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ALEX BAUER 
Baby Alex...our sweet and precious angel...went home to be with Jesus on April 8, 2005 in the arms of his mommy and with his hands around his daddy's. We were blessed to have Alex with us for 6 months and to have witnessed such miracles through his life. We now have a special angel watching over us, as we finish out our time here on earth. We look forward to the day we will see him again.
Journal
Thursday, June 25, 2009 10:04 PM CDT Time is flying by so fast this summer, I can hardly believe that JULY will begin next week! How can that be?
We sold our house in May and had one day to get everything out and moved before the new owners came in. Almost had a nervous breakdown, but luckily I made it through pulling an all-nighter, along with some very unselfish, giving friends who came to help at the last minute. Dan was still in TX, so it was a stressful time. However, we are now in our new house (newer house....), closer to town, and still on a lake. Loving it and am waiting for the day when everything is unpacked and put away! So far, we're just taking it all in and enjoying ourselves. None of us have said that we miss our other house, yet. Not sure it will ever happen, even though I was sure we would have some sort of regretful feelings. Just thankful to have a place to call home.....realizing once again that it's the people who make the home....not the house.
Dan has been back for 2 weeks now. That was probably a bigger adjustment for all of us...than the move! It's wonderful to have him here and the boys are all over him. Wanting dad for everything....and it's great to see their relationships with each other.
Isaiah isn't in too many activities this summer. Just baseball right now. My brother is up here in MN, to get married this weekend, so it's been fun and busy as we just met his fiance for the first time. The weeks they have been here have been packed with visits and meals and kids playing. I don't want them to leave.....they will be going back to Arizona to live.
We made it to the Relay for Life this year, and it was so surreal. Two wonderful ladies we have known over the years, weren't there this year. The cancer took over and they went home to their Jesus. I was saddened to see their families, and the others who have lost loved ones...but also encouraged by the survivors as they took the first lap together. We have made it to every Relay since Alex died, and it has been a good family event for us to do....as a way to remember and acknowledge Alex together. I wish I had known earlier, how many people are really affected by cancer. I would've been more aware and more passionate to figting for a cure.
So, the days go on. Some are still covered in pain and grief, but most of them are filled with the realization that we are continuing to live with the emptiness that won't go away....and that it is okay. I've learned so much about grief over the past 4 years and am sure that there is so much more for me to learn. But, I guess I've found the best way to "get it", is to just go through it. Not trying to go around it or over it....or just turning the other way....but just plunging into it and facing it. In my opinion, one of the hardest things to do in life, is to actually "look" and "deal" with the pain you might have. It's so much easier to ignore it or hide it or deaden it. But, that only lasts for so long. So, my trek has been leading me through the valley....wondering when they will stop coming down my path.
Basic entry, but wanting to share how life is going on. Ups and downs, but God is still good. Even through the tragedies of life.
Hoping all who are hurting, can be comforted....
Rochelle
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Hospital Information: Children's Hospital & Clinics-Minneapolis
2525 chicago ave south
minneapolis mn 55404
612-813-6266
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