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Hi Doug,
Thanks for the update, glad you are still connected in cyberspace with everyone. Check everyday for new messages and think and pray for you. I want to see those pictures of you jumping off the railroad bridge so get them on.
Donna Lindow <dlindow@eot.com>
Nevis, MN - Sunday, July 31, 2005 10:39 PM CDT

Hey Doug,

Sorry to hear about any down time and your toe and foot situation. When one's feet hurt it affects the whole body.

Your update reminds me of today's devotion by Spurgeon so I'll copy that for you, but first here's my own meditation which is helpful for me.
John 16: 22
And ye now therefore have sorrow:
but I will see you again,
and your heart shall rejoice,
and your joy
no man taketh from you.
John 16: 22
Now, Doug, here's Spurgeon:
July 31
An Appeal; Deliverance

And call upon me in the day of trouble: I will deliver thee, and thou shalt glorify me. (Psalm 50:15)
This is a promise indeed!

Here is an urgent occasion—"the day of trouble." It is dark at noon on such a day, and every hour seems blacker than the one which came before it. Then is this promise in season: it is written for the cloudy day.

Here is condescending advice, "Call upon me." We ought not to need the exhortation: it should be our constant habit all the day and every day. What a mercy to have liberty to call upon God! What wisdom to make good use of it! How foolish to go running about to men! The Lord invites us to lay our case before Him, and surely we will not hesitate to do so.

Here is reassuring encouragement: "I will deliver thee." Whatever the trouble may be, the Lord makes no exceptions but promises full, sure, happy deliverance. He will Himself work out our deliverance by His own hand. We believe it, and the Lord honors faith.

Here is an ultimate result: "Thou shalt glorify me." Ah, that we will do most abundantly. When He has delivered us we will loudly praise Him; and as He is sure to do it, let us begin to glorify Him at once.

Also Spurgeon has this devotional study:
"And these are the singers . . . they were employed in that work day and night."—1 Chronicles 9:33.
ELL was it so ordered in the temple that the sacred chant never ceased: for evermore did the singers praise the Lord, whose mercy endureth for ever. As mercy did not cease to rule either by day or by night, so neither did music hush its holy ministry. My heart, there is a lesson sweetly taught to thee in the ceaseless song of Zion's temple, thou too art a constant debtor, and see thou to it that thy gratitude, like charity, never faileth. God's praise is constant in heaven, which is to be thy final dwelling-place, learn thou to practise the eternal hallelujah. Around the earth as the sun scatters his light, his beams awaken grateful believers to tune their morning hymn, so that by the priesthood of the saints perpetual praise is kept up at all hours, they swathe our globe in a mantle of thanksgiving, and girdle it with a golden belt of song.
The Lord always deserves to be praised for what He is in Himself, for His works of creation and providence, for His goodness towards His creatures, and especially for the transcendent act of redemption, and all the marvellous blessing flowing therefrom. It is always beneficial to praise the Lord; it cheers the day and brightens the night; it lightens toil and softens sorrow; and over earthly gladness it sheds a sanctifying radiance which makes it less liable to blind us with its glare. Have we not something to sing about at this moment? Can we not weave a song out of our present joys, or our past deliverances, or our future hopes? Earth yields her summer fruits: the hay is housed, the golden grain invites the sickle, and the sun tarrying long to shine upon a fruitful earth, shortens the interval of shade that we may lengthen the hours of devout worship. By the love of Jesus, let us be stirred up to close the day with a psalm of sanctified gladness.

Well, Doug, happy last day of July.
Sincerely,
Bob Reichart
Robert Reichart <rreichart@charter.net>
Owatonna, MN United States - Sunday, July 31, 2005 9:36 PM CDT

Hi Doug, Steph & all ~ We are missing your updates but still check in at least once a day hoping for news. Even with no news, we pray on, trusting the Lord to bless you in ways you could never imagine. Remember that He has promised NEVER to leave us nor forsake us. Some days it is harder than others to hold on to that, but we will keep praying for all of you. Laurel & Darrell
Laurel l& Darrell Phelps <dlfelps@msn.com>
Owatonna, MN USA - Saturday, July 30, 2005 9:57 PM CDT

Sure glad someone wrote--I thought the Rapture came and I was the only one left !!!!
Joan Evenson <EvenJms@aol.com>
Grand Forks, ND USA - Friday, July 29, 2005 4:48 PM CDT

Hey Doug and Family,
Just want to let you know how often you all come to mind as we go through our days and with each thought a prayer is sent for your healing and encouragement. We love you and hope to see you again soon.
With love, Aunt Brenda & Uncle David
Brenda & David Hanson <davidhanson9673@msn.com>
Suzhou, China - Wednesday, July 27, 2005 1:14 PM CDT

what a wonderful documentary on the Fox News last night---we were so proud of you all----ohhh,to those that didn't see it--It was about Doug's accident and how far he has come,and his family and friends that support him---Steph, Tom and Doug riding his bike all looking great---Good Job by all---Keep going and we'll keep praying and loving you all....Love Jim and Joan
Joan Evenson <EvenJms@aol.com>
Grand Forks, ND USA - Thursday, July 21, 2005 12:22 AM CDT

Doug and family,

Haven't written for awhile, but I do read your updates regularly. Girls are almost done with traveling soccer, that has kept me very busy. The state soccer championship is next weekend then we are done. Both girls ran in the Prairie Rose Games in Minot a few weeks back. Kira won the 100,200,400 and got 3rd in the long jump. Kelsey won the 100, 200 and long jump. It was fun but very hot. Kelsey is driving now, which helps considerably getting to and from sporting practices of both girls. Don is still recruiting and getting some fishing in. The fresh walleye for supper has been great. Glad to hear that you are doing better and your spirits are up, keep up God's work. We continue to pray for you and your family.
Desire'e Larson and family <papfargo@ideaone.net>
fargo, nd - Wednesday, July 20, 2005 1:33 PM CDT

To all out there reading this, I can give you a first hand account of the miraculous work of the Lord. I was able to spend a few wonderful days with Doug and Steph and it is amazing how they are being held together and prospering through all of this. Doug mentioned some of my visit but failed to disclose our jump from an old railroad bridge into the lake. Watching him realize and overcome his fear was one of the most awesome experiences I've ever had. I am so thankful that my son was not only able to witness it but caught it all on film. Doug, I hope you plan on putting one of those pictures up at some point. I was also thankful that my new friend, and my son's new hero, Tom, was able to be there with us. I am also glad he was able to get us on the fish that morning. Douglas.....thanks for making some new memories....we may not be kids any more but that was some time I will always cherish.
Favorite Cousin David <oconnor1970@yahoo.com>
Elizabeth, IN - Tuesday, July 12, 2005 7:07 PM CDT

Doug - it's so good to open up this website and see entries by you!!! You make my day!

The new pictures have been great. I think I need to send my husband up your way for some fishing lessons! He can't seem to find ones that like, no matter where he goes!

I'm so glad you are feeling better. You keep writing - I'm still checking in daily!! I pray that you stay in this upbeat mode and continue to heal and get stronger every day.
Nancy Erickson <nancy.erickson@ndsu.edu>
Moorhead, MN - Tuesday, July 12, 2005 8:30 AM CDT

Doug... this was the first time I have gotten to your site... it was good to see you at teh family reunion. You looked good... and I know it must be hard... and I know I really have no idea how hard it really is... but you in my prayers, you and your family. May God blees you in all things. (col. 1:9-12)
Mark Hanson <residual_spark@hotmail.com>
Austin, MN U.S.A. - Monday, July 4, 2005 11:43 PM CDT

We are guilty too-we read but don't write! We like to keep up with your progress. Hang in there! Hope you have a great holiday weekend.
Matt & Barb Berg <mbberg@wiktel.com>
Karlstad, MN - Friday, July 1, 2005 6:19 AM CDT

Hi Doug - Since you hadn't written for a week, I decided to look back in your journal and see how things were progressing at this time last year. I see on July 7th you were walking for the first time without your walker and your cane and now here you are - riding a bike and jumping off cliffs!! Even if you aren't quite satisfied with all your accomplishments, I think it is just amazing considering what the prognosis was when this whole ordeal first began. I sure wish the mood swings would stop being a problem for you. It's so hard to think of you unhappy and down - that's just not the Doug that I know! We just have to keep praying (and we are!!!) that the down days will become fewer and fewer.

I hope you and your fmaily have a wonderful 4th of July weekend. I also hope we will have another message from you real soon.
Nancy Erickson <nancy.erickson@ndsu.edu>
Moorhead, MN - Thursday, June 30, 2005 2:46 PM CDT

Hi Doug,
I continue to check in...and you are brought to my mind often...so lots of prayers being said! Have a great wkend!
God Bless you all!
Deb Mason
Deb Mason <dan2deb@lakes.com>
Wanamingo, MN USA - Friday, June 24, 2005 7:41 PM CDT

Hey Doug,
Good to read the updates. Glad to hear the trip to Canada was a good one. That is one cool set of wheels!! Check on you everyday so let's keep updating. Let the new rain wash away all your problems and keep you in peace.
Donna Lindow <dlindow@eot.com>
Nevis, MN USA - Friday, June 24, 2005 11:04 AM CDT

Hey Doug, The bike looks great and the cliff jumping looks fun. It is great to see how God is providing new, fun, and fulfilling avenues for you to get out and spend time with your family and friends. Keep up the great work!
Love you guys,

Archie <bamttu1@juno.com>
- Thursday, June 23, 2005 7:58 PM CDT

Hi Doug, Let me know how the fishing was in Canada. Hopefully you had good fellowship and some fish.

It is warm here. It is usually in the lower 90's with about 85% humidity when I leave for work about 6:45 am.

Have a great week. I will try to give you a call in the morning (your time).
David Hanson <dhanson@wellmanproducts.com>
Suzhou, Jiangsu China - Monday, June 20, 2005 1:14 AM CDT

Hey Doug, Happy Father's Day, even though Tanya beat me to it. This morning in Church, the pastor was of course praising fathers, but showed me all of the ways that we impact our childrens lives not only by what we teach them about God, Jesus, and life experiences in general, but also what we show them through our actions. I just thought of you and wanted to praise and encourage you that through the trials and tribulations you and Steph have endured over the past year or so, you have greatly impacted your children. You have showed them incredible faith in the high times and the low times. You have showed them that even when you get really down and feeling lost, God is still there holding you and carrying through and that He will never abandon you. You have showed them how important it is to surround yourself with a God-fearing, loving, supportive earthly family as well as brothers and sisters in Christ. You are never truly alone in this world. You have shown that through years of faith, witness, steadfastness, and just treating people with love and respect, that you can impact thousands of peoples lives around the world through the POWER OF JESUS CHRIST in your life. This all has been incredibly tough on all of you, but the rewards are great and the impact on generations to come through your family will be immeasurable. YOU ARE A GREAT FATHER BECAUSE YOU SERVE THE BEST FATHER!!. I admire you and Steph more than words express, and love you even deeper. Continued prayers for you all. Talk to you soon! Love From The Great State of Texas!
Archie <bamttu1@juno.com>
- Sunday, June 19, 2005 9:24 PM CDT

happy father's day doug! we had a nice day here. we went to archie's folks house for lunch and then out to the pool for awhile. it is pretty quiet though, the boys have left for a week at boy scout camp! please cover them with prayer. they are attempting to complete some major merit badge work....lots of physical activities. the kind of things that make moms a bit nervous.

i hope that your fishing trip will be a wonderful memory for you. we are eager to hear all the details!

hugs to stephanie, riley and breck.
tanya <tlynn39@juno.com>
- Sunday, June 19, 2005 8:59 PM CDT

Hi Doug and family,
It was so good to see Doug and Riley at the wedding last week in Rochester. Doug was enjoying himself and you could see that "spark" back in his smile. Doug got out on the dance floor and did the chicken dance and the hokey pokey. Roger was having trouble staying awake as it was getting pretty late...Doug said "Dad, do you want me to drive home, that will keep you awake?" It was great to have his sense of humor back. Looking forward to hearing about your fishing trip and seeing you in a couple of weeks when we get to Nevis. Take care.
Julann and Jeff Vangness <jedova@yahoo.com>
presently parked at Peggy's, MN - Sunday, June 19, 2005 3:24 PM CDT

Doug:

We have been praying many times daily for you and are so excited about the things happening in your life! It is awesome to see that you are seeking God's will and what God has planned for your life! It may be different than you ever expected, but it will be amazing and wonderful!! Our God is a God of miracles. He doesn't give up on us, even if we sometimes do.

Your trip to Canada sounds wonderful! We are praying that the moments spent in God's majestic creation will refresh your spirit and give you moments of pure joy!

Just want you to know you are in our thoughts and prayers.

Love,
Aunt Louise, Uncle Todd and Family
Ann Louise Severud <anniels@cox.net>
Peoria, AZ USA - Friday, June 17, 2005 10:01 PM CDT

Douglas,
I believe you are already gone on your trip. I trust all is going great. I haven't checked up for a little because I was praying and trusting things were looking better for you. I saw mom last night and she said to check things out. I am really thrilled that there is at least a little break for you right now and things are looking positive. I'm looking forward to getting some face to face time with you next month. Keep clinging to the Word and letting the Lord do His work.........
Favorite Cousin David <oconnor1970@yahoo.com>
Elizabeth, IN - Thursday, June 16, 2005 9:31 PM CDT

Just a little note from Doug’s favorite father-in-law. I have sent some time with Doug the last week and let me tell you he is starting to be himself again. I enjoy talking to him without him running off to the computer or a movie. I helped him with the bike so he could pedal the left foot. Riley, Breck and he went for a bike ride Tuesday night for about two hours and didn’t come back until it was dark. Didn’t have to worry as Riley was with but you still have it in you mind. I think he can mow the yard with his self-propelled mower and lawn tracker. The bike and yard will keep him busy. I am taking care of the kids this morning. Steph and Barb are out garage selling. Thanks for writing as Doug and Steph do read everything. Take care, Karl (oh, a mother loon and her two babies are right in front of the dock, priceless.)
Karl Carlson <kbcarlson8@arvig.net>
Nevis, MN USA - Thursday, June 16, 2005 8:25 AM CDT

Everything sounds great! Wish we were there to see you pull in the big one. I will await the new pictures of the big string of fish, and no photo doctoring like you did in Montana with the snowboard. Have fun and don't turn thew boat over.
Love, Archie
Archie <bamttu1@juno.com>
- Tuesday, June 14, 2005 10:18 PM CDT

Doug,

It has been great to read your updates the past few days. We are still praying for you and your family!!

Have fun in Canada!!!

Jim (for the Hanson's) <james.m.hanson@wellsfargo.com>
Ramsey, MN U.S.A. - Tuesday, June 14, 2005 3:04 PM CDT

Glad to have you back! I've been checking and praying and as always, prayer pays off.

I just studied the life of Paul in my Bible Study Fellowship class this last year. I am now reading Paul a novel by Walter Wangerin Jr. Not far into it but with the life he lead, it sure can't be boring!

Wishing you continued bright days ahead.

Hugs,
Connie F-G <cdlfg@adelphia.net>
Colorado Springs, CO - Tuesday, June 14, 2005 2:35 PM CDT

Doug - Great to have you back online again! So glad you are starting to perk up a little. I have been checking this site many times a day and was very relieved to see a message from you when I got to work on Monday.

I think the bike is a wonderful idea. It's probably just what you needed at this point. Now if the rain will just stop we can all get out and enjoy the summer weather. Maybe you haven't had as much as us but it's been really rainy here and I am ready for some sunshine!

Hope things keep looking up! You keep writing and we'll keep praying! We love to hear from you.
Nancy Erickson <nancy.erickson@ndsu.edu>
Moorhead, MN - Tuesday, June 14, 2005 10:04 AM CDT

Doug, The bike sounds great, I am glad to see that God is revealing to you new and different ways to expand your territory (just as in the prayer of Jabez). I am very excited and am still praying. I love you man! Talk to you soon.
Archie <bamttu1@juno.com>
- Monday, June 13, 2005 11:50 PM CDT

thanks Doug good to hear from you.
love ya,

Steve
MT - Monday, June 13, 2005 11:13 PM CDT

Hi Doug,

A little over a week ago Jean and I heard a commencement address in Minneapolis by parents who last October lost their three older sons in a fiery car crash caused by another driver who was a drunken teenager. I'd like to share some of the parents' comments: …Will you respond in anger, or will you respond in forgiveness? Will you rely on your own strength, or will you look to Him? …from Ps 86 - Give ear, O LORD, unto my prayer; and attend to the voice of my supplications. In the day of my trouble I will call upon thee: for thou wilt answer me….

Our prayer that night changed from, Lord, heal him to Lord, your will be done. Did He answer the prayer in the way I wanted? No, He did not. He is not some God that we can boss around to give us what we want. He is the God of the universe who has a plan that is much bigger than you and me. You see, He could have delayed our boys just five seconds in a million different ways, to avoid the crash, but He didn’t. Why? He has a plan and He chose to take them home to be with Him for a purpose that we will never fully understand until we see Him face to face….It’s not about me; it’s not about you. It’s about Jesus.

As it says in James, life is a vapor. “Only one life twill soon be past, only what’s done for Christ will last….All of us expect the Lord to give; we don’t expect Him to take away. After Job had lost everything, he said, “the LORD gave, and the LORD hath taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD.” (The calamity) that came our way… some called fate, destiny, (bad)luck, or circumstances. I would rather call it a defining moment or divine encounter….

Ecclesiastes 12: 1 - Remember now thy Creator in the days of thy youth, while the evil days come not, nor the years draw nigh, when thou shalt say, I have no pleasure in them;

You may be here today realizing that you have chosen the temporary things of this world as the highest priority. As our boys were crashed into at a combined speed of over 100 mph, the things of this world had no value. They had less than a one second warning that they were going to die. That is not enough time to prepare to die. The good news is that they were ready. Are you ready? None of us are guaranteed another day. …Choose Jesus while there is time... This is about a personal relationship with the living God, through Jesus Christ His Son. If what we have said today causes you to turn your life over to Him, we would once again say that our sons Matthew, Jacob, and Justin did not die in vain.

Personally, the strength of the parents was reassuring to me.
Take care,
Bob (and Jean)

Robert Reichart <rreichart@charter.net>
Owatonna, MN United States - Monday, June 13, 2005 7:57 PM CDT

Today, when I awoke, I suddenly realized that this is the best day of my life, ever! There
were times when I wondered if I would make it to today; but I did! And, because I did I'm
going to celebrate! Today, I'm going to celebrate what an unbelievable life I have had so far:
the accomplishments, the many blessings, and, yes, even the hardships because they have served
to make me stronger. I will go through this day with my head held high and a happy heart. I
will marvel at God's seemingly simple gifts:

the morning dew,
the sun,
the clouds,
the trees,
the flowers,
the birds.

Today, none of these miraculous creations will escape my notice. Today, I will share my
excitement for life with other people. I'll make someone smile. I'll go out of my way to
perform an unexpected act of kindness for someone I don't even know. Today, I'll give a
sincere compliment to someone who seems down. I'll tell a child how special he is, and I'll
tell someone I love just how deeply I care for them and how much they mean to me.

Today is the day I quit worrying about what I don't have and start being grateful for all the
wonderful things God has already given me. I'll remember that to worry is just a waste of time
because my faith in God and his Divine Plan ensures everything will be just fine.

And tonight, before I go to bed, I'll go outside and raise my eyes to the heavens. I will
stand in awe at the beauty of the stars and the moon, and I will praise God for these
magnificent treasures.

As the day ends and I lay my head down on my pillow, I will thank the Almighty for the best day
of my life. And, I will sleep the sleep of a contented child, excited with expectation
because I know tomorrow is going to be the best day of my life, ever!

I am sharing an email that I recieved today ..it has encouraged me and I hope it does you as well....Giving Thanks for Today....Cheers to Tommorow!!!

Margaret Hoffmann <magnolia@ictc.com>
Wheatland, ND USA - Saturday, June 11, 2005 0:03 AM CDT

Hi Doug~

This reassuring thought for you and for all of us who are believers in Christ. Deuteronomy 33: 27a - The eternal God is thy refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms...

Thinking of you.

Bob

Robert Reichart <rreichart@charter.net>
Owatonna, MN United States - Friday, June 10, 2005 10:20 PM CDT

Doug - Great to hear your voice yesterday, especially sounding like yourself again! Maybe Denise's visit helped some to break up the clouds you felt hangin' around! I can't wait to get up and ride with you on your new 3 wheel recumbent bike! Hopefully, very soon, Tom and Paul will have some company on their runs. Have a great weekend with family and friends at the wedding! Know that Erin and I are still praying for you and Steph and the kids!
Tim Martinson <tsmartinson@yahoo.com>
St. Anthony, MN US - Friday, June 10, 2005 7:14 AM CDT

I saw Oprah today...Christopher Reeves wife was on talking about life after his accident and life without him. I thought of you guys a lot. One of the most profound things she said was that during Chris' lows...and he had them...they would embrace the darkness and then use that depth of emotion to spring up into the next season of energy and purpose. I know the Lord will continue to sustain you each micro-second as you all continue to adjust to the new normal...I pray the cycles of emotions are do-able in God's strong arms and that you know how much you are prayed for. I check the sight daily...and pray for you all!!!
Kristen McHargue (Reign Ministries) <Lioncross4@aol.com>
- Thursday, June 9, 2005 11:29 PM CDT

Good luck at the weding this weekend hope travel, accomodations and all goes well. I'm thinking of having Denise stay out there after the weding just to get me an update.
Steve
MT - Thursday, June 9, 2005 9:45 PM CDT

Hi Doug & Steph;

Greeting from stormy southern MN. Haven't been on your website too much lately, but Rog & Sharon keep us posted regularly. Just wanted to remind you that we are remembering you daily before the Lord. Hang in there Doug and remember that God has a purpose in this and is preparing you for something great.

Hope to see you all at the Hanson get-together in July.

Our love and prayers are with you.

Uncle Phil
Phil Hanson <hasonba@citlink.com>
DC, MN - Thursday, June 9, 2005 1:07 PM CDT

Everything comes in threes, I'm with Tanya and Steve, needing specifics. We are still praying daily! We love you all!
Archie <bamttu1@juno.com>
- Wednesday, June 8, 2005 4:11 PM CDT

i'm with steve...help us out here. we are having withdraws. let us know what is going on in the hanson household! we love you and miss you!
tanya <tlynn39@juno.com>
- Wednesday, June 8, 2005 2:38 PM CDT

eh! throw us a bone man, we are starving for some feedback from our prayers, or specifics to be prayed for. or ? anything.

Love ya and always praying for ya.

steve
mt - Monday, June 6, 2005 0:09 AM CDT

Doug and Steph, you are lifted up daily in the Trosen household. One day at a time, sweet Jesus! We still hope to see you in August if it works out. We were just in contact with Kermit Klefsaas who lives near Verndale so we hope to reconnect with him. All our love from Idaho!
Trosens <kulai1@juno.com>
Ashton, ID USA - Saturday, June 4, 2005 10:47 PM CDT

Hi Steph & Doug,
I've been reluctant to write (although I've followed this guestbook all along..) You've got such a great "family" already.. all who are close to you and care so much. But I just really wanted to let you know, Steph, that I have been reading this log from the beginning and just had to tell you how much I admire your strength through all of this. It doesn't surprise me a bit, considering what I knew of you in high school. I wish I'd gotten to know you better. You are obviously an amazing person. Doug, my memories of you are running with my brother, Troy, across the fields and golf courses of the Dakotas. NDSU-- all the way! The kind of drive and ambition you had then, I only wished for. The depression you're facing now, well, that just came along (for me too) on its own without asking. You can hear all day long about all the blessings you've been given, but nothing takes away the pain. No doubt you've been blessed, Doug, and I know you know that. Just don't forget that it's okay to allow yourself a little of the ugly times. That's my trouble so much of the time. My head tells me "Blessings!" My heart is screaming something else and I end up with a bunch of guilt, which is REALLY hard for healing. Just PLEASE hang in there. It WILL get better.
Teresa (Larson) Ebert <teresaebert@hotmail.com>
Anchorage, AK 99504 - Friday, June 3, 2005 4:02 AM CDT

Hello Doug,
Thinking of you and your family. I'll keep standing with you guys in prayer! "Hold onto Jesus, He's holding onto you!"
In His Never failing Love,
Deb Mason
Deb Mason <dan2deb@lakes.comn>
Wanamingo, MN USA - Thursday, June 2, 2005 7:46 PM CDT

I continue to pray for you, Doug, and your entire family on this journey. Many times throughout the day I find myself saying a spur-of-the moment prayer for you.
Have faith that your feet are falling on the path that he intended for you!

Roxann Ramberg-Cossette (the gal from Subway last year!) <horsesetc@msn.com>
Audubon, MN USA - Saturday, May 28, 2005 8:14 PM CDT

Douglas,
Good to hear that the Word is speaking to you. May not be completely clear to you but keep holding on to it. Sometimes getting by is all that we can do. I don't believe that that Lord will keep you where you are long but I don't know what his "long" is yet. Just a suggestion but you may want to try just focusing on doing what you have mastered as much as you can. Back off and don't try anything new or to do more right now. I'm no therapist but I do know sometimes it helps me to put all I can into just those things that I can do. Not the ultimate goal in life but maybe it will help with the down times. It's like a little break from achievement. We'll keep praying and looking to the Lord for results.
Favorite Cousin David <oconnor1970@yahoo.com>
Elizabeth, IN - Friday, May 27, 2005 9:28 PM CDT

Thanks for the update stud. good luck with the housefull. I think you are brave. It may be cool for the therapists to see you residence and see if they have any ideas for making life run a little more smoothly.

Still checking on you still praying for you.

Love

Steve
MT - Friday, May 27, 2005 4:33 PM CDT

Doug - Just wanted you to know I am still checking in and still praying for you. I miss reading your updates. Sure hope they get your meds straightened out soon. I hear it can be quite a process, but once they get it right it should make all the difference in the world. Hang in there!
Nancy Erickson <nancy.erickson@ndsu.edu>
Moorhead, MN - Thursday, May 26, 2005 2:20 PM CDT

It was great seeing you in church Sunday! Remember, Doug, we love you just the way you are. Thanks for the update Roger! The sun is shining & CJ is so pumped for subsections today. His 4x800 has a chance of making it to sections! We're also hoping he can jump 5'6" today!! Love to you all, Kathy & the Conger clan
Kathy Conger <ckconger@unitelc.com>
Akeley, MN - Thursday, May 26, 2005 8:25 AM CDT

Doug,
My mom wrote in the Bible we received from our church when we were in third grade, "Never fear tomorrow, God is already there." Although many questions weigh on your mind and it is overwhelming, know that you are loved by Him and by all of us. We pray for your strength to get through this.
Want to hear some good news...2 days left of school and the kids haven't taken over my classroom yet (they're getting close though).

Wendy Watts <watts@rea-alp.com>
Alexandria, MN 56308 - Tuesday, May 24, 2005 6:21 PM CDT

Dear Doug and Steph,
Just wanted you to know we are lifting your family up in prayer. I think your friend Barry encouraged you so beautifully. Doug, we are waiting to see what God is preparing you for but even in the mean time he is using you to encourage me and others in our faith, our focus on him and His plan for us and to strengthen our prayer lives. We have seen Him work so mightly in your recovery and can stand firm He will continue. I keep using your situation to encourage my dad as he recovers. He is now in rehab at the same place you were. Matter of fact a lady who works at Merit care in guest services remembers your family and says she still checks your site regularly. God is using you and your suffering. We will continue to lift you and your family up.
Shannon
shannon ackerman <shannon@mission2go.com>
spicer, mn usa - Tuesday, May 24, 2005 1:54 PM CDT

Doug & Steph, What a relief to catch the new update from Rog. We have checked a couple times each day for a new one & prayed harder because they didn't come. Keep trusting that you are where God wants you at this moment in time & He will go with you thru it. I know "they" say God won't give you more than you can handle, but I've also heard "them" say "I wish He didn't trust me so much". So, you hang on & we'll pray on. So happy for you & for your folks that they could be with you on the weekend, it's good for all of you. Sit on your deck & listen to the loons calling for us, OK? Love to all, Laurel & Darrell
Laurel Phelps <dlfelps@msn.com>
Owatonna, MN USA - Monday, May 23, 2005 3:03 PM CDT

Doug and Steph, We are all still here praying and checking in many times a day. I know that these times are tough and dark, but KNOW that this is not the end. God still has a plan for your lives, He hasn't brought you this far for nothing. There are many medication combinations to try to help with the chemical imbalances during this healing process, they just take a long time to callibrate with your body chemistry. We are standing in the gap for you so keep busy and seeking Him. God has all the answers, and will reveal them soon, keep listening. We send all of our love, strength, and prayers your way. Love for eternity, Archie
Archie Moore <bamttu1@juno.com>
- Monday, May 23, 2005 0:31 AM CDT

Doug & Steph:

We hope you can feel all the prayers going up on your behalf from all over the world! If you are a point where you can't feel our prayers, we still want you to know that God is receiving prayers throughout the day and night for you both. We think of you and pray for you daily and know that God does have a purpose in all this.

Thanks too, to Barry for sharing his meaningful thoughts and poem. We appreciate his caring heart!

We pray that during this time that you will come to know God in a deeper and closer way. He is there and wants to give you His strength to face the unknown.

Love and prayers to you both.

Aunt Louise, Uncle Todd and Family

Ann Louise Severud <anniels@cox.net>
Peoria, AZ USA - Sunday, May 22, 2005 4:35 PM CDT

Doug,
Hope your day is going great. Tried to call. Hope you’re outside playing.
I just read the last three verses of Habakkuk again, reminded me of you. I love his resolve, “Yet I will rejoice…” That is a great place to start and end each day.
I’ve been thinking about the great vision God has for you. I see you shining forth a blindingly bright and peace-filled reflection of Christ as you lead millions of God’s people to a deeper relationship with Him. He is preparing you. You are in training, you’re being built into the best Doug, this is God’s will for you. The old Doug was great, the new Doug will be unbelievably better. Do what you know is necessary when you’re training for greatness! Don’t hide yourself away, get your-self out of the way, the same as you did when you trained to be a champion runner. i wrote some thoughts down in verse.
When you began running,
Your legs would barely give you a mile.
Through disciplined training,
You re-built them with your self-denial.
You accepted God’s Promise,
That effort precedes everything worthwhile.
He allowed this tearing down,
So that you’d conquer by being servile.
He gives you strength to win,
But your victory lies in Him, not in exile.
Put deep roots into His word,
They’ll hold you through this stormy trial.
His great honor lies ahead,
His testing makes us more useful and agile.

Christy and i are holding you up in our prayers. You still believe...God must have allowed the right man to endure this testing. He is Faithful, True, Holy, and Sovereign.
Barry &Christy <MAGRIZZ@Hotmail.com>
Park Rapids, mn us - Saturday, May 21, 2005 4:22 PM CDT

Doug and family,
Just to let you know we continue to hold you close in our prayers.
With much love,
Aunt Brenda and Uncle David
Brenda Hanson <davidhanson9673@msn.com>
Owatonna, MN USA - Friday, May 20, 2005 3:40 PM CDT

Please know that prayers go out in your behalf each and every day. We never know why the dark days in our lives come but we can know that behind the dark is the wonderful, life-affirming light that ALWAYS appears. God bless you and Steph and your family and all those that are lifting you up in prayer. Elna and Ivan in Glencoe.
Elna W. Watts <eww@hutchtel.net>
Glencoe, MN - Friday, May 20, 2005 9:37 AM CDT

Hi Doug,
Remember we are still praying for you even when we get no new news. We are your family even though we aren't officially related. We love you much!
Peggy
Peggy Vrieze <vrieze@clear.lakes.com>
West Concord, MN USA - Friday, May 20, 2005 8:31 AM CDT

Hey Doug. Just thought I'd check up on you through the website. Let everybody know, also, to pray for Erik Ludwinski www.caringbridge.org/mn/erikludwinski I just want to say that each time I see you I am so greatly encouraged. I have a such a deep love for you, Steph & the kids. Each of you encourage me to stay strong & focused on God's goodness. And, you need to know that I will love you (all) even through the bad days cuz its just part of it and its okay. See you Sunday!! Kathy Conger
Kathy Conger <ckconger@unitelc.com>
Akeley, MN - Wednesday, May 18, 2005 7:26 PM CDT

Doug-We're praying for you! We check in and read the entries all the time and we're asking God to carry you through all of the seasons you're walking through. Kristen McHargue
Kristen McHargue <Lioncross4@aol.com>
- Wednesday, May 18, 2005 11:48 AM CDT

We are in need for specific prayer request! Hang in there!!
All of our LOVE!
Archie <bamttu1@juno.com>
- Tuesday, May 17, 2005 10:29 PM CDT

Dear Doug, Steph, Breck and Riley, I havent written anything for a long time, but I want you to know that I check the Web twice a day to see any new happenings. We have your family in our prayers daily and wish you continued improvement. Love to all of you, Lorne and Julie
Lorne and Julie
Halma, Mn. USA - Tuesday, May 17, 2005 2:56 PM CDT

Doug - Where are you! I keep checking and you're not writing! From past experience I'd say that's not a good sign, but I hope I am wrong. We need to know how you are doing!!!
Nancy Erickson <nancy.erickson@ndsu.edu>
Moorhead, MN - Tuesday, May 17, 2005 2:56 PM CDT

Doug,

We are still out here!

We continue to pray for you, Steph and your family!!

Jim (for the Hanson's) <james.m.hanson@wellsfargo.com>
Ramsey, MN U.S.A - Tuesday, May 17, 2005 9:38 AM CDT

Just want you to know we are thinking of you today and praying for God's presence to be very near to you.

Love & Prayers,

Aunt Louise, Uncle Todd & Family
Ann Louise Severud <anniels@cox.net>
Peoria, AZ USA - Monday, May 16, 2005 10:32 PM CDT

What's up bud. Fill us in, your not in this alone.
the more information we have the better we can pray for you and lift you up.

Steve
MT - Monday, May 16, 2005 9:47 PM CDT

Hi Doug, It's been awhile since I've written, and I apologize....However, my thoughts and prayers for you guys continue! My husband too, went through some rough cycles of depression following his accident...Hang in there...and if during this time your meds are adjusted, it'll help. That doesn't mean it will be a forever thing, but a support during the hard days. I will continue to hold you up in prayer! Hope you guys had a nice weekend.
God bless and strengthen each of you!
Deb Mason
Deb Mason <dan2deb@lakes.com>
Wanamingo, MN USA - Sunday, May 15, 2005 7:07 PM CDT

Doug and Steph,
This is my first time on your site I am sorry to say. I usually get my updates through family. We continue to pray for you but now I will know how to pray more specific. Joe will like that because he asks how you and Breck are doing. I was reading your journal enteries and then the comments of others. How encouraging. I will now keep better tabs on you. I think I am hooked and will go to our store and read your page rather than check out ebay.:) We will continue to pray.
Shannon Ackerman
Spicer, mn usa - Wednesday, May 11, 2005 7:05 PM CDT

Douglas.....excellent news on the good day. I look in the mirror every morning and see a loon though.....I guess there more common down here... ;) No doubt you are going to be seeing my face this summer. We're all set to be up that way around July 4th. (GUARANTEED)
Favorite (pending) Cousin David <oconnor1970@yahoo.com>
Elizabeth, IN - Wednesday, May 11, 2005 7:33 AM CDT

What's up?
rainy and cloudy in Mt. =(
but that is cool too Makes all thing real grean.
Hope all is well. Miss ya looking forward to a summer trip.

Steve
MT - Tuesday, May 10, 2005 9:50 AM CDT

Douglas,
To address a couple of things I have read the past few days...You are the man God wants you to be, unless you are living in willful disobedience to His word. Remember, He cares for and loves you...not what you can or can't do. Feeling down, depressed, etc isn't falling away it is just a cycle you go through. He understands. Second, there are a lot of unmedicated people out there who aren't normal!!!! The chemicals may or may not straighten out in your upstairs....don't worry about getting some help to hold it together. You are not weak because you have to take some medication.

One final thing. It's amazing that we are to the point of thinking about your work status down the road. I know it is tough with all that has gone on with your company and finding out they are going another direction. Honestly I didn't really believe for a time that you would ever communicate again, then I was pretty sure you wouldn't get out of a hosptial bed, there was no way you would ever be able to walk again, surely you would have to be under full nursing care for the rest of your life, driving...impossible. These are a few of the things I thought but never wrote down over the past year or so. Thank you for proving me wrong on all accounts.

Every day is a successful one if you love the Lord with all you heart, all your mind and all your spirit. Make sure He is in charge of the day and He will take care of the results.
Favorite Cousin David <oconnor1970@yahoo.com>
Elizabeth, IN - Tuesday, May 10, 2005 5:58 AM CDT

Dear Doug and Steph,
My prayers continue as Doug hangs in there with treatment.
Your testimony encourages me.
Stephanie & RachelJoy <mom2rj@comcast.net>
- Sunday, May 8, 2005 9:48 PM CDT

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY STEPH!! It sounds like things are going better, God is good, all the time!!. We are all still praying and checking in on you. I will talk to you soon. Love from Texas!
Archie <bamttu1@juno.com>
- Sunday, May 8, 2005 8:12 PM CDT

Still praying that God will soon turn your lives to the sunhine you deserve--You have come sooo far--Love you, J&J
Joan Evenson <EvenJms@aol.com>
Grand Forks, ND USA - Saturday, May 7, 2005 7:29 PM CDT

Still Checking Still Praying
love ya
steve
MT - Friday, May 6, 2005 8:09 AM CDT

I found this on one of the caringbridge sites I follow and wanted to share this beautiful message with you......

The Holy Alphabet

Although things are not perfect
Because of trial or pain
Continue in thanksgiving
Do not begin to blame
Even when the times are hard
Fierce winds are bound to blow
God is forever able
Hold on to what you know
Imagine life without His love
Joy would cease to be
Keep thanking Him for all the things
Love imparts to thee
Move out of "Camp Complaining"
No weapon that is known
On earth can yield the power
Praise can do alone
Quit looking at the future
Redeem the time at hand
Start every day with worship
To "thank" is a command
Until we see Him coming
Victorious in the sky
We'll run the race with gratitude
Xalting God most high
Yes, there'll be good times and yes some will be bad, but...
Zion waits in glory...where none are ever sad!

"I AM Too blessed to be stressed!" The shortest distance between a problem and a
solution is the distance between your knees and the floor.
The one who kneels to the Lord can stand up to anything. Love and peace be with
you forever, Amen.

Wishing you strength as you figure out what your next new path will be.

Hugs,

Connie Frisby-Griffin <cdlfg@adelphia.net>
Colorado Springs, CO - Thursday, May 5, 2005 8:01 AM CDT

Doug & Steph, We pray with you that God will provide a way. I will give you a call in the morning and we can talk then. We love you desperately!
David Hanson <borisipol@hotmail.com>
Suzhou, Jingsu China - Thursday, May 5, 2005 4:16 AM CDT

Doug,
We pray for you and your family every night. We were sorry to hear that your job won't be waiting for you. But, out of what we preceive to be bad, comes good. And God is good! So,be still and listen and He will lead you! God bless you and your family. Love, The Hivelys
Judy Hively <tjmtlk6@juno.com>
Kindred, nd usa - Wednesday, May 4, 2005 7:38 PM CDT

Doug,
We are praying for you. The actual hearing of the words that you no longer have a job can be devastating. Don't let those words devastate you. You have already turned it over to God. What more can you do? God's schedule and timing are perfect. We are on a need to know basis and apparently, God doesn't think you need to know right now. It takes an awful lot of trust, doesn't it? The next door will open soon. Keep your eyes open and your heart free of bad feelings, if possible. We are praying for you. We love you so much.
Peggy Vrieze <vrieze@clear.lakes.com>
West Concord, MN USA - Wednesday, May 4, 2005 1:46 PM CDT

Doug,

Thanks for sharing what you are going through. It helps us know how to pray specifically for you and Steph.

We are thinking about you and praying for you daily!!!

Love,

Jim (for the Hansons) <james.m.hanson@wellsfargo.com>
Ramsey, MN U.S.A. - Wednesday, May 4, 2005 12:57 AM CDT

Doug, Sorry to hear about APW, but as we discussed when I was there, this could be a possibility and you know as well as I do that the old saying of "when God closes one door, He always has a window open". I KNOW that God has a plan for you and that is just stating the obvious, but the journey continues as you explore the possibilities of EVERY little clue that He has and will continue to reveal to you. You and Steph are two of the most gifted people that I know, of which we have seen more clearly over the past year, and now is a great opportunity that God is giving you both. As we both have always said that it would be better if God would give us a billboard sign or just yell at us with clear instructions for our life, but He only speaks quietly and softly to the innermost part of our heart where the Holy Spirit dwells, because that is where it is calm, restful, and clear of outside distractions. My prayer for you and Steph is that you will ask for clear wisdom and to be still long enough listen intently to Gods revelation for your life. Keep a clear and open mind with no boundaries and God will open the next door for you all. We Love you greatly, but not as much as God. Stay Strong and on your knees.
Archie
Archie Moore <bamttu1@juno.com>
- Wednesday, May 4, 2005 9:56 AM CDT

Wow Doug
You word things well and paint a very good visual picture of where you are and what you feel. I am proud of you for posting on such a rough day, and awed at how elequently things were put.

I have always, yes always, respected the way you do things.
I was impressed by your athletic accomplishments, even more impressed by your GPA.
I was impressed by your success at Tandy, even more impressed by your LDI accomplishments.
I was impressed by your ability to take on your own business, and even more impressed when APW took you on.

No I'm not easily impressed!!

All praising Doug aside, I admire you for your faith, I now see why you have done so well in all the earthly things, you had you eyes set on Heaven. Tough times have not changed your focus, You continue to rely on God.

Now I am truly impressed.
Steve
Mt - Tuesday, May 3, 2005 10:57 PM CDT

Greetings Doug, Steph and family,
I am guilty of checking this site often but not taking the time to send you a message. You are daily in our thoughts and prayers. It definitely is not easy to function when things seem so dark. Not for you Doug, nor for your family. You have at times the feeling of over whelming sadness and your family is sad because they cannot make those feelings go away. Just take it an hour at a time...don't expect to much each day. You have come so far.. be thankful for the little things. God does have a special plan for you. The trials that you have experienced and yet have to go through is your training period so that you can help someone someday when they feel that they cannot go on.

We are leaving sunny and hot Arizona on May 21. We are headed back to MN but do not know what route we will be taking yet. It all depends on the timing of the next job. We are planning on being back for Bretta's wedding and most definitely Peggy's. Hope to cross paths with you again this summer. Take care.
Julann and Jeff Vangness <jedova@yahoo.com>
Tempe, AZ - Tuesday, May 3, 2005 2:40 PM CDT

Thanks, Roger for writing. We appreciate the update so can pray more effectively and specifically for Doug and Steph. I'm sure in some ways, this stage of the healing process is more frustrating and difficult to handle than any of the other stages so far.

Doug, I was out walking early this morning and find this is a great time I can pray specifically for you, friends and family. I pray specifically that God will touch you and allow your spirit to shine through and that you will feel God's warmth and caring even through this time. I pray that God will allow healing to flow and bring back your joy, humor and love of life.

Love and Prayers,
Aunt Louise, Uncle Todd & Family

Ann Louise Severud <anniels@cox.net>
Peoria, AZ USA - Sunday, May 1, 2005 11:03 AM CDT

Doug & Steph~ Thanks for your openness & honesty about Doug's overwhelming week. When it is to hard to pray, we know that the prayers of others lift us up & we have been praying for you. God has promised never to leave us nor forsake us & we believe it. He doesn't need days or nights off like we do, so we continue to lift you before the throne & expect great things to come to you soon. We love you & pray for a brighter day today. Laurel & Darrell
Laurel Phelps <dlfelps@msn.com>
Owatonna, MN 55060 - Friday, April 29, 2005 9:49 AM CDT

Thanks for the update Steve.

Doug as others have already expressed, I wish there was some way to be closer to you in this and to share your burden but we can only pray and wait for the word of the Lord. I do know that depression in your case is not giving up or quitting, it is a physical side-effect that comes with the healing of the injury. It is comforting to know that the war has already been won because God's word assures us that He uses all things to our benefit. But that doesn't take away these battles. You will pull out of the valley.
Favorite Cousin David <oconnor1970@yahoo.com >
Elizabeth, IN - Friday, April 29, 2005 7:54 AM CDT

"I cry aloud to the Lord;
I lift up my voice to the Lord for mercy.
I pour out my complaint before Him;
Before Him I tell my trouble.

When my spirit grows faint within me,
It is You who know my way.
In the path where I walk
Men have hidden a snare for me.

Look to the right and see;
No one is concerned for me.
I have no refuge,
No one cares for my life.

I cry to you, O Lord;
I say, 'You are my refuge,
my portion in the land of the living.'

Listen to my cry,
For I am in desperate need;
Rescue me from those who pursue me,
For they are too strong for me.

Set me free from my prison,
That I may praise your name.

Then the righteous will gather about me
Because of your goodness to me.

Psalm 142: 1 - 7

The Psalms are so real, so very true to what we many times feel. Just remember, Doug, that God is there just waiting for you - even though you don't feel His presence. Keep praying and know that God is listening. We continue to pray for peace and delivery for you from the prison of despair that has surrounded you.

Love & Prayers,
Aunt Louise, Uncle Todd & Family

Ann Louise Severud <anniels@cox.net>
Peoria, AZ USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 10:18 PM CDT

These feelings are a bump in the road and you will come through it stronger and with a better understanding of yourself, the love of your family and of course the greatness of God. Allow him to cradle you in his arms and give you comfort and strength.

Hugs,
Connie Frisby-Griffin <cdlfg@adelphia.net>
Colorado Springs, CO - Thursday, April 28, 2005 2:22 PM CDT

greater is He that is in you then he that is in the world.

EMBRACE IT!!!! BELIEVE IT!!!!!
tanya <tlynn39@juno.com>
- Thursday, April 28, 2005 1:25 PM CDT

-"The foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength"
1 Corinthians 1:25...We pray for hope....
"Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength .
They will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint" Isaiah40:31

God does not work on our time table, but God's timing is always perfect. Reflect on God's faithfulness in the past, and you will find the strength you need today. In thought and prayer, Margaret.."Let the Sun Shine In"
Margaret Hoffmann <magnolia@ictc.com>
Wheatland, ND USA - Thursday, April 28, 2005 8:51 AM CDT

Hang in there. Our thoughts and prayers continue to be with you.
Matt & Barb Berg <mbberg@wiktel.com>
Karlstad, MN - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 6:46 PM CDT

I read Steve's entry for today and hear that your still slogging along through the muddy valley. i'm praying for you and i wish there was new words, or a new way, that could lift your heart back to where it belongs, but there isn't. There is just the old way, like you already know...prayer, it probably isn't going to change the path you have walk, but it will alter your attitude about the path. Acknowledge Him and He will make straight your path, it may be uphill but it 'will' be straight to Him. i thought it was interesting that when the Lord appeared to Job at the end of the book, He didn't say, "Sorry about your kids and your stuff and those boils..." He did say say something else to Job in chapter 40. i wish i could 'do' something, i'm praying for you and i re-read the poem i wrote for you back in Feb, it still seems to ring true. i'll share a poem with you that i wrote for another friend who was stuck in the swamp of despair somewhere close to where you're at.

Could it be...

The sun on my cheek and the crack of the bat,
green grass, fly balls, just life as simple as that.
Just quietly sitting or long walks with a friend,
I wonder where did it go and when did it end?

I miss that innocent trust and a peaceful heart,
Hot summer days, and love that just set me apart.
I felt special and loved and I miss it so much,
Quiet moments and smiles, a friends tender touch.

Could it be that hurt can just drive you mad,
That friendship can’t last and good just goes bad?
Can lost trust be regained, or dying love reflare
Will the good times return if someone just cares?

Why can’t I simply trace this right back to it’s root
Blame layers my heart with its filthy dark soot.
I know I’d be better if I just left this to the Lord,
I’ve prayed and plead and there’s been no reward.

But if discouragement is Satan’s most useful tool
I need to push it out or I’ll end up a useless fool.
I’m my Father’s prized child, but where do I start,
Can discouragement survive in a grateful heart?

No looking back on hurt, only past blessing I’ll see
I’ll praise my King’s Glory and His grand plans for me.
Whenever I’m feeling like I’ve got a half empty cup
I’ll look around me and find someone I can lift up.

Could it be, the way back to my happiness and peace
The way to make discouragement and distrust cease
Is to move forward in counting my blessings each day
My hands in service and praise as I walk in the Lord’s way?

Christy and i are praying that you'll let your spirit start to run again even if your feet can't. Your mind and spirit 'are' strong enough to praise God and love your neighbor...so do that excellently!
Barry &Christy <MAGRIZZ@Hotmail.com>
Park Rapids, MN - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 4:36 PM CDT

Doug and Steph, you are in my prayers daily. "In that quiet moment of discontent, an intervening God comes to hold and inspire us to better days ahead." God Bless. Have a good day. Please let me know how I can help.
Karen I
Park Rapids, MN - Wednesday, April 27, 2005 11:48 AM CDT

Douglas,
That was a letter that makes our creator smile. We were made to worship Him and do battle with enemy. I know it may not feel like it all the time (or even very much of the time) but you are a warrior on the front line. Stay in the fight!!!!!! We fight through love and obedience......remember....the results are all up to Him. Keep posting and letting us all know what's going on.
Favorite Cousin David <oconnor1970@yahoo.com>
Elizabeth, IN - Tuesday, April 26, 2005 10:08 PM CDT

Praying unceasingly! We all can do all things through Christ who strengthens us. You are included in the ALL. He will do it. Doug, you know that the closer we come to a victory for Christ, the harder Satan attacks. Keep seeking God and telling Satan to flee. We ALL LOVE you guys!!!
Archie <bamttu1@juno.com>
- Tuesday, April 26, 2005 10:07 PM CDT

Thanks Doug
Love Ya

Steve
Mt - Tuesday, April 26, 2005 9:36 PM CDT

You are all in our prayers and we read your website everyday and then I read them to Mange--its been cold and windy here today, hope the warm weather will make you feel better--We love you all and hang in there---Love, Joan & Jim
Joan Evenson <EvenJms@aol.com>
Grand Forks, ND USA - Tuesday, April 26, 2005 9:09 PM CDT

Hi Doug, Steph, and family....This is Margaret of MeritCare Guest Services, just letting you know that you do not walk alone...you are still in my thoughts and prayers and I continuously draw strength from your faith journey...It is true, we do not know what tomorrow brings but we do know who hold it and that alone is worth the journey. You have worked very hard in your recovery ...(we are so very proud and so amazed at you, the person, Doug)..and I have enjoyed hearing about your familly, and friends. Please know that each day you make a difference in the lives of so many..your courage, your faith, your humor and the wonderful parent, husband, and son that you are..That is a beautiful gift and we will continue to give thanks for the blessings of Doug and we will pray for a renewed spirit within You. Love to all, Margaret
Margaret Hoffmann <magnolia@ictc.com>
Wheatland, ND Cass - Tuesday, April 26, 2005 0:22 AM CDT

Ok, so at the end of last week I thought you were all just busy celebrating Riley's birthday, but now you are making me really nervous! It's been a long time, way too long, since you wrote anything. I'm hoping and praying this is just a false alarm but you better let us know what's going on so we aren't all worrying about you!
Nancy Erickson <nancy.erickson@ndsu.edu>
Moorhead, MN - Monday, April 25, 2005 8:33 AM CDT

Doug, I hope that Riley had a great 10th birthday and that you are doing well! I wish Erin and I could have made it up to see you this weekend, but we were watching a friend's kids so she could go to a small groups conference in Iowa. Erin goes to see the doc today to see how her wrist is healing a week and a half after surgery. Hopefully, she will get good news about how long she has to be left handed! I hope your therapy goes well today and that you are feeling up to letting us know how things are going - bad or good. We're still praying that the lows are shorter and less often and the highs carry you a long ways in your recovery. We love you, man. Hang in there!
Tim Martinson <tsmartinson@yahoo.com>
St. Anthony, MN US - Monday, April 25, 2005 7:50 AM CDT

I'm with Steve, we need to see an update to have our Doug fix for the day. Praying that all is well.

Archie <bamttu1@juno.com>
- Monday, April 25, 2005 7:20 AM CDT

Just want you to know we are still praying for you. It sounds like you had some great help last weekend with the raking and yard work from Roger & Sharon. We miss seeing the beauty of the spring in northern Minnesota. Take care of yourself and know our thoughts and prayers are with you.

Love & Prayers,
Aunt Louise, Uncle Todd & Family
Ann Louise Severud <anniels@cox.net>
Peora, AZ USA - Sunday, April 24, 2005 8:08 PM CDT

Don't go too long without updates, you make me nervous.
I may not respond everyday but I do read everyday
Steve
MT - Saturday, April 23, 2005 10:37 AM CDT

Dang sounds like you may have the raking done when I get there in July. I may have to go work on Darla's lot.
Hope you are figuring out the downers and can avoid them sound like you are consiously trying. Early to bed, early to rise bla bla bla. I am still reading and praying and cheering for ya.

love steve

steve
Mt - Wednesday, April 20, 2005 11:32 AM CDT

Oh, by the way, keep up your so called sense of humor on the entries, it is refreshing to see the old Doug peek out every once in awile. Don't think that you can guilt all of us into helping out with YOUR CHORES (i.e. therapy). It is about time that you started pulling your weight around there and quit laying around eating Bon-Bons. So GET BACK TO WORK!!
Archie Moore <bamttu1@juno.com>
- Monday, April 18, 2005 8:54 AM CDT

Believe it or not, And I know Doug will believe it, but Tanya and I wish we could have been there for every second of the work days. It has been a long time since you and I could see who would collapse first from the work and for once I "might could've" beat you this time. (like the new use of "might could") It all is sounding great, so keep up the good work so the rest of us in cyberspace can feel good also. You thought we all checked in on you to just see how you are doing, but in reality we just need a moment of inspiration and to see what God is doing in your life at the moment so we can say a hearty PRAISE GOD!!. I agree with Paul about what all that took place in his classroom while you were there. You have been given a gift from God which is a broader horizon to explore and to see what He has planned for you and Steph's lives. Part of it may stay the same as the past, but part of it could be drastically differant and even more exciting and wonderful than you can even imagine, so hang on and enjoy the ride because God will continue to use you to bless others, but in the mean time don't miss all of the different ways that he is blessing all of you. You touched the lives of those kids in Pauls class in a way that we may never know and it may simply be to show them that with God's strength and power, they too can overcome adversity and live a blessed life. Keep up the great work. Love you guys!! Archie

P.S. Happy Birthday Riley, we'll call you on your actual birthday. Tell Steph to give us updates on what she is doing also. And finally, Paul, we all thank you for being a willing tool for God to use to touch Doug. You are a true friend.
Archie Moore <bamttu1@juno.com>
- Monday, April 18, 2005 8:43 AM CDT

Uncle Roger,
What a beautiful vision of the evening you have created. I'm sure many of us wish we were there! Enjoy the peace..sounds like a day well spent.
Stacey Armstrong <staceyarmstrong@wowway.com>
Powell, OH - Saturday, April 16, 2005 9:13 PM CDT

Hi Doug,
Just checking in... you all are in my prayers daily! What a great opportunity to help in the math class! If I lived closer, I'd come rake too...the fresh air is a big "mood lifter" in itself! Praying that the Lord will continue to encourage you...Have a wonderful wkend with your family!
Bless you,
Debbie Mason
Deb Mason <dan2deb@lakes.com>
Wanamingo, MN USA - Friday, April 15, 2005 9:18 PM CDT

Doug,

Thanks for helping out yesterday. I agree with you that it went very well. The great thing is I'm not saying this to make you feel good. Like you, I don't like to be a fake either. You truly did help the students with their math problems, plus it gave me extra time with each child I was trying to help. And yes, if it helps you some as well that's great. Everyone benefits.

I don't want you to ever think that you have to come and help. I'm sure you will probably have up days and down days. Monitor this for me and I will take you on all your good days. That's kind of a half joke half truth statement. The point I'm trying to make is this. Next time your having a bad day and you feel like you have no purpose or other downer thoughts - remember this, I had several students ask if you would be back to help tomorrow. When I said "no, I think he has an appointment tomorrow" they were truly disappointed. Third grade students don't think the way most adults think. You know - like this will help Mr. Hanson or I really feel sorry for him. It's more like - He was really nice and he helped me with what I needed.

I'm not saying this is it. This is your purpose - but it is a great start. Even if your attitude\motivation changes for the worse, remember this, you made a positive impact on a few students in one day. And don't you dare say that doesn't really matter or I just wasted 20 years.

Thanks again,

Paul
paul schroeder <pschroeder@nevis.k12.mn.us>
- Friday, April 15, 2005 8:15 AM CDT

Doug & Steph, it sounds like fun. I hope and pray the good days continue and you are able to feel better every day. Hang in there. Thinking about others is good for the soul. I think that is pretty close to what Grandma Hanson used to remind me of quite often.
David B. Hanson <dhanson@wellmanproducts.com>
Suzhou, Jiangsu China - Friday, April 15, 2005 4:28 AM CDT

Good for you. You have lots to share at school. Stay outside as long as you wish. I have been looking for excuses to be outside. My house shows it. I check the website often, Doug. You are in my prayers. I just don't write often. Sorry. You haven't guilted me lately.
Peggy Vrieze <vrieze@clear.lakes.com>
West Concord, MN USA - Thursday, April 14, 2005 11:28 AM CDT

Praise God to whom all blessings flow. Tell Paul he is one of the answers to my prayers. How did the conference call with work go? Keep on Truckin'
Archie
Archie Moore <bamttu1@juno.com>
- Wednesday, April 13, 2005 8:42 PM CDT

Still with ya
Still Prayin
Glad so many responders want to help you rake Cause I don't.
I'd rather hunt wolverines in alsaka.

Love Ya
Steve
Mt - Wednesday, April 13, 2005 9:03 AM CDT

Hey, it sounds like you are staying pretty busy, which may be part of the good feelings. Whatever it is, I like it. I'll be praying during your conference call and will talk to you soon. Go Get Em!!!, but stay awake.
Love, Archie
Archie Moore <bamttu1@juno.com>
- Wednesday, April 13, 2005 8:48 AM CDT

Doug - You are sounding more like yourself again. That's great! I was getting a little nervous when you didn't update your site for so many days so was very relieved to see your mood had turned around. I guess everyone has to have some down time - even wonderful you!!

Wish I could come help you rake, but my old back won't allow it! Can't even rake my own yard anymore. Bummer!

Take care!

Nancy Erickson <nancy.erickson@ndsu.edu>
Moorhead, MN - Tuesday, April 12, 2005 4:59 PM CDT

Doug,

Glad to hear you have been feeling better the past few days.

Through good or bad days, we pray on!!

Jim for the Hansons <james.m.hanson@wellsfargo.com>
Ramsey, MN U.S.A - Tuesday, April 12, 2005 1:46 PM CDT

Thanks for opening your heart yet again, Doug. You challenge us anew as we listen to your pleas to the Lord for help & encouragement. We are not forgetting to pray for you & yours and want you to know we will continue faithfully. A quote from Joni Earickson Tada "If I could give you one gift, my friend, I'd give you the gift to see yourself as others see you, so you could see how really special you are". Keep on keeping on - Love to you, Laurel & Darrell
Laurel Phelps <dlfelps@msn.com>
Owatonna, MN USA - Monday, April 11, 2005 8:09 PM CDT

The viewers have written such beautiful answers. They just mean so much to me as I am sure they do to you and Stef---We are all still here and praying for you and yours---I'd like to come help you rake but my back is not good (Lie-to get out of work)Tell Karl Jon to do my share---Love, J&J
Joan Evenson <EvenJms@aol.com>
Grand Forks, ND USA - Monday, April 11, 2005 12:28 AM CDT

P.S. Doug, if you could help me find a way to get back up there, I would gladly take part in the raking project and get some blessing in the mean time. Look at it this way, God is providing a free, endless therapy program for you, and you don't even have to leave your home and drive somewhere else to get it. Isn't this new modern program exciting. Have fun!
Archie <bamttu1@juno.com>
- Sunday, April 10, 2005 2:39 PM CDT

Doug, it was great talking to you the other day, even though I sat on the side of the road for the next 10 minutes crying and praying that God would clear the clouds in your head so you could feel the warmth of His Sonshine again. It sounds like the clouds have cleared a little since we have talked. PRAISE GOD!!! I wanted to pass on a couple of things that I have heard and witnessed since we talked, which I beleive are a message from God to me and for you. Philip has been trying for the past few years to earn the President's Fitness award at school, falling short of the goal each year. Last week, all he needed was to run the mile in 7:28 to earn the award this year, but he missed it by 2 seconds, to which he was sad. This past Friday the PE teacher let the kids try to run and qualify again, to which Tanya and I attended to cheer him on. What we witnessed was even more powerful than we imagined. The course was set-up where he had to complete 6 laps to equal a mile. He started off at a good pace and for 4 and 3/4 laps, was well ahead of the needed pace. As he came close to the end of lap 5 he caught his toe in the loop of the shoelace on his other shoe and fell very hard on the asphalt. Tanya and I ran over to check on him and after seeing there was no major damage encouraged him to try and finish the race, either by walking or running. He reluctantly began jogging again and as he started around on the last lap, he was being cheered on by not only his mom and dad but by his classmates, to which some even ran along beside him for awhile. The cheering gave him the energy to finish the race in a blazing last lap, only to miss his time by 12 seconds. He was of course sad that he had missed the award again, but what God had just revealed was even more powerful, and that was through the encouragement of his family and friends, and through the strength and determination God provided, he finished the race and learned a greater lesson. You can fall, get hurt, struggle back to your feet and keep going in your life race, IF you rely on God's strength. Tanya and I could not have been more proud at that moment and more thankful to God. Philip gets to try again next year, for the last time, to earn the award, however he has already won the race that God put before him, and that is all that matters. This morning in church, our pastor talked about Psalm 23, and the verse "though I walk through the Valley of the shadow of death..." As you and I discussed earlier this week, you are in the valley and behind you is the mountain you came off and in front of you is the mountain you are to climb. (watch out for the trees) The verse says you are to WALK, not run or even stop and stand in one place, but to just WALK THROUGH the valley. The word "though" just lets you know that the valley is going to always be there between the mountains and we will always be going from valley to valley via the mountains. Notice that in the verse "though I walk through" the difference between "though" and "through" is the letter "r". In english sign language the letter "r" is showed by crossing you fingers like we do when we are wishing for luck. In the 1st Century church, crossed fingers was the sign that believers used to show other believers that they are in the family of Jesus Christ. That "r" in this verse is the only person that can shine the Light on the path that you are to follow THROUGH the valley and up to the mountain top. The verse does say "through"; not to the edge, or around, but THROUGH!! Just as Philip had his family and friends cheering him on in his mile run, and you have your family and friends cheering you on through your valley, it is only God's strength that will get us all through our valleys, and as you know, GOD IS GOOD, ALL THE TIME. Please keep us informed of your progress, but more importantly keep us imformed about your struggle so that we can either come down from the mountain or from a differant area of the valley and Walk along side of You, Steph, and the kids until we all get to the next mountain top. I LOVE YOU GREATLY, BUT NOT NEAR AS MUCH AS GOD LOVES YOU. KEEP WALKING!!! Archie
Archie Moore <bamttu1@juno.com>
- Sunday, April 10, 2005 2:31 PM CDT

Doug:

It was wonderful to see you last weekend! I could tell you were struggling, and I know it was very difficult for you last weekend. We loved being able to see you and the rest of the family, to talk and laugh together, sit outside in the Minnesota sunshine in early April! (amazing!), eat all that great food, see Grandpa Hanson enjoy the time so much and just be together. We love you Doug for who you are right now, not for being the super track star or for all the things you have accomplished in your life. We still see your quick wit and humor shine through, and we are thankful to God for working in you even in these dark times. Doug, I know we cannot know what you are going through totally, but we do all struggle at times with who we are and where we are in our lives and many of us go through despair and difficulty understanding why God isn't answering some of our prayers as we would like. We are with you for the long haul, not just the easy times. Our love and prayers for you will never end. God looks at our hearts and He truly understands how you feel. He knows your great anguish and turmoil of spirit. We don't know God's plan for the rest of our lives, but He wants us to give everything to Him, including our deepest fears and sorrows.

One of my favorite chapters in Psalms and one that your Grandma Hanson loved and read over and over during difficult times is Psalm 91. The entire chapter speaks to the fact that God is always with us and will be with us during the darkest times. Verses 15 and 16 are God's promise to you.

He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
With long life will I satisfy him
And show him my salvation.

God is there, even though at times you don't feel His presence or when He appears to be silent toward you.

You have people around the world praying for you and I know God has a plan and purpose for you.

We send our love and prayers and pray that God will be very near to you through these fearful and unknown days.

Love and Prayers,

Aunt Louise, Uncle Todd & Family
Ann Louise Severud <anniels@cox.net>
Peoria, AZ USA - Saturday, April 9, 2005 8:07 PM CDT

Dear Doug and Steph,
Don and I went to the web sight tonight and I would like to share this with you. I have a daily booklet with quotes from Padre Pio, a stigmatist (with Christ's wounds) His writing are from l968 and this is April 8th---Do not let temptations frighten you; they are the trials of the soul whom God wants to test when He knows that he is strong enough to sustain the battle and weave his garland of glory with his own hands. (Doug said he has turned himself over to God) Until now, your life was like that of a child; now the Lord wants to treat you like an adult. Since the trials of an adult are superior to a child's, you are at first disconcerted; but before long, your soul will be at peace, and you will be calm. Continue to be patient; it will all be for your good. We love you and have you in our prayers. I am going to a Magnificat convention on Tuesday in New Orleans and with 300 and some other sisters in Jesus Christ, when we have praise and worship I will lift up your family. The Lord hears his sheep's voices.
Darryle
Darryle Kay <carlsonwalk@aol.com>
Sun Lakes, AZ usa - Saturday, April 9, 2005 3:04 PM CDT

Dear Doug,

Thank you for your honesty.

The guestbook entry from Barb Hanson of Dodge Cntr is insightful, full of wisdom. Its content has depth of meaning and application for you.

You say you wish you had a friend. You have much more than a single friend.

Once I asked students to complete: "I think the sky is glorious...(and responses have included) when it's a starry night; a bright day; stormy sky, threatening, formidable; banks of fog shifting; a blue sky with big puffy white clouds; the sunset; the sunrise; the sky streaked with pink, cream, orange, and lavender; when there's not a cloud in the sky; a rainbow in the sky,” and so on.

To analogize, it is not unexpected to go through different cycles of mood in our mind, will, and emotions, and more after going through a traumatic accident. However, both you and I must see beyond only blackness of night. If today the waves are choppy and it sounds like the house is going to fall down, know that on another day it will be seventy-plus degrees, a beautiful, bright day and you'll pull your shirt off, enjoying the warmth of the sun, wanting to work on the house.

No matter what happens from this point, you have what is most important, salvation in Christ. I thank you for your public testimony, and, Doug, you have been a remarkable encouragement to me.

May the following verses of scripture be an encouragement to you, Doug.

1 Corinthians 6: 19-20
What?
know ye not
that your body
is the temple of the Holy Ghost
which is in you,
which ye have of God,
and
ye are not your own?
For ye are bought with a price:
therefore
glorify God
in your body,
and in your spirit,
which are God's.
1 Corinthians 6: 19-20

2 Timothy 1:7
For God
hath not given us
the spirit of fear;
but of power,
and of love,
and of a sound mind.
2 Timothy 1:7

Ephesians 3:20
Now unto him
that is able
to do exceeding abundantly
above
all that we ask
or think,
according to the power
that worketh in us,
Ephesians 3:20

Yours in Christ,
Bob Reichart

Robert Reichart

Robert Reichart <rreichart@charter.net>
Owatonna , Minnesota United States - Friday, April 8, 2005 9:18 PM CDT

Doug and Steph: The only good thing about being down and ready to give up is that the only way we can possibly look is UP!! And HE is always there!! I know this from personal experience. Prayers and love are always with you and yours. Elna
Elna W. Watts <eww@hutchtel.net>
Glencoe, MN McLeod - Friday, April 8, 2005 10:07 AM CDT

Doug and Steph - this is Tammy - Tanya and Archie's friend in Lubbock. First let me say how proud I am of your progress Doug - there are so many people who would never have fought as hard as you and your family. Second - I am so happy that the Moore's got to get up there to see you guys - I know it was so special for them - I hope for you all as well - and your home is GORGEOUS! Third - I just finished a Beth Moore study on the life of David - and speaking of getting to the ultimate lows in life - I'd have to say David got pretty low. But Got always gave him renewed joy through David's praise. And not knowing the depths of what you are contending with - all I can ask is that God will grant you the same joy as you continue to glorify His name.

Sorry we didn't get the snowshoes up there for your next garage sale - maybe next time!

Hang in there guys - we all love, care and pray for you.

Tammy Cannon <komenlubbock@sbcglobal.net>
Lubbock , TX USA - Friday, April 8, 2005 0:20 AM CDT

doug and stephanie,

it seems obvious to say how much archie and i are hurting with you and for you, but i will say it anyway! i think you are justified in your feelings. what i ask you to consider is this....are you giving up or letting go and letting God? there is a difference you know. the doug and stephanie we all know and love would do the latter...quiting is not an option! to quote stephanie, "bring it on!". she was speaking of something else but this is an indicator of your spirit. this morning in our devotions we read this from the message translation and i thought of you:James 4: 4-10 "You're cheating on God. If all you want is your own way, flirting with the world every chance you get, you end up enemies of God and his way. And do you suppose God doesn't care? The proverb has it that "he's a fiercely jealous lover." And what he gives in love is far better than anything else you'll find. It's common knowledge that "God goes against the willful proud; God gives grace to the willing humble." So let God work his will in you. Yell a loud NO to the Devil and watch him scamper. Say a quiet YES to God and he'll be there in no time. Quit dabbling in sin. Purify your inner life. Quit playing the field. Hit bottom, and cry your eyes out. The fun and games are over. Get serious, really serious. Get down on your knees before the Master; it's the only way you'll get on your feet."

y'all are stronger than you even know..."get serious, really serious" and know we are praying you along this pathway. we really think it would be a good idea to start up the prayer circle again...friday nights at 7:00. anyone care to join us???? it "might could" do some good! (:>) (that one was just for you doug!)

love from the dust bowl!!!!!
tanya <tlynn39@juno.com>
- Thursday, April 7, 2005 2:24 PM CDT

Still with ya Doug, don't know what to do or what to say but I'm still with ya.

Love Ya
Steve
Mt - Thursday, April 7, 2005 10:12 AM CDT

Doug and Steph .... I just read your journal entry for April 5. It is very touching. Doug, it was great seeing you last Saturday but I felt bad because the spark was gone from your eyes. I had never seen that before and it alarmed me. Your special smile wasn't there. I realized you were in trouble.

I believe we all have days when we look up and tell God we just can't handle any more. Even though we know He only gives us what we can handle, there are days when it feels like He must have us mixed up with someone else. I know despair ... most people know despair .... for different reasons .... but the feelings are still as intense and real .... and painful.

You need to realize, Doug, that we love you FOR WHO YOU ARE. It isn't about how you walk, or how you think, or what you're capable of doing ... it isn't about your accomplishments. It is about you .... the spirit and personality. Please realize there is a chance you may never run a race again. And the world won't end. When things happen in our lives that cause our pathway to change, we need to accept that change and work with what we have. You can accept your life the way it is now and do the best you can with what you have, or you can give up. The choice is yours. I'm guessing you've asked God why He didn't let you die. And that is understandable .... (pause) .... but now you need to go forward and accept your life as it is. We are proud of who you are, Doug, and for how far you've come in the last year. You ARE capable of making the needed changes to adapt mentally to your limitations.

Be thankful for all the opportunities you have had in the past, but don't live in the past. You are just as special today as you were on February 1, 2004. You have touched numerous lives all around the world and that isn't going to end now. God has prepared you for a different journey and it can be just as exciting .... different .... but exciting.

I'm not giving up on you, Doug. I know you WILL get through this depression and go forward .... because that is WHO YOU ARE.

Much Love, Aunt Barb
Barbara A. Hanson <hansonba@citlink.net>
Dodge Center, MN USA - Thursday, April 7, 2005 9:44 AM CDT

Hi Doug,
The coffee I had at 9:00 pm didn't kick in till 1:30 am so here I am reading about you at 2:40 am. I haven't gone to this website in some time so I expected to read nothing but fantastic things and wonderful strides made by you. I was a little taken back when I read of your discouragement.
Your a religious man, Doug. You've focused on the deity side of your saviour for some time now. Maybe one must look at the human side of Jesus. We saw anger in him when he was around merchants in the temple, a little frustration when his disciples couldn't keep their eyes open when he prayed and we say a broken man on a cross saying "it is finished."

Doug, you and I are made in the image of God. I believe that includes the emotions too.Frustration, anger, heartbreak, despair the whole spectrum is there. You're at a low point, it had to happen, now how do you get moving up?
I don't know how you getting moving up, but I'll relate a story that I use on myself.

I had a cousin that was killed in a work accident when he was 19 year old. The minister of the church that our families attended had this story to tell. "When ever something happens as tragic as this, a death of a young person. I often hear people ask, Why? Why would a God that is supposedly so good and kind let something like this happen? Yet, I never hear people ask "why" when something good happens.Why was our child born healthy? Why do I have a good job? "
I think about this message often. I have had a very fortunate life. Like a good Dad, God has been kind to me.In your period of being discouraged, Doug I hope you are asking the right "why" questions.
Doug, I don't why I was fortunate to have my life cross paths with yours. It did, and I am glad to have met people like you. Be mad and discouraged for awhile and then count your blessings. Why not?

Hang in there,

Larry Seljevold

Larry Seljevold <lseljevold@cableone.net>
Moorhead, MN USA - Thursday, April 7, 2005 3:33 AM CDT

Good morning Doug!

It's a beautiful sunny day - I hope you have looked outside!!

You have been on my mind so much since yesterday. I showed your last entry to Erv and he has some words of wisdom for you. He says it's time for you to reread the story of Job and also to remind you that we choose our own attitude.

Be strong Doug - we continue to pray for you.
Nancy Erickson <nancy.erickson@ndsu.edu>
Moorhead, MN - Wednesday, April 6, 2005 10:17 AM CDT

Douglas,

Go ahead and give up. I know that isn't what you expect but that is what you have to do. The Lord requires your complete dependence upon Him. He is the God of one God. Your letter/prayer was the first step and a huge, difficult, embarrassing, upsetting, angry, guilty step at that. Admitting your inability is the last thing you ever wanted to do but those are the words our Father longs to hear. His silence brings us to a full realization how weak and tired we are. We don't have to come to Him in our strength, it is our weakness that draws Him closer to us.

The Apostle Paul proclaimed - I am who I am by the Grace of God. So it is with you Douglas. You aren't who you are because of what you've done(good or bad). You are who you are because you were made a new creation in Christ. You have all the benefits of our God as a joint-heir with Jesus.

I wish I could make the trial come to an end and all would be well. I crushes those of us who love you to come the realization of our limitations as well. All I have is what the Lord gives me to pass along. Keep your faith, love your family, study the Word and give all for and to the Lord.
Favorite Cousin David <oconnor1970@yahoo.com>
Elizabeth, IN - Wednesday, April 6, 2005 6:40 AM CDT

Words from you about quitting and giving up tell me a lot about how hard this recovery is - I've never known you to give up... ever! I know you aren't fighting this alone either. Your faith and prayer and support from all of those who love you will get you through this, I know it will.

It was hard to see you struggle with a lack of hope and purpose while we were in MT, but it was encouraging to see how you fought through it and we had a good day going to Canada and you had a good week or so once you were back in MN. We can't do this for you, as much as we wish we could or each take a piece of it from you, but we are there with you in our thoughts and especially our prayers. So, hang in there, Bud, we love you and I sure miss being there encouraging and just hangin' out with y'all. Hope to talk to you soon! Peace.
Tim Martinson <tsmartinson@yahoo.com>
St. Anthony, MN US - Tuesday, April 5, 2005 10:33 PM CDT

Hi Doug and Stephanie,
First, I have to apologize for not writing sooner, I should have written Sunday night.....Sunday night, I was awake quite awhile thinking about you guys, I felt alot of heaviness and was really praying for you. I want you to know that God is alerting others to pray for you...It seems so hard, the place you're in right now. I've walked a similar path with my husband, Dan and it brings me back to those hard times. There were many times it was hard to see any good out of the pain. But, through it all God was and still is good. It's been almost 9 years since Dan's accident...and God has brought much restoration...some that took longer then others...and yes, he is different then he use to be. But, so am I...I'm stronger and now have greater faith to stand for you guys.
Please know that you aren't forgotten and the pain you are feeling, God is allowing others to feel it too...I'm just one who is "standing in the gap" for you! He is faithful, when you feel faithless, He is loving, when you don't feel loved, He is all knowing, when you feel He doesn't hear you, He is all powerful, when you feel weak, He is the truest friend when you feel the loneliest, He is your Daddy, when you need to be held. May He prove His faithfulness and love to you. May you sense His Spirit during this dry time. I will keep praying..thank you for the updates and for sharing your heart with us. I'm sure it's hard to even write somedays. Hang in there!
Bless you,
Debbie Mason
Deb Mason <dan2 deb @ lakes.com>
Wanamingo, MN USA - Tuesday, April 5, 2005 8:07 PM CDT

Love Ya
Wish I could fill you shoes for a day, fill you shoes for a week. I just desire for your burden to be lifted. I know I am not capable of lifting it but God knows if I could I would. I would pack it, carry it, throw it as far as I could, Jump up and down on it, maybe even yell at it, Curse it,
Maybe that is why we are waiting on God to lift the burden, maybe My violent tendencies are not the solution.

Love Ya
Steve
MT - Tuesday, April 5, 2005 6:20 PM CDT

Thanks for updating all of us. I know it takes alot of effort to do it! I'm SO proud of both of you for the way you are seeking God in the difficulties and trying to take it one step at a time! You are in my prayers and thoughts all the time...trusting that God will carry you through! Much love ~ Darla
Darla Hanson <dhanson@reignministries.org>
Plymouth, MN - Tuesday, April 5, 2005 2:54 PM CDT

Doug,
So sorry to hear you are feeling like giving up. Just know that there are still lots of people here praying for you. Don't give up! This too shall pass. Hang in there!
Love,
Krissa & Nathan Holt
Krissa Holt <krissa.holt@nmcco.com>
Maiden Rock, WI - Tuesday, April 5, 2005 2:37 PM CDT

Dear Doug,

I am so sad! I have been waiting to hear how your weekend was and now this. Please don't say you give up. That's not possible - that's not Doug. I know the real Doug is still in there somewhere and he's not a quitter. We are all pulling for you and if there were some way to make this healing process easier for you we would all do it. You must know that. You say you need a friend - well from what I've seen you have more friends than most people make in a lifetime. Hang in there Doug! We are all rooting and praying for you.
Nancy Erickson <nancy.erickson@ndsu.edu>
Moorhead, MN - Tuesday, April 5, 2005 2:22 PM CDT

Doug, It was great to see you this weekend. What a beautiful day to see family, eat some good food and have a laugh or two.

I can see the progress you have made since Christmas. Keep on pushing on! We are praying for you!!

Our Love to You and Your Family,
Jim Hanson and Family <james.m.hanson@wellsfargo.com>
Ramsey, MN U.S.A. - Monday, April 4, 2005 10:37 AM CDT

Ok weekend at your parents, lets hear about it
Steve
Mt - Monday, April 4, 2005 7:54 AM CDT

Okay Doug, we haven't heard from you in the past few days. What is going on up there?
Archie
Archie Moore <bamttu1@juno.com>
- Sunday, April 3, 2005 12:28 AM CDT

I like the sounds of the last few updates, good to see the glass half full.
Steve
Mt - Thursday, March 31, 2005 8:05 AM CST

Hello Doug and Steph -
I saw your family at the PR egg hunt and was just checking in with you! Your journal entries are so inspiring and honest! The emotional strength you have is amazing! Thanks for sharing your story and we will continue to check in!
God Bless -
Molly Aukes <aukes@unitelc.com>
Park Rapids, MN USA - Wednesday, March 30, 2005 10:25 PM CST

You go man! Just like we discussed, getting busy and doing things is what you need. That is what really makes you fell right again. It looks like God has a "TO DO" list for you already and it sounds great. I was thinking about you alot this past weekend while I was out doing a bunch of weedeating around the lake house. It brought back lots of great memories of us clearing our land together in Ft. Worth. Remember what we talked about regarding just getting out and doing things around your house and that things are going to be a little harder and differant in your approach. Just say a prayer for wisdom before you go outside, then JUST DO IT!!!! I know you can do anything that you and God set your mind to. I look forward to hearing about the challenges and how you overcame them. I'll be praying every step of the way. Now, GO GET EM!!
LOVE YA MAN, Archie
Archie Moore <bamttu1@juno.com>
- Wednesday, March 30, 2005 10:05 PM CST

Therapy sounds tough, if you get it figured out you will be quaified for work this summer. I have a sofit ad facia job to do this summer that sound similar just standing on a ladder holding a 5lb. nail gun hooked to a 50' hose that keeps tripping you. Let me know if you are interested.

Steve
Mt - Tuesday, March 29, 2005 12:50 AM CST

Hey Doug. Isn't it great that as therapists, we can come up with so many ways to torture people. I used to make people do the bolt and peg tree and they all loved it about as much as you do. It sounds like things are going well so I will email your therapist to turn up the heat a little more. I know you are now up to the challenge. Steph, Is he driving you crazy yet? Remember that when Doug asks you to help him with a task because it is just too much work, you are supposed to tell him to get over it and suck it up because it is therapy and good for him. Don't worry, God will keep taking care of Doug just as He is taking care of all of you. Keep up the faith and definately keep up the hard work Doug. Love you guys, Archie
Archie Moore <bamttu1@juno.com>
Lubbock, TX - Monday, March 28, 2005 8:32 PM CST

Doug:

I have been drawn to the news lately and seem to be compelled to stay tuned to the news about Terri Schiavo and the pain and agony that her parents and siblings are going through. My heart goes out so deeply to the Schiavo family and I can't even imagine what it must be like for the family to watch their beautiful daughter thirsting and starving to death.

Life is so precious, Doug! We are so thankful for the progress you have made since your accident during the last 13 months and that you are able to think, feel, speak, even learning to do all those things with your left hand and yes, especially see your awesome sense of humor! I know you are not where you want to be, but you are here with your loving family and friends and we are all cheering you on with our words, thoughts and prayers! You are progressing! Keep up all your hard work!

Happy Easter!

Love and Prayers, Aunt Louise, Uncle Todd & Family
Ann Louise Severud <anniels@cox.net>
Peoria, AZ USA - Saturday, March 26, 2005 10:44 PM CST

Hi Doug,
You are still in my prayers...May you and your family have a blessed Easter.
Thinking of you and praying for God to continue to give you the strength to press on.
Bless you,
Deb Mason
Deb Mason <dan2deb@lakes.com>
Wanamingo, MN USA - Saturday, March 26, 2005 3:43 PM CST

Gotcha!!! We are absolutely NOT to EVER clean our ears with a q-tip!! So PLEASE remove that from your list.

Seriously, Doug, I can only imagine how difficult this is for you. Please know that we are with you in prayer, as we have been from the first--each achievement that you put behind you is one more step toward normalcy in your life. We are so proud to have had the privilege of following you this past year. Hang in there!! Elna and Ivan in Glencoe
Elna <eww@hutchtel. net>
Glencoe, MN M - Friday, March 25, 2005 9:41 AM CST

Well, I have to admit it sounds horrible BUT - it's only for 2 weeks, so I guess you just have to suck it up. Man, that didn't sound like me, did it?!?! I figure I better get with the program, you've got some tough critics out there for me to compete with!

Seriously, Doug, you know I only wish the best for you. I see how far you've come and know how much farther you wish you were so I guess you've just gotta do what you've gotta do! I am proud of you, happy for you, sad for you, and I know you can get get through this.

Happy Easter to you and your family! My prayers are still with you.
Nancy Erickson <nancy.erickson@ndsu.edu>
Moorhead, MN - Thursday, March 24, 2005 11:54 AM CST

Soooooo, I guess what you are saying is that this is my best chance to beat you at some speedy card game.....As we once said about a challenging vball game...GAME ON! Good luck with the therapy....and Happy Easter to your family...we'll be thinking of you all this weekend when we gather at Mom's.
Stacey (O'Connor) Armstrong <staceyarmstrong@wowway.com>
Powell, OH - Wednesday, March 23, 2005 8:22 PM CST