened we feel, but we will express those emotions in prayer as best we can, and ask God to uphold your family, and especially Ashley.
Ken, Gwen, Rachel and Michelle Bosveld <kbosveld@cogeco.ca>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Wednesday, October 09, 2002 at 03:59 PM (CDT)

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Tricia and Ken;
I just logged on the site and was greatly saddened when I read the latest up date. Poor you, poor Ashley, I feel for you all and I cannot help feel a little anger too, she is such a perfect little girl and its not fair! I hope that she pulls through this latest hurdle fast, there are a lot of people who are thinking about you, be strong.

Sharon, Kerry, Joseph & Katie Byrne
The Byrnes <sbyrne@cogeco.ca>
Dundas, Canada - Wednesday, October 09, 2002 at 03:40 PM (CDT)

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Dear Goud Family,
We just read your latest entry in the journal and were disappointed and greatly saddened to hear the latest news. Just want you to know that we are praying for you and trusting that God will continue to uphold you all.

Carel and Irene Geleynse <cigeleyn@skylinc.net>
Port-au-Prince, Haiti - Wednesday, October 09, 2002 at 01:51 PM (CDT)

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Words are not at all adequate... please know that all of us (I'm sure that " us" encompasses a VERY large group) are praying for all of you, esp. Ashley, fervently. May we all keep our eyes on the Father, knowing He has his eyes on us. May you feel his peace in a very real way, every minute...
Marnie Hood
Waterdown, - Wednesday, October 09, 2002 at 10:06 AM (CDT)

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Hi Goud family,
We continue to pray for each of you by name. May God give you His peace in your hearts. Keep your eyes on Jesus. He loves you all so much. May God give you His strength for each moment and for each decision you need to make.
Keep up the fight Ashley!!
Love, Annette, Rob, Stephanie, and Michael Schreuders
Annette and Robert Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton, ON Canada - Sunday, October 06, 2002 at 07:34 AM (CDT)

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Thanks for the updates, Trish. Our constant prayers are with Ashley, and now also with Rebecca.
Ken, Gwen, Rachel and Michelle Bosveld <kbosveld@cogeco.ca>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Friday, October 04, 2002 at 07:48 PM (CDT)

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Hi Ashley! We missed you at school this week . Mrs Nightingale tried lots of times today to call you at the hospital in Toronto. I hope you feel good enough to come back to school soon. We pray for you all the time.
Aaron Regnerus
Dundas, - Wednesday, October 02, 2002 at 04:11 PM (CDT)

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I hope everything is going well in Toronto this week. Keep up the FAITH, I know this must be a trying time for your family. We are praying everyday that the doctors are able to give you GOOD news !!!!!!
Michelle Deweerd
Greensville, Ont - Wednesday, October 02, 2002 at 11:34 AM (CDT)

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Hey Guys! Just thinking about you and your family today. I hope all goes well in TO and Ashley amazes those doctors again with TONS of CLEAN stem cells. Ken, we are thinking of you and the other kids at home too. We love you all. As always, prayers are sent on your behalf.
Love Karen
Karen Scharringa <SCalvinkaren@aol.com>
Waterdown, - Monday, September 30, 2002 at 06:55 PM (CDT)

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Hey guys.
Both of these special girls, along with their families are in our prayers constantly during this especially difficult time.
We hope the doctors can find a way to help Rebecca and that Ashley's tiny body produces lots and lots of those clean stem cells.
Take care of yourselves too and know that we love you all very much

Cliff and Esther <eroukema@kpmg.ca>
Caledonia, ON Canada - Monday, September 30, 2002 at 02:50 PM (CDT)

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So do you think Ashley and Rebecca had this all planned out. At least there will be some familar faces in Toronto. They will both be in our thoughts and prayers as well as the rest of your families. May he give you all an extra amount of strength in all that you must endure in the next couple of weeks. We are praying for lots more miracles to come your way.
Love Bugs and Lin
Bugs and Lin Vanderzwaag <904752@ican.net>
Dundas, Ont Canada - Sunday, September 29, 2002 at 07:01 AM (CDT)

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My thoughts are with you all. My prayers include "clean" stem cells for Ashley. Good luck in Toronto and I hope the time passes quickly. Please please let Kelly know that my prayers are with her and Rick as they get Rebecca through this. My God, when does it ever end? Talk to you soon,
Beth & Austin <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, ON - Saturday, September 28, 2002 at 09:00 PM (CDT)

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Tricia, did you have to put that sappy last line in? Now you made my mascara run!!
Ashley: quit bruising yourself!!!!!!!! You're going to look like one big purple grape soon!!
Seriously, we're still praying for all of you daily. Hope all goes as planned in Toronto and that the stem cells taken will be useful. We'll talk to you real soon again.

Joyce Jagt
- Thursday, September 26, 2002 at 02:56 PM (CDT)

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Our sympathies, thoughts and prayers have been with you over this past week. Sorry I didn't get on to signing on sooner... Tons of love to Ashley as you head to TO - I'm sure all will go better than expected, I think she loves to make the doctors say "well ain't she somthin' ???" Don't forget with God on our side, who can be against us? Love to all, stay strong, sleep with your fighting shoes on...(we know you never take them off!!) Love in Christ, Marnie
Marnie Hood <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON - Thursday, September 26, 2002 at 01:02 PM (CDT)

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Miss you guys - it feels like forever since we've seen you! Hope everything is going well, let us know when you're in clinic next, we'll meet you for lunch or something :-)
Beth & Austin <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, ON - Tuesday, September 24, 2002 at 04:22 PM (CDT)

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Trish, I know I spoke to you today but I wanted to write and tell you how sorry we are for your loss, but we also rejoice knowing that she is no longer in pain and in a much better place. Our thoughts and prayers are with you as you go thru yet another trial. Please know that we are here for all of you just call. Love Sandra
Sandra Regnerus <colsan.regnerus@sympatico.ca>
Dundas, Ont - Tuesday, September 17, 2002 at 02:11 PM (CDT)

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Trish; I am sorry to here about your mom. Ken just called me. Please know that our thoughts and prayers are with you all. I am glad she went peacefully and realitivly quickly.
Love Always
Lori
Lori Anderson <landerson3@cogeco.ca>
Burlington, - Monday, September 16, 2002 at 09:45 PM (CDT)

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God knows and cares.We do not know what we must face in life but God knows.Stay tuned and He will carry us through. Love Geraldine Cole
Tom & Geraldine Cole
- Monday, September 16, 2002 at 07:53 PM (CDT)

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Hi Trish, Ken and family,
I hope that Ashley is feeling better. Thankfully your Mom is not in any pain. My thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time. I know that letting go is very hard but at least there is comfort in knowing that a better place free of pain, illness and heartache awaits. Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you.

Take care,
Desiree
Desiree Zimbalatti
Oakville, On Canada - Monday, September 16, 2002 at 09:19 AM (CDT)

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Hi Ashley, it's Rebecca. I just saw your website, it's awesome. Hope to see you again and Brittany says your sooo cute!! Erik says HI:) Just want you to know you are always in our thoughts and hoping you will get well soon.
Rebecca, Brittany, Erik and Family
Brantford, ON Canada - Saturday, September 14, 2002 at 08:47 PM (CDT)

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Hi Guys!
Brittany came home from school today and said "MOM, Ashley came to school today!!!" I was thrilled to hear that you guys were home and that she was well enough to go to school. Have a good week and remember you are always in our thoughts and prayers.
Karen
Karen Scharringa <SCalvinkaren@aol.com>
Waterdown, - Monday, September 09, 2002 at 06:17 PM (CDT)

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It was great to see Ashley at school last week for the first day of the new year. I got to spend a few minutes with the kindergarten kids - such dear little hearts they are. Ashley was the "old pro" in the class of course, letting a couple of the boys know they were not allowed to talk when the teacher was talking, etc. ... Who can resist? ... As we all continue to pray for all of you, it gives us great comfort to be able to do that for you, but please don't forget to call on us as you need other "things" (whatever...) in your busy (busier?) days. As always Trish, THANKS for sharing your family's journey with us - you do do a great job when you post. Love Marnie
Marnie Hood and family <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown Ontario , - Monday, September 09, 2002 at 01:02 PM (CDT)

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Ashley,
You were amazing to see yesterday, your spirit is so beautiful and so unstopable.
See you soon and take care,
You're forever in our prayers.


Monique <Monalisaw81@aol.com>
- Monday, September 09, 2002 at 12:53 PM (CDT)

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Ken & Tricia:
Thanks for such a great party on Sunday. It was nice to get together with so many friends. Ashley, you never cease to amaze me! In and out of hospital and yet your energy is unending! God sure works some miracles!
We love you all!!! Rob, Joyce, Kelsie and Mandy
The Jagts
- Tuesday, September 03, 2002 at 02:47 PM (CDT)

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Hi Goud family!
It was nice to see you all in church last Sunday. You look so complete and 'normal'. Hard to believe you fight horrific battles each week! You are in our prayers always. Hope you have a good week!
love jamie
Jamie
- Thursday, August 29, 2002 at 10:51 AM (CDT)

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Well, Hello's to the Goud Family
It's been a while since I've had any touch with you guys, and it seems unbelievable that the kids are going back to school once again. Once again the summer has flown by! I'll be thinking of you guys as you start a new year and especially Ashley who finally gets her long awaited school time with Brittany. I believe she's been talking about that since she was 3 :) Hopefully you will be able to get there more times than not.
Trish, you are always in the back of mind and I will continue to try and track you down :)
Take care.
Monique Werder <monalisaw@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, August 27, 2002 at 08:26 AM (CDT)

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Hi Guys!
Its been a while so I thought I would put in a quick note. I think Janine put into words what we all feel but cannot express. I agree the line "who can resist" describes Ashley to a tee. Thanks Janine. Hang in there and always know that we are here for you guys and always put you in God's hands when we pray. Love you all tons!!!
Karen
Karen Scharringa
Waterdown, - Saturday, August 24, 2002 at 09:22 AM (CDT)

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Love you guys and we think of you daily. I hope you actually get that "down-time" weekend and enjoy it.
Janine, your poem is truly inspiring and expresses what so many of us are feeling.
Hold fast to His promises and believe.
With all our love,
Roukema's <eroukema@kpmg.ca>
Caledonia, ON Canada - Friday, August 23, 2002 at 06:37 PM (CDT)

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Sorry to hear Ashley has had some not so great days; glad to hear she's feeling better. Thank you to Janine for the GRREAT poem- so true, so well expressed. I loved the line "But who can resist?"... God is doing amazing things through her and I truly believe He will continue to do more miracles. Hang in there. I'm sure Trish that as much as you like roller coasters you'd like to say "OK, I'm ready to get off this one!!!" Still praying of course - little Bradley (3&1/2) has started saying his own prayers for Ashley... I just kinda picture God saying..."whoa.. stop everything: I got a little one talking to me..." Take care, Love in Christ, Marnie
Marnie Hood <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, - Friday, August 23, 2002 at 03:19 PM (CDT)

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Dear Aunt Trish
I’ve never bothered to sign this guest book, but I thought I should.
I wrote this after I babysat Ashley and the kid’s one day. I don’t often write, but I just had to that
day.

She stares and sighs as she watches them splashing, laughing, playing
I can see it in her eyes
It’s that look people get when they want something so badly,
But know they could never have it . . .
But this look was heart wrenching and
I can see it in her eyes
Wishing and wondering what it would like to be normal
Normal, as she would define it, is like her sister, her brothers, and her cousins
I can see it in her eyes . . . that wish, that want, and it makes my heart ache
How could God place such a huge burden on such a little girl? Who knows?
We all know how she sucks it up when times are hard and painful . . .
But we’ve also seen her cry
We’ve all seen her huge glowing smiles like’s there not a worry in the world
She’s strong and tough, she’s got feelings, she’s beautiful, she’s helpful, she’s sensitive,
she’s stubborn. . .
She’s got all the qualities of a normal 5 year old girl, plus so MUCH more.
To me, she’s like superman, but in the form of a little girl
She’s definitely my hero and a hero to many others
If it weren’t for her, I wouldn’t have such a drive to become what I want to be
Now, I sort of see the some of the reasons God is doing what He is,
I can tell He is using her in HUGE and AMAZING ways
I know she’s made an impact on others like she has on me,
She’s special, and all who know her will always love her
Besides, who could resist?
So, when times are tough and life seems impossible
Remember, God is always there, and so are your friends and family
This disease is a burden, but she’s definitely a blessing.

Love always,
Janine Kemper
Janine Kemper <janine_521@hotmail.com>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Friday, August 23, 2002 at 06:42 AM (CDT)

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Just a quick note to say hi to you all from Cape Breton , NS. We just checked the web site and it sounds like you have had a hectic week. Hopefully Ashley will be feeling her bubbly self real soon. We continue to pray for all of you.
Love Bugs and Lin
Bugs and Lin Vanderzwaag <904752@ican.net>
Dundas, Ont - Friday, August 16, 2002 at 11:40 AM (CDT)

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Dear Ken, Trish, Derek, Danielle, Nathan and Ashley,
Hope you all have a lot of fun at camp, try to let go of the worries for a bit anyways. Keep drinking Ashley!!!
God bless you all with strength for one day at a time. We are praying for each of you.
Love, Annette, Rob, Stephanie and Michael
Annette, Rob, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton,, ON Canada - Wednesday, August 14, 2002 at 09:02 AM (CDT)

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Hello! We were away for a couple weeks... you guys are still and always in our thoughts and prayers... even when mom thinks she's too tired at the end of the day the kids remind us "we have to do prayers" and Ashley is always at the top of the list... Thank God for kids!!!!! talk to you soon, lots of love...have lots of fun at camp!
Marnie Hood <mark.hood@sypatico.ca>
Waterdown, - Tuesday, August 13, 2002 at 01:10 PM (CDT)

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Glad to hear you're on your way to Camp Trillium. Hope you guys have a great time and can forget about all this craziness for a little while anyway. Sounds good to me :-)

Ashley,
Your mommy tells me you're feeling so much better than last time I saw you. You are the bravest and strongest little girl I know. I hope you are able to enjoy camp this week. Remember ... drink, drink, drink ... We'll see you soon,
Love Beth & Austin <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, ON Canada - Monday, August 12, 2002 at 03:29 PM (CDT)

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Hi Ashley and the rest of the Gouds!
I was so sorry to hear about the cramps and throwing up coming back - not a nice thing to have at any time let alone when getting chemo treatments. How was your party with Austin? Did you get to have it? Any special treats? We just wanted to let you know that we love you all and our prayers are sent each day.
Esther, Cliff, Zach and Michelle Roukema <eroukema@kpmg.ca>
Caledonia, ON Canada - Friday, August 09, 2002 at 04:50 PM (CDT)

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Sorry Ashley that you were feeling so yucky the last few days. I hope you feel much better real soon! Love you lots!!!!!!!! Aunt Joyce
Rob and Joyce Jagt <jjagtcma@aol.com>
Binbrook, ON - Friday, August 09, 2002 at 06:06 AM (CDT)

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I found July 30th!
Tricia, I think you should write a book. Your words flow well!
Hi to the entire family. And keep swimming, Ashley.
Love, Uncle Rob, Aunt Joyce, Kelsie and Mandy
Joyce Jagt
Hamilton, ON Canada - Friday, August 02, 2002 at 02:51 PM (CDT)

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THIS IS GREAT NEW! IT MAKE THIS BATTLE A LITTLE EASIER TO FIGHT. MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYES GO TO YOUR FAMILY EVERY NIGHT
SUSAN
CAMBRIDGE, ON CA - Tuesday, July 30, 2002 at 10:58 PM (CDT)

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Dear Trish and Ken and family,
Hello. we love each one of you and we continue to pray for God's all powerful strength to with each one of you, one moment at a time, giving you peace with every decision you have to make for Ashley. She is a living miracle, each and every day. No one's faith is perfect, and we all worry, but each of us knows that Ashley and all of you are in the palm of God's loving hands-always. Psalm 121 tells us our help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth. He loves His own and never leaves you.
Love, Annette and Rob, Stephanie and Michael
Robert and Annette Schreuders
Rockton, ON Canada - Monday, July 29, 2002 at 08:37 PM (CDT)

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Dear Ken and Trish, I know as family we haven’t written in your guestbook. We have always in been in contact everyday. So it has been easy to talk. I think this has been taken for granted. But I think I will take some time to write something to be supportive in words. From the OUTSIDE looking in is not the same as being INSIDE of this all. When we hear news Ashley seems to be doing well through this all. I think it gives us the feeling that she is o.k. Even though her poor little body has been fighting all these tumors for so long. She ALWAYS seems to pull through everything so far and keeps up the good fight as usual. Ashley has been an AMAZING CHILD through this all. How God gives her the strength to fight is also AMAZING in our eyes and hearts Ken & Trish! We have to remember without each and every ones prayers and support. She still has a fighting chance. It’s been a long road, but I think she has a good and brave fight ahead of her. She is fighting once again and bravely. And keep your FIGHTING SHOES on Ken and Trish... NEVER GIVE UP THE HOPE FOR A MIRACLE. Because this what she needs. Everyday counts and Ashley is fighting a hard battle against these tumors. I know God must give us as family a SPECIAL STRENGTH to pray and carry on each and every day. May He uphold you and your kids in this hard journey. You guys are in our thoughts and prayers each and everyday. We Love and hopefully can carry you all through this. We are there as FAMILY. Love you both Ken & Trish. Love your friend and Sister Kathy
Kathy Kemper
waterdown,ont., canada - Sunday, July 28, 2002 at 10:35 PM (CDT)

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Hi Gouds! It is so good to hear Ashley is home and here numbers are going up. I"m glad Ashley got over her strep
without too much trouble I sure know what can happen with strep if it decides to be difficult. We are praying for you everyday. Lots of Love Sandra

Sandra & Colin Regnerus, Jeff, Kris, Dayva, Drew,and Aaron
Dundas, - Friday, July 26, 2002 at 09:24 AM (CDT)

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Dear Ken and Trish
I am glad to hear that Ashley is doing a little better and out of the hospital. She is constantly in our prayers.
Jennifer Adams
Waterdown, - Tuesday, July 23, 2002 at 03:18 PM (CDT)

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Dear Ashley, Our family prays everyday that God will heal you and make you better soon. My Mom says that your very sick with strep throat and that your in the hopital, I hope you feel better soon. I Love you !
Rachel Deweerd <deweerds@aol.com>
Greensville, Ont - Tuesday, July 16, 2002 at 03:23 PM (CDT)

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Dear friends,
Thanks for all the precious updates, Trish! We pray for each of you for strength and the Lord's peace, somehow, through these times. We pray too that Derek will have a great time at the cadet camporee!! God bless you all. Love from Rob, Annette, Stephanie and Michael
Robert & Annette Schreuders <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton, ON Canada - Tuesday, July 16, 2002 at 08:23 AM (CDT)

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Hi Guys.
We think of you and pray for you all each day. We love you very much and trust that you can feel our love and that of our Lord so that it surrounds you with all the blessings you are so in need of right now - strength, endurance, patience as well as healing.

Cliff, Esther, Zach and Michelle Roukema <eroukema@kpmg.ca>
Caledonia, ON - Monday, July 15, 2002 at 05:42 PM (CDT)

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Hi! Ken,Trish and family; just wanting to let you know that we are still praying and thinking of you all. Hope ashley will be back to her "bubbley" old self again real soon. It was real touching that grandma and ashley had big hugs and kisses for each other. Trish we want to let you know that you do a beautiful job on writing up the journal , how hard it must be sometimes. Always in our prayers the ELzinga's
mark and robyn <m.r.elzinga@aol>
millgrove, - Saturday, July 13, 2002 at 09:38 PM (CDT)

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Hoping Ashley had a better day today. Thinking of you guys always.
Beth <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, ON Canada - Friday, July 12, 2002 at 10:50 PM (CDT)

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Dear Trish,
Thanks for the details in your entries as this allows us to pray specifically for the you and your family, and especially Ashley. When we know the potential problems that could arise, then we are able to pray that they come to nothing and for present crisis, we continue to stand against them in Jesus' precious name.
Lot's of love,
Vic and Cheryl VanHerk <cvherk@attglobal.net>
Newtown, Ct. USA - Friday, July 12, 2002 at 01:26 PM (CDT)

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Hi ken and Trish,
Its me Marlene De Boer, I was speaking to my sister and she told me about this web site where I could write in. This is a great idea especially for people like me who are thousands of miles away and care. Looking at the photos I can't believe how much she has grown up since last summer when we saw her. I have to tell you that Jarome and I still talk and think about Ashley, (plus your great pool)!! She pretty unforgetable and wow what a strong girl. Your family will be in our thoughts and prayers. I hope angels protect her and sadness forgets her. I will be keeping in check with the web site thanks for having it!! All the best. Love
Marlene/Jarome
Marlene De Boer <jarome88@yahoo.com>
Vancouver, - Thursday, July 11, 2002 at 04:49 PM (CDT)

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Hi Tricia and Ken

I noticed that Ashley was not at the soccer last night and I checked the site to get an update. I feel for you going through this all the time and I hope that Ashley will pull through this quicker than ever. Nathan, you played a great game last night, the team just keeps getting better all the time!.

Sharon, Joseph, Kerry and Katie
Sharon <sbyrne@cogeco.ca>
Dundas, On. CA - Thursday, July 11, 2002 at 02:44 PM (CDT)

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Hi and love to all of you. As Sandra wrote it is easy to say ... but without the Lord imagine how much more desperate/ horrible (I'm not sure what the right word would be..) this battle would be. How amazing to know the battle belongs to the Lord. Keep your fighting shoes on, I'm sure He's wearing His! Hang in there Ash-Girl!!! We love you.
Marnie Hood and family <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, Ontario , - Thursday, July 11, 2002 at 07:04 AM (CDT)

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Hi Ken and Trish,
Even at a distance (we are in Grand Rapids right now) we can keep up with you and with what is happening in your lives. Technology is amazing! Your entries, Trish, are heart rending. I weep when I read about what Ashley has to experience. I'm sure that you treasure the "sweet moments". We are praying for all of you.
The Geleynse's
Carel Geleynse <cigeleyn@skylinc.net>
- Thursday, July 11, 2002 at 06:45 AM (CDT)

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Hi Gouds! Just wanted to tell you your strength and spirit are amazing. Our thoughts and prayers are with you more now than ever (I didn't think that was possible but now I know it is ) It seems so easy for us to say" keep the faith and trust that God has a plan in all this " because it is not us going through all this but I know you know it is true even though it is sooo hard to see and understand right now. I hope these treatments keep going well with few side affects. You are such a trooper Ashley ! all of you are. Again if you need us we are here. Sandra
Colin & Sandra Regnerus Jeff, Kris, Dayva Drew, and Aaron <colsan.regnerus@sympatico.ca>
dundas, - Monday, July 08, 2002 at 09:14 PM (CDT)

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Words seem so meaningless to me right now. Just know that we love you all and our hearts bleed with the burden we share with you.

love jamie <flamcrc@skylinc.net>
- Friday, July 05, 2002 at 04:03 PM (CDT)

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Dear Gouds,
We think about you all often. Our hearts are heavy to think of what you are all going through. Looking at Ashley's pictures brings smiles and tears all at the same time. It's so hard to believe that adorable little girl is so sick. We pray that God will be with her, granting her a miracle, and with you and that you may continue to take comfort in Him.
Love Dave, Karen, Sarah and Bradlee VanderMeulen
The VanderMeulen <DKVandermeulen@aol.com>
Lynden, ON Canada - Friday, July 05, 2002 at 09:27 AM (CDT)

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Good Evening Trish & family,
We are praying constantly for a miracle, God has a time for everything.
Continue with His spirit and He will guide you where He wants you to go.
Just as you knew to go to Chicago.
We look forward to hearing about your trip, so take care of yourselves and we'll check in on you later.
Liz Martorano & family:)
liz martorano <martorano@sympatico.ca>
brantford, on canada - Thursday, July 04, 2002 at 05:42 PM (CDT)

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Dear Trish, Ken, Derek, Danielle, Nathan and Ashley,
Thank you Trish for sharing so much! Your entries are precious, and heartbreaking to read. We continue to pray each day for each of you and for a miracle in Ashley's little body. Every day she is a blessing to so many people. May God continue to be your source of strength each day, one minute at a time.
Sending love and our prayers, annette, rob, stephanie and michael
Annette and Robert Schreuders, Stephanie and Michael <rschreud@pathcom.com>
Rockton, ON Canada - Wednesday, July 03, 2002 at 01:44 PM (CDT)

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Dear Gouds,
WE continue to constantly pray for the Lord's guidance and strength in your turbulent moments with Ashley and the very difficult decisions you have to make. May God surround you with His love. We are praying for a miracle too. May His Loving will be done. You are all such blessings to us. Keep up the good fight and keep the faith,
Much love, Annette, Rob, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders
Rob, Annette, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@tor.axxent.ca>
Rockton,, ON Canada - Wednesday, July 03, 2002 at 07:34 AM (CDT)

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Dear Goud family;

We just read your updated news on Ashley, As tears are touching us all on the next mountain you all are going to climb. We are praying day and night for that miracle for Ashley to be well again. Ashley you are already a very special miracle!! you are such a trooper. You keep that beautiful smile going and keep reaching for that miracle. We'll keep praying for you and thinking of you all as a family. May God surround you all in His loving arms.
Love the Elzinga :Mark,Robyn,Chantelle,Brett <m.r.elzinga@aol.com>
millgrove, - Tuesday, July 02, 2002 at 05:54 PM (CDT)

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Dear Goud Family,
This past Sunday, as a family, we sat with Council Members because that was the day we were baptizing our newest little boy Bradley, but the news about Ashley that morning caused tears to roll down my checks. Our personal prayers are with you day and night for a miracle to happen in your dear Ashley's life. We enjoyed having her down for the one Sunday afternoon and got to know her better. She is one special child. Our daughter Ashley has thanked God so often at dinner that Ashley has been able to go to school and it is her and our prayer that she will be well again. Our thoughts and prayers are always with you all! Love,
Lucinda, Doug, Ashley, Emily, Amy & Bradley SLUYS <doug.sluys@sympatico.ca>
Greensville, ON Canada - Monday, July 01, 2002 at 01:55 PM (CDT)

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Hi Gouds! Your latest news is so heart breaking.Our hopes and prayers are with you always. I can only imagine what it is like for you to make so many difficult choices. I hope you feel the arms of love and faith of all your friends, family, all who know Ashley, and most of all God wrapped around and carrying you through these times. As many others have said we are here for you any time for any thing ok. With Love and lots of prayers Sandra
Colin and Sandra Regnerus, Jeff, Kris,Dayva,Drew and Aaron <colsan.regnerus@sympatico.ca>
dundas, ont - Sunday, June 30, 2002 at 05:56 PM (CDT)

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Good morning Ken and Tricia, Derek, Danielle, Nathan and Ashley.
Keep those fighting shoes on and we will keep on praying for more miracles. We have seen many in Ashley. CarolAnn said a while ago that Ashley was her hero. We think she is everyones hero. She is so brave for such a little girl. We hope Chicago opened some new doors for you.
Have a great day
Love Bugs and LIn <904752@ican.net>
Dundas, Ont Canada - Sunday, June 30, 2002 at 07:10 AM (CDT)

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Hi Guys.
We don't know what to say. Our hearts are heavy as we share a small part of what you feel with this latest news. When Zach asks "what kind of plan could God possibly have for making Ashley so sick" we have no answers. And yet, we know we must have faith because I'm sure He has a GREAT plan.
As always, we continue to hold each and every one of you in our thoughts and prayers - and yes, a miracle is top of our list!
With all our love,
Cliff, Esther, Zach and Michelle Roukema <eroukema@kpmg.ca>
Caledonia, ON Canada - Friday, June 28, 2002 at 08:26 PM (CDT)

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Dear Gouds,

Well, as I am sitting here getting very emotional, I can't imagine how you all must be feeling. You all continue to be in our thoughts and prayers at this time as you all need comfort and strength and support. Even though school is now done, Emma still continues to pray that Ashley can go to school. That is one of our prayers too. We will continue to pray for miracles.

Love, The Van Dyks
Sylvia VanDyk <vandyk@rogers.com>
St. George, ON Canada - Friday, June 28, 2002 at 09:07 AM (CDT)

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Dear Trish, Ken, Derek, Danielle, Nathan and Ashley,
We are praying everyday for each of you by name, that the Lord will continue to be your source of STRENGTH one hour at a time, for each of you. Each day that I see Ashley at school is a blessing to me and I am sure to many others too.
I am glad that Trish is off to Chicago now. May she be blessed there and continue to be a blessing there to others. We continue to pray hard for a miracle in your lives. We love you all and are trying to take good care of Nathan for the few days that Trish is gone :-)
Love, Annette, Rob, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@tor.axxent.ca>
Rockton,, ON Canada - Thursday, June 27, 2002 at 09:58 PM (CDT)

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Hello Gouds!

We just want to let you know that we are still praying for
you all, and your in our thoughts. "May God be with you all!"

Lots of love and prayers, from Mark, Robyn, Chantelle & Brett
Mark Robyn Chantelle and Brett <m.r.elzinga@aol.com>
- Thursday, June 27, 2002 at 05:06 PM (CDT)

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Hi Ash! I hope you are feeling better soon! I pray that God will preform a miricle in your life.
Hannah Vandyk <hannahv@rogers.com>
- Thursday, June 27, 2002 at 01:33 PM (CDT)

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Ken & Trish,
My heart aches that Ashley and your family are facing another hurdle. She is always in our prayers.

Desiree Zimbalatti <TonyandDesiree@aol.com>
Oakville, On - Tuesday, June 25, 2002 at 11:59 AM (CDT)

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Dear Trish and family, it's greiving to see the tial after trial that you are faced with, but we will fight the fight of faith with you and everyone else. God is greater than neuroblastoma. Just as the blood of the lambs in Egypt were smeared upon the doorposts so that the angel of death would pass over those houses, so do we, apply the shed blood of Jesus upon Ashley, His blood is greater than those of the lambs, for He was the ultimate Lamb of God. Jesus was slain for us to 'deliver us from the kingdom of darkness into the Kingdom of God's own Son'. Jesus has ransomed us from the clutches of the theif who only comes to kill, steal and destroy. Don't be afraid to believe it.
Victor and Cheryl VanHerk <cvherk@attglobal.net>
Newtown, Ct. U.S.A. - Monday, June 24, 2002 at 09:05 PM (CDT)

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Dear Ken & Tricia

This is Joseph's mum Sharon from the soccer, Joe and Nathan were on the team together last year and this year also. I remember my daughter Katie and Ashley playing together at the games and she always is a happy child. Very pretty and sweet. I hope that your news from the doctors will be happy news, but whatever you have to deal with, I feel for you and will be thinking of Ashley often. You are truly blessed to have such a wonderful family, you make us want to stop and smell the roses and be grateful for our wonderful children.
Love to sweet baby Ashley XX
Sharon Byrne <sbyrne@cogeco.ca>
Dundas, On Canada - Monday, June 24, 2002 at 07:30 PM (CDT)

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Our prayers have to be stronger right now for Ashley,
and we know God hears every one of them.
Stay strong Ken and Tricia were all praying for you.
All our love The Wilkinsons.

Karen Wilkinson <bkwilkinson@cogeco.ca>
Dundas, - Monday, June 24, 2002 at 09:19 AM (CDT)

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Words can't express the anguish I feel for you guys. Yes we will continue to pray for a miracle, knowing
it is possible. Keep looking to our Father no matter what. Ditto on the things Cal and family expressed... don't hesitate to call for help as needed. Lots of love and non-stop prayers, Marnie. Please tell Ashley "I LOVE YOU" from me.XOX
Marnie Hood and family <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, - Sunday, June 23, 2002 at 07:56 PM (CDT)

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Our hearts are breaking..Trish ..you still seem so strong and so focused as you let us all know what must be very difficult news for all of you. We pray that God will continue to bless you with these gifts. We just cant imagine how you must be coping each and every day. It was so difficult for us to tell our kids your latest news,... to deal with an 8 year old's complete denial of the situation and distrust in the doctor's abililties,.. a five year old's questions about life and death, ...and the wisdom and concern of a ten year old trying to educate his siblings while convincing himself at the same time of God's providence. Each of our children pray daily for Ashley at our dinner time devotions and our mood this evening was dramatically different than it has been over the last little while. Ken and Trish, our prayer is for God to give you continued strength as you face each day together. There have been many steps forward...and prayerfully, we ask for many more steps forward beyond this step back. Our offer remains open...anything you need beyond the frequent thoughts and prayers, please just ask. Love Cal and Shelley Bosveld and Christopher, Michael, Katie and Lindsay too!
Cal and Shelley Bosveld <Bosveldfamily@netscape.net>
Freelton, Ontario Canada - Sunday, June 23, 2002 at 07:27 PM (CDT)

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Hi Guys!
Okay, this is the second time I'm writing this - I clicked on the "clear information" button by mistake.
Anyway.... Trish, your note was as fast paced as you normally talk - I was getting tired just reading it!!!
I'm sorry to hear about Ashley's cold and hope that she was able to get to the last day of school on Friday - it's the best day of the year!! (for kids anyway...)
I'm glad to hear that you and Ken got away for the weekend -its always nice isnt' it? Then again, its nice to go home again also - I bet Bugs and Linda thought so too!!!
Anyway, just though I'd say "hi" and let you know that although I don't write every day, you are all in our thoughts and prayers, including your Mom.
Take care all,
Esther Roukema <eroukema@kpmg.ca>
- Saturday, June 22, 2002 at 03:15 PM (CDT)

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Hi from the Hoods Just to let you know you are still but a thought and a prayer away EVERY day. So nice to see Ashley at school so much lately and so great to know you are having some "normal" (????) family days. Your mom is in our prayers too- I'm glad she's having some time at home- that always feels better. Love Marnie
From Sarah: d ear ashley i love you Can you come to my birthday? yes or no. see you at school tomorrow lots of love from sarah
Marnie Hood and family <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown , - Thursday, June 20, 2002 at 07:00 AM (CDT)

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Dear Ken, Trish, Derek, Danielle, Nathan and Ashley, A cheery hello from all of us in Connecticut. All is well and we just wanted to bless you with this: "For I know the thoughts that I think towards you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart. I will be found by you, says the Lord, and I will bring you back from your captivity...Jeremiah 29:11-14a
This is God's heart towards all His children, and this is His heart towards you. You are all so precious.
You are all in our thoughts and prayers.
Love,

Vic and Cheryl VanHerk <cvherk@attglobal.net>
Newtown, Ct. USA - Sunday, June 09, 2002 at 08:07 PM (CDT)

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Hi Goud family!
Well even though things seem to be going at your usual hectic pace, I'm glad you still take time for yourselves and enjoyed the golf tournament- what a great time it is for all of us.
I'm so happy that Ashley seems to have breezed through her radiation- what a trooper!
Just wanted you to know that you all continue to be in our daily thoughts and prayers, including your Mom, Trish. We know that miracles happen and that is great knowledge to have.
Take care all!

P.S. I LOVE the website Trish, please keep it up
Esther Roukema <eroukema@kpmg.ca>
Caledonia, ON Canada - Wednesday, June 05, 2002 at 08:21 PM (CDT)

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Greetings from Connecticut! Thought we'd say hi and tell you that we and our 'care group' from church are believing God for Ashley's healing. We were thrilled to hear that you guys went to a healing service and that the tumor in Ashley's chest went away. May God's will be done here on earth for Ashley as it is in heaven(And we know there is no cancer, no sick people in heaven!!!) So if that's His will in heaven, that's His will on earth. So what is the reason for so much bad stuff happening on earth? Well there's the devil, and sin just to name a few. BUT... Jesus said, "that if two of you agree on earth concerning anything that they ask, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven. For where two or three are gathered together in My name, I am there in the midst of them."Matt. 18:19-20 So let's agree friends that there is no cancer in heaven and that its not His will for Ashley to have it here on earth. Let's ask once and for all for cancer to leave Ashley's body in Jesus' name and thank God that by Jesus' stripes she is healed and she will stay healed. Let's stand in faith, thanking and praising God for her healing, believing His Word til we see it with our eyes!
Victor and Cheryl Vanherk <cvherk@attglobal.net>
Newtown, Ct. U.S.A. - Friday, May 31, 2002 at 09:02 PM (CDT)

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Hello everyone,
Trish I just have to say the girls did great! I was so impressed with the whole thing. Danielle your dances were just perfect (my favourite was the "Sidewalk Shuffle"!!) and you looked just beautiful. Ashley, you've come so far and you can tell you worked so hard. You're a real heartbreaker, girl! It was an awesome show and we enjoyed ourselves very much.
Take care, and I'm thinking of you always.
Monique Werder <monalisaw@hotmail.com>
- Friday, May 31, 2002 at 07:34 AM (CDT)

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Hi Gouds!!!
I just wanted to let you know that Brittany and I had a great time at the recital! Danielle, Ashley and cousin Katie did an awesome job and brought a few teary eyes to the crowd. Thanks for inviting us. Thinking of you and praying for you always.
Love Karen and Brittany
Karen Scharringa <SCalvinkaren@aol.com>
Waterdown, - Wednesday, May 29, 2002 at 03:38 PM (CDT)

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Hi Gouds ;Ashley we are happy to hear treatments are going well with little or no bad side affects. Trish I hope you had a really great birthday .You are such a busy family I don't know how you guys keep up with it all .Aaron
thought it was neet to see Ashley at Calvin on Tuesday they have missed her at Jk in Greensville.Ashley and grandma are in our thoughts and prayers always. Keep the faith, you are an inspiration to us all.
Lots of love Sandra and family
Sandra Regnerus <colsan.regnerus@sympatico.ca>
dundas, ont - Monday, May 27, 2002 at 07:26 PM (CDT)

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Hi Ashley! Nice to see you AGAIN at school today. You were too busy with your work to say hi - that's a good kind of busy!! Good for you to be stumping the docs... breezing thru another round of treatments. Some of the doctors and nurses don't know what a powerful guy Jesus is and that He's sitting by your side all the time! No matter what the science of this world says, I am continuing to ask Him to make you completely well, and believe that thru God's power it IS possible. Love from Sarah's mom. PS belated Happy BD Trish- lucky for both of us I didn't know it was your BD on field day- I might of had to sing to you!! (Still praying for your mom too)
Marnie Hood <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, Ontario , - Monday, May 27, 2002 at 07:19 PM (CDT)

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Hello Gouds!
I hope the recitals went well today Ashley and Danielle! I'm sure sure were awesome! Danielle, you didn't miss much last night after you left except that everyone was up really, really late!!!!
We continue to pray for you all and pray for much strength!
Love, Mrs. Van Dyk
Sylvia VanDyk <vandyk@rogers.com>
St. George, ON Canada - Saturday, May 25, 2002 at 02:52 PM (CDT)

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Dear Ken and Tricia
Our hearts went through a denial process when we read your update this morning. When we consider what you are dealing with, your emotions must be intensified one hundred times more. We praise God for your strength and spirit you all have. Our constant prayer is for healing, and of course strength for all of you, to deal with all that you are facing, with your mother as well as your baby (not that she is a baby anymore). Hang on to that promise that you remind us of everytime we check for updates. You are an inspiration to us all.
We love you all, and we are looking forward to Saturday. Have a great birthday tomorrow Tricia :)
Love Bugs and Lin
Bugs and Lin Vanderzwaag <904752@ican.net>
Dundas, Ont Canada - Tuesday, May 21, 2002 at 05:12 PM (CDT)

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Hello all, glad to hear Ashley's stomach cramps have left her. I am keeping posted with your postings and look forward to the new ones. If your up in Muskoka look us up if you can spare the time. I would love to see you all again. You are in our prayers Ashley, the girls and I are often talking of you.
jan morrow <janneeb@sympatico.ca>
- Monday, May 20, 2002 at 05:53 PM (CDT)

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I am so glad that Ashley's cramps are gone! I saw you on the front page of the newspaper Ashley...you and your parents looked great! Our Bible Study group is still praying for all of you. You are in our thoughts and prayers.
Jennifer Adams <jendave@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON - Monday, May 20, 2002 at 05:12 PM (CDT)

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Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Being new parents ourselves and knowing how precious our child is to us, we cannot imagine the hardship and heartache you have endured. Stay strong and never loose hope.

Paul, Dena & Benjamin Collings
Paul & Dena Collings <collings@shaw.ca>
Powell River, BC Canada - Monday, May 20, 2002 at 03:16 PM (CDT)

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hi Gouds
i am so looking forward to coming to the dance resital and
i wish u luck as my mom said an apple dosent fall from the tree very far and i am so happy that u have invited me
i hope all gose well and i will continue to pray for u
love always
amanda <diva_star1212@hotmail.com>
- Monday, May 20, 2002 at 09:33 AM (CDT)

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Hi Goud Family:
Way to go Danielle at the dance competition, your hard work sure paid off. Glad to hear no more stomach cramps Ashley!You are a special Mom Trish and an inspriation to us, a strength like your familys could only come from the Lord. Praying daily for the Lord's healing hand on Ashley.
In Him, The Voortman Fam
Voortman Family <cvoortman@aol.com>
Lynden, Ont Canada - Wednesday, May 15, 2002 at 09:25 PM (CDT)

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Hello Gouds!
I was reading your entry Tricia, so sorry to hear that Ashley may have another tumor. I know that it is so hard to see your child in pain. I'm happy to hear her cramps have subsided though. Your family is so strong and positive, I'm sure that helps get through this hard time. Congratulations on the great dance preformances/competition. That is a great accomplishment! I have a daughter on a competition dance team as well, so we put in a lot of hours at the studio too, and it does seem to pay off.
I want to wish you the best with the results from the tumor, keep up the positive thoughts. I will continue to pray for your family.
God Bless you all!
Caroline Januszewski
Caroline Januszewski <kjanuszewski@wans.net>
Sartell, MN US - Wednesday, May 15, 2002 at 01:44 PM (CDT)

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Hi guys!
Sooooo much is going on for you all, I can't believe you can keep up with things!!! I'm tired just reading about all you have to do with the kids, parents as well as all the medical issues.
CarolAnn is right, the apple doesn't fall far from the tree and Trish and Ken, your strength is an amazing example to the kids, especially Ashley - never mind us observers.
I'm glad to hear that things are proceeding as expected with Ashley and that she is so strong.
Congratulations to Danielle and her dance studio. All that hard work pays off and it's nice to be rewarded!! It sounds as though you were able to enjoy the trip also Trish - so nice that you and the "legal alien" could go together (just kidding Jackie...)
Before I write a book, I better sign off. Please know that you all remain in our daily prayers with extras thrown in especially as they relate to your Mom, Trish.
I hope you have a great week and I look forward to reading your next message.
With our love,
Esther, Cliff, Zach and Michelle Roukema <eroukema@kpmg.ca>
Caledonia, ON Canada - Wednesday, May 15, 2002 at 11:58 AM (CDT)

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Hi Goud Family,
I was reading that you are missing the guest book entries. Ashley and your family are in our thoughts and prayers,and now also your mum. I am very thankful that God has given you such strength and patience. One does not have to wonder for very long where Ashley gets her strength from, the apple does not fall very far from the tree. You continue to be an inspiration to us all. You know if you ever need us we will be there for all of you. Love always,Carolann.
CarolAnn Zwart <carzwa@yahoo.com>
Lynden, - Sunday, May 12, 2002 at 01:25 PM (CDT)

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Hi Ashley!!!!!!!!!!!!
Did you like your cards??!!??
Well I liked your pictures!!!!!
I hope you get better.

Love from Sarah
Sarah Weemhoff <sweet_sugar146@hotmail.com>
Carlisle, Ontario Canada - Saturday, May 11, 2002 at 05:34 PM (CDT)

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Hi Ashley! I'm Stephanie, you and your brothers do not know me but Danielle does. I was in her class, I switched schools, me and my sister, Sarah did. I hope you're feeling better! Have a good summer! Bye From: Stephanie Rotz
Stephanie Rotz <Genuine91@hotmail.com>
ONT Canada - Saturday, May 11, 2002 at 08:32 AM (CDT)

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Hi Ashley! You don't know me and I bet your family doesn't either but your brother Derek does, I used to be in his class! But now I moved schools, to a place closer from where I live. I hope you get better and I'll still pray for you! Bye! From: Sarah (with lots of love)
Sarah Rotz <Genuine91@hotmail.com>
ONT Canada - Friday, May 10, 2002 at 07:42 PM (CDT)

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I wish you and Danielle some much needed fun at her dance competition this weekend. Please let us know how it went. I'm hoping Ashley is feeling better today, I went home the other day with a heavy heart after seeing that she wasn't feeling the greatest. It's impossible to understand why our children have to suffer such pain and I guess we could ask ourselves until we're blue in the face. I'm glad Ashley got a chance to visit with Rebecca, I look forward to seeing her on the Telethon along with many other faces that have become so part of our lives. Here's to a Happy Mother's Day, cheers!
Love Beth <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, ON Canada - Friday, May 10, 2002 at 01:08 PM (CDT)

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Hi Guys! Just to let you know that everyone is still thinking about and praying for you all! We just have an extra person to pray for now, your Mom! We love you and will talk to you soon. Tricia: have an awesome weekend in New York. Same to Danielle. Love Joyce and the rest of the Jagt clan.
Rob and Joyce Jagt <jjagtcma@aol.com>
Binbrook, ON Canada - Thursday, May 09, 2002 at 08:55 PM (CDT)

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Hi Guys!! Hey Ashley: It sounds like you did a FANTASIC job getting all your tests done, but of course what else would we expect from you, you spunky l'il pu-toot!!! You are an inspiration to all of us. Keep on rockin' girl. We are still praying for you (and Grandma) like crazy. I'm sure God is going to continue to make you ALL better. Love from Sarah's mom. PS Can I come for KFC with you one day?
Marnie Hood <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Friday, May 03, 2002 at 04:10 PM (CDT)

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Hello Goud Clan!
We are overjoyed to hear the happy news about Ashley's chest tumour. We'll continue to pray for her during her next round of radiation and for your mother. Her beautiful, smiling face represents such a beacon of hope. Each one of you is a unique and important example for so many of us of how to live with courage and hope in a world where so much is uncontrollable. Thanks for your inspiration and sharing. Congratulations Danielle on a truly great accomplishment - we're doing the happy dance with you all.
Love tina, conor and lia (a little TLC!)
Tina <tturner.fop@sympatico.ca>
- Thursday, May 02, 2002 at 09:40 PM (CDT)

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Hey Trisha, Ken, and Ashley
We are so very happy to hear that Ashley's chest is clear!!! We pray for continued miracles for Ashley. Our thoughts and prayers are also extended to your mom Trisha. May God continue to strength your spirits and shine on all of you during this challenging time.

We'll see you soon,
God Bless
Piera, Pete, Julia and Olivia
Piera Graci-Bonnah <piegraci@enoreo.on.ca>
Woodbridge, - Thursday, May 02, 2002 at 12:22 PM (CDT)

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My thoughts and prayers are with you as you face these difficult & challenging times. It is so hard to know what to say, so I say - let's concentrate on the some of the good :-) Fabulous news - no more tumor in the chest!!! Raichu is (hopefully) doing a little dance for Ashley! Hang in there guys,
Love Beth <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, ON - Wednesday, May 01, 2002 at 10:34 PM (CDT)

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Trish, Ken and Family,
Good news about the chest. We hope and pray for the same success with the other areas. Both Ashley and Mom are in our prayers. May God give you strength, hope and courage during this difficult time.

Take care,
Desiree
Desiree Zimbalatti <info@macvanderhout.com>
Hamilton, On Canada - Wednesday, May 01, 2002 at 08:58 AM (CDT)

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hi ken trish derek danielle nathan and ashley
i love the pictures of your party and your glammer party
i had a glammer party and i had a lot of fun.
lots of love
amanda <diva_star1212@hotmail.com>
- Friday, April 26, 2002 at 06:26 PM (CDT)

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Hi Ken,Trish and family,
God continue to give you strength to carry on from day to day as you try to keep up with such a demanding schedule. We pray that the results may be very favourable. Also that God may bless the treatments Trish's mom is receiving and give her healing. Congratulations to Danielle for winning with her group. Our thoughts and prayers continue to be with you!
Fred & Grace Nyland <fgnyland@sprint.ca>
Millgrove, ON Canada - Thursday, April 25, 2002 at 07:27 PM (CDT)

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Ashley,
I hope everything went OK with your sleepy medicine today :-)
Beth <gbd@sympatico.ca>
- Tuesday, April 23, 2002 at 04:06 PM (CDT)

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Hi to all of you. Ditto on what Anntte wrote. "Be still and know that I am God" (Ps 46:10) is Mark's favourite verse in the Bible. Sometimes a very hard one to adhere to, but always so true. It kinda says it all. We will keep praying for Ashley and your mom, and your busy week ahead. With love. PS Call for help as needed. (Call me I meant but you can read the PS a couple ways, eh??!)
Marnie Hood <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, Ontario , - Monday, April 22, 2002 at 12:09 PM (CDT)

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Dear Ashley, Nathan, Derek, Danielle, Trish and Ken,
It is such a true blessing to see Ashley's bright and cheerful face at school so often lately. What a blessing, also, that she is doing so well right now so that you can focus your energy on your mom. This shows us all again that God IS in control. We pray that you all are able to continue to trust in Him and His promise of never leaving you and giving you strength enough for one day at a time--even for one hour at a time, as necessary.
We are praying for each of you, everyday, and for sure, we are adding Trish's mother to our prayer. Another blessing for you is that your aunt and uncle are here now from England. May their visit be a truly joyous family time for everyone!!!
Lots of love from Annette, Rob, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders
Annette, Rob, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@tor.axxent.ca>
Rockton, ON Canada - Sunday, April 21, 2002 at 06:27 PM (CDT)

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I was just outside letting the dogs out for the last time today- what a nice spring night. Standing in the backyard with the stars shining always somehow makes me feel closer to God- just the majesty of the night sky and all that I guess. Anyway I was thinking about you guys and how Ashley's doing so well and thinking it is so easy to think that now we don't need to be praying so hard but realizing in the same thought that that's not how it works at all... then as I came in and read this week's journal I realized Wow! God just brought back to our knees real quick again. Count me in... Love and prayers to ALL your family, especially your mom and always for Ashley. And as Beth said, Do take care!
Marnie Hood <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, Ontario , - Monday, April 15, 2002 at 08:33 PM (CDT)

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Prayers are on their way to give your mother (& you) the strength to get through this. I'm glad that Ashley is feeling good and you are able to give your mom the attention she needs right now. Don't forget to take time for yourself too! I will talk to you soon,
Love Beth <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, ON Canada - Monday, April 15, 2002 at 05:02 PM (CDT)

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Hi Gouds!
Just wanted to say thanks for opening your home to us on Saturday so that we could join in the celebration of Ashley's life. It was wonderful to see her having so much fun with all the kids.
The pictures are great! Maybe Ashely will start a new trend with tatoos......
Take care all!

Esther Roukema <eroukema@kpmg.ca>
Caledonia, ON Canada - Wednesday, April 10, 2002 at 05:16 PM (CDT)

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Hello Ashley,Tricia,Ken,Derek, Danielle,and Nathan

Happy Birthday Ashley -
You sound to have had a great birthday party Ashley, lots of excitement at school and home. Hope your open day was sucessful Tricia and that you saw many friends.

We aught to have arranged our visit a little earlier, it would have been nice to have been arround during your celebrations. Not to worry we will be seeing you all on the 19th April, and it will be an excuse for another celebration after so long. We are looking forward to seeing all our family again.

It was good to read about the success Ashley's recent treatment it must have been good for you all.
Take care and hope all keeps going well Ashley,

Love

Uncle Max and Aunty Mavis








Mavis Latham <mavis@poplars388.fsnet.co.uk>
Doncaster, England - Sunday, April 07, 2002 at 03:20 PM (CDT)

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Hello once again. It is nice to see Ashley at school so often.
It looks like she is having a lot of fun with the other kindergarteners.
p.s. happy late birthday Ashley!!!!!!!
from Sarah
Sarah Weemhoff <sweet_sugar146@hotmail.com>
Carlisle, Ontario Canada - Friday, April 05, 2002 at 08:11 PM (CST)

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Hi Ashley, hi Ken and Trish and the rest of the fam.
Happy birthday for Ashley, and we hope you are all having a wonderful day today!
Love from uncle Anton, Tante Grada , Roelof and Marnix.
Goud family, Swifterbant, Netherlands <awgoud@hetnet.nl>
- Friday, April 05, 2002 at 09:44 AM (CST)

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHLEY!!! Hope you are having an extra special day with lots of fun and surprises (& food!!). Hope to see you soon,
Love Beth, Austin & family <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, ON - Thursday, April 04, 2002 at 05:05 PM (CST)

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LOOK WHO'S 5!!!!!
We hope you have a great day today with your friends and family and that you enjoy every minute of it! We hope you get lots of gifts on this special day, just as you are a gift from God to so many people.
Have fun Ashley,
With our love, Cliff, Esther, Zach and Michelle
Roukema's <eroukema@kpmg.ca>
Caledonia, ON Canada - Thursday, April 04, 2002 at 04:17 PM (CST)

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HAPPY 5th BIRTHDAY ASHLEY !!!! We hope you have a great day with your friends and family!!! We are so happy to hear about the positive news about your treatment. Our prays are with you everyday. See you at the open house
Love Chris, Michelle, Scott, Rachel and Michael <deweerds@aol.com>
Greensville, - Thursday, April 04, 2002 at 10:05 AM (CST)

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HAPPY 5TH BIRTHDAY ASHLEY!
We love you! Love, Karen Calvin Ryan Nick and
Brittany!
Karen and Brittany <SCalvinkaren@aol.com>
Waterdown, - Thursday, April 04, 2002 at 06:32 AM (CST)

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Hi Ashley,
Just wanted to say have a very happy birthday hon, you were a very special little girl right from day one and we're so happy for you today. Have a great day(don,t eat tooo much birthday cake!!) Sorry we can't be at your open house on Saturday but we have to celebrate Uncle John's big 60 birthday! - and you'll be in our thoughts and prayers as always. Love to Derek, Danielle & Nathan too - enjoy the party, you're all great kids.
Love from Beryl John & family xox
Beryl Collings <john.collings1@sympatico.ca>
Paris, On Canada - Thursday, April 04, 2002 at 06:15 AM (CST)

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Hi Ashley you don't know me but I was reading your website and I had to wish you a happy birthday! What a special day that is. I have a friend who has a son with the same disease as yours. You are in my prayers and every other child with cancer. I wish you complete remission and a full long life filled with happy times. All the best to you.
God Bless You!!
Caroline Januszewski <kjanuszewski@wans.net>
Sartell, Mn US - Wednesday, April 03, 2002 at 01:28 PM (CST)

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Hello to the Gould Family
It was really great getting to meet you a week ago and putting a face to those whom we have been praying for. We will continue to pray and to ask Bugs and Lin for updates on Ashley's progress. Love in Christ
Jennifer Adams <jendave@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Wednesday, April 03, 2002 at 08:39 AM (CST)

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Hello Trish and Family,
I think often of you guys....and asked my sister, Sue how you are doing.
It is truly wonderful news about Ashley...
Someone wrote in your Guestbook, Trust in Gods Promises, and hold tight to his Hand, and he will never let you go.
How wonderfully put and true that is!
Keep up the positive outlook, fight, and faith you and your family have.
I truly believe in my heart if it wasn't for my Sister's outlook, fight, faith and God holding tight to their Hands ...Miss Kayla may not be with us today!
Thank God for Mothers like you and my Sister.
Again God Bless you and your Family, &
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHLEY!!!!!
Lots of Love

Madonna Pacheco -- Kayla Bakers Aunt <mpache0421@rogers.com>
Stratford, Ontario Canada - Tuesday, April 02, 2002 at 09:18 PM (CST)

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Hello Ashley,Tricia,Ken,Derek, Danielle,and Nathan.This is Valerie (mum's cousin in England).You wont know too much about me but I have been getting lots of info about you and i would like to offer my love and best wishes to you all.I feel in awe of the perseverence and determination of your whole family.It must be tough at times for Derek,Danielle and Nathan aswell.Now you have rewarding news of positive progress for Ashley.
Although auntie Alma and uncle Cyril dont have a computer they specifically asked me to add their thoughts and love to this message.Its sad that we hardly ever get to see one another but we do think of you all lots and lots.
Anyway Ashley,HAPPY BIRTHDAY and i hope you have a lovely day with Mum,Dad, your brothers and sister and all your family and friends.Looking forward to seeing your birthday photos on your web page.Lots of love, Val xxxxxxx
Valerie Dalby <dalbyvalerie@hotmail.com>
Leeds, West Yorkshire, England - Tuesday, April 02, 2002 at 05:04 PM (CST)

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Ashley? Where are you? There is only two packs of bubble gum in the bag at the fingerpoke place.
From Austin <gbd@sympatico.ca>
http://www.caringbridge.com/page/austin.d, - Tuesday, April 02, 2002 at 04:27 PM (CST)

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Ken & Trish
I have heard so many stories of this precious Ashley Goud and the amazing little girl that she is. I read the history and past journals over the weekend and was brought to tears, of both happiness and sadness, many times. She is truly an incredible child, a precious gift from God, who is loved and cared for by many people. I thank God for her amazing family who are fighting for and with her every step of the way and who never give up hope. Our prayers are with all of you. God bless you.
Joanne DeVries (sister to Esther Roukema) <jdevries@tkosportsgroup.com>
Smithville, ON Canada - Tuesday, April 02, 2002 at 12:21 PM (CST)

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What good news that Ashley's tumor has shrunk. Praise the Lord! We pray for further and complete healing. I like the picture of Ashley in the water. So good to see her having those fun times also. We wish her a very happy birthday and much strenght for your whole family.


Rien and Minnie VanStrien <rimistrien@sympatico.ca>
Millgrove, - Sunday, March 31, 2002 at 07:44 PM (CST)

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hi ken trish ashley derek danielle and nathan
i am so so so happy that ashley's toumor has gotten alot smaller and i just want to tell u i will never stop praying for u :)
love
amanda <super_star301@hotmail.com>
- Saturday, March 30, 2002 at 06:28 PM (CST)

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hi ashley
hope u feel better soon i am praying for u i am at the zwarts house

from kurtis deboer
from:kurtis deboer
kurtis deboer <rockstarmatt2002@hotmail.com>
canada - Saturday, March 30, 2002 at 06:40 AM (CST)

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Shout to the Lord, All the earth let us sing, Power and Glory, Praise to our King!!! When I read your entry yesterday I just wanted to jump up and down and sing! I didn't because I was at work and I'm too conservative! What wonderful news. Sarah did jump up and down when I told her. Happy Easter, I hope you have a great weekend together. We will continue to hold you in our prayers! Love in Christ.
Marnie Hood and family <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, - Friday, March 29, 2002 at 02:26 PM (CST)

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Hi Goud family,
I am so happy to hear the wonderful news about the response Ashley has had with her radiation. I do believe I am witnessing one of God's miracles in action!! I am glad Austin & Ashley have been able to spend some time together, just wish it was under different circumstances. Although Austin wasn't feeling the best yesterday he enjoyed spending time with you and certainly didn't mind "sharing" his lunch !! My prayers are always with you.

Ashley:
Always remember, God knows what He's doing.
He had something very special in mind when He created you,
and no matter what happens, you are an important part of His plan.
I know sometimes it may not seem like things are going the way they're supposed to,
but you can be sure He knows every detail of your situation
and is prepared to guide you through it.
Trust in His promises, hold tight to His hand,
and He will never let you go.

Happy Easter to everybody,
Love Beth, Austin & family <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, ON - Friday, March 29, 2002 at 10:43 AM (CST)

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Hi Gouds!
It's been so long since we have touched base personally and I look forward to doing so soon - likely at Ashley's Open House!! You have no idea how wonderful your web site is at keeping everyone up to date as well as inspiring us all with your faith and energy.
Ashley is certainly a beacon of light in our world. It is our hope that you all continue to carry your strength through each day and we pray for more of that great news of hope.
With all our love, Cliff, Esther, Zach and Michelle
Roukema's <eroukema@kpmg.ca>
Caledonia, ON Canada - Thursday, March 28, 2002 at 11:43 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken, Trish and kids! It's so great to read positive news about your little fighting girl, we sure hope tis tumor keeps shrinking until it's all gone, wouldn't that be wonderful. This is the first time I am on the web, so I hope I'm doing things right, so you can read our message.
We didn't want to bother you with phone calls all the time, but be sure that our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Say hi to the kids, if they remember us at all.
Love from Uncle Anton, tante Grada, Roelof and Marnix.
Uncle Anton and tante Grada <awgoud@hetnet.nl>
Swifterbant, Flev. Netherlands - Thursday, March 28, 2002 at 05:21 AM (CST)

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Dear Trish,Ken and Family.Hi I am a friend of your auntie Jan's.She has told us about your daughter. Our thoughts and prayers are with you all. My two daughters saw the picture of Ashley and though she was so cute. We will pray for her. Our best wishes are sent to the whole family.
Mr. & Mrs. R Ritchie & family <ritchie.1955@sympatico.ca>
Muskoka, - Tuesday, March 26, 2002 at 09:28 PM (CST)

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Hello Ken and Trish and family: Greetings from Alliston! Linda VanderZwaag is my sister and always tells me what a special family you are. I spoke with her this evening and she told me about the wonderful Sunday service at Grindstone Church. I bet everyone was glad to meet your family! You are all in our thoughts and prayers. I looked at the number of 'hits' on your website... almost 4,000!! You sure are loved and it sounds like you are covered in prayer 24-7!! Take care of each other.
Joyce Ytsma <j_ytsma@hotmail.com>
Alliston, On Canada - Tuesday, March 26, 2002 at 07:38 PM (CST)

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Hello from Muskoka, the girls and I think of you often and are so excited about getting Ashleys web page from Jackie. Sorry it has been so long in getting in touch. I was in to see Dr. Griffeon and he asked about Ashley and i could not give him an answer so I asked too. He also showed me your picture, you are so pretty and growing so fast. Meg, Riley and I are always thinking of you Ashley. I will try to stay in touch and look forward to reading your journal. Hope all is well and i will forward this site to Dr. G. he says hello and he is busy thats why no responce.
Jan, Meg and Riley Morrow
jan morrow <janneeb@sympatico.ca>
Port Carling, ON Canada - Tuesday, March 26, 2002 at 03:22 PM (CST)

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hey guys
i hope every thing is going well i just want to tell u i will never stop praying for u !! and trish i think i for got my princess diaries cd at your house with the magazines
bye for now
lots of love
amanda <super_star301@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, March 26, 2002 at 12:33 PM (CST)

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Hey Ashley! i hope you get better and GOd be with you. My family and our schools continue to pray for you. From, Lisa
Lisa Scharringa <groovy_girl_33@hotmail.com>
Canada - Tuesday, March 26, 2002 at 12:33 PM (CST)

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Dear Ashley,
I hope you are feeling better soon. I hope to see you at school on Wednesday. God bless you! Hannah
P.S. Say hi to my good buddy Danielle!
Dear Goud family,
Ashley,I really want to send this message to you to say I like you because you're really my friend. You're really nice because you play with me. It was great to have you come and sit at my table at Pizza Hut today. I am praying for you every day. Love, Emma
Dear Ken, Trish, Derek, Danielle, Nathan & Ashley
The girls' wanted to send their own greetings and Meghan just said I'm doing "prayers" in the office. We pray for you all every day and it was especially great to see Ashley at the Pizza Hut outing today. Trish, you were right about her eating everything. She even wanted to finish off some of the other kids pizza! Danielle, I also wanted to tell you it's great having you in my GEMS class! Hannah had a great time at your place last week. May the Lord give you strength for each and every day.
The VanDyk's <vandyk@rogers.com>
St. George, ON Canada - Monday, March 25, 2002 at 07:14 PM (CST)

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Hi Ashley,Nathan,Danielle,Derek and parents.
My name is Sarah. I am in Derek`s class.
It was really nice to see Ashley at school on pajama day.
I liked Ashley`s pictures from the Disney Cruise!!!!
My family will continue praying for Ashley.
from, Sarah
Sarah Weemhoff <sweet_sugar146@hotmail.com>
Carlisle, Ontario Canada - Saturday, March 23, 2002 at 08:46 AM (CST)

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What a difficult time you have been going through. Dwight and I keep Ashley in our prayers. May God's Angels enfold Ashley in their wings and may the love of God touch your entire family.


Mary and Dwight Alward <dalward@sprint.ca>
Brantford, ON Canada - Friday, March 22, 2002 at 07:24 PM (CST)

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Hi again! Can your days get any busier??!! Our prayers continue to cry out on your behalf. Hang in there and I hope you can almost physically feel the Lord cradling you in His arms as you need Him. Lots of love to Ashley from us all.
Marnie Hood and family <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, Ontario , - Monday, March 18, 2002 at 07:44 PM (CST)

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hey you guys just want to say we will never give up praying for you's hope everything is well and ken thanks for all the fun we had snowmobiling love you all
uncle paul <kempersgreenhs @sprint.ca>
millgrove, ont canada - Sunday, March 17, 2002 at 06:35 PM (CST)

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Dear Ashley,
Thank-you for taking me to Disney on Ice. That was nice of you to take me there. I had lots of fun.
Love,
BRITTANY
Karen and Brittany <SCalvinkaren@aol.com>
Waterdown, - Saturday, March 16, 2002 at 08:44 AM (CST)

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Hello to all of you.We sort of missed you guys,but for now thats a good thing,I guess.Doesn,t that previous message give you tons more hope.Miracles do happen.We continue to prayfor one more,because you already have had four.We love you all and so does God.See you soon ,Bugs
Bugs <904752@ican.net>
Flamboro, ont Canada - Thursday, March 14, 2002 at 03:17 PM (CST)

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I just finished reading your journel from start to finish & I can't believe what your family has been through. I know we're not as close as we used to be but I want you to know that Ashley is in my prayers and has been since the moment I heard about her cancer. We have charity days at work every Friday and next week the money we raise is going to Neuroblastoma. I have a close friend at work who's daughter had it at 9 months. She is now 17 and totally clear. There is always hope so never give up.
My thoughts and prayers are with you. Tammy
Tammy Haines <tammy.haines@tycocapital.com or dotamasa@sympatico.ca>
Burlington, ON Canada - Thursday, March 14, 2002 at 01:29 PM (CST)

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Good to hear that
ashley is eating again and looking well and able to be home and you as well eventhough a daily trip to the hospital is not so easy. Our prayers are with you, especially that the Lord will bless the radiation and make the tumor disappear. May He give you comfort and strength from day to day.
Rien and Minnie VanStrien <rimistrien@sympatico.ca>
millgrove, - Wednesday, March 13, 2002 at 06:30 PM (CST)

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Hi Ashley. I love you. I hope you feel better. I HOPE you HAVE A GOOD MARch BREAK AND I'M HAVING A GOOD MARCH BREAK TOO> SARAH hooD.
Sarah Hood < mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown , - Wednesday, March 13, 2002 at 05:46 PM (CST)

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Dear Ashley: Hi Ashley this is Renee. I really miss you at school. You are a good friend. I hope you feel better soon. I like you very much. Maybe I could visit you soon. My mom said if it was ok with your mom and you were feeling well enough my mom will bring me. I will e-mail you again very soon. From your friend Renee Mobach
Renee Mobach <bikemech28@aol.com>
Flamborough, Canada - Saturday, March 09, 2002 at 10:03 AM (CST)

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Dear Ken & Trish, Ashley Nathan, Danielle, Derek
We would like to say Hi! and let you know that you and all your family are in our prayers. Renee says a special Hi! to Ashley and misses her at school. If Ashley is up to it would it be possible for Renee to visit Ashley? If you
get time Trish could you call me and let me know if this is possible? Remember our strength comes from the Lord. With all our Love and prayers, Martin, Jodi, Stephanie, Rebecca, Nicole, Melissa and Renee Mobach.

Jodi Mobach <Bikemech28@aol.com>
Flamborough, Canada - Saturday, March 09, 2002 at 08:28 AM (CST)

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Ken and Trish,
We have been keeping up with Ashley's treatment and your family through the web page and thought it was about time we let you know that we are prayng for Ashley and the rest of you daily. May God continue to strengthen you in the uncertain times ahead.
Benj and Grace Vander Meulen and Kids
- Friday, March 08, 2002 at 08:10 AM (CST)

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Your family is in our prays...God Bless!

Madonna Pacheco -- Kayla Bakers Aunt <mpache0421@rogers.com>
Stratford, On Canada - Thursday, March 07, 2002 at 07:59 PM (CST)

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Dearest Trish and Ken,
Images, thoughts, senses of you all fill my days. My heart swells and overflows with tears for the love, joys, patience, pain, fear and sorrow I read in your words. I try to hold an image (taken from a Leonard Cohen poem)of Ashley poised on the shoulders of the God of Love, intwined in a light wider than any measure we can imagine. You are incredible parents and incredible people - also beyond any measure we can imagine.

I'd like to share this poem written by a 9 year old named Sahara Sunday Spain, called "What Tears Can Do":

I went up to my bed and I lay there crying. I sobbed in tears and they formed a stream in the folds of my sheet. My eyes were wet, as I held Teddy close.
I decided I needed love. Love of the moon, love of the sun, love of birth, love of death, love the eyes that blinked once to write poetry and then looked up and thought of the best soul that could reach the Earth.
I sat up in my bed and I decided to become the Goddess of the River.
I walked into the river made from my own tears. I went into the water becoming the rolling stream.~

Hold on to your faith ... let it cradle you as you cry. May your tears be healing. All my love,

Tina
Tina Turner <tturner.fop@sympatico.ca>
Burlington, ON Canada - Wednesday, March 06, 2002 at 09:59 PM (CST)

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Hi Ashley, Nathan, Danielle, Derek, Trish and Ken,
Your trust in our heavenly Father is such a witness to so many people and to all of us. We are continuing to pray for each of you by name, daily.May God surround you with his love and strength.
Lots of love from us,
Annette, Rob, Stephanie and Michael Schreuders <rschreud@tor.axxent.ca>
Rockton, ON - Wednesday, March 06, 2002 at 08:32 PM (CST)

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Hi Trish and Family
Just wanted to let you know again that our prayers have doubled - May God give you strenght as only He can.
The Nylands
Helena Nyland <hnyland@bserv.com>
- Tuesday, March 05, 2002 at 07:36 PM (CST)

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Hi Ken, Trish, and family,
We pray the Lord will continue to give you the strength you need through this trying time. Ashley, God is there every step that you are taking. We will continue to pray for you!
Eric & Angela Schotsman (brother to Sylvia Vandyk)
Eric and Angela Schotsman <eschotsman@sympatico.ca>
Caledonia, ON - Tuesday, March 05, 2002 at 07:08 PM (CST)

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HI KEN TRISH ASHLEY DEREK DANIELLE AND NATHAN
I WAS JUST POPING IN THE SIT TO READ THE PAST ENTRY I JUST WANTED TO LET U KNOW AGAIN THAT ASHLEY U R IN MY PRAYERS EVERYDAY I HOPE I CAN COME AND VISIT U SOON AT HOME OR IN THE HOSPITAL (TRISH DONT SCARE ME AGAIN)
BYE FOR NOW
AMANDA <super_star301@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, March 05, 2002 at 06:20 PM (CST)

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Ken, Trish, Ashley and Family,
I just wanted to let you know that you are all in my thoughts and prayers.

Take care, Desiree
Desiree Zimbalatti <info@macvanderhout.com>
Hamilton, On Canada - Tuesday, March 05, 2002 at 11:38 AM (CST)

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Hi Ashley! Glad to here you're feeling a bit better! Hold tight to Jesus' hand, He's holding on tight to you! Trish & Ken: Just name it and I will help with ANYTHING ( I'm sure I say that on behalf of all who know you). Sarah would love to come for another visit if Ashley's up to it. Do you think we could sneak a 9 wk old Jack Russel puppy into see her??? You are continually in our prayers.
Marnie Hood <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, - Monday, March 04, 2002 at 01:08 PM (CST)

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Hi,
We just wanted to let you know we're thinking of you all. Our prayers are with you.

Dave, Karen, Sarah and Bradlee Vandermeulen <DKVandermeulen@aol.com>
Lynden, Ontario Canada - Monday, March 04, 2002 at 08:01 AM (CST)

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Ken & Trish
Bugs updated us last night. You are in our prayers, all of you! What specific things can we do to help??? Jennifer Adams
Jennifer Adams <jendave@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Monday, March 04, 2002 at 07:33 AM (CST)

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Hi-

My family and I just wanted to let you know that we are praying for you. Remember never to give up. It only takes 13 muscle to smile and 33 to frown, so never stop smiling. The pictures of you with Mickey and Minnie are great. What a beautiful little girl you are. We will be praying for you!
Ken and Jen Nichol <kjnichol@earthlink.net>
New Fairfield, Ct - Friday, March 01, 2002 at 09:54 AM (CST)

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Hi Guys!
Just wanted to say Hang In There!!!And we are thinking about you everyday and many prayers are sent on your behalf.
Love,
Karen
Karen Scharringa <SCalvinkaren@aol.com>
Waterdown, - Thursday, February 28, 2002 at 08:21 PM (CST)

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Hi everybody!
just wanted to let you know that I am amazed that your family showed up everywhere they were supposed to this weekend. There are some people that didn't come to the dress rehersal at dancing that have WAY less to deal with in their lives. So I just wanted to say that you guys are the most amazing family.Hang in there and keep your chin up and if I can help out in any way just give me a call. Also if Ashley is up for a visit in the hospital than I would love to come and see those bears!
Hugs and Kisses,
Corrine
P.S Danielle, you were fabulous on Sunday!
Corrine Davis <CCbow2@aol.com>
Freelton, On Canada - Monday, February 25, 2002 at 10:11 PM (CST)

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HI ASHLEY AND FAMILY HOW R U? I HOPE U HAD A GOOD TIME ON THE CRUIS BOAT.I LOVE THE PICTURES!ASHLEY I LOVE THE PICTUR OF U AND MICKEY AND MINNIE.I HOPE ALL GOSE WELL AND ASHLEY I WANT U TO COME TO SCHOOL SOON CAUSE I WANT TO READ TO U
I PRAY FOR U EVERYDAY!!!!
LOVE
AMANDA

<super_star301@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, February 24, 2002 at 12:19 PM (CST)

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HI ASHLEY AND FAMILY I LOVE THE PICTURES THEY R COOL I HOPE U GUYS HAD A WONDERFUL TIME ON THE BOAT AND WITH EACHOTHER WELL ASHLEY I LOVE THE PICTUR OF U AND MICKEY AND MINEY(YOUR SO CUTE)I HOPE U COME TO SCHOOL SOON SO I CAN READ TO U AND SAMATHA AGAIN!!!
AMANDA <super_star301@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, February 24, 2002 at 12:14 PM (CST)

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Hi Ashley, how are you doing? I like your pictures with Mickey. It looks like you had lots of fun on your trip. I pray for you every day.
Michelle Roukema <eroukema@kpmg.ca>
Caledonia, ON - Saturday February 23, 2002 4:44 PM CST

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Hi, Ashley. I'm glad you had fun on your trip. The pictures look very nice. I just wanted to let you know that you're in my every bedtime prayer. See you soon at school!
Love, Kianna Nyland Verwey <anyland@morrislawyers.com>
Carlisle, ON Canada - Friday February 22, 2002 1:23 PM CST

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Trish & Ken,
Hang in there guys, I am all too familiar with the tiredness you are feeling but be assured that it comes and goes in waves. Stay strong during the downs and it makes those ups that much better!! You are moving forward, that's a good thing! One step at a time :-) Ashley looked really good yesterday, tell her to book me in for some nail polish next time, I promise! See ya,
Love Beth <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, ON Canada - Friday February 22, 2002 7:36 AM CST

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Hey Ashley!! It sounds like you had a fantastic time on the cruise!!! I'm so happy for you sweetie. Those pictures of you with Mickey and Minnie are wonderful.....I hope you remembered to say Hi to them both for me!! Anyways, good luck with everything hun, I'm always thinking of you.
Love, Jessica "Britney" xoxox
Jessica <sassy_jess17@hotmail.com>
Burlington, ONT Canada - Thursday February 21, 2002 9:52 PM CST

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Hi Everybody, Welcome home!
Sounds like you had a fabulous time on your cruze. I am so happy for you guys, nobody deserves it more. So glad that you are all back safe and sound. Don't forget to bring some pictures to dancing. see you soon
Corrine
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Corrine Davis <CCbow2@AOL.com>
Freelton, ON. Canada - Tuesday February 19, 2002 9:30 AM CST

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Welcome home Goud family!
I figured you must have been having a great time since there were no postings. I'm so glad you had a wonderful trip. Hope you have a good week!
love jamie

- Monday February 18, 2002 7:34 PM CST

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Hey Goud Family,
We are so thrilled you had an awesome time!!!!!!!!!! Looking forward to seeing your wonderful pictures. I am so happy everyone had an incredible and memorable time.
God Bless, Piera, Pete, Julia and Olivia
Piera Graci-Bonnah <piegraci@enoreo.com.ca>
Woodbridge, Canada - Monday February 18, 2002 1:54 PM CST

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Wow what a long week waiting for you guys to come home. I hope you all had a GREAT time and we will see you soon!
Love Karen

- Saturday February 16, 2002 9:47 PM CST

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Welcome home! I trust you had an amazing time and that you are all well rested. I can't wait to hear all about your week. Hope to see you soon,
Love Beth <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, ON - Saturday February 16, 2002 10:29 AM CST

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I've been checking daily for an entry "from the boat". Glad to know you've been too busy to post one!! I trust God is blessing you with a GREAT time together. I know more and more people are praying for you each day. Looking forward to some Mickey Mouse pics.
Marnie hood
Waterdown, - Friday February 15, 2002 8:59 AM CST

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I know what prayer can do. Keep on praying, it works!
Lillian Williams <handlwilliams@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, Ontl Canada - Wednesday February 13, 2002 9:47 PM CST

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Hi Again Goud family!
Just wanted to say "Bon Voyage" and may God bless each of you richly on your trip!

Jamie <flamcrc@skylinc.net>
Dundas, - Tuesday February 12, 2002 3:06 PM CST

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Ashley and family,
I have heard of your struggles and triumphs from Nella. I hope that you have a wonderful trip. May it refresh your spirits, minds and hearts. God bless.

kathy baird <kathy_baird@hotmail.com>
millgrove, on - Friday February 8, 2002 8:15 PM CST

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YOu guys have a super time on your trip, sit back and relax! We'll be thinking of you and praying that all will go well. Hit a few golf balls in the ocean for us!!

Love the Voortman's
Deb Voortman <cvoortman@aol.com>
- Friday February 8, 2002 6:21 PM CST

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Dear Ashley,
Have fun on your cruise. I will miss you.
Love,
Brittany

Karen and Brittany <SCalvinkaren@aol.ca>
Waterdown, - Friday February 8, 2002 9:56 AM CST

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Hey Gouds; We hope you guys have a really amazing trip you all deserve it. Ashley your dry suit looks so cute on
you! I hope you have a great time swimming in it.We will be thinking of you and praying for you while you are away
making wonderful lasting memories. Have a great time! Love the Regnerus'
Sandra Regnerus <colsan.regnerus@sympatico.ca>
dundas, ont canada - Friday February 8, 2002 8:44 AM CST

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hey guys...just a quick note to say "HI" from the Andree's...enjoy your trip.....Even though we don't see you often, please be assured that you all are in our prayers and thoughts...lots of love, Mike, Pauline, Christopher, Justin and AJ
Pauline Andree <mpcja@aol.com>
waterdown, on canada - Thursday February 7, 2002 1:56 PM CST

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Hi Ashley and the rest of you.Have a wonderful holiday. I'll miss you. Sorry you didn't need your provate nurse to come along.God bless you all. Love Nella.
Nella Sandrock <sandrock@interlynx.net>
Dundas, On Canada - Wednesday February 6, 2002 8:47 PM CST

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To Ashley!
Hope you are feeling better and i hope you have an AWSOME time on your cruise
Luv Kim Voortman
Kim Voortman <KimVoortman@hotmail.com>
Lynden, Canada - Tuesday February 5, 2002 6:02 PM CST

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Dear Trish, Ken and kids. I am crying with you, praying with you and taking comfort with you in the goodness of the human spirit. I hope you will feel our presence - as you go through this very difficult time we are with you, stepping quietly along side. My sad heart is filled with love for you all.
In faith, hope and love, Tina, Conor and Lia
Tina Turner <tturner.fop@sympatico.ca>
Burlington, ON Canada - Tuesday February 5, 2002 11:36 AM CST

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Wow, Ashley what a great dry suit!!!!
Danielle Happy Birthday!!!!! I wish that I could have come to your birthday party. Did Tricia show Britany any of her new funky moves?
I love you guys and I want you to know that you are in my thoughts and prayers every single day.
Lots and Lots of love
Corrine
Corrine Davis <CCbow2@AOL.com>
Freelton, On Canada - Sunday February 3, 2002 11:25 PM CST

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Hey Trish,Ken,Ashley and all the other Gouds
I finally made it to your web page. Very nicely done Trish. I hope and pray with all my heart that things will work out for you. Ashley is a bright light in the clinic.
Love Marilyn (your clinic nurse)
Marilyn Eves <meves@cogeco.ca>
Burlington, On Canada - Sunday February 3, 2002 9:02 PM CST

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It was great meeting you in the hospital! Can't wait to come to Danielle's party today and see you again. I'm sure we'll have lots of fun! Heard about the Disney Cruise. Hope you have a great time! Say hi to Mickey and Minnie for me!! My thoughts and prayers are with you always Sweetie. Lots of love, "Britney" xoxox
Jessica Regan a,k.a. "Britney" <sassy_jess17@hotmail.com>
Burlington, Ont Canada - Friday February 1, 2002 2:03 PM CST

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Dear Trish, Ken, Derek, Danielle, Nathan and Ashley,
What a beautiful website and testimony to God's love and strength through all of this. We are praying for you all, by name, daily. The kids do, too. May the Lord guide you in the decisions that need to be made. We just heard that you are all planning on going on the Mickey cruise!! Cool!! HAVE A WONDERFUL BLESSED FAMILY TIME! Love from us,
Annette and Robert Schreuders, Stephanie and Michael <rschreud@tor.axxent.ca>
Rockton,, - Tuesday January 29, 2002 8:56 PM CST

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Dear Ashley,This is a note from uncle Bugs's Mom,we are prauing for you all the time and we hope you will be well enough to go on your trip. Keep up with your god spirit,Love and prayers to your Mom and Dad too.Love from Mr and Mrs vanderzwaag

Jeanette vanderzwaag < ajvanderzwaag@iprimus.ca>
Dundas, ont canada - Monday January 28, 2002 7:13 PM CST

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Hi Ashley,
Boy does your drysuit sound so cool!! Maybe you can model it for us one day, Austin would love to see you in it I'm sure. What a wonderful things people do! You are a very special girl, and of coarse that means very special treatment!!! I am happy that you are going on a Disney Cruise, you and your family are going to have so much fun. I can't wait to hear all about it when you get back! Maybe we'll see you this week sometime.
Love Beth and Austin (& family) <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, ON Canada - Monday January 28, 2002 6:52 PM CST

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Hi Trish,Ken and family,
I just got finished re-reading your web-site. It still amazes me that you can find the time for all of us,by keeping us up to date on ashley. Your strength is a blessing. As I watch Ashley climbing those stairs of the bus(sometimes struggling with her backpack)and I see that beautiful smile, my heart melts, and I think to myself that Ashley truly is my hero.
Love always, Carol ann.xoxo.
Carol ann Zwart
Lynden, Ontario - Monday January 28, 2002 9:27 AM CST

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hi this is matt

were praying for you

matt
matt <matt_zwart@hotmail.com>
dundas, canada - Saturday January 26, 2002 7:02 PM CST

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- Saturday January 26, 2002 7:00 PM CST

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Hi Trish, Ken and family,

We like to come here to keep updated with Ashley. Hope you all have a great time on the cruise.
Gerald, Lori , Samantha, Tara, Alyssa and Stevie <lurekar@sprint.ca>
Hamilton, Canada - Saturday January 26, 2002 4:01 PM CST

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I had to come onto your site to see Ashley as we have been praying for her at our Bible Study. We are friends of Bugs and Lin and they brought Ashley's needs to us and we have brought them before the Lord. Our prayers goes with you and your family.
Paster Dave and Jen Adams <jendave@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON CA - Thursday January 24, 2002 8:00 AM CST

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Hi Ashley! You've been in my thoughts and prayers tons today- hope you're feeling better. Hang in there girl, remember you have Jesus on your team!!! Trish please let us know if Ashley's up for a visit. Do you need anything else? How 'bout I could bring dinner to your house Sat or Sun evening?
Marnie Hood <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, - Tuesday January 22, 2002 7:26 PM CST

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HI KEN AND TRISH AND FAMILY
THIS IS AMANDA AND HER CLASS MATES WE ARE PRAYING FOR YOU AND OUR THOUGHTS ARE WITH YOU.LOVE... LAUREN .. KELSEY TIMOTHY ALEX RACHEL RICHARD NICOLE DAVID KIMBERLEY JOSIE MELISSA ADAM KEVIN LIESL J.J ANDREW ALLANAH MEGHAN AN OF COURSE MRS REGNARUS AND MSR ZIESTMA AND ME AMANDA BYE FOR NOW
amanda zwart <super_star301@hotmail.com>
dudas, ont Canada - Tuesday January 22, 2002 9:04 AM CST

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Dear Trish and Ken....I so thoroughly enjoy coming to your site to keep up to date on the family...You are in my thoughts often Trish....it just seems like yesterday you were babysitting for me...and now..you have your own team...and what a joy....lots of worry..you to are very strong and blessed....keep the faith...and hopefully your trip goes as planned...do take care..my love to all..Wendy
Wendy Pratt <wpratt3@cogeco.ca>
Burlington, Ontario Canada - Sunday January 20, 2002 7:33 PM CST

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Hi Ken, Trish and family.
Thanks for taking the time to keep everyone updated through the journals. We continue to pray daily for God to uphold your family. You are constantly in our hearts and our thoughts.
Ken, Gwen, Rachel and Michelle
Ken, Gwen, Rachel and Michelle Bosveld <kbosveld@brabantnewspapers.com>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Sunday January 20, 2002 1:50 PM CST

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Dear Tricia, Ken, Ashley,and Family,
We want to share how honoured we are to know you. Even throughout this more then challenging time your sense of commitment to each other and your caring concern for others has touched our hearts. The first time we met Ashley we knew she was special. Her spirit was light and her soul radiated, her energy was endless. You continue to be in our prayers everyday. Thank you so much for sharing your lives with us, you have helped us in our own journey with our little Olivia. This has been a faith strengthening odyssey and the lessons are many, but one that continually resounds is to hang on to your neighbours, friends and family because the human condition is one that needs to be sustained by love and compassion driven by God's ever guiding hand. Through God's grace all things are possible.
With much love,
Piera, Pete, Julia and Olivia
Piera Graci-Bonnah <piegraci@enoreo.com.ca>
Woodbridge, Canada - Sunday January 20, 2002 9:01 AM CST

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Hi Guys,
Just a little note to let you know that I'm still thinking about you always! Throughout your journey it must be comforting to know that so many people are thinking and praying for you. We're all rooting for you Ashley!!!!
Good Luck in the weeks to come and if you need anything just ask.Love Always
Corrine
Corrine Davis <CCbow2@aol.com>
Freelton, ON Canada -

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Thanks for keeping us updated on Ashley and the family this way. Our prayers are with her and all of you now and in the weeks to come. May you feel God's love and leading always.
Drew & Liesl Neven and family <dlneven@skylinc.net>
Dundas, ON Canada -

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After speaking with you Ken, at hockey today, I had to see Ashley's web page. A job well done. I hope that you find the strength and guidance your family will need to get through the months ahead.
Our prayers will be with you. God Bless.
Annette DeCoste and family
Annette DeCoste <decoste@on.aibn.ca>
Dundas, On CA - Sunday, January 13, 2002 at 09:14 PM (CST)

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We read your webside about Ashley and we share in your concern for
Ashley and for what the answers will be concerning further treatment. So difficult for you Ken and Trish and our hearts go out to you. We pray for you and for a miracle to happen. She looks so nice on the pictures and as we hear she is such a bubbly child. So sad for little children to have to go through all this. We wish you much strength and also courage to go on. Keep up your spirits and thank you for sending these messages, we are amazed.
Rien and Miny VanStrien <rimistrien@sympatico.ca>
Millgrove, Ont - Saturday, January 12, 2002 at 05:08 PM (CST)

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Hey Ashley,
I hope your feeling good. It was fun playing with you at gems babysitting!
I hope you, and your family have a very happy new year. I hope to see you,
and your family again soon!
Lots of Love from Chantelle!



Chantelle Elzinga <m.r.elzinga@sympactico>
Millgrove, Ont. Canada - Saturday, January 12, 2002 at 11:25 AM (CST)

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Dearest Ken, Trish, Ashley, Nathan, Danielle and Derek
Just updated myself on your latest journal entries - my heart is full, my soul is heavy and my spirit is looking upwards. The sharing of your journey with Ashley's cancer is an incredible gift to so many. There is a quote (I think by Carl Jung) that I keep handy to help remind me to break my own shell, "I can only know that much of me I choose to share with others." It seems a miracle to me that as you are faced with such a painful challenge each of you in your own unique way provide such a powerful lesson to others. Much love to you all, you are in my thoughts and prayers wherever I go. XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXXOXOOOXOXXOOXXOXO
Tina <tturner.fop@sympatico.ca>
Burlington, ON Canada - Friday, January 11, 2002 at 11:00 PM (CST)

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Ken,Trish & Family:
We finally managed to get on Ashleys web page with the correct e-mail address.What an amazing journal of Ashley. It is so wonderful to see God working in you to give you all the strength and courage and love, ESPECIALLY to your bubbly "Ashley". We are praying and thinking of you all as you go through up's and down's. May God wrap His loving arms around you all, as we are at home. Ashley, you keep reaching for that miracle.
Love the Elzinga's
Robyn,Mark,Chantelle, Brett <m.r.elzinga@sympatico.ca>
westover, ont - Monday, January 07, 2002 at 08:59 PM (CST)

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Dear Trisha, Ken and family,
Thankyou for this ongoing journal. Reading through the other guest book entries, I can only reiterate some of the wonderful comments. It has been inspiring for me to read Ashley's journal. Ashley comes to mind dozens of times through out the day: if its in the middle of the night I can pray intensely for her, if it's in the middle of a busy part of the day I've learned I can pray for her while doing something else at the same time! The kids pray for her daily. I tell them Ashley needs a miracle and God can do it! I pray you all will feel God's powerful loving arms wrapped around you every minute of every day. Let me know if Ashley would like a visitor from kindergarten any of the times she is in hospital. Sarah, who sits beside her in class would love to come and say hi. Thanks again for giving us all such an intimate peek at Ashley's "journey". God Bless. love Marnie Hood and family
Marnie Hood <mark.hood@sympatico.ca>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Monday, January 07, 2002 at 09:44 AM (CST)

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Hello Goud Family!!!
A very special hello to Danielle and Ashley!
I love the new pictures. It is nice to be able to put a face with the name Rebecca. I am glad to hear that Ashley is feeling better. I hope you guys had a great New Year,
and I will see you back at Dancing.
Love and Best Wishes
Corrine
Corrine Davis <www.CCbow2@AOL.com>
Freelton, ON - Thursday, January 03, 2002 at 10:20 AM (CST)

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hey ashley! my name is Elisabeth.Jagt. you are a very pretty girl yuo musthave a lot of friends. well hope you have a good life and happy new ywer!
Elisabeth jagt <htebasiletgaj@hotmail.com>
brantford, ont. canada - Monday, December 31, 2001 at 04:46 PM (CST)

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hey ashley: hows it going. great page. im "J", nancy Jagt's son. I really liked ur journal entries. well it looks like ur doin good so far. well feel free to e-mail me if you want to kay.
love J
Jonathan Jagt <jjagt104@hotmail.com>
brantford, ont. Canada - Monday, December 31, 2001 at 01:26 PM (CST)

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ASHLEY!
thanks for the nail polish, when i got home it did glow in the dark, take care and god bless
Sean
- Saturday, December 29, 2001 at 11:14 AM (CST)

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Ken, Trish and family;
Our prayers are with you. We especially hope you have a Merry Christmas and God's Blessings for Health (especially for Ashley) in 2002. Kathryn and Deanna often talk about Ashley as they are all at the same school and also the same bus - we see how it affects everyone in the community.
Jake, Janet, Kathryn, Deanna and Mikayla Ringelberg <j.ringelberg@sympatico.ca>
- Wednesday, December 26, 2001 at 07:02 PM (CST)

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Merry Christmas Goud family. Ashley, you keep wishing on those chips, and I will too. Love you babe!
Brittany's mom, Karen.
Karen and Calvin Scharringa <Scalvinkaren@aol.com>
Waterdown, ON CAN - Tuesday, December 25, 2001 at 06:23 PM (CST)

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Dear Goud Family,
We would like to wish you a blessed Christmas this year! You are all in our prayers everyday--and the girls remember her in their morning, afternoon and evening prayers! We pray that God will continue to hold you all close to Him every moment. May God hear our prayers to heal little Ashley as we pray for her continually! Our thoughts and prayers are always with you!
The Sluys Family: Doug, Lu, Ashley, Emily & Amy <doug.sluys@sympatico.ca>
Greensville, ON Canada - Monday, December 24, 2001 at 03:19 PM (CST)

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thank you so much for the information, may God Bless you and keep you all in His Care
Fran Elzinga
- Wednesday, December 19, 2001 at 08:19 AM (CST)

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Hello Tricia

We received your christmas greetings and looked up Ashley's Web pages. It is amazing to think that we can now feel closer to you by clicking onto the internet. Good luck in all your efforts for the benefit of Ashley and others. Remember that we think about you often even though we seem so far away. Our love to you all - Uncle Max& Aunty Mavis

Max and Mavis Latham <mavis@poplars388.fsnet.co.uk>
Doncaster, England - Sunday, December 16, 2001 at 04:00 PM (CST)

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Hi Ken Trish and kids:
Thank you so much for putting the web page address in the school news letter. I thought I'd check it out and an hour later was still reading. We've been pretty much informed through Monique, but reading your thoughts Trish was something else, thank you for sharing.!!! You are all in our prayers everyday. We are praying for nothing less than a miracle for Ashley.
Cal and Deb Voortman
C Voortman <cvoortman@aol.com>
- Tuesday, December 11, 2001 at 09:22 PM (CST)

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Hey Trish, You and Ken and the kids are always in our thoughts.....The school posted this web page and what a blessing it is for those of us that do not cross your path often - We wanted you to know that we pray and think of you all often - May God continue giving all of you the extra strength to get through each day as it comes. I can't begin to imagine - I can only pray for you all
Helena Nyland (& Family)
Helena Nyland <hnyland@bserv.com>
Millgrove, Ont Canada - Monday, December 10, 2001 at 08:27 PM (CST)

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Hi, Ashley, I miss babysitting you guys.
Hope to see you soon

Love Mandy Nyman
Mandy Nyman <Nymanfarm@aol.com>
Troy, Canada - Monday, December 10, 2001 at 08:15 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Trish and family: Thank you for taking the time from your obviously very busy lives to keep us updated on Ashley's ongoing battle. Your courage and strength is amazing!! Please know that you and your family are in our daily thoughts and prayers.
The Andree's (Westover Ont.)
Irene Andree <acl@execulink.com>
- Monday, December 10, 2001 at 07:21 PM (CST)

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Wow, a computer geek and cute too.Its hard to put my thoughts and emotions into this tiny little box.This is a cool idea,praise God for people who come up with this stuff.A good way to vent for you and a great way for others to show they care and there are lots who care.Most of all
God cares ,we dont always know his reasons but the good thing is that they are better than ours.Carry on doing the great job that you are,I can only imagine how tough it is too stay balanced.I could ramble on and on but I won't ,just take care of yourselves . love Bugs
Bugs Vanderzwaag <904752@ican.net>
Dundas, Ont Canada - Saturday, December 08, 2001 at 07:19 AM (CST)

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Wow Trish, what a geat job you did and what a great web site to have. You amaze me. I read it all last night. It made me laugh (at Ashleys spunk)and it made me cry. Humanly speaking I don't know how you do it but I know that God has given all of you the strength and courage you all need to take one day at a time. Your whole family is always in my thoughts and prayers.
Love you all, Lin
P.S. The pictures of Ashley were goregeous.
Lin Vanderzwaag <904752@ican.net>
Dundas, Ont Canada - Saturday, December 08, 2001 at 06:03 AM (CST)

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Hi Ken & Trish & family,
I have been reading your web page starting from the beginning. I haven't finished yet because my eyes get all tear filled and I can't see the screen or I get light headed reading the painful things! Thank you so much for sharing your life with us so intimately. It has been so difficult as a fellow church member to know how to help, what to say or do. I don't want to ask when I see you because I'm sure you're sick of filling people in all the time. How do I express in words the anguish and helplessness I feel? What a tool this website is! I am printing out a hard copy for those who don't have internet access and will add a note to the bulletin telling people they can get a copy from the office.
You are all in our prayers and our love goes to you all! We praise God for the strength He has given you all on this journey. May God continue to bless you and be your stronghold each day!
love jamie
Jamie & Syd Buisman <flamcrc@skylinc.net or sjbuis@skylinc.net>
Flamborough, - Thursday, December 06, 2001 at 09:45 AM (CST)

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Hi,guys
I have finally got the E-Mail address right and I have read the whole journal. I have learned so much from it. Not just about the treatments and the "lingo" but what it means to have courage and strength. I am literaly in awe!
If ever you need anything just ask!!
Love Always
Corrine Davis(dancing) <jobobam@aol.com>
Freelton, ont. - Wednesday, December 05, 2001 at 10:39 AM (CST)

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Hi Tricia,Ken & kids - Just wanted to let you know what a fantastic job you're doing. Your strength and courage never cease to amaze us and Ashley is always in our thoughts and prayers. How you manage to deal with it all and still find time to ask how others are doing is incredible Tricia - you are a constant inspiration to me. Love Beryl,John & family
Beryl Collings <john.collings1@sympatico.ca>
Paris, ON Canada - Tuesday, December 04, 2001 at 07:40 PM (CST)

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Hey Goud family,
I think this web page is a great way to show eveyone your courage. AMAZING JOB TRISH! I admire the whole family's strength and courage to battle this again. My thoughts and prayers go to the family every night.


Susan Tremblett <stremb0906@rogers.com>
Cambridge, On Canada - Sunday, December 02, 2001 at 10:17 PM (CST)

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Sorry we missed you today at the HACS Xmas Party. I didn't quite make it over to say hello. The kids had a good time. As always, Ashley looked great! Keep up your strength Tricia, you're doing an amazing job. We're not back to clinic until next Friday, so maybe we'll see you the following week. Take care. Great web page!
Beth Davis <gbd@sympatico.ca>
Smithville, Ontario, - Saturday, December 01, 2001 at 06:20 PM (CST)

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Hi Trish: Just read Ashley's journal and thought it was
very moving.We had a chuckel at ashley's modeling
picture.......Keep your spirits up !!!!!!
Our thoughts and love are with you and your
family.If you need anything we don't live too
far away...your friends the McDougalls

Barry and Jenny McDougall <jenbar@interlynx.net>
west Flamborough, across the street - Friday, November 30, 2001 at 09:01 PM (CST)

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Trish; This web site is amazing! We will never be able to even imagine what your family is going through, Your strength and optimism is inspiring. Please know that you are all in our thoughts and prayers daily. Just remember how awesome the power of prayer is. Love
Sandra,Colin,Jeffrey,Kristofer,Dayva,Drew and Aaron Regnerus <colsan.regnerus@sympatico.ca>
Dundas, Ont - Friday, November 30, 2001 at 01:43 PM (CST)

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Ashley, My prayers are with you. I admire your strength and the fight in you. We are all behind you and praying for you to get better.

Love, Stefanie
Stefanie Upshaw <stefanie.upshaw@sympatico.ca>
Toronto, On Canada - Thursday, November 29, 2001 at 08:53 PM (CST)

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Tricia, Your strength is so very inspiring!! Your such a positive person and we can see how that reflects on Ashley. Our family prays for your family every day. We Love You All.
Chris,Michelle,Scott,Rachel & Michael Deweerd <Deweerds@aol.com>
Greensville, Ont Canada - Thursday, November 29, 2001 at 01:27 PM (CST)

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Hi Gouds!
What a great web page! It's a great way to keep everyone informed and up-to-date. Please know that we are thinking of you and praying for you all each day.
With our love
Cliff, Esther, Zach & Michelle Roukema <eroukema@kpmg.ca>
Caledonia, On Canada - Wednesday, November 28, 2001 at 03:36 PM (CST)

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Dear Tricia and Ken, Jacki told me about Ashley's Journal and so I have read it. I would like to say what a great webpage it is and very inspiring. Rob and I would like you to know that we are thinking of you all. Keep fighting for that miricle, it is there somewhere. The very best of luck. Love Lorraine & Rob Dash (Jacki's Brother and Sister-in-Law)
Lorraine & Rob Dash
Somerset, England - Wednesday, November 28, 2001 at 02:12 PM (CST)

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I finally got to looking at your website, Ashley. I still need to browse around a little further, but thought I'd say hi. We all love you, Aunt Joyce.
P.S. I'd love to know how many people are praying for you!!
I don't think we could count them all!!
Joyce Jagt <jjagtcma@aol.com>
Mount Hope, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 28, 2001 at 10:58 AM (CST)

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Tricia
You are doing a fantastic job on the web page.You,Ken and the children are always in our thoughts.I want you to know Steve and I will be there whenever .Love always Jacki,x
Jacki Aiston <saiston@rogers.com>
brantford, ont canada - Tuesday, November 27, 2001 at 03:45 PM (CST)

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Dear Ken and Tricia,
We try to imagine what you are going through, but can't even get close. We want you to know that you and your family are in our prayers every day. Ashley's web page is awesome, you have done a great job. God Bless. We love you all. Love, Karen

Calvin and Karen <Scalvinkaren@aol.com>
Waterdown, ON Canada - Friday, November 23, 2001 at 01:04 PM (CST)

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Dear Tricia,
I've finally read your journal. You've done an absolutely reat job. In trying to remember and write all the events and information of the past 2 years of your lives on this web page. Paul, I, and the kids just want to let you know we think and pray about Ashley,you and Ken and the kids everyday. Keep up the strength O.K. Love you Kathy

Kathy Kemper <kempersgreenhs@sprint.ca>
Waterdown,Ontario, Canada - Monday, November 19, 2001 at 09:07 PM (CST)

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Dear Tric,
I've just read the web page and you did a really awesome job with it. You can tell it was written straight from the heart. I will always miss being around for the kids. Best wishes, you'll always be in my prayers. Take care in the weeks ahead of you.
Monique Werder <monalisaw@hotmail.com>
St. George, Canada - Saturday, November 17, 2001 at 04:30 PM (CST)

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