Click here to go back to the main page. Thursday, December 29, 2005 8:53 PM CST Hey Guys! Everything's fine here at the Robertson's! I ordered my new American Girl doll...yay, another one! That makes 9...I'm getting Josefina(j pronounced like h) The New Mexican one from 1824. Right now we're watching Fanastic 4 that Alec got for X-mas. It's a good movie except I don't like the part where the evil metal dude Electrecutes hole through everyone he meets....I don't like movies with Human Suffering, Like I can watch Lord of the Rings but not Star Wars 3 where Anakin gets burned and cut to bits and is screaming! WEll, I won't be back to update till Sunday night so HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!! I hope not so many kids and Adults don't die from Stupid Diseases this year and I hope they find MORE CURES! My New years Resolution is to write every Goverment Official there is until they take more action!! =) Wednesday, December 28, 2005 3:04 PM CST Hey Guys! We just got back from Clinton Twns. to drop off Nick home...Snap it! I like it when Nik's home. Now, as nik would say, I'm a sad panda... Well Nothin' really going on so I'll update lata! Tuesday, December 27, 2005 10:23 AM CST Hey guys! New song, yay! I just like Miss Independant so... Anyway Mom ordered Candlelighter Beads a couple weeks ago and I just got them today! It's where they have beads for a lot of different procedures....like I have,
Sunday, December 25, 2005 4:18 PM CST MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!!! I can't beleive after all these 12(or for some 30 days)days, now it's over....BUT I STILL GOT SOME AWESOME PRESENTS! And A Christmas Story is still on=) that's a plus! What I got at dads
Saturday, December 24, 2005 5:06 PM CST Hey Guys!! OMG!! MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE!! I can't beleive it's finally here....but at the same time I can't beleive so many families have to celebrate without their precious angels. So many Brave Heroes have died this year.....Please take a moment to pray for a Very Merry X-Mas for their families! Friday, December 23, 2005 2:26 PM CST Heeeyyyyyy guys!! IT'S CHRISTMAS BREAK!! Fin-uh-lee!! This year has gone by soooo fast, I guess it's just middle school. Anyway...It's been such a PERFECT day! First we had the Wrestling match, and We(the 7th grade dance team)Danced in front of the WHOLE school! And we were AWESOME!! Well I'll update later, I waqnt to soak in my Perfect day!! Wednesday, December 21, 2005 8:17 PM CST Hey Guys!! The dance was really fun except this one boy named Mark was being a goof and Club-Dancin(if you know what I mean) with all the girls! After I saw him do it to some of my friends I was watching out but he came up to me during the Macarena and as soon as he got close enough I pushed him over! Ha Ha Anyway that was the Drama for this dance! I've been getting a lot of mail from Audreys Umbrella... Yesterday I got 4 letters! Today I only got one but THANKS JANET!! She gave me 5 packs of gum....which is like Alcohol trading in the 30's in my school!!
Tuesday, December 20, 2005 4:12 PM CST I have a x-mas dance and have to be there by 5:45 so I have to Go!! Gotta eat! You know me...
Monday, December 19, 2005 3:11 PM CST Hey People! I'm a still really tired but I have dance(both school and Jazz) so oh well.....But I GET TO DO AMERICAN IDOL AGAIN!! For jazz, for those of you who don't know we do a thing each week where one person dances in front of the whole class and this week it's parenys week so I'll dance for them too including mom! Well I gotta go, The wrestling match where we dance is Fri. and we need to practice!! will update lata!
Sunday, December 18, 2005 8:12 PM CST Hi! I'm not crabby anymore..... am I CAITLIN!? Well we had one H-E-double hocky sticks of a time at dad's! Alec has still been hackin up some lungs and ribs...Ok actually they're dry heaves...but after alec barfed for the umpteenth time dad said this Zoloft is rediculus and Alec said it helps with my anxiety and dad said you don't have anxiety and I said Alec thinks he does so he probably does and dad said Alec's been convinced of it!(how rude is that, I ask you!) So Alec said so you think kids are stupid? (aha, Alec's sensitivity is paying off, thought I!) Dad said no thats not what I meant. Ans that concludes our evening! oh crap my shoulder pains are back....i'll have to write later Friday, December 16, 2005 7:10 PM CST All of Sam's bloodwork came back normal, but she did wake up with a horrible cold today. Last time she had a cold she ended up in the hospital. So at 3am I went out to the store to get her some Vicks Vapo-rub. She hated it but she said it worked. Our goal is to keep her nose clear so she can take her desmo. Otherwise she gets dehydrated, then we go to the hospital. And that's no fun. I just talked to her and she sounds ok, tired but she's not snapping at me or screaming at me or moving away from me like I'm the plague. OY she's a crabby girl when she doesn't feel good. Caitlin got a little taste of "Crabby Sammi" and said, "Wow she really does get crabby doesn't she?"....Yeah!!! Thursday, December 15, 2005 10:35 AM CST I had to pick up Sam from school today, she's tired, crabby as hell and not feeling good. She sounds like she's getting a cold. Alec has been dry heaving for 2 days...So needless to say, we haven't been having much fun around here. I'm taking them both to the doctor at 1:45. Sam did go to her concert last night, she had fun but I could tell she didn't really feel good. I work the weekend then I'm off for a week...Yoo Hoo...I need it... Love, Ellen Wednesday, December 14, 2005 4:30 PM CST Off to a Chorus Concert...will update later!! Monday, December 12, 2005 2:35 PM CST OH MY GOD!! Kueool day! Okay, I got home and popped some cookie dough in my mouth(yeah yeah it's unhealthy, but I love the stuff!) and opened a package I got in the mail....there were 2 things in it. The first was a gingerbread house.....and a check! mom says I can't tell how much but THANK YOU SOOOOOO MUCH JEFFERY C. OTT!!! I can't beleive how much i've been given these past two years! There are so many nice people in this world I can't even thank all of you guys!
Monday, December 12, 2005 8:20 AM CST Sam is fine, she was pretty upset with DJ, I told her that his perspective as a 10 year old boy who has never seen anything like this is much different than hers. I think intellectually she knows what I'm talking about, but the caring side of her has just taken over. We had a fun weekend, went to get our tree, which is so "Charlie Brownish", it's funny. But it fits in our living room and the kids like it. They both wanted different trees of course....so we had the people at the stnad pick it for us. They picked Sam's so Alec gets to pick next year, no questions asked. I'm going to start my shopping today, finally. Should be fun. It's really cold here this week, down to 4 degrees tonight....YUCK... Sunday, December 11, 2005 11:46 AM CST Of all the Ignorant things to say, what Alec's friend DJ said last night was the worst! We were doing a Talent show and lets just say The compentition between women and men were on! The 2nd talent round was a Scary Story Show and Alecs story was funny! He was telling about how One guy killed every one in his city and after they died they turned into....MIKE MEYERS!!
Saturday, December 10, 2005 8:25 AM CST THANKS SUZIE FOR THE AWESOME GRAPHICS ON MY SITE!!! I loooove it! I don't know what to say.....EXCEPT THANKS!!! Thursday, December 8, 2005 7:11 PM CST Hey people!! I am doing good....But a few people are not...
Monday, December 5, 2005 3:16 PM CST Hey guys! I am feeling better....but I still get a lot of headaches here and there. Frankly I DO NOT think it is constipation...I am not the only thing full of crap here! (excuse my rather strong feelings about this!) Really this is what they say is the problem EVERY SINGLE TIME!!! I know what my headaches are and what they mean thank you! (Sad, huh?)
Friday, December 2, 2005 11:33 AM CST Sam is at school, I took her at 11:30. I forced her to go. I'm not totally convinced this problem is just the constipation but what do I know. I'm just a mom with a kid who doesn't feel good.
Wednesday, November 30, 2005 4:44 PM CST Sam is feeling ok, they did a shunt survey which showed a small collection of blood by her valve or whatever it is in her back. So Dr Sood is supposed to look at it tomorrow and I'll call them tomorrow after 10 am and they will tell me what we need to do. Yeah and pigs will start flying tomorrow too!!!
Tuesday, November 29, 2005 5:49 PM CST Well.....My headaches are back. They are the pressure ones that strike. They're kinda like the ones I had after they took my shunt out: When the pressures went up the headaches started and got really bad and happen every thirty secs. and then went away and came back. Except they're not so bad that I'm practicly unconsious from the pain like I was in the hospital. Oy...that's all I need now!! #$
Saturday, November 26, 2005 1:00 PM CST Hey guys...Another Child has earned his amgel Wings, Elijah. Please go to his site and offer some comfort to his Family. www.caringbridge.org/co/elijahkurtz/. And Another girl named Alexia could really use some prayers, She has a Inteston Infection but her ANC is 0, which means her Immune system is Literally Non-Existant at this point from the Chemo she's on. She's sooooo cute! And you have to see her dance(look at the "see Alexia dance" icon on her site!
Thursday, November 24, 2005 1:02 PM EST Hey People....I'm writing this from from Nana's! Yay, I LOVE it here! Oh yeah....
Thursday, November 24, 2005 9:46 AM CST Well, we got to see Simonne on Tuesday for about 15 mins. She has developed diabetes as a result of her cystic fibrosis and was getting all her training for counting carbs, grams and doing her shots (4 a day, Sam feels lucky now). But it was so good to see her, she looks good and I think she went home that night. We also saw Trina, a cleaning lady at the hospital that was always so nice to us. She asked how much weight Sam had gained since last summer and I proudly told her 19 lbs. Sam now weighs 71. Sam just lights up being at that hospital. It's weird, good, frightening, reassuring and scary all at the same time. Monday, November 21, 2005 8:15 PM EST Hey Guys! It was a good weekend, we went to Nana's and saw her new house. It was really nice, she had to move because The stairs at her old house were getting to be a bit much. But we didn't even get to see Luke and Lily! Dang, My Favorite Cousins.....( On my Dad's side, Aunt Jenni, Don't sweat it!) But we'll see them at the Thanksgiving Dinner, at Aunt Robbin, and Uncle Eddy's house! Yay! Were watching The Best of Will Ferral: Saturday Nite Live, It's scrumptrilascent!!(You'll have to watch it to get that last remark) Soooo....
Friday, November 18, 2005 7:37 PM CST Hey Guys....Okay, Today was the PERFECT day!!! Let's make a list shall we.... Wednesday, November 16, 2005 9:44 PM EST
Monday, November 14, 2005 8:02 PM CST Hi! I had Jazz today....It was fun...Hold on dads here.....Kay. He had to drop off my Pltelet-covered clothes. I had(another) BAD nosebleed Honestly, rewind back to the "platelet-covered" part....I'd say I didn't have platelets the way I bleed! I'm like a girl Hemopheliac, it wouldn't be the first time I made the "MEDICAL MIRACLE FILE"!! I immediatly get all over my right hand, theh I tried to stem the flow with my other hand and the blood ended up all down my left hand, into my sleeve and drenched it then moved on to attack my MEDICAL ALERT bracelet! Well thats really all for today....except Jakes mom wants to know about anyone out there that has had at least 17 Weeks of Chemo because Jake is off to have his 17th tommorrow...Wow, GO JAKE!! www.caringbridge.org/la/jakeowen. Sunday, November 13, 2005 5:24 PM CST Hey Guys! Well we had Alecs bowling Party.....But, NO ONE came! Poor kid....you can leave him a message about how rotten those kids are at www.caringbridge.org/visit/alecrc So all that were at the party were me, RaRa, DJ(alecs best friend!), Dj's family, and mom, and dad! Lord....Well I have been real tired since bowling...don't know what this is about. Oh-well, My desmo was a spray when we got it from the pharmacy so it doesn't work as good so it only last for about 4 hours, instead of the usual 12! Oh Boy, I've probably been dehydrated the whole weekend.....I get the Nose Tube tommorrow, the kind of desmo I usually use. Friday, November 11, 2005 6:30 PM CST Hey! I added a new song...."Breakaway" by Kelly Clarkson. I looooove Kelly Clarkson, the way she sings makes us Women(or in my case girls!) sound Independant, Strong, and Her voice is Amazing! I like "breakaway" because to me it talks about how we do something(s) worthwhile in our lives and then pass on to Heaven. Like all the CB angels do...They teach us lessons not everyone gets to learn from someone else, which makes the Angel's lives even more special, and we pass on the lessons we have learned. Anyway, I really like her songs and so I put one of them on my site! The End!
Thursday, November 10, 2005 8:19 PM CST Well... HI! We had a dance team meeting today! We are dancing to a mix on December 23, 2005! To the Wrestling meeting, Yay! And in gym we are doing tumbling....I'm am pretty popular these days, at least when it comes to the people-lifting-other-people-on-feet-knees-hands-etc. I guess it does have something to do with the fact I ONLY WEIGH 69 POUNDS!!!! I get pretty dizzy when I do the Forard rolls though and I get a headache when we do headstands! eh-oh...oh well. Oh! And we are doing this build a body thing in Science where two people, boy and girl, are "married" and then make a Paper o'kid and base the kid on what the "parents look like. Well, I of course get stuck with the held-backer kid, and I was surprised to find he wasn't as obnoxious as he was to the teachers! Well, we were talking about how The held-backer had ADD and that was why he got bad grades, and I said I missed 6 months of school and still got Honor Roll. Ashley who was sitting next to him siad why? and I said I was busy having 9 surgeries that year! The held-backer(mike, actually)said,"Oh yeah, the girl at my lunch table said to be nice to you 'cause of that!" Uh! How RUDE!! I don't like being the subject of school-wide pity, thank you! I asked them who said it and he said she was short with brown hair and her name was Megan! Well I'm assuming it was Megan Heck, a girl in my 6th back to 2nd grade class! Lordy, girl! She should know I don't need that!
Tuesday, November 8, 2005 7:00 PM CST Maddie also died yesterday...caringbridge.org/mi/trimpermld. She was such a cute girl, she went through complete crap to finally get to heaven. She was the 2nd child in her family to be diagnosed with a fatal disease, but all 3 of their children have what Maddie had, that has GOT to be rough. They are such a strong family!
Monday, November 7, 2005 8:42 PM CST **Angels who have gone take their Spirit but they always leave behind their memory and the lessons they've taught to the lucky people that knew them.**
Friday, November 4, 2005 6:29 PM CST Alrighty boys, We have exactly 2.5.1-oh-hundred-hours until Caringbridge shutdown! Lets get to updating....HOP TO IT!!!!Left...Left...Left, Right, Left!(hands typing, not feet marching!) So, Really I've been the Reading Natzi today....First the Newest Series of Unfortunate Events, "Penultimate Peril". It's the book to read if you feel your the bearer of all bad tidings! And Lemony Snicket has a knack for makeing little funny comments that are rather amusing. They are really a good series so ignore the "warnings" on the back covers! And I just finished reading"Lady of Ch'iao Kuo, Warrior of the South. Southern China, A.D. 531" It's a Royal Diary Series. Another really good series! **286** pages...I'm a fast reader(not trying to toot my own horn, except I just did, oops..)I guess. The Unfortunate events is long too. Oh Yeah! Some Bozo playing basket ball with my gym class decided to show off his Lay-Out skills and lofted the ball really hard from one side of the court to the other and SMOKED( I mean SMOOOOOOOKED!!!) me in the side of my head! That kid would have been eating all the worst hospital food I forced down his throat if he hit me in the back or if I had a VP shunt!!!!!! He bent my glasses so they are totally lopsided and bent back so they are touching my Eye lashes!!! Crap, He threw that ball hard! I didn't even know what happened at first!! I couldn't even feel my face after! He should try out for Base ball.... I still have a headache...MAJOR HEAD WHIPLASH HONESTLY!! Uh-oh! NO ABBY! NO CANDY!!! THAT"S MY HOLLOWWEEN CANDY, I WALKED A MILE TO GET IT WHILE YOU WERE PLAYING WITH ALECS PARACHUTE MAN OR FALLING OFF THE BED BECAUSE, UNLIKE EVERY CAT YOU CAN'T LAND ON YOUR FEET!! You know you have a VERY, no EXTREMLY, or NON-EXISTANT Metabolism!!!!! Gotta go, Honestly! Wednesday, November 2, 2005 4:20 PM CST I got my flu-shot today! It didn't hurt too much, but it sure smarted when Abby-So-Flabby had to rub her head against the exact spot!! OOWWWW! I didn't even cry though!(NO I DID NOT USE EMLA CREAM!! THANK-YOU!) Alec went nuts about it though, he's still complaining, though I think he just wants to try and prove that it DID hurt....I did the same thing last year, I was really mad more than anyrthing so I felt like making a big deal! (gasp) LORD VADOR HAS RISEN!! BUB, BUM, BUUUMMMMM!!! Sorry Alec had to watch the 3rd movie in front of me! Eeewww, they just showed all the little Padawans lying on the floor! Slayed by a Lightsaber, they were. I HATE movies like this! Too much death (premature at least) if you ask me!And too much violence! Well, I had a good Hoolowween...I was a gypsy, Hand-sewed it myself! Got about 2 pillow cases of cAndy...I got to trick-or-treat at My old neigborhood, My new one, and RaRa's Botchi(polish for Grandma)! Whhhoooooo! Tuesday, November 1, 2005 2:26 PM CST The 2nd Clare died.... 2 Clares have died before their time... I shouldn't have left him on Monday, Nik forgot to feed him seeds,I should have known it would happen...
Sunday, October 30, 2005 8:53 AM CST I added 2 more dolls to my Angel List...I'm still not feeling that great I'm still really tired. Mom thought it was the Growth hormone, like I was getting too much but it doesn't explain the pressure headaches I get only once in a while!
Friday, October 28, 2005 3:08 PM CDT Calvin Died.... www.caringbridge.org/ga/sugerbear. Have a headache, neckache, heartache... ALL THAT STUPID CRAP!!
Friday, October 28, 2005 11:44 AM CDT God, I feel so horrible. I just forced Sam to go to school for the last 2 hours. She didn't wake up today until 11:30, she was crying as we left the house but then she started feeling a bit better...Her head and neck are hurting. She made it to the dance last night, helped decorate and seems like she had a good time. Tuesday, October 25, 2005 3:05 PM CDT Hey Guys....(this is in an exasperated tone) We went to Childrens and All Nancy talked about was a strained back! Where did THAT come from?!? Nothing down there is Hurting, all I said was I was having weird pains that went on and off! And my head was hurting. And I was feeling nausiated! Of course there is more than that, but NOTHING along the lines of a sprained muscle! She thinks it's that because while I was lifting weights at school that is when I felt something snap. It is NOT A FREAKIN' SPRAIN!! Sometimes it seems as though the Neurosurgeons just Don't listen! They just jump to the least troublesome conclusion! Now we are going to wait a week to do the ICP monitor! A week of not feeling good, just what I need! Man, I ALWAYS get sick on te day of something important or fun!! I BETTER NOT MISS THIS DANCE!! I've allready Missed *3* things I have wanted to do the last 2 days!
Monday, October 24, 2005 11:56 AM CDT *****Update Tues am.... Sam has been complaining of a headache all night and her shunt is sticking out of her back, which looks different than it always has. She says last week she was in gym and they had to lift weights and she felt something in her back snap. She's still sleeping and I'm waiting for a referral for a shunt survey, then we'll go downtown. Hopefully it's just a coincidence...She has a dance to go to on Thursday and she already missed something she was really looking forward to, teaching a dance to her dance class...
Saturday, October 22, 2005 8:44 AM CDT Hi! I'm off to Nanas! I GET TO SEE MY FAVORITE COUSINS EVA'! LILY AND LUKE! WE'RE HAVIN' A PAAAAAARRTEY! (for Alec's B-day!) Thursday, October 20, 2005 3:27 PM CDT **Earthly Lessons.**
Wednesday, October 19, 2005 2:28 PM CDT **Only Easier.**
Friday, October 14, 2005 9:15 PM CDT Hey guys! We just got back from seeing Elisabeth Town! Michael one of my mom's and Aunt Jenny's Friends is in it! I'M RELATED TO A MOVIE STAR! WHOOO! He is the "other cousin". And I got my Progress Report..... STRAIGHT A's BABY! Oh yeah! I have decided on writing poems and publishing them later! I have two sections so far, I'll write the friendship ones tonite that I made up myself! Friday, October 7, 2005 7:58 PM CDT Hey people! had a good day! i can only type with 1 hand so there wont be any capitrol letters and some(allrite a few!)mistakes. abby is sitting on my lap as we speak! she is a happy camper as long as i'm paying attention to her! she is an awesome pet! i love soooooo much! UH! Alec just took her away! HA! She won't stay on his laaayap! well now he is mad this will NOT be good! Anyway I GOT ****9:18**** SECS ON THE MILE TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!(2ND GIRL!! MY FRIEND ASHLEY, WHO WAS THE 1ST, WAS ABOUT READY TO FAINT! I THINK SHE PUSHED HERSELF TOO HARD.....) I'M FAST AGAIN! I really though i'd never be as athletic as I was, which I definatly was!! And I got my pictures today! I like them, no sleepy eyes! I will try to find out how to get it on my website, mom says I need a scanner? Well, I have Bowling tommorrow, YES! I love Bowling.... You never get tired doing it, which comes as a good thing especially when you have just come out of surgery! And I've bought more stuff for my Holloween costume....A gypsie. I like being stuff that I can make original, I love being different! I'm almost Proud! Well, I AM PROUD! ! Thursday, October 6, 2005 4:03 PM CDT Hey Guys! Good day though alec is doing.....(cough) well you know how it goes when you are having a stressful day except with Alec you can times it by 10! Today I had my first Dance team meeting for shcool, and I got to go to the SCHOLL LIBRARY!!!(uh-huh, oh yeah, You know it!) Loooooove Librarys!
Wednesday, October 5, 2005 6:20 PM CDT Hey People! Good day, EXCEPT THE TEACHER RUNNING STUDENT COUNCIL HELD THE ELECTIONS YESTERDAY WHILE I WAS AT HOME FINISHING MY WORLD RECORD OF SLEEPING UNDER A SEDATION DRUG!!!!!! I slept almost 48 hours and when I wasn't sleeping I was either lying down or tripping over my own feet! Anyway, heres the deal: She told us to heve our reports in by Monday but I was absent, so she told my dad I had 5 days to turn it in so nooooo problem! well, Yesterday she called in the morning, which is when dad turns his cellphone off to make sure we could all sleep in, and said we needed to call her by 10:00 to make sure I could run!! Well at 2:00 dad finally woke up and got the message! Man! if I only woke up.... I still am mad over the fact that if she had only called later, if dad had left his cell phone on, I could still be in the run! Now I have to be a Represenitive, all they do is help out at dances and speak their minds when they can at meetings! How come I always miss the important stuff when I'm absent?!? Monday, October 3, 2005 8:14 PM CDT Can you say CLEAR SCAN??????????? We can!!!! Sunday, October 2, 2005 12:11 AM CDT Sam had her MRI this morning. They told Chris to call on Tues for the results....RIIIIIIIGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHTTTTTTTTTT!!! I will be calling medical records Monday to have them fax it to my Docs office and then my docs office will fax it to me at work....I'm sure it's fine...but it's always worrisome. Sam is feeling good, just a little woozy from the valium. But she didn't have to be sedated..What a brave girl...She said she had a headache, but who wouldn't after all that noise? Saturday, October 1, 2005 12:50 AM CDT So...my eyes are dry but my nose definatly isn't! Oh by the way If you look at my pets of angels list I got a new Gerbil and I seriously loooove it! Clare is sitting on my shoulder just watching as we speak! Mine is so tame! Alec's is really hyper as usual.(I think all his pets are starting to rub off on him!)I'll have to but a bigger cage too as they like to play on stuff. Clare is all white with ruby eyes and alec is brown with biiiiig black eyes, it looks like it's half squirrel! I love how they run into stuff in their running balls! And Bowling was good too, I got a 98, a 68, and a 80! whoo! Lets see, what else? oh, Calvin, my little cousin is turning 2 today so we are going to his Birtyhday Party! Yea! I love goint to Papa's and Diane's!(Granpa and Grandma!) And my arm hurts LIKE A MOTHER!!! Oh yeah! My Endo appoinmtment! Doctor Molts says I have Osteopenia, where I don't have enough Calcium! I don't see why, Cheese is my whole world! But she says it's common with kids with GHD. But I have Grown 9 CENTIMETERS!!! Heck Yeah!! And my new Dosage is 1.5, Now thats Murder in the 1st degree right there! My leg is gonna kill me! It hurts too much in my stomach too! And in 4 weeks it's going to be 1.7!! HOLY CRAP PEOPLE!! And she inreased my Cortef to 3 times a day and I have to switch to the DDAVP pill! Oh man! (barf, throw up, hurl, vomit...) Blahgh! That stuff taste like cuurapp!( strong word, yea yea yea!) well I think thats all for today!
Friday, September 30, 2005 6:35 PM CDT Hey Guys. Well, If you didn't see the update later today please go to Journal History and visit the kids I put up.... They need pratyers! Clare, a little girl who had Leukemia Died yesterday... honestly.... The kids who are still fighting this need prayers so families don't go through this ANYMORE!! I don't even know what to call this disease anymore.....well I don't even know what to write , I willwrite tomorrow after my heads cleared, and my eyes have dried, literally...
Friday, September 30, 2005 3:59 PM CDT PRAYERS NEEDED!!
Tuesday, September 27, 2005 4:38 PM CDT "Ladies and Gentlemen...."
Monday, September 26, 2005 4:36 PM CDT Hi!! I have Dance at 7:30 and I am estaaaaaatic! I get to dance in front of the whole class today! We play American Idol except it's where we dance and IIIIII get to do the FIRST week! Not to brag but I suppose I am a rather good dancer. Dancing is one sport where the smaller the better though long legs are good, which I DEFINATLY have! Thats why none of my pants fit, the ones that fit my waist are waayyyy too short for my legs and visa versa! EXCUSE ME! CAITLIN JUST ASKED MOM IF SHE CAN HAVE ABBY WHEN SHE MOVES OUT!! (COUGH) Yeah right, we're talkin bout my Flabby Abby! My first pet bigger than a guinea pig!!!!! Uhhh! Hmph! Scoff! well I have to practice for my dance, I'M GONNA KICK BUTT!!! Oh yeah! Nicole's tumor shrunk! TAKE THAT CANCER!! Oh, Yeah, EVIL JUST GOT BURNED, OWNED, uhh, Beat! Nicole, you just opened up Cancers oven! YOU ROCK!!
Saturday, September 24, 2005 8:09 AM CDT ****My Salvation Lies In Your Love****
Thursday, September 22, 2005 6:30 PM CDT hey guys. i am very tired today, i think its from swimming *5* lengths of the pool at wilson...then alec had an appointment with his eating doctor. so... i have to do homework then straigh to bed... ohhhh! i have to do all my freakin'(using this strong word demonstrates how tiring it is getting!) medicene! uurrgg! 5 pills and 1 shot! aye.... well i only have a half day so will probably write tommorrow, Victoria still needs prayers, her mom is looking into st. judes for some special trials....caringbridge.org/ga/victorianewsome. Wednesday, September 21, 2005 4:55 PM CDT Oh my lord!!! This has NOT been a good day!! I'll give you the story....
Tuesday, September 20, 2005 6:35 AM CDT Hi all...Mom here, Sam's at school and won't be at my house to update until tonight. She saw Dr Sood yesterday...He says she's grown about 10 cms, but that's over about a year, the endo keeps better track of that, but I can tell you she's getting taller. And her feet are growing like crazy. They said her headaches may be from a nerve that goes across your head that they have to cut when they do the craniotomy. Sooooo...they gave her a number of injections into her scalp. My God, I'm so glad I wasn't there. She said it didn't hurt as much as she thought it would. As far as the shoulder pain, he said it could be her gallbladder so they want her to have an ultrasound... And he said he had no idea about the hand tremors, but we have an appt for that Nov 1. Her endo appt is in 10 days, so we'll get to see exactly how much she's grown. Saturday, September 17, 2005 12:21 AM CDT Hey guys!! I am feeling a little better but a girl named Victoria isn't... she hes Medulla Blastoma like beth but it's going a lot more badly... Aye yi yi! her web page is caringbridge.org/ga/victorianewsome. Pray a lot for her as her mom wants to try a new drug that would probably work but hasn't been tested on kids so her doctors said Victoria probably couldn't use it!! Now that is the Stupidest thing I've NEVER heard!!(except disease itself!) If it has even the slightest chance to work her doctors should try it!! Sheesh, people these days! I know it hasn't even gone on the market but still! So pray for her...
Thursday, September 15, 2005 8:04 PM CDT We went to Sam's school night tonight, it was a lot of fun. She has really cool teachers and a really good middle school. We looked at Nik and Caitlins pictures from when they were in 8th grade. It's surprising to see how much they have changed. Nik looked like a dork and Caitlin looked like a little girl. Now he's a very grown up, handsome man and Caitlin is a very grown up beatiful woman. Someday that will be Sam. Alec just got home and Sam was hugging him, he wasn't too sure about it. But he had some fun. I am so happy to have them with me and not be in a bad mood....Jeez, stress does not make a good mommy. Wednesday, September 14, 2005 7:29 PM CDT Sam said she's feeling better today, but she was playing at her dads house and she fell into a pile of "fire ants" at Connors house and she's all itchy. Tomorrow are her school pictures so she's in the shower. I'm so glad she's feeling better. But we will keep the appt with Dr Sood for Monday, so we can set up her MRI. Ahhhh, the joys of MRI time. We have not had the pleasure in almost a year. But I know it will be clear. He snipped that cyst right off her pituitary stalk and it won't ever come back. Tuesday, September 13, 2005 5:45 PM CDT Hi all, Ellen here...Sam's really tired and really crabby and I asked her if I could update for her today...I took her to see Dr Sabal. No bad news, she's up to 69 pounds...which is huge...I don't mean that literally, I mean it's a huge step for us...That's about 3 pounds since last time she was there which was about 3 weeks ago. Her optic nerves look good. Her headaches are still there....hand tremors, especially in her right hand, she said her vision gets blurry, but it was fine at the doctors office. I don't know what to think. She is thinking malfunction, I am not sure. Last time it took her a good week to really start the puking, etc...I called the neurosurgeons office and Chris will take her downtown Monday at 1:30 pm. Of course I have to work. But that's ok, I do most of the running and it's fine with me if Chris does it too... Monday, September 12, 2005 2:57 PM CDT Hey people!! Oh lord, mom called Dr.Sable to make an appointment... I am having weird headaches, like they will start hurting but it blares on and off every few seconds, then goes away for like 10 minutes and then starts all over again. And I really think my vision is getting worse but it's almost like that goes on and off too. And I am having trouble paying attention where I will start thinking of anything and It just starts to lead to other things and then 30 seconds later I realize what I am doing. And I have been really tired!! Aye, why now? I just started school, honestly! ah well, Oh! Jake, a little boy with liver cancer just had surgery to either take out or look to see how many tumors he had,Isn't feeling so hot. He could use a lot of cheerleaders! Well thats really all for today...see ya probably tommorrow! Saturday, September 10, 2005 6:22 PM CDT Oh my lord!! Zoe is sooooo cute!! The Birthday party was fun, they even had one of those blown up castle thingys you jump in ...everytime zoe tried to get in she would get in up to her waist and get stuck so all you can see are her legs kicking, trying to get in there!! She is hilarious! And we met Kristina, she was really pretty! LOVE YOUR HAIR!! So, we couldn't decide what to get zoe.... She probably has gotten so many presents. We finaly got her some twin baby dolls, she even screamed when she saw them. Though the funniest thing was when Kristina asked zoe, Are you almost ready for pony tails? Zoe actually said, Whats that? Oh my gosh, poor thing. She is really a funny kid though!! lol well i am really tired all the sudden so i will write later...
Friday, September 9, 2005 8:42 PM CDT MMMMMMMMH!! (sigh...) hey guys, Aye It started out like the classic Fridays of old.... but went quickly downhill from school,(isn't it supposed to be visa versa?!?) First we go to dads house, and are immediatly bored until 4:00 when America's Most Funniest Home Video's is on.(best show eva!) We went to Rachels to play and we all got into a fight playing badminton. So after that Rara went inside to play on the computer saying it was too hot to play outside! Oh come on!! So we didn't even hardly get to play with her! Aye So after that I get home and, this is the H@pit of the day... Avery, the sweey little baby who needed a Heart Transplant died today....caringbridge.org/ny/averysheart. Honestly Sometimes I have to wonder... WHO THE HECK IS IN CHARGE!! JEEZ I CAN'T STAND LOSING PEOPLE TO A FREAKIN" DISEASE!!! (sorry, just let me yell for a while and say freakin' no offense to god, really!) OK I am totally exhausted so I'll retire... Pray for Cures and long lives for every single person in the world. NO MORE DISEASES THANK YOU!!!!! Allright...
Thursday, September 8, 2005 7:42 PM CDT HEY GUYS> OK BEST DAY EVA!! Zoe, one of the cutest babies eva(lovin' the eva')had a bone marrow test that said NO CANCER CELLS!!(in non-medical terms) Check her out at caringbridge.org/mi/4theloveofzoe! We are goin'(sorry all the L.A. teachers out there, just talkin' some"town talk"!) to her Birthday-remmissionday PAAARRRRTTTEEEYYYYYYYYY!!!(extra EY!) Thursday, September 8, 2005 2:37 PM CDT Hey Guys, Caitlin needs the computer for homework but look for an update later today or early tommorrow!!! Wednesday, September 7, 2005 1:56 PM CDT Hey Guys! Wow... WILSON IS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wednesday, September 7, 2005 8:01 AM CDT OHMIGOD....I'm such a baby. I took Sam to school but I couldn't be a normal mom and just leave her there, I had to stay and watch. Bryan Desana, a boy her age with medullablastoma, was there too, but he's in a wheelchair but I was so happy to see him at school. He lives one block from Sam at her dads house. She wants to introduce herself but she was shy. So anyway, I drop her off and she was standing with another girl. All of a sudden this girl leaves Sam and goes off to another group. Sam starts to go after her but then changes her mind and stays by herself. After a few mins, 2 girls run up to her and grab her and she's gone. Just like that. Of course, at this point I've been crying. People would probably look at me and say, Oh this poor woman can't even be happy about her child going to middle school, grow up and accept it. Little did they know I was crying because of the struggles she's had. I just know this year will be better, I already promised her so I hope it happens. OY
Monday, September 5, 2005 5:45 PM CDT Hey I only have 30 secs... I had to give the Guinea Pig a bath! so just want to say everythings OK!! see ya tommorrow nite! Monday, September 5, 2005 7:05 AM CDT Sam went to her dads yesterday so I thought I'd update. She's been feeling pretty good, a few headaches here and there, a back ache or two but nothing that's hanging around. Not much happened this weekend, we went to a park and the kids went on horsey rides and we looked at the water, climbed some trees and then went back home. It was a quiet weekend.
Saturday, September 3, 2005 10:12 AM CDT Hey guys. School start on Wednesday, it'll be so cool!! Well nothing really going on except Calvin, a boy with an inoperable brainstem tumor appears he is not doing too good. His website is caringbridge.org/ga/sugarbear. Urg...(still hate diseases!) Oh I forgot... PORTER!!(someone at moms work) I like the picture that used to be on the front of my website, Thank you very much!... "It's too close!"(I am mimicking you in case you didn't notice!)If you have any complaints please e-mail them directly to me! Mom is no good at comebacks I must say. And speaking of moms work, two guys named Dan and Nick are going to Louisiana to help out down there. They need prayers because apparently it is a perpetual warzone down there! Today we are going to Joanns to see how much fabric for my Halloween costume would cost. I am going to be Selene the Greek Moon Goddess.(bum, bum, bummmm!) I'll give the details later!
Friday, September 2, 2005 11:36 AM CDT Hey guys. sigh... A lot of kids have died in the last couple of days. Beebo(jamie) who's story I have been following for a while died day before yesterday. His family could use prayers...(caringbridge.org/europe/beebo. And I have been checking other peoples sites, A little boy named david pessed away august 25th. His website is caringbridge.org/fl/davidjourneynorris. mmmmm! I seriously don't know how much more I can take. I don't know how much any one can take, I don't see how a lot of people can worry about a c on a test or say OH MY GOD!! no one sent me a candy cane for christmas. I don't see how I used to say that just 3 years ago. I don't understand how there isn't a cure for cancer or any other killing disease. If there is going to be the day where we become exctinct, Disease and illnesses will be the cause if we don't find a cure. God help us! You guys help us! Write goverment officials. Any thing that'll help, PLEASE!!
Tuesday, August 30, 2005 2:43 PM CDT Hi, I got my hair cut today. And we highlighted it. Though the first lady who did it dyed it way too bright and did practically my whole head! So we had to go back and let her tone it. Aye!! So now it looks OK. Now were watching hitch. Oh!! While I was letting my hair dry I saw a article on how Nicole Kiddman was visiting a little boy named dylan who actually has a website on caringbridge!!(small world) www.caringbridge.org/me/dylanhartung. He has Neuroblastoma.He lives in Australia but is in New York for treatment and needs donations to keep him in New York. Well I'll be at my dads until thursday night so see ya then.
Monday, August 29, 2005 8:02 PM CDT Hey people... Another little boy is ready to go heaven. His name is Jamie, and he has Nueroblastoma. Please offer all the comfort you have for his family.(caringbridge.org/europe/beebo) Scream!!I HATE CANCER!!!!!(oh, I cannot wait till i am allowed to swear!!) I know, Obviously I've said it,what, 10 times this week but saying it 100,000,000,000(,ooo)times will never express the hatred I feel for Life threatinig and life altering illnesses.I just want to tear my ears and eyes out so i won't see or hear about all these kids and adults dying from a stupid illness. And the ones who suffer from them.Well I guess thats all of my ranting for tonight, maybe i'll go throw something in my room to vent my despair....
Sunday, August 28, 2005 6:58 PM CDT Hey Guys. Well, we went to look at some appartments today, For dad. I guess the rent on our present house is too expensive. urrg. I don't want to move from Rachel, she is my best friend. She was always there when other people ignored when I was sick. Sure, we're going to stay in Wyandotte but mom is in Wyandotte and I hardly ever see Ra while I am here.(Sigh, urg, argh) Well I'll do something else to cheer me up, maybe just listen to my website...
Saturday, August 27, 2005 8:53 AM CDT Sam is at her dads until tomorrow night, so I thought I'd update. She's doing great, no headaches, no dehydration, no adrenal crisis. She's getting excited about middle school. On Thursday, we went bowling with Beth, her brother Mikey and her mom Jenni. It was fun, although Alec was in a really crappy mood and Sam and Beth really don't talk to each other. It's funny, just like it was with her and Emerald. Beth got her hair cut and highlighted, so I promised Sam she could do the same. Beth looked so cute. Her hair is getting longer and with the highlights, she looked very grown up. And Sam had to get size 2 bowling shoes....SHE'S FINALLY GROWING....she even looks taller to me, she's up to my shoulder now. She's going to kill me for this but we took her measurements for her halloween costume and they are 26 - 27 - 30. My little pear shaped girl....hahahahaha.... Thursday, August 25, 2005 9:32 AM CDT Hey... I have some bad news. So... Jacob, A little boy who has Adrenal Carcinoma has learned that his tumor has grown beyong hope that it will heal. Apparently the High doses of chemo were not enough.You should visit his site and comfort his family. www.caringbridge.org/fl/jacob. ( should I scream or sigh? maybe i will just breathe...) argh, there.Have I ever said I HATE CANCER!!!!!!!!$@#( IT!!
Wednesday, August 24, 2005 8:07 PM CDT Hey guys... well,the journal deleted my whole entry, so I just wanna say Thanks Caitlin and people who gave me tips! And I can't wait to go Bowling with Beth!It'll be so Fun!! Wednesday, August 24, 2005 8:03 PM CDT I got my new song! It's so cool! Thanks Caitlin, and the People who sent me tips!! Well I'm definatly feeling better, I took a 10mg cortef instead of the usual 5. Well I have to do my shot so...And I can't wait to go Bowling with Beth!! It'll be so Fun!!! Wednesday, August 24, 2005 10:56 AM CDT Hey...Aye yie yie (thats the way I spell it!)Well I have a cold so I won't update too much. There is nothing going on any ways so, But I got the new pictures! And Caitlins gonna do the Song either today or tommorrow, whenever she breaks from my pesturing! It's called"UP" by Shania Twain. It is my "Happy" song. Well, Later...
Tuesday, August 23, 2005 9:22 AM CDT Hi guys! Thanks for the tips on the photo and music things but moms still confused about the code thingy so we'll have to wait till caitlin gets home(hopefully she won't be in a bad mood)later today. So nothing to report really... Oh! Thanks for the phone call Nicole! I hardly ever get them, and when I do they're never that long! And cedar point, I went on almost everything! Even the Millenium, for the 5th time! I first went on it when i was seven! Beat that mom! She was cursing me the whole way up!! And I got to go on my Favorite, The Gemini! Mom thought it was too jerky, but i persuaded her to let me try one time and it was good so i went on it a lot!! I know, I am quite the Scheming Little Persuader. Thanks mom! So my friend Kala went with us, and I met carly too. On her birthday party. Hmm. So i'll write later!
Friday, August 19, 2005 8:38 PM CDT Okay... hi people, I had to do my shot twice because the first time after i did the shot i thought hmm, that was too easy, so i reset it to see what it was dialed to last time....0.0 was what it said...I forgot to set it, Boy that was stupid! So I had to do it again, Blah blah blah. Okay anyways, mom is a complete failure when it comes to technology,So I was wondering if anyone knew how to post pictures, and how to install songs onto this website if you could please write a guestbook entry or e-mail my mom.(her e-mail address is above)Thanks! Well i'll write later....
Thursday, August 18, 2005 6:45 PM CDT I just that Cody(www.caringbridge.org/va/cody/) passed away earlier, Please send your comforts and condolences to his family. Sigh... I hate cancer and I hate Benign growths!!! They both suck! They both kill people and they both cause grief no matter how small. And they both change thousands of lives each year. SCREAM!!!! Ok I am going to calm down now... Breath in Breath out... I guess we all have to do that some times.
Thursday, August 18, 2005 12:47 AM CDT Hey guys! Still wearing my shirt! Caitlins doing good but alec and I still have to do anything and everything for her.(as if thats a change)So nothing really to report except a boy named cody could use some support and prayers. www.caringbridge.org/va/cody He's not doing too good. Well it is my turn on the platstation.(alecs been on it for 3 HOURS!) Gotta run!!
Wednesday, August 17, 2005 10:46 AM CDT I got my shirt! It's perfect!! I love it!! I also got a sweat shirt! Love that too!! O.K. enough of the exclamation marks, i know.(!) I'll take a picture and post it later. So our plan is to go to the mall and model my new shirt. Anyways, Caitlins ok I guess, though i think they are all sore. We think her blood pressure went down because she wes hyperventilating herself to death. So i'll write later! Tuesday, August 16, 2005 6:41 PM CDT Just for the record, THIS IS THE WORST DAT EVER!! Why? alright I will make a list, it will be shorter...
Tuesday, August 16, 2005 12:31 AM CDT BE QUIET!! Lord, Alecs in a Killer mood today. He is mad about everything today. I guess he is worried about going to dads. Yesterday dad couldn't hardly remember our names!! We think he was drinking so Alecs scared he will be grumpy.Anyway 1-2 more days till I get my bts shirt, I am so excited! THANK YOU SO MUCH LINDA!!! And i got an E-mail from Nicole (www.caringbridge.org/nm/nicole) She wanted to know my phone number so maybe she will call this week. So today we are going to alecs appointment for the eating clinic, And mom wants to do something beforehand but doesn't know what...Hmmm. I want to go bowling, but alec wants to do somthing outside.
Monday, August 15, 2005 1:57 PM CDT What a day!! First we woke up for a dentist appointment at 8:20, but as soon as i woke up i got a glass of water and felt sick after I drank it. So we went to the appointment with me laying down the whole way, then 30 seconds before we got there I threw up. Argh!! So mom decided to call childrens and they said just take 2 cortefs and see what happens. So I went to the room to get 2 cavities filled. about midway through all the sudden the "non-hurting" laser was killing me! ( If anyone has a adrenal insufficency out there, Do people with no cortef feel more pain? Write a note in my guest book.)So she numbed (is that a word?)me with novacain, a shot that also was not supposed to hurt but of course it did! then she put me on laughing gas and got to work. Then when she put the polish and paint on i vomited again. All over the seat and floor, I might add. The polish just tasted really bad. 20 minutes later she was done, but when i got in the waiting I THREW UP AGAIN!! well that was number 3 so mom wanted to do the cortef shot but the dentist said maybe it was just stress and bad tasting wax. so mom decided to wait. So we just drove home and i have not thrown up since, Thank you! Sunday, August 14, 2005 7:15 PM CDT MOM!! You are not only making me mad, but boring the readers! I have another supporter that said,"Between you and me, your journals ARE better than your moms!" Thanks again for the support. So The lock-in. Well, first we got name tags. then we picked teams for a game where we went around the library and did different activities. For each one we got points. Then the last one was a magic potion game.( AKA magic POISON game) The potion was made of:
Saturday, August 13, 2005 9:50 AM CDT I know I've been banned from updating, but Sam is at her dads and he doesn't have a computer. Sam went to the lock in at the library last night. Caitlin went for years. You have to be going into the sixth grade or higher. You read at least 5 books (Sam read 55) and you get rewarded by spending the night in the library. The library is in a mansion and the library part was added on. Normally, you can't go into the mansion, but one night a year they open it up for all the kids who want to spend the night. Sam didn't get to last year, it was one of the things she missed out on. But last night I dropped her off. She seemed a little nervous. This morning when she called me at 7:15 I asked her how late she stayed up. "Mom, I haven't been asleep since 9am yesterday morning". Wow, incredible she stayed up all night. She's always the first one asleep any where we go. She said she met some kids that are going to middle school in a month so she already has some new friends. She is doing great. Thanks for all the positive comments on her keeping the journal herself. I have not taken one personally....(sniff sniff). Thursday, August 11, 2005 12:40 AM CDT Hey guys. Oh my gosh! yesterday, after i put in that i was saving up for a t-shirt that says " I am a brain tumor surviver" a lady named Linda Zec(did i spell that right?)E-mailed mom and she said she would send me one that she would buy. Oh, the kindness I've encountered the last 2 and a half years is incredible. I guess her brother died of Leukemia last year. here's his website.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005 1:14 PM CDT Hey guys. Hey i found the mouse ball holder thingy!! we lost the circle thing that holds the mouse mover in yesterday when caitlin dropped the computer yesterday.(scoff) cool. we couldn't hold the mouse up to move it. anyway NIKS HOME!! booyah. alec isn't too happy cause last time nik was home he kissed alec. i guess alecs scarred for life.(who wouldn't be) and i only need 4$ and 73 cents till i can gey a "i am a brain tumor survivor" shirt!! happy day. and i just received from a reliable source that my journal entrys are way more interesting than my mothers. What now mom?!? Thanks for the support mary alice! Also you should visit a boy named jacob www.caringbridge.org/fl/jacob. he is getting like 8 different kinds of chemo that, in my opinion, sounds worse than the cancer. He needs as many prayers as possible. will update later... Tuesday, August 9, 2005 7:58 PM CDT Hey im back at moms. dad has no internet because he had to cancel the phone line for the extra money. oy vey! have to do my shot. 1.1 mg and i've grown a centimeter in 6 months. i thought i'd catch up with the other kids but i could still borrow the 8-year-olds shoes who lives across the street!! And she is a foot shorter than me! And i have broken through 4 veins in the last 2 weeks! sigh... Anyway back to the good luck section of this article. we are going to cedar pointe finally on the 21st(yay)!!Aaannnnndddd i just got my shot done. definately a better note!! now i have to take my Pills. hold on a sec....Elivil...cortef...perilactin...senecot...,and colace. okay, so played outside a lot but my brother alec had some trouble with donald and connor. they are fine when they are apart but they get this little tough boy, arrogant attitude when their together.so alec said he was hot, so conor said,"wuss" alec looked at me annoyed but didn't say anything so i said to connor," no he's not." and connor said " what, he can't take a joke?" then i said ,"not yours, 'cause they're rude!" then he muttered something inncoherent so we just kept on playing. Alec has GOT to learn to stand up for himself sometime!! maybe i will teach him some comebacks later...
Tuesday, August 9, 2005 7:58 PM CDT Hey im back at moms. dad has no internet because he had to cancel the phone line for the extra money. oy vey! have to do my shot. 1.1 mg and i've grown a centimeter in 6 months. i thought i'd catch up with the other kids but i could still borrow the 8-year-olds shoes who lives across the street!! And she is a foot shorter than me! And i have broken through 4 veins in the last 2 weeks! sigh... Anyway back to the good luck section of this article. we are going to cedar pointe finally on the 21st(yay)!!Aaannnnndddd i just got my shot done. definately a better note!! now i have to take my Pills. hold on a sec....Elivil...cortef...perilactin...senecot...,and colace. okay, so played outside a lot but my brother alec had some trouble with donald and connor. they are fine when they are apart but they get this little tough boy, arrogant attitude when their together.so alec said he was hot, so conor said,"wuss" alec looked at me annoyed but didn't say anything so i said to connor," no he's not." and connor said " what, he can't take a joke?" then i said ,"not yours, 'cause they're rude!" then he muttered something inncoherent so we just kept on playing. Alec has GOT to learn to stand up for himself sometime!! maybe i will teach him some comebacks later... Sunday, August 7, 2005 1:05 PM CDT Well my headache has gone away. it was getting kinda bad yesterday. Im trying to ignore the earthly screams and bone crunching dinosaurs on tv. alecs watching jurassic park 3. i just can't handle movies like that. i dont see how alec can watch this but wouldn't talk for 2 hours after he saw the grinch!!(lol). anyways, going to dads today, hope he isn't grumpy. sigh...
Saturday, August 6, 2005 6:13 PM CDT OH MY GOD!!! You would never guessed what happened... we ran over a peice of something and 15 miles later we have a flat tire!! just our luck... So caitlin and her friends are having soooo much fun while im watching bruce almighty again. oh well mom says we can go on wednesday while its not so crowded. anyway we went to see sisterhood of the traveling pants. i cried my eyes out of course. i have so many friends that have died of cancer... aye!! and now i have a headache. more tommorrow. Saturday, August 6, 2005 8:04 AM CDT Going to Cedar Point!! will update on sunday! Saturday, August 6, 2005 7:56 AM CDT Going to Cedar Point real soon. will update more on Sunday!!! Friday, August 5, 2005 8:58 AM CDT Hey guys! I just got back from dads. Also, I went to bowling yesterday, but my hands were shaking the first game so i only got a 56.(blah!)but with the second i got an 86 and the third a 73!!yay! Anyways, A women named chris could use some support and prayers www.caringbridge.org/wi/clownfish79. She just started hospice services. So... I am doing good i suppose. Oh I am going out to do somthing with beth(www.Bethsplace.net) on the 25th. I can't wait! I think we might go bowling or somthing. It'll be fun.
Thursday, August 4, 2005 2:20 PM CDT Hi people, it's sammi. I have decided i want to do my own site with the whole updating thingy. So... right now im watching Bruce almighty. I always can sorta tie to that show. I used to think that god had somthing against me but i've figured i can't rely on him for everything. And it's actually been a gift to see how precious and fragile every thing is. Anyways, We had two kids get their angel wings yesterday, Ethan at www.caringbridge.org/ga/ethan, won his battle with Wilms tumor, and Leah, www.leahsjourney.com, finally won over her Diffuse Pontine Glioma. Aye aye aye. And also when i visited a girl named caitlins site, I got encouraged to write to the represenitive of michigan and would appreciate it if you wrote to your goverment officials too. Tell them to support a cure for childhood cancer. You can go to www.curesearch.com for your represenitives address. " I got the Power" Sorry, I love Bruce Almighty!! Now i am gonna watch it!!
Thursday, August 4, 2005 9:07 AM CDT Sam was getting dehydrated again yesterday, pulse 148, legs and hands shaking, feeling dizzy. It's been so hot here. I have a/c in one room in my house, Chris has better a/c than I have. She was at his house yesterday, with me today, but it's supposed to be cooler. She is still sleeping, as is Alec. I'm off for the next 4 days....woo hoo...I think we're going to Cedar Point on Saturday. Should be a lot of fun.
Wednesday, August 3, 2005 7:42 PM CDT A beautiful little girl named Leah, from Livonia Michigan died this morning after a short but valiant battle with diffuse pontine glioma...Please send her family your prayers... Saturday, July 30, 2005 7:35 PM CDT It's official, I have allergies. I've never had allergies in my entire life. The last couple of months, I've been battling itchy, weepy, swollen eyes. It always starts at work, which is weird but today my whole face has been itching. I went on the road for a couple of hours today and I wonder if maybe I'm just allergic to sunshine, since I spend 12 hours a day in a dark, dank dispatch center. Whatever it is, it's miserable and I can't believe I have allergies. My mom spent the months of Aug and Sept sneezing like crazy every year. I guess this is better than that but I'm afraid I'm going to scratch my face off. I bought some benadryl today so hopefully that will help. OY.
Thursday, July 28, 2005 8:58 PM CDT Chris is taking Alec up north tomorrow to pick Sam up from camp and they'll be back on Sunday. I can't wait to see her, she's obviously done fine all by herself up there, since we haven't heard a word. I'm off on Monday and Tuesday so I'm really excited. Caitlins senior pictures are on Monday. OY. I'm getting old. 2 kids almost graduated from high school. If Caitlin makes it. She's a little iffy about the whole school and being responsible thing. She better or I'm gonna be really ticked.
Monday, July 25, 2005 6:47 PM CDT Sam's at camp. Chris called up there yesterday because she forgot a few things in his car and they said she's doing fine. I'm fine, Alec is fine and Caitlin is fine. Not sure about Nik, his phone is messed up so I haven't talked to him in a few days. Work was long today, very boring til about 1pm then all hell broke loose and we had 4 dead people in about 2 hours. This heat is just horrible. Heat also brings out stupidness in people. Which makes my job interesting but makes me very negative toward mankind. Sometimes I think my job is bad for my mental health. But I suppose I'd be worse off if I was homeless and eating garbage, so I guess I'll be happy about my job and grateful. Blah.
Saturday, July 23, 2005 1:29 PM CDT Sam is up north, getting ready to go to camp, she gets dropped off tomorrow at 3pm I think. I slept until 1:30 pm today. I took a couple of tylenol pm's, just to make sure I didn't wake up at 5:30 but jeez, I slept like 13 hours. It felt good.
Thursday, July 21, 2005 6:44 AM CDT Sorry I haven't updated. I sent an email to Sam's endo yesterday asking her if there's anything we need to do about Sam's hand tremors. It's so bad, she's having trouble giving herself the shot and she's having trouble drawing and stuff. She started to get dehydrated the other day, it's been so fricking hot here, over 90 every day. So I made her drink 16 oz of water and her pulse went from 152 down to 132 in about an hour. Last night I stopped to see the kids and her pulse was fast again, told her to go home and drink some more. Then I called Chris and made sure he understood that she needs to stay hydrated. Thursday, July 14, 2005 8:56 PM CDT Sam is feeling really good. Her shaking hands are starting to cause her a problem when she gives herself her growth hormone shot. I have a call into the endo to see if we should see a neurologist, something she asked me about at our last appt. We're on our way up north, big Eggenberger family reunion. Her friend Beth has grown a whole inch since she started her growth hormone!!!! Way to go Beth. We're going to meet them in a couple weeks to do ceramics here in Wyandotte. We can't wait. I'll update on Monday, please sign her guestbook, she still needs support...Love to you all. Ellen, Sammi and Alec Sunday, July 10, 2005 8:31 AM CDT Sam's doing great, she's at Rachel's cottage, to celebrate her birthday. She's so worried about Ryan (www.caringbridge.org/ky/ryanbrown). Our internet was down for about 24 hours, she was getting pissed, she couldn't check his website. She called me last night and said that if anything happened to him, I was to call her right away.
Friday, July 8, 2005 3:24 AM CDT It's 0430 and I woke up with a migraine. Not a good way to start my day. I took some drugs and hopefully it'll go away soon.
Tuesday, July 5, 2005 7:33 PM CDT Kids are at Chris', Caitlin's gone, Nik's gone....Mommy is bored. But I'm not watching Cartoon Network, so I'm grateful for that.
Sunday, July 3, 2005 8:46 PM CDT I'm off for the next 2 days, hooray!!!! And I'm off for the next 3 week ends...Bigger hooray!!!! Alec stayed with Chris so Sam and I are having girls night out. I really need to go to bed but Sam is next door watching fireworks so I should stay up til she gets home. Her back is still swollen and she has headaches when she gets up from laying down so we're either on our way to shunt malfunction or she has decided that life cannot be boring and let us give Mommy more to worry about. One year ago today they were putting in her broviac, she weighed 52 pounds and she was a very sick little girl. Today she weighs 66 pounds and is feeling pretty good for the most part. She said today, "I am getting fat". That's good to hear. But she is not remotely fat. She is just growing. She has been drawing pictures of the children that we know that have died, she wants to mail them to their parents. She is so sweet.
Saturday, July 2, 2005 9:21 AM CDT it's caitlin. this is kind of a little surprise for my mom, (because i love and APPRECIATE her)but she asked me to help her put pictures on here from our trip, and i was going through them and i absolutely love this picture. sammi's a babe, if you ask me. look at those freckles.
Saturday, July 2, 2005 6:48 AM CDT Sam is feeling ok, she had a pretty bad headache yesterday but aleve seemed to take it away. Her back is still swollen but we're keeping an eye on it. Wednesday, June 29, 2005 10:32 PM CDT Sorry about the delay, my internet has been down for about a week and then we had a little scare with Sammi yesterday. She was out in the sun on Monday, she put on her sunscreen. But she has third degree burns on her left shoulder. Found out that her Elavil makes her more sensitive to sunburn. OY. She has a big blister and dozens of smaller ones. But I think it caused her to retain some fluid around her shunt because her back on the right side, by her tubing was so swollen yesterday, it stretched all her scars to about twice their normal size. So I left work and took her downtown, bags packed and convinced they'd have to keep her. Well they did a shunt survey (aka an x-ray) and said her shunt looked fine. It's still a little swollen today, but not bad. So maybe it's her shunt, maybe it's fluid retention from the sunburn. I guess we'll have to wait and see, she did say tonight that her shunt has been twinging. I've increased her cortef to 10 mg twice a day until she's not complaining of sunburn pain anymore.
Thursday, June 23, 2005 8:54 PM CDT We were picked up Saturday morning at 0630 by a limo, it was cool it was a black lincoln navigator. Then we realized I had forgotten the tickets, so we turned around, got the tickets and then realized that Chris had left some of Sam's medicine at his house. So we drove over there. Then we were on to the airport. The wait at the airport wasn't too bad, Detroits airport is really nice. Lots of stores and there's a tram for the kids to ride and moving sidewalks and all that cool stuff. Alec did so well on the airplane. I was reading Star Wars to him as we took off and doing my awesome imitation of Yoda. He was not impressed, but he was amused and distracted and that helped. We arrived in New Orleans on time and got our van and drove into the city. It was interesting. It's probably not a place I would take kids to, but it was really pretty and the architecture (sp) was nice. The hotel was really cool but we couldn't check in right away so we started walking and went into a restaurant for lunch. $105 later, we walked out, fuller but really broke. Then we checked in and Nik, Cait and I promptly fell asleep for about 3 hours. Actually I'd say that Nik and Cait spent about 50% of the trip sleeping. We found a cheaper place to eat and walked around downtown, looking at the Mississippi River, the downtown and all the strange people. You can drink alcohol in the open down there, just people walking around drinking beer or whatever. Alec was a little scared but he did really well. The next day we went to the aquarium, zoo and boat trip down the Mississippi. The tickets for all of that was almost 200 dollars for the six of us. The aquarium was really nice, we got to pet a shark and some starfish and stuff like that. It was cool inside there too. I mean air conditioned. New Orleans is fricking hot. But our weather couldn't have been better, it never rained. It was raining on the way there, in fact, we had to buckle up early on the plane because there were some water spouts below us. Anyway, then we took the big boat to the zoo. The zoo was ok, I imagine those animals are so sick of the heat they just give up. I would if I were them. The hotel had 2 different swimming pools. The big one was usually full of drunk people so we'd go over to the smaller one, which we had to ourselves, and have a ball. We were in bed by 10pm everynight, probably a combo of the time change and the heat. Wednesday, June 22, 2005 9:31 PM CDT We're back...had a great time, will update tomorrow...lots to tell. Wednesday, June 15, 2005 8:21 PM CDT Happy birthday to my mom, who would have been 64 today had she not gotten breast cancer. I can't even imagine her that old. I miss you mom and know you would have been such a comfort to Sammi and me during all of this. I love you. She never even got to see one of her kids turn 30. God, I hope I live longer than that. Her mom was only 47 when she died of breast cancer. Last year I had 2 cysts in my left breast, this year if they're still there, I'm going to have them removed, it makes me too nervous. Please pray for Sam's Nana who was in the hospital for pneumonia but has come home, still not feeling well. We love you too Nana.
Tuesday, June 14, 2005 10:33 PM CDT 4 more days. No tickets yet. Hmmmmmm maybe Northwest will just let us fly without them. Went out with work people for the first time in about a year tonight. I went for an hour. More aggravation than it's worth. Apparently I cannot have a social life. I will just keep doing what I have been doing. Working and driving kids to Drs appts. Everytime I think I am about to get back on top of my life, I get pulled back down. By the same person. I'm sick of it. Monday, June 13, 2005 8:01 PM CDT We met Lucas www.caringbridge.org/in/lucas and his family yesterday on our way home from my sisters. Ohmigosh, what a nice and friendly family. Lucas is so cute and personable, his older sister Ashlan is gorgeous and little Jake is a typical 4 year old, energetic and adorable. Lucas and his sibs made Sam some cards and his mom took some pictures. It was nice to meet everyone. I know we'll get together again. Hopefully they'll hear from St Jude this week. Friday, June 10, 2005 11:03 PM CDT Hmmmm...Where did my entry from yesterday go??? Sam's doing ok, I think she started to get dehydrated today, she had track practice and it's like 80000 degrees here. I took her downtown for her bone age x-ray and then we came home. It's so hot, I took them out to eat and then we went bowling. I don't have air. Cool air anyway. We're going to visit my sister tomorrow and then on the way home we're stopping at Lisa and Lucas' house.....Sam is so excited to meet a fellow cranio/rathke's child. (www.caringbridge.org/in/lucas) Sam gave herself her shot today at the bowling alley and the lady that was bowling next to us came over and told Sam she was very brave. She is.
Monday, June 6, 2005 5:48 PM CDT Sam went downtown for her blood draw today. Of course, we needed a referral for the bone age xray and of course I didn't have one. So we have to go back down on Friday, I am really really thinking of changing my insurance next year so we don't have to fudge around with all these referrals. I can take her anywhere for treatment and not worry about it.
Saturday, June 4, 2005 7:01 PM CDT Chris and the kids went up north for the weekend so I'm home all alone. Caitlin is with Rachel and Nik is at Grandma's. I am happy being alone today. I need some peace and quiet. Thursday, June 2, 2005 8:55 PM CDT As usual, I'm feeling better today. I did get some sleep, not as much as I would like but some. For reasons that aren't really appropriate to give here, the kids have been staying with me most of the time the last couple of weeks. And I am tired and feeling overwhelmed from that. Obviously I love having them here, but it's really hard by myself. Chris is taking the kids up north this weekend, I have to work, so that should be some good together time for them. Sam is still tired all the time but we're going to see the endo tomorrow so we should get some good info. Sam is really getting excited about her trip. I am trying to get Alec excited. We took the long way home from Cait's dr appt to go by the airport and we looked at all the planes taking off and I told him about the subway train inside the airport and the moving sidewalks and tried to make it exciting for him. He's apprehensive about the whole thing. I hope he will be ok but I am thinking of dramimine patch for him.
Wednesday, June 1, 2005 5:26 PM CDT We went to see the neuro-opthamologist today at Henry Ford Hospital in Detroit. Her eyes are perfect and vision is great (well besides being nearsighted). He said to have her checked in another year and then if everything is ok, we can wait 2-3 years before having her checked again.
Monday, May 30, 2005 8:59 AM CDT Sam is feeling better, again she had the hidden problem of constipation, which she doesn't like to talk about. It was 8 days since she last went. So now that she's cleared out a bit, she's feeling better. I hate the fact that when she's not feeling good, it could be a million things. Is her shunt malfunctioning??? Maybe her cortef is out of whack!!!! Hey maybe the cyst is back...or maybe she's just a normal sick kid. It's a horrible way to live sometimes. Friday, May 27, 2005 9:43 PM CDT Sam has had an ok week. She's been extremely tired but her cold is getting better. She's having some weird pain in her back. It's beneath her shunt. She says it feels like something is crossing. She is having a hard time explaining it. I hope it's just weird muscle strain. She first noticed it when she bent down to pick up her back pack and then again tonight when we were bowling. I just have this funny feeling she's not going to be able to take gym next year. It is every day for an hour and that is a lot of activity for her. The tiredness is bothering me a bit. Not sure where it is coming from. Saturday, May 21, 2005 5:16 PM CDT this is caitlin, updating for my mom and sam. sam went into the hospital this morning at about six. she's had a cold for the past couple of days and ended up being really dehydrated. they admitted her because her heartrate is up to like 150. (i'm not sure about the numbers, i was half asleep..)
Thursday, May 19, 2005 0:16 AM CDT Sam was so happy to give herself a shot today. We finally got the insurance problem fixed and she's all set for a while. She noticed a red spot, I guess it's really pink, on her burr hole tonight. It looks like a scab picked off but it's been at least 2 months since her last surgery. Her hands were shaking really bad tonight and she said her legs felt jittery. But she went to sleep pretty quick. She had a dance practice tonight but didn't feel well enough to go. RECITAL IS SATURDAY!!!!! Wednesday, May 18, 2005 6:17 AM CDT I fixed the toilet and today already seems like it will be a better day. Why? It couldn't possibly be any worse. Right now I'm trying to wake up Caitlin. She made a good decision about school next year and has signed up for classes. That is a huge relief. I don't remember it being so hard to be a teenager 24 years ago when I was her age. Tuesday, May 17, 2005 5:15 PM CDT Bad day, no end in sight. This is so much harder than I thought it would be. I guess it's just a different kind of misery than I had before. But at least I'm off work tomorrow, Thurs, part of Friday, all day Sat and part of Sunday, all of Monday and Tues. I hope I can enjoy my time off. Sam is doing well. She said her shoes are getting small and so are some of the pants she's been wearing for 2 years. On the other hand my toilet keeps stopping up and I'm sick of asking Chris to fix it. I guess the shit is everywhere in my life now.
Sunday, May 15, 2005 1:25 PM CDT The kids went back to Chris' this morning, I miss them already. But I have plenty of housework to keep me busy tonight. Not much new going on. We had a totally lazy day yesterday, we didn't do anything. It was nice. Sammi felt really tired all day and then she went to the bathroom and came out a new girl. She wanted to go see Daniels grave today so Chris took her and Alec to the cemetary. I haven't been there yet, I was planning to take her but then he did. She asked me this morning when we can go visit Kim again. Kim needs to move downriver so we can visit more often!!!!
Saturday, May 14, 2005 6:26 AM CDT Took the kids the see Emeralds mom, Kim, and her brother and sister, Ian and Anya. They basicallly played with Alec and Sam for 2 hours straight. Poor Anya wanted Sam to give her a horsie ride but of course Sam can't because of her shunt. So Alec gave her one but I know Sam's would have been better. Kim seems to be doing ok. We talked about Emma most of the time. I wish I had been able to get to know her better.
Thursday, May 12, 2005 9:14 AM CDT Sam went to a memorial service at school yesterday for Daniel, her friend who died last October from host vs. graft disease. I think they dedicated a tree to him or something like that. I kept asking Sam about it and all she would say was, "I don't know." So I'm assuming she was a bit upset. She's feeling ok I think. I'll be picking them up tonight and keeping them for the weekend. I can't wait. We have a lot of fun together. Nik is going with his grandmother to her cottage for the weekend and Caitlin is having her step sister Jess and friend Rachel spend the night Friday so it should be a pretty full house. Tuesday, May 10, 2005 4:58 AM CDT Sam came back from dance last night with a really bad headache, the worst she's had in a long time. I think we forgot to give her her morning meds tho. She and I went on a field trip yesterday and we were in a big hurry to get to school on time. Alec and Sam both go to school early to be room helpers. I almost never forget her meds, infact, she almost never forgets. But she's forgotten them before and not gotten a bad headache. It was pretty warm yesterday so maybe she just got a bit dehydrated.
Sunday, May 8, 2005 8:01 AM CDT Sam had a new friend spend the night at her dads last night. I am so happy to see her making new friends. She has had such a hard time socially at school this year. Hopefully this is the beginning of some new friendships for her. Saturday, May 7, 2005 12:57 AM CDT Sam has been feeling ok, a few little headaches here and there and her burr hole is really deep, so she thinks her pressure is low but she's doing pretty good. The school has decided to allow Sam to finish out the year as a room helper instead of finishing as a safety. If she misses a day (and I am pretty sure she's only missed 2 since March 1) it won't create a huge problem like it apparently would if she was a safety. She's disappointed but what can we do? I heard her telling someone the other day that she likes to swim but it really tires her out a lot. I guess I didn't realize that physical things tired her out so much. The growth hormone should start up again next week. It's been a nightmare trying to get it started again. But all in all she's doing really well and we're getting all the paperwork together for our trip so things are good.
Wednesday, May 4, 2005 10:42 AM CDT Well, Sam is feeling better and now I'm sick so I think she just had a little bug. Luckily? I'm sick on my day off. The kids are all in school so I'm enjoying a little quiet time. We got some forms from the wish company yesterday so I'll be running around gathering birth certificates and all kinds of things. A limo will pick us up at 0630 on June 18 and then the fun begins. We can't wait.
Monday, May 2, 2005 4:32 PM CDT The last couple of days Sam has been really tired, a little nauseated and her appetite has decreased. As I'm reading about adrenal insufficiency, I'm seeing these symptoms preclude Addisons crisis. I am going to call Dr Cara's office right now and see if I need to bring her in. Thank God I posted on one of my web sites, I never would have put it all together, she's been doing so well. My head hurts. Friday, April 29, 2005 7:56 PM CDT We had a nice quiet day today. Sam was really tired all day and not really eating well. Hopefully it's just one of those days. Now we're going cosmic bowling. It's 9:30 at night. My kids are crazy. Friday, April 29, 2005 7:56 PM CDT We had a nice quiet day today. Sam was really tired all day and not really eating well. Hopefully it's just one of those days. Now we're going cosmic bowling. It's 9:30 at night. My kids are crazy. Thursday, April 28, 2005 7:35 PM CDT Glad to be home tonight, with my kids....I'm tired but happy to have the weekend off. Sam is feeling really good. Alec is happy watching teenage mutant ninja turtles and Caitlin is at church, where she belongs!!! Monday, April 25, 2005 10:53 AM CDT Today I'm trying to focus on good things. My children love me and I love them more than anything. For the most part, I am able to give them what they need. It's tough having to count every penny now but that is probably a good thing. We are going on an awesome trip in about 7 weeks. I got some info in the mail from New Orleans and we are going to have a great time. They have a Six Flags down there and Sam just loves roller coasters. They have a really cool aquarium there that Nik has been to and he says it's really nice. There is a haunted tour of cemetaries that I bet Sam would like. Alec and I will do something else when that tour comes around. I am really looking forward to this trip. Sam is all signed up for camp this summer and she wasn't able to go last summer.
Sunday, April 24, 2005 8:27 PM CDT I'm so much better today, I have my kids....Yesterday was a long bad crappy day. No kids, snow, wind, cold. I deal with such shitty people at work. Not the people I work with, the people they put in jail. Robbers, rapists, murderers, people driving on suspended licenses (don't do that in Redford, Michigan, you'll go to jail for months). Sometimes it's hard to get out of the "everyone is an ass" mode and get back into "most people are normal and nice" mode. I get called names at work (normally just the prisoners call me names), yelled at, spit on, glared at, things thrown at me etc etc etc. And I hate what a bitch I am when I work the jail. But you just can't help it. Why am I talking about this??? I have no idea. I get to go home at night and they don't. (Which by the way is one of my favorite things to say to them, they hate that). Thursday, April 21, 2005 4:43 PM CDT Sam stopped running track, she said she was just too tired. She said it was hard to run. She doesn't seem too upset but I told her that her and I will start walking everyday to build up her strength. I slept really bad last night and it's only 6 at night but I'm about ready to go to bed. I think I'll take some tylenol pm and sleep all night. I have to work this weekend, so not much to look forward too. Except bowling on Sunday, our team is in first place. I could also be tired because I have spent the day trying to get Alec approved for an eating disorder clinic in Ohio. He doesn't have anorexia or bulemia, but he has some anxiety that has transformed into eating only a few different kinds of food, nothing very healthy. Apparently Alec felt like he needed to get on the "unhealthy child of Ellens" bandwagon that my kids have all jumped onto in the last couple of years. Nikolaas and his juvenile macular degeneration, Caitlin and her collar bone and of course, Sammi. He also is extraordinarily afraid of thunderstorms, going so far as to being afraid of wind, clouds and going 20 minutes without watching the weather channel. Spring is not my favorite season anymore. But he is strong and wants to get better. The only problem is the only place to treat him around here is in Ohio, 45 minutes south of here. But we'll do whatever we need to. I need to get back to midnights.
Tuesday, April 19, 2005 7:29 PM CDT Sam is really pissed right now. Her little friend Wylie died a few days ago, I believe he had medulloblastoma. It reoccurred a couple of months ago. She never met him but they traded emails last year before she got really sick. Unfortunately, after we got out of the hospital, our computer took a crap and we just recently got back on. I don't even know what to say to her anymore. I know some people really believe in protecting their children from the bad things that happen in this world. Sometimes I worry about her "obsession". The kids names on her window. But I'm proud of her for being so empathetic. And I'm sure that kids who have been sick are exposed to more bad things than "normal" kids. But I think that this will help Sam cope with the shitty things that happen, when she gets older. That stuff will pale in comparison. She actually knew 2 children who died in the last year and several children that we didn't "know" but had grown to love have died. It's not normal and it's not good but it's life and part of our world now. She'll appreciate life more. She'll be aware of the shortness of life. She'll always do her best because she knows it can be taken away at any time. She knows she's lucky. Even tho she goes thru periods of "why me", she knows she's lucky. She didn't have cancer. She's relatively healthy. What happened to her totally sucked but it could have been worse and she knows it. Things are getting better for her everyday. Maybe she feels guilty about that. It's quite a burden for a 12 year old. Sunday, April 17, 2005 8:33 PM CDT The kids and I had a nice weekend. They had a half day on Friday, so we went to Greenfield Village, opening day. If you like history and you ever come to Michigan, I would strongly suggest you visit this place. In fact, if you call us, we'll meet you there. Then on Saturday, we went bowling and to a movie and dinner, with Chris. I feel bad, on the days I don't have the kids I'm working, so I'm not alone. The days he doesn't have the kids, he's home alone. So I try to include him in our plans when possible. I think he's enjoying the quiet time a little bit. I know I do!!! Thursday, April 14, 2005 6:56 PM CDT Crappy day. Sam seemed happy when I went to see her at Chris'. I have to take Caitlin to see Dr Zaltz tomorrow morning at 8am, and I have to drive 30 miles to pick her up and then about another 15-20 to get the the docs so the kids are staying at Chris' tonight. Caitlin has had 4 surgeries to correct a congenital birth defect in her collar bone, including 2 surgeries to fix a fracture after the original correction was done. Well, when they did the last one, the pin broke and they were able to take out the top of the pin but the long part, they had to leave in. So we have to go every couple of months and get it x-rayed to make sure the pin isn't falling out or something like that.
Monday, April 11, 2005 5:18 PM CDT Sam has been feeling pretty good. She started track today. I think it will be good for her but she's upset because she's so tired. She wants to know when she'll get her strength back. I told her it will take some time. Of course, she doesn't want to hear this. She just wants to be back the way she was. Tomorrow all my Canadian relatives are coming over to see the new house and to visit. My mom was born in Canada and we buried her there. I love Canada. I'm excited but kind of nervous. I'm really not the dinner party type. But they're family so they won't care that I can't cook!!!
Thursday, April 7, 2005 7:23 AM CDT Sam went to school today. She had some blood drawn yesterday to check her electrolytes. Her skin is so transluscent, you can see almost every vein in her body. It's really weird looking. Her pulse is 140 and her blood pressure was good, but a liitle high for her. So when Dr Sabal calls back, I'll update. I have to work at noon today and then all weekend. Yuck.
Wednesday, April 6, 2005 8:36 AM CDT I think Sam's not feeling well due to a bad cold. It's all in her nose, altho now she has a fever. She was up all night peeing because her desmopressin doesn't work as well when she's stuffy (it's taken intranasally). I was going to take her to school but now she has a fever so we'll try one more day at home. Alec is home sick too....the fun never ever ends. Tuesday, April 5, 2005 10:37 AM CDT Sam has a really bad headache since last night. It's weird, I was talking to her on the phone (I didn't pick her up from dance as I had a bad headache) and she was as happy as I've heard her in a long time. 20 minutes later Chris calls and said that she came in the house from playing outside and complained that her head was hurting worse than it has in a long time. I just called home and she's still sleeping (it's almost noon here). He said he's going to take her downtown if she's not feeling better by noon. I was just going to talk to her teacher about being back on safety's but I guess it'll have to wait. I am so bummed out right now. Saturday, April 2, 2005 11:07 AM CST Chris took the kids (Alec and Sam) to Castaway Bay today. It's a huge indoor waterpark near Cedar Point. They're going to have tons of fun. Last night Sam started feeling kinda crappy again, neck and back hurting and nauseated. I told her to make sure she drinks enough today so she doesn't get dehydrated. I might go out to dinner tonight with my friend Kim. We've been friends since 6th grade. How cool is that??? Tuesday, March 29, 2005 7:10 PM CST Sam thinks she's feeling better. Little headaches here and there but she thinks the Periactin is working. The only thing she thinks is still kind of funky is that her back hurts when she runs. Is there a chance that she will be normal now??? Is there the slightest chance??? God I hope so. Saturday, March 26, 2005 1:22 PM CST Sam seems to be feeling better. They drew her electrolytes yesterday because her hands have been so shaky but they said everything was normal. They're at Nana's this weekend, and I'm working. Happy Easter everyone and Happy Birthday Emerald!!!! We miss you.
Tuesday, March 22, 2005 7:21 PM CST Sam's still feeling the same. She got a package from the Popcorn Factory today from an anonymous person. It's so awesome, candy popcorn cookies, all kinds of cool things. So whoever it's from, thank you sooooo much.
Sunday, March 20, 2005 8:22 PM CST Took Sam and Alec back to their dads today, I hate doing that, just because I miss them but I know he does too. I didn't see them much on my work days before. I stop on my way home to give them kisses and then I'll pick them up on Tuesday. Next week will be great. They're off all week and I only have to work 2 days. We went to Rachel's recital today and it was fun but Sam didn't feel good, as usual, so we left as soon as it was over. Rachel, Katie and Anna did a great job. Saturday, March 19, 2005 7:29 PM CST Sam was feeling better this am but then tonight she said whenever she turns her head, it hurts her back, head and neck. She had an allergic reaction to her new med yesterday but we're still giving it to her, the hives have not reappeared since yesterday. She didn't go to school and I missed my monthly meeting, again!!! And I meant to call her teacher on Friday to let her know what is going on and I just got caught up on all the kid stuff going on and forgot. So if you talk to me on Monday, remind me to call her.
Thursday, March 17, 2005 11:59 AM CST Chris took Sam downtown today, they're going to try her on a new headache med, Periactin, which is also supposed to help stimulate her appetite. They're also going to write a letter to the school, as they haven't been letting her participate in safety's, etc...I understand why they won't, they want her healthy but it makes her feel even more isolated. So hopefully she'll be able to feel more normal at school. That's a big deal to her. Tuesday, March 15, 2005 8:48 AM CST Sam woke up crying, she cried in the car and I think she was crying when she went into school. I took her to see our pediatrician yesterday and she checked her eyes and said everything looked ok. She said her headache is in her forehead. I ended up picking her up early yesterday but so far she's still at school today. I know if I take her downtown they're going to say it's not her shunt. It's frustrating and scary, I have to work the next 2 days.
Monday, March 14, 2005 7:04 AM CST Well, Sam is still feeling like crap. Her forehead is swollen and from a certain angle it looks bruised, on the side she had her craniotomy on. She said her forehead feels funny. It looks like she retaining some fluid and her burr hole (the handy little hole in her head) isn't as concave as it usually is, which would incidate high pressure. However the back and neck pain indicate overdraining. So they don't know whats going on. I took her to school, but I could tell she doesn't feel good. We have no idea whats going on. Saturday, March 12, 2005 6:45 AM CST I think Sam is finally feeling better. Chris took her downtown yesterday for a CT scan and they said her ventricles looked a bit small but nothing to worry about. So maybe she just had some funky virus. Or maybe her shunt is just adjusting itself or something. Who the hell knows? I'm at work, the kids are getting ready to go bowling, Nik is at his dads and Caitlin is with her best friend Rachel for the weekend. So it's gone from having 4 screaming kids at my home to me and the guinea pig. **Sam weighs 63 lbs, the most she's ever weighed in her life.
Thursday, March 10, 2005 5:28 PM CST I think Sam's going to be ok, all her bloodwork so far has been normal. I'll call tomorrow to get the blood culture results, but so far, every thing looks good. Tuesday, March 8, 2005 5:05 PM CST Yesterday, we went to visit Emerald. Sammi insisted I take her. Of course, I wanted to see her too, but I wasn't sure it was a good idea for Sam. But I'm glad we went, we got to talk to her a little bit and spend some time with Kim and the rest of her family. Sam was mad I wouldn't take her back tonight, but I still don't feel good and I thought it might be nice to let her family have a break. On Sunday, we went to Emma's bday party. There were a lot of people there and it was nice to see Emma smiling and opening all her presents. There was a moment when Emma caught her moms eye and they just looked at each other for the longest time, but it was probably only about 10 seconds. At that second, I knew that whatever happens to Emma, she's going to be fine. Her mother loves her and she loves Kim and that's really all that matters.
Friday, March 4, 2005 7:06 PM CST This has been a long week, trading days between day shift and my last night on mids, tonight. Sam is feeling pretty good, but she seems really really tired all the time. I hope it's just this virus she's been fighting.
Monday, February 28, 2005 10:53 PM CST Sam is feeling ok, still dealing with a sore throat. She went to dance class tonight and to orchestra practice at the high school.
Friday, February 25, 2005 9:09 PM CST Sam went to school today. I was all set to go to my meeting at work (which I haven't been able to attend in about 6 months because of Sam's illness) and she called me from school and said her DDAVP had run out. I asked her what would happen if I waited a couple hours to bring it to her and she said, "Mom, I'll dehydrate to death." So I missed my meeting and brought her the meds. Thursday, February 24, 2005 5:54 PM CST Sam didn't go to school today, she was up coughing all night. I took her to see Dr Sabal, to get her sutures removed and to get a prescription for a stronger cough medicine. She should be able to go to school tomorrow, she needs to. I have a meeting at 9am, then I go home and sleep for a couple hours, pick the kids up, sleep for a couple more then work 12 hours. Wednesday, February 23, 2005 7:53 AM CST Well, both kids developed fevers over night, I picked up Alec from school early because he said he wasn't feeling well. As soon as I walked into the office, he puked. "Nice to see you too honey!!!". So they're both home today.
Tuesday, February 22, 2005 11:07 AM CST Sam now has a viral infection. I think she's finally feeling better and should be able to go to school tomorrow. Altho, her entire class is at camp, she will sit in the library and do make up work. It sux. She's had a fever, cough and congestion but I think she's doing better.
Sunday, February 20, 2005 9:41 PM CST Chris and the kids spent the weekend at Nana's. Caitlin just called me, the power is out at our house, she's fine so far but it's pretty cold out. I think Sam felt pretty good all weekend (I'm working) but she sounded tired everytime I talked to her.
Friday, February 18, 2005 7:56 AM CST We got home yesterday afternoon and Sam was able to get up this morning and go to school. My only prayer today is that she stay in good health and be able to be a normal 12 year old.
Thursday, February 17, 2005 9:34 AM CST Sam's surgery went really well, she is feeling better even tho they didn't really do anything. They think whats going on is that she's getting dehydrated from the diabetes insipidus, meaning she's not drinking enough at home. That can cause all kinds of problems, including the kinds of problems she's having. So they're going to keep her on the monitor for the rest of the day, we'll be home either tonight or tomorrow. She's at school right now, which is amazing because she never wants to go to school here. Nor go to the playroom. She asked me to take her there last night and she didn't argue at all when I told her I was taking her to school. She woke up really fast and really well from the anesthesia yesterday, she's doing great.
Wednesday, February 16, 2005 1:00 AM CST Sam went to school for a half day yesterday and seemed to do pretty well. Today is the ICP monitor. I pray that we find out something. Alec is pretty upset, he's so sick of her being sick. I think he takes this harder than anyone, cept Sam of course. He's such a sensitive little fellow. He wants to come to the hospital with us, but he can't miss school. I'll update as soon as she's done with surgery tomorrow. Monday, February 14, 2005 7:15 PM CST Sam had a nice time at her birthday party on Saturday, there were 8 other kids there and they all seemed to have fun.
Thursday, February 10, 2005 8:47 PM CST Sam had a good birthday but she did say her headaches are getting worse. She looked so pretty today. She wanted to look nice for school. I hope to get a picture on the website.
Wednesday, February 9, 2005 7:36 PM CST Well, Sam is still feeling crappy, so they're going to put in another ICP monitor next Wednesday. We've had kind of a bad week. Sam isn't going to be able to go to camp afterall. They're afraid she won't be able to make it thru the day, as she can't even stay at school for a full day. But she did go to school today for 3 hours. She really felt crappy and I kind of forced her to go, but she made it and I'm very proud of her. She's giving herself her growth hormone shots now. She's amazing. She's upset. She'll be 12 tomorrow. I think she's looking forward to her birthday. I think I'm looking forward to her feeling better. Saturday, February 5, 2005 8:29 PM CST Sam is feeling a little better today. I'm working this weekend, so I only saw the kids for a few minutes.
Friday, February 4, 2005 7:07 PM CST Well, the headaches and tiredness have returned in full force. I honestly think her body can handle that shunt for about 2 weeks then it says this is crap. She tells me the headaches are "spikey". She wakes up in the middle of the night saying, "it's spiking". It spikes every few minutes, then she'll fall back to sleep. She missed 3 more days of school this week. She has to start the growth hormone shots again but she wasn't really upset about that. She was happy that he's lowered the dose so she can give herself the shots. She's supposed to be going to camp. I have a feeling it's not going to happen. She's missed so much. She missed a magic show the other day, then she says, "well I missed the practice, I wouldn't have known what to do anyway". Her headaches seem worse in the morning, she wakes up crying everyday. I took her downtown yesterday, the nurse said again, she's full of crap but this time it's pushing on her tubing and maybe that's why she's got all these headaches. It doesn't really explain the tiredness tho. She's started on megace again, to stimulate her appetite. So these are the meds she takes everyday.
Monday, January 31, 2005 8:18 PM CST Sam got a headache yesterday, had it all day today, but went to school and dance anyway. I'm very proud of her. She knows if she had called me, I would have picked her up. She even stayed after school for math club.
Sunday, January 30, 2005 12:01 AM CST Sam's doing well, she's excited about going back to school tomorrow. Caitlin and I are at home, cleaning. That's about it... Friday, January 28, 2005 1:09 AM CST Well, I got a new car today, it's a 2005 Chevy Malibu and I love it.....Sammi stayed home sick again today, her throat is really killing her. No school tomorrow so it should be a fun day. I have to work Saturday and I start bowling on Sunday. I haven't bowled on a league in years, it should be a lot of fun. Thursday, January 27, 2005 1:53 AM CST Sam is doing well, except she has a sore throat so the doc put her on antibiotics just in case. She's doing really well, besides that. Alec is doing ok, he's been in a pretty good mood, not too worried about anything but he might be put on an anti-anxiety medication, he definately worries about a lot of things. Caitlin is doing ok, she's taking her finals this week and seems stressed out too. I think we're all a little stressed this week. We got into another car accident yesterday (3 in 2 weeks, that must be a record *for the record, only one was my fault) and the kids were scared. It's a very frustrating time for us. Things should get better, right???????????? Sunday, January 23, 2005 4:12 AM CST Well, Sam is still feeling pretty good, except for a cold. Dr Cara, the endo, sent a letter to our family physician, Dr Sabal. Sam was 141.6 cm, slightly above the 10th percentile for her age and weight of 26.1 kg, which is well below the 5th percentile. (26.1 kg is 57.4 lbs) He described her as "very thin, very immature (not socially, physically) and fragile looking". Then he said she had an "almost mesmeric appearance". I can't find that word anywhere in a dictionary that has any medical reference.
Friday, January 21, 2005 8:50 AM CST Sam is doing great!!!! She's been at school all week, not complaining of being tired, no headaches, no golf ball sized swelling on her back. I met with her teachers, school nurse and principal today and they all said she's doing great. She jumped right in during science and her teacher said she knew more than the kids who had heard the first half of the lesson. All in all, she's doing great. Her endo still doesn't have the IGF results yet. There were actually 2 IGF tests done, the first one came back low normal so he wants to see the other one before we make a decision about the growth hormone.
Monday, January 17, 2005 7:49 PM CST SAMMI WENT TO SCHOOL TODAY AND STAYED ALL DAY!!!!!!! She felt good, said she had a good day, her friend Carly came over for the entire evening and it was awesome.....Oh and Simonne got to go home today.....
Sunday, January 16, 2005 7:45 PM CST I will try this again. Sam is at home doing her homework, just like a normal 6th grader. She's feeling good and ready to go back to school. But no gym or recess until we see the doctor next week. She'll have to have 2 separate appts for suture removal. We'll do the head sutures at our doctors office and the back sutures downtown. Friday, January 14, 2005 1:28 PM CST Sammi is coming home tomorrow!!! She got up, walked around, went to the bathroom and ate, all the pre-requisites for going home.... She wanted to get the shunt put back in. I take that as a good sign, she wasn't upset that she had to have it put back in, she was glad. So, we're just going to have to live life with a shunt. As long as we don't get another leak, I think it'll be fine.
Friday, January 14, 2005 1:28 PM CST Sammi is coming home tomorrow!!! She got up, walked around, went to the bathroom and ate, all the pre-requisites for going home.... She wanted to get the shunt put back in. I take that as a good sign, she wasn't upset that she had to have it put back in, she was glad. So, we're just going to have to live life with a shunt. As long as we don't get another leak, I think it'll be fine.
Wednesday, January 12, 2005 8:49 AM CST Sam came thru her surgery ok, but her pressures have been all over the place. He unhooked her shunt so hopefully it's just her body getting used to doing the csf work by itself. She's sleeping right now... I'll update later if anything changes.
Sunday, January 9, 2005 4:19 AM CST Well I had a nice update all typed out and then boom, it's gone....Sam is going to spend the night at my sisters tomorrow, since I have to work downtown on Monday. She'll enjoy it, time with baby Calvin and her Aunt Peej (Caitlin used to call her PJ but her name is Jenni). We're hoping to go to dinner on Monday night with her best school friend Carly and her best neighborhood friend Rachel. Two of the coolest girls I know. I think she'll enjoy that, as she's going in for surgery on Tuesday. She's also going to work on her homework.
Friday, January 7, 2005 9:49 PM CST Boy, this has been a long week. I started working at the Detroit Auto Show, which is a job I work every year for about 2 weeks. The extra money is nice. Sam had 3 doctor appts this week. She is having surgery on Tuesday. They will tie off her shunt and remove the catheter and repair the leak, again. Then they will put in an ICP monitor, which is a probe that goes into her brain to monitor her ICP's or Inter Cranial Pressure. This surgery is actually quite simple, but it leaves a horrible looking incision in her head, usually about 3 stitches. It's really not painful for her, as the top of her head is numb from the craniotomy. And they just stick the probe in the burr hole left in her skull from her craniotomy. If her pressures remain normal and she doesn't get any headaches, they'll remove the shunt. If her pressures rise, then they will hook the shunt back up. Dr Sood also said that he would do another MRI later in the summer to make sure the cyst hasn't grown back. Sam seemed relieved about that. It seems like a lot of kids have an easier time, the more MRI's they get; she's the opposite, she has to be sedated now.
Tuesday, January 4, 2005 8:08 PM CST Sam wasn't able to go to school today, she's been nauseated all day. She thinks it's the laxative I gave her, which by the way, seems to be working pretty well. She got her hair cut last night, it looks so cute. She has really thin hair and the shorter haircut makes it look thicker. Monday, January 3, 2005 6:57 PM CST Sam has been having problems all weekend, her back keeps blowing up and she has headaches if she's upright for too long. Then the bottom of her incision started turning red and a scab formed. I called and talked to one of the neuro surgeons and she said as Sam wasn't having any fever or neck pain or anything that indicated meningitis, just to wait until Wed, when Dr Sood gets back in town. Well, when we woke up today, her back seemed really swollen and the red thing was getting redder. So I packed up her and Nik and took them downtown. They did an x-ray and noticed that she is filled, from stem to stern, with well, let's just say her colon is completely filled and she has 2 huge air pockets. She's always been constipated and has had this problem her whole life. So I started her on a laxative today, she takes Colace everyday, but for some reason it's stopped working. But that doesn't really account for the swelling. She looked at her back and said it looked like one of the internal stitches was working itself out. She dug around a bit (which Sammi didn't dig) and took the stitch out. I wonder if that's why it's leaking, if that stitch was holding something in. So we'll go back on Wed to see Dr Sood and maybe he'll decide to turn off her shunt, put in an EVD drain and see if we can wean her from the shunt. I think it's about our last option.
Thursday, December 30, 2004 11:16 PM CST I ended up not having to take Sammi downtown today. Chris called the neurosurgery nurse and they talked for a while. She then called Dr Sood and he said if we can hold off, to bring her downtown first thing on Wednesday morning (he's out of town until then) and he'll start checking for shunt malfunction. It will entail at least x-rays and probably some blood work, hopefully no spinal tap. Then he'll decide what to do. Wednesday, December 29, 2004 7:40 PM CST Well, Sam has been feeling really good lately, kind of tired but no headaches or anything. The only funky thing is that she's been unable to bend over to tie or untie her shoes. I called the NS nurse yesterday and she said just to keep an eye on it, as it wasn't swollen. We then set up an appt to see Dr Sood on Jan 24, 4pm. She's supposed to see Dr Cara on Jan 6, 10am. (those dates and times are for me so I don't forget!!!) She noticed this morning that her back is swollen again. But she didn't tell me because she wanted to go sledding today. We went sledding, little hills, she had a lot of fun. Then when I came downstairs from my pre-work nap, Chris told me her "bulge" is back and she's had a headache all day. She hasn't had a headache in about a week. God forbid we get our hopes up, hence my dismal attitude. So tomorrow I'll be taking her downtown.
Saturday, December 25, 2004 7:58 PM CST Boy, were the kids excited this morning. I got off work a bit early, and expected to have to wake the kids up when I got home. I drove into the driveway, and I noticed the kids had tied the curtains open so they could see outside. I walked into the house and suddenly I hear the pitter patter of 4 little feet upstairs, then running down the hall, then down the stairs. They were so fricking excited. Then they had to wake up Nik and Caitlin, which was no easy task. Finally they all came down and the opening began. Everyone was very happy and we had a nice time. Then I went to bed. Sometime during the day, Alec came up to tell me it was the best Christmas ever. I agreed. (except for the working the whole weekend part). Friday, December 24, 2004 8:34 PM CST Sam's been feeling pretty good lately. We've been busy getting ready for Christmas. Unfortunately, I have to work all weekend. I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas and for the Caringbridge families that have lost a child this year, our prayer is for peace. Tuesday, December 21, 2004 0:01 AM CST First of all, we had a really nice time in Chicago. I got a lot of shopping done. Sam had a good time, altho she was tired a lot and we had to rest quite a few times. She still had some headaches but they seemed to be better. We went to see the 2 doctors at U of M today. They asked for a very detailed history and the neurologist thinks that possibly she's having migraines. But I honestly don't think they're migraines. She normally doesn't have nausea, never vomiting...light doesn't bother her eyes, none of the migraine stuff. Nik used to get migraines and he would vomit and cry and lie in a dark room and sleep for 12 hours.
Friday, December 17, 2004 1:21 AM CST Well, Sammi didn't make it to school today. She was so excited about an assembly they had. She was worried on Tuesday when we went downtown to get her sutures out, that she was missing the assembly. Then we found out on Wed that it was on Thursday. She woke up with a horrible headache, when I walked in the door, she was crying. She went back to bed with me and she slept til 11am. Why is she always sleeping so much??? Then tonight, I had to run Nik home from my work (long involved stupid story) and I went in the house to give the kids another good-bye kiss. Sam asked me what she was going to do if she had another headache. I told her she could stay home. She started bawling and said she's missing everything. She was really upset she missed the assembly.
Wednesday, December 15, 2004 9:09 PM CST Ok, I'm feeling better now. Sam went to school for a full day today and got her sutures out yesterday and seems to be feeling ok. We went on a field trip today and she had a good time, we saw Polar Express on Imax in 3-D. It was soooo awesome. I think we're going to Chicago this weekend for some last minute shopping....( all my shopping this year will be last minute!!!!!) Saturday, December 11, 2004 10:44 PM CST Sam finally seems to be feeling better. She, Chris and Alec went to Nana's and they're spending the night, since I'm working this weekend.
Tuesday, December 7, 2004 6:15 PM CST Sam came home today. We were ready to walk out the door at about noon when she puked. So we stuck around for another 90 mins to make sure she wasn't getting sick again and then we left. I went to bed and slept for 3 hours and now I'm at work. This should take care of the leak. They told us she needs a place to rest at school, so I called the school and was advised they really don't have anything. So I have to figure something out by Thursday. Monday, December 6, 2004 8:27 AM CST We're still here....hopefully going home today. She hasn't been up yet and she's not looking forward to getting up for the first time in 3 days. I'll let you know how it goes. Well she got up to use the bathroom but she's in a lot of pain. Dr Sood will be down later this afternoon and hopefully tell us we can go home.
Sunday, December 5, 2004 12:33 AM CST Sam gave us a bit of a scare last night, with a fever but it's gone today and all her blood work came back normal so we should be home tomorrow. Saturday, December 4, 2004 9:43 AM CST Sam's doing ok....she's in a lot more pain from this surgery than usual. He fixed the leak with collagen, some stitches and something else and we should be going home tomorrow. Added to Sammi's list of allergies is now....morphine. That girl has more allergies....But she's ok and looking forward to going home. We got a really nice message on my phone yesterday...SAMMI IS STUDENT OF THE MONTH IN HER CLASS....the whole class was cheering, it made me cry. Thank you to everyone for their thoughts. Friday, December 3, 2004 0:01 AM CST Sam goes in tomorrow for the surgery, we have to be there at 2pm. Which really sux because that means she can't eat all freaking day. I told her to try and stay up late so she can sleep til 11am or noon so that she's not sitting there all day, dying of starvation. Why would they schedule a child with DI so late? But she can drink water, juice or pop until 1pm, so I guess that's not too bad. Wednesday, December 1, 2004 11:26 PM CST Well, I'll try this again. Lost my first entry. Sam is having surgery on Friday. They're going to try and stitch up the leak in her spine. It's been causing her problems all week, nausea, headaches and her back keeps blowing up. She came home sick from school on Monday, crying because she was so nauseated. So I took her to see Dr Sood that afternoon and he said to keep track of her symptoms for a week and call him back. Monday night/Tuesday morning she was nauseated all night and slept for 13 hours. When we got up, she had a headache from standing. And when I had her sit up for 5 minutes, the swelling on her back increased. Then she laid down, she felt better, the swelling went down. We tried it again, same thing. I told Chris there's no way we can do this for a week. So I called Dr Sood back on Tues and left him a message. They called back this am and said they were boarding her for Friday, for surgical repair of the leak. Today it seemed like she was feeling a bit better. She did some homework and may try to go to school tomorrow. Monday, November 29, 2004 0:18 AM CST Well, Sam started complaining of being tired again today and then we noticed her fluid pocket has started swelling again. This is kind of frustrating, but from what I've read, these fluid pockets like to hang around. I guess in the big scheme of things, this really isn't a big deal, except she's still not feeling well, and that's a big deal. Please pray for our friend Beth who is having some bloodwork done tomorrow for hormone levels and for Emerald who had a bad MRI.
Saturday, November 27, 2004 11:37 PM CST Today was a quiet day, for me anyway. I worked last night, went to Nana's house to pick Sam up at about 7:15 and then made the long trek home. I slept til 4:30. Chris made really good pork chops for dinner and here I am at work again.....The kids went bowling and did pretty well. Alec is working on walking and releasing the ball and then stopping. He likes to stop first and think about what he's doing, then throw the ball. Caitlin is spending the weekend in Novi with all her buddies and Nik is home but going back to school tomorrow. Sam says whenever she gets up from sitting or laying position now, her head hurts. I hope it's just an adjustment thing. I forgot to mention that when Sam had her ICP monitor put in, Dr Sood came out and said that they were going to have to do a CT scan because she bled more than she should have and they had to make sure she didn't have a blood clot forming. That was kind of scary and reminded me that there is no such thing as a small surgery or routine surgery. Luckily the CT scan was clear and there was no blood clot.
Friday, November 26, 2004 5:59 PM CST Sammi got home on Wed and we were able to celebrate Thanksgiving with our family. Dr Sood said her pressures were all good, the only thing he thinks was going on was her spinal leak was lowering her pressure and causing the tiredness. So he put in another blood patch and it seems to really have helped. Her fluid pocket hasn't gotten bigger in a couple days, it usually fluctuated during the day. But today she's complaining of pressure headaches. She says they're not supposed to put needles in your spine when you have an LP shunt. I hope she's wrong.
Wednesday, November 24, 2004 12:05 AM CST I'm pretty sure we're coming home tonight. Right now we're in the library on the computers. I'm going to keep her out of bed for an hour and see how her pressures do. They seem a bit low when she's walking around, but I don't think it's anything to worry about. Nik is coming home tonight, HOORAY!!!!!!
Monday, November 22, 2004 12:19 AM CST Ahhhhhhhh....the pleasure of being in the hospital for a holiday.....It's about to be ours. Sam is going to have another ICP monitor put in, to check her pressures as she's still feeling like crap. Hopefully we'll get out by Thursday, we go in tomorrow. Last time I think it was a 2 day thing. God, I hope so. Thursday, November 18, 2004 8:46 PM CST We had Sammi's conference tonight, She's on the honor roll. She even got a B in math. We're very proud of her. She seems happier about school, it's not great yet but she seems hopeful about the future. She had a pressure headache today, that's what she called it. She's still really tired. I think I'm going to call her endo tomorrow and see if he thinks she needs any blood work done. But I'm so proud of her for doing so well in school after she missed almost half of a year last year. WAY TO GO SAMMI!!! Saturday, November 13, 2004 10:49 AM CST Sam has been feeling ok this week. She missed 2.5 days of school last week due to nausea and fatigue. I took her to the neurosurgery clinic and the nurse wasn't sure of what to make of her, so she called Dr Sood in to take a look at her. Dr Sood says it's possibly a shunt malfunction but he wanted to wait a week and see what happens. She did go to school yesterday, but it was only a half day. Her fluid pocket was really big yesterday and really hard. It's the biggest I've seen it in weeks but by the time we went to bed, it was small again. No one seems concerned about this. It's actually her spinal fluid leaking into her back. Maybe she just has a little virus. She's sleeping a lot again.
Saturday, October 30, 2004 11:48 AM CDT Sammi's MRI came back clear. In fact, we ran into Dr. Cara, her endocrinologist, at the gift shop and he said her pituitary gland looked awesome. Her need for desmopressin is on the way up again, she's taking .1 mgs about 3 times a day. She was down to .05 twice a day. She still only weighs 58 lbs but she looks good, still not feeling great all the time tho. Headachy, nauseated. We have an appt at University of Michigan Brain Tumor center on Dec 20 for a second opinion on her shunt. We're seeing a Dr Karen Maraszko, I've heard of her, I think she does a lot of work with Chiari Malformations. Sam has one but I think it's just from her shunt pulling her brain down her spine. Doesn't that sound gross???? Wednesday, October 27, 2004 4:50 PM CDT Sam and Chris are at Childrens getting her first post-op MRI, well I guess it's her second. They did one the day after her surgery. I'm sure it'll be clear, it's just the waiting is horrid. Chris is going to bring home the films tonight so hopefully we'll get some idea today or tomorrow. Sam's still having headaches, but maybe it's just something she's going to have to live with. Saturday, October 16, 2004 5:02 PM CDT Sam's doing ok, she's still not feeling well. Headaches, being tired. But her MRI and neurosurgeons appts are in 2 weeks, so we're gonna try and hold out for that. Work is just fricking killing me. It's taking up all my time. I work 12 hour shifts and when I'm not working, I'm trying to recovery. I've been getting migraines. Caitlin thinks it's stress. She's doing better in school, she seems happier. Friday, October 8, 2004 9:36 AM CDT Sammi's friend Daniel died yesterday at 5:40pm. He just couldn't fight anymore. The school is having the social worker come in to talk to the kids, Sam is pretty upset. Her and Daniel were both being home schooled by their teacher most of last year and they were both in the hospital for most of the summer. I think she felt a special bond with him, even tho she hadn't seen him for a while. Please pray for his family. Monday, October 4, 2004 11:08 AM CDT Dr Cara called today, he's Sam's endocrinologist. We went and saw him on Thursday. He talked to us for about an hour. He says he's a bit concerned about her headaches and nausea returning. He cut her down to .05 of the DDAVP per day, but she's having breakthrough after about 12 hours, so we're giving her that dose twice a day. Breakthrough is when she starts peeing like crazy and can't leave the bathroom without drinking out of the faucet. Then she knows she needs her meds. All the labs he drew were normal so there's no shunt infection, nothing wrong with her thyroid. He says if her headaches don't get better, he'll rush her thru to MRI instead of waiting til the end of the month. He also wants her to see a neurosurgeon at Henry Ford Hospital downtown. Just to make sure the shunt is what she needs. So as usual, we have nothing new. We're thinking about having a big party for her, to help her adjust to school, inviting the whole 6th grade. Sounds like fun!!!!!? Wednesday, September 29, 2004 0:03 AM CDT Sam's sodium came back low normal, so that doesn't account for her headaches and nausea. I am taking her to Childrens on Thursday to see the endo. He'll check her hormones and also they'll draw some blood for CBC and to make sure she doesn't have an infection in her shunt. She's convinced her cyst has grown back. I told her I really didn't think so. Her DDAVP usage has gone from 2 x's a day to once every day and a half. And she's still growing, over an inch since she got home from the hospital. She's really upset, had to be picked up early today due to bad headache. MRI should be in a couple weeks. Oy Vey!!!! Sunday, September 26, 2004 10:49 PM CDT I am up north on my yearly Critical Incident Stress Management class. It's a soul refresher for me and this year I need it more than ever. It's beautiful up here, there are woods to walk in and a lake and the stars are amazing. Sam has been missing school again, nausea and headaches are the culprit. Of course, the first thing that enters my mind is that the cyst is back. But maybe it's just a shunt thing. I've asked our doctor to get us a referral to University of Michigan Neurosurgery Dept, to just make sure we're all on the same page on this shunt thing. Her MRI should be in a few weeks. We finally go see the endo on Thursday. I want what we all want, I want my child back the way she was and I want her to be happy in school, not feeling excluded. I don't think it's too much to ask. I'm generally disgusted today. Monday, September 20, 2004 2:21 PM CDT Sam is doing great. Caitlin had surgery this morning to remove some of the hardware from her collarbone, she did great but he was not able to remove all of it, because it broke. So it will be monitored to make sure it's not slipping out. Friday, September 10, 2004 12:52 AM CDT Sam is doing really well. She had a little setback yesterday. From time to time she can go 24 hours without her hormone, but the other day it kind of caught her at night and she was up all night peeing and drinking. So she felt pretty cruddy and didn't go to school yesterday. Other than that, she's been great. The fluid pocket in her back is still there, goes up and down. Sometimes you can't see it, other times it looks like a golf ball coming out of her back. She has grown too, at least from our measurements at home. We were supposed to see the endocrinologist today, but he had an emergency and cancelled all his appts, so we can't go til next Thursday. She keeps asking me, if she's growing, will she need the shots. I told her I had no idea. But she's happy and healthy and what else could we ask for. Saturday, September 4, 2004 3:20 PM CDT Sam is doing pretty well, she's getting ready for school and getting used to mommy not always being home, as I returned to work yesterday. We're getting the feeling that her DDAVP requirements are slowing down, but we're trying not to get our hopes up. Some DI patients get their hormones back within a year after surgery. We're hoping she is one of the lucky ones. Wednesday, September 1, 2004 6:50 PM CDT We just returned from our vacation, short as it was. Sam got out of the hospital on Sunday and we promptly went up north. Of course our van pooped out on us about 60 miles from our destination so we had to buy a new one.
Thursday, August 26, 2004 10:34 AM CDT Sam's broviac was infected, with gram negative bacteria, which I think means it can live without oxygen. So, they've narrowed the antiobiotic they need and we'll be in here til it's gone. She's doing pretty well, seems kind of tired today tho. Wednesday, August 25, 2004 7:48 AM CDT ****Check your stickers and labels when you're at the hospital****
Saturday, August 21, 2004 2:50 PM CDT Sam went to Nana's this weekend with Chris and they are fishing. Alec and I stayed home and so far we've been shopping and now we're cleaning. Well, I'm cleaning. Not much new is going on which is always good news.
Tuesday, August 17, 2004 8:36 PM CDT Sorry it's been a while since my last update. We've been kind of busy since we got back from Chicago. Sam hasn't spent one night at home, she's been at Carly's, Aunt Ruthies and Nanas. She'll be home tomorrow, as we have an appt with the endo on Thursday. I took Caitlin to see Ira today (her ortho) and he said her pin is broken so they need to take it out. But she is completely healed also. She'll be having her surgery sometime in September. Wednesday, August 11, 2004 8:16 AM CDT We are getting ready to go to Chicago tomorrow. Lots of laundry to do today, and packing. Sammi is feeling really good, except for constipation, which she has battled her whole life. I don't think she's drinking enough, due to the DDAVP, so I'm not going to make her drink, but just remind her a few times during the day. I have a piece of glass stuck in my foot, so I'm not real thrilled about that. Other than that, there's not much going on. And that's a good thing.
Monday, August 9, 2004 6:48 PM CDT We went to see Dr Sood today, he was so happy with the way Sam is doing and so happy that we got the cyst out with out anymore hormone deficiencies than we have. She will have a followup MRI in about 2 months. She sees the endocrinologist next week. She has to see general surgery to get her broviac out. Hopefully that will be before school starts. She can't participate in gym until the middle of October. She has a little infection at the very beginning of her incision, by her ear. She has a script for an antibiotic. We measured her height, she hasn't grown at all, so I imagine we'll be back on the growth hormone after our endo visit, unless they have some sort of no growth hormone for a year, like they do for tumors. She's doing awesome and we're so looking forward to our trip to Chicago on Thursday. Sunday, August 8, 2004 4:26 PM CDT We drove to pick up Alec and Sam. Alec was getting a little home sick and when we got there, Sam told us she had an open wound on her head from her craniotomy that looked and smelled infected. So we brought her home too. But she was telling me that they had gone out to do some running around and her DDAVP had run out and she had to go to the bathroom. She was waiting in line, with 2 people ahead of her, and knew she wouldn't be able to wait. So she told the 2 people that she had diabetes insipidus and she was wondering if they would let her go ahead of them. Of course, they said yes. How cool is that, she was brave enough to ask that of strangers. Her bravery surprises me every day.
Sunday, August 8, 2004 9:03 AM CDT Everyone who has a child with a brain tumor or cancer knows what I'm talking about. You are given something, it's taken away. When it's given back to you, you hold on to it for all it's worth, doing anything not to lose it again. As we all know, these things can be taken away again. That's what happened to me yesterday. I lost something that had been given back to me. I will treasure the knowledge that this person has grown up to be a happy, healthy, and beautiful woman. I guess that's all I will have. I will always mourn what could have been and frankly, what should have been. I am heartbroken. We were given a beautiful gift and we all threw it away. All of us. Saturday, August 7, 2004 8:07 PM CDT Today has been one of those roller coaster days. The kids, and I mean all the kids, are gone so Chris and I are alone for an entire weekend. I won't go into the bad things, because who wants to dwell on things that are upsetting. But we are having a nice time by ourselves. Thursday, August 5, 2004 12:38 AM CDT We went the the pediatricians today and had her stitches removed, they came out pretty easily after having been in there for 13 days. She had a blood draw to check her electrolytes. SHE WEIGHS 61 1/2 POUNDS, THE MOST SHE'S WEIGHED IN HER ENTIRE LIFE!!!!!!! She's outside playing and having a good time. I'm inside cleaning and not having a good time. Such is life.
Tuesday, August 3, 2004 11:02 PM CDT Sam had a pretty good day today. We were going to ride our bikes up to Stroh's for some ice cream, but she said her legs hurt too much. We're having her electroylytes checked tomorrow and low potassium can cause aches. Her potassium was low a few times at the hospital. She's eating really well and today had to take her DDAVP early, due to breakthrough thirst and urination. She also had a slight fever tonight before we went to bed but as she says, "It's hot out today". Looks like we're gonna get a break in the weather tomorrow. Her fluid pocket is still there, no real change, but she'll get her stitches out tomorrow. Monday, August 2, 2004 10:09 PM CDT Sam is feeling pretty good. She woke up with a nose bleed today, not on the side she's been using for the DDAVP. But other than that, she's doing well. Her back still has a fluid pocket on it. We have appt to see Dr Sood on Monday and hopefully it'll be gone by then. We go see our pediatrician on Wed to get those stitches out and draw some blood to check her electrolytes. And we see the endo on Aug 19. Nik sees his opthamalogist on Aug 10 and Caitlin sees the ortho guy some time in August, I can't remember when. Next Thursday, Nikolaas, Samantha, Carly and I are going to Chicago to see Caitlins show. She's the producer of the entire thing, along with another girl. I'm so proud of her, she's going to be an amazing woman when she grows up. She really misses us, I think. We miss her. Saturday, July 31, 2004 10:55 PM CDT Well, Alec and I got up today, went and got a sign for Sammi's return home and we got the phone call. She's not coming home yet. Even tho she was released by neurosurgery 2 days ago and endocrinology today, the ns that came to see her today wasn't comfortable letting her leave with the ever present fluid pocket on her back. It hasn't gotten any better and sometimes gets worse, depending on if she's retaining fluid from the DI. So we took the sign down and went to visit her. Thanks to the Detroit Tigers, it took us an hour to get there.
Wednesday, July 28, 2004 8:58 AM CDT Well they just took off Sam's TPN and her Broviac is hep-locked so hopefully we're getting closer to getting home. She still needs to work on her eating and she still has a small fluid pocket on her back from the leaking LP shunt. Her hair is growing back and you can hardly see the scar anymore. Her DDAVP control is much better and we're still waiting to get the results of her thyroid levels. And they should be checking her cortisol as soon as she's weaned from the decadron. She's still a bit bruised and she weighed 54.4 lbs yesterday. Tuesday, July 27, 2004 9:26 AM CDT Sam is doing ok, still trying to get the DDAVP, the ADH replacement correct. Last night she slept all night w/o urinating so I hope we're on the right track. She also ate a bit yesterday. I'm sure we'll be home this week, just not sure what day. Sunday, July 25, 2004 10:04 AM CDT I'd like to tell a little story about Samantha. When she was in second grade, they had a field day at her school at the end of the year. One of the last events was a quarter mile run. Samantha lined up with everyone and started running. She was wearing a bandana on her head and it came off. She stopped to pick it up, and therefore started the race in last place. I watched her run around the field, never giving up, trying her hardest. She ran and ran and ended up in 3rd place, only beat by 2 boys, one who runs with his dad everyday. That was when I realized what a determined young daughter I had. She doesn't give up.
Saturday, July 24, 2004 11:22 PM CDT Sam is doing ok, still having some minor problems getting the dosage right on the DDAVP, which replaces the ADH hormone her pituitary gland no long produces. Her face is green today, from bruising and you can always tell what side she slept on by what eye is swollen. Last night she slept on her left side. Chris is staying with her for the weekend, I picked up Alec at Aunt Ruthie and Uncle Mark's house. We only stayed at the hospital for about an hour. Alec has started having a hard time being there. His sister looks sick still and he's been worried about her. I told him today she's going to be ok. I'm not sure if he believes me or not.
Thursday, July 22, 2004 9:49 PM CDT Well, Sam is having her shunt put back in tomorrow morning. And they started the TPN again tonight, she's down to 52.6 pounds. Her face is bruised, mainly on the right side from her cheek up. One of the nurses told me that Dr Sood braids the girls hair in the OR to give him an idea about where to cut, as to not mess up the hair line. I think that's kind of cool. She's still having some minor problems with the diabetes insipidus. (mary alice, tell me if this is normal). Shaking, excess urination and drinking, and vomiting, in the evening about 4 hours before she gets her evening dose of the vasopressin. I wonder if she needs more during the day for some reason. We're hoping to be home early next week. Wednesday, July 21, 2004 9:31 AM CDT hello all. it's caitlin. just did a little updating, made samantha look more like a human on the main picture, rather than a troll. what with those red eyes.
Wednesday, July 21, 2004 0:01 AM CDT Well Sam woke up today looking like the loser of a fight with Rocky Balboa. But the swelling got a lot better in the afternoon and her mood got better as well. Tonight she was talking a mile a minute and laughing and walking and all that good stuff. But they're still fidgeting with her DDAVP medication and she's gone from urinating once in fifteen hours to urinating about 2 times an hour and her urine is clear, like water. So I hope they give her a bit of the medication tonight, otherwise she's gonna get no sleep. She's also drinking a lot.
Monday, July 19, 2004 11:19 AM CDT We're out of ICU and on our way back to Room 582. Sam is taking vasopressin for Diabetes Insipidus, but she's on a real small dose so we're happy about that. All her other hormones, cept the growth hormone, appear to be normal. As soon as we get the pathology report, I'll update. Sam looks like a lion, the bridge of her nose is swollen and so are her eyes. And it looks like she has a bloody headband across the top of her head. But she's beautiful. And I've told her that several times today.
Friday, July 16, 2004 12:38 AM CDT Everything went great. He was able to remove the entire tumor, says it looks like craniopharyngioma. It didn't cross over her pituitary stalk so that was good too. She'll be in ICU for a few days but I'll update as soon as I can. Thank God. Thursday, July 15, 2004 7:58 AM CDT Today is not Thursday, it's Decisionday..... Dr Sood came in this morning and said he wants to go in and take a look at her tumor, possibly biopsy it. Last night we were talking to Sam about what had happened earlier and she said she wants a biopsy. She said she can handle the hormone replacement and is willing to take the chance of blindness, due to the tumor location!!!!! She was so sure of this, I was surprised. How many kids say "please cut my head open"? She's just so sick of being sick that she doesn't care what they have to do to make her better. She is still not really eating and her weight keeps fluctuating. Yesterday she was 55 lbs. So we have to decide if we want to do this or not. It's by far the toughest decision we've ever had to make. The big thing about the biopsy is that we might find it's something easily treatable. Germinoma is easily treatable with radiation and histiocytosis is treatable with chemo. It was an easy decision for Sam tho, doesn't that mean something???? Wednesday, July 14, 2004 8:31 AM CDT We got some bad news this morning. Sammi's tumor is bigger and is no longer encapsulated. It's diffuse or spreading out. We, or I should say she, will be getting a craniotomy done to biopsy the tumor and then we'll go from there.
Tuesday, July 13, 2004 9:18 AM CDT Our Endo guy and the Neurosurgeon are both back at work!!! They re-ran her hormone levels, because the other night she started urinating a great deal and it was very dilute. But her lab results don't show that she has DI. We're keeping an eye on it tho. Her shunt pressure is back to zero, as Dr Sood wants to get rid of the fluid pocket in her back. We are getting an MRI today at 1pm. Mary Alice, I'm going to call you in a few mins and thanks to everyone who has signed Sam's guestbook. I can't access my email here but thank you Tami, I'm sorry about missing your daughters graduation party, but that was just about when Sam started getting sick. I will get a card in the mail just as soon as I can.
Sunday, July 11, 2004 7:15 AM CDT Sam is feeling pretty good, her drain is still set at 25 so we haven't made any progress there, but she is feeling better. Dr Sood will be back tomorrow so we'll be making some important decisions.
Saturday, July 10, 2004 5:12 PM CDT Mo passed away this morning at 7:10 am and Katherine is slipping away. This is a very sad day. Friday, July 9, 2004 4:58 PM CDT Chris is staying at the hospital with Sammi tonight, and I'm going to stay home with Alec, who needs his mommy and Caitlin, who doesn't. (She's 16!!!) Thursday, July 8, 2004 11:37 AM CDT Sam is up to 54.8 pounds and is doing pretty well. They put her pressure up to 20 and it seems to be a bit too much, she gets headaches when she gets up. Her appetite still pretty much sux but she's getting there. Our endo is sick and neurosurgeon is out of town until Monday. So as soon as we know anything, we'll let you know.
Wednesday, July 7, 2004 9:17 AM CDT Sam's doing better, they've increased the TPN and lipids so hopefully she'll start gaining some weight soon. We got some interesting info from a radiation oncologist down at St Judes. Not good, but interesting. So that's something we're working on. I'll update more after I talk to him. Monday, July 5, 2004 1:38 PM CDT Quick update, we're going to be at the hospital for at least 2 weeks, Doc wants to get Sam stronger and he says she's spitting out a lot of csf, so she still may need the shunt. She has a central line in, so no more pokes. She met a new friend, a little girl her age who has cystic fibrosis so she seems happy to have met someone her age who isn't bed bound. She's feeling a bit better. Will update when i can. Saturday, July 3, 2004 10:12 PM CDT I lost a couple of entries. Sam is in the hospital again. She was badly dehydrated and they decided to take out her shunt and see if maybe she doesn't need it anymore. Her third surgery this week will be done tomorrow morning, to put in a central line so they don't have to keep poking her. She's on TPN, which I think stands for Total Parietal Nutrition. She has lost 8 lbs in the last month, 5 in the last week alone. The TPN is very hard on veins so they're doing the central line so she doesn't have to be poked continually. She also had a break in her EVD drain line so they had to mess around with that to fix the line and she basically cried for about 3 hours straight this afternoon. Chris is staying with her tonight so I came home and instantly went to sleep. Then I got up, did some laundry, pulled some weeds, watered some flowers, ate some oreos and took a shower. I am replenished and ready to go back into the battlefield tomorrow. I really have hope that this is a good thing for her. If we can get rid of the shunt, we won't have to worry about every little headache etc. And we will be going to Cedar Point so she can ride her roller coasters. She has been very brave. Even tho she knew that they were going to have to change her IV, she told me it was hurting and boy was it swollen. And when her drain started leaking, she told me. I told the nurse, if it had been me as a child, they would be chasing me around the room and I would have kept that IV in my arm til it fell off (my arm that is!!).
Saturday, July 3, 2004 9:52 AM CDT Well we got down to Childrens yesterday and they said she was badly dehydrated and has lost 8 lbs, 5 in the last week alone. So they decided to take out her shunt, the thinking is that maybe she doesn't need it anymore. They are also feeding her TPN thru her iv. Her tubing from the EVD started leaking so they fixed that up, she was not happy. I think we're going to be here at least thru Tues. If she doesn't need her shunt anymore, I think that will go a long way to making her feel better and we can get on with our lives. How many times have I said that tho??? I am praying that this is the last time.
Friday, July 2, 2004 7:27 AM CDT I thought I typed in a new entry last night, but apparently it didn't make it all the way in cyberland. Sam was still throwing up yesterday, I took her to her pediatrician and she said she had trace ketones in her urine. She prescribed her a suppository for nausea but it really didn't seem to work. Dr Sabal and I talked about our frustration of not getting phone calls back,etc and she said she can tell by the way Dr Sood talks about Sam that he really cares for her, I know that too. She thinks they just don't know what to say to us. They're out of ideas. I sent an email to St Judes brain tumor team last night, but I don't think they'll see her w/o a diagnosis. The endocrinologist is out of town until July 5. We're really frustrated
Wednesday, June 30, 2004 10:22 PM CDT Well, Sam slept 12 hours last night, woke up for about an hour then slept for another 3 hours. Then she started puking again. She is still not eating, says she's nauseated. We weighed her tonight, if our scale is right, she's lost 6 pounds in 5 days. She's down to 52 pounds. We called the neurosurgeon and she said that yes, her tumor is in an area that can affect her eating. I'm going to call St Jude's tomorrow and ask the Dr that last saw her scans to walk them down to Dr Merchant, the head of radiation oncology and see if they will take a quick look at them. I'm also going to go to Childrens and get 2 more copies of mri's and send one to a doc at Johns Hopkins and one to a Doc at Cedar Sinai in LA. I don't know what else to do. Tuesday, June 29, 2004 9:54 PM CDT We're home. The psychiatrist at the hospital told us her symptoms are not from depression. The endocrinologist is on a mission to help her feel better. Her headaches are gone, she just feels nauseated but I think that's because the girl hasn't had a decent meal in days. The endo is worried about her not eating. He says he doesn't like watching her waste away. Neither do we. We got a really nice email from a Doc at St Judes, who agrees we're doing the right thing by not operating, he says he doesn't think it's craniopharyngioma, it is acting like histiocytosis.
Monday, June 28, 2004 10:27 AM CDT Caitlin, I think that's the best journal entry we've had so far. Thank you!!!! Sunday, June 27, 2004 6:44 AM CDT We're still home, she's still puking....nuff said.
Saturday, June 26, 2004 9:29 AM CDT Yesterday was just one of those days. I picked Sam up at Nana's and she was feeling so-so. We went to the mall with Rachel and had fun. Then we got home and she started feeling worse, even Rachel got in on the fun and got a headache and spiked a fever. After Rachels dad picked her up, I called the neurosurgeons office again and was told he was out of the office until July 11. Needless to say I wasn't happy, I've been sitting around all week waiting for him to call and he's not even in the office. I called the Endocrinologist, who also was not happy that he had been waiting for a call also. He said that he had Sam's prolactin confused with someone elses and that he was mistaken that hers was low (I don't even think we've had that tested). I told him she still was not feeling well and he suggested that I take her to the ER, so I did. The pediatrician that first looked at her said her left optic nerve looked like it was swollen. 7 hours later, the neurosurgical nurse practitioner said it looked fine and the ped looked at it again and said, oh it looks fine. So we got home around 2am. They did a CT scan which showed no changes from her last one in Feb and xrayed her shunt, just to be sure. So the nurse came in and actually had a nice conversation with Sam, told her that she was not in any danger of any sudden tumor growth or anything bad happening so to enjoy Texas and not worry about that little "thing" in her head. I told Sam that we have nothing to worry about for the next 7 days. We are going to a wedding reception tonight, she's never been to a formal wedding before so we're excited about that. Chris and Alec went up north for a little R&R, as he probably won't get any time off this summer. Nik is happily bussing tables at a restaurant near his Grandmothers cottage and Caitlin is in Chicago, at an orientation for the college course she's taking in July.
Wednesday, June 23, 2004 10:26 PM CDT We had a nice, but long day today. Alec had his first day of bowling on his league, he bowled great. Then we raced out to a very cool mall I've never been to, to visit with Beth, her mom Jenni and her little brother Mikey. Beth is a medulloblastoma survivor. We met her thru a guy I worked with (when I had a job and was a valuable member of society). We are treated at the same hospital and have the same ns, so we've visited at the hospital. The time we went to visit Beth she was sleeping and the time they came to visit Sam she was recovering from surgery. So today, they got to be two girls at the mall. We ate at Rain Forest Cafe, went to see a funny movie, White Chicks, and then went to an arcade. They had a good time and I was glad we finally had time to relax and just watch the girls enjoy themselves.
Monday, June 21, 2004 12:27 AM CDT Well, the family had a nice time at Nana's. On Thursday night, Sam's pupils were totally different sizes. It stopped after a little while. Then we had the bathroom fiasco. I noticed last night that her pupils were huge, even in bright light. And this morning I shined a light in them and they got smaller but then slowly got bigger again, so I talked to one of the nurses in the ns clinic and I'm waiting for them to call me back. My concern is that maybe the tumor has gotten bigger since she's on the growth hormone, it's not normally given to kids with active neoplasia, but I think since her tumor has basically been the same size for almost a year, they felt safe giving it to her. I'll update if we find out anything today. Friday, June 18, 2004 9:08 PM CDT Hello all...today was a very good day, with a bit of a scare. Sam has been having some cramping in the area of her tubing in the front, near her navel. And with her not having the greatest of weeks, I was on mom watch for any symptom. She was complaining all morning that her tubing was cramping. But we were at Greenfield Village with Alec and Rachel and she didn't want to leave. After a little while, I looked at her belly and it looked really bloated, she's a teeny little thing and it really was sticking out. I told her she looked bloated to me and she said that always happens when she eats or drinks (she had 1/2 a hotdog) and I said I don't think so. So after a visit to the restroom, she came out, said she felt much better and lo and behold, her tummy was as flat as ever. Then she tells me she hadn't gone to the bathroom in about 7 hours, since like 5:30 am. I think I bonked her on the head and told her to never scare me like that again. Chris and I were making plans for the ER and the next thing I know, my daughter came out of the bathroom a new girl. Lord almighty, the fun just never ends. Chris, Alec and Sammi went to spend the weekend with Nana so that Caitlin and I can spend some quality time together. So we've been arguing and hugging and fighting and laughing. The usual with a 16 year old girl. We found a ceramic painting place in town that's been there for over a year. I've never seen it before, I told the owner I should try looking at some of the side streets once in a while. Wyandotte is an awesome little town, right on the Detroit River and we live close enough to the river to see Canada and hear the big ocean boats going by. It's cool. Thursday, June 17, 2004 9:48 PM CDT Today she was feeling a bit better, but she scared me around dinner time. Her pupils are usually different sizes, the right usually a bit bigger than the left. But today there was a big noticable difference. Her head felt better and she was eating a lot better. I called the ns office and they said it sounded like we could wait until tomorrow to bring her in. So depending on how she feels, we're gonna wait til tomorrow. Wednesday, June 16, 2004 9:14 PM CDT Caitlin added a new picture of herself and then one of Sam on the home page but that one isn't working yet, so take a look!!!!! Cait promises me she'll fix it tomorrow.
Tuesday, June 15, 2004 10:35 PM CDT ........DETROIT PISTONS RULE....
Sunday, June 13, 2004 10:01 PM CDT Well we had a good weekend and baby Calvin has been officially made part of Gods family. He did really well and looked really cute in the outfit made specially for him by Grandma Diane. Nikolaas surprised us by coming home for the weekend and so he went to Ohio with us. It was a nice weekend all around. Sam has been feeling a bit better so I'm happy about that. Friday, June 11, 2004 10:21 PM CDT Took Caitlin to Dr Zaltz today and he said her collar bone is not fully healed yet so no surgery as of yet. We just love Dr Zaltz, or as Caitlin calls him, Ira.
Thursday, June 10, 2004 2:45 PM CDT Sammi has not been feeling well at all today, she got her stitches out with no problem and I thought that's why she didn't feel well. But we're home and she's still laying on the couch. Schools over and she will be promoted to the 6th grade. We just have to work on math over the summer. We got an answer from Dr Allen on her last MRI and he said one of his neuroradiologists thought it might be ectopic posterior pituitary which means normal tissue in an abnormal area. But once again, I've decided that we won't know what it is unless they have to take it out so I'm not going to worry about what it is. We're going to try and just treat this summer like any other, and besides giving her the shot everyday, we're not going to treat her like a sick kid. We're going to Texas in 2 weeks and she's going to camp for a week and it's going to be a good summer. I have spoken!!!!!
Monday, June 7, 2004 9:25 PM CDT The nicest thing happened to me today. Our neighbor Rachel, who is 8 going on 30, asked me if I would be her second mom. Of course I said yes!!!! She and Sammi are very good friends and Rachel and her 2 little sisters have really stuck by Sam in the last year. Her parents have picked up Alec at school when Sam was in the hospital and I'm just very glad that they are our neighbors.
Saturday, June 5, 2004 9:48 PM CDT Well, we got home last night, it only took the ns nurses about 5 hours to discharge her. Alec and I came home early and made Sammi a sign. She liked it and instantly went over to her friend Rachels house. We didn't really find out anything from this icp monitor. At least we know her shunt is working. And her scar is a lot bigger than I thought it would be. But she's wearing one of the hats that she got from her friend Beth last year when we thought she was having this surgery. She looks very cute and we're glad to be home. Friday, June 4, 2004 10:51 AM CDT Hi, we should be going home later today, she's had her usual problems with nausea and vomiting after anesthesia. Her pressures are normal so we still don't know why she feels so crappy but they put her on a different anti-depressant that won't make her so tired. Will update more when we get home. Wednesday, June 2, 2004 7:07 PM CDT this is caitlin, because my mom is still in the hospital. she called me twice to do this, but i was sleeping. well anyways, sam is doing as well as can be expected. a lot of sleeping. her pressure(s?) have been a bit low, so what the doctors think seems to be coming true. unfortunately, i hate no idea what that means. anyways, my mom doesn't know when she'll be coming home. but i know they're trying. keep them in your prayers you guys! Monday, May 31, 2004 10:51 PM CDT The most amazing thing has just happened. 23 years ago, my sister Mary gave her 1 year old daughter up for adoption. Mary was only 16 and decided the best thing for Kelli was to let someone else raise her. Kelli just turned 24 on the 25th of May. We think we found her, or more accurately, she found us. I've already spoken to her and we're going to meet somewhere tomorrow. Unfortunately my sister now lives in Mexico and so I don't know how quick she can get up here or if she can at all. My God, this is something we've all been waiting for. I just wish my mom was here to see it. I'm going to have to go thru all my pictures and find some to bring to her. Her name is Katie now. Sunday, May 30, 2004 8:17 AM CDT Sam is finally feeling better and the shots are going better. She still wimpers but she hasn't screamed in 2 days. When the nurse was here teaching us how to give the shots, she told Sam that her feet and hands would probably grow first. We went to buy her a new pair of sandles, she's worn her other ones for about 2 years. She's been wearing the same size so she says we better buy a bigger size in case her feet start growing. So she's in a size 1 now.
Thursday, May 27, 2004 9:09 PM CDT Well, it's been a long couple of days. Sam has felt really bad since Wednesday. I think it's probably mostly this cold she has. A girl in one of her classes is at U of M hospital with meningitis. And one of her best friends, Nathan, may have it. That's what started all this for us last year, I just hope Reagan and Nathan are ok when all this is over.
Wednesday, May 26, 2004 9:50 AM CDT Well, last night at about 4am, Sammi woke up with a stuffy nose. So surgery has been postponed until next Wednesday, June 2. Will write more later. Tuesday, May 25, 2004 10:15 PM CDT The shots are still not going well, I'm going to call the nurse tomorrow and see if she has any ideas or maybe she needs to come out for more training. Monday, May 24, 2004 7:57 AM CDT Yesterday was a pretty good day, we went to the little carnival they were having in town and Sam got to go on some rides. Then we did the shot, it wasn't the greatest, little bruise but she said I'm pushing the button that pushes in the medicine too fast. So I'll keep an eye on that tonight. We have our appt with the ns today, so hopefully we'll get some good info and find that her spinal MRI was negative. I'm sure it was, we just did this to verify there was nothing going on there. I'll update when we get back.
Saturday, May 22, 2004 7:44 AM CDT Yesterdays shot went better. She still screamed (I think she's really really sensitive to these) but she let me hold her right away and she was fine w/i about 10 mins. So we're making progress. I don't ordinarily pray out loud, I'm not comfortable doing that. But yesterday in the kitchen, I prayed out loud that I wouldn't hurt her again. And I didn't. No bruise, no slicing of skin. Just a little girl getting a shot. (Mary Alice, we did get the pen).
Friday, May 21, 2004 7:08 AM CDT Yesterday was just one of those days that you'd rather forget. Sam had her spinal MRI. They told us they would sedate her if she wanted it, since the test is a lot longer. Well she was so quiet yesterday, until a little boy in front of us stopped the revolving door and hit his head. She thought that was funny. He didn't remotely hurt himself, but he was very funny and that really cheered her up. So when we got down there, she told them she wanted to go to sleep. They gave her 5 mgs of valium. I thought she was sleeping but she told me later, she was just trying to go to sleep. They came in to get her and she told them she wanted something to put her to sleep. I told them also. They said, "let's see how it goes, she'll probably go to sleep.". This was my first MRI, Chris usually goes in with her. If I had known how fricking loud it was, I would have insisted they put her to sleep. I should have insisted anyway, it's what she wanted, she's old enough to know what she needs. I couldn't believe how loud it was. Imagine laying in a tube and having a jackhammer and a motorcycle revving above you. That's about how loud it was. I'm pissed at myself for not insisting. What is it about walking into a hospital that turns me into a quivering mess? Wednesday, May 19, 2004 9:24 PM CDT Well, the first shot is finally over. She did pretty well, she did cry but she stayed still and didn't move away. I did pretty good too, the nurse said but I felt horrible. I know it'll get easier. She did really well, getting everything ready, mixing the meds, sterilizing the needles etc. She looked like a little doctor. Tomorrow is her spinal MRI. Tuesday, May 18, 2004 10:41 PM CDT Well Sam has been in a better mood. I asked her yesterday what was wrong on Sunday and she said she was just in a bad mood. I guess that happens to everyone. But she's still not feeling good. Nauseated, headachy, chest pain. Her teacher could tell she didn't feel good today and only stayed for 30 mins. Her spinal MRI is on Thursday. And we should be starting the shots tomorrow. We'll get the supplies hopefully in the morning and then the nurse will come over and show us how to do it. Sunday, May 16, 2004 11:06 PM CDT Today has been a long day. Alec and I played putt-putt and had a lot of fun. Then we met Sammi, Chris and Nana at Cracker Barrel. Sam was basically non communicative. So I told Chris that maybe we shouldn't be doing what we always do. "what's wrong, does something hurt?". She went out to play when we got home. I took a bit of a nap, but she has been so so quiet today. I got her giggling, telling her about some funny things that happened to Alec and I this weekend, but then 2 seconds later she was yelling at me cuz i accidently touched her. So I'm not sure whats going on with her. I will give her time to open up, she usually does. Saturday, May 15, 2004 11:17 PM CDT We met Sam and Nana at the antique show and Sam is still feeling crappy. She's tired, and her head hurts when she shakes it. So Chris went with her and Nana back to Nana's house and they're gonna hit another antique show tomorrow in Saline. Alec and I will meet them tomorrow for dinner and bring Chris and Sam home. Friday, May 14, 2004 8:56 PM CDT Well, it was a quiet day today. Sam is at Nana's and they did their gift cart thing. Sam got a headache, so they had to leave a bit early. Tomorrow we're meeting her and Nana at Greenfield Village to partake in an antique show. Thursday, May 13, 2004 10:01 PM CDT Dr Sood called Chris today, of course when he was in a part of the lab where he can't receive phone calls. Dr Sood left a message that the tumor hasn't grown, which we knew. So Chris made an appt for next Monday, so we can go in there and actually talk to him. We still need to know if it's ok to start the growth hormone so I'm going to send him an email. I did send the scans to the dr at St Judes to have him take a look, so he'll get those tomorrow. Thursday, May 13, 2004 9:04 AM CDT Still no word. But we're excited about today, Calvin the baby is coming over for us to babysit. Wednesday, May 12, 2004 8:17 AM CDT We still have not heard from the neurosurgeon. Chris left 2 messages yesterday, one on Monday and one on Friday.
Monday, May 10, 2004 3:16 PM CDT Well, according to the mri on Friday, the tumor is not any bigger. That's what the last 2 reports have said, even tho Dr Sood and Dr Allen both say it is a bit bigger. So I guess this is going to set us up for 3 more months of waiting for another MRI. This is frustrating. Hopefully when Dr Sood calls today, we can figure out a way to get her to school next year. oy vey....Ok I'll write more later...
Saturday, May 8, 2004 7:04 PM CDT I think I'm crazy. I rented 2 movies from Blockbuster, 2 movies that don't involve mutant turtles or pretty ponies and other such child stuff. But I can't get off the computer, I might discover something about Sam's tumor or someone might send me an email about it or something..... I've been looking at her mri's all weekend, trying to tell if the tumor is bigger. Is it bending the optic chiasm or am I just paranoid? Why is Caitlin blowing on my hair? (she's waiting for her friends to pick her up and she's basically driving me crazy). Caitlin is going to Novi for the night and coming home early tomorrow. Nik is at work, I have to pick him up at 11:30. Sammi and Chris are staying at Nana's for one more night. She had fun at Luke's party but left early cuz she had a bad headache. So it's another quiet night for Alec and I. Ok not so quiet, his friend DJ might spend the night. He and I went to the Salvation Army today to help pack up canned goods collected by the US postal service in Wyandotte. I think at least the whole state did it, maybe the country, not sure. So he was very tired, Alec isn't the most energetic child in the world. Friday, May 7, 2004 6:46 PM CDT Well today was another day of finding out nothing. Dr is out of the office til Monday and the results were not posted. I did go down there to get my CD's of the MRI and it looks a bit bigger to me, it looks like it's bending the optic chiasm again, but I can't really tell for sure. I wish I had another computer so I could look at two at once. Oh wait, I could use Nik's computer....Ok, I'm going to go do that. Sam is at Nana's and I'm staying home with Alec, doing the boy scout thing tomorrow (sorry Ruthie, I'll call you tomorrow). Caitlin is downtown with friends and Nik is at work. Caitlin saw the orthopaedic surgeon today and he says her collar bone is not completely healed yet. So we go back in 5 weeks and then we'll probably be able to figure out a date for surgery to take the pin out. I figured out last year I spent 30 complete days in the hospital between March, 2003 and March, 2004. That's about 30 too many. Caitlin only accounted for 4 of those.
Thursday, May 6, 2004 10:30 PM CDT Well, the brain MRI is over. We got there at about 5:30 and at 6 they came in and said they were an hour behind. She said it would be about 8 before they could get to us, so I remarked, "so you're 2 hours behind". She didn't really answer. I was not trying to be snotty, but jeez, I can add. So anyway, they did the MRI. She did well. I asked for a copy and she gave me the films, not the CD. So I'll probably go back tomorrow and get the CD's so I can mail them to Dr Allen. Wednesday, May 5, 2004 10:58 PM CDT Sam has just not been feeling well. She's nauseated and having headaches again. She's doing well in her homebound studies. She and I went to the art institute today and she didn't feel well, so we saw the Monet, and left. She asked me if she was going to die. First I gave her the stupid answer and said "everyone dies". Then I got my head out of my a** and told her that I really didn't think so. Obviously we don't know yet, but I really don't think this is going to be life threatening. Like Dr Sood said, it's life altering, probably not life threatening. I told her I wanted grandchildren and she said she could promise one grandchild. She said she will give birth to one baby and adopt more. So I'm glad we got that settled. I will have at least 1 grandchild. I have four kids, was planning on at least 10 grandkids....
Wednesday, May 5, 2004 7:14 AM CDT I feel better today. But it's early!!!!!! Tuesday, May 4, 2004 9:40 PM CDT For some reason, today has just been a really bad day. I am sad, pissed, depressed and sick in my heart. We didn't get any bad news or anything today, I don't know why I'm like this. So far, her blood tests have been normal and her body survey came back normal. So the histiocytosis X has probably been ruled out. She would have lesions on her bones, I guess. The blood tests being normal is good, if she has a germ cell tumor and the blood and csf are normal then it would most likely be a pure germinoma and those are very treatable with radiation (thanks for explaining that again, Mary Alice, I feel like a dunce sometimes). Sunday, May 2, 2004 10:07 PM CDT Today Samantha and Chris spent the day at Aunt Ruthies house, helping Nana babysit. Nik came home from CMU at about 4pm and Caitlin was at church. So Alec and I got to spend the entire day together, alone. He informed me as I was going to bed, that we had a "very good" day. We watched movies together and played Lord of the Rings Monopoly. He's beating me so far, we'll try and finish the game tomorrow. Saturday, May 1, 2004 10:32 AM CDT On Friday, Sammi and I went down to Childrens for her blood work, spinal fluid tap and skeletal survey. The Emla cream worked wonders, no tears no fears. The xray took a while, they took about 16 xrays of her entire body. Her brain MRI is next Thursday and the spinal MRI is on May 20th.
Thursday, April 29, 2004 6:03 AM CDT Yesterday was an ok day. Sam had a headache in the afternoon, she said they feel like pressure in her head. Alec, Sam and I went for a walk, to get some ice cream. Alec got his badges at Cub Scouts, so he was very proud and happy. Tuesday, April 27, 2004 11:15 PM CDT Today was a pretty good day. Samantha's teacher was sick today so another teacher came over for her homebound services. That was nice of her, to take time out for Sammi.
Monday, April 26, 2004 8:04 PM CDT Ok here's the deal. Dr Allen in New York, is leaning toward her tumor being a germinoma. They are highly treatable. Dr Sood thinks it's a Rathke's cyst or Craniopharyngioma. The Rathke's is pretty treatable, the cranios can be very problematic. So the plan is to do brain and spinal mri's, test her csf for tumor markers, do a bone study, which is just xrays of her entire body to rule out the hystiocytosis. Sunday, April 25, 2004 2:24 PM CDT We got home at about 2pm today. We had a nice weekend, the weather wasn't the greatest but we all had a lot of fun swimming and sitting in the hot tub. We drove to Alpena (Sammi pronounced it Al-penya) so now it will be pronounced that way for all time in the Robertson household. All in all it was a nice weekend. I checked my email and I did get a response from Dr Allen at Beth Israel. He tells me that he did talk to our NS and they had a long discussion and came up with a plan of action. Unfortunately when Dr Sood tried to call me on Friday, I was at the grocery store and just missed his call by mere microseconds. I called him instantly back and was told he had just left. I know how busy he is but couldn't God have kept him in that office for 30 more seconds????? He and Dr Sood feel that she may have hystiocytosis x. I'm not sure what that is. I am having my crack internet team (Mary Alice and Loice) assist me in my search. Dr Allen's email refers to a bone survey she will need, I guess to see if there is any bone involvement, apparently this can get into the bone.
Thursday, April 22, 2004 10:01 PM CDT We're going out of town this weekend, so I probably won't be able to update. We're going to Oscoda for a little R&R. Sam is still not feeling great, she says her head is starting to hurt again, she says it's on the top of her head now, I think it's just pressure changes in her shunt from getting up in the morning. She's also been nauseated a lot. But on the good side, she says she's hungry all the time now, the megace must finally be working. Wednesday, April 21, 2004 9:34 PM CDT In re-reading my entry from yesterday, I hope no one got the impression I'm upset with anyone at Sam's school. Yesterdays entry was pure frustration. Chris talked to her principal today and I think we've got a handle on this. We're going to take her to school this week if she feels like it, otherwise we're just going to do homebound from now til end of year. That way everyone has a plan that we can stick to and we all have the same goal, to get Sam to 6th grade next year. Tuesday, April 20, 2004 10:11 PM CDT Well, Sammi didn't make it to school today and that caused a bit of an uproar so we have no idea what her status is. Apparently she can't go to school if she's on homebound school. Honestly, I have no idea what to do. If she starts going to school and gets sick they can't do homebound. If she feels better, it seems like we need to keep her home, just in case she gets sick again. This has been the most frustrating part of this whole thing, the school thing. It doesn't seem like it should be so complicated. I should be more worried about her health. Now I have to worry about if she's going to have to repeat 5th grade. This is crap. She's too smart for that. Monday, April 19, 2004 9:08 PM CDT Good news today. Sam went to school for a half day. And she wants to go tomorrow for full day. She's got lots of homework, but we're going to do our best to make sure she's ready for 6th grade. We may have to get her a tutor for the summer, especially in math. All the kids seemed happy to see her and she said everything went well, so hopefully we're on the way to going back to school full time.
Saturday, April 17, 2004 9:23 PM CDT Today was a good day, we went to Greenfield Village and met my sister and her family there. Calvin the baby was very glad to see us. Sam got tired so we came home a little early but her and Alec are now at the drive-in with our neighbors, so Chris and I actually walked into town, had a nice dinner and walked by the river. It was a nice night. Nik and Caitlin went to Central for the weekend, so I'm going to pick them up tomorrow. Friday, April 16, 2004 6:56 AM CDT Well, we're home. Got in the car and the battery was completely dead. I guess we left the dome light on. Chris' co-worker, Michael was kind enough to leave the office at 0600 and drive over to the train station to give us a jump. I knew there was a reason Chris took the job in Toledo!!!! Well we saw Dr Jeffrey Allen at Beth Israel Hospital in NYC. First of all I would like to thank Mary Alice Dorschel for referring us there. She has a become a great friend and guidance counselor for me as we are trying to figure out what to do. I would also like to thank Adam and Jose at the 5th floor playroom at the hospital. They spent a couple of hours playing with Sam and entertaining her while Dr Allen and I talked and made copies and looked at MRI's. A big thank you to Nana and Aunt Ruth for watching Alec all week. Thanks to Chris for being supportive and not being too upset that he couldn't go. And a big fat thank you to Nikolaas for leaving his computer stuff all over my bed so when I got home from the very tiring trip, I had to remove and take apart his whole computer...Love You Nik. And last but not least, thank you to Dr Allen for seeing us a day early, we showed up on the wrong day!!! Monday, April 12, 2004 6:03 PM CDT Samantha has had another good day today, she was skipping, humming and generally being a normal little girl. I have been so happy this week, seeing how much better she feels. We are on our way to New York, we'll be leaving around midnight tonight from Toledo and we'll get there around 3pm tomorrow. Wish us luck and I'll update as soon as I can. We're bringing the laptop with us, so I might be able to from New York. Friday, April 9, 2004 11:49 PM CDT Sam had another good day today, she played outside all day with her best friends Carly and Rachel. She was like her old self. It was so good to see. Maybe these meds are working. I just hope we're on our way to getting back to normal. Chris and I have both noticed she looks different, better.
Thursday, April 8, 2004 10:17 PM CDT www.caringbridge.org/page/jakegriffin Wednesday, April 7, 2004 7:07 AM CDT Well it looks like we're going to New York next week for another "second opinion". The docs name is Jeffrey Allen and he was recommended to us by Mary Alice, Lizzie's mom. She says he just "loves" this area of the brain. He's at Beth Israel Hospital in Manhatten. Monday, April 5, 2004 7:48 AM CDT I'm just sitting here filing for unemployment. Apparently I got laid off last week??? It's all a blur. Yesterday we went to Chris' moms house for the day, Samantha loves going over there. Nana's house is a peaceful place for her. She threw up before we left the house, no idea why. She also had some really bad shoulder and chest pain yesterday, she was crying and uncomfortable for about 45 mins, then the meds kicked in and she felt better. I had to give her another pill around 11pm, she said it was starting to hurt again. We have an appt with her pediatrician today at 11:30 to see if we can get the migraine meds started and get her back in school. Dr Frim also mentioned starting her on megace to get her appetite going again. It's an appetite stimulant that kids on chemo take. Saturday, April 3, 2004 11:08 AM CST Well we returned from Chicago last night around 1am. We had a really good time, got to go to the aquarium, which we've never done before. And lots of visits to the American Girl store. God I wish I had come up with that idea!!!!
Tuesday, March 30, 2004 0:05 AM CST This has been a really good day and a really bad day. I'll get the bad stuff out of the way first. I did get laid off today, our vote was not passed. I had to leave work, I couldn't breathe in that building for one more second. But my bosses and co-workers were very understanding and let me leave. I will miss my job and the people I worked with. So, on to the good news.
Sunday, March 28, 2004 9:07 PM CST Well, Sam is still at Nana's, spending the night with her little cousin, Lilly. She had quite a bad headache earlier, thank God for Tylenol #3. They're always on the left side of the front of her forehead. Her tumor is on the left side of the pituitary stalk, I wonder if that's why the headaches are on that side. Chris, Sam, Alec and Nana played mini golf today and I hear that Nana "kicked butt". Caitlin and I went to the "The Passion of The Christ" and it was a very awesome movie. How people could eat popcorn during that movie is something I'll never understand. Tomorrow is the appt with the neurosurgeon, so wish us luck and I'll update tomorrow night. My last night of work??? We shall find out. Saturday, March 27, 2004 11:14 PM CST Welcome to Sammi's new web site. I thought this might be easier for people to keep up with what is going on with Samantha, especially people from RTPD (going to miss you all!!)
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