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Friday, July 24, 2009 1:45 PM CDT

IT IS DEEP REGRET TO INFORM YOU AUSMAN LOST HIS BATTLE ON JULY 21ST.FUNERAL WILL BE AT SONORAN SKIES MORTUARY
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PEOPLE CAN MAKE A DONATION AT CHASE BANK UNDER AUSTIN LIPKEMAN MEMORIAL FUND THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR YEARS OF SUPPORT AND GOD BLESS YOU ALL. WE UPDATE AGAIN SOON DEBBIE JUST CANT DO THIS YET SO ME LISA AUSTINS AUNT IS DOING IT AT THIS TIME.

THANK YOU AUNT LISA, DEB ,EDDIE AND ED AND JEANNIE AND THE REST OF THE FAMILY

THIS IS DEBBIE QUICK ADDITION TO JOURNAL FEEL FREE TO HIT EMAIL AUTHOR AND EMAIL ME AS I FEEL READY I WILL REPLY BACK TO YOU,THANK YOU ALL FOR 5 AMAZING YEARS OF SUPPORT

Tuesday, July 7, 2009 9:36 PM CDT

Hi all thank you for checking on ausman.The news now is he has radiation necrosis and arterial damage and it may of caused the stroke.They are thinking the damage is permanent.
So at least no new tumor.Just pray he gets stronger.He is still in hospital and will be a few more weeks. I will update as i hear more.Thanks and again if you want info email me this is lisa ausmans aunt slt1999durango@aol.com
THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR PRAY
LISA,DEB,AUSMAN AND FAMILY

Friday, July 3, 2009 1:55 PM CDT

HI all this is a update from ausmans aunt Lisa
Ausman is phoenix childrens hospital with what they think is a another form of cancer.He has had a stroke which has left his paralyzed.Hes on a feeding tube and going to have a brain surgery next week.Hes been in hospital like 2 weeks now please pray for him and the family .If anyone wants to contact me please email me i will call you with any info you want. He is fighting to stay alive at this time.Thank you all for checking on him and god bless you all. my email is slt1999durango@aol.com i will get back to all of you as soon as i can.
THANK YOU

LISA , DEBBIE AND AUSMAN AND FAMILY

Tuesday, March 24, 2009 11:51 AM CDT

Hi Everyone,
Yes I know its been forever since I have updated LOL But no news is always good news right?Well in our case that is true Austin has been doing so awesome he played basketball for the Beaver Creek Bobcats AND GUESS WHAT?They went the entire season UNDEFEATED AND WENT ON TO WIN DISTRICT CHAMPIONSHIP AND FROM THERE THEY WENT ON TO WIN STATE CHAMPIONSHIP TOO ( NOTE NEW PIC ABOVE)HE IS THE ONE HOLDING THE TROPHY. We have more news we will be in Ohio May 28th to June 20th for a vacation. And by next year we will be moving back. On the medical side of things Austin is STILL STABLE I AM BEGINNING TO THINK HE BEAT THIS THING WE STILL HAVE A WHILE BEFORE ST JUDES WILL SAY HE IS IN REMISSION IN FACT WE HAVE TO GO 5 YEARS SO WE HAVE A LITTLE OVER 3 TO GO.

Any way guys sorry for the lack of and short updates but its always busy these days both these are so involved in sports and dance and whatever else they can find LOL
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR CHECKING IN WE STILL SIGN AND CHECK THE GUESTBOOK QUITE OFTEN SO FEEL FREE TO DROP US A MESSAGE NEXT UPDATE WILL BE FROM AUSTIN HIMSELF WANTS TO TAKE OVER THE SITE.LOVE TO ALL

LOVE DEB,ED,EDDIE,AND OF COURSE AUSTIN

Tuesday, August 19, 2008 4:45 PM CDT

Hi Everyone,
Its me Debbie I just wanted to check in and let everyone know Ausman is doing fantastic he started school lastweek and he loves it Im pretty happy with the new school also it reminds me of his old school Huntington they seem to really understand alot about his IEP and they dont seem to have a problem working with myself and St Judes to ensure that Austin gets the best possible education he can. I honestly dont think a school can even come close to Huntington as they are amazing and have a heart of gold,they were our rock when we needed to lean on them they were there through it all with us.
As far as we know Ausman is still cancer free our next trip to St Judes is SEPT 22 ND - SEPT 26 TH He will only have a brain mri we are not doing the spine we now test the spine once a year and we will do some more thyroid and pituity testing and they are also doing a phychological test to see if he needs ADHD meds and they are doing IQ testing to check for any brain damage WHICH I HIGHLY DOUBT HIS GRADES LAST YEAR WERE AWESOME THE ONLY CLASS HE IS STRUGGLING WITH THIS YEAR IS MATH WE GOT HIS PROGRESS REPORT YESTERDAY AND HE HAS AN A IN SCIENCE(HIS NEW FAV CLASS)AND HE HAS B IN READING WRITING AND ENGLISH.
As some of you may have noticed we moved a few months ago Well we are moving again in 2 weeks we found a 4 bedroom house on 3 acres for same price we are paying for a 2 bedroom with no yard,so as soon as we get moved I will be adding our home address to the botton of this page We would love to hear from you guys.Thanks for checking in on my hero WE LOVE YOU GUYS,
LOVE DEB,EDDIE,and THE AUSMAN

Wednesday, July 16, 2008 5:31 PM CDT

Hi All Everything is going awesome been really busy this summer enjoying my 2 HEALTHY BOYS we have been swimming alot at the creek not far from the house Ausman is doing awesome the thyroid meds really seem to be helping him alot he has mre energy and his breathing even seems better Were busy getting him ready for Camp Rainbow again I will update after camp which is Aug 3 rd to Aug 9 th HIS 12th BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP FAST ITS ON JULY 23rd .Sorry its short but gotta go for now heading swimming LOVE YOU ALL THANKS FOR CHECKING IN.

LOVE DEBBIE,AUSMAN,and EDDIE

Wednesday, May 28, 2008 2:30 AM CDT

Just a very quick update AUSMAN IS STILL CANCER FREE HIS LAST TREATMENT WAS OCT 2006 HE IS DOING AWESOME THE ONLY THING NEW IS WE FOUND OUT HIS THYROID IS NOT WORKING (BELIEVED TO BE RADIATION DAMAGE) SO HE HAS BEEN PLACED ON A THYROID MEDICATION AND WE ARE STILL MONITORING HIS PITUATARY GLAND BUT AS OFF RIGHT NOW HE DOES NOT REQUIRE THE GROWTH HORMONE SHOT AND TO BE HONEST I THINK HE HAD DODGED THAT ONE WE DONT GO BACK TO ENDOCTRINE DOCTOR AND MRI'S UNTIL SEPT .

SORRY ITS SHORT TRYING TO GET PACKED AND MOVED SO ITS BEEN CRAZY THANK YOU FOR STOPPING BY.

LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER,
THE AUSMAN,Deb,and Eddie

Sunday, April 13, 2008 1:21 AM CDT

Hi Everyone Yep its me and it didnt take months to update all is going well here.Austin is getting stronger and better everyday he does all the things little boys do including scare moms to death.Today we were over at Kris' house and my darling little boys decide they are going to going to go tree climbing we were sitting on the porch talking and my sons YES BOTH start calling mom its sounded kind of far away so I'm looking around not thinking trees LOL and they both say up here I look up and darn kids are at least 15 if not 20 ft up a tree to say I was a little startled is an understatement if Aus had fallen it could have been real bad well if either one had could have been bad but I am used to Eddie being a daredevil I never expected Aus up there he is afraid of heights well used guess not anymore.Well its late just wanted to share that little story with you all.

LOVE YOU GUYS,

LOVE DEB,AUSMAN AND EDDIE

Sunday, March 23, 2008 3:19 AM CDT

HI ALL,

JUST A QUICK NOTE ALL IS GOING OK HERE KEEPING BUSY ENJOYING THE NICE WEATHER WE HAVE BEEN HAVING HERE IN NICE WARM ARIZONA,JUST WANTED TO WISH EVERYONE A VERY HAPPY EASTER WE LOVE YOU ALL SORRY THIS UPDATE IS SHORT ITS LATE AND I AM EXHAUSTED HAVE A LONG DAY AHEAD OF US WE ARE GOING TO THE LAKE TOADY FOR EASTER I WILL TRY TO GIVE A BETTER UPDATE IN THE NEXT FEW DAYS HAVE GEART DAY LOVE YOUR CHILDREN AND EACH OTHER AND THANK YOU FOR STOPING IN TO CHECK ON US.

LOVE DEB,AUSMAN,AND EDDIE

Monday, March 3, 2008 4:58 PM CST

Hi all its typical me fashion give bad news and then not update forever I am so sorry I know you all are sick of hearing it the boys are both doing so awesome and are BOTH SO HEALTHY I KEEP BUSY.
On the updates I cant tell how Kris is cause she stopped calling us so we have no idea how she last I heard she was doing fine didnt need any surgery.
As far as Brennen go he is home and improving I hope to hear from his mom soon.
Like I was saying about the boys they are doing fantastic Austin seems to finally be getting alot stronger He has gained ALOT of weight he weighs 84 lbs but he isnt getting any taller at least according to doctors anyway I sure thinks he looks taller.We go back to St Judes in May and they will be doing all the routine MRIS and also endoctrine testing( WHICH IS HORMONE TESTING TO SEE IF HIS THYROID OR PITUITARY GLAND ARE DAMAGED)Which would cause weight gain and lack of growth so we shall see.I have a good feeling though he has dodged EVERY SINGLE DAMAGE EXCEPT FOR CONTINUED NAUSEA WHICH IS IMPROVING FINALLY.SO HE IS A WALKING,LIVING,BREATHING,RUNNING MIRACLE HE WILL BE JUST FINE WE ARE FINALLY BREATHING SOME SINCE WE NOW HAVE 14 MONTHS CANCER FREE.
WELL ALL YOU FAITHFUL FOLLOWERS THANK YOU FOR YOUR CONTINUED SUPPORT AND PRAYERS EVEN THOUGH I DONT UPDATE OFTEN TRUST ME WE KNOW YOUR THERE AND WE THANK YOU VERY MUCH YOUR PRAYERS ARE STILL WORKING.

LOVE YA,
DEB,AUSMAN,AND EDDIE JR

Sunday, February 10, 2008 8:05 AM CST

Well guys all is well with Austin and Eddie they BOTH MADE HONOR ROLL AND STUDENT OF THE MONTH AGAIN THIS MONTH WOW 3 MONTHS IN A ROW ITS IS SO AWESOME I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PRPOUD OF BOTH MY GENIUSES THEY ARE DOING AMAZING FOR ALL THAT IS GOING ON THERE LITTLE LIVES FIRST OFF BRENNEN OUR LITTLE BUDDY FRIEND ST JUDES IS HOME AND DOING MUCH BETTER SO THAT CRISIS IS OVER,

NOW WE HAVE 2 new ones AUNT KRIS IS IN THE HOSPITAL SHE COLLAPED AT HOME DOING LAUNDRY AND NOW THEY SUSPECT SOMETHING UP ONCE WITH HER DISCUSSING PUTTING IN A DEFIBULATER

AND AUNT KRIS WAS DIAGNOSED THIS WEEK WITH BREAST CANCER SHE WILL BE HAVE SURGERY ON FEB 27th TO REMOVE BOTH BREASTS IT DOESNT LOOK TO GREAT FOR HER SO PLZZZZZZZZZZZZ ADD PRAYERS 4 US ONCE AGAIN ARE YOU SICK OF US ASKING 4 PRAYERS ALL THE TIME WOULDNT BLAME YOU IF YOU WERE I HAVE NO WHERE TO TURN TO YOU GUYS ARE ALL I HAVE ITS GETS PRETTY LONELY SOMETIMES :( BUT I KNOW I CAN COUNT ON YOU GUYS LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR CHECKING IN AGAIN TALK SOON NEXT SCANS ARE NOT UNTIL MAY SOMETIME.

LOVE DEBBIE AND MY 3 GUYS

Wednesday, January 23, 2008 3:34 PM CST

My bad again I couldnt get on an a darn computer while I was in Memphis everytime I tried someone was on it and then we went to an friends in Colorado for a week she had no computer,got home and I have been really sick finally got into a doctors yesterday I have pneamonia in both lungs and a bad cold they say it started out as a respritory infection and it seems to be antibiotic resistant to everything but cipro so we shall see ANYWAYS ENOUGH EXCUSES RIGHT HIS MRI RESULTS ARE EXCELLENT HE IS STILL CANCER FREE!!!!!!GO AUSMAN!!!!!!!!SO IN OTHER WORDS WE ARE DOING FANASTIC!! HOWEVER I DO NEED YOUR HELP CAN EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU THAT READ OUR PAGE DO US A HUGE FAVOR AND PRAY FOR AUSTINS BESTFRIEND BRENNEN HE IS IN ICU AT ST JUDES HE IS A PRETTY SICK LITTLE GUY HE HAS SOME KIND OF INFECTION IN HIS STOMACHE HE IS 6 AND BARELY WEIGHS 38 LBS,WE LOVE THIS LITTLE GUY SO MUCH HE HAS TO GET BETTER. I THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART PRAYERS WORKED FOR AUSTIN THEY WILL WORK FOR BRENNEN I TRULY BELIEVE THAT WITH ALL MY HEART I LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME MY SON BACK.

LOVE YOU GUYS,DEBBIE,AUSMAN,ED,AND EDDIE JR.

Wednesday, December 26, 2007 1:52 AM CST

HI Everyone,

YES I KNOW I AM SLACKING OFF AGAIN DOESN'T SURPRISE
ANYONE DOES IT? HECK THIS TIME I DONT EVEN HAVE ANY EXCUSES JUST BEEN LAZY ,BUT SOME YOU DO KNOW THAT ITS THAT TIME AGAIN( YEP TIME TO GO BACK TO ST JUDES FOR MRI) AND OF COURSE AS USUAL I HAVE A MAJOR CASE OF PMS(pre mri syndrome) AND THIS TRIP WE WILL HAVE ALL NEW DOCS AS DR FOULADI AND ALSO HER FELLOW ELIZIBETH HAVE LEFT US THEY ARE UP AT CINCINATTI CHILDRENS HOSPITAL SO I GUESS IS ALL ELSE FAILS AND WE DID MOVE BACK TO OHIO AT LEAST WE KNOW WHERE TO FIND OUR DOCS AT . ANYWAY WE LEAVE HERE ON JAN 2ND AND WILL BE THERE TIL THE 5TH THEN WE WILL BE GOING TO COLORADO FOR A LITTLE R&R(REST AND RELAXATION AT AUNT KIMS HOUSE) ANYWAY ALL IS GOING OK HERE AUSTIN AS USUAL HAS HAD HIS USUAL COMPLAINTS HEADACHES,NAUSEA, AND BACK AND LEG PAIN HE GETS THESE FREQUENTLY SO I AM TRYING CONVINCE MYSELF THAT THESE WILL BE A PART OF MY LITTLE MANS LIFE YEP HE IS BECOMING A LITTLE MAN CANT REALLY CALL HIM MY BABY BOY ANYMORE HE DONT LIKE THAT TO WELL,ANYWAY EITHER I OR SOMEONE ELSE WILL UPDATE YOU AS SOON AS WE HAVE SOME RESULTS FOR YOU GUYS PLEASE DONT GIVE UP ON US WE DO STILL CHECK THE GUESTBOOK AND WE DO STILL KNOW YOU ARE THERE,WE LOVE YOU

PS ANY FEEDING BACK ON THE HOME PAGE PHOTO IDEA IS WELCOME I KIND OF THOUGHT IT WAS A NICE THOUGHT TO LEAVE UP FOR A FEW DAYS.

LOVE DEB,AUSMAN,ED,AND OF COURSE OUR LITTLE BASKETBALL PLAYER EDDIE FIRST GAME IS JAN 12TH

Sunday, November 4, 2007 2:48 AM CST

Hi Everyone,

I JUST HAD TOO CHECK BACK IN AND LET EVERYONE KNOW BOTH THE BOYS ARE DOING FANTASTIC THEY ARE DEFINATELY GROWING UP IT ALMOST SCARES ME THEY ARE ACTUALLY GETTING ALONG ALOT IN THE LAST COUPLE OF MONTHS THEY HARDLY EVER FIGHT ANYMORE I AM SO PROUD OF THEM BOTH THEY COME HOME FROM SCHOOL FEED ALL THERE DOGS THEN SIT DOWN AND DO THEIR HOMEWORK AND EVER OTHER DAY THEY CLEAN THEIR ROOM AND THEN ON SATURDAYS THEY DO THEIR LAUNDRY OH YEAH AND THEY TAKE TURN DOING DISHES,ALL OF THESE CHORES ARE NOW BEING DONE WITHOUT HAVING TO BE TOLD ITS AMAZING I KEEP ASKING MYSELF AM I SURE THESE ARE MY BOYS ALL OF YOU THAT KNOW US PERSONALLY KNOW THAT MY KIDS WERE VERY DIFFICULT FOR A VERY LONG TIME BUT I GUESS THIS IS WHY I HAD THEM CLOSE TOGETHER AND HAD LOTS OF PATIENCE,ANYWAYS THANK YOU ALL FOR STICKING BY US THROUGH THICK AND THIN ,WE LOVE YOU ALL VERY VERY MUCH!!!!

LOVE DEB,ED,EDDIE,AND THE AUSMAN

PS I AM WORKING ON TRYING TO GET OUT THERE TO OHIO FOR A VISIT AND IT MAYBE VERY SOON I HAVE A FRIEND THAT CAN GET US PLANE TICKETS FOR FREE SO WE ARE CHECKING INTO IT I WILL DEFINATELY LET YOU ALL KNOW AS SOON AS I DO. (NOTE I CHANGED PHOTO ON HOME PAGE AND INSIDE PHOTOS ALSO)

Friday, October 19, 2007 3:58 AM CDT

HEY GUYS HAVE MORE GOOD NEWS BOTH OF THE BOYS MADE THE HONOR ROLL THIS SEMESTER, AUSTIN IS IN A PROGRAM CALLED CHALLENGE BELIEVE IT OR NOT ITS LIKE A CLASS FOR GIFTED STUDENTS WE DONT EVEN HAVE AN IEP IN PLACE THIS YEAR,WERE GOING TO GIVE HIM A RUN WITHOUT LET HIM BE A NORMAL 11 YEAR OLD BOY ,IN THIS CLASS HE IS TAKING LATIN AND HE GOT A B IN THAT CLASS HE WAS SO PROUD OF HIMSELF AND HE SHOULD BE THEY BOTH WORKED VERY HARD THIS YEAR>

THANKS FOR CHECKING IN ON MY AUSMAN
IF ANY OF YOU WANT OR HOME PHONE NUMBER EMAIL ME
AND I WILL SEND IT TO YOU YALK AT YOU SOON

Thursday, October 11, 2007 3:37 PM CDT

WOOHOO I'm BACK AND HAVE FANTASTIC NEWS BOTH MRI"S SHOW NO TUMOR NO GROWTH THIS IS SO AWESOME I NEVER THOUGHT WE WOULD EVER REACH ONE YEAR OFF TREATMENT AND HAVE NO GROWTH MAYBE JUST MAYBE WE FINALLY HAVE THIS BEAST CONTAINED.I HAVE NO CLUE WHEN WE GO TO ST JUDES I WAS SO EXCITED I FORGOT TO ASK .ANYWAY NOT MUCH ELSE TO REPORT RIGHT NOW SO I'M GOING TO LEAVE YOU ALL WITH JUST THE GOOD NEWS FOR NOW.

LOVE YOU ALL AND THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS THEY ARE WORKING.

LOVE DEBBIE,AUSMAN,ED,AND EDDIE JR

Tuesday, October 2, 2007 8:35 PM CDT

Hi ALL,

YEP ITS ME WAY OVERDUE FOR AN UPDATE AS USUAL . WE LEAVE FOR ST.JUDES TOMORROW MORNING ITS MRI TIME HE IS SCHEDULED FIRST THING THURSDAY MORNING SO WE ARE HOPING TO HAVE RESULTS BY LATE THAT AFTERNOON. ALL HAS BEEN GOING OK I GUESS AUSTIN HAS BEEN STRUGGLING WITH SOME NAUSEA AGAIN AND HEADACHES AND LEG PAIN WE ARE HOPING ITS NOTHING FROM WHAT I CAN UNDERSTAND IT COULD STILL BE FROM CHEMO AND RADIATION EVEN THOUGH HE HAS BEEN OFF TREATMENT FOR ALMOST 1 YEAR HIS LAST CHEMO WAS OCTOBER 22ND OF 06 . WOW WHAT A MILESTONE THAT IS FOR US .HE IS CONTINUING TO GAIN WAIT BUT NOT GETTING MUCH TALLER WILL JUST HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE.WELL IU HAVEN"T EVEN PACKED YET SO I BETTER GET MY TAIL IN GEAR .I WILL UPDATE AS SOON AS I GET RESULTS BACK. THANK YOU ALL FOR CHECKING IN EVEN THOUGH I AM SLACKING OFF REALLY BAD I AM SO SORRY.

LOVE DEB,AUSMAN,ED,AND EDDIE JR

Saturday, September 8, 2007 2:05 AM CDT

HI GUYS YES LISA I AM FINALLY UPDATING, ALL IS GOING GREAT AUSTIN IS DOING REALLY REALLY GOOD HE HAD A GREAT TIME AT CAMP I WILL UPDATE HIS PHOTOS ALSO IF THE DARN THING WILL LET ME ANYWAY.

SO FAR AUSTIN SEEMS TO BE LIKING SCHOOL WE HAVE IN WHAT THEY CALL THE CHALLENGE PROGRAM IT IS BASICALLY A PROGRAM THAT THEY LEARN BASED ON WHAT HIS TEST SCORES ARE RIGHT NOW HE IS LEARNING LATIN HE THINKS ITS COOL TO COME HOME AND SAY WORDS TO US IN LATIN AND WE HAVE NO CLUE WHAT HE IS SAYING.

HE WANTS TO PLAY SOME KIND OF SPORT THIS YEAR MOST LIKELY IT WILL BE BASEBALL SINCE FOOTBALL HAS ALREADY STARTED BUT WE ARE WAITING UNTIL OCTOBERS SCANS BEFORE WE DECIDE HE GOES BACK TO ST.JUDES FOR SCANS ON OCT 4TH IF THOSE ARE ALL CLEAR WE WILL GO AHEAD AND LET HIM PLAY.WELL THATS ALL THE NEWS I HAVE FOR NOW BUT GUESS ALL GOOD NEWS IS BETTER THAN BAD NEWS OR NO NEWS.

LOVE YA ALL,DEB,ED,EDDIE JR AND OF COURSE THE AUSMAN

Monday, August 6, 2007 2:20 PM CDT

Hi guys its official NO MORE PORT!!! Austin is away at Camp Rainbow its a camp for kids with cancer so mom is going nuts The boys start school this week on the 5th so not alot of time to get stuff together HAHA once again I put it offf til the last minute as usual so this will be a very quick update I think next week when Ausman gets home I will have him update the site and let you all what all he did at camp ,but for now I just wanted to let you all know the great news I need to go for now Thanks for all your prayers.

Love Deb,Ed,Eddie and of course the Ausman

Thursday, July 19, 2007 4:14 AM CDT

Hi guys iys me again Ausman just got more good news he is finally going to get his port out So now he gets to be 100% boy I have no excuses for holding him back from any sports or stuff he wants to do with his brother or his cousins or papa.He also is going to camp August 5-11 I am really nervous I haven't more than one night away from him since he was a baby so this should be interesting for us both.

As far as a date goes for surgery to remove port I will keep you posted we are not sure if Phoenix Childrens is going to remove or are we going to wait until Oct to have Memphis do it so as soon as I know a date I will l;et you guys know.

AS ALWAYS THANKS FOR STOPPING BY AND THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS THEY WORKED I HAVE MY BABY BACK.

Love Deb and The Ausman

Tuesday, June 26, 2007 5:17 PM CDT

HEY GUYS THIS UPDATE WILL BE SWEET AND VERY VERY SIMPLE

NO MORE TUMORS AUSMAN IS ONCE AGAIN 100% CANCER FREE!!!!!

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE GANG

Monday, June 11, 2007 11:35 PM CDT

Hi ALL Surprize I am actually going to update on Ausman I KNOW BEEN FOREVER computer was down for quite a while just got it fixed.IT WILL STILL BE A QUICK ONE AS WE HAVE NOT BEEN TO ST JUDES IN 3 MONTHS LONGEST RUN YET,YES HE STILL OFF CHEMO,WE GO BACK NEXT MONDAY FOR SCANS TO SEE IF HE IS STABLE OR NOT OF COURSE WE ARE PRAYING HE IS,HE HAS GAINED LIKE 15 LBS IN THE LAST 3 MONTHS ACTUALLY GETTING A BELLY ON HIM FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 3 YEARS WITHOUT THE HELP OF STEROIDS. HE HAS BEEN FEELING PRETTY GOOD A FEW HEADACHES BUT I HAVE A GOOD FEELING ABOUT THIS TRIP.I WILL DO MY BEST TO TAKE A COUPLE OF RECENT PICTURES AND GET THEM UP ON THE SITE,WE HAVE A TEENAGER IN THE HOUSE SO COMPUTER IS A LITTLE TIED UP BETWEEN ALL OF US . BUT I WILL REALLY REALLY TRY HARD AND YES I WILL LET YOU ALL KNOW HOW SCANS GO AS SOON AS I GET RESULTS WE ARE SCHEDULED THE DAY AFTER SCANS FOR CLINIC TO GET RESULTS .I KNOW I HAVE BEEN BAD ABOUT UPDATES BUT NOW THAT I HAVE EVERYTHING WORKING AGAIN I WILL TRY TO DO BETTER I DO APOLOGIZE FOR MY LACK OF INFORMATION,I SURE HOPE YOU ALL HAVEN'T GIVEN UP ON US MY LITTLE MAN STILL NEEDS ALL THE PRAYERS WE CAN GET. HIS BATTLE IS FAR FROM OVER AS MOST YOU KNOW THE LAST SCANS SHOWED SOME AREAS OF CONCERN ,SO THIS IS A BIG TRIP FOR US.

THANK YOU ALL FOR CHECKING IN AND FOR ALL OF YOUR SUPPORT.
TIL NEXT TIME PROMISE IT WILL BE SOONER.
LOVE DEBBIE,AUSMAN,ED,AND EDDIE

Wednesday, March 21, 2007 5:25 PM CDT

Hi All,

Finally have good news for you MRI results are STABLE no new growth or change so NO CHEMO FOR NOW his liver counts are still rising so we will continue to monitor those at this point and do an ultra sound of his liver if that continues to rise but no cause for major concern.

The second piece of good news is Kris is finally home recovering from heart surgery and doing well.

So I want to THANK YOU ALL 4 YOUR ADDED PRAYERS AS FOR RIGHT NOW I EXHAUSTED SO THINK I WILL GO FOR NOW I WILL UPDATE SOON JUST GLAD TO BE HOME ITS BEEN A LONG COUPLE OF MONTHS

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Thursday, March 15, 2007 8:34 PM CDT

Hi all still not alot of test results back the only thing we have back so far is blood work and that shows that his liver levels are still elevated and have gone up more so next step will be an ultra sound of Austins abdomen to take a look at his liver and see what is going on we are not sure when that will take place yet depends on scheduling as far as mri results we will get those tomorrow morning sometime before we fly back to arizona.

As far as Kris goes she is still in ICU but is off the ventilator now so thats a good thing as for when she will get out of the hospital who knows

Well guys sorry not to talkitive have alot racing through my mind right now still waiting and wondering what is going on with my other friend ( She knows who she is LOL) and waiting for Austins test results also I will update you all later tomorrow or on Sat BUT I STILL NEED ALL THE PRAYERS WE CAN GET THANKS FOR CHECKING IN.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Saturday, March 10, 2007 9:00 AM CST

Hi Everyone,

I AM ONCE AGAIN SO SORRY FOR THE DELAY IN UPDATES BUT IT HAS BEEN TOTALLY CRAZY FOR ME AND MY COMPUTER IS DOWN ALSO ANYWAY AUSMAN IS DOING GREAT THERE HAS BEEN SOME ISSUES WITH DIZZINESS AND ALOT OF BACK PAIN WE GO BACK TO ST.JUDES ON TUESDAY SCANS WILL BE THIS THURSDAY.

AS FAR AS AUNT KRIS ( NOT MY SISTER KRISTY) BUT MY GIRLFRIEND KRIS HAD EMERGENCY OPEN HEART SURGERY YESTERDAY SHE HAS BEEN SICK FOR QUITE SOMETIME BUT WE COULDN"T FIGURE OUT WHAT WAS GOING ON SHE WAS ONLY OUT OF THE HOSPITAL LIKE DAYS TOTAL OUT OF THE MONTH THEY FINALLY FIGURE IT OUT HER MITRAL VALVE QUIT WORKING IN HER HEART SO SHE IS NOW THE PROUD OWNER OF A BRAND NEW ST.JUDE HEART VALVE SO THINGS SHOULD START LOOKING UP As I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO TAKE CARE OF THEM BOTH.

AS FAR AS MY OTHER FRIEND GOES WE STILL ARE NOT SURE ABOUT WHAT IS GOING ON OUR GOING TO HAPPEN YET.

HOWEVER I STILL NEED YOU ALL TO KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING KRIS IS STILL NOT OUT OF THE WOODS YET SHE IS IN ICU STILL
MOST LIKELY FOR A COUPLE MORE DAYS.

ANYWAY I NEED TO GET BACK UP TO ICU BEFORE SHE REALIZES I AM GONE I WILL TRY TO UPDATE AS SOON AS POSSIBLE ON AUSMAN RESULTS FROM HIS MRI'S BUT I MUST GO FOR NOW

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Wednesday, February 21, 2007 7:06 PM CST

Hi all,

I am so sorry for not updating way sooner it has been really hectic lately.We took Austin back to the doctor and they are know calling it a skull fracture the bleed is in fact stopped so for know he is out of the woods We go back to St Judes for scans on Mar 13th - 16th hopefully all is well then.

I need a couple of extra favors Kris is in the hospital AGAIN this time they have no idea what is wrong it seems her entire body is messing up every darn test seems to come up with something wrong first her pancreas,then her liver,and all her blood tests are wacky needed magnesium and today she need phosphorus and who knows whats is next PLZZ PRAY ITS NOT SERIOUS AND THEY CAN FIGURE THIS ALL OUT.

The Next Favor is my best friend in the whole world went to the hospital last week and they found 2 spots on her lung and one on her sternum she went to the doc today and they see a spot on her liver and one on her breast I can't mention her name without permission but I am asking you to please pray it is nothing I LOVE HER WITH ALL MY HEART SHE NEEDS TO BE JUST FINE .

Love Debbie

Saturday, February 3, 2007 7:06 PM CST

Hi Everyone,

Surprize its not 2 months later on an update,well this week has been a week of HELL for us.

Thursday Austin fell at schooland hit the back of his head
scared the hell out of me ,the school called and asked me to talk to him and when I did his voice didn't sound right at all his speech was really slow by the time I got to him he seemed really distant and when he would walk his right foot was dragging. ANYWAY I took him to the emergency room they did a CT scan and he had a mass of blood on his brain the doctors feel it was from the fall which I don't think it was he told me he had a headache only in the spot where the bleed was found the day before,so to me I believe the fall happened so that I would take him to the hopspital and the bleed would be found,Austin is on this kick again he will not say anything if he is in pain and that scares the HELL out of me cause its important he does.

TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT ON THURSDAY i TOOK HIM TO THE ER IN PRESCOTT VALLEY AND THEY DID A CT SCAN AND FOUND THE BLOOD ON HIS BRAIN SO THEY LIFE FLOIGHTED HIM TO PHOENIX CHILDRENS TALK ABOUT FREAKED OUT I WAS A MESS I WENT TO THE HOSPITAL WITH HIM ALONE AS USUAL AND OF COURSE THIS TIME WAS THE HARDEST CAUSE THEY WOULDN'T LET ME FLY WITH HIM SO I HAD TO SOMEHOW DRIVE IF IT WEREN'T FOR KRIS AND CRAIG I AM NOT SURE I WOULD HAVE MADE IT HOME AND TO PHOENIX CAUSE I WAS SO MESSED UP I COULDN'T EVEN FIND MY WAY OUT OF THE PARKING LOT I HAVE BEEN TO A THOUSAND TIMES
SO THERE WAS NO WAY I WAS DRIVING TO PHX ALONE SO I STOPPED AND PICKED THEM UP REAL QUICK OF COURSE AUSTIN GOT PHX BEFORE ME BUT MAMA AND PAPA WERE THERE AT THE EXACT SAME TIME AS THE HELICOPTER THANK YOU MOM AND DAD I WAS SO SCARDED HE WOULD ARRIVE THERE AND BE ALONE THAT MEANT THE WORLD TO ME.SO ALL IN WHAT HAS HAPPENED HERE IS MY 10 YEAR OLD BABY HAS EXPERIENCED HIS FIRST STROKE MY GOD THIS ISNT FAIR TO HIM HOW MUCH MORE MUST HE TAKE AND ENDURE THIS IS SO UNFAIR TO HIM I DONT CARE WHAT IT DOES TO ME ITS HIM THAT IS SUFFERING I HATE THIS WITH A PASSION I FEEL SO HELPLESS.

LOVE DEBBIE

PS. PLEASE NEVER EVER GIVE UP ON HIM AND NEVER EVER STOP PRAYING FOR MY BABY IF THERE IS A MOMENT DURING THE DAY WHEN ITS QUIET AND YOU FEEL LIKE THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO PLEASE JUST SAY AN EXTRA PRAYER FOR MY BABY AND ALL THE OTHER KIDS SUFFERING FROM THIS DAMN MONSTER ITS NOT FAIR TO ANY OF THEM AT ALL.

Thursday, January 25, 2007 11:37 PM CST

Just wanted to add another quick update I have spoke to Dr Fouladi and she isn't real concerned about the area on the brain she believes it is scar tissue but not 100% sure of course as for the spine she can't be sure of anything at all what she said was itb is not a matter of if it starts growing again but when so we know to expect a total reoccurance in the future at least in his spine so the game plan for now is to do NOTHING as far as chemo goes give his body a break considering we have been told there is probable liver damage from all the different chemo so what we want to do is give his body and liver a chance to bounce back and let him be a kid for a while,our goal for now is quality of life was her words.So now what will happen is we will drive down to Phoenix Childrens once a month to have his medi- port flushed and go to St Judes every 2 months for MRI'S of BRAIN AND SPINE.PLEASE I AM BEGGING YOU PRAY AS OFTEN AS YOU THINK OF MY BABY I AM SCARED TO DEATH WE HAVE COME TOO FAR TOO GO BACK.

LOVE DEBBIE,AUSMAN,ED,AND EDDIE JR

I ALSO NEED YOU PRAY FOR ANOTHER FRIEND OF AUSTINS WE LOST TO THIS MONSTER RECENTLY HIS FAMILY NEEDS EXTRA PRAYERS AND SUPPORT RIGHT NOW HIS NAME IS IAN SOME OF YOU MAYT REMEMBER THAT IS AUSTIN"S BESTFRIEND HE IS SO HEARTBROKEN RIGHT NOW CAN YOU ALOS PRAY FOR STRENGTH FOR AUSTIN IS SO SCARED RIGHT NOW,WE HAVE LOST MANY KIDS WE KNOW BUT IAN WAS THE CLOSEST PERSON AUSTIN HAS EVER LOST.

Sunday, January 21, 2007 11:29 PM CST

Hi Guys,

Once again I am very sorry about the delay I haven't a real difficult time with this update but I OWE you all at least a short one I am kind of at a loss right now both his brain and spine MRI show suspicious areas ONCE AGAIN so as of right now we are trying to decide what our next step is most likely we will do another approx 2 years of chemo (ORAL) I am STILL waiting to hear back from St Judes as to what if anything we will be doing our other option is to wait until the next scans in April and see what these areas are doing NOT SURE I LIKE THAT IDEA as soon as I have a definate plan of action I will let you all know as for now PLEASE PRAY THAT THESE AREAS ARE JUST SCAR TISSUE.

LOVE YA ALL,DEBBIE,AUSTIN,and EDDIE

Saturday, January 6, 2007 1:48 AM CST

Hi Everyone,

I know you are probably thinking I forgot about you all but I promise I didn't been a rough couple of weeks for me here I fell the day after Christmas and broke my tailbone so have been pretty much in bed since I am feeling somewhat better still in alot of pain but have to get up and get moving we go back to St.Judes for MRI'S this week scans will be on thursday should have results by friday I am so nervous as usual. Austin seems to be doing well gets tired still pretty easy and he has had a bit of a cold for like 3 weeks now but other than that all is well so we will just have to keep praying for clear scans again.

As for Christmas it was wonderful boys got lots of cool gifts and we had a wonderful day with just the family it was really a nice day we played rode bikes sat around and laughed and just enjoyed each other.

Well its getting pretty late I should get back to bed ,kids willl be up early so I need my beauty sleep,THANKS FOR CHECKING IN ON MY HERO AND PLEASE KEEP THOSE PRAYERS COMING!!!!!!!!!

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Monday, December 25, 2006 11:44 AM CST

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL OF YOU,Everything is going very well here Austin had his last IV chemo this past Wed and is tolerating it really well he was only sensitive to cold for the first 24 hours this time which was nice instead of the entire week,he isn't eating as well as I would like but that too will pass.As for the next step in the AUSMANS RECOVERY we are not sure what we are doing yet Dr Fouladi has recommended we run a 2 year maintenance oral chemo as a precaution and we haven't decided if we will do it or take a huge risk and let him be a normal kid again but after 4 reoccurances total we have to really way or decision heavily I am so scared to make the wrong one this is my babies life we are holding in our hands here,Our past experience with the oral drugs has left a very nasty taste in my mouth he has had so much trouble with all of them I am scared to take a chance to do that to him again,However as many times as this monster has attacked him again and again is it worth the risk not to do it, Man this is probably the hardest decision in this mess I have had make.
All the other decisions I have made in this journey were difficult too but we had no choice to make them but here we have an option to do it or not.

I guess what I am trying to say is this may not be over yet as soon as I have made a definate decision I will let you all know.

Sorry to vent on Christmas Day but I haven't really been keeping anyone posted much lately so I was long overdue,but I am going to close this journal for now.

SO MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love Debbie and the Ausman

PS.PLEASE KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING WE STILL NEED THEM ITS STILL A LONG JOURNEY AHEAD OF US.

Monday, December 18, 2006 7:08 PM CST

I know I know I am aweful at the updates but no news is good news right?

All is going well for us here in Arizona we are almost ready for Christmas, Austin and I fly out tomorrow morning for what we hope to be his VERY LAST CHEMO he has a bit of a respirtory infection going on right now so hopefully he will get his chemo and we will be home for christmas in time anyway thats all thats going on right now just getting ready for christmas and spending time as a family.

Love Debbie and The Ausman

Tuesday, November 28, 2006 9:47 PM CST

WELL HELLO EVERYONE,

I NORMALLY WOULD APOLIGIZE FOR THE LONG DELAY IN UPDATES BUT THIS TIME I WON'T BUT I WILL EXPLAIN.THE LAST JOURNAL WAS SUCH AWESOME NEWS I WANTED TO MAKE SURE NOBODY MISSED IT AND I LOVE READING IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN,NOTHING HAS CHANGED AUSTIN IS STILL DOING AMAZING HE IS IN MEMPHIS GETTING HIS CHEMO( WE HAVE ONE MORE THEN WE HAVE SCANS AND WILL DECIDE WHETHER THIS IS IT OR NOT) IF SCANS COME BACK STILL CLEAR HIS LAST CHEMO WILL OFFICIALLY BE JAN 12 2007.
THATS ALL THATS GOING ON WITH TREATMENT ANYWAYS.

NOW FOR THE COOL STUFF AUSTIN WILL BE IN A PARADE THIS SAT MORNING IN COTTONWOOD ONE OF OUR GOOD FRIENDS AT THE FLORAL SHOP HAS ASKED HIM TO RIDE ON THE LEAD FLOAT WITH HER AS ITS THEME IS THE 60's AND THEY HAVE ADDED ST.JUDES TO THEIR FLOAT IN HONOR OF AUSTIN AND ALL THE OTHER LITTLE HEROES( ST.JUDES OPENED THERE DOORS IN 1962)

THAT SAME FRIEND I WAS JUST MENTIONING NEEDS EXTRA PRAYERS ALSO I RECIEVED A PHONE ON THANKSGIVING DAY AND SHE WAS JUSTR DIAGNOSED WITH BREAST CANCER I HAVE NOT TALKED TO HER YET SO I CAN'T PUT HER NAME ON HERE WITH RESPECT TO HER SORRY GUYS BUT YOU CAN PARY THAT ALL OF AUSTINS FRIENDS FIGHTING THIS DISEASE MAKE A FULL RECOVERY AND TOLERATE TREATMENT WELL.

I MUST GO FOR NOW ITS GETTING LATE AND WE HAVE TO GO PICK AUSTIN AND KRIS UP AT THE AIRPORT IN THE MORNING,I WILL DROP IN SOON THANKS FOR STOPPING BY AND THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART FOR ALL YOUR CONTINUED PRAYERS AND SUPPORT FOR MY SUPER HERO.

LOVE DEBBIE

Monday, October 30, 2006 4:08 PM CST

Hi Everyone,

I JUST GOT OFF THE PHONE WITH ELIZABETH OUR REGULAR PRACTITIONER AND THE OFFICIAL REPORT IS AUSTIN IS IN FACT CANCER FREE ( WON"T BE CONSIDERED REMISSION UNTIL HE HAS BEEN CANCER FREE FOR 5 YEARS ) BUT THATS OK CANCER FREE SOUNDS GREAT TO ME KIND OF HAS A RING TO HUH WE WILL BE SAYING THAT FOR THE NEXT 5 YEARS AUSTIN IS TRULY A LIVING MIRACLE AND HAS FOUGHT AN AMAZING BATTLE FOR THE 26 MONTHS HE WAS LONG OVERDUE FOR A BREAK SO PLEASE KEEP PRAYING FOR HIM AND THAT HE TOLERATES THE LAST FEW COURSES OF CHEMO AND THAT THE NEXT SET OF SCANS SHOW HE STAYS CANCER FREE. WE GO BACK THIS SUNDAY FOR HIS NEXT CHEMO AND HE ALSO HAS A DENTIST APPOINTMENT THIS TRIP.ANYWAY THANK YOU ALL FOR CHECKING IN ON MY HERO.

LOVE DEBBIE,THE AUSMAN, EDDIE JR,and ED

Friday October 27, 2006

HI GUYS ITS OFFICIAL WE HAVE REMISSION ON THE PRELIMINARY REPORT STILL WAITING FOR OFFICIAL ON THIS ONE OUR REGULAR DOC AND NURSE WERE OUT TODAY BUT AS OF NOW WE HAVE REMISSION WOOHOO FINALLY BEEN A LONG HAUL BUT WE ARE THERE WILL UPDATE MORE LATER GOTTA GET SOME SLEEP WE FLY HOME IN THE MORNING!!!!!

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Monday, October 23, 2006 10:03 AM CDT

Well all this is the big week we leave here on Wed morning scans are Friday I should have the results late that afternoon as we are scheduled to fly back home on Sat morning there will be no chemo on this trip as its too soon he can only get it every 21 days so the plan is we will go back the following week we have made the decision regardless of the MRI results we will be running more chemo its kind of hard to explain but even if the tumor is COMPLETELY GONE WHICH OF COURSE WE ARE HOPING THATS THE CASE we will at least run a few more cycles to insure that we got everything and if its not gone we keep going of course until it is gone SO PLEASE FOR THE NEXT FEW DAYS PLEASE PUT IN EXTRA PRAYERS AS WE ARE HOPING TO HEAR THE BIG R WORD (REMISSION) this trip.

The boys are both doing great in school Austin if doing A and B work and Eddie is doing pretty much the same .And Austin has decided to join the Science Club and Eddie is joining the Chess club anyway I will keep everyone posted but for now I need to get going and start packing.

Love Debbie and The AUSMAN

Saturday, October 14, 2006 6:44 PM CDT

Hi guys as usual late on the updates but as I always say no news is good news Austin is doing great,him and Kris got back safe and sound from St Judes his counts were high enough to get his chemo he is still tolerating it well he looks tired but he says he is feeling pretty his appetite has been better the last couple of cycles he has gotten he still goes through phases where stuff doesn't taste good at all but we have managed to keep enough food in him that he hasn't been losing anymore weight.

Our next trip is Oct 25th this one is a scan trip so I will be going we are scheduled to come back on Oct 28th they don't have any chemo scheduled at this point BECAUSE WE ARE PENDING MRI RESULTS THE SPOT HE HAS LEFT ON HIS SPINE IS SO SMALL THAT WE ARE HOPING THAT THE LAST 3 CYCLES of CHEMO HE HAD HAS GOTTEN THE REST OF IT SO WE ARE PRAYING EXTRA EXTRA HARD TO HEAR THE WORDS YOU ARE IN REMISSION,WE HAVE ONLY HEARD THOSE WORDS 1 TIME HOWEVER THOSE OF YOU WHO KNOW OUR STORY PERSONALLY KNOW THAT HE WAS NEVER IN REMISSION HE HAD TUMORS ON HIS SPINE THAT WENT UNDETECTED FOR 2 MONTHS BECAUSE THE SPINAL MRI'S WERE NOT READ BUT THIS TIME WE ARE CONFIDENT THAT THINGS ARE BEING READ,ANYWAY IF IN FACT THE REMAINING TUMOR IS GONE WE WILL RETURN HOME AS SCHEDULED ON THE 28TH HOWEVER IF THE TUMOR IS STILL THERE WE WILL HAVE TO STAY AT ST.JUDES UNTIL NOV 3RD BECAUSE HE CANT GET HIS CHEMO ANY EARLIER THAN 21 DAYS SO THAT WON"T BE A VERY FUN TRIP TRYING TO ENTERTAIN HIM FOR 6 EXTRA DAYS AND NO MONEY TO DO THINGS SHOULD BE REAL FUN TO FIGURE OUT SO EVERYONE NEEDS TO PRAY EXTRA EXTRA HARD WITH US THAT THIS DARN TUMOR IS GONE.

ANYWAY I AM GOING TO GET GOING FOR NOW THANK YOU ALL FOR STOPPING BY HUNTINGTON YOU GUYS ARE WELCOME FOR THE BOOKS ITS THE LEAST WE CAN DO AFTER ALL YOU GUYS HAVE DONE FOR US ON THIS JOURNEY WE MISS YOU ALL IN OHIO STAY WARM WERE THINKING OF YOU GUYS.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Wednesday, October 4, 2006 11:40 PM CDT

Hi all as promised I am back for a quick update I just want to thank you all for your kind words and prayers they are helping more than you all could ever realize AUSMAN"S COUNTS ARE BACK UP AT LEAST HIS INFECTION FIGHTING ABILITIES
SOME OF HIS COUNTS( BLOOD CLOTTING ARE A LITTLE LOW BUT WERE NOT WORRIED ABOUT THOSE TOO MUCH WE JUST HAVE TO BE A LITTLE CAREFUL)

ALL OF YOU AT HUNTINGTON THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR STILL CHECKING IN OUR LITTLE HERO WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH THE SCHOOL HERE CAN"T EVEN COME CLOSE TO YOU GUYS,WHEN AUSTIN WAS IN YOUR HANDS I NEVER EVER HAD TO WORRY ABOUT HIM I KNEW YOU ALL COULD HANDLE ANYTHING THAT CAME UP WITH HIM.(THATS NOT THE CASE HERE I WORRY ABOUT HIM DAILY THEY JUST DON"T SEEM TO BE CATCHING ON) THANK GOODNESS HE IS DOING SO WELL HEALTH WISE.

WELL ALL I REALLY NEED TO GET TO BED WE HAVE A FIELD TRIP TOMORROW GOING TO BE A VERY LONG DAY THE BUS LEAVES AT 8 AM and WE WON"T RETURN TO THE SCHOOL UNTIL 4:30 PM WERE GOING TO RED ROCK STATE PARK AND YES YOU GUESSED IT I OFFERED TO CHAPERONE A BUNCH OF 10 YEAR OLDS SHOULD BE ENTERTAINING BUT I AM SURE WE WILL HAVE FUN.

AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Wednesday, October 4, 2006 0:53 AM CDT

Hi all just a quick update so far Austin is doing great this cycle his counts started out a little low but seem to be holding steady we shall see how they are tomorrow I will update and let you all know,As for scans the SCHEDULE has changed on us ONCE AGAIN they are now OCT 27th but heres the cool part no chemo is scheduled DON'T TAKE THAT WRONG HE MAY STILL GET CHEMO HOWEVER IT WILL ALL DEPEND ON THE OUTCOME OF THIS MRI IF THE TUMOR IN HIS SPINE IS COMPLETELY GONE HE MAY NOT GET CHEMO HOWEVER IF ITS STILL THERE WE WILL HAVE TO STAY UNTIL AT LEAST NOV 2nd THAT IS THE EARLIEST HE CAN RECIEVE CHEMO.

SO WHAT I AM ASKING YOU ALL TO DO IS PRAY THAT THE REMAINING TUMOR IS GONE!!! TRUST ME IF THATS THE CASE AND WE FINALLY ACHIEVE REMISSION THERE WILL BE ONE HECK OF A PARTY BECAUSE MY LITTLE MAN DESERVES IT HE HAS FOUGHT A HECK OF A FIGHT I AM NOT SURE I COULD HAVE HAD HALF THE STRENGTH THESE KIDS HAVE HAD.

SO FOR NOW I AM GOING TO SIGN WITH THIS INFORMATION I'll UPDATE TOMORROW AS SOON AS I KNOW HOW HIS COUNTS ARE DOING.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Sunday, September 24, 2006 11:20 AM CDT

Hi Everyone,

The Ausman is doing good with cycle of chemo so far.He only got sick one time,he is VERY sensitive to cold we are having to keep the house so warm all of us are sweating but he is still wearing a sweatshirt(He seems more sensitive this time)

We have a change in scheduling I told everyone he would have his next MRI(scans) in OCT however they switched it on us they will not be until Nov now so we ALL have to wait a while longer to see if the spine tumor is doing anything PRAY THAT IT IS GONE COMPLETELY. 26 months later we all deserve to hera the words remission ESPECIALLY Austin he deserves it more than anyone.He Has FOUGHT A HARD BATTLE!!!

Anyway I need to go for now I will do my best to keep you all posted we kind of have a busy week as Ed ( The boys Dad) is flying in this week they haven't seen him since the move here we are going to try to work thhings out so the boys are pretty excited to see their dad.

Love Debbie,THE AUSMAN,And Eddie Jr.

PS.PLEASE IF YOU CAN SIGN THE GUESTBOOK CARINGBRIDGE ARCHIVED ALL THE OTHER ENTRIES WE HAVE SO NOW HIS GUESTBOOK IS EMPTY SO IT LOOKS LIKE WE ARE ALONE(TRUST ME WE KNOW WE ARE NOT BUT THATS WHAT THE GUESTBOOK LOOKS LIKE LOL>

Wednesday, September 20, 2006 4:55 PM CDT

Another Update Austin counts were good enough to get chemo starting out a little low this cycle so we have to keep a close watch on him but he tolerated chemo pretty well feels pretty yucky now but doing good Aunt Kris has it under control thank you so much Kris for keeping me posted throughout the day. IF YOU ALL READ HIS GUESTBOOK THERE IS A LITTLE MESSAGE THERE FROM THE AUSMAN HIMSELF.

Quick Update for Sept 21st just heard from Kris and Austin they are doing great Austin got up this morning being his normal sweet self went downstairs to get himself some Orange Juice and Made Aunt Kris a cup of coffee I have to honestly say he is an amazing child and I honestly believe he will grow up to me a wonderful man.

Hi Everyone once again a long delay in updates but as the old saying goes NO NEWS IS GOOD NEWS all is going well here Austin is in Memphis with Aunt Kris this month getting his chemo this is the first time in over 2 years I have not been with him for any doctors appointments let alone him getting chemo I am not handling it as well as I would have thought I really need to spend some quality time with Eddie he has kind of been left behind alot now that things are slowing down and Austin is tolerating this chemo so well I have gotten to reconnect with Eddie but it still doesn't change the fact that I was leaving Every 3 weeks and had one on one time with Austin while everyone else was raising Eddie so the plan is every other month I will go to memphis so that I can be there for MRI's.

Please Kris if you read this journal please know it isn't that I don't trust you because thats not it at all and I hope you know that if I didn't trust you believe me you would not be there with him,you know this routine very well and I trust in any decision that has to be made and I do know you will call me first anyway just take good care of my baby that is all I ask ,YES I AM STRUGGLING BUT NOT BECAUSE OF YOU AT ALL.this is just new to me having him so far away from me I can't get the thought out of my head what if he needs me how will I get to him I have no money saved to fly out there if I needed too and that scares the hell out of me.

Anyway thanks for checking in on us we appreciate all your support,I will update as soon I know anything I PROMISE .

BUT FOR NOW AS ALWAYS PLEASE KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!!

LOVE DEBBIE,EDDIE,AND OF COURSE THE AUSMAN

Monday, September 11, 2006 9:39 AM CDT

Don't FORGET SEPTEMBER IS PEDIATRIC CANCER AWARENESS MONTH SO PLEASE REMEMBER TO TAKE A MOMENT TO PRAY FOR ALL THOSE SUFFERING FROM THE DREADFUL DISEASE AND ALSO IF YOU HAVE A CHILI'S NEAR YOU OR IN DRIVING DISTANCE PLEASE MARK YOUR CALENDERS FOR SEPT 25TH ALL PROCEEDS WILL GO 100O PEDIATRIC CANCER RESEARCH.

ALSO NOTE NEW PHOTOS INSIDE MORE TO COME WILL BE TAKING SOME THIS WEEKEND OF US IN ARIZONA!!

Hi Everyone,

All is going well here in Arizona we all really love our new home its really beautiful here where we live in Spring Valley its not near as hot as it gets down in Phoenix so its toleratable for the all of us. The view out our porches is awesome you look out the back door and our view is of some mountains ( Yes there are mountains in Arizona)and if you look out or front door you have the traditional Desert view so we have the best of both worlds.

Austin is doing very well his counts have stayed up except his platelets(which is his blood clotting abilities) are pretty low he has a really nasty looking couple of bruises on his leg will see thursday what they are now I am expecting them to drop even more as its typical in the second week post chemo so I will let you know.

All of you guys at Huntington we really miss you guys its a little bit of a struggle for us trying to adjust to a new school and staff NOBODY WILL EVER COMPARE TO YOU GUYS !!! The boys are doing well,adjusting though . Now Mom is a different story.

Lisa,Jim,Brit,Ryan and Justin WE MISS YOU GUYS VERY VERY MUCH AND WE LOVE YOU GUYS THANK YOU FOR ALL YOU GUYS DO FOR US.

Love Debbie,AUSMAN,and Eddie Jr.

Friday, September 1, 2006 1:09 AM CDT

Hi Everyone,

OK ARE YOU ALL READY FOR THIS UPDATE WE HAVE EXCELLENT NEWS FINALLY,THE BRAIN TUMOR IS GONE INCLUDING THE NEW AREA WE HAD BEEN WATCHING (YES I SAID GONE) NO EVIDENCE OF DISEASE,THE AREA WE ARE WATCHING ON HIS SPINE IS ALMOST GONE IT SHRUNK DOWN TO ALMOST THE SIZE OF A PINPOINT SO IF THINGS GO RIGHT AND THIS CHEMO KEEPS DOING WHAT IT SHOULD WE HAVE TOTAL REMISSION VERY SOON HOPEFULLY NEXT SET OF SCANS,ANYWAY WE OBVIOUSLY HAVE HAD A VERY EMOTIONAL DAY I WILL UPDATE VERY SOON BUT I NEED TO GET SOME SLEEP OUR SHUTTLE TO THE AIRPORT IS GETTING HERE AT 7 AM,SO I AM GOING TO SIGN OUT FOR NOW

BUT AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING !!! PRAY THAT THE REMAINING TUMOR IS GONE NEXT SCANS AND PRAY THAT THE AUSMAN HAS MINIMAL SIDE EFFECTS FROM THE CHEMO THIS STUFF MAKES HIM PRETTY SICK THE FIRST 7 DAYS.

LOVE DEBBIE,THE AUSMAN,AND EDDIE

Thursday, August 31, 2006 1:08 AM CDT

Hi Everyone,

Just dropping in to let everyone know we made it to Memphis Austin had his MRI'S Today Brain and spine at the same time so they sedated him he did awesome I was a little worried about that because alot of the time he comes out of it pretty cranky but this time he did great,I still don't know the results yet we meet with the doctor tomorrow morning before he gets his chemo so as soon as I get a spare minute I will update you on how things look.

As I had always said there is never a dull moment in my life the day I left( Tuesday) Eddie was stung by a wasp and we now know he is allergic he had his first ride in an ambulance and as always mom couldn't be there for him EDDIE I AM SO SORRY I WASN'T THERE FOR YOU BABY I LOVE YOU AND WILL BE HOME SOON.He is doing fine though Kris was on top of things as she usually is when it comes to medical stuff THANK YOU KRIS FOR TAKING SUCH GOOD CARE OF MY SON I LOVE YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO WITHOUT YOU.

Well all its getting really late Thank You for stopping in I WILL UPDATE VERY SOON I PROMISE AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!

LOVE DEBBIE,THE AUSMAN, AND EDDIE

Sunday, August 27, 2006 4:04 AM CDT

Hi Everyone,

I just wanted drop in and let you all know Ausman and the rest of us are feeling much better it turned out to be a viral infection we all ended up getting fortunately Austin Counts have remained up this round of chemo in fact they never dropped below 2100 which is awesome below 1000 he is at risk for any infection so maybe we are on to something here with this chemo we shall soon find out if its doing anthing to the tumor or tumors still unsure at this point as we are leaving for St.Judes on Tuesday scans are Wed and chemo on thursday come HOME on Friday.

We are in the process of moving into a much bigger place and we are a block away from my parents which is awesome THANK YOU MOM AND DAD YOUR THE BEST WE LOVE OUR NEW PLACE ALREADY WE WONT LET YOU DOWN.

Well as you can see its really late I need to get some sleep still have stuff to move AGAIN I added the new address at the bottom of the page.

AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING I WILL UPDATE AS SOON AS I CAN!!!

LOVE DEBBIE,THE AUSMAN,AND EDDIE

Tuesday, August 22, 2006 2:35 AM CDT

Please NOTE NEW MAILING ADDRESS AT BOTTOM OF PAGE

Hi Everyone,

Just another very quick update Ausman is feeling a little better no more throwing up an his fever is dowm to 100.7 so we so far aren't takimg him to the ER as me and Kris got it also so made for an interesting day with all of us sick except Eddie he is stayin healthy so far,I will be enrolling the boys in school tomorrow so they should strat on Wed well at least Eddie will start not sure when Austin will with him being sick and the fact that we go back next tuesday to St.Judes so I may wait until we return to start him will see I'll keep you all posted the best I can.Thanks for stopping by.

AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING WE APPRECIATE ALL WE CAN GET.

Love DEBBIE,The AUSMAN,and Eddie

PS.FOR THOSE OF YOU I HAVEN"T CALLED YET SORRY RUNNING VERY LOW ON MONEY AND MINUTES ON MY CELL I WILL GET A PHONE CARD AS SOON AS I GET SOME MONEY TOGETHER THE MOVE COST US 1800 so it may be a few to regroup so bear with me.

Monday, August 21, 2006 2:12 AM CDT

Hi Everyone,

Just stopping by for really quick update Austin's counts were REALLY GOOD on Thursday thank goodness because today
he is running a fever of 102 hopefully bits nothing but he does have a few red spots so I will obviously be watching him very close cause he has never had the chicken pox and a few of the spots look like ir could be I will most likely take him in to the doctor tomorrow to be safe I will try to keep you posted I still haven't hooked up my computer so may be a day or two delay but I will do my best as soon as I can unless of course he gets admitted then it will take longer.Anyway figured everyone would want to know what is going on its getting late so I am getting ready to go to bed now.

BUT AS ALWAYS PLEASE KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!

Love Debbie,THE AUSMAN,and Eddie

Wednesday, August 16, 2006 7:27 PM CDT

Hi everyone,

Sorry for the delay in updates still haven't set up my computer We made it to Arizona now the real fun begins getting all the doctors lined up and the boys enrolled in school after the trip we had I can't wait to get them in school I am in desperate need of some alone time.

Our trip actually went very well first stop was St.Judes for chemo Austin did pretty well nausea was pretty bad for a couple days made for a rough couple days traveling but he doing great now finally starting to eat and the sensitivity to cold is finally passing.

Anyway as soon as I have more to update I will let you guys know as of right now we go back to St.Judes for scans and chemo on August 29th-Sept 1st they will be sedating him for this one and doing Brain and Spine together so we can get a more detailed look at the 2 spots we are watching.Tomorrow is the 2 year anniversary of his diagnosis a day we prefer to forget but Austin wants to have a steak dinner to celebrate so thats our plan .Well thats it for now.
AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!THANKS FOR STOPPING BY!!

LOVE DEBBIE,THE AUSMAN,AND EDDIE

Thursday, August 10, 2006 5:46 PM CDT

Hi Everyone just a really quick update we made it it to St.Judes everything has went really well,Austin recieved round 2 on the oxaliplatin ON SCHEDULE which is awesome it is really making him feel pretty yucky his is real nauseous and while he was getting his chemo he started having some difficulty breathing it scared me at first but then Ron or nurse today came in and gave him another WARM blanket and Kris turned the heat up a little in the room YES HEAT IN THE SUMMER CRAZY HUH but anyway after that he was fine as far as breathing goes ,it will take a few days for the nausea and dizziness to go away should be a real challenge to finish the rest of our journey out to Az with Austin feeling so miserable but I DO KNOW FOR SURE KNOW that I am making the right decision for Austin right now he is priority ,I would move to anywhere in the world if I thought he could handle chemo better I will miss everyone more than you will ever know.

SO AS ALWAYS PLEASE PRAY FOR AUSTIN AND PRAY THAT WE HAVE FOUND THE RIGHT CHEMO FOR HIM AND ALSO PRAY FOR A SAFE TRIP BACK TO AZ.

LOVE DEBBIE,THE AUSMAN,AND EDDIE JR

Monday, August 7, 2006 10:49 PM CDT

Hi Everyone I know you guys are all sick of me apoligizing for the lack in updates but as usual my life is crazy,between the trip to St.Judes,labwork 2 times a week packing and Kris ended up back in the hospital again this time for 9 days.

But anyway so far so good AUSTIN did awesome with this chemo this time we had trouble with nausea and not eating for the first week but his counts stayed within a safe range so hopefully we are onto something here will see how the next round goes THIS THURSDAY,We are leaving for our adventure as I put traveling cross country with 2 kids who don't get along 1 on chemo should be a major challenge but I am up for it.I have really mixed emotions right now about this move I really am excited to be going home to Az and being closer to my family,however Brunswick and everyone here has been my safety net you all have kept us sane for the last 2 years (AUNT LISA ,UNCLE JIM,BRIT,RYAN AND JUSTIN THANK YOU GUYS FOR TAKING CARE OF US AND STICKING BY US THROUGH THICK AND THIN) HUNTINGTON SCHOOL AND STAFF YOU GUYS ARE AMAZING WE WOULD HAVE BEEN HOMELESS AND LOST WITHOUT YOU GUYS AND ALL YOU HAVE DONE ALSO WE ARE GOING TO MISS YOU GUYS WE WILL BACK IN APRIL AND WILL MAKE SURE TO STOP IN FOR A VISIT.FEEL FREE TO EMAIL ME ANYTIME I WILL BE KEEPING THE WEBSITE AND MY EMAIL THE SAME. I LOVE ALL OF YOU GUYS AND SO DO THE BOYS.

I WILL TRY TO UPDATE FROM ST.JUDES AND AGAIN AS SOON AS WE GET TO AZ.

LOVE DEBBIE,THE AUSMAN,AND EDDIE

Friday, July 28, 2006 12:25 AM CDT

Ok I really tried to update but I just checked his site and the update is not there so I will try this again.

Austin went to Akron on Monday and Thursday for labwork and as expected they are dropping he is safe to be around people but not sure how much longer we will just have to see what his body does.

As most of you know we are coming up on the 2 year anniversary of the worst day of our entire lives and thats the day Ausman was diagnosed(August 16th,2004) So I am in angry and depression mode right now I truly thought that my baby would already been CURED ,I at that point trusted doctors( DON'T GET ME WRONG I STILL TRUST THEM)but at that time in our lives I was naive every illness my kids and myself had were taken care of quickly just like anyone elses so I don't know why or what I was thinking but I thought that he would have the surgery and be healed,AKRON MADE ME BELIEVE THAT THEY COULD DO THIS but then nothing is ever that simple.

THE OTHER BAD PART ABOUT 2 YEARS IS THAT SEEMS TO BE A TIME THAT THESE KIDS REOCCUR SO THE 2 NEW SPOTS(1 BRAIN & 1 SPINE) ARE REALLY SCARING ME BUT AT THIS POINT NOBODY CAN TELL ME IS IT TUMOR OR RADIATION DAMAGE,I AM HAVING A HARD TIME BELIEVING ITS RADIATION DAMAGE ITS BEEN 18 MONTHS SINCE HE FINISHED THAT SO I AM CLUELESS AS USUAL ALL WE CAN DO IS WAIT AND SEE AND THAT IS VERY FRUSTRATING AS I AM A PERSON WHO HATES TO WAIT I ALWAYS WANT ANSWERS NOW NO MATTER WHAT THE QUESTION IS.

ON A GOOD NOTE I AM GRATEFUL THAT 2 YEARS LATER I STILL HAVE MY BABY WITH ME EVERYDAY ALOT OF THE KIDS WE HAVE MET ARE NO LONGER WITH US SO IN THAT ASPECT I AM LUCKY.BUT I STILL HAVE SOME FAITH THAT WE WILL FIND A CURE FOR THIS DREADED MONSTER,I PRAY EVERYDAY THAT NO OTHER FAMILY WILL EVER HAVE TO GO THROUGH WHAT WE HAVE.I WOULD NOT WISH THIS ON MY WORST ENEMY.

WELL GUYS AS YOU CAN TELL I AM STRUGGLING RIGHT NOW AND IN MIDST OF IT ALL I MUST PACK FOR OUR BIG MOVE TO AZ 11 DAYS AWAY AND STILL HAVEN"T GOT NOTHING PACKED SO I GUESS I BETTER GET BUSY.

BUT AS ALWAYS PLEASE PLEASE PRAY FOR STRENGTH FOR AUSMAN AND US TOO RIGHT NOW I REALLY NEED YOU GUYS,RIGHT NOW I FEEL VERY WEAK AND VULNERABLE SO IT WOULD GREATLY APPRECIATED THANK YOU FOR STICKING BY US AND STOPPING IN TO CHECK ON MY SUPER HERO AUSMAN.

LOVE DEBBIE,AUSMAN,AND EDDIE

Monday, July 24, 2006 0:05 AM CDT

NEW PICTURES FROM HIS BIRTHDAY ADDED!!!

Hi Everybody,

Just wanted to check in real quick and thank those of you who emailed or sent cards to Austin he had a great birthday we spent it over at Aunt Lisa's we had a cookout and actually got Austin to eat almost a whole hamburger,he hasn't been eating real well since Thursday he says everything tastes like metal, poor guy I wish I could trade places with him ,I hate what all of this is doing to him,the nice thing is while he was off chemo he actually gained like 7 pounds so at least he has a little meat on his bones to make it through at least this round of chemo.

For all of you teachers if you would like to call Austin feel free to do so he would love to hear from you before we leave for Arizona,in fact I am sure he would love to see you guys but I am not sure when you all start setting up for school to start,once we get settled in and get an address and new phone numbers I will make sure you all get it.

Well its getting late I just wanted to stop by and THANK YOU ALL FOR THINKING AND PRAYING FOR MY LITTLE MAN,I GUESS HE ISN"T A BABY ANYMORE AT LEAST ACCORDING TO HIM HE IS GETTING OLD IT WAS REAL CUTE TODAY HIS BACK IS HURTING HIM AND TRUE TO HIS NATURE UNSTEAD OF COMPLAINING HE SAYS MY BACK HURTS THAT MUST BE A SIGN I AM GETTING OLD,IT WAS TOO CUTE.

AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!

LOVE DEBBIE ,EDDIE,AND THE AUSMAN

Monday, July 24, 2006 0:05 AM CDT

Saturday, July 22, 2006 1:17 PM CDT

Hi everyone just wanted to let you all know we made it home safe from Memphis.I am having a tough time updating his website at this time so please forgive me if I don't word things well,but things did not go real well for us I am going to be fairly brief with things ,First off the brain MRI showed stable stable however there is an area of soft tissue that appears to be scar tissue but not sure at this point what that means.Second his spine has been clear for months and now there is an area in a completely different spot than his original tumors however they are not sure what it is could be radiation damage or fluid they are believing its tumor but they areren't sure at this point either so all we can do is sit and wait,I HATE THIS PART ALMOST AS MUCH AS SEEING MY BABY SO SICK FROM CHEMO.

He did get his chemo on Thursday and hasn't ate hardly anything since he has been had alot of nausea with this round we go back for the next round August 10th if his counts stay ok .

Some of you already know we are moving to Arizona ,we have decided on a date we are leaving here August 9th stopping in Memphis for chemo and heading to Arizona from there so the boys will start school in Arizona.I AM SO SORRY TO BE LEAVING THE BRUNSWICK SCHOOL DISTRICT BUT THIS IS SOMETHING I STRONGLY FEEL I NEED TO DO . I NEED TO BE NEAR MY MOM THIS JOURNEY HAS BEEN SO SCARY FOR ME.

THE ONLY THING LEFT FOR ME DO IS PACK AND SAVE MONEY THIS SHOULD BE FUN WE START OUR 2 TRIPS A WEEK TO AKRON FOR DOCTORS AGAIN AND WITH GAS PRICES I HAVE A FEELING THIS IS GOING TO BE ONE EXPENSIVE MOVE.

WELL I NEED TO GO FOR NOW AUSMAN"S BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW AND I HAVE YET TO GET HIM A CAKE OR EVEN ANY GIFTS YET SO I NEED TO GET IN GEAR.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Friday, July 14, 2006 7:26 AM CDT

HI EVERYONE,

I WANT TO START THIS ENTRY OFF BY SAYING HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LISA YOU HAVE BEEN THE GREATEST FRIEND ANYONE IN THE WORLD COULD ASK FOR. I KNOW YOU HAVEN"T APPROVED OF A LOT OF DECISIONS I HAVE MADE IN THE LAST FEW MONTHS BUT YOU HAVE STOOD BY ME THROUGH THICK AND THIN AND I THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART.I CAN HONESTLY SAY YOU HAVE PROVEN TIME AND TIME AGAIN WHAT A TRUE FRIEND IS ALL ABOUT.I LOVE YOU SIS WITH ALL MY HEART,HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY!!!

AS FOR A QUICK UPDATE ON AUSMAN HE IS DOING WELL,RUNNING PLAYING ,SWIMMING,HAVING FUN ENJOYING HIS SUMMER BOY WHAT I WOULDN'T GIVE TO BE A KID AGAIN HARD TO BELIEVE IN 9 DAYS IT WILL HAVE BEEN 10 YEARS SINCE I BROUGHT MY BUDDLE OF JOY HOME FROM THE HOSPITAL IT HAS BEEN AN AMAZING 10 YEARS BOTH OF MY BOYS HAVE TAUGHT ME MANY THINGS BUT MOST OF ALL THEY HAVE TAUGHT ME UNCONDITIONAL LOVE,I NOW KNOW WHAT MY MOTHER WENT THROUGH RAISING US TWO GIRLS THERE HAVE BEEN LOTS OF HEARTACHE AND LOTS OF JOY ALONG THE WAY.BUT I WOULDN'T TRADE NOT EVEN ONE MINUTE OF THE LIFE I HAVE HAD WITH MY CHILDREN THEY HAVE MADE ME WHO I AM TODAY.MOM THANK YOU FOR TEACHING HOW TO BE THE MOTHER I AM.I MAY NOT BE THE PERFECT MOM YOU WERE TO US BUT I TRY REALLY HARD TO BE THE BEST I CAN BE,I MAY NOT ALWAYS DISCIPLINE MY BOYS THE WAY I SHOULD BUT I TRY.

WELL ALL SUNDAY MORNING WE WILL BE HEADING OUT TO MEMPHIS FOR SCANS AND CHEMO OUR FIRST APPOINTMENT ISN'T UNTIL TUESDAY BUT WE ARE DRIVING OUT AS A FAMILY SO WE ARE GOING A DAY EARLY SO WE CAN ENJOY SOME OF THE SITES MEMPHIS HAS TO OFFER AND SHOW EDDIE AND ED A FEW THINGS AROUND TOWN SINCE THEY HAVE NEVER GOT TO GO WITH US.

SO PLEASE DO ME FAVOR AND PRAY FOR A SAFE TRIP OUT THERE AND PRAY FOR NO NEW GROWTH IT HAS BEEN 3 MONTHS SINCE AUSMANS LAST CHEMO SO WE ARE ALITTLE ANXIOUS RIGHT NOW.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Friday, July 7, 2006 2:25 PM CDT

UPDATE TO FRIDAY THE DATE FOR OUR TRIP TO ST.JUDES IS NOT THIS THURSDAY AFTER ALL THEY COULD NOT GET AN MRI SCHEDULED UNTIL JULY 18th and 19th so he won't leave until either the 16th or 17th depending on what day they are planning to give him the oxaliplatin I will keep you posted.Don't forget the Ausman's Birthday is coming up July 23rd as he puts it he is turning double digits he is turning 10,its been a rough 2 years but he is a tough little guy and my HERO!!

HI everyone,

We have somewhat of a plan,Were going back to St.Judes next week most likely Thursday not 100ure should be calling me back today or Monday,but we have decided on a treatment he will be going back on the oxaliplatin that is the one he just came off of but he won't be getting the etopiside I am hoping his body can tolerate the one drug alone,they gave me like 4 options to choose from 2 were oral but his body does not seem to tolerate oral at all and he did really well on the last one other than counts he felt great,so Ausman and I decided on this one we shall see how it goes he will start it next week.We are al going to drive up as a family so that Ed and Eddie can experience St.Judes also will be a long drive but we will enjoy some of Memphis while we are there.Well I will update again later after I hear back from St.Judes on dates.Hey Jenna will see you up there have a safe trip,Cody I'll call you when we get there sweety take care and don't give mom to hard of a time she loves and so do we.

Well thats it for now AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING PLEASE PRAY ALL OF OUR HEROES IN YOUR PRAYERS.

Love Debbie and THE AUSMAN

Wednesday, July 5, 2006 4:40 AM CDT

Hi Everyone,

I just wanted to stop in real quick and update everyone all is kind of quiet here Austin is feeling ok has only had one more headache and a couple of days with nausea but he hasn't gotten sick again and headaches have been controlled with tylenol so in the brain tumor world thats a good thing. I am going to call St.Judes today and see when we will be going back for at leasts scans,still have no idea on treatment at this point they are still looking at protocols that maybe opening in the future and non protocol options that can be done,as soon as I know anything I will let you all know.

But for now thank you all for stopping in and checking on my hero,so AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Thursday, June 29, 2006 11:48 PM CDT

QUICK UPDATE TO THURSDAY

AUNT KRIS WAS RELEASED FROM THE HOSPITAL ON FRIDAY SHE WILL GO BACK NEXT WEEK FOR SOME MORE TESTS STILL NO NEWS FROM ST.JUDES I WILL BE CALLING THE ON MONDAY TO SEE WHEN WE CAN SCHEDULE SCANS AGAIN AS TONIGHT AUSTIN WASN'T FEELING SO WELL HE GOT SICK AT THE CAR SHOW BUT NO OTHER SYMPTOMS BUT ENOUGH TO MAKE ME VERY NERVOUS.

Hi EVERYONE,

I AM SO SORRY ONCE AGAIN FOR THE DELAY IN UPDATES AS USUAL MY LIFE HAS BEEN HECTIC FIRST OFF WE STILL HAVE NO CLUE WHAT TREATMENT WE ARE DOING WITH AUSTIN YET , ST.JUDES STILL ISN"T SURE WHATS NEXT,I'M NOT SURE WHICH IS WORSE THE KNOWING WHAT HIS TREATMENTS MAY DO TO HIM OR NOT KNOWING WHATS NEXT, EITHER WAY I AM SCARED TO DEATH, WE STILL HAVEN"T HAD AN MRI TO EVEN KNOW IF THE LAST CHEMO HELPED OR IF HIS TUMOR IS GROWING BUT ITS BEEN 2 MONTHS SINCE HIS LAST TREATMENT. AS SOON AS I DO KNOW I WILL LET YOU ALL KNOW WHATS NEXT.

AS FAR IS AUNT KRIS GOES SHE WAS RELEASED FROM THE HOSPITAL ON MONDAY BUT SHE WAS ADMITTED TO A DIFFERENT HOSPITAL ON WEDNESDAY AND IS STILL IN HEART FAILURE WE FOUND OUT THAT MEDINA MISDIAGNOSED HER AND SHE NEVER HAD PNEAUMONIA AT ALL SO TO SAY I AM UPSET IS AN UNDERSTATEMENT THIS IS THE SAME HOSPITAL THAT TRYED TO SAY AUSTIN HAD SCAR TISSUE AND NOT A TUMOR WHEN HE WAS FIRST DIAGNOSED I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER THAN TO TRUST THEM BUT I THOUGHT 2 DIFFERENT SITUATIONS IT WOULD BE FINE I NOW KNOW I WILL NEVER GO BACK FOR EVEN A SIMPLE THING AGAIN.ANYWAY ITS GETTING LATE AND I NEED TO GET SOME SLEEP SO I CAN GO BACK UP TO THE HOSPITAL TO SEE KRIS AGAIN IN THE MORNING.

PLEASE DO ME A HUGE FAVOR AN PRAY FOR BOTH AUSTIN AND KRIS I LOVE THEM BOTH VERY MUCH AND NEED THEM TO GET HEALTHY THEY HAVE BOTH BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH ALREADY.

THANK YOU ALL FOR STOPPING BY TO CHECK ON US YOUR SUPPORT IS VERY MUCH APPRECIATED WITHOUT ALL OF YOU GUYS I WOULD BE LOST AND PROBABLY INSANE BY NOW.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Sunday, June 25, 2006 11:03 PM CDT

STILL NO NEWS FROM ST.JUDES BUT QUICK UPDATE AUNT KRIS IS FINALLY OUT OF THE HOSPITAL SHE CAME HOME TODAY (MONDAY)AND EDDIE IS FEELING BETTER WE HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IT WAS TOOK HIM TO THE DOC HE IS FINE NOW NO FEVER NOTHING WILL JUST HAVE TO KEEP AN EYE ON HIM.

Sorry its taken so long to update we are still at a stand still as far as treatment goes,St Judes should be calling back in the next few days they did call me on Friday but it was just to let me know they were still looking into options available to us.

Austin has been feeling pretty good he spent the weekend with his Dad he said they had a lot of fun together.

As for Aunt Kris she is still in the hospital today it has been a week were hoping she gets out tomorrow.Cause now Eddie is getting sick a gain running a fever and sick to his stomache so will see what happens with him I'll update as soon as I can with more news.OH YEAH MY NEICE ALSO FELL AND BROKE HER ARM THIS PAST WEEK. MAN WHAT A WEEK THIS HAS BEEN.

AS FOR NOW PLEASE PRAY THAT MY WHOLE CREW CAN GET HEALTHY AGAIN I AM REALLY READY FOR A BREAK FROM ALL THIS.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Tuesday, June 20, 2006 9:53 AM CDT

Hi Everyone I have a very quick update for you Austins count are finally coming up they are now at 1000(far from normal but safe again) so we don't have to wear masks anymore he is happy about that,however we have still been pulled from the protocol so we are still at a stand still as far as treatment goes St Judes should be calling me on Wed to discuss any other options I will post as soon as I know anymore but for now I really need to go my friend Kris is in the hospital and we need to get back up there with her there are saying she is in mild congestive heart failure so this has been a pretty scary week for us.

SO AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING AND PLEASE ADD AUNT KRIS TO YOUR PRAYERS THAT SHE RECOVERS FROM THIS WITH NO LASTING EFFECTS.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Thursday, June 15, 2006 11:31 AM CDT

Hi everyone this is going to be a very quick update! We went back to AKRON YESTERDAY AND HAD LABWORK DONE AGAIN AND HIS COUNT HAVE DROPPED EVEN LOWER SO NEEDLESS TO SAY WE ARE AT A COMPLETE STAND STILL ,BEFORE WE WERE EVEN HOME ST.JUDES CALLED AND I HAVE BEEN INFORMED THAT HE HAS TO BE TAKEN OFF THIS PROTOCOL ALSO THEY HONESTLY HAVE NO IDEA WHY HE ISN"T BOUNCING BACK SOMETHING ABOUT BEING TOXIC (ALMOST LIKE IT HAS POISONED HIS BLOOD)WE HAVE NO CLUE. SO AS OF RIGHT NOW WE DON"T WHAT TO DO NEXT OR WHEN WE ARE DOING IT IF ANYTHING RIGHT NOW OUR OPTIONS ARE GETTING VERY VERY SLIM.

THE ONLY DECISION THAT HAS BEEN MADE FOR SURE IS I HAVE DECIDED TO MOVE BACK TO ARIZONA I NEED TO BE CLOSER TO MY FAMILY RIGHT NOW,I AM SCARED TO DEATH RIGHT NOW AND NEED MY MOM.

AS SOON AS ANY OTHER DECISIONS ARE MADE I WILL LET YOU KNOW

SO AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING AND PRAY THE DOCTORS CAN FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO NEXT!!!

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Monday, June 12, 2006 10:44 PM CDT

NOTE NEWS PICTURES UNDER VIEW PHOTOS

Hi Everyone,

Just a quick update once again sorry not alot of information to give right now .As we are at a stand still.
We went to Akron today and had labs drawn and once again his counts are STILL dropping we have now hit what they call Panic which means they are really low and we have to avoid pretty much everyone and if anyone visits they have to either wear a mask or Austin does but at this point I am just asking pretty much everyone to not visit at this point I don't want to take a chance with him he has only been at this point once before nearly 2 years ago and he ended up hospitalized for over a week with tranfusions and thats when we had to do the daily injections in his legs so we are doing are best to avoid a repeat.

So at this point we honestly do not have any clue when we will return to St.Judes for the second cycle of chemo at this point I am very nervous but on the other hand if it is doing this much to the healthy cells we can only hope it is destroying the unhealthy ones too ,so far we have MRI'S scheduled for June 26th I'll keep you all posted we return to Akron again this Wed for labs again so PLEASE PRAY THAT HIS COUNTS START COMING UP SOON!!!

LOVE DEBBIE AND AUSTIN

Saturday, June 10, 2006 2:42 AM CDT

Well all just a quick update Austin's counts are still still low but so far we have avoided getting a transfusion thats the good news ,The bad news is his hair has strated to fall out so we went and had it shaved today,and Kris my girlfriend from AZ thats living with us had her hair cut and donated it LOCKS OF LOVE she had like 13 inches cut off adding photos of before and after of both of them.

ITS GETTING REALLY LATE GOING TO CLOSE FOR NOW KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING PLEASE!!!

Thursday, June 8, 2006 5:13 PM CDT

Well all we are home from Memphis we weren't able to get his chemo we will make another attempt at it next week if all goes well and counts do in fact come back up we will go back next Thursday for possibly 2 weeks not sure at all how this going to work now cause we are supposed to be there on June 25th for Dental work and SCANS so they may just have us stay the entire time ALL I CAN DO AT THIS POINT IS KEEP EVERYONE POSTED AS WE GO,SO I AM GOING TO ASK EVERYONE THE SAME THING I ALWAYS DO PLEASE PRAY THAT HIS COUNTS COME UP AND WE CAN AVOID BEING HOSPITALIZED FOR TRANSFUSIONS.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Wednesday, June 7, 2006 5:25 PM CDT

Well all as of right Austins counts are to low to receive the next round of chemo we have an appointment at 9 am to check his counts again to see if by some chance they go up over night stranger things have happened we will just have to see as for his other tests he had today his hearing they said is EXCELLENT IN FACT TOO GOOD LOL and his Echo was good also that is the heart.WELL THATS ALL FOR NOW PLEASE PRAY EXTRA HARD FOR AUSMANS COUNTS TO GO UP WE HATE BEING STUCK HERE IN LIMBO WITH NOTHING TO DO AND VERY LITTLE MONEY TO GO ENTERTAIN HIM. I'LL UPDATE TOMORROW AS SOON AS I KNOW MORE.

LOVE DEBBIE AND AUSMAN

Wednesday, June 7, 2006 11:05 AM CDT

Hi Everyone,

Just a really quick update Austin's counts came up just enough that we made it to Memphis still not sure if he will get round 2 of chemo yet should know by this afternoon I'll let everyone know whats going on as soon as I know anything we haven't seen the doctors yet.

So AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING AND PRAY HIS COUNTS ARE HIGH ENOUGH TO GET THE NEXT ROUND!

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Thursday, June 1, 2006 2:08 PM CDT

This Picture was taken on Tuesday May 30th Just before his baptism.ISN"T HE HANDSOME????

Hi Everyone,

Ausman is doing really well the only thing going on is his blood counts have dropped(FOR THOSE WHO UNDERSTAND THE TERMS HIS ANC IS NOW AT 1) SO ST.JUDES HAS INFORMED US THAT HE WON"T BE RETURNING TO SCHOOL THE REST OF THIS YEAR( EXCEPT FOR A FEW MINUTES ON TUESDAY TO SAY BYE TO HIS CLASS BUT HE WILL HAVE TO WEAR A MASK)WE ARE SUPPOSE TO RETURN TO MEMPHIS FOR HIS NEXT ROUND OF CHEMO BUT THAT MAY NOT HAPPEN IT WILL DEPEND ON HIS COUNTS MONDAY. SO ALL I CAN DO IS KEEP YOU ALL POSTED BUT FOR NOW I NEED TO GET GOING I HAVE GET SOME STUFF DONE AROUND HERE AND GO BUY SOME MASKS FOR AUSTIN AND DRAW UP A CHART REAL QUICK FOR TEMPERATURE THE DOCTORS WANT ME TO START TAKING HIS TEMP AT LEAST EVERY 4 HOURS AND IF HE SPIKES A FEVER HE MOST LIKELY WILL BE ADMITTED TO THE HOSPITAL,SO THE UPDATES MIGHT START GETTING FURTHER APART AGAIN CAUSE WE ARE NOW BACK TO OUR CRAZY SCHEDULE AGAIN,I WILL DO MY BEST TO KEEP EVERYONE POSTED.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Monday, May 29, 2006 0:59 AM CDT

Hi Everybody,

Thanks for checking in on my HERO,HE HAS GOT TO BE THE MOST AMAZING CHILD I KNOW,HE JUST KEEPS BOUNCING BACK FROM EVERYTHING,I CAN"T TELL YOU HOW IMPRESSED I AM WITH MY SON,HE WENT SWIMMING TODAY AT OUR COMPLEX POOL HE DID REALLY GOOD I KIND OF THOUGHT AT FIRST HE WOULD WANT TO WEAR A SHIRT IN THE POOL BECAUSE HIS PORT IS KIND OF OBLIVIOUS BUT NOPE HE NEVER EVEN SAID A WORD.HE GOT OUT THERE AND WORE THAT BADGE AS WELL AS HE DID BOTH OF HIS OTHER SURGERIES,HE SAID THAT HE IS PROUD OF HIS SCARS AND WANTS EVERYONE TO SEE THEM.HE HAS BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH IN THE LAST ALMOST 2 YEARS AND YET HE GETS UP EVERY MORNING AND HAS A GREAT BIG SMILE ON HIS FACE EVEN WHEN HE ISN"T FEELING WELL HE IS HAPPY AND LOVES TO HELP OTHER PEOPLE,WHEN SOMEONE HE LOVES GETS SICK NO MATTER HOW BAD HE FEELS HE WANTS TO TAKE CARE OF YOU AND WAIT ON YOU HAND AND FOOT WHICH TO THIS DAY AMAZES ME.OK ENOUGH BRAGGING ABOUT WHAT AN AMAZING CHILD I HAVE.

ONTO THE BIG NEWS WE ARE ALL SO EXCITED AUSTIN IS GETTING BAPTIZED THIS TUESDAY AT 5:30 PM,WE ARE SO PROUD OF HIM THIS IS ANOTHER DECISION HE HAS MADE ON HIS OWN,HE HAS MADE SOME PRETTY BIG DECISIONS IN HIS LIFE IN THE LAST 2 MONTHS,FOR THOSE OF YOU THAT DON"T KNOW HE ACTULALY MADE THE DECISIONS ABOUT HIS TREATMENT HE IS ON WE WENT OVER THE PROTOCOLS WITH HIM AND HE MADE THE FINAL CHOICE PRETTY AMAZING FOR A 9 YEAR OLD (WELL ALMOST 10 OR AS AUSTIN PUTS IT DOUBLE DIGITS HE IS TURNING 10 JULY 23RD)ANOTHER BIG MILESTONE IN HIS LIFE FOR THOSE WHO WANT TO MAKE THIS A VERY SPECIAL BIRTHDAY OUR ADDRESS WILL BE AT THE BOTTOM OF THE HOMEPAGE HE ISN"T GETTING ANY MAIL AT THE HOSPITAL SO HE WANTS ME TO PUT OUR ADDRESS AT THE BOTTOM HE LOVES GETTING MAIL FEEL FREE TO SEND HIM A CARD OR LETTERS HE WOULD LOVE IT.YES I KNOW HIS BIRTHDAY IS STILL 2 MONTHS AWAY BUT WHEN YOUR LIFE IS AS CRAZY AS MINE YOU TEND TO GET A JUMPSTART ON THINGS YOU HAVE CONTROL OF.BUT THATS OK ANY CARDS YOU ALL SEND NOW I WILL PUT AWAY IN A HIDING SPOT AND GIVE THEM TO HIM ON HIS BIRTHDAY SO PLEASE HELP ME OUT AND DROP HIM A LINE IT WOULD MAKE HIM SO HAPPY THIS IS BIG ONE FOR BOTH US I HONESTLY DIDN"T THINK I WOULD GET TO SEE MY BABY HIT DOUBLE DIGITS.

WELL THATS IT FOR NOW AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!
YOU GUYS KEEP US GOING,SOMEDAYS WE FEEL ALL ALONE SO WE SIT AND GO BACK AND READ ALL THE GUESTBOOK ENTRIES TO RENEW OUR SPIRITS AND OUR FAITH.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Wednesday, May 24, 2006 11:50 AM CDT

Hi Everyone,

All seems to be going pretty good for the AUSMAN the sensitivity too cold seems to have passed all he has now is some nausea but the we expected since he has never really gotten rid of that since Radiation in Feb of 2004 and his appetite isn't all that great but we'll deal with it.

As for SCHOOL we have been told he can return back on half days if he handles that well he can go full days so the plan is hopefully he will return Tuesday after the holiday.
So technically he can still get 7 days in.

Thats about all thats going on right now so this is a short update AS ALWAYS KEEP THE PRAYERS COMING!!!

Love DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Monday, May 22, 2006 7:42 AM CDT

Hi Everyone ,

Were home safe and sound Ausman seems to be doing ok he has some sensitivy to cold yesterday he went outside it was real cold he did have a jacket on but his hands got cold and for a few hours he was unable to move them but after wrapping them up real good in a blanket they seemed to get better that side effect is supposed to last about 7 days,(he can't drink or eat anything cold or touch anything cold either)His nausea has been managable but he has NO APPETITE.Today we have to go back up to Akron Childrens for labwork to check his counts,So wish us luck were not expecting a big drop this soon but each patient is different.

Well all sorry it was such a quick update but I have to get Eddie ready for school,I'll try to update later tonight or tomorrow.AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING AND THANKS FOR STOPPING BY.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Sunday, May 21, 2006 1:27 AM CDT

Hi Everyone,

Yes I know its very late for an update but I promised you I would as soon as I could,been kind of a rough day for the Ausman he woke up this morning throwing up I was able to get it under control pretty quickly thank goodness,he got Day 3 of 3 late this afternoon so far he just seems kind of tired and looks pale to me,but he isn't really sleeping well he tossed and turned allnight,We will do just like we have for the last almost 2 years take it one day a time .Anyway thats how he is doing right now I will update again in a day or 2 we have labwork Monday and Thursday each week so I will let you all know how its going but for now I am going to get a couple hours sleep as you can see its really late and I have to be up early to head to the airport we are heading home.SO AS ALWAYS PLEASE KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING AND DON"T FORGET TO SIGN HIS GUESTBOOK EVEN IF IT TO JUST SAY HI HE HAS BEEN NOTICING ALOT OF PEOPLE CHECKING ON HIM BUT NOT ALOT OF MESSAGES.TIL NEXT TIME THANKS FOR STOPPING BY WE APPRECIATE EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU ALL OUT THERE.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Friday, May 19, 2006 9:57 PM CDT

Hi Everyone,

Day 2 of 3 is out of the way so far he isn't feeling too bad a little nausea and diarhea but seems to be improving he is complaining a little that his throat is bothering him but that was to be expected with the oxyliplatin it makes them sensitive to cold the only time he mentioned it he was taking a drink so I am guessing we didn't let it sit out long enough to warm up enough,his energy level was pretty but on the walk back over to Grizzly House he got tired and had to sit down for a few so we now know fatigue will possibly be an issue we will have to see how it goes.

As for me I am emotionally spent but improving as each day goes by this was by far one of the toughest decisions to make in the last ALMOST 2 years now,the toughest part was knowing he is stable and still choosing to move onto the IV DRUGS but I personally don't want to sit back and give his tumor a chance to regroup and grow again why not go after it while its not doing anything.We are praying extra hard that this will be the one that destroys this thing,I long for the day to hear REMISSION we so far have not got to hear that since this all began YES AFTER HIS SECOND SURGERY WE WERE TOLD THEY GOT IT ALL BUT A YEAR LATER THE SURGEON INFORMED US THAT HE WASN"T SURE HE HAD THOUGHT THERE WAS A SMALL PIECE LEFT TO DEEP TO REMOVE AND HIS THOUGHT PROVED TO BE RIGHT BUT HE SHOULD HAVE TOLD HE THOUGHT IT MAY BE THERE LONG BEFORE IT GOT BIGGER.

ANYWAY enough venting not doing a darn bit of good to get angry theres no time for that I MUST HAVE FAITH THESE DOCTORS AT ST.JUDES KNOW WHAT THEY ARE DOING WE WILL BEAT THIS ONE WAY OR ANOTHER!!!!

SO AS ALWAYS PLEASE PRAY FOR MY BABY,WE ARE HOPING FOR AS MINIMAL SIDE EFFECTS AS POSSIBLE!!!THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR CHECKING IN ON THE AUSMAN.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Thursday, May 18, 2006 11:29 PM CDT

Hi Everyone,

I am sorry it took so long to update been a very long day
Austin had his first chemo today and did much better than we expected he started getting really nauseous about 3/4 of the way through so we ended up giving him ativan and that seemed to help with it so we didn't have to end up slowing the chemo down as it was we were in the medicine room for a total of 7 hours to run the 2 chemos and calcium and magnesium because the oxyliplatin tends to deplete those levels so they give a boost to avoid that.We still have 2 more days of chemo but only the etopiside for those days.As for school he won't be able to go at least next week I may bring him so the class can see that he is doing ok,cause I know they are expecting him back.

Well anyway its getting really late and I am really tired so I am going to get off here and get to sleep,I will try to update tomorrow,so as always PLEASE KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!UNTIL NEXT TIME.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Wednesday, May 17, 2006 6:25 PM CDT

Hi Everyone First of all I need to apoligize for the very short update yesterday,but I didn't have any news other than Austin did well with the port surgery,well today went VERY WELL he is pretty sore but doing good THE BEST NEWS OF ALL IS HE IS COMPLETLY STABLE BRAIN AND SPINE SHOW NO CHANGE,His ECHO( HEART TEST) WAS GOOD,HEARING WAS GREAT,AND DENTAL WENT REALLY WELL ONLY 1 CAVITY WHICH IS AWESOME CONSIDERING ALL THE DRUGS AND RADIATION HE HAS HAD AND PHYSICAL THERAPY WENT WELL TOO NO NEED FOR THEM AT ALL.SO AS YOU CAN SEE WE HAVE HAD A REALLY BUSY 36 HOURS.WOW I AM EXHAUSTED AFTER READING ALL THAT LOL.

SO AS FAR AS TREATMENT GOES TOMORROW IS THE BIG DAY WE BEGIN THE NEW CHEMO AT 8:30 AM AND WAS TOLD TO EXPECT A VERY LONG DAY,AS FAR AS EXPLAINING ANYTHING I CAN"T AT THIS TIME EVERYTHING WILL BE NEW TO ME EVEN THE NAUSEA MED IS CHANGING SO TO SAY I AM NERVOUS IS AN UNDERSTATEMENT,I WILL DO MY BEST TO UPDATE EVERYONE ONE AS WE WALK THROUGH THESE NEXT FEW STAGES IN THIS JOURNEY,BUT FOR NOW I AM EXHAUSTED WE REALLY NEED TO GET SOME REST.

PLEASE PRAY FOR AUSMAN THAT HE TOLERATES THIS NEW CHEMO WELL,AND FOR ALL OF OUR ST.JUDE FRIENDS THEY NEED ALL THE PRAYERS YOU CAN OFFER.THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR STOPPING BY,WE LOVE ALL OF YOU AND WE FEEL LIKE YOU GUYS ARE OUR FAMILY.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Tuesday, May 16, 2006 6:58 PM CDT

Hi Everyone just a very quick update to let you all know Austin made it through his port surgery just fine he is a little sore but doing great,We have Brain MRI at 6:45 AM tomorrow to start our day,We are exhausted I will give a more through journal in a day or two right now I need to get some rest. THANK YOU FOR CHECKING IN AND PRAYING FOR MY HERO!!!

LOVE DEB AND AUSMAN

Monday, May 15, 2006 11:25 PM CDT

Hi Everyone,

Just a really quick update we made it safe and sound to St.Judes we have a very long day ahead of it I just wanted to let everyone know that our schedule has changed YET AGAIN he will in fact have the port surgery tomm at 1:30 pm
we still have no idea what to expect as we were unable to meet with surgery consult when we arrived as planned so we now meet with them just before surgery or whole day starts at 8:45 am and does not end until 6:00 pm so will be kind of late when I can finally update everyone so please pray extra hard tommorrow for the Ausman definately nervous.

Love Debbie and Ausman

Sunday, May 14, 2006 1:41 PM CDT

HI EVERYONE JUST WANTED TO STOP IN REAL QUICK AND WISH ALL OF YOU MOTHERS A VERY VERY HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!! WE LEAVE TOMORROW FOR ST.JUDES I WILL DO MY BEST TO KEEP EVERYONE UPDATED THROUGHOUT THE WEEK PLEASE SEND SOME EXTRA PRAYERS FOR A GOOD TEST WEEK AND SURGERY AND ALSO PLEASE SAY SOME EXTRA PRAYERS FOR ANOTHER LITTLE BOY IN OUR AREA THAT EARNED HIS WINGS THIS WEEK HE WAS ALSO TREATED AT AKRON CHILDRENS HIS NAME IS TYLER, FLY FREE YOUNG MAN!!!

Wednesday, May 10, 2006 9:37 PM CDT

Hi Everyone,

I want to start this journal by thanking Huntington School Staff you all are just amazing,you always cover everything when it comes to my 2 boys,you guys made their day today they wanted something from the book fair and I wasn't able to afford anything so when they came home today they BOTH were on cloud 9 thank you ,they both were as happy as could be.Austin was in the best mood I have seen him in for quite sometime,and Eddie was 2 heck they both played together allday today and never argued once I was actually shocked that rarely happens.SO THANK YOU!!

As for an update the last journal I mentioned we ahd a surgery date to get his port well that was incorrect we do not actually have a date but most likely it will be on May 17th the surgery team needs to do a complete evaluation on him first but chemo will start that same day so we should still be home on schedule so as of right now we will be gone from May 15th-May 21st.

As far as how Ausman is feeling he seems to be doing the best he has since this all began other than his leg has been hurting him and he says he has a few headaches the nausea and other side effects seem to have almost completely went away and I am glad it has,HOWEVER that makes my decision to begin the IV CHEMO that much harder because I made the decision and now he will be sick all over again,BUT I DO KNOW THIS IS WHAT I MUST DO IN ORDER TO SAVE HIS LIFE!!! THAT DOESN"T MAKE THE DECISIONS ANY EASIER THOUGH,BUT I HAVE FAITH IN MY SON"S STRENGTH HE WILL HANDLE THIS JUST LIKE HE HAS WITH ANY SETBACK HE HAS HAD. Alot of people have asked me how I do this and I think I finally have somewhat of an answer for that How can I not handle it and BE WEAK ,JUST TAKE A LOOK AT AUSMAN HE LAUGHS ,HE SMILES,HE WALKS,HE TALKS,HE JOKES AND HE LOVES AND HE DOES EVERYTHING A NORMAL CHILD DOES AT THIS POINT,I HAVE NO ROOM TO GET WEAK( DON'T GET ME WRONG I CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP ALMOST EVERYNIGHT AND EVERYDAY HE LEAVES FOR SCHOOL)BUT HE WILL NOT SEE ME DO THIS BECAUSE IN MY MIND IT WILL SCARE HIM,DON"T GET ME WRONG HE HAS FEAR,BUT HE SEEMS TO DEAL WITH IT REALLY WELL.ALL OF THESE REASONS ARE WHAT MAKES ME THE LUCKIEST MOTHER IN THE WORLD,I HAVE 2 BEAUTIFUL BOYS IN MY LIFE AND IN MY HEART.I DON"T NEED A MOTHERS DAY TO MAKE ME REALIZE HOW LUCKY I AM ,YES MY LIFE IS STRESSFUL AND ALOT OF HARD WORK BUT I WOULD NOT CHANGE IT FOR NOTHING MY BOYS ARE MY HEART AND MY SOUL WITHOUT EITHER ONE OF MY BOYS I WOULD BE NOTHING BUT AN EMPTY SHELL.

OK OK AS YOU ALL CAN TELL I AM A LITTLE EMOTIONAL RIGHT NOW WITH OUR TRIP TO ST.JUDES COMING UP AND MOTHERS DAY ALSO I NEED TO GO FOR NOW BUT PLEASE KNOW THAT I AM OK MOM AND I LOVE YOU HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO YOU AND ALL OF THE OTHER MOTHERS READING THIS!!!

SO PLEASE DO ME A FAVOR AND PRAY AUSMAN HAS THE STRENGTH AND WILL TO FIGHT THIS AND DOES WELL WITH THE NEW CHEMO WE NEED THIS TO WORK.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Saturday, May 6, 2006 3:05 PM CDT

Hi everybody,

I am so sorry I keep putting everyone off on the updates as you guys read I have been having a tough time dealing with things,I am doing a lot better today so thought I would drop in real quick.

Austin is doing really good he has been off chemo now for 1 month so all of his side effects except the nausea have went away,he is full of energy,its nice to see him joking and laughing and playing with his friends,in fact sometimes we actually forget he is sick he does so well but I guess that is a good thing the only problem with it is we know he will be starting back on chemo this month on the 18th so the first few days after he starts will probably be rough on all of all again but mainly him OF COURSE,We are hoping he tolerates the IV chemo well and he doesn't have much pain after he gets his port put in I have talked to several people and from what I am hearing he shouldn't be sore for too long only a couple of them have said he will be sore for a couple weeks but the rest have said only a few days.We have decided to go with a port that goes under his skin in his chest because we like to go camping and swimming alot and this way he can hopefully enjoy his summer.

Well thanks for checking in on my AUSMAN and as ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

APRIL 29 TH ,2006

PLEASE DO ME A FAVOR AND ADD EXTRA PRAYERS FOR CASSIDY'S FAMILY SHE EARNED HER WINGS TODAY.THANK YOU ALL VERY MUCH,THEY WILL NEED THE EXTRA STRENGTH TO GET THROUGH THESE DIFFICULT DAYS.

Just a quick update We now go to St.judes on May 15th-May 21st Ausman is scheduled for his Port Surgery on May 16th,Scans and lots of tests on May 17th followed by the new chemo May 18th-19th-20th return home on the 21st if all goes well and he has no complications from surgery or chemo

TUESDAYS JOURNAK

Hi Everyone,

Ok I promised an update,We are now going back to St.Judes on May 14th most likely we will be there for 2 weeks as we have to do ALL of his tests again in order to begin the new protocol(experimental treatment)this one is an IV they will use 2 different chemo drugs that will run over the course of 3 days every 21 days the drugs are called etopiside(which he has taken orally)and the other drug is called oxaliplatin,I am really nervous about this next step in his life, he will have to have a simple surgery to put in a port so he won't have to be stuck so often for counts and to get the drugs or tranfusions(he has never had one before so not sure how to explain it or what to expect yet,I have mixed emotions about going to IV drugs but his little body can't seem to tolerate the ORAL drugs AT ALL the last one he was only able to take it for 3 days before it started making him really sick he was miserable,so that brings us to this phase of treatment.

As for how I am feeling right now its really hard to explain but I am very frustrated right now I am starting to feel like we are running out of options(HE IS STILL STABLE THOUGH)so the others have worked at stopping growth but I FEEL GREEDY RIGHT NOW I WANT THIS DARN CANCER TO SHRINK AND GO AWAY,PLEASE DON'T GET ME WRONG I AM GRATEFUL THAT IT HASN'T GROWN but just isn't good enough I want my baby back healthy and strong and energetic again.I have been doing alot of thinking lately and I just can't seem to remember life before Austin got sick and I HATE that,Right now I feel like I am losing BOTH of my boys,I am always leaving Eddie with friends while we take off to the doctors,hospitals and St.Judes I have missed so many things in Eddie's life (teacher conferances,field trips,first day of allday school, first play,first music program,and to be perfectly honest I have no idea how many other first I have missed) So here I sit trying to remember all of Austin's firsts and missing Eddies all I seems to remember is Austin's first surgery,first chemo, first radiation,first transfusion,first hospital stay ,ETC... I HATE THIS!!!

I'm SORRY this isn't the place to be doing this it isn't about me its about Austin and his struggle to beat this darn disease,I am going to go for now so I can get a grip and come back more positive.

I DO NEED TO ASK YOU ALL A HUGE FAVOR PLEASE PRAY FOR OUR LITTLE FRIEND CASSIDY AS SHE ISN'T DOING REALLY WELL RIGHT NOW SHE ALSO HAS EPENDYMOMA AND WAS DIAGNOSED JUST BEFORE AUSTIN THE LINK TO HER PAGE IS AT THE BOTTOM OF THIS PAGE!!!

SO AS ALWAYS PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING FOR ALL THESE CHILDREN WE NEED TO FIND A CURE AND RID THIS WORLD OF THIS NIGHTMARE.

LOVE DEBBIE

Friday, April 21, 2006 9:16 PM CDT

Hi Everyone this is once again a very quick update,I just wanted to let everyone know we are back from Arizona,we are having some mixed emotions we are glad to be home yet we miss everyone in Az,I promise in the next couple of days I will do a detailed journal on what our decision is on treatment next I am going to wait until Monday at least so taht I have more information on our game plan,Elizabeth from St.Judes will be calling me with more details and a schedule as to when this will all take place,Please know I am not trying to keep stuff from everyone I just don't want to put the wrong information on here,so please keep checking back I am sorry I haven't offered much information lately I kind of fell into a depression and couldn't seem to find my way out, feeling a little better now that some big decisions have been made.Going to sign off for now but I promise more information is coming soon.

SO AS ALWAYS PLEASE PLEASE KEEP THOSE PRAYERS COMING WE NEED ALL THE PRAYERS YOU AND YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY HAVE TO OFFER!!!!!! THANK YOU FOR ALL OF YOUR SUPPORT AND PRAYERS FOR MY LITTLE HERO!!!!

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

JUST A QUICK NOTE BOTH EDDIE AND AUSTIN WILL BE AT SCHOOL ON MONDAY,PLANNING ON SENDING AUSTIN ALLDAY SINCE HE IS FEELING WELL AND OFF CHEMO UNTIL MAY 2nd.

Thursday, April 20, 2006 2:36 AM CDT

Hi Everyone,

We are heading back home to Ohio today,I still haven't made a decision on which treatment we are going to go with next these decisions seem to be getting harder as he keeps failing each protocol we choose,our trip has been fun except for the 2 trips to ER and 2 trips to St.Judes and several trips to the lab.

I will give a more detailed journal on the different options we are being offered and more details on our trip on Friday sometime its getting late right now and I really need to get some sleep we had a very busy day today.

PLEAE KEEP AUSMAN IN YOUR PRAYERS RIGHT NOW HE IS OFF ALL CHEMO ONCE AGAIN TO LET HIS POOR BODY RECOVER.

Love Debbie and THE AUSMAN

Wednesday, April 12, 2006 3:20 AM CDT

Hi Everyone I know everyone has been waiting for another update, Well as you all know we started a new chemo last Friday its called Rad001 ,well we had to stop taking it the same side effects took hold Sat morning (the nausea which had pretty much stopped completly after stopping the Lapatinib,the diarea which was gone also,fatigue was 100etter is back too) So needless to say because he was so bad we have to RETURN to St.Judes THIS thursday hopefully we will be back in AZ AGAIN on Sat,we return to Ohio on April 20th.But anyway we are back at square 1 as far as what treatments to try next but first we are going to take a look at his GI TRACT to see if maybe there is some damage done from radiation,then we will make the next decision from there so anyway I am mentally and physically exhausted this had been Austin's hardest treatment he has had in the a very long time he has been fighting this darn disease for 22 months now and we see no end in sight.

Well all I am in kind of a rough mood right now this all really frustrating and making me very angry right now its tearing me apart watching my baby suffer so much and know the decisions I make are doing this to him not the cancer because that itself is stable the drugs are whats causing him to be so sick.I will update more as soon as we get back from Memphis hopefully we will be back on Easter.

So as always thanks for checking in on MY HERO AUSMAN and PLEASE KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!!!

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Friday, April 7, 2006 12:54 AM CDT

HEY EVERYONE YES GREAT NEWS AUSTIN IS STABLE,all is going great here in Memphis we have had a very good trip we finally got to see Ryan and his family he looks so good.

We started the new chemo this morning so far so good,with this he takes 2 pills in the morning ONLY instead of 2 in the morning and 2 at night so he will like that part but we have alot of new stuff to learn and get on a system,so far sounds like the biggest risk is MOUTH SORES so he has to do a mouth rinse 4 times a day and some other stuff that will numb his mouth should he get the sores,we have to return here to St.Judes on April 24th so they check his mouth and throat real well and do a check up again,all the other side effects are basically the same as the Lapatinib except the added one of mouth sores,this drug is called RAD001 or Everolimus (its is both the same drug)

Well everyone I knew you all were waiting for an update we go back to AZ tomorrow I need to get off of this computer its storming here don't like being on when weather is bad I'LL UPDATE AS SOON AS I CAN AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING THEY ARE WORKING!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Monday, April 3, 2006 4:36 PM CDT

Hi Everyone,

We made it to St.Judes safe and sound looks like we will now be here for at least a week for scans and some additional tests before we start a new chemo,not alot of news our morning starts off at 10 am tommorrow I'll be updating sometime tomorrow evening with some info at least on our decision ,Spine MRI will be Wed and Brain scan will be Friday so I will do my best to keep everyone posted,thats all I have for right now so I am going sign off for now but AS ALWAYS KEEP THOSE PRAYERS COMING!!!!!THANKS FOR CHECKING IN ON MY HERO THE AUSMAN!!!!

LOVE DEBBIE AND AUSMAN

Friday, March 31, 2006 1:43 PM CST

Hi everyone I am sorry I haven't updated lately all is going well here we are enjoying our visit not getting to do a whole lot of fun stuff finances pretty tight right now we have been doing some visiting though weather is so nice here boys love playing outside in short sleeves and no jacket,as for Austin's health he has made 2 visits to the ER since we have been here the first time he had a really bad headache and throwing up but that passed in 24 hours so no scans were done not sure what the cause was,the second time was this week he had another bad headache,high fever and chest pains.(chest pains were anxiety)fever was most likely a virul infection but his counts are a little low so that may be the cause also BUT he is feeling himself again.

Well this coming Tuesday will be decision day we go to Memphis to talk to doctor about what our next step will be since unfortunately the Lapatinib is just to rough on him,I will update as soon as I have made a decision I PROMISE just been real emotional and really hard to update lately,decisions were pretty easy before as we weren't given any option before St.Judes so now that there are options I have to decide which one is BEST for THE AUSMAN but I do have FAITH that the doctors will guide me in the right direction,but I do have a feeling this is going to be very long haul and even harder on Austin but we need to KICK THIS TUMOR IN THE BUTT NOW.

OK I NEED TO GO GETTING EMOTIONAL AGAIN NOT READY TO LET IT ALL OUT YET I WILL AFTER I HAVE MET WITH DOCTORS RIGHT NOW JUST TO SCARED AND CONFUSED SO I AM ASKING YOU GUYS TO PLEASE PRAY THAT WE ALL MAKE THE BEST DECISION POSSIBLE FOR AUSTIN.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Tuesday, March 21, 2006 9:09 AM CST

Hi Everybody,

Yes I am finally updating its been really busy,so many places too see and people to see.As you all know we go back to St.Judes April 3rd,well there has been a new situation arise in Austin's treatment the side effects from the Lapatinib returned full force so we have now been dropped from this protocal so we have no idea what we are doing next we have a couple of options that will be discussed then and then I will make a decision on where we go next in his treatment as soon as I know I will post and let you all know what's up so for right now he is chemo free which scares the hell out of me .

Well all I can't stay on here long just wanted to touch base real quick WE MISS YOU ALL VERY MUCH!!!

AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING AND PRAY ST.JUDES AND I MAKE THE BEST POSSIBLE DECISION FOR AUSMAN.

Love DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Monday, March 13, 2006 12:42 AM CST

Hi Everyone,

Ok it has been brought to my attention I haven't been very good about updating the site I won't make any excuses the truth is I have been struggling with some decisions regarding Austin's Treatment as you all know we started him back on the Lapatinib on a lower dose than before and unfortunately the side effects are back not quite as bad we are still attempting to get them completely under control,the decision I am trying to make is whether to change his chemo or not the problem with that is this one is actually keeping the tumor stable but Austin is getting discouraged with the diarrhea and has told us he wants to try another chemo,so when we go back to Memphis on April 3rd we will be discussing our options then,I can't keep putting him through hell like this he needs to have a say in his treatment,I just hope we don't make a mistake here and whatever new chemo we try doesn't work we are very scared about this he has come so far in the last year.If anyone has any feedback to offer us please feel free to email me or sign the guestbook we check it on a regular basis I just don't always update because its still pretty much all the same information other than just trying to enjoy each other and spending time together.

As most of you also know we are leaving for Arizona tomorrow evening we will be gone a little over a month,this trip is long overdue for us we haven't been home since a year and a half before Austin was diagnosed so we have alot of people to see and things to take care off.I WILL DO MY BEST TO KEEP EVERYONE UPDATED PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP ON US IT JUST GETS HARD SOMETIMES TO UPDATE WHEN ITS THE SAME OLD THING ALL THE TIME,I TRY NOT TO GET TOO EMOTIONAL ON HERE.

WELL THATS ALL FOR NOW AS ALWAYS PLEASE PLEASE KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!!!

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Saturday, March 4, 2006 7:18 PM CST

Hi Everyone just a quick check in Austin is doing really good ,I almost feel bad to have to put him back on the lapatininb(chemo) but I know it is what I must do it has been a very difficult time for us though seeing him have so many side effects to having NONE after we stopped the chemo and now knowing we will be starting him back on it this tuesday on a lower dose so hopefully it won't be as hard on him.

For those of you checking in us from Arizona we are on our way we will be there from March 15 th - April 20 th call it an extended vacation we have a couple of fundraisers for cancer we want to attend while we are there and lots of family to see so thats the reason for the lengthly stay we all need a break and need our family,I have been finding harder to be away from my mom through this journey so I feel like I need to go home for a little while.

The radioathon I mentioned Kris was doing was a big success they raised $50,000 for St.Judes way to go guys thats alot of money,Kris worked her tail off for two straight days she stayed there from morning til night answering the phones and telling Austin's story on the air Thank You so much Kris,Austin and I are proud of you and this cause means so much to us,We love you and miss you!

Well thats all for now guys AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING AND PRAY THAT AUSTIN HAS LITTLE OR NO SIDE EFFECTS ON THE LOWER DOSE ,THANKS FOR STOPPING BY.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Friday, March 3, 2006 7:30 AM CST

HI EVERYONE,

I AM SORRY I HAVEN't UPDATED LATELY ,I JUST WANTED TO STOP IN REAL QUICK AND LET EVERYONE KNOW THAT OBVIOUSLY WE MADE IT HOME,ALL IS GOING REALLY WELL FOR AUSTIN ALL OF THE SIDE EFFECTS HAVE NOW GONE AWAY EXCEPT FOR BEING TIRED SO WE WILL RESTART THE CHEMO AT A LOWER DOSE EITHER TODAY OR MONDAY DEPENDING ON WHEN MEMPHIS GETS IT SHIPPED TO US.I AM ACTUALLY KIND OF SURPRISED TAHT THEY WENT AWAY ALMOST IMMEDIATELY WE STOPPED THE MEDS LAST THURSDAY AND BY FRIDAY ALL THE SIDE EFFECTS HAD STOPPED EVEN HIS APPETITE RETURNED,SO I HAVE KIND OF BEEN IN THIS MODE WHERE I AM ASKING MYSELF ARE WE DOING THE RIGHT THING FOR AUSTIN PUTTING HIM THROUGH ALL OF THIS A BIG PART OF ME FEELS LIKE I AM,BUT THERE IS ALSO THE PART THAT SAYS THIS POOR GUY HAS BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH WITHOUT ME GIVING HIM MEDS TO MAKE HIM SICKER,BUT IN ALSO KNOW THAT THIS IS SOMETHING THAT I MUST DO IF WE WANT TO SAVE HIS LIFE.

SO WHAT I AM ASKING IS TAHT PLEASE PRAY THAT THE SIDE EFFECTS WILL BE LESS ON AUSTIN ON THE LOWER DOSE.

I NEED TO GO FOR NOW GOT TO GET EDDIE READY FOR SCHOOL,I'LL TRY TO UPDATE SOON THANKS FOR STOPPING BY AND AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING FOR ALL OF THESE LITTLES ONES AND PRAY FOR A COMPLETE CURE OF ALL CANCERS.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Friday, February 24, 2006 4:22 PM CST

HI EVERYONE GOOD NEWS ALL THE WAY AROUND BRAIN AND SPINE ARE BOTH STABLE.THE SYMPTOMS AUSTIN HAS BEEN HAVING ARE FROM SINUS PROBLEMS HE HAS SOME NECROSIS(DAMAGE FROM RADIATION) ON THE BRAIN BUT NOTHING FOR US TO BE CONCERNED ABOUT AT THIS POINT,SO ALL IS GOOD ON THAT ASPECT.

AUSTIN HAS BEEN EXPERIENCING SOME PRETTY ROUGH SIDE EFFECTS FROM THE LAPATINIB(CHEMO)SO WE HAVE WE HAVE DECIDED TO STOP HIS CHEMO FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS SO WE CAN GET A HANDLE ON IT AND WE WILL RESTART ON A SLIGHTLY LOWER DOSE,SO HOPEFULLY HE CAN TOLERATE THE LOWER DOSE A LITTLE EASIER.

WE HEAD HOME TOMMORROW AT 6:30 AM SHOULD BE INTERESTING AS WE HAVE BEEN INVITED TO GO TO A MEMPHIS GRIZZLIES GAME TONIGHT SO WE DECIDED TO GO HOPE ITS NOT AN OVERTIME GAME LOL THEY ARE PLAYING SAN ANTONIO SPURS SO SHOULD BE LOTS OF FUN.

AS FOR SCHOOL WE HAVE DECIDED THAT AUSTIN NEEDS TO GO HALF DAYS FOR A LITTLE WHILE JUST UNTIL HE CAN REGAIN SOME OF HIS STRENGTH BACK,BUT HOPEFULLY THAT WON'T BE LONG I DON'T REALLY WANT HIM TO STAY HOME I WANT HIM TO BE WITH HIS CLASSMATES AS MANY DAYS AS POSSIBLE SO HE CAN KIND OF HAVE A LITTLE NORMALCY IN HIS LIFE BUT I AM SURE HUNTINGTON WILL WORK WITH US( YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME)SO I AM GUESSING WE WILL NEED TO SET UP A MEETING TO DISCUSS PLANS.

WELL FOLKS I AM GOING TO GET OUT OF HERE FROM NOW THANK YOU ALL FOR PRAYING FOR MY HERO AS ALWAYS PRAYERS WORK MIRACLES!!!

SO AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Tuesday, February 21, 2006 12:51 AM CST

Hi Everyone just a really quick update from St.Judes all is going well so far ,I jsut got results back from Austin's spine MRI and as we had expected we are still stable there NED(no evidence of Disease) GO AUSTIN,we still have the brain mri to go on Thursday so please keep those prayers coming !!! Sorry its such a short but Austin is upstairs still kind of out of it from sedation so I need to get back upstairs.

THANKS FOR STOPPING BY TO CHECK ON MY HERO!!!!AND AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING FOR AUSTIN AND ALL OF OUR LITTLE BATTLING THESE AWFUL DISEASE!!!!!

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

PS.THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR AMAZING SUPPORT( especially you LISA couldn't do this without you,GIVE EDDIE A KISS AND TELL HIM I LOVE HIM!!!I'LL BE HOME SAT. IF ALL GOES WELL.

Saturday, February 18, 2006 4:32 AM CST

Hi all, I just wanted to drop in again and thank everyone at Huntington for all your amazing support,you all have became like our second family,I don't know how many times I have heard parents of other children battling cancer have said they have trouble with their schools not understanding any of the things we face as parents of these children,and I can honestly say I have never had any complaints ,you all have went above and beyond what most schools would do. I don't know how many times you guys have brought up questions that I would have never thought to ask and that in itself has been a big help,and then theres the fundraising for us and St.Judes,we thank you all from the bottom of our hearts,and I am sure that THANK YOU COMES FROM EACH AND EVERY PARENT AT ST.JUDES.

LISA, I KNOW I DON"T THANK YOU ENOUGH FOR ALL OF YOUR HELP IN CARING FOR EDDIE WHILE WE GO TO MEMPHIS,I CAN HONESTLY SAY WITHOUT YOU I WOULD HAVE GONE OVER THE EDGE BY NOW,YOU HAVE CARRIED THIS HEAVY BURDEN WITH ME FOR 18 MONTHS TODAY,MY BOYS ARE VERY LUCKY TO HAVE SOMEONE LOVE THEM AS MUCH AS I DO,YOU ARE LIKE A SECOND MOM TO THEM, I KNEW THE DAY I MET YOU 25 YEARS AGO THAT YOU WERE GOING TO BE SOMEONE VERY SPECIAL IN MY LIFE BUT I DON"T THINK I KNEW HOW SPECIAL UNTIL NOW,I LOVE YOU AND THANK YOU!!!!!!!!

KRIS AND CRAIG, THANK YOU GUYS FOR GETTING THE WORD OUT IN COTTONWOOD AND GOODLUCK WITH THE ST.JUDES RADIO-A-THON KRIS I KNOW THIS IS BIG THING FOR YOU DO AS SHY AS YOU ARE AND I AM FOREVER GRATEFUL FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT,I LOVE YOU GUYS CALL MY CELL IF YOU NEED ME IF ITS TURN OFF I WILL GET BACK TO YOU AS SOON AS I CAN.I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU!!

MOM I LOVE YOU AND THANK YOU AND DAD FOR RAISING ME TO HAVE THE STRENGTH AND COURAGE TO TRAVEL THIS JOURNEY.

AS FOR AUSTIN HE IS STILL HAVING ALOT OF HEADACHES AND NAUSEA THIS PAST COUPLE WEEKS SO PLEASE PRAY FOR HIM AND THAT HE HAS A GOOD WEEK AT ST.JUDES,HE HAS A VERY LONG WEEK OF TESTS AHEAD OF HIM AND WE NEED YOUR PRAYERS FOR GOOD RESULTS. I WILL POST AS QUICKLY AS I CAN THIS WEEK WITH RESULTS AS WE GET THEM.

AS YOU CAN ALL READ ENTRY IS VERY EMOTIONAL FOR ME BUT I FEEL THE NEED TO THANK EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU ALL THAT YOU HAVE DONE FOR MY SON,EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU PLAY A BIG PART IN GIVING US THE STRENGTH AND FAITH WE NEED TO FIGHT THIS BATTLE.

SO AS ALWAYS PLEASE PLEASE KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING WE NEED THEM NOW MORE THAN EVER.

LOVE DEBBIE AND AUSMAN

Sunday, February 12, 2006 9:40 AM CST

Hi Everybody,

Austin had a pretty rough week this past week,he was not feeling well all week,he has been having alot of nausea and dizzy spells and headaches this week,Saturday he woke up with a headache and was really dizzy next thing you know he was throwing up,we took Aunt Kris too the airport and then headed up to Akron they did a CT scan to rule out fluid build up on his brain ,that came back clear,but they can't rule out tumor growth,we are in panic mode here now ,He hasn't had these symptoms this bad since diagnosis so to say we are scared would be putting it mildly right now,we go back to Memphis in one week for scans PLEASE PRAY EXTRA FOR AUSTIN AND HIS SCANS NEXT WEEK WE REALLY NEED YOUR STRENGTH AND PRAYERS RIGHT NOW,WE WON"T KNOW THE RESULTS FOR ALMOST 2 WEEKS THOUGH HIS BRAIN SCAN ISN"T UNTIL A WEEK FROM WEDNESDAY.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

PS. KRIS WE MISS YOU ALREADY!!!

Wednesday, February 8, 2006 7:29 AM CST

Hi Everyone,

I am sorry for the very long delay in updates all is going pretty well here Austin has a little bit of a cold and has had quite a few bloody noses , I took him Saturday to have his bloodwork done and his counts are dropping but still in the comfortable zone,so the doctors think the bloody noses are from a sinus infection,he started on antibiotics and seems to be doing better.

We have had company here from Arizona for a couple of weeks, the boys have really had a great time with Kris they had not seen her since they were both really little so I was surprised to see how quick they took to her,she goes home this saturday morning,I have a feeling we are all going to miss her alot.

As for St.Judes we go back next Sunday for a week full of scans so please be praying for us,we are really hoping for shrinkage this month.

SO AS ALWAYS KEEP ALL THESE LITTLE ONES SUFFERING FROM THIS DREADFUL DISEASE IN YOUR PRAYERS!!!

Love Debbie and THE AUSMAN

Sunday, January 29, 2006 7:51 PM CST

Hi Everyone,
Sorry for the delay in updates always remember if I am not updatuing regularly that means everything is going smooth and we are enjoying our family time,Austin is doing really well still having all the side effect issues and now nosebleeds quite frequently not really bad ones but he can just be sitting there and blood will start dripping,hopefully its just all the weather changes.His appetite medicine seems to be working pretty well still making kind of tired but he is adjusting well to it.

As for Eddie he seems to be to be doing a little better we have had had some attitude issues going on lately but I think with the help off his teacher at school I think we can work together to help him I think he is feeling a little left out because I have to give Austin so much attention so he feels left behind.So we will see how it goes.

Well I am going to close for now I will do my best to update soon,I have company visiting from Arizona for the next 2 weeks so I may be kind of slacking off but then again I have been slacking off lately anyway Sorry I'll try harder but he is doing so well alot of times its always the same thing to say but please don't give up checking on us I still need you guys its always reassuring to know we are not alone in this battle,so I will close with my usual AS ALWAYS KEEP THOSE PRAYERS COMING NEXT SCANS ARE FEB 19th-25th We want SHRINKAGE OR AT LEAST STABLE WE CAN LIVE WITH THAT TOO.

Love Debbie and Ausman

Wednesday, January 25, 2006 12:56 AM CST

Hi Everyone,

WERE BACK ,We got in lastnight,everything at St.Judes went really good his counts are still doing good,the only thing that is different is we are changing his appetite medicine he will now be taking Merinol 2 times a day as to timing we still have to fine tune the schedule,I am hoping we can avoid him having to take it at school,he took the first dose this morning it definately made him hungry but it also made him really tired but we are always tired when we get home so will see how this next dose goes,I'll keep you all posted at school about how this will work.

We had a lot go on while we were up at St.Judes ,Austin and I did interviews for 4 different news stations so he is a Star but WE ALL KNEW THAT ALREADY,1 of those interview was done for an OHIO news station it was really fun I am not quite sure when the original interview will air but there will be a telethon I believe its will be aired on channel 3 and 19 in our area sometime in April as soon as I have all the details I will post them it should also be posted on the news website so I will add a link at the bottom of the page when it is available.

Anyway or next trip up will be all his MRI'S we go back Feb 19th-25th ,but for now PLEASE KEEP FOR AUSMAN AND ALL THE LITTLE ONES SUFFERING FROM THIS DREADFUL DISEASE,AND HOPE FOR A COMPLETE CURE FOR ALL PEOPLE SUFFERING FROM CANCER!!!

LOVE DEBBIE AND AUSMAN

Saturday, January 21, 2006 4:34 PM CST

Hi Everyone,

Just a quick update for you guys. Austin is doing really well this week,eating is still about the same,but I now can say without a doubt I think we have the nausea issue under control. The boys got their report cards yesterday,I am so PROUD of BOTH of them,Austin got all C's and B's and get got satifactory in all areas except he needs improvement in 1 area he tends to rush his work so you often have trouble reading his work,goes to show both boys are definately mine LOL I have the same habit and always have. Anyway thats all the update I have for now which is good ,that just means all is going smooth in our household.
We are headed back to St.Judes on Monday just for a check up which basically means Height,Weight,Vitals,and of course Labwork.

AS ALWAYS KEEP THOSE PRAYERS COMING FOR THE AUSMAN AND ALL THE OTHER CHILDREN BATTLING THIS DREADFUL DISEASE.

PS. IN CASE YOU GUYS HAVEN"T NOTICED I CHANGED PICTURES AGAIN THESE ARE JUST A COUPLE OF PICTURES ALONG OUR JOURNEY.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Tuesday, January 17, 2006 7:24 AM CST

Hi Everyone,

Just a quick update sorry not a whole lot new going on here,Austin has been doing really really good this week,his eating problems seem to have gotten better,don't know exactly what helped it improve but as long as its working were not going to complain,I think honestly its because we added another nausea pill in the morning to be taken with his chemo. Only thing that is new is he has had like 2 headaches in 5 days so thats making me a little nervous.As far as the discipline goes it has been going really good too, the boys are getting along MUCH better in fact kind of nervous cause they are getting along too good .

We go back to St.Judes next Monday the 23rd and we will be back on Wed this appointment is just a check up(Bloodwork,weight,height,and hopefully dental)

Well sorry such a short update but have to finish getting boys ready for school SO AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!

Wednesday, January 11, 2006 11:29 AM CST

Hi Everybody,

Sorry about the last update I was at my wits end with the boys , this week is going much better in fact the last 2 days have been uneventful, Austin is off groundation yes I know I only grounded until Monday so I went kind of easy on him but I had made the deal with him that if he made up all the work he didn't turn in last week and he took his punishment without arguing I would let him off Monday he did do all of his work and sat on the couch the entire weekend and read or colored but I also told him if it happened again he would be grounded from everything but redaing for 2 weeks and I will stick too it,he was kind of mad at me for putting his behavior on his site but after I explained to him that sometimes mom just needs to get things out he was ok with it.

AS far as his health goes we have been having issues with him keeping food down,we were thinking it was a swallowing issue but yesterday I went and bought some new soft foods to try nad they worked so now we are thinking it is in fact taste so for now we will just keep trying new things until we get it right,I also changed his timing on his nausea meds he now gets them every morning with the Lapatnib and every night the Kytril is supposed to be a 24 hour pill but seems to only be lasting 12 hours so we will see.

Anyway that is all for now AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING THEY ARE WORKING!!!AND PLEASE DON"T FORGET TO SIGN HIS GUESTBOOK ITS GETTING KIND OF QUIET LATELY WE SEE LOTS OF PEOPLE CHECKING ON HIM EVEN IF ITS JUST TO SAY HI WE LOVE TO HEAR FROM YOU ALL.UNTIL NEXT TIME,THANKS FOR STOPPING BY.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Saturday, January 7, 2006 1:34 PM CST

Hi Everyone all is going well here,both the boys are feeling good arguing like typical brothers.It has been quite an intertaining week for me,It has taking me quite a while to realize how much Austin has gotten away with so much, I am now trying to correct what I have done ,he seems to think he can break the rules and suffer no punishment,but for those who know me also know that I had lost faith and truly was not sure that we would have him with us,but that has changed completely I believe he WILL BEAT THIS,and it is my job to raise him to be a decent,kind and loving young man,don't get me wrong he hasn't away with everything he has done but I have been inconsistant in the discipline area ,and we as parents know that doesn't help,lets see in a weeks time he has lied to me everyday saying he doesn't have schoolwork(so he will spend as long as it takes completing the assignments)he has punched Eddie repeatedly once in the face and broke Eddies glasses,he cryed and screamed at me that I don't love him and he just wants to die,(but I know that is not true,and too many things to list so needless to say he is grounded indefinately ,he only allowed to sit and color,read or work on schoolwork.I know lots of you are thinking where is Dad in all this,dad works alot so I am with the boys more neither one of them responds at all to their father ,he trys to help but it seems Austin only gets angrier when dad trys to get involved,then Austin starts hitting his head on the wall and kicking throwing things so for now I will be in charge of this until things get alittle more undercontrol.So anyway thats it for now.I am going to end this one a little different for today PLEASE PRAY THAT I HAVE THE STRENGTH AND WILL TO DO THIS,IT IS STILL VERY HARD TO PUNISH AUSTIN WHEN IN MY MIND HE HAS BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH AND I CAN'T HELP THINKING
THAT HE HAS EVERY RIGHT TO BE ANGRY,BUT IF I ALLOW HIM TO ME ANGRY NOW I WILL BE SAYING ITS OK TO BE AN ANGRY ADULT AND I DON'T WANT TO BE VISITING MY SON IN JAIL SOMEDAY!!!!

LOVE DEBBIE

Tuesday, January 3, 2006 10:21 PM CST

Hi Everyone,
Just a quick update its getting kind of late,but all is going well in our home,BOTH the boys managed to stay up on NEW YEARS of course they slept until noon the next day,LOL

We had a very special milestone today Austin got his FIRST HAIRCUT since Feb of 2004,he looks so handsome and grown up I cried while he was getting it cut, glad he didn't see me,I think that would have embarrassed him LOL,Yes Sadie Eddie got his cut too ,I'll try to post a picture sometime tomorrow of my 2 handsome little men.Other than that not a whole lot going on but that is always a good thing though.Boys went back to school today so maybe I can get some stuff done around here today was a lazy day for mom LOL .Well thats all for now AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING FOR ALL THESE LITTLE ONES BATTLING THIS DREADFUL DISEASE!!!THANKS FOR STOPPING BY.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Saturday, December 31, 2005 3:47 PM CST

HI EVERYONE,

HAPPY NEW YEARS !!! HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A SAFE NIGHT,I KNOW WE WILL,WERE JUST STAYING HOME AND DRINKING SPARKLING APPLE CIDER AND BRINGING IN THE NEW YEARS AS A FAMILY,I LET THE BOYS SLEEP IN THIS MORNING SO HOPEFULLY THEY WILL BOTH MAKE IT UNTIL THE BALL DROPS,POOR AUSTIN DIDN"T MAKE IT LAST YEAR HE FELL ASLEEP AT LIKE 11:30,SO HE IS DETEREMINED TO MAKE IT TONIGHT.

TODAY I AM GOING TO CLOSE A LITTLE DIFFERENT I AM GOING PRAY THAT EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU AND YOUR FAMILIES HAVE A SAFE AND WONDERFUL NEW YEARS,ANS I AM ALSO GOING TO PRAY THAT 2006 WILL BE THE YEAR THAT WE WILL BEAT THIS DARN DISEASE.

LOVE DEBBIE AND AUSMAN

Thursday, December 29, 2005 5:47 PM CST

Hi Everyone,

WE ARE HOME SAFE AND SOUND I WILL ADD A COMPLETE UPDATE LATER BUT FOR ALL OF YOU CHECKING HERES A QUICK UPDATE
SPINE IS CLEAR (NED) NO EVIDENCE OF DISEASE,AND FOR THOSE JUST CHECKING IN BRAIN IS STABLE(NO NEW GROWTH)WE ARE STARTING OFF TO HAVE A WONDERFUL NEW YEARS.

AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING CAUSE THEY ARE WORKING!!!

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Tuesday, December 27, 2005 11:19 PM CST

HI EVERYONE,

THANK YOU ALL FOR SENDING UP PRAYERS FOR AUSMAN,WE HAVE WONDERFUL NEWS,RESULTS FROM THE BRAIN MRI ARE IN AND ITS STABLE,NO NEW GROWTH,TOMMORROW IS SPINE MRI BUT WE ARE CONFIDENT THAT TOO WILL STILL BE CLEAR,I"LL UPDATE SOMETIME TOMMORROW OR THURSDAY WITH NEWS ON THAT ONE ITS LATER IN THE DAY SO WE MAY NOT HAVE REPORT UNTIL THURSDAY.

WELL THATS IT FOR NOW ITS LATE AND BEDTIME FOR ME HAVE ANOTHER LONG DAY AHEAD OF US.

AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!THANKS FOR STOPPING DON"T FORGET TO SIGN THE GUESTBOOK.

LOVE DEBBIE AND THE AUSMAN

Sunday, December 25, 2005 7:50 PM CST

Hi EVERYBODY,

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! HOPE EVERYBODY HAD A WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS I KNOW WE SURE DID,THESE BOYS HAD THE BEST CHRISTMAS THEY HAVE EVER HAD, THANK YOU EVERYONE WHO MADE THAT POSSIBLE FOR US ,I CAN HONESTLY SAY WE COULDN"T LIVE IN A BETTER COMMUNITY THAN BRUNSWICK,THROUGHOUT THIS ENTIRE BATTLE YOU GUYS HAVE CAME THROUGH FOR US JUST WHEN WE NEEDED IT MOST,I CAN NEVER REPAY YOU ALL FOR YOUR GENEROUSITY AND KINDNESS.

LISA AND JIM THANK YOU AND THE KIDS FOR ANOTHER WONDERFUL YEAR DINNER AS ALWAYS WAS GREAT,EVERYTHING ABOUT ALL OF YOU IS AMAZING,I LOVE YOU GUYS ,WITHOUT YOU OUR LIVES WOULD NOT BE COMPLETE,LISA WHETHER YOU KNOW IT OR NOT YOU HAVE BEEN MY STRENGTH AND MY COURAGE THROUGH OUT THIS ENTIRE 16 MONTHS WE HAVE BEEN ON THIS ROAD,I KNOW I DON"T TALK TO YOU AS MUCH AS YOU WOULD LIKE BUT I HAVE TO SAY THAT JUST HAVING YOU NEAR GIVES ME STRENGTH,I CAN"T ALWAYS PUT INTO WORDS WHAT I AM FEELING OR THINKING.

OK ENOUGH OF THAT SORRY GETTING A LITTLE EMOTIONAL AS YOU ALL KNOW WE LEAVE FOR MEMPHIS TOMORROW MORNING FOR MRI"S SO WE ARE JUST A LITTLE ANXIOUS RIGHT NOW,SO AS ALWAYS I AM ASKING EACH OF YOU READING THIS TO PLEASE SEND UP AND EXTRA PRAYER OR TWO THAT WE HAVE AT LEAST HAVE STABLE SCANS,SHRINKING WOULD BE AMAZING BUT WE ARE OK WITH STABLE.
SO WITH THAT I AM GOING TO CLOSE FOR NOW THANK YOU FOR CHECKING IN ON US I SEE WE HAVE OVER 10,000 VISITORS TO AUSMAN"S SITE WOW THATS LOTS OF PRAYERS!!!!!!

I WILL UPDATE AS SOON AS I HEAR ANYTHING!!!

LOVE DEBBIE

QUICK UPDATE FROM ST.JUDES

WE HAVE MRI RESULTS ALREADY ON THE BRAIN !!!!!!!ITS STABLE,YES WHAT A WONDERFUL ENDING FOR 2005!!!!!!!!STILL HAVE SPINAL MRI TO GO TOMMORROW BUT WE AREN"T THAT WORRIED ABOUT THAT ONE WE ARE SURE WE WILL GET CLEAR ON THAT ONE.I WILL ADD UPDATE AS SOON AS I HAVE MORE GREAT NEWS .

Tuesday, December 20, 2005 10:44 PM CST

Hi Everybody Sorry for the pictures being so big I can't seem to make them smaller without cropping too much of it,so I decided to deal with it for now.All is going ok here boys are both sick AGAIN Austin has a bad cold,so far we will be stuck in isolation when we get to St.Judes,hopefully he will kick it in the next 4 days but not so sure thats going to happen.We are pretty much ready for xmas,still have lots of baking to do and of course wrapping too.Well guys sorry for the very short update but I am beat emotionally,mentally and physically been one heck of a month,Aunt Lisa is in the hospital she has been sick since last week but only seems to be getting worse,she has been really dizzy,can't hardly walk,I have to admit I am very nervous so far they can't figure out what is wrong,MRI's show nothing,CT scan show nothing,and blood work is fine so we are clueless.SO WITH THAT I AM GOING TOO CLOSE AND ASK YOU ALL TO PLEASE PRAY FOR AUSTIN AND LISA.

LOVE DEBBIE

Wednesday, December 14, 2005 5:33 PM CST

Hi Everyone,

Thank you all for checking in.We are all getting over our sore throats finally,But unfortunately Aunt Lisa has it now we hope she feels better real soon,and we always feel really bad when we start the illness but it does seem like everytime we get sick she gets it right after us :(

As far as Austin goes his sorethroat is gone but the diarea is still there it went away for like 3 days and then it came back so most likely what most likely going to happen is when we go back to St.Judes on Dec 26 th we will end up taking him OFF this chemo for at least 2 weeks to give his little body a chance to recover,then we will put him back on it again,but unfortunately if the symptoms return we will have to stop this treatments and go to the next trail,man I hope that doesn't happen because our next option is very harsh and he will most likely end up having a port in we had hoped to avoid anymore surgeries,so for know I am going to leave you all with one request and THAT IS AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!AND PLEASE PRAY THAT THESE DARN SIDE EFFECTS GET BETTER SO HE CAN STAY ON THIS DRUG !!!THANKS FOR STOPPING BY AND THANKS TO THOSE WHO HAVE SIGNED AUSTIN"S GUESTBOOK!!!!

I also want to add that I hope everyone is ready for SANTA I KNOW MY BOYS ARE DOING THERE COUNTDOWN TO HIS ARRIVAL !!MY COUNTDOWN HAS BEGUN FOR OTHER REASONS THIS TRIP TO ST.JUDES IS FOR MRI'S OF BRAIN AND SPINE SO WE ARE GETTING VERY NERVOUS.

LOVE DEBBIE

Friday, December 9, 2005 10:05 PM CST

Hi Everyone,

I am so sorry for the long delay in updating you guys,Yes all is well with Austin he had a rough week but he is feeling ,much better now.

As for the rest of us we have been so busy this week,I have no idea where to start. Last Sunday Eddie woke up with a high fever and a sore throat,so we ended up in the emergency room so it was no surprise to find out he had Strepthroat,So needless to say allday Monday I had a miserable kid on my hands,and then Austin ends up sick that day so I take him to our family doctor surprise,ALL 3 of us have strep throat figures we all but Dad would get it. Then Tuesday I go to my scheduled appointment with my doctor because I have been having chest pains for a while now and have had 2 EKG's come back abnormal so we decided to do an echogram(which is a detailed look at the heart)and low and behold doctor decides he sees some blockage in my heart,so needless to say I needed more tests done so I had to go Thursday to the hospital for a nuclear stress test( they literally used some kind of radio active chemical to basically make my heart glow so they see what exactly is going.(I actually have to carry a card that says I am radioactive until tomorrow LOL) So needless to say I am still waiting to hear back from the cardiologist what we are going to do to unblock the arteries if we need to do anything at all they added a new medication that may help so hopefully thats all we will need to do. THen we move onto today Eddie has been having alot of headaches for those of you that don't know who I am talking about Eddie is Austin little brother,anyway as you can imagine being the mother of a child with a brain tumor headaches are a very scary thing for me,so my doctor decided we should do a CT SCAN just to make sure everything is ok there and for peace of mind because as you all can imagine I now have been suffering from panic attacks alot more than usual lately. WE ALREADY GOT THE RESULTS BACK AND THEY ARE NORMAL SO WE NOW BELIEVE HE IS EITHER USING THE HEADACHE THING FOR ATTENTION OR HE HAS SINUS PROBLEMS!!!

SO anyway that has been my first week back from St.Judes and the reason I have not updated it has been very frustrating this week and I had no clue what I was feeling so I couldn't put anything into words SO PLEASE FORGIVE MY LACK OF UPDATES .

OK THIS UPDATE HAS BEEN LONG ENOUGH TONIGHT THANK YOU ALL FOR CHECKING IN I WILL KEEP YOU POSTED ON THE HEART THING MOM AND EVERYONE ELSE!! BUT FOR NOW I AM GOING TO END THIS WITH MY USUAL LOL.

AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!! I HOPE EVERYONE IS READY FOR CHRISTMAS I KNOW I AM NOT EVEN CLOSE YET LOL.

LOVE DEBBIE

Thursday, December 1, 2005 9:02 PM CST

Hi Everyone,

We are home safe and sound,It looks all is going well with the Lapatinib so far. The doctors are pleased with how Austin is doing ,ALL his counts look really good said there is Nothing of concern at this point. The only concern was that Austin getting pretty tired quick so they want us to make sure he is at least playing actively whether it be playing catch(should be fun inside on snowy days,so much for the old rule no playing ball in the house)
and trying to keep as active as we can without over doing it,that way as the chemo continues to build in his system he won't have so far to work to get back to normal,We will now be seeing physical therapy every month at St.Judes to help try to keep up some of his endurance.

THE PHOTO ON HIS HOME PAGE IS OF OUR LITTLE BUDDY IAN HE IS FROM STREETSBORO,AUSTIN GAVE HIM ONE OF HIS BERNIE KOSAR AUTOGRAPHED FOOTBALLS I AM SO PROUD OF HIM,EVEN WHEN HE DOESN"T FEEL WELL HE IS SUCH A GENEROUS AND LOVING LITTLE BOY,HE HATES TO SEE OTHER KIDS GO WITHOUT AT ST.JUDES .

Its been a while since I mentioned the AUSMAN BRACELETS they are selling really well so far I believe they have sold almost 750 so far,thats alot of people praying for THE AUSMAN thank you HUNTINGTON ELEMENTRY SCHOOL ,I DO HAVE TO SAY TODAY WHEN WE WERE AT ST.JUDES AND WAS DISCUSSING ALL THE THINGS THE SCHOOL HAS DONE AS FAR AS EDUCATION,OCCUPATIONAL AND PHYSICAL THERAPY I WAS TOLD BY THE STAFF AT THE HOSPITAL HOW BLESSED WE ARE TO HAVE SUCH A GREAT SYSTEM.ALTHOUGH I DIDN'T NEED TO BE TOLD BECAUSE I KNOW YOU GUYS ARE ALL AMAZING IT WAS NICE TO HEAR HOW LUCKY WE ARE THANK YOU ALL AGAIN !!!

WELL GUYS ITS LATE AUSTIN ISN"T FEELING WELL AND I AM EXHAUSTED TIME TO GET SOME REST!!AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!!!!

Love Debbie

Tuesday, November 29, 2005 3:17 PM CST

Hi Everybody,

Sorry its been a few days again since I updated, All is going well here Austin is doing really well with the new chemo which has been really good for him,he has now been on the LAPATINIB for one month and has had minimal side effects some nausea and fatigue but other than that he is doing well.

We are headed back to St.Judes tomorrow morning so we will see how they think things are going,hopefully we will be back on Thursday as long as he checks out ok with them we will only be gone overnight for this trip.

I DO HAVE TO SAY I AM VERY PROUD OF BOTH OF MY BOYS THEY BOTH GOT STUDENT OF THE MONTH LAST MONTH HOW COOL IS THAT
THIS IS EDDIE'S SECOND TIME IN 3 MONTHS. AUSTIN AND EDDIE I LOVE YOU KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK BOYS!!!!!

Sorry for the short update I will try to update a little bit more often but for now AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!!!!

Love Debbie

Friday, November 25, 2005 9:40 PM CST

HI EVERYBODY,

I just wanted to update real quick before I go to bed.

We had a wonderful Thanksgiving,we spent the entire day together as a Family and had many things to be thankful,(LIFE,LOVE,FAITH,HOPE,FAMILY,FRIENDS,AND MANY MORE!!!)But the best part of our day was putting up our Christmas Tree together Austin and Eddie did a wonderful job putting all the ornaments on our tree is all angels and ornaments the boys have made over the years it is a VERY special tree.IT was a very emotional day in our household.

Austin is feeling pretty good today he has been playing out in the snow of and on allday,in fact him and Eddie are still up and playing nice together it is really nice listening to both of my boys laugh and play together.

I am going to get going for now I just wanted to drop a quick line to let you all know we are doing well,Just getting ready to start packing for St.Judes it should be a quick trip we leave Wed scheduled to return Thurs,so please pray that all is going well and we can get back home quickly.AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!

Love Debbie

PS. Kris and Craig, Thanks for all your guys support and distraction yesterday I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!! New Picture is there Kris.

Thursday, November 24, 2005 7:12 AM CST

HI EVERYBODY,

H A P P Y

T H A N K S G I V I N G

E V E R Y O N E ! !

All is well here both the boys are up and about and I thought I would get to go back to bed for a few guess not!!
I just got back home from getting a new christmas tree and the
boys are driving me crazy already. So I guess I better get my tail in gear cause they aren't waiting its going up with or without me. So I will update later on or tomorrow I have a feeling my guys are going to keep me real busy today,but thats ok because after all it is thanksgiving and I am thankful to have yet another year with BOTH of my boys.SO AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!

Love Debbie

Tuesday, November 22, 2005 8:24 PM CST

Hi Everybody,

All is going good here Austin is feeling pretty good today he actually ate 3 full meals today,I think I need to have Grandma T and Mama and Papa Lipkeman come visit more often its the most he ate in over a month.We had a really great visit unfortunately poor Ed didn't didn't get to visit much with them he ended up working most of the time they were here but Samantha(our neice)and Austin,and Eddie and myself had a really nice time. They all seemed real pleased at how well Austin is doing they haven't seen him since he was diagnosed so I am sure they had no idea what to expect.The only new side effect is he has a few little sores on his face,so we have to check into that.They said he would most likely he would get a rash but not sure if this is the rash they were talking about,but we will see next week.

As for the Ausman bracelets they are selling pretty fast I think they have sold over 300 of them so far in two days,THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR YOUR SUPPORT!!

Now for our LOCAL WEATHER just kidding guys we got our first official snow today the kids are driving us nuts they can't wait to go sledding and to be honest I can't either we didn't get to enjoy because we had surgeries,chemo, and then radiation so Austin wasn't feeling all that great last winter so we are hoping this year he will feel better,he did seem to be getting tired easily but that seems to be getting better,hopefully it stays that way.I'll keep you all posted.We go back to St.Judes next Wed the 30th for a check up.

Well al I am going get to bed early we have to go up to Akron for Labwork and Physical tomorrow morning not sure how weather will be so AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!THANKS AGAIN FOR YOUR SUPPORT!!!

Love Debbie

PS.I HAVE A MESSAGE FROM AUSMAN HE NOTICED HE HAS HAD AN AWFUL LOT OF VISITORS TO HIS SITE BUT NOT ALOT OF PEOPLE IN THE GUESTBOOK HE SAYS YOU ALL NEED TO SIGN THAT GUESTBOOK HE WANTS TO KNOW WHO YOU ARE LOL EVEN ITS JUST TO SAY HI!!!

Sunday, November 20, 2005 8:20 PM CST

Hi Everyone,

Sorry this journal will be kind of short and sweet ,we have had a wonderful weekend.THANKS TO BERNIE KOSAR(Former Browns Player # 19 )We had the chance of a lifetime to take the boys to a Browns game ,we had awesome seats,we could actually sit and watch the game we were seated near the endzone.The boys had a really good time also,the FINAL SCORE WAS 22-0 Browns shut Miami out.I don't even understand or like football and I even had a good time,of course I watched the expressions on my boys face more than I did the game and the joy on their faces was priceless.We were able to take our nephew Ryan he is probably the biggest Browns fan you will ever meet and he also had an amazing time after 14 years I finally got to experience a first with him, THANK YOU FOR GOING RYAN I HOPE YOU HAD A GOOD TIME!!!

Well all I need to go for now its time to put my guys to bed they have a long day ahead of them,AUSMAN bracelets officially go on sale tommorrow so there really excited,and we got a surprise phone call today their Grandma and Grandpa(Eds Parents and Grandma),and their Great Grandma are coming to visit Monday also they have to leave Wed though so we are having Thanksgiving early at our house.Well AS ALWAYS KEEP THOSE PRAYERS COMING!!!

Love Debbie

Friday, November 18, 2005 6:56 PM CST

Hi Everyone,
Sorry it took a while to update once again,no new side effects to report except that Austin has lost another 2 lbs he still isn't eating hardly anything at all he just picks at everything nothing tastes good. Its official THE AUSMAN bracelets go on sale at Huntington Elementary School Monday at 9 am,they are selling them for 2 dollars a piece.1 dollar from each one will go to St.Judes and the other will be going towards our family,anyone interested in getting your official Blue AUSMAN bracelets they are like the yellow LIVESTRONG bracelets except they are to wear in support of our AUSMAN,you can email me and I can get them and ship them out just use my email address at the bottom of this page wear its says email author,if you happen to email me and we are at St.Judes Aunt Lisa will be in touch just be sure to email your mailing addresses and how many you would like our goal is to sell 1500,one of us will be in touch.

Well all I really need to go its chemo time,So AS ALWAYS KEEP ALL THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!

Love Debbie

Tuesday, November 15, 2005 3:17 PM CST

HI Everybody,

Sorry for the delay in updates,its quite intertaining trying to get computer time in my house these days,Austin got his laptop from KINFOLKS through St.Judes so he has his own now,but Eddie is learning how to use a computer more at school so now between him and my neice Samantha its quite fun trying to get on here,I am about to get me a baking timer and set it for them LOL,I miss my computer time.

All is going ok here I think the chemo is starting to affect Austin a little more he hasn't been eating very well lately says he is real nauseous,I had to take him to school 2 hours late this morning once his stomache settled down he was able to eat and then he felt a little better,I am really glad he went he got the VERY FIRST AUSMAN bracelet he came home so excited and teasing me because I don't have one yet but thats ok I will get mine soon LOL he is entitled to have it first.Yes they are in, details coming soon!!!AS too when,where,and how to gets yours too!!Part of the proceeds will be going to St.Judes,not sure on all the details,Huntington School is selling them(THANK YOU GUYS)they are awesome.

Well all my computer time is up LOL I better go for know its time to make dinner so AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!DETAILS COMING SOON ON THE OFFICIAL AUSMAN BRACELETS!!!THANKS FOR CHECKING IN.

Love Debbie

Saturday, November 12, 2005 8:04 PM CST

Hi Everyone,

Sorry I haven't updated in a few days we have been pretty busy since we got home.Thursday we went to Midway Mall and made an appearance on WGAR radio for the St.Judes Radio-A-Thon they raised $308,000. I am so proud of Austin he did so good,he sounded so grown up,he kind of got mad at me cause I called him my baby on the air.

Saturday was really neat too Ed and Samantha(our niece)
took the boys back up to midway to show our support to WGAR and St.Judes for another fundraiser,Austin was able to meet Buddy Jewell (Country Singer)and get our St.Jude christmas ornaments autographed they had a great time still don't know how much they raised for St.Judes today.

Karan we recieved the package today you guys are so awesome please have Chelsea thank her class for us it really made his day,Austin is feeling a little under the weather from his chemo but he is still doing very well, nothing we can't handle so far,just the same ones I listed in the last journal.He went back to school Friday and did great.I can't tell you in words how awesome his school is his teacher even emailed me during the day to let me know he was doing good I appreciated that very much.Well all thats it for know gonna go tuck my guys in bed so AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!THEY ARE WORKING AUSMAN IS A MIRACLE IN THE MAKING JUST WATCH AND SEE!!!HE WILL BEAT THIS.

Love Debbie
Ps.Please add an extra prayer for our little online hero Christopher and his family.He became Angel this morning after a long a VERY COURAGEOUS BATTLE against Ependymoma also.THANK YOU VERY MUCH YOU GUYS ARE OUR STRENGTH DURING OUR WEAKEST MOMENTS!!

Wednesday, November 9, 2005 3:33 PM CST

Hi Everyone,

I just wanted to let everyone know we made it home safe and sound,we will be home for 21 days then we go back up for at least 2 days maybe three,so will be home pretty much long enough to unpack and repack again.Then we will be home until Christmas and leave the day after. That trip will be about 4 days,he will have brain and spine MRI's ,and a PET scan,and Echo test which is to check his heart for possible damage from new chemo(Lapatinib),we will have all of these tests done every 2 months to keep a close eye on everything.

So far he seems to be tolerating the chemo,with very little side effects,just seems a little tired and a little more tired,he is alittle embarrased about the other side effect so I am not typing the actual word can't spell it anyway LOL,but all but being tired so far are easily controlled with meds,Imodium for the one and still on Kytril for nausea,his appetite hasn't been real good either so they added Periactin for an appetite stimulant.

I have to say St.Judes is the best hospital ever they are not only treating Austin but are treating us as a family,which is important,Because of course when he was diagnosed the entire family was effected,I knew how sick Austin was but until I got there I didn't really realize the effect it had on all of us,We as parents had pretty been on what I call auto pilot just going with what we had to do and never really emotionally dealing with the trauma in our lives,I really didn't know how to function or deal with my feelings,Many tears later I feel there is HOPE and FAITH put into our lives.

AS for the spine and being free of tumors,we may never know for sure if Akron was correct and there were tumors there or not but We want to believe we have been blessed with a miracle either way we look at it,it is a blessing and I feel like 10 tons of bricks has been lifted of my shoulders,but another part of me believes Akron made a huge mistake and they were never there,and if that is the case he recieved unnecessary radiation to his entire brain and spine,it should been tumor site only,I am still looking further into it,but not sure I will ever find out for sure.

And last but not least I have to say Huntington(Austin's School) is amazing in the way they handle all of the information ,and look out for my guy at school, they leave no stone unturned when it comes to him,when I hear the expressesion No Child is Left Behind,Huntington is a perfect example of how all schools should handle children with terminal illneses and disabilities should be handled.THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR BEING THE AMAZING TEAM YOU GUYS ARE!!!I couldn't do this if I had to worry about him at school too I trust you all completly!!!

AND FOR THE RADIOATHON TO BENEFIT ST.JUDES IT WILL BE ON WGAR 99.5 AT 2 PM THURSDAY that is when we are scheduled to go on the air,so far Austin is planning on telling his story and how he feels about St.Judes.

Well I have written a book tonight I better close for now its time to cook dinner SO AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING AND THANK YOU ALL FOR CHECKING IN!!!

Love Debbie

Saturday, November 5, 2005 3:29 PM CST

Hi Everybody,

I just stopped by for a quick update,Austin seems to be tolerating the new chemo pretty well now,its making him a little tired and yesterday he had a pretty rough day with diarea(sorry probably spelled it wrong) and a lot of nausea but today he is doing really good so far.

We are still still coming home on Tuesday,not sure if he will go back to school Wed or not yet we will see how he is feeling,Thursday its back to the doctors the poor little guy has to go to Akron every Thursday for lab work and a check up. We will head back up here to St.Judes at the end of the month should only be for a day or two for check up and a couple of tests. I'll try to do a more detailed update of his entire treatment plan once we get back home.But for now I have a date to play air hockey with Austin so I am going to go for now.AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!!!

Love Debbie

Saturday, November 5, 2005 3:29 PM CST

Thursday, November 3, 2005 1:43 PM CST

Hi Everybody,

I just wanted to update everybody and let you all know things are going really well here,Austin took his first chemo this morning and so far we have no complications and clinic isn't expecting any.So it looks as though we are DEFINATELY coming home this Tuesday the 8th,in fact we are through with appointments now until Tuesday morning when we get a final look over from the doctor,We will come back on or around Dec 1st I will have a complete schedule for the next few trips up here before we leave Tuesday.

We met a little boy up here from Ohio his name is Ian he is the cutest little guy,he was just diagnosed last week so he new on this journey can you all please do me a BIG favor and add him to your prayers they have a very long road ahead of them also.Well guys Austin ready to go outside and play some ball I need to go for now so AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!!!Thanks for stopping by!!

Love Debbie

Tuesday, November 1, 2005 8:11 PM CST

Hi Everybody,

Austin got his package today from the school,he loved all the cards from the kids in his class,it made his day complete of course it was a good day all the way around,we are now out of isolation so we can join the rest of the world and Austin can play with some of the kids here definately makes things easier for me,I can only think of so many things to do to entertain him.

And on a better note so far looks like we are going home next Tuesday,he will have the last of his tests he needs done tomorrow, and he will start his chemo on Thursday,we will stya until Tuesday to make sure he doesn't have any major reactions to the drug,from what we know so far about it.It is fairly mild and should have no major side effects,so what I am needing from all of you guys is to PRAY THAT AUSTIN TOLERATES THIS CHEMO WELL AND HAS NO MAJOR SIDE EFFECTS FROM IT,SO ON THAT NOTE I WILL CLOSE FOR NOW AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!! I will update soon thanks for checking in on my HERO!!!

Love Debbie

Monday, October 31, 2005 10:15 PM CST

Hi Everybody,

I's sorry I haven't updated since Friday,after I updated we recieved a phone call at the room Austin has the Flu and strep throat so we are still in isolation,he was pretty upset allday today because the hospital had trick or treating and a party at Grizzly House where we are staying and we weren't allowed to go.But we did have a great time with our friends from the wish cruise we went to Graceland,I enjoyed but Austin got kind of bored then we wandered around Memphis for a while Sat,then on Sunday we rode this really cool trolley around with some of our other friends we met here at Grizzly.

Its getting kind of late so I will go for now,I'll keep ypu all posted as soon as we get out of isolation we can proceed with a couple more tests and start his chemo it will be every day for 2 years by mouth so AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!

I'll UPDATE SOON!!!

Love Debbie

Friday, October 28, 2005 11:42 AM CDT

Hi Everybody,
Just another quick update got the results of the brain Mri and his tumor is stable which is great news.

We are in the middle of moving to another room Austin has Strep Throat so we are moving to isolation for 24 hours so he is not a really happy camper right now can't go play with any of the other kids so guess he has settle for good ol moms company LOL til tomorrow anyway,our friends the the wish trip should be getting in late tonight so we will see them tomorrow,I'll try to update by Sunday,Thanks for checking in on us,we aren't sure now when we will go home right now hopefully we will know sometime next week how long we will be here ,I'll keep you all posted.AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING WE HAVE MORE MIRACLE IN THE MAKING!!!Don't forget to sign his guestbook we love to read the messages from everyone.

Love Debbie

Thursday, October 27, 2005 7:11 PM CDT

Hi Everybody,
Once again this journal will be really short,I have a date with Austin were going to chill in the room and watch Herbie FullyLoaded,but I just had to share the most AMAZING and WONDERFUL NEWS WE HAVE NO TUMOR AT ALL ON HIS SPINE!!!!!!!!!!Still waiting for the results of Brain MRI hopefully tomorrow or maybe Tuesday we will know .I have a meeting in the morning to discuss the actuall treatment plan,I have decided to go with the lapatinib trail as it is the less harshest one of the options with more studies done the other one is too new and sounds really harsh.I do know with this one I have chosen it will be a 2 year treatment plan unless we have tumor progression or major side effects.Well guys Austin is waiting for me I need to go AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING THEY ARE WORKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I'll stop in tomorrow night have a busy weekend planned so may not update til monday a friend we met on our make a wish trip is driving up .Katherine and Katie we can't wait to see you guys,drive safe.

Love Debbie

Wednesday, October 26, 2005 10:02 PM CDT

Hi Everybody,
This Journal is going to be really short been a really long day for us and another long day still tomorrow,Austin did really great all day today he had his spinal MRI today and the brain is scheduled for tomorrow,I can't believe how much different St.Judes is with these kids its amazing.

I can't really give alot of details right now but we went from no options to having 3,so I have lots of studying to do tonight to make the best possible decision for Austin as soon as I have made a final decision I will update everyone.So I am going to close this for now and try to get some sleep.SO AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING IT HAS GOTTEN US THIS FAR ALREADY!!!

Mrs.Weinert and Ms Bavarro you guys are awesome I can never thank you all enough,in fact all the teachers are awesome THANK YOU ALL!!!!

Love DEbbie

Tuesday, October 25, 2005 9:39 PM CDT

Hi Everyone,

I just wanted to update everyone and let you all know we made it safe and sound to St.Judes,this place is amazing already we feel right at home our room is really nice,we are staying at the Grizzlie House for right I have been told we will be moved to the Ronald McDonald house in a couple of days.

Today was mainly spent getting looked over to see if anything needed to be addressed right away,and meeting most of the his nurses,tomorrow he is scheduled for a spine MRI and numerous other appointments also,he should have a brain MRI either thursday or friday.

Austin really likes it here he has already made a couple of friends and played basketball with them,if anyone wants to write or send him a card feel free the address will be at the the bottom of this page,I need to go for know our day will be begin at 4 am because Austin can't eat anything after 5 am so they recommended that I wake him up and get him something to eat before 5 am,SO AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING AND PAM DON'T GIVE UP KEEP FIGHTING TO GET CASSIDY HERE ITS WELL WORTH IT!!!

LOVE DEBBIE

Monday, October 24, 2005 2:30 PM CDT

Hi Everybody,

I;m just stopping in to update everybody on a few details from St.Judes.We are leaving tomorrow at 11:56 and we will be arriving in Tennessee at 1:10 so far we will be there most likely for 2 weeks. THe first day will be Wed when I will get all the details on his plan a doctor will check him over and all the basic stuff. Thursday will be Brain and Spine MRI and other appointments, I am sure but don't have all of the details yet I will get our schedule sometime tomorrow or Wed.As soon as I get them I will do my best to keep you guys posted I'm sure it is going to be kinda crazy at first so I will do my best to update his page.

Well still have some stuff to pack just stopped in to give what detail I do have so far,AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING,THANKS FOR STOPPING BY!!!!

Love Deb

Friday, October 21, 2005 9:00 PM CDT

HI Everybody,
I finally have some GREAT news to report to everyone,St Judes finally got everything they needed to evaluate Austins case and she called us today,with have been excepted for a Phase 1 study,she will call us back on monday with travel plans,we will be leaving THIS tuesday,we were told to pack enough clothes for 7-10 days,we are very excited that we will finally be able to get treatment started again for Austin,its very nerve racking to sit back and wait and do nothing,in the back of our minds we kept thinking what if we wait to long and then its too late too do anything,so this is a good move for us.

I do have some mixed emotions about having to be so far away from Eddie,but I know this is what I must do for Austin. I have great people surrounding Eddie and taking care of his needs,Thank You Aunt Lisa I know with you living right next door he will be just fine.

I am not sure if there is a computer that I can use there yet to journal so I will have Lisa updating occasionally to keep you guys posted.

Thank You all for praying for my nephew TONY he did great today,they were able to finally close the wound in his leg,so hopefully he can now make a full recovery,I LOVE YOU BUDDY ,YOU ARE A VERY BRAVE YOUNG MAN,I HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER SOON ,I MISS YOU BABY!!! Yes TONY I know your not a BABY but as I tell Austin you will always be our baby.

Well I must go I have so much to do and so little time to do it so AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING AND THANKS FOR ALL THE SUPPORT.

Love Debbie

Thursday, October 20, 2005 9:30 PM CDT

HI all I am so sorry I haven't been updating like I should lately ,but still no news to report but St.Judes does in fact have everything they now need ,to make their decision so we should know anyday(I know we have been saying that for a while now)They called on Tuesday and said they were having problems reading his scans something about the disks were done wrong and had wrong dates on them,so I called Akron and had them print all of his scans, bet they just loved that took them allday,but there done and St.Judes has them all now so now the wait begins AGAIN.

As far as health goes Austin had to stay home today he was really nauseous this morning and had a sore throat seems to be feeling ok now ,he was starting a new med today for depression so it was kind of good he stayed home anyway just in case he had a reaction to it but he did really good.AS for me I am still feeling pretty yucky but not near as bad as I was.And now Lisa got it I am so sorry I gave it too you dera but I always told you I would share everything I have so I guess I proved it huh ? Just kidding didn't mean for you too get it too. I love you and hate seeing you sick and trust me I know your miserable.

I need everyone checking on us to do me a huge favor and PRAY again for my nephew TONY he is having surgery tomorrow morning at 7:30 to attempt to close as much of his leg as possible,from what I understand he has a huge hole in his leg so they are going to try to stretch the remaining skin over as much as possible to close it ( OUCH) and whatever they can't cover he will have skin graphed later on.

On the awesome news part ,Austin has decided he is ready to be baptized we are so excited he will start taking his classes on next Thursday he chose November 20th for his big day,the Sunday before Thanksgiving,how cool is that we are going to try to borrow a video camera this is a moment I want on video as it a very special moment for us.

Well all its getting late I must go to bed soon thanks for checking in and AND AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!!

Love Debbie

Monday, October 17, 2005 3:37 PM CDT

Hi Everybody,
I am sorry I haven't updated since last week,we haven't heard from St.Judes yet should be really soon though,as far as Austin he has been feeling pretty good,no new symptoms as for me I have pretty much been in bed since last friday with a really bad cold,I think I was up a total of 3 hours since Friday night,guess my body finally said enough and crashed on me,I feel a little better now,at least I am awake anyway,doctor put me on antibiotics said its sounded like I was getting pneamonia.Well gonna keep this short I'll let you all know as soon as I hear anything going to go lay back down for a little while before dinner.Thanks for checking in and AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!

Love Debbie

Tuesday, October 11, 2005 10:10 PM CDT

Hi Everyone,I just wanted to give you guys a really quick update,I called St.Judes today and they just recieved everything they needed lastnight and tumor board is suppose to meet tomorrow so because it took Akron so long to send it we will now have to wait another week until we know anything,they said there was no way the could have everything read and processed to present to the board in 24 hours,which I understand completely its just frustrating all this waiting is driving us nuts.Its not that I want to put him through more but I NEED to know if we have options I can't stand sitting and doing nothing if there is something we can do,he has not had ANY treatments at all since Feb 14 th the last day of radiation. Any ways can you guys please pray for all of us especially AUSTIN and My NEPHEW TONY he still has a long recovery ahead of him.I am sorry I am in such a mood tonight but I know everyone has been waiting with us.I'll update soon so AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING RIGHT NOW I FEEL LIKE GOD IS THE ONLY ONE KEEPING MY SON WITH US!!

Love Debbie

Sunday, October 9, 2005 9:45 PM CDT

Hi guys I am sorry I haven't updated we are still waiting to hear from St.Judes as of Wed they still had not recieved any of his scans or other stuff they needed to evaluate Austin's case. I talked to Akron on Wed and everything was packaged and being sent out overnight as we spoke they had trouble making copies of his scans,computer wasn't working correctly but got it fixed,so St.Judes should have everything now I am going to try to call them on Monday,the person I needed to talk to wasn't available on Friday.

As for Austin he has been feeling ok having trouble with nausea and headaches more often,tonight I am a little nervous because he keeps telling me he feels funny,he can't explain it, says he feels like he is falling or is dizzy will see how he feels in the morning I may keep him home just to make sure,but if he feels ok I will send him to school.

And as far as my nephew Tony goes he is home from the hospital still in some pain and has a lot more stuff to go through,he will be meeting with a plastic surgeon on Mon,or Tues to see what they are going to be able to do with his leg,so please KEEP THOSE PRAYERS COMING FOR BOTH MY GUYS PLEASE!!!Thanks for stopping by and checking on my baby,Yes Austin you are still Mommy's Baby and always be no matter how old you get.I LOVE YOU BUDDY YOUR MY HERO!!! TONY IF YOUR READING THIS I LOVE YOU BUDDY YOUR ONE STRONG LITTLE GUY WE ARE PROUD OF YOU!!!!!

LOVE AUNT DEB AND MOMMY

PS.I'LL TRY TO KEEP EVERYONE POSTED!!! Sorry for the delay.

Tuesday, October 4, 2005 8:41 PM CDT

Hi everyone,
I am so sorry I haven't updated since last week,We still have no word from St.Judes,I will try to call the tomorrow to make sure that they did in fact recieve everything they needed.

Austin has had a pretty good week so far only 2 or 3 headaches but not enough to need tylenol but needed to rest but he seems to be doing better mood wise, I am stil having trouble getting him to do rework for school but he doesn't seem to mind doing his normal homework as much,we are still trying Mrs.Weinert hopefully things are slowing down a bit for him I can get him to cooperate more,we did finally get him set up with a counselor at Akron so hopefully she can help him cope alot better so we will see.

I need a favor from all of you out there I need you to add my nephew Tony to your prayers for us,he was hurt pretty bad over the weekend in a four wheeler accident in Arizona,We are having a pretty rough time dealing with this because we are helpless and can't be there for him,He had to have a surgery to repair some damage to his abdomen and his groin,from what I understand he was riding the quad and lost control and it flipped over and landed on top of him.If you guys could pray that he makes a FULL recovery it would greatly be appreciated,As for Austin we need still need you to pray that all of the doctors involved make the right decisions for him as well.

And as for Ed(Austin's Daddy)HAPPY 8th ANNIVERSARY,we made it through another very rough year thank you for being you,I LOVE YOU!!!

Well thats it for tonight AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING AND PLEASE ADD AN EXTRA ONE FOR TONY!!! Baby I LOVE YOU AND WISH I COULD BE THERE FOR YOU BUT MY HEART IS THERE.

Love Debbie (Austins Mom and Tony's Aunt)

Friday, September 30, 2005 10:34 PM CDT

Hi Everyone,

As I promised I would be back to update today,now that we have our feet back under us,somedays are better than others emotionally,as for the boys they are amazing,they just react for a moment and go on playing,every once in awhile Austin will make comments about cancer surrounding us,he will say everyone we know gets cancer,and I know its seems that way,but we can honestly say we have made some amazing friends on this journey,we just tell our boys that everything happens for a reason and we must always look for the good when bad things happen and dust ourselves off and move forward with the positive otherwise the negative will consume our lives. A lot of people have asked us how we do it so I thought I would try explain a little on how we cope with our lives,our boys are young so they may not exactly understand what I am saying but someday they will,so for now we TRY to live by example at least when they are around,when we are alone it sometimes is a totally different story,that is when we grieve for the normal existance and health that we had before Austin's diagnosis,we get scared of course but we must have FAITH in the plan GOD has for us. I used to ask why did this happen to us and our precious boy,why did GOD choose us and I was on another site and ran across something that helped me understand that question a little bit. There are many women out there who have healthy children and don't want them or take care of them the way they should,and then there are woman out there like me who's only dream as a child was to be a mother and in my heart I believe that GOD CHOSE ME TO BE AUSTIN'S MOTHER because HE knew that I would always love him and do the best job I could to protect him as long as he shall live and teach him all of the things neccessary for him to grow to be a fine decent and loving young man.
A lot of you already know that I have 2 boys ,and I know I don't often talk about Eddie on this page but I felt the need to tell you all that we try our best to treat both of our boys equally and raise them by the same rules and morals ,and yes for those of you who that are around us know I don't always play fair( I am really trying too though)its really hard to punish Austin for his behaviour,because has every reason to be angry but I am going to start trying harder to be more fair to my boys.OK this journal turned into a book I had better go most of what I typed tonight was for me to be able to look back and remind myself what I need to be doing for BOTH of my children so please bare with me on this one.

SO I WILL CLOSE FOR NOW AND ALWAYS PLEASE KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!!!

Love Debbie

Thursday, September 29, 2005 10:11 PM CDT

Hi everyone,
Thank you all for checking in on Austin,I am sorry I didn't update sooner today after we got home as always I have to make all my calls to friends and family before I post any information,the news we received wasn't exactly what we were hoping for there is a larger area of enhancement than on the last MRI two months ago,which means there is most likely more growth in the brain,but the spine hasn't changed any.So our next step is most likely to go to St.Judes.Dr.Hord said that by early next week they should have everything they need to come up with a treatment plan,so that basically means that that after they run all of their tests,(pathology,etc... )If they do indeed feel they can help us we will be there probably with the next 3 weeks if not sooner. So now what I am asking of you all is to pray that St.Judes can come up with a plan for us.SO AS ALWAYS PLEASE PLEASE KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!! I will update a little more on exactly how we are doing in a couple of days after We have had time to process or feelings and deal with the hand we were dealt.

Love Debbie

Wednesday, September 28, 2005 10:42 PM CDT

Hi Everyone this is going to a very short update I just wanted to let you all that Austin is feeling much better and went to school allday today.We will be seeing the doctor tomorrow for MRI results so please pray for stable if not gone.I will update tomorrow evening when I get home.

Jenni,Thank You so much for calling me today,I did call St.Judes back and they had received a complete summary and they are waiting for results of this scan before we decide whats next,I will keep you posted,you are an amazing person,your faith amazes me,with all the hard stuff you have faced with Ryan you still find time to reach out to a complete stranger,I hope that someday soon we can meet face to face,I bet all 4 of the boys would have a blast.

Well I am going to go for now AS ALWAYS PLEASE KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING,GOD DOES WORK MIRACLES!!!

Love Debbie

Monday, September 26, 2005 1:22 PM CDT

Hi everyone ,
We are home from Austin's MRI all went good as far cooperating went ,we won't have results until Thursday afternoon unless the doc decides too be nice and call us which is unlikely.As you can tell I am a little disappointed in them they had his paperwork all messed up had the wrong information down for too many things too list,which is sad considering all of the things they had wrong were done there at there hospital,but I was on top of things fortunately,otherwise his MRI would have went to the wrong doctor(his family physician) and delayed everything and would have been done wrong to begin with so he would have had to go through it all over again.(forgot to write down with contrast which is a dye)But anyway I am sorry to vent just a little frustrated.You all would be so PROUD of Austin he was amazing,never fought them once.So if you guys read this update please do me a huge favor and tell him how proud you are of him maybe it will help him feel more confident on the next one in 2 months,I'll add that date to his homepage as soon as its scheduled.As far as St.Judes goes we haven't heard anything yet,this is the hardest part of all of this,other than actually having to go through any of it.So as ALWAYS PLEASE KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!!

Debbie

Saturday, September 24, 2005 10:02 PM CDT

Hi everyone,
I am so sorry I kept everyone guessing on how things are going with Austin,he is feeling ok he had a couple of pretty bad headaches this week and his mouth was hurting him so I had to take him to the dentist,they said he has 2 cavities but they don't think thats what is causing him pain ,he lost a tooth quite a while ago and its finally coming in,Boy talk about feeling silly for taking him to a dentist because he is cutting a tooth,but was nice to go for something minor for a change.

Well we are about 90% moved into our new place I love it,boys seem to like it too in fact they actually playing well together tonight, anyway we will see how long it lasts hopefully a long time I could use a break from there fighting.

As far as St.Judes goes we are waiting for Mondays MRI results so they can view those by now they should have everything else they need from Akron,so we are still in wait and see mode,its driving us nuts.

Well all its getting late not sure if I will update again before his MRI on Monday we are going to a healing mass tomorrow and we have to be at the hospital Monday morning by 6 am so AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!! If for some raeson I cannot update after monday Lisa will update his page for me so keep checking back.Thanks for stopping by .

Love Debbie

Sunday, September 18, 2005 7:41 PM CDT

Hi Everyone,
Sorry it took so long to update,we have been really busy get ready for our big move next weekend.

All is well here Austin's doctor did finally get in touch with St.Judes to get the ball rolling now all we have to do is sit and wait,we have gotten good at that part though LOL,I don't know if he sent all of Austin's scans and records yet but he did contact the doctor,I received a copy of the letter that was sent to her,so hopefully St.Judes will contact us soon with good news that they do in fact think they can help our son,we do know that if they feel they can help him things will happen quickly,most likely within a week of deciding they can help we will be on a plane.

As far as how Austin is feeling ,he is doing well,his foot has been bothering him lately a couple of weeks ago he stepped in a hole outside and it hasn't got any better not sure what to think though because there is no swelling so not sure if it is even linked to hurting it or if its something else,I think I will call the doctor tommorrow just to be sure.On a good note I forgot to mention that on the 6 th when we went to the doctor for a check up he has gained 5 lbs,that is a good thing he had been having trouble with foods and eating since he finished radiation in February,he still has to take meds to control nausea.

Well all as soon as I hear news from St.Judes I will let you know,but until then AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING AND THANKS FOR STOPPING BY!!!

Love Debbie

Wednesday, September 14, 2005 8:39 PM CDT

Hi Everybody,
Sorry I haven't updated in a few days been pretty busy around here,trying to pack and all.(Boy I hate moving)

Austin is doing pretty good,he is doing good going to school allday,only problem we see so far is he is having trouble getting all his homework done,can't figure out if its because he missed so much lastyear or if he is just being stubborn,either way it may take some time to figure out why he isn't wanting to do it.We try our best to help him but tonight he had alot of work to do and we just couldn't get it all,we will try in the morning before school to get a little more done.

As far as St.Judes goes I talked to them yesterday and they do in fact have a couple of phaseI studies(meaning experimental) going that could help Austin,if they do in fact decide that it is tumor progression(meaning that if the tumors are growing)So now I need to get Dr.Hord to send them copies of MRI'S,and a bunch of other stuff along with a referal they will then evaluate his entire case and if they feel he can benefit from the study ,we will flown out there for treatment.So AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!
PRAY THAT WE ALL MAKE THE RIGHT DECISIONS FOR AUSTIN(MYSELF AND DOCTORS)MRI still SEPT 26th SO far unless we can get everything together soon enough to go St.Judes.

Love Debbie

Friday, September 9, 2005

Hi Everybody,
All is going ok here ,Austin had a pretty bad headache lastnight and still had it when he woke up this morning so poor guy had to miss school today I didn't want to take a chance,he was saying his neck was hurting him also,so I would rather be safe than sorry,he was pretty mellow most of the day,he felt much better by this afternoon,still wasn't quite himself,but he is doing ok now.

I can honestly say we have an amazing child,he has a heart of gold,we were watching something on the hurricane victims and he says to me,mom I am going to take 20 of my dollars and give it to them to help,who am I to tell him no,I want him to learn that sometimes we all need to open our hearts and help the less fortunate,and to me after all this boy has been through in the last 14 months that is a pretty amazing thing to say let alone do,and it was all his idea we have never mentioned helping out because we can't really do it not that I don't want to trust me,but I will never stop him from doing something he truly believes in.Need I say more he is amazing but then WE ALL knew that already.

As for treatment I called and talked to ST.JUDES today and talked to them,they took down all of his information today and should be calling me back monday to get the ball rolling,I pray we can get him excepted there,I truly believe in my heart and soul if anybody can help my baby they can,I have not been satified with Akron for sometime now,since they screwed up in Dec of last year,he has not had any treatments at all since Feb 14th and has had 2 new tumors since then, and to me that is unexceptable,we knew if he reoccured in the first year it could be a bad sign for him,BUT nobody is being straight with us,I have asked questions and got NO answers,I just don't feel comfortable not knowing answers,if there is nothing to do just say so but don't leave us wondering,this is our child(MY LIFE,MY HEART,AND MY SOUL) Please don't get me wrong I love both of my boys with all my heart,but Austin's birth literally brought be back to a new place in life,I was told years before I would never have anymore children,so I slipped into a very dark place for many years,but having him brought me back to a whole new level,and then 19 months later Eddie brought me to an even higher level!!!GOD trusted me to care for his children and I will do exactly that for as long as GOD see's fit.SO ON THAT NOTE I WILL ASK,AS ALWAYS KEEP THOSE PRAYERS COMING!!! NEXT MRI IS SEPT 26th !!!!

Love Debbie

Wednesday, September 7, 2005 11:03 PM CDT

Hi Everybody ,Thanks for checking in on us we are doing ok,not a whole lot to update on ,still not getting the answers I want or need!We went to the doctors on Tues and he acted like he was in a hurry and had no time for us,I had several questions I wanted to ask( which I did but didn't really get any answers)so I told Dr.Hord that we want to go to St.Judes ,if anybody can help my baby they can,he has had 2 new tumors since radiation ended and has had no treatments at all in 7 months,and all he keeps saying is we have to just watch these tumors,I am not comfortable with that at least not without an explanation as too why there is nothing we can do at this point.If St.Judes tells us the same thing with new tumors there I WILL except that,I just hope he takes me serious when I said I wanted a referal to St.Judes all he did was shook his head never answered me or responded,anyway alot more I could vent about but this page is not about my feelings its about how Austin is doing.

Austin has been doing really good he really likes being in school allday with his friends ,the counselor talked to me today and said he has never seen Austin without a smile on his face so thats a good thing,I have been trying to get the boys to play outside more being the cooler weather isn't that far off,Both the boys are really excited about our move,so far we are moving in on Sept24th,office is letting us move in a little early because Austin's MRI is Sept 26th,so were planning ahead as most people know we always prepare for an inpatient stay just in case,because he has to be put on ventilater for MRI and who knows what his tumors are doing we will just have to wait and see.Well everyone its getting late,I really need to go to bed,If anyone has an idea of what I need to do to get Austin to St.Judes without doctors referal PLEASE email me,I am at a loss as to how to go about this if Dr.Hord doesn't do as I have asked.AS ALWAYS KEEP THOSE PRAYERS COMING AND PLEASE PRAY FOR KAILEY AND ALL THE OTHER BABIES ,AND ALL THE HURRICANE VICTIMS TOO!!!!!!

LOVE DEBBIE

Saturday, September 3, 2005 9:40 PM CDT

Hi Everybody thanks for checking in on us,I would have updated yesterday but we got home REALLY late,We went to Cleveland yesterday with the MAKE A WISH FOUNDATION to watch the Thunderbirds practice it was awesome I bet our hearts stopped at least 3 times LOL they were doing all kinds of formations,the one we liked the best they were heading straight for each other and at the the last second they would turn the boys had a blast.Austin now wants to join the airforce so he can become a Thunderbird,he says maybe he can be a brain surgeon and a thunderbird LOL.

We finally met Kailey she is a little girl we have been checking on another caringbridge site,she is so precious,she is so full of spunk and looks like a very happy little girl,these children never stop amazing me,I learn something everyday from ALL of our littlest heroes,adults could really learn from these kids they are amazing ,with all they go through they still find time to laugh and smile,Austin and Kailey hit it off immediately I would add her address on here but I want to make sure it ok with her family first out of respect,I myself do not mind anyone having Austin's site the more people that have the better it kind of helps bring attention to PEDIATRIC CANCERS something that needs more funding and research,SEPT is Cancer Awareness month but unfortunately most of what everyone will hear about is Breast Cancer (I am not saying isn't important also so please don't take it wrong but the kids kind of get left out of the loop)not alot of research goes on for these kids ,at least the brain tumor kids I know for sure.

We also went to a Cancer Survivor baseball game lastnight with Akron Childrens Hospital,it was a very emotional night
we see alot of these children at clinic but have never seen them all together,I never realized just how many children have cancer just being treated at Akron Childrens let alone other hospitals,The children and their families did a parade around the baseball field before the game,it almost went completely around the baseball field (OUTFIELD ALSO)
they had all of the children release a balloon into the air it was beautiful site and for all of those who know Austin he is afraid of balloons but HE ALSO CARRIED ONE AROUND THE FIELD AND RELEASED IT,I had a really hard time not crying I did really well until they had a moment of silence for all the children who have lost their battle,we know a few so it was very hard,then they ahd a cancer survivor throw out the first pitch COOL HUH.

OK as you can see by the length of this journal we had very long and emotional day,so I better go for now but AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!PLEASE ADD KAILEY TO YOUR PRAYERS ALSO AND ALL THE OTHER CANCER BABIES THEY NEED GODS HELP!!!THANK YOU ALL FOR STICKING BY US!!!

Love Debbie
PS.I WILL ADD A COUPLE OF PICTURES IN A COUPLE OF DAYS OF KAILEY AND AUSTIN.

Thursday, September 1, 2005 8:04 PM CDT

Hi Everybody,

Just wanted to drop in and let everyone know that all is going well here,Austin is doing well in school,he seems a little more tired this week but he wore himself out lastweek,he has had a couple of headaches this week and some leg pain,but nothing that can't be controlled by tylenol.

He is getting excited we have been invited by Make A Wish to go meet the Thunderbirds(which is the air force stunt pilots) and watch the practice for this weekends air show and we also have a baseball game to go to with the hospital so we have a very busy day tomorrow.Well its almost time to put the boys to bed I better go for now ,AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!!AND THANKS FOR STOPPING BY SIGNING HIS GUESTBOOK!!!

Love Debbie

Monday, August 29, 2005 8:41 PM CDT

Hi Everybody thanks for checking in ,All is going well for the last few days,Austin had a little problem with nausea today but other than that all is well,he seems to be feeling better now,I gave him some dry toast and that seemed to help and some crackers.So hopefully tomorrow will be a better day,I am so impressed with his school they are very observant with him and noticing things.So I must say thank you to the whole team you all are awesome and I am grateful that I can send my son to a school that I completly trust( I am still one of those moms that doesn't leave my kids with anyone but family and even then that is rarely)Well all I am beat tonight so going to go to bed shortly so AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!!

Love Debbie

Friday,August 26,2005

Hi Everybody, Thanks for checking in on my little HERO again,he has had a really good week physically speaking
anyway,he loves school,the nurse called me they had some kids at the school with really high fevers so she wanted me to come pick up both the boys as a precaution(We still haven't heard what caused it)but anyway Austin actually got mad that he had to leave early,cause he didn't want to miss all his fun classes especially science,this was one temper tantrum I was glad to see and believe me he has had many this past week,Mom(ME) has realized I haven't been real good with making him follow alot of rules and I need to start because both the boys have paid for my lack of discipline ,they have gotten away with way too much ,so they have both been grounded this week for misbehaving,starting out slow only grounded them for one day and told them next time they don't follow rules it will be longer,I don't want to overdue it too fast.Like I said yesterday once I get them in their own rooms maybe it will help that they have an options to play together or I can separate them more often,Don't worry Ms.Bavarro we are still staying in the district,we are only moving across the parking lot to a townhouse.(LOL) Well all it is getting very late so I better go to bed boys get up early now that school is back in session,So AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!!

Love Debbie

Thursday, August 25, 2005 8:16 AM CDT

Hi Everyone,
All is great here,Austin and Eddie both had a great first day at school, Austin went Allday yesterday and when he got off the bus yesterday, he actually was still full of energy he ran home and then went outside and played football with the big kids for almost 2 hours,It was wonderful to see, it was hard to actually remember he was ever sick he was so full of energy,we haven't seen him that active since before his diagnosis,it was a nice relief from all the worry for a change,OH don't get me wrong I was worried but not for the usual reasons,We almost forgot for a minute he was ever even sick,but thats a good thing.He said he really likes his teacher and the kids in his class too,I almost forgot to tell everyone we signed Austin up for Cubscouts,I think it will be great for him to get away from it all and just have fun.Well all off to do some more packing we have 5 more weeks until we move to the bigger place we can't wait to actually have a little more space and get our own room back,I have had Austin in our room since he was diagnosed last year,him and Eddie fight way too much too share a room and this way he can rest and do his homework in peace and who knows maybe they will keep there room clean LOL will see about that part.Well off I go so AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!! I'll update soon,think I actually might be able to keep it updated now that I have time too myself,Thanks for checking in!!

Love Deb

Wednesday, August 24, 2005 8:41 AM CDT

Hi everyone ,

All is well here had a rough 2-3 days as you all know we took the boys bowling on Sat,Well between Bowling and then starting to pack some stuff on Sunday,I guess Austin over did it,he ended up having his first seizure Monday,we spent allday Monday in ER man that was scary,but all is well now he slept most of the day Tuesday which is very unusual for Austin so he must have been exhausted.

I have really good news though our little man is at school today,he only went full day last year for about a month,Moms is a little nervous but he goes to a really great school the teachers and staff are awesome keeping me informed with how he is doing and keeping a close eye on him without him knowing it,he wanted to go to school and feel like a normal kid so with the help of the school we are doing just that,He even rode the bus today,I felt like he was starting kindergarden all over again LOL.

Well all I am going close for now,I've got alot of catching up on housework and laundry after a very long summer,so AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!! I"ll try to update tonight to let everyone know how the boys first day of school went if I don't I will do it in the morning after they leave for school.

Love Debbie

Sunday, August 21, 2005 2:16 PM CDT

Hi Everybody,Once again I have been slacking off on the updates but then again most of the time no news is good news right?All is well here, Austin is feeling pretty these days other than a couple of headaches,he is feeling pretty good.We went bowling lastnight and Austin did better than he has in a very long time energy wise anyway ,he bowled quite a bit actually.Our main problem is his attitude and temper ,you can sure tell he's is my son,he definately has my personality.Alot of his attitude is my fault I tend to spoil him,but I am not the only one that does LOL.I just can't bring myself to tell him no enough and when I do he gets really mad and starts crying and running away from me,I really should stop spoiling him but it is so hard,when we cherish every moment we have with him as we have no idea what his future is,so I feel as though ,I need to give as much as I possibly can within reason of course,because in the back of my mind what if I don't get these chances again with him.I know I shouldn't think negative like that,but its reality at this point our lives are completly in Limbo as we still have no idea what our next will be or if there even is one.I think that truly is the hardest part right now,Those who know me well know that I have to plan every step in my life ahead of schedule other wise I feel helpless,I have a bad habit of planning things sometimes a year in advance,so this journey has been for me also,because I have had to give up all control of our lives to the doctors.But we will see this through to the end,GOD has a plan for our entire family we just don't know what it is and we may never know.Well getting a little to emotional right now I need to go but AS ALWAYS PLEASE KEEP THOSE PRAYERS COMING TO GIVE US STRENGTH AND COURAGE IN THIS JOURNEY THAT IS UPON US!!! And MOM please as soon as you hear anything on your MRI results please call me!!I LOVE YOU!!! Oh and Mallie from Houston,Thanks for the postcard from Argentina on your trip that was cool,he was so excited to get it,He is saving it with all of his other cool stuff!!!!

Love Deb

Wednesday, August 17, 2005 2:48 PM CDT

Hi Everybody thanks again for checking on my HERO,today at 1:14 Pm was exactly 1 year that Austin was diagnosed,been one heck of a year for all of us but especially Austin,I am sitting here today thinking wow my son is amazing after all he has gone through he still has the ability to run and play and be a normal kid after 2 very major surgeries that very well could have left him without alot of things but GOD blessed us with an amazing neurosurgeon and gave our son back to us whole.I sit an try to convince myself that he has blessed my little boys life so far and he will continue to bless him, because GOD has a plan for him we may never know what that plan is but for no matter how long he chooses to leave Austin on this earth,we will love him and take care of his every need,Our Faith is getting stronger day by day and we know that this is GODS plan.Yes we know that our journey is far from over we must go through many more tough days but with the strength of friends and family we will see it through.This a very emtional day for me and its getting tough to type right now so I must go and leave you guys with the usual AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING,some Days the only thing that get us through the day is feeding off your guys strength I LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH AND THANK YOU FOR STANDING BY US!!!!!RICKY if your reading this PLEASE BE SAFE WE WILL PRAY FOR YOU AND YOUR TROOPS SAFE RETURN FROM IRAQ AND OFF COURSE ALL OF THE OTHER SOLDIERS TOO!!! YOU GUYS ARE WELCOME TO EMAIL US ANYTIME !!RENE HAS OUR EMAIL ADDRESS OR THE OTHER ONE IS ON THE BOTTOM OF AUSTINS HOMEPAGE!!!

Love Debbie

Monday, August 15, 2005 3:12 PM CDT

Hi Everybody thanks for signing Austin's guestbook,He is doing good been outside playing all weekend,spending a little more time with his friends,so he is pretty worn out by bedtime,and he has been sleeping pretty late in the morning,this is the last week of summer so now I need to start waking the boys up in the morning boy I sure hope they aren't cranky,but they have got to get used to getting up for school soon especially Eddie he would sleep until noon if you let him,AS far me I am getting a little nervous about Austin going to school he only went about 4 weeks last year,so we are hoping he will do ok with going allday at least for now while he is doing good.Well not much to report right now just wanted to check in THANKS FOR SIGNING AUSTIN'S Guestbook and AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!!

Love DEbbie

Friday, August 12, 2005 12:46 AM CDT

Hi Everybody,Thanks for checking in on my little man,He has been in pretty good spirits the last few days,his bestfriend Joey has been coming over everyday this week so he has been having fun,except Eddie is driving them both nuts he wants all of Joeys attention,but thats normal for Eddie,he is always competing for everybodys attention,my kid sister was the same way LOL,I LOVE YOU KRISTY!!!It drives Austin nuts,he is always wanting to sneak over to Aunt Lisa's so he can get away from him.As for emotionally we are doing better we have excepted the fact that GOD has a plan and we may never know what it is but he knows what he is doing,so we will just enjoy each other and love each other,and try to be as normal as we can.Austin will be starting school on August 24th ,he will be going ALLDAY,we want him to try to be a normal kid with NO restrictions,we want him to run and play like all the other kids to the best of his abilities.Well everybody I better go for now,Thanks for checking in and signing his guestbook and AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!!

Love Debbie

Wednesday, August 10, 2005 11:23 AM CDT

Hi Everybody,Thanks for checking in Austin did really good yesterday with the sleep study he was asleep by 8:30,so they were able to get all the information they needed we will not get the results back for 3-5 days probably be next week sometime.As far as treatment option go at this point we will only watch tumor growth,we will have another MRI on Sept 26th and go from there,we do know surgery at this point is not an option for brain because it is too deep and close too vital nerves,so it could leave him with loss of swallowing,breathing,and speech,so we don't want to take that chance and put him through that,we will attempt to try chemo again at a later date after we see what the next MRI says,so for now we are back to the waiting game.Well all it was along night for me I am going to get off here I just wanted to update everybody real quick,but AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!and Thanks for stopping by!!!

Love Debbie

Monday, August 8, 2005 8:42 PM CDT

Ok I know I am getting bad at not updating lately,just trying to get the boys ready for school and still manage to get our thoughts together,pretty big task these days,I think the not knowing where we go next with treatments is the hardest part,hopefully when we see the doctor tomorrow we will finally get some answers to that question,Austin also has a sleep study scheduled tomorrow night so we will be in patient so I won't be able to let you all know what the doctors have came up with until Wed.
All in all we had a good weekend Eddie went to work with dad so Austin and I spent Sat together just the two of us and Sunday,Austin finally got to go to Michigan with Aunt Lisa he has been wanting to for a while now,so it finally was able too,he loved it,had a blast.THANK YOU AUNT LISA,YOUR THE BEST BUT THEN YOU SHUOLD ALREADY KNOW THAT BY NOW!!!Well we have a long day tomorrow ,we will be at the hospital pretty much the entire day and night,so I better turn in soon,AS ALWAYS KEEP THOSE PRAYERS COMING!!!And thank for stopping by Please don't forget to sign his guestbook it driving him crazy LOL.

Love Debbie

Friday, August 5, 2005 8:02 PM CDT

Hi Everybody Thanks for checking in on Austin and signing his guestbook,he is doing pretty good the last couple of days he actually has even went to work with dad a couple of days this week he hasn't done that since last year,this month is 1 year ago that Austin was diagnosed,its been a VERY long year for all of us but him especially.He will see his oncologist(cancer doctor)on Tuesday Aug.9th so hopefully we will at least have some kind of idea where we go next with treatments,I really hate the idea that there is active tumors growing in his brain and spine and all we can do is watch them it doesn't make sense at all to me,he will also have his sleep study that night so we will be in patient just for one night so we can hopefully find out why he has such difficulty breathing,during the day and at night.Well I better go for now AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!! WE BELIEVE IN MIRACLES,we know of a little boy his name is Ryan he was told he had 6-8 weeks to live and was put on hospice,that was 8 weeks ago yesterday he went for another MRI and guess what it looks drastically better no more hospice YEAH RYAN!!!If anyone deserves a miracle its you guys your faith is amazing thanks for sharing your little boy with us and helping show me that faith and prayer really works,Jenni your site and journals are amazing.

Love Debbie& Austin

Wednesday, August 3, 2005 11:31 AM CDT

Hi Everybody checking in,thanks for stopping by and checking on us,We had a great day yesterday it was my birthday so I took the boys to Motocross at the county fair we went with Aunt Lisa and Uncle Jim,the boys had a really good time,they love anything to do with cars and motorcycles,and daredevil stuff of course what boy doesn't huh?Austin did really well lastnight we were worried about his breathing with dust and fuel but he did awesome,Well I just wanted to give a quick update I need to go spend time with the boys so,AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!!

Love Debbie

Monday, August 1, 2005 6:13 PM CDT

Hi Everyone,I just wanted to stop by and thank you all for your support during these troubling times,you have been awesome.Austin is doing good the last few days ,he had a great time camping weather was perfect,he also seems to be doing better emotionally as well of course it helps when my state of mind is better too cause,he feeds off my emotions. It has been a rough few days for our entire family but we know we can't carry this load alone so we have handed it over too GOD and his doctors,all we can do is love him and support him too the best of our abilities.He is an amazing boy and has amazing strength if anyone can beat this its Austin,sure he has his bad days but he bounces back quickly.Some days I can't help him cheer up but if I can't Aunt Lisa and Justin always manage to make him smile and for that we are grateful.We got really good news today we get to move to a 3 bedroom townhouse in Oct,so that means the boys will have their own room and mom and dad can have theirs back,(we have had Austin in our room since he was diagnosed last August,and the best part is its right next door to Aunt Lisa.Well its time for me too get dinner for my guys so I better go for now,AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!
Love Debbie

Saturday, July 30, 2005 1:03 AM CDT

Hi Everybody,Its been kind of a rough week emotionally for all of us,but I just wanted to update real quick to let you all know we are doing a little better now that the shock is wearing off some,At least we are not completely a wreck now.Austin is feeling good he went camping for the weekend with Eddie and Dad.I decided to stay home and try to get my act together,I don't think I realized it until recently that I had shut myself off to the outside world to a VERY large extent,my life was my boys and researching this darn disease,as far as the research goes it has really not gotten me far so I need stop and let the doctors do there job,as for my boys ALL three of them(yes my husband is included in the 3 boys part LOL)Its time for me to get out of my house and at least return to some of the things I used to enjoy doing and I am sure still do ,Like going and visiting Lisa almost everyday,so I am going to at least start doing that again I MISS HER and I MISS OUR FRIENDSHIP,(I NEVER MEANT TO SHUT YOU OUT LISA I WILL TRY TO CHANGE THAT)That will be my first change,then the rest will hopefully fall into place.As far as the boys go we are hoping to move to a bigger place really soon so they can have their own rooms and hopefully that will help with some of the fights they have all the time,it seems to be constant from the time they wake up.Well its getting really late I don't mean to end on that note but I am not quite ready to let all I am feeling inside out at this point,so I will end this journal on my usual note so AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!And pray his doctors will decide on the best possible treatments for our hero,he has amazing strength and has taught us all the meaning of true unconditional love!!!!

Love Debbie

Wednesday, July 27, 2005 10:44 PM CDT

Hi Everyone its me I told everyone I would update Austin's page as soon as I had any information from the doctors,so here I am unfortunately the news was not good,they have found a new tumor growing in the brain deep below the brain stem so at this point there is nothing we can do,but watch and wait,it is too small to surgically go after,he can't have any more radiation,and chemotherapy is not effective for his type of tumor,I am sorry if I sound so blunt or unemotional at this point my emotions are very raw and we are very angry right now,Austin did not take this news very well at all,so we are struggling on how to help him emotionally as well as physically,so please bear with us,Hopefully I will bounce back in a day or two in my old positive self but at this point I'm not real positive so I need to go for now,but PLEASE AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING WE NEED THEM DOUBLE TIME RIGHT NOW!!!!!I'LL update as soon as I can thanks for stopping by.

Love Debbie

Wednesday, July 27, 2005 1:14 PM CDT

Hi Everyone sorry I haven't updated since Austin's MRI we are still anxiously waiting by the phone,everytime it rings I jump,I called the doctor and he is in surgery right now so it will be a while before he will call but they said he does have results and will call me as soon as he gets a minute,as far as the MRI went Austin did great this time no bad side effects from medicine Yeah Austin way to go buddy I'm proud of you!!!Well all as soon as I get word from the doc I will update again Thanks for checking in,AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!

Love Debbie

Sunday, July 24, 2005 9:38 PM CDT

Hi Everybody sorry for the delay in updating its has been a very busy weekend for us,As you all know we had a big surprise planned for Austin's 9th Birthday ,As you can see from the new home photos and other photos it was a good one he loved it.We took him to Norwalk Raceway for a Stunt and Thrill Show,it was amazing we all loved it,lots of crashes and explosions and dangerous stunts,they had a husband and wife team there that performed 75 feet in the air on what they call sway bars (but its really just PCV pipe)they did hand stands,hung from one hand,and also with one foot,the poles were placed about 4 feet apart and they made their poles sway til they reached each other then actually switched poles in the air,All with no safety harnesses or nets.They also had a guy called THE HUMAN TORCH who is in the guiness book of world records for the longest full body burn,he was 20 seconds away from beating his own record,And of course there was Tommy "Trubble" he is an amazing man he did a triple suicide roll his first time doing triple usually only does a double,anyway after the show ,Tommy made an announcement for Austin to come get the trunk off his car,and he autographed it,Pretty cool huh!!For those who don't know much about Austin he loves sports and country music he is currently collecting autographed stuff from as many sports as he can get!!!We are going to decorate his bedroom in all his autographed stuff he has gotten so far.There were many more stunts but those were our favorites.Well thats all for tonight we need to get to bed very soon,tomorrow is MRI day we have to be at the hospital at 6 am,so AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING AND THANKS FOR STOPPING BY!!NOTE ALL NEW PICTURES FROM ON HIS BIRTHDAY!!!
Love Debbie

Wednesday, July 20, 2005 10:42 PM CDT

Hi Everybody,All is going well here been an ok week Austin has been feeling pretty good just a little moody the last few days,I think he is nervous about his MRI but he hasn't said much just gets mad real easy over just about anything,think this has all taken a toll on him,I'm sure he will snap out of it in a few days,just having a rough week emotionally,but physically he is doing ok,been pretty hot here so he has been inside alot this week,He is getting really excited about his Birthday coming up Sat. but then again so are we!!!Hard to believe my baby is going to be 9 already,where does the time go?We have a fun filled day planned for him of course its all a surprise so still can't give you any hints,but I'm driving him nuts cause he knows I'm up to something,cause he reads his journal alot,So if your reading this today I LOVE YOU BUDDY,but I'm still not telling(LOL)Well its getting late so I better go too bed soon so AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!
Love Debbie

Monday, July 18, 2005 12:30 AM CDT

Hi Everybody,We made it home safe and sound from camping,as always we had a wonderful time enjoying each other as a family should,the boys love the outdoors so much,this weekend they had Christmas in July at the lake we go to it was definately different seeing snowmen and santa claus decorations up in July but it was fun,they had fireworks up by the lake the boys really enjoyed that,Last Year Austin was still afraid of them this year though he loves them.We never thought he would get over that fear so it was kind of a major hurdle he overcame,this past year he has grown up so much more than a child should,he is so grown up now,I feel he has missed so much of his childhood because of this dreaded disease,he doesn't really behave like a boy should he on most occasions he behaves as a young man,(of course he has his days when he gets frustrated and acts like a child should). We celebrated his birthday this weekend with Aunt Lisa and Justin also their birthday was last week so we just combined them his is actually not until Sat. July 23rd but we just could wait to give him his gifts,his favorite gift was a snow cone maker from Aunt Lisa and family he loved it,I think he made like 30 sno cones right after he opened it,he second favorite gift was a boom box from Grandma and Eddie,and His third favorite gift is a remote control Corvette from Grandma Lola it is awesome it has turn signals,headlights a reving motor on it and everything.Mom and Dad haven't gave him his give from us yet its a major surprise,all I can say is its something he really wants I will let you all know how it goes after it happens Sat.this is so hard keeping it a secret,as he has been all over us about this gift,we just keeping telling him we can't afford it and he gets upset.Well all I have once again written a book instead of a journal(LOL)I better get going ,his MRI is July 25th so AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!! Mom Austin Says he wants you to come for Christmas ,he says you can have his room while your here,we will be in the townhouse by then so its much bigger,let us know what you think,We Love you all very much!!!
Love Debbie

Thursday, July 14, 2005 11:12 PM CDT

Hi Everyone thanks for checking on the bravest boy I know,he amazes me with his strength and courage to face any obstacle that is put in his way,lastnight we decided to try not giving him medicine for nausea (his choice) to see if had passed yet,unfortunately he still gets sick without it,someone had mentioned it may be in his mind because he has had nausea for so long,but we now know that is not the case,but other than that and the breathing issues he is somewhat getting back to normal at least as normal as a child with cancer can be anyway,he actually has a full head of hair now the only place it isn't growing back is in the back where the actual entrance point for radiation was but we can cover that as his hair grows longer,it looks like it may be darker than it was before.As soon as I get my camera back from my neighbor I will take a recent picture and add it to his site,it will be under the view photos area as he won't let me change his front page he is so proud of his football stuff!!!Now he wants more autographed stuff,(he has autographed cd,football helmet,and jersey,and balls,and pictures,he says he likes anything autographed LOL.He has been really nervous lately with his MRI coming up on the 25th its getting hard to distract him,(We are hoping they made a mistake last time and there is no new tumor there)We are alos going camping again this weekend so it will be a couple of days before I update again ,were going to celebrate his birthday this weekend with Aunt Lisa and her family because Aunt Lisa works next weekend for one and for 2 I have a surprise planned for his next Sat on his actual birthday I can't tell anyone on here what it is because he reads what I wrote and checks his guestbook.SORRY for the long update,had lots of stuff going through my mind,but I will close for now AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING WE LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!
Love Debbie

Wednesday, July 13, 2005 9:20 AM CDT

Hi everybody just a quick update to let everyknow Austin's doctors appointment went well yesterday he has gained 2 lbs,still no height growth though,but all looks good at this point,he is still having trouble with his breathing ,so we are scheduled for a sleep study on August 9th to see if we can get to the bottom of it,hopefully they can figure out what is going on.I also am back up and going I got a new computer lastnight,so fear no more LOL I can keep everyone updated again.Well all going to cut this short we just woke up just wanted to let everyone know all is good for now so AS ALWAYS KEEP THOSE PRAYERS COMING!!!!
Love Debbie

Monday, July 11, 2005 2:06 PM CDT

Hi Everyone,Sorry I haven't been updating like I should lately boys have been keeping me pretty busy,and now I have no computer mine crashed yesterday so now I have to get a new one,not sure how soon that will be shouldn't be too long Thanks to my fantastic family and friends in Arizona.
I am using Lisa's computer right now so going to make this kind of brief,but Austin is doing pretty good lately seems kind of tired the last couple days,but probably nothing to worry about we have a doctors appointment tomorrow so we will see what he says.Him and Eddie still argue all the time its driving nuts MOM now I see what me and Kristy put you and dad through,How did you do it?I did recieve good news yesterday we are moving to a bigger place in November when are lease is up to a 3 bedroom townhouse ,right now we are in a two bedroom apartment,so now the boys can have their own room,maybe that will help to keep them separated a little bit.Well guys thats all for now I will update as soon I can get back on,I'll try to come over to Lisa tomorrow and let everyone know what the doctors said.AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!MRI IS JULY 25th.
Love Debbie

Thursday, July 7, 2005 3:22 PM CDT

Hi Everybody,All is going much better here,Austin is back to his old cheery self ,I think part of his depression was the appetite medicine they had him on,it was a hormone,so I called the doctor and we decided to stop giving it to him and within 2 days he was feeling better again ,or it could have been he was just really frustated with everything he has gone through but either way I am glad he got some of his emotions out no matter how hard it was for us to see our little guy so down and angry(but who can blame him,I have those days myself but my kids don't know that I don't want them to see my fear)Anyway we will be looking for another option to get him to eat he is down to 61 pounds now from 77 just over a month ago.Well I just wanted to let everyone know we are back to are old cheery selves.AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!AND REMEMBER LOVE YOUR CHILDREN LIKE THERES NO TOMORROW,THEY ARE OUR FUTURE THEY DEPEND ON US!!!!!

Love Debbie

Tuesday, July 5, 2005 9:31 AM CDT

Hi again everyone,
Austin is feeling pretty good today,he had a rough weekend emotionally,poor guy had somewhat of a break down in a way its good that he got some emotions out ,he was really depressed and crying alot I finally got him to talk some about what was going on his little head ,he kept saying he wants to be a normal kid,he kept saying he hates cancer and wants to know why he has has and everybody else doesn't,he says he is tired of fighting,That scared me alot if he gives up that would be dangerous(since we have gotten back he says he was just angry that he WILL keep fighting)We love our boys with all of our hearts and soul and we need BOTH of them to fight,Eddie needs to open up and let us know how he is feeling he has a lot of anger issues going on too but he hasn't broke yet,On a good note Ed and I are finally opening up a little more and dealing with our feeling together instead of ALONE.Well all enough depressing news I want to put out a very special THANK YOU TO ALL OF OUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY IN ARIZONA,WHAT YOU HAVE DONE FOR US IS AMAZING!!!WE WILL DEFINATELY SEE YOU ALL SOON,AUSTIN IS BEGGING TO COME OUT THERE SAYS HE WILL GO BY HIMSELF IF WE DON'T TAKE HIM SOON,Well guys thanks for checking in on us WE LOVE YOU ALL AND AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!
Love Debbie

Saturday, July 2, 2005 0:44 AM CDT

Hi again everybody its pretty late just wanted to get in a quick update before the holiday weekend starts,its finally cooling off here at least for a couple of days anyway so its a great weekend to go camping,Ed and the boys left this evening I will be meeting them up there on Sunday should be alot of fun to get together with friends and family to watch the fireworks and all that good stuff,we almost didn't go though Eddie had a really bad headache lastnight and wasn't feeling all that great and then this morning Austin woke up crying he had an earache and a sore throat so of course of to the doctors we go,she thinks its a sinus infection and possibly strep throat so poor guy is on another pill,on top of his others,the strange thing is he has never had allergies in his life or sinus infections but now I am finding out it is a possiblity he will get them frequently becuase of the radiation he had to his brain,something about it causes damage to the sinus cavity as if he doesn't have enough problems.Well anyway thats what is going on here,FOR ALL YOU FAMILY AND FRIENDS IN ARIZONA I AM SO SORRY WE CAN'T BE THERE TOMORROW,BUT PLEASE KNOW WE APPRECIATE ALL YOU GUYS ARE DOING FOR US AND WE SEND OUR LOVE,AND WE WILL SEE YOU IN MARCH IF ALL GOES WELL I AM TRYING TO START PLANNING A TRIP OUT THERE!!!!And to all the rest of you checking in on my little man thank you for your support also,probably be Monday night before I update again,HAVE A SAFE HOLIDAY WEEKEND AND GOD BLESS YOU ALL,and AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!!!!

Love Debbie

Thursday, June 30, 2005 11:59 PM CDT

Hi Everybody,There I go again slacking off on the updates missed a day again, Sorry boys are keeping me pretty occupied these days between either wanting play and get along or having to be referee .Austin has had kind of an attitude lately,he has taken all his treatment and his illness pretty well until recently,he has been really aggressive and angry lately, hitting, biting, and yelling alot,I don't know if it has to do with him feeling better,or his ADHD or job plain angry over everything he has went through in the last year ,and Eddie doesn't make matters any better he picks and whines all the time,I get really frustrated sometimes but then other times I think I am lucky I have both my boys to fight and argue with,we could have lost Austin at least 4 times last year,but GOD has another plan for our family at least at this point he does,I am so grateful for all the support our family has recieved this past year from our family and friends,and even people we don't know,you will never know what that means to us as a family I would never be able to put it into words,SO I WILL JUST SAY THANK YOU TO EACH AND EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU FOR BEING THERE FOR US DURING OUR TRUOBLING DAYS!!!Austin will be just fine you just wait and see he will be a walking living miracle for all the world to see and admire for his strength and determination,he is an amazing child!!!Well its late I better close for now AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING AND THANKS FOR STOPPING BY!!!
Love Debbie

Tuesday, June 28, 2005 8:41 PM CDT

Hello Everybody, Thanks for checking in on my little man,he had a really good day today ,having a little trouble with nausea and breathing it rained pretty hard this afternoon so it got pretty humid and he started having a little bit of trouble nothing serious ,just closed up the house and turned on the air condition and it seemed to help alot ,we played pretty hard today,I play a little game with them called tickle monster its where I tickle them until they can't take it anymore.I figured they had outgrown it but they asked me to play today,shows what I know huh!! We had a lot of fun,Well guys its late gonna finish watching a movie with Austin before we turn in for the night,so AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!! AND THANKS FOR STOPPING IN AND SIGNING HIS GUESTBOOK ,we never get tired of reading all the well wishes.

Love Debbie

Monday, June 27, 2005 1:01 PM CDT

Hi everybody sorry I didn't update over the weekend,all is fine here,Austin is feeling good,We kept busy all weekend,just enjoying each other,we did nothing spectacular just went to Old Fashioned Days for those who don't know what that is its just like a carnival,Austin didn't go on any rides he just played games and watched his Buddy Bret sing,he had a concert,Austin loves country music and thinks it is so cool that he knows someone that has a band and sings.Over the weekend Austin was talking about what he wants to be when he grows up he used to say he wants to be a Cowboy Cop(He loves horses and wanted to be a cop LOL)Know he says he is going to be a brain surgeon so he can make other kids feel better.Boy we sure hope he can fulfill that dream its alot of work and schooling but if anybody can do it Austin can he is a very smart young man(And I am not saying that because he is my son LOL)Alot of people tell us how smart he is.Well all boys are really rowdy today which of course is a good thing so I better close for now.AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!AND THANKS FOR STOPPING BY TO CHECK ON OUR LITTLE MAN!!!!!

Love Debbie

Friday, June 24, 2005 6:58 PM CDT

Hello Everybody,Yes today is a much better day for us ,thank goodness my bad moods are few and far between ,usually they occur on days where I spend alot of time on the phone with doctors trying to get some results from them,I still didn't get very far but I need to keep a positive attitude for my family,negative attitudes get negative results something I have learned this past year,it was really hard lesson for all of us,One thing I have learned is not to sweat the small stuff in life its to precious.Austin's breathing seems to be alot better today but I kept him in almost allday its was over 90 degrees today and humid so figured he was better off staying in,I was very proud of both of the boys today they got along for the most part only a few arguments but thats normal.Well folks I better go for now just wanted give a quick update to let everyone know Austin was feeling better today,AS ALWAYS KEEP THOSE PRAYERS COMING AND THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH FOR STOPPING BY AND SIGNING HIS GUESTBOOK!!!!
Love Debbie

Thursday, June 23, 2005 11:23 PM CDT

Hi everybody, Sorry I didn't update earlier I spent some quality time with the boys today didn't do a whole lot just enjoyed each other,we went out in the back and flew the boys new styrofoam glides that Aunt Lisa bought them of course they didn't last long they got broke already,Austin landed up in the tree and broke off the wing and then a little while later Eddie's hit the brick wall and broke his wing off,so needless to say that was fun while it lasted. Anyway Austin had kind of a rough day today he just wasn't himself his breathing seems to be getting worse,he can't even walk across the parking lot without being out of breath,I am getting so frustrated with the doctors they keep telling me that it isn't related to his cancer or any treatments he has had,but they aren't trying to find out why it is happening,I am not the only one seeing these breathing episodes,so I know its not just me being over paranoid,heck during his last MRI in June he had trouble breathing when they sedated him they had to breath for him so you would think they would dig deeper to find out why this is happening if I don't get some answers real soon I will be searching for other treatment facilities I need answers and now this is my baby's life they are messing with,his case is far from the usual situations and they know that.Anyway sorry about the negative mood tonight,just really frustrated with not getting any answers running into a brick wall every where I turn.FOR ALL OF YOU CHECKING IN ON AUSTIN THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR YOUR ONGOING SUPPORT AND PRAYERS YOU GUYS ARE ALL AWESOME,WE LOVE KNOWING YOUR ALL OUT THERE PRAYING FOR AUSTIN AND KNOWING WE ARE NOT ALONE IN THIS FIGHT,I WISH I HAD TIME TO PERSONALLY THANK EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU,BUT THAT WOULD BE IMPOSSIBLE SO I"LL JUST THANK EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU GUYS NOW!!!THANKS FOR SIGNING HIS GUESTBOOK AND LETTING US KNOW YOUR THERE!!!!AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!I"LL TRY TO BE MORE POSITIVE TOMORROW,SO I"LL SAY GOODNIGHT FOR NOW.
Love Debbie and of course AUSTIN TOO

Wednesday, June 22, 2005 7:30 PM CDT

Hi Everyone Thanks for checking in on Austin, he is feeling really good today, been laughing and joking around allday I have a feeling it has to do with everyone that signed his guestbook ,lastnight before he went to bed we were reading all the great entries from all over,and he said to me with a huge grin (WOW Mom I'm even popular in Korea and Holland too,and then he says and everywhere else too!!!)And This afternoon we went to WQMX Radio Staion to pick up his Autographed Rascal Flatts CD and wouldn't you know we got back and the first entry he reads is from one the DJS from WQMX Thanks Shannon your great we listen to you guys all the time. As far as the glyconutrients are going we have a pretty good system going he takes them all without any complaints in fact a few times I would forget and he would remind me he needs to take something.I am a little concerned about him though he has the dark circles under his eyes like he had before we were diagnosed ,I know he had no signs of tumors in his brain on June 2nd,he still had them all on his spine though,and unfortunately I know how fast things can change with cancer ,we have seen it too many times in the last year.We should having another spine MRI in the next 2 weeks ,we still don't have a date yet but we will keep you posted,Well thats all for now AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!THEY ARE GREATLY APPRECIATED IF ANYONE DESERVES A MIRACLE IT IS MY AMAZING SON!!!!!!!!!!Thanks for all the beautiful entries in his guestbook,we love to see who is stopping by.

Love Debbie

Tuesday, June 21, 2005 7:04 PM CDT

HI everyone enjoy Austin is updating tonight here he is,thank you everybody for signing my guestbook i even had one from someone in the army cool huh .I like getting letters in the mail to my address is on my page.keep signing my book this is sooo cool,my mom trys to keep it updated almost every day,when we dont drive her crazii .I fill prety good today ben riding my bike.
love Austin the ausman

Monday, June 20, 2005 10:14 PM CDT

Hello Everybody,
All is well here,Austin is feeling great been a little turkey lately he is so funny, he loves to have his head rubbed now that he has hair,he hated us touching it when he lost all of it,today he was acting like a dog and a cat he kept rubbing his head on me and pretending he wanted to be petted. It was cute,we welcome those silly moments some people may think we are nuts but who cares right?
Karan and Lori,it was so great to see you both we had a wonderful visit and we sure hope you both keep in touch please feel free to call us anytime,we love hearing from you(oh by the way they weren't bouncy balls they were just hard plastic balls LOL you both know what I am talking about)Oh he has checked his guestbook 3 times since you left he finally went to bed,I am sure he will check it tomorrow too. Well all I am going to close on a good note tonight,AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING,WE LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!Thanks for checking in and signing his guestbook.
Love Debbie

Sunday, June 19, 2005 8:57 PM CDT

Hi Everybody HAPPY FATHERS DAY!!!!!! Just wanted to check in and let everyone know the guys all made it back from camping they all had a great time ,lots of activities going they went on a pontoon boat ride and saw fireworks too,as far as anything else goes I have no clue it was their weekend to just be guys.Austin seems to be feeling pretty good a little worn out but he is fine,this is the first time since he got sick that they went anywhere without me was a struggle for me but I enjoyed my quiet time,Anyway just wanted to give a quick update,I'm going to close for now ,AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING,AND THANKS FOR STOPPING BY AND SIGNING HIS GUESTBOOK,I added a new photo of Austin and Eddie,check out how much hair he has gotten.
Love Debbie

Saturday, June 18, 2005 1:25 AM CDT

Hi everybody,
Ok so I have been slacking off at updating Austin's site lately,He is doing really good lately he even has almost a full head of hair again,he looks so good except for the weight loss,were working on that too,the doctor put him on an appetite stimulant this week and its working he is finally eating better,they also changed his nausea medicine he takes it at night before he goes to bed so now he is not experiencing any at all,wakes up starving now.We will get some maet on his bones one way or another right now he weighs the same as his little brother Eddie.I know everyone is wanting to see new pictures I'll take some this week and post them soon,have to wait until at least Sunday though,Ed and Rich(Eds Brother)took the boys camping so I am home enjoying some quiet time,I definately need some time to myself it has been a very long year for us all.Anyway it is getting really late I better go to bed soon.Thank You Mom and Dad I found a van I liked today and bought it,its a 1996 Dodge Caravan so far I love it.Well gonna close for now AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!
Love Debbie

Wednesday, June 15, 2005 11:32 PM CDT

Hi everybody,
Sorry I didn't update yesterday,with the kids out of school for the summer its kind of crazy, Austin is feeling real good lately they are back to their old ways arguing over everything and fighting it was really stressful but in a way it was good to see.I'm just not used to it anymore its been almost a year since this Austin diagnosis
so I guess I just need to get used to being tag teamed,they both take turns getting into trouble.Anyway its getting kind of late so I think I'll turn in, I have too go car shopping tomorrow not sure how much longer my old truck will run,so AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING,AND THANKS TO EVERYONE FOR STOPPING BY AND SIGNING HIS GUESTBOOK WE LOVE YOU ALL!!!!
Love Debbie

Monday, June 13, 2005 11:11 PM CDT

Hi everybody,
Just a quick update to let everyone know we saw the neurosurgeon today, he doesn't seem to concerned about Austin breathing at this point ,he said he thinks it maybe some swelling on or near the brainstem from either surgery or radiation ,if it gets worse or more frequent we will do a sleep study, thats where they will hook him up to a bunch of machines and wires and monitor his brain activity while he is sleeping to see exactly what the brain is doing when he does this gasping for air thing,as far as the tumors on his spine they are ALL still to small for surgery so that is not an option at this point so we are still watch and see mode I don't know which is worse knowing what they are going to do to my baby, or not knowing what they can do at this point either way it is breaking our hearts. I wish at this point GOD would see fit to make them go away or put them in me I hate knowing this monster is still waiting patiently in my son body just waiting rear its ugly head again.I still sit sometimes and try to figure out WHY my son,what did he do to deserve this and then I think of all the other kids we have met along the way that are still fighting this battle too or have lost there battle ,so far we have lost 2 very special kids that we know personally along this cancer road we are on,and losing a third very shortly,please do me a favor and add a precious little boy named Ryan to your prayers there family is going through some very tough decisions right now,he was just recently put on hospice please pray that he will not suffer during his last few days or weeks on this earth,AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!And thank you for signing his guestbook Austin's new thing is counting all of the entries first thing in the morning so keep on signing he loves it.
Love Debbie

Monday, June 13, 2005 0:21 AM CDT

Hi Everybody,
I know its really late for an update sorry we just now got home.I took Austin to see Rascal Flatts and Blake Sheldon it was awsome,we only had lawn seats but some amazing woman saw Austin and gave her tickets for the 12th row so we got to go almost right in front by the stage it was amazing.Austin was a little bummed they didn't play his favorite song SKIN . I am supposed to call the radio station tomorrow ,they were going to do their best to get him an autographed CD,we sure hope they do he wants Rascal Flatts autograph so bad,I will do anything within my power to get it for him,so wish me luck.We met some of the most amazing people tonight the family that sat with us were really great people,Terri if your redaing this ,I hope to hear from you soon you and your family are amazing ,keep me posted on the American Idol thing I will vote for your daughter she has a great voice and will go far ,Tell her don't give up her dream and thanks for singing to Austin he loved it,was just being shy when she asked him to dance.As for his camp this weekend ,he had a really good time ,he actually went horseback riding for the first time and I wasn't there to see it,We had to go get him a day early cause he was homesick(LOL) he's not away from mom much,Well folks this turning into a book instead an update I better go for now.AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING , We see the neurosurgeon tomorrow hopefully we have an idea of where we go from here.
Love,Debbie

Saturday, June 11, 2005 11:49 AM CDT

Hi everybody, Thanks for checking in and praying for Austin , He is doing pretty good this week,in fact he went to Camp CHOPS this weekend, I am lost(LOL) He is going to be 9 next month and this is the first time he has ever been away from me other than staying with family overnight,to say I am a nervous would be an understatement ,Oh I am sure he is doing better than me,and Camp CHOPS is a camp for cancer kids and it is ran by the hospital so all of the counselors are either cancer survivors or work for the hospital,they had some really neat stuff planned this weekend Hot Air Balloon Rides,Horseback Riding,Swimming,Arts and Crafts, and who knows what else I am sure he will have a great time. He is in for along weekend we pick him up Sunday and I have a big surprise planned for him. I am taking him to see Rascal Flatts one of his favorite groups they sing that song called SKIN it gave him so much strength and courage when he lost all of hair from treatments I thought it would be a good early birthday present.He is doing really good on the glyconutrients takes them without a hassle at all seems to have more POSITIVE energy.Well this journal is getting kind of long I better close for now.Thanks for checking in on us ,he has doctors appointments Monday and Tuesday so I'll keep you posted on our game plan as soon as I know anything.AS ALWAYS KEEP THOSE PRAYERS COMING!!!
Love Debbie

Thursday, June 9, 2005 1:11 AM CDT

HI everyone sorry I didn't update yesterday ,We are still trying to absorb the results of Austin's MRI and make some major decisions on where we go from here,we have only made 2 decisions at this point 1 being we will be asking our doctors for a referal to St.Judes,and 2 being we need pray that GOD will guide our doctors to make the right decision as to treatments,As many of you know I am not a real religious person I have never had strong faith.I do know that years ago when I buried my son Daniel I was told I would never have anymore children,but GOD saw fit to prove the doctors wrong and bless me with two beautiful boys,they have been my hope,my strength,the reason I get up in the morning( and many times the reason I get up at night too)they have given me unconditional love even when I am not the greatest mom they still love me,these boys have a purpose in this world.I love my boys BOTH of them with all my heart and pray GOD will bless me with many more years to become the best mom I can be.This journal is getting a little rough for me to type I am going too close for know,please know taht I am OK I just needed to release some emotions I hope this all makes sense because I am not going to edit my spelling and stuff tonight it all raw emotions no corrections so bear with me.I LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH AND AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love Debbie

Tuesday, June 7, 2005 4:42 PM CDT

Hi everyone I am just going to do a very quick update right now will try to come on later to update again.We finally heard back from the doctor this afternoon,and as we suspected it was not good news, all of the doctors suspect that he has whole new tumor growing at the very bottom of his spine(not any of the multiple tumors that are still there)The only plan of action we have at this point is to repeat the spinal MRI.We will be seeing the neurosurgeon on Monday ,and Tuesday we see the oncologist,so I will let everyone know what I find out as soon as I know anymore.PLEASE AS ALWAYS KEEP ALL THOSE PRAYERS COMING DOUBLETIME RIGHT NOW WE NEED THE STRENGTH FROM ALL OF YOU!!!!!!

Love Debbie

Monday, June 6, 2005 6:32 PM CDT

Hi everybody thanks for checking in on Austin.This will be a very short update today Austin is doing great,his spirits are still good.We still had not heard from doctors at AKRON CHILDRENS HOSPITAL therefore I will be looking into finding him new doctors,I have been put off one to many times by these doctors.I will update tomorrow hopefully I will have some news by then.AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!
Love Debbie

Sunday, June 5, 2005 8:53 PM CDT

Hi everybody,

Thanks for checking in on Austin he doing really good today .Day 2 of the glconutrients and he is doing really good,he is actually asking me for them,might be his excuse for Ramen Noodle soup but it will work until he gets tired of it then we will have to try it in something else,he even had soup for breakfast but we don't care as long as he takes it,says he can't taste it all ,so thats a good thing cause most of us know what a picky eater he has become since he had radiation (ever worse than he was before) He does seems to be feeling better but it still to soon to tell,he has been in good spirits and we went swimming again today stayed for 2 hours this time and he didn't want to leave usually he is tired and wants to leave so thats a plus.Well all its getting late just wanted to update everyone before getting settled for bed,so AS ALWAYS KEEP THOSE PRAYERS COMING!! HOPEFULLY WE WILL HEAR FROM DOCTOR TOMORROW.
Love Debbie

Saturday, June 4, 2005 10:33 PM CDT

Hi everyone,
Sorry I didn't update earlier in the day.We kind of had a busy day trying to keep our mind off of everything.Eddie went to work with Dad today, so Austin and I just spent the day enjoying each others company,we went swimming for a couple of hours and then we kicked back and watched a couple of movies,and had a cook out with the neighbors,we have a great apartment complex here. They always seem to come through and keep us distracted during our trying times.Austin had a pretty good day we started the glyconutrients today it went ok, he didn't like the taste so this morning it made him sick by this afternoon I figured out if I mixed it in his soup he never knew it was in there so thats the plan from now on.Well its getting late just wanted to update and I'm going to bed early thanks for stopping by.And as ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!!

Love Debbie

Friday, June 3, 2005 4:09 PM CDT

Hi just wanted to let everyone know we still do not have the official report from the doctor on Austin's MRI they were supposed to call me today but its now after 5, so I am guessing we will be on pins and needles all weekend now awaiting news on results.
I hate this not knowing what this monster inside my sons body is doing more than anything in the world,those who know me well, know that I am a person who has to know things in advance so I can plan things, so this disease has if anything taught me that I can't control every aspect of my life .I still cannot adjust real well to that ,now I feel if I plan something in advance something will happen to screw things up ,which I am sure frustrates people when they ask what I am doing for the weekend and I answer I don't know I used to know what I was doing at least a month in advance most of the time.Anyway sorry for the negative update today I am just having a very rough day today.On a good note Austin is feeling good today been playing and eating well. We will be starting the glyconutrients tomorrow so AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING FOR US!!!And hope Austin doesn't give us too hard of a time taking all the nutrients,but it is for his benefit.Someday he will understand that.

Love Debbie

Thursday, June 2, 2005 6:58 PM CDT

Hi everybody,
This journal will be kind of short we had a pretty stressful day,Austin had his MRI today and the first read shows no new tumors,but the radiologist still has to review them and compare them to measure the ones in his spine to his last MRI to check for growth,so two things we do know at this point is he has no new tumors in his brain,and the ones in his spine are still there.Austin had a reaction to the medicines to sedate him again he had trouble breathing and they had to bag him for those who don't know what that is they use a little bag to force air into his lungs so he will still get oxygen to his brain,they have decided the next time to put in a breathing tube and let the ventilater do the work for him.So as always I am asking for extra prayers as we wait for official results of his MRI,they should be calling us tomorrow sometime .I'll update as soon as I hear anything.

Love Debbie

Wednesday, June 1, 2005 10:21 AM CDT

Hi everybody ,
Sorry I didn't update yesterday the sites were down for maintenance. All is going well here just getting nervous tomorrow is our MRI ,we are praying for a good scan ,our last one was 3 months ago it was considered stable ( which means tumors are neither shrinking nor growing)Austin has been approved for an all natural program called Glyconutrients he will be starting that probably by the end of the week.
The boys summer vacation came almost two weeks early for them,several kids in Eddie's class have the chicken pox so I had to take them both out of school because Austin can't afford to get sick so please pray for my sanity(LOL)Those who have been around both the boys know they can be a real handful especially Eddie he is set in his ways.,so needless to say our summer is going to be interesting .
Well thats it for now as always KEEP THOSE PRAYERS COMING EXTRA TOMORROW we really need them right now.

Love Debbie

Monday, May 30, 2005 8:10 PM CDT

Hi everyone,

We are home from camping ,we had a great weekend,Austin did fantastic,he ran and played alot ,it was really great too see him laughing,running,and riding his bike all weekend,by Sunday he got a little tired slowed hin down a little bit but he did better than we thought he would.It was hard to remember he was ever sick, he did so well.

We enjoyed spending time with Aunt Lisa and Uncle Jim and their family it was their 11th wedding anniversary .Congratulations Lisa and Jim,We love you!!!

Heather it was great seeing you again also,we sure missed you this last year,Austin was excited he was going to get too see you again.

Well everyone its time for me too close gotta get the boys ready for bed its been a long weekend and they have school tomorrow.

As always KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING HIS MRI IS THIS THURSDAY !!!!

Love Debbie

Thursday, May 26, 2005

Hi everyone,

I figured I better update Austin's page before we take off for camping tonight,we are going to the lake until Monday,this summer we plan on spending lots of family time enjoying each other.Both the boys love camping so thats the plan.

I had to go pick up both the boys from school today because 3 kids in Eddie's class have the chicken pox,I can't take any chances with Austin right now he has his MRI next Thursday and I can't afford for him to get sick right now,so better to be safe than sorry.I sure hope they don't get it,at this point they both look clear.I will keep a close eye on them both over the weekend.

On a good note Austin got all his autographed stuff from
the Browns yesterday,he was so excited it was almost like seeing him get it the first time when we were on his Wish Trip.Well all I still have lots of packing to do so I better get going.I love you all ahve a safe holiday weekend.And as always PLEASE KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!

Love Debbie

Wednesday, May 25, 2005 9:35 PM CDT

Hello everyone,thanks for stopping by and checking on Austin . We had a pretty good day on the field trip,it was a really interesting place ,there were like historical actors in each building and they explained how life was in the 1800's,I always hated history but they made it fun and exciting,I plan on taking the boys back sometime when we have allday to visit the different sections,we didn't get to see a lot Austin started getting tired and his legs were cramping so we sat back while the class went to a couple of other buildings. Tonight he says his whole body aches he did alot of walking today,but I'm sure he is fine just hasn't done that much walking in the last year.

Trina,I talked to Karen and Mickey tonight. WE are still very interested in trying the glyconutrients,we are so excited I can't wait to get it started I hope the process goes fast .

Well all I am hitting the bed early,I have a full blown migraine ,I forgot how loud 3rd graders can be.LOL
Well as always KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!GOD IS WORKING FOR US IN AMAZING WAYS WE LOVE YOU ALL!!!!

Love Debbie

Tuesday, May 24, 2005 8:08 PM CDT

Hi everyone thanks for checking in. Today was a very good day for Austin he felt pretty good today,had nausea in the morning as usual,but no headache today.Unless you consider his little brother a headache(LOL).Eddie was his usual self today complaining about everything.

Austin had tutoring today was a little rough with Mr.Wood for about the first 20 minutes , but then he came around and had a good rest of the afternoon.

Tomorrow should be a fun day I am going on a field trip with Austin and his class we are going to Hales Farm, I haven't been on a field trip in 20 years this ought to be interesting.

Well all gonna close this for now check out all Austin's new
pictures!!! He picked the ones he wanted on this week,thanks again for stopping in and signing his guestbook its great hearing from everyone.AS ALWAYS KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!(You guys are probably tired of me saying that huh?)AS if anyone of you is really going to stop praying right ,it just feels good typing it.

Love Debbie

Monday, May 23, 2005 5:04 PM CDT

Hi everyone,

Not a whole lot new to report today, Austin had a pretty good day at school today,when I picked him up I was really surprised to see he wasn't wearing his hat ,this the first time since returning to school that he was willing to take it off, I AM SO PROUD OF HIM,and also all the kids at his school, nobody made fun of him at all.Of course he is finally starting to get his hair back a little bit so that might have something to do with it. He did come home again with a headache again today. They seem to be getting more frequent but not worse though.I sure am glad June 2nd is coming up soon, we need to know one way or the other what we are dealing with,hopefully nothing though!!

Well all thank you so much for signing his guestbook,its great to know we are not alone in this FIGHT,AS ALWAYS KEEP THOSE PRAYERS COMING!!! LOVE YOU ALL.

Love Debbie

Sunday, May 22, 2005 8:01 PM CDT

Hello Friends and Family thanks for stopping by and checking on Ausman,he doing good today had a little headache this morning but it went away after he took an advil,he has been eating like crazy said he needs to gain weight again, seemed like everytime I turned around he was eating something different today but thats ok just need to go buy groceries again.

Trina it was really great talking to you today I am really interested in trying the ginger and the ambrose on Austin I feel we have nothing to lose only something to gain by doing this, please keep me posted on anything you hear on these products. I am going over to GNC tomorrow after I take the boys to school to see if they have the ginger at least cause I would really like to get him off the zofran he takes now for nausea,he has been taking it for 8 months now and I'm not sure it is helping like it used too.

Well thats all for now time to get my guys to bed so I can have some quiet time to do some more research,As Always
KEEP THEM PRAYERS STORMING HEAVEN WE LOVE YOU ALL.Thank you all for signing his guestbook!!!We love hearing from you all.

Love Debbie

Saturday, May 21, 2005 11:19 PM CDT

Hello everyone,

We had a pretty nice day today weather was nice,the boys spent almost allday playing outside and they actually got along for the most part anyway. We had a cookout with the neighbors this evening. Austin ate like crazy he had 2 hotdogs,some fries,and a steak also,was the best he has ate in 6 months as far as healthy goes anyway usually he only wants cereal cause that is all that tastes good to him.

Eds brother Rich made it in tonight around 9:30 pm,he is moving here from Arizona,it will be really nice for Ed to have someone he can talk to here, I am hoping they will finally have a brotherly bond something Ed has wanted for along time. Both of the boys don't know there Uncle Rich real well but they seemed drawn to him neither one wanted to go to bed until he was settled in,almost like they were afraid he would leave, Eddie usually wants nothing to do with anyone at first but he followed him around everywhere.

Well its getting late I'm ready for bed so I'm gonna close for now. As always KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!! WE LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH. Going to keep the same pictures up for a few days.

Love Debbie

Saturday, May 21, 2005 0:17 AM CDT

Hi guys,

Sorry I didn't update earlier in the day. I didn't go on the computer much today. Austin was on playing his games.
All is going ok here. He had another bad headache this
evening,sure wish June 2nd would get here,All these headaches have me really worried lately.He has had 16 of them in 6 weeks, we are hoping and praying it is allergies.

And also we have noticed that in his sleep he will be snoring and then all the sudden he will gasp for air like he is having trouble breathing . Not meaning this to be a negative journal but wanted everyone to know all that is going here, so that we can all be prepared.

On a good note he did go to school allday today with no problems,Yeah Ausman ,Mrs.Gosnick his teacher did call me today and wanted to know what symptoms we were seeing so she could keep an eye out at school, And I realized I have been a bit vague about what we were seeing,so I figured I better fill you all in, Thank You Mrs.Gosnick and all the teachers at school for looking out for him , You have all been awesome working with us,through these trying times in Austin life,we are grateful to have such a wonderful school district.

Well thats all for tonight, AS ALWAYS KEEP STORMING HEAVEN WITH PRAYERS WE THANK YOU ALL FOR CHECKING IN ON US.Also new pictures again trying to get as many as I can from his trip!!

LOVE DEBBIE

Thursday, May 19, 2005 8:40 PM CDT

Hi everyone today was a pretty good day, Austin was feeling pretty good this morning so we decided not to give him his zofran for his nausea he did really well until after lunch,once he ate he got an upset stomache, so I went and picked him up. He felt better by this evening so he went bowling with me tonight,we signed for a thursday night league ,He did so awesome ,I am so PROUD of him ,He usually get really mad when he throws a gutter ball, but tonight he was on his best behavior. Well nothing else new going on today so I am close with a short journal.Bet you all are glad huh?Tired of reading a long one I'll give you all break tonight LOL, But not without closing with my usual request KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING PLEASE!!! 2 More weeks until our next MRI were suffering from MRI Jitters getting very anxious as the day gets closer,pray for shrinkage of spine tumors.

Love Debbie

PS. New Pictures again today!!!

Wednesday, May 18, 2005 3:33 PM CDT

Hello everyone ,thanks for stopping by today.Austin is feeling much better now as a matter of fact he will be back in school tomorrow,he doesn't sound as congested this afternoon a couple of days to recover be just what he needed after our long busy trip I know I need a vacation from our vacation a lot of things were left out of the journal because Make A Wish had so much stuff planned for us there was too much to list(those who were there know what I mean)think we really only had 1 day out of the whole trip that they didn't have something going on we aren't complaining though we loved all of the activities.

Well today was spent doing tons of laundry over at Aunt Lisa's it was really nice to get to spend time with her,
And watch her with Austin she adores him,they have such a close bond,she has been such an amazing support for our family.THANK YOU LISA,JIM,BRITNEY,RYAN,and JUSTIN, We love you guys more than you can ever imagine. And MOM I love you too,you guys are awesome.Well enough for today just wanted everyone to know I love them and thank you!!!Posted new pictures again .Check them out!!!

As always going to close with my usual KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!!
Love Debbie

Tuesday, May 17, 2005 9:45 PM CDT

Hi everyone all is going ok here at the Ausman's camp,he has a cold and not feeling all that great today so I kept him home,will keep him home again tomorrow as he is upset to his stomache pretty bad ( putting it politely LOL)
We went to doctors today his counts are back to normal so he can fight off infection now so thats a plus, on the not so good side we tried to move up his MRI because he is having some symptoms that are concerning myself and the doc as well but were unable to get in.So we will have to wait until June 2nd unless symptoms get worse then we will take him through ER and they won't have a choice but to do it then,Doc feels it is safe to wait 2 weeks though.
Well not up to typing much right now so gonna cut it short tonight.Kathy if your reading this thanks for finding that note for me it means the world that I have it.
And thanks to all of you checking in on us,As always KEEP THEM PRAYERS COMING!!!LOTS AND LOTS OF THEM.GOD WON"T HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO ANSWER!!!I added some new photos be sure to check them out and don't forget to sign his guestbook,we all love hearing from you guys.
Love,Debbie

Monday, May 16, 2005 4:22 PM CDT

Hello everyone,now enough teasing I'll try to get the rest of our trip into one journal entry.First the day we boarded the ship ,we first went to a Childrens museum in Miami it was really a neat place everything they had was hands on,a play doctors office,grocery store,police station,recording booth,and so much more!!Then we went across the Bay to board the ship it was huge,all the boys kept saying is wow its huge,Well Eddie kept saying it was a mansion.I don't think we ever really saw the everything it had to offer.Day one on ship was spent relaxing and taking in the enormous size of the ship ,the sea was pretty rough that first night none of us felt real great,but Day 2 was better,we had no stops that day just lots of get togethers with other make a wish families,getting to know everyone,IF you guys are reading this also everyone of you are amazing We grew to Love and respect all of you.
Day 3
We ported in Puerto Rico ,I never realized it was so big I always thought it was small but its not We were booked to go to the Rain Forest that was a very beautiful place so green with lots of pretty flowers ,it took us an hour and a half to actually get to it so saw alot of the island was surprised they had all the same business' we have in the states.The prettiest part of that tour was we saw what was said to be the fountain of youth ,Maybe I should have gotten under the falls I'm sure showing my age these days!!I got lots of pictures will be posting different ones every so often.
Day 4
We went to St.Thomas that has got to be the most beautiful place in the world,The water was so blue it looked like a swimming pool.We went on what they call the Ultimate Island Tour they took us to several look out spots where we could diffent views of the island,Then we went to Megans Bay ,for 2 hours of swimming ( those who know me well know that I refuse swim in anything but a swimming pool)Believe it or not even I went swimming couldn't resist.Then went to BlackBeards Castle.Took lots of pictures there too.
Day5
We went to St.Maartan it was really pretty from the ship Me and the boys stayed on because we got really sunburned in St.Thomas ,Ed got off and went to a Butterfly Farm he took lots of pictures for us.What a guy Huh?
Day 6
Was spent at sea again the boys went ice skating with the other Make a Wish kids(yes ice skating on the ship) they had lots of fun fell a few times but did better than I ever could have at least the got out there.
Day 7
WE went to the Bahama's that is also a very pretty place the water was really blue there ,we did a glass bottom boat tour there taht was amazing it took on a 25 minute ride across the ocean we got to see Barry Bonds house(baseball player) and Michael Jordans House and also the house that Oprah is building there too of course they are huge.We got to an area that is protected from fishing and went downstairs and looked through the bottom of the boat saw hundreds of colorful fish ,lots of coral.Then we went back to the ship .That night they had a kids only party for all the Make A Wish kids NO ADULTS ,boys had lots of fun Eddie had a little girlfriend on board so he met her there .Andrea walked Austin back to the room after the party(Thank You Andrea!!!)Never thought I would see the day Austin would get walked home by a girl.
Well all that most of our trip the rest was spent bonding with all the other amazing parents and there more than amazing children.WE had the chance of a lifetime I will never forget any of you!!!!!!!
AS always KEEP THOSE PRAYERS COMING WE HAVE DOCTOR'S TOMORROW AND HIS MRI IS JUNE 2 ND.
Love Debbie

Sunday, May 15, 2005 3:47 PM CDT

Well we are home and as I promised to give you all some details if I gave them all to you it would be a book so I'll try to give you a few anyway.First off we left here at 6:30 Am on Thursday morning May 5th in a Limo.Austin thought that was really cool.When we arrived in Miami go figure it was storming so we didn't to go do much that first day once the storm passed we went swimming and met a couple of the other Make a Wish families.Then on Friday the real fun began.It started with a breakfast with all the make a wish families and every day heroes(That what they call the wish granters who were being honored by their local chapters.It was really fun we played some fun games to get to know everybody.Then at Noon we met in the lobby to go to Royal Caribbean Headquarters for what we thought was a meeting,but when we got there we were in for a BIG surprise we were all taken upstairs to a separate room for each wish family (by the way there were 10 total)
When we walked into the room we were greeted by about 15 people and like 10 pizza's and lots of cool gifts.Austin got a lot of autographed Browns stuff.An autographed helmet,jersey,poster,hat,and 3 footballs all autographed by Bernie Kosar Browns Hall of Famer.Pretty cool huh?But that not all they had leather duffle bags full of stuff all each of us .Then we went for cake and ice cream.Then we went back to the Hotel for 2 hour break then we We were off to a Florida Marlins game,Yes they won 7-0 yeah.Any way thats all for Day 1 will put on Day 2 tomorrow or it would be a book instead of a Journal (LOL)As always Keep thems prayers.We sure Miss all the other Make a Wish families,We grew very close love ya guys,be back Tomorrow.
Love Debbie

Saturday, May 14, 2005 8:08 PM CDT

HELLO EVERYONE,WE ARE HOME!!! We had an excellent time and met some very wonderful people ,I just wanted to let everyone know that I will fill in all of the awsome details tomorrow sorry but to be a tease but it has really been along day,we are beat and of course sunburned well Austin isn't to bad used 2 bottles of sunblock in a week on him so he is good anyway,sometime early afternoon I will fill all the details and add a few pictures.So check back tomorrow.Thanks for checking in and Yes I will say it again KEEP THOSE PRAYERS COMING!!!

Love,Debbie and Ausman

Monday, May 9, 2005 5:49 PM CDT

Hi all this is Lisa again, just heard fron austin he says to tell everyone hi and hes not getting sick hes having a great time.They are just leaving touring pureto rico headed back to the ship to sail to ST THOMAS. In pureto rico they went to the rain forrest.All is going really well with them all.Well hope this finds you all doing well and hope all you moms had a great mothers day!!. well just wanted to let you all know they are fine and having a great time .Till next time and as always keep the prays coming and thank you .Love you AUSTIN forever
This trip is truley a wish come true.
Love aunt Lisa
(updating for Debbie and Austin)

Friday, May 6, 2005 6:07 AM CDT

Hi all this is Lisa updateing for debbie. All is going well with austin the limo was there to get them on time. Austin was so happy i love seeing him smile. He called yesterday to let us know he was in miami and swimming.Got to eat dinner on the bay with mom, dad and Eddie.
They have alot planned next few days will be going on the cruise part tommorow morning.Debbie said austin is doing great and having alot of fun. Please remeber to keep the prays coming for our little trooper. He is my ray of sunshine. Will update again soon. Until then god bless.

With lots of love for Austin and Family
Aunt Lisa

Wednesday, May 4, 2005 8:50 PM CDT

Hello everyone checking in,we are all doing great no setbacks in a month now, yeah the day is finally here,we will be leaving bright and early in the morning for Ausman's Make-A-Wish.We are all so excited to be getting a wonderful relaxing break from all the pressures of this roller coaster we have been on.Yes we will miss everyone!!!Especially Aunt Lisa and of course the rest of her crew.They have been our rock through this and should be going with us but unfortunately we can't take them.I just hope she knows how much she means to us!!!I hope all of you Mothers checking in have a wonderful day, relax and let your kids take care of you for a change and if they can't enjoy them,because our kids are our future.I know without my kids my life would be meaningless,they are my heart and soul.OK enough being mushy I better finish getting ready,YES Lisa still packing LOL.I Love You guys.And as always asking everyone to keep those prayers coming!!!Will update as soon as I find a computer on the ship or Lisa may update for us for a couple of days.Mom,Lisa,and JoAnn watch your mailboxes for mail,HAPPY MOTHERSDAY!!! LOVE YOU GUYS.
Love Debbie

Tuesday, May 3, 2005 9:09 PM CDT

Hello everybody all is well here again today,which is always good news.Austin had another great day at school which is means his Wish is still on YEAH!!! We leave the day after tomorrow bright and early his Limo will arrive to pick us at 6:45 AM, our flight leaves at 9:20 so will will be in Miami by Noon.We are all getting so excited we probably won't sleep well tomorrow night as the boys are already having trouble sleeping.Well guys thanks for checking in on us ,you guys are probably tired of me saying this but as always Keep those prayers coming!!! And thanks for all who sign his guestbook.Will update one more time tomorrow and then won't be able to again until Sat or Sun depends on how easy it is to find a computer on the ship LOL.
Love Debbie

Monday, May 2, 2005 9:37 PM CDT

Hi everybody not a whole lot new is going on here, execept our lousy weather,one day its nice and the next its freezing rain and a little snow,man can't wait to go on our trip,of course I see rain all week in Miami,hope we can catch a break, at least for a little while,Austin and Eddie really want to go to the beach on Thursday when we get there,and the Florida Marlins game we are supposed to go to Friday, would really bite if they get rained out.
Poor Austin is worried the ship can't sail if it is raining Saturday .I tried explaining we can still sail we just won't go up on deck until it stops.
I was just sitting here thinking this will be the first year I won't be able to call my mom on MothersDay I'm a little bummed about that but I'm sure she understands, I just have to convince myself now.I LOVE YOU MOM and I sure wish I could have taken you with us I really did try to talk Make A Wish into it.But I am also excited about spending a beautiful day at sea with the 3 most important men in my life,my family has really had a rough year and I am hoping to use this trip to reconnect on whole new level with my guys,with some fun and relaxing in the sun.Well not much more to add for now
as always Keep them prayers coming!!!And thank for checking in.
Love Debbie

Sunday, May 1, 2005 10:38 PM CDT

Hi everyone just a quick note to let you all know Austin is doing great,he was outside riding his new bike(well not new, but its new to him)we had to find a different bike because he was unable to ride his other one,( due some leg weakness), so we found him a girls bike that was lower and he could balance it better,our neighbor Josh paints cars, so he took it and painted it black with a metalflake overcoat, so now you would never know it was a girls bike.
Anyway he had a great weekend,the only ongoing problems we are still concerned about is his memory doesn't seem to be all that good,and then the nausea.
But if you think of all he has gone through in the last 9 months , 35 hours of major brain surgery alone was alot, then all the poison we put into his little body,so if this is all he has come out of this with,we are fine with that.
Anyways its getting late only 3 full days left until our cruise, boys are getting really excited and of course we are too.As always,still asking everyone to keep praying and stopping by we love reading his journal.
Love Debbie

Saturday, April 30, 2005 10:43 AM CDT

Hello again everyone sorry for not updating yesterday I was a bum wasn't on the computer much at all yesterday for a change LOL.Of course it helps that Austin is doing so well there isn't much new to report,He is at work with Dad today both Eddie and Austin love to go to work on the weekends with dad.
Make-A-Wish was here yesterday we are in for an awsome trip we are getting so excited,9 days of fun filled relaxing,we have a few details but won't know what all is planned for us until we get there.,which is kinda fun not knowing I'm sure they have some fun stuff planned on the ship,and of course they have internet so I will be trying to update Ausman's journal from the cruise.
Well I have a houseful of kids neighbors are here playing so I am going to close for now.All is well at our house,And as always KEEP those PRAYERS coming!!! We love you all and thank you all for stopping by and signing the guestbook we love reading it,and will be saving all of of his journal and guestbook posts when this all over.
Love Debbie

Thursday, April 28, 2005 10:22 PM CDT

Hello everyone sorry its so late tonight for an update all is very quiet here today, Austin is doing really good today, as a matter a fact he was able to eat this morning before taking his zofran, usually he has to take it first and eat about 45 minutes later, of course he still had to take it shortly after but its still a sign that the nausea is getting better ,hopefully won't need it much longer!Karen
from Make a Wish called today, she finally got all of our tickets she will be coming by tomorrow morning to drop them off,I will update you guys then cause we still haven't got all the information as to what they have planned for us,but I'm sure it will be great!!We leave in 6 days boys can't wait and neither can we.Well thats it for tonight,Thanks for stopping by,And as always Keep them prayers coming!!!

Love Debbie

Wednesday, April 27, 2005 7:27 PM CDT

Hello everybody, sorry about the mood yesterday ,just one of those days, they come and go sometimes. Today is much better day. Austin had a great day today he once again cooperated really well with Mr.Wood(his tutor)he seems to be starting to catch on with his math some.He has only needed 1 zofran a day for 3 days in a row now. We were taking it 3 times, so I think his nausea is getting better.
As for feeling better he has so much energy now,him and Eddie run around and are really hyper lately which is a good thing.When the teacher called on Monday I asked her how he seemed to be doing without his Concerta, she said she would have never known he was ADHD had we not told her,so I think we are going to keep him off his meds.
I finally started packing for our trip this weekend,we have 7 days until we leave.WE are looking forward to it although I am a bit nervous being so far away from our doctors if anything was to go wrong,but I'm sure all will be fine they have doctors and nurses on board the ship.Well I have go for now boys need bath before American Idol comes on.Keep those prayers coming.Love You all.Thanks for checking in on us.
Love Debbie

Tuesday, April 26, 2005 5:45 PM CDT

HI everybody just updating you all on Austin he is doing good,had another decent day as far as nausea went and is eating pretty well,As for me I'm kinda having a rough day dealing with things,It all started when Austin's teacher called me, she had noticed he was walking funny, said his leg appeared to be stiff and of course I got really scared ,as I forgot about him dropping the bottle of ice on his foot so of course I started panicking was ready to call Dr.Hord took me about 2 hours to remember so in the meantime all these crazy thoughts were going through my head its still 5 weeks until his next MRI, should I wait that long to have him checked,Then I started getting angry I HATE CANCER and what it has done to my family and my son,It shouldn't be my child, it should be me going through all of this I have lived my life his has just begun,it isn't fair, he doesn't deserve to suffer like this,I love him so much he is my miracle child, just when I thought I would never have children I got pregnant and in many ways he saved my life from the destruction I was living,I am very scared to think of what my life will be if we were to lose this battle ,YES I know I have another child that needs me too and I am doing my best to be the Mom

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