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In Memory of Lexie Nicole 
My twin sister Lexie was d/x with ALL at the age of 4. She relapsed shortly before the scheduled end of treatment. She had a bone marrow transplant on May 18, 1994. She died on June 10, due to complications from it. This is my story, and her story too.
I have recently had a very good idea, or atleast what i think is one. Children who fight cancer/other deadly diseases, they are so brave, so strong, and many times they are true insperations. I would like to write and Anthology with stories of children who have battled cancer, whether they have won or lost. I already have a few ideas in mind for kids I would like to see in this book, and 100% of the money raised from the book would go to Children's Cancer charities, or maybe different charities, i'm not sure yet. If anyone is interested, please email me.
Journal
Monday, March 21, 2005 4:49 PM CST Dear Lexie-Lu,
Wow, has it really been almost 11 years since we moved to the apartment, to get ready for transplant? Has it really been that long since you left for Heaven??? Lexie, the ticker says we said good-bye 10 years, 9 months, 1 week and 4 days ago.....but it feels like eternity...and yet...it also seems like yesterday we were playing in Codorus Creek and watching all the "little adults" (college kids) walk around. We thought we were soooo cool...
We moved into the apartment on April 6....you were supposed to start Transplant preperations...but you got sick...and then you were finally better, and you went to transplant....and you never came out.
Do you remember the day we moved into the apartment, Lex? The walls were white, and you and I had a room...mommy and daddy had the other...it was small, soo much smaller than our house. Mommy was pregnant with Meggy, and we were so excited to become big sisters soon...I remember Daddy picked you up and swung you around. You were soooooo skinny, the chemo made you throw up everything. You had a tubie in your nose, and it scared me. I remember when we went into our room, and I started crying because I thought you were going to die....and you hugged me and told me you weren't going to Heaven until we were old old old like granny (great g-ma)...and I believed you...I thought you weren't going to leave me... but cancer had other ideas...or rather, your bone marrow did...Lex, you were cancer free when you died. But everything the doctors did to make you cancer free killed you. The medicinces that were supposed to "save your life" did just the opposite.
Of course, I am greatful that you HAD medicines....We got three extra years, Lexie-lu. But you still left me in the end....
tookie-a-taydie-lexlor twinnie-too....
always-and-forever-together, lexie and taylor....
I love you Lexie-lu.
Tay-Bear
Read Journal History
Links: http://www.caringbridge.org/co/elijahkurtz/ Elijah, one of my adoptees from Share the Love
http://www.caringbridge.org/canada/julianna Julianna Banana!
http://www.sharethelove.org a great site with links to many cancer kids!
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