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Saturday, September 18, 2010 11:48 AM CDT

Added new pictures from Chad (Zoie's Uncle) and Dana's Wedding.

Will update more later


Saturday, September 18, 2010 11:48 AM CDT

Added new pictures from Chad (Zoie's Uncle) and Dana's Wedding.

Will update more later


Thursday, July 22, 2010 10:40 AM CDT

Oh My....How time gets away from you. It has been forever.

I have been very busy with 3 wonderfull boys. I don't have time for anything. I am loving my boys. I would of never thought in a million years we would have 4 kids. It took so long to have Zoie and then bam three in a row.
We are doing well. Travis is working alot. He just got a new truck and loving it. I am staying home and raising my babies. Mason is getting so big he is going to be 4 already. I remember when he was born I kept telling everyone I just wanted him to be 4. I guess just so I knew I wasn't going to lose him. He is a clown if he can get you to laugh that's it, he's not stopping. He loves his brothers like crazy. I don't know what I would do without his help. Memphis is big,short and bad. He gives me a run for my money. I know I will be at school everyday when he goes. He is the bully and moma's boy. Mr. Shelby is getting fat. He likes to eat. He is already 6 months old. Boy how time filies when your having fun.. I am doing well. Some days I think I'm going crazy but Mom,Dana,and Travis always help me. It gets alittle rough. Zoie's heaven birthday just passed. 6 years already god it seems like yesterday. Travis and I are going away next weekend. We have been married 17 years. Yeah I know that's along time. We have not gone away without kids since Zoie passed away. It will be a nice little getaway but boy what will I do without my boys.

Troilynn will try to update with pic. of the boys soon and you can also check out Zoie's face book page. It's Zoie's angels. For those we wrote thank you. I don't have internet at home and it's hard to get on line somewhere with the boys. I also don't have an email right now sorry. I know I must be like the only person left in this world without an email. We are behind times. We will catch up on day..

thank you for checking on us. We love you all...

chastity


Tuesday, January 19, 2010 6:54 AM CST

Good morning,

I am updating this page with good news ---- Chastity and Travis had a new bundle of joy delivered into their clan last night at 10:55 p.m. Shelby James came into this world weighing 7 lbs, 8 ozs and 19 inches long. Both baby and mom are doing well.

Thanks for all of your prayers and support.

I will update more later.

Thanks

Troilynn


Tuesday, December 8, 2009 4:18 PM CST

Good afternoon,

We would like to take this time to say a BIG THANK YOU to everyone who donated or helped make this years trip to the Ronald McDonald House to deliver supplies and cook breakfast a great success. We were all overwhelmed with the response to the needs of the RMH and patients at St. Jude Childrens Hospital. We couldn't have done this with out the kindness of everyone.

A special thanks to Stephanie and Shelley and 97.3 The Dawg along with Courtesy Lincoln Mercury in Lafayette. They have gone above and beyond, to help us out and it is greatly appreciated.

We made the trip there and back, and it was wonderful. Time to see old friends and brighten the faces of those in the same place that we were. Just to let them know that we know how they feel and we understand....and that they are not alone.

Thanks again. We will update soon.

Update by Troilynn Cawyer


Friday, November 20, 2009 3:51 PM CST

UPDATE - By Troilynn Cawyer

I am updating the page for Chastity.
Needless to say that she has been very busy with two small children.
Both Mason and Memphis are doing well; as is mom and dad.
And since I get the honor of reveiling the info - THEY ARE EXPECTING ANOTHER in January.
They recently found out that it will be a BOY!!!
They are both excited, as we all are.

We are getting ready for our Annual trip to The Ronald McDonald House
in Memphis and any help would be greatly appreciated.
I have posted an updated list of the items that are needed at the Ronald McDonald House. T
here are also a list of drop-off locations on the bottom of the flyer.

Should anyone have any questions, please feel free to give
Chastity a call at 337-654-8408 or email me (Troilynn) at tlcawyer@aol.com and I will pass this information on to her.
Thanks for everyones support and help with this.

Troilynn


Sunday, March 22, 2009 12:57 AM CDT

**CHECK OUT THE NEW PHOTO OF MASON AND MEMPHIS IN THE PHOTO ALBUM **

Thanks Troi for putting the new photos on here. They look great.

For those who have requested a copy of the Angel and Zoie pic. they are on their way to you.

Just a quick little update. We were given a painting by a lady that Travis met at his work. She took a pic. of Zoie and painted Zoie being held by an angel. It is out of this world. So I took a pic. of it with my camera and it is the pic. So if anyone would like one leave your home address here and I will get one in the mail to you. Trust me you have to see this. It made me cry.

ok since everyone is asking for it here is an update.

It is really hard with two. But I'm loving it. Mason is loving his little brother. He has to kiss and hug him 500 times a day. It never fells everytime Memphis falls asleep he has to kiss him. I am so glad that Mason isn't jealous. He letts everyone know that is his bebe. One can hold him or talk to him without Mason yelling leave my bebe alone. I am really enjoying both of them. It gets a little rough but Zoie and God help me through it. Mason is doing well. He is getting tall and talking like crazy. He is just starting to walk right after the broken leg. That was a crazy time. Me big and pregnant having to carry a 2 yr old with a cast from the foot to the hip. But we did it.

Memphis James was born on Dec.27 (my brothers little boy Gavin's B-day). I had contractions all day and was being watched when his heart rate dropped and they said he had to come out. It was an easy time. My mom was there some of the time and Travis was with me in the O.R. We called Memphis our runt. He is our smallest baby. Zoie weighed 9.5 and Mason weighed 8.5. I just knew that this would be big. Surprise he came out weighing 6.14 He didn't even cry when they took him out. They moved him around and did everything to get him to cry. No luck. Travis got really scared and had to get out of the room but he was fine he just not a cryer. He is a very good baby. He sleeps from 9:30pm to 7 am. Now if he could teach big brother how to sleep all night we would be doing good.

Travis and I are fine. For someone (Travis)not wanting any more kids he is sure loving Memphis to death. Mason gets alittle jealous when Travis shows Memphis to much attention but we make sure he knows he is loved just as much. We just got back from a little family Vaction. It was nice to just beable to sit in a hotel room and not worry about house work are waking up early. We did alot of shopping and enjoyed family time. I have to tell you this story. I was laying in bed holding Memphis and he was smiling and Mason came lay by us. I told him look brother is looking at you talk to him. So Mason grabbed his face and said "bebe did you see sissy?" I looked at Travis and said what did he say. Then I asked Mason "you saw sissy?" He said "her gone now." I just started crying. I know that little girl is here watching and visiting her little brothers. I know they would of probally got the best of her. Taking her toys and touching her stuff. But she would of loved them to death.

My mom and brother are doing well. We are getting ready for a great visit from Miss Melinda. She is coming to spend time with us at the end of April. She will be joing us for Fishin Glore.

Now I have to talk about my dad since he felt left out last time. Don't worry Dad we love you to death and everyone knows you were special to Zoie. She even gave you 3 when she turned 4 and didn't need it anymore. She loved her pa. My dad is doing well. He takes care of my brother, Travis, me and the boys when we need help. I don't know what we would do with him. We love you and thank you for everything you do for us.

Well I will try to update sooner than I have been Sorry. Please don't give up on us. I am just getting the hang of being a mom to 3.



chastity


Sunday, December 28, 2008 6:11 PM CST

Good evening everyone,

This is Troilynn, I just wanted me to let everyone know that Chastity had the newest member to Schexnayder clan last night at 8:26 p.m. via c-section.

"Memphis James" arrived weighing in at 6 lbs, 13 ounces, and is 19 inches long. Chastity did say even though he was so small, his shoe size is "12". From the pictures I got, he is just adorable. They said he only cried once, and he seems; so far, to be a pretty laid back baby. We did however tell her that once he got home and was introduced to his brother, Mason - that would probably change.

Speaking of Mason, this little one has a broken leg, that happened about two weeks ago, walking through the kitchen he stepped on his Sit-n-spin and went for a ride. Needless to say, he had to get a cast, (blue one) he got to pick out his own color. I don't think that it stops him though, he still gets around.

Back to baby Memphis and mom, they are both doing well. Mom is up and walking around today, complaining about the hospital food, so we know that she is feeling better.

I will update with more info as I get it. Thanks for checking in on them, and thanks for the prayers and well wishes.

Zoie, please watch over mom, mason and lil memphis. We all love and miss you.

Troilynn


Sunday, October 12, 2008 3:41 PM CDT

It's me. Yes you are not seeing things... I am updating. We have been busy. We had to run from 2 hurricanes. The first one we went to Alabama and made a vacation out of it. We stayed with our great family. They where so nice to take in 10 crazy Louisiana people. Mason gave them lots of noise that they are not used to. But they said it was ok. We went to Gulf Shores. I wanted Travis to see it. He had never been. Little Mason loved it. We had to keep a hand on him the whole time. The beach was closed but you could still go on it. Well he(mason) sure went on it. He was in the water so fast. He thought it was funny when the waves that were bigger than him would knock him down. He would lay there in the water and laugh. We took lots of pictures. We made some good memories. We came back home to an ok house. Thank you God our homes were ok. The second hurricane we only went to Travis's work. It wasn't that bad. So no second vaction but that was ok.

My mom is doing fine. She is still waiting to go and have test done but the lump she says is gone. I hope she is telling me the truth. She is getting her life going again. She started a new job and is getting back on her feet. My brother is doing really well. He is getting a life again. He just got a new truck and is really trying to get his life on the right path.

Mr. Mason just made 2 on Sept.21 He had a Mickey Mouse party or as he likes to call it a, "kee kiky party." He is trying to talk and comes up with the funniest things. He calls Dora the explorer, "Dor Dor", Diwgo is "Go Go", our dog's name is Teco he calls him "Co Co," and if he wants you to go somewhere with him he will tell you WEE Wee. I see a little of Zoie in him. Sure not by the hair and eyes. He still has the blondest hair and bluest eyes. I tell people I dye his hair every week. I love him to death. I tell him about Zoie every day.

Travis and I are doing well. I had an ultrasound last month and found out we are having a ...Boy. I am excited. I don't care what it is as long as it's healthy. I go to the Dr. every two weeks just so they can watch my sugar levels. Then every 4 weeks I see a heart dr. for the baby. Something about when you are diabetic the baby's walls of the heart can thicken. So they do an echo of the baby's heart every so often. So far everything looks good.

Well, Thursday I went in and after they were done I asked them to see if it was still a boy and they couldn't see any boy parts. So now we are back to not knowing what it is. After I went out and bought all kinds of boy stuff it may be a girl. So we are hoping for another ultrasound soon. I am now dying to know what it is. We have picked out names for both. If it's a boy he will be Dayton James and if it's a girl she will be Jolie Fay. Fay was my mom's sister who passed away 6 months before Zoie was diagnosed from Breast cancer that spread every where. She loved Zoie to death.

That's about all that is going on in our simple world. We are just taking it day by day waiting for thenew baby and loving the one we have. He is growing too quick. He's getting to the age that Zoie was when she was diagnosed so I'm on the worried side. But I know God will take care of him and he will do what is right. Thank you for not giving up on us. Sorry it took so long for an update. I promise to be back sooner.

Love you guys
chastity,travis,mason and angel zoie

Congrats Mrs. Kim on that new baby boy..


Sunday, August 3, 2008 12:34 AM CDT

It's me. Yes I am updating. We have been busy. Let's see where do I start.

My mom- she was in a bad wreck on June 30th. Yes again. That makes 3 wrecks in 6 months. The mustang is now gone. She was banged up really bad. But thank God she wasn't seriously hurt. So we were taking care of her and bringing her where she needed to go. She just bought a new car and is getting back on her feet. Before that she lost her job after 12years. And now we are waiting to find out if she has breast cancer. We will know in Sept. So please keep my mom in your prayers and thoughts.

July was a hard month. Missing Zoie like crazy. I didn't want to talk to anyone. I just wanted to be by myself. I guess cause it was 4yrs. She is gone the same amount of time she was here. It's hard to belive that.

Mason is doing great. He is so funny. He is not scared of anything. He climbs on top of the barbie talking kitchen to turn his bedroom light on and off. His fav. word is no. I think he heard that enough from us I guess.

Travis and I are doing good. I have now lost 15 pounds. It's crazy I have to get pregnant to lose weight. Travis is coming with me tomorrow to the DR. I am 17 weeks. We have decided to not find out what we are having. We want to be surprised. Well I'll check in later.


Thursday, June 19, 2008 8:29 PM CDT

Hello... I'm back. Are you in shock?

We are doing well. Mason is growing taller everyday. He is so funny. He will do just about anything to make you laugh. I love having him. He is truely a blessing. When he is good(that isn't often). But I love him. I am feeling very crummy. This pregnancy is the worst. I have been so sick and tired all I want to do is sleep. My sugar levels are getting alittle out of control. I have been started on one insulin shot a day. For Mason I was on 4. So I know that day may come that I need more. We were in shock to find out that we were expecting. This is not something we were planning. But God knows what is best. I hope so I can handle two kids at one time. The way I found out was funny. I have to share this with you. I thought I might be but in my mind I wasn't. So I got up at 3am on night to go to the rest room everyone was sound asleep. I starting talking to my girl. I asked to give me a sign if I was going to have a baby. Well her Barbie talking kitchen started talking away like someone was playing with it. I started laughing and knew she was with me and gave me my answer. Sure enough the next moring I went out a test and called Travis crying. He didn't even belive me. So here we are almost 3 months and sick. I am due Jan 07,09 but it will be sometime at the end of Dec. I have to have a C-section since I had one for Mason. Well I think I have caught you up on everything so far.

Momo monkey, Uncle Chad, and pa are all doing fine. Momo monkey just started a new job and is loving it. she is struggling a little but doing good.


Well to next time. I hope it will be sooner.
Thanks for checking on us.

Zoie:thank you big girl, We miss and love you so much...


Wednesday, May 14, 2008 0:34 AM CDT

Good morning all,

I thought that I would update the site for Chas since it has been a while.

We have some good news, she called me this morning to let me know that her and Travis are EXPECTING....Due Late December...early January...

They are both very excited, this was a suprise for them both. Chastity wants a girl. We are all very excited and happy for them.

Keep checking I will post more updates as they come.

Troilynn


Tuesday, April 1, 2008 10:30 AM CST

Chas has asked that I update the site to include a Newspaper Article that was in the Abbeville Meridional on Friday, March 14, 2008.


This is the message from the paper:

APRIL 20
St. Theresa's Ladies Auxillary, Abbeville will be hosting their 2nd Annual Zoie's Angels Spring Shower.
Date - April 20, 2008

If you are interested in assisting please contact Alberta LeBlanc (St. Theresa's Ladies Auxillary President) @ 337-643-2145.

To read the entire article, please view the photo album for the actual article.

Thanks for everyones help.

Troilynn


Saturday, February 2, 2008 12:08 AM CST

I hate to have to write this. Madelyn Beamon earned her Angel Wings this moring at 3:19am. I can only imagine the welcome she got at the gates. I know in my heart Zoie was there to take her by the hand and show her around. I just talked to Brandi and they are doing the best they can. We cried together. She told me she now knows how my heart feels. This is a feeling no parent should ever have to feel. I wonder some times why God? Why give them to us then take them away so soon. But then I know they don't belong to us they are God's children and I would rather have had her 4 years than not have her at all. Please pray for the Beamon family as they go through this tuff time. www.caringbridge.org/tn/madelyn


We are not starting off the new year good. On Jan.12th we were in a bad wreck. A 16yr. boy pulled out in front of me to make a left turn and never look to see if someone was coming. We slammed into him and totaled my car. We were ok just banged up. Mason had a burn on his little neck from his car seat belt. Travis was sore, Mom had a busted knee and I had chest pains from the air bag. It could have been alot worst. But I thank God we were ok. I sure hope things get better with the months to come. No more bad news. Well we are heading to Memphis to go and be with the Beamons. Please say a little prayer we have a safe trip.


Sunday, December 16, 2007 2:43 PM CST

Just a quick update. Please keep Zoie's friend Madelyn Beamon and her family in your prayers. Brandi and Neal made the choice to not do anymore chemo and Madelyn has been giving 2 weeks to live. I know how that family feels right now. Being told your child has two weeks to live is the hardest thing a parent can be told. Please visit her site..www.caringbridge.org/tn/madelyn





HELLO!!!

First of all I have to write a comment to a guest book entry. To "Someone who wants everyone to be happy" We are VERY happy. And we know that Zoie is VERY proud of her mommy,daddy,maw maw monkey and all of Zoie's Angels. I know she is smiling down everytime we do something in her name. So maybe you aren't happy with your life but we are. So please don't put stuff like that on here unless you are big enough to say who you are....



Now to better and happier things. We had a great trip to Memphis for Zoie's Angels. This was our biggest trip ever.
If you would like to see pictures from our trip visit.
http://www.973thedawg.com/page.php?page=Photos We had so many toys for the kids. One mom told me that I made Santa look cheap. We made a lot of children happy this year. We got to spend some time with Madelyn Beamon and family, Miss Melinda, Mrs. Allison and family and other RMH families. I even got to share Zoie's Story with a Air Force troop. The troop was at the house making donations and touring the house. They were leaving to go and fight for our country in a few weeks. I pray they will be safe.

This trip we had less people to cook but it turned out to be the best trip yet. Mason even had a blast playing at RMH.

We are getting ready for Christmas. This has been exciting with a 14 month old bad boy. He thinks it's funny to get on his power wheels 4wheeler and run it into the Christmas tree. I tell you what, he is ALL boy. He is giving me a run for my money. But I love him to death...

WELL have a great Christmas and a happy new year. I will update later...

Zoie: Merry Christmas and we love you...


Sunday, November 11, 2007 1:39 PM CST

HELLO TO EVERYONE...

I'm here... just running a little late. We have been busy. We have started collecting and getting things ready for our yearly Zoie's Angels trip. This will be our 4th year already. We have collected so much already and can't wait to get more. We went shopping yesterday for supplies with our donation from Travis's work. I love doing that. Buying stuff and knowing that it's all for a good cause. We will be on the radio starting next week to get people to help out. We made our flyers and are ready to start. This year will be nice. A lot of friends and St. jude families that we were close to will be in Memphis the same weekend that we are cooking. It is the same weekend as the big St. Jude Marathon. Miss Melinda will also be there and we will be cheering her on. She will be running in Zoie's memory. When she crosses the finish line she wants to carry Mason Jude with her. I think that will be very special. Zoie will be so proud.

Mason is doing well. We had to take him off of cow's milk. His little stomach can't take it. So he's on special milk now. He has a mouth full of teeth but still won't walk. I guess he will be 5 and still having mommy and daddy to carry him everywhere.

Everyone is doing fine. If you would like to help with Zoie's Angels feel free to call me. We appreciate any help that we get.

Thanks for not giving up on me. I know I'm slow with the updates!

chastity
337-654-8408

Love you and miss you, Zoie Bug!


Sunday Sept.16,2007

Ok, Travis told me I had to give an update. I just have not found the time to sit and update. Mason keeps me very busy. And I'm loving every minute of it.

We are doing well. I'm going crazy trying to get everything ready for big Mason Jude's 1st B-day. Already... It seems like yesterday I had him. On Friday he will be the big 1. We are giving him a rubber ducky party on Sat. the 22. I am rubber duckyed out. We have rubber ducky everything. Even the ice for the drinks is rubber duckies. I hope he enjoys it. I used to make sure Zoie's b-day parties were huge. I wanted her to be able to remember them and I wanted her friends and family to enjoy them. So I have to make sure Mason's are the same. Ok enough party talk.

Travis is doing great. All he does is work to support his family and on weekends he likes fishin with my dad. I think if they both could quit their jobs and do that for a living they would.

Mason is doing great also. He is still not walking. I think he is just lazy. He still doesn't sleep through the night. I think I would think something was wrong with him if he didn't wake up at least once in the middle of the night. I am open for any ideas on how to get a little boy to sleep all night. His mom would love one night of full sleep. He now has 7 teeth and weighs only 18 pounds. He doesn't eat much. I guess he will be like his sister she was skin and bones(sure not like their mom).

Myself I am doing ok. I have been sick with a sinus infection and being dizzy. But I'm good. We are going to start working on collecting items for our yearly RMH trip in Nov. We did great with the raffle tickets. I don't have a list of the winners with me. But everyone should have received their prize if they won. I was excited that the man that won the Alan Jackson jacket is a big fan of Alan. So at least I know I won't see it for sell on ebay. Thank you to everyone who bought tickets. I hope you know that your money is going to a great place. We will be buying supplies with the money we raised. I can't wait to go this year. I miss seeing the house and St. Jude. Cause in my heart that is where my baby girl is.

I have to say a big Thank you to Miss Melinda. Mason loves his St. Jude book you sent. Tell your mom thank you and she did a great job on it. He opens it and puts it on his head then turns in a circle to make sure everybody is looking. He is a little clown. He loves to make you laugh. And has a temper(I don't know where he gets that from)He got mad at me the other night and that was it. Everything that he came across he threw. It was funny he would crawl to something and it was coming flying over his head.

Well, I guess this update will do for a little while. I promise I will try to return sooner. I will get pictures of Mason's party and send them to Miss Melinda to get on here for everyone to see how big he is getting. Until then, take care and thank you for not giving up on us.

Oh, one more thing... please on Fri.21 send Miss Emma Grace a b-day balloon. Mason was born on her birthday. We will send her lots of birthday wishes from Louisiana,Lafayette(as Zoie would say).


zoie: we hope you come around for mason's party. we love you and miss you more than words can say.


Friday, June 22, 2007 8:13 PM CDT

A Big Thanks to Melinda... The slide show is great. Isn't Mason a cutie?

WE are doing well. We got our new Zoie stickers in. They are awesome. I cried when we put ours on the back window. Not only do the show the memory of Zoie but also St. Jude. The new stickers are a little more than her other ones because they have a lot of detail. If anyone is interested they are $10.00 You can write to me in the guestbook or in the mail. It will take a couple of days for me to get the sticker for you. I have to order it and wait for it to come in. I will be placing an order soon for everyone around here.

Mason is growing like crazy. He now has 5 teeth. Time is going by way too quickly. We will be on tv tomorrow for the local St. Jude dream home give away. It will be a little rough but we know we have to keep doing these events for Zoie. I sit here and think next month it will be 3yrs. that our Princess went home to Jesus. It seems like yesterday. God, I have been missing her a lot these past couple of days. But I know in my heart she is always here with me.

Well gotta run. I'll be back.....


chastity
126-c Brumley lane
duson,la 70529


Sunday, May 27, 2007 12:07 AM CDT

NEW SLIDE SHOW OF MASON JUDE!!! He's 9 months old now!

Hey everyone! I know it has been a while. Sorry.

First of all, a little St. Jude friend needs our prayers. Little Landon Pitre is living his final days. He has Neuroblastoma and it has taken over. The doctors give him 4 or less weeks. Please stop by his webstie www.caringbridge.org/landonpitre . I know how his mom is feeling right now. Knowing the end is near and there is nothing you can do.

We are doing well. Mason is growing like crazy. He now has 4 teeth. Two at the bottom and two at the top.

I am just getting over the chicken pox. Yes at 30 something I had the chicken pox but because I took the shot a few months earlier they were not that bad. Thank God.

Travis is doing well.

Nothing really exciting going on. We went to Texas yesterday for the day. I had a new Zoie sticker made. This one will have the St. Jude child in the middle and say "in memory of," above it and Zoie's name and dates under. I hope it comes out good. We will be getting it sometime next week. On the way home we stopped at the Lake Charles Beach. I wanted to see what Mason would do with his feet in the sand. He loved it. If he could have sat down in the waves he would have had a blast. I kept digging his little toes in the wet sand and laughing. I think we all had more fun watching him. Mom and Chad came with us on the trip. It was a nice get away day.

Well, I'll try to be back sooner next time. Please keep Landon's parents in your thoughts and prayers.


Zoie:I love you big girl and miss you.


Sunday, April 22, 2007 12:14 AM CDT

Just a quick update. I'm on my way to a Zoie's aAgels Shower being given by a church. Isn't that great? They are collecting items for us to take to RMH.

Ok, mom went to the dr. on thursday ...and thank the Good Lord above and Angel Zoie MOMA MONKEY DOESN'T HAVE cancer.... Yeah we are so excited. It is just a sweat gland that is infected. We did a lot of praying and they were all answered. Thank you to everyone who sent prayers and thoughts up.

Our trip to Memphis was great. We had a blast. It ended up getting really cold. But my brother Chad and his son Gavin loved it. Gavin loved riding the trolly. We really enjoyed ourselves. It was great spending time with St. Jude friends. It was a short trip. Rememberence Day was very nice. Sad but really nice. I'll update more later. I gotta run.

Chastity
Mom to Angel Zoie and Baby Mason Jude


Saturday, March 24, 2007 1:51 PM CDT

Hello to everyone. We are doing great. We are getting ready for Mason Jude's first Easter and our trip to St. Jude. We are all feeling better. Except my mom. WE are in need of prayers for her. Yesterday she went to the dr. she found a lump under her arm. The Dr. is going to do testing next week to see if it's Breast cancer. He told her that with the history of her family he wouldn't be suprised that it is. I am praying that it isn't ~ that's not what she needs in her life right now. But two of her sisters already have had the beast it. One passed away from breast cancer 6 months before Zoie was diagnosed and then the other was diagnosed with it 2 yrs. ago. She is doing well. But my mom is scared not to die because she knows where she would go and she would be with Zoie. But my mom also already has a bad heart. So the chemo would affect her heart and damage it more. WE are just keeping good thoughts and know that God is going to take her down the path he has chosen for her. Would you please say some prayers for her? If it is cancer we are prepared to deal with it. And like I told her, Zoie fought to the end she has to not give up and also fight.
Well, that is our life for now. We are just playing that horrible waiting game. I think this is the worst time. Thank you for checking on us and I will update as soon as we get some news.


Zoie: I know you are going to be here with us holding our hands as we go through this. Please help momo monkey find happiness in her life and be ok. I know you can and will. We all love and miss you...hope you like the yellow ("ello!") rose bush we planted for you.


Saturday, March 3, 2007 11:24 AM CST

It's me...I'm back!

Lets see, where do I start? We have been fighting the flu. I had it twice now and Mason had it once. Yes, even Mason had it. It was horrible. Try taking care of a sick baby while you're sick. It's not easy. Thank God for Travis. He was a huge help!

Besides that we have not been up to much. We were supposed to go to Memphis for 4 days but had to change our plans because we were sick.

Mardi Gras was fun. Mardi Gras, for those of you who don't know what it is... is a big party the day before Ash Wed. I think it's just another reason for Cajuns to have a party.

By the way... Ms. Nicky and Mr. John if you read this: thank you for the pink beads. The kids at St. Jude will love them! We will bring all the beads we get to the kids.

Could you please visit Emma Grace's website and leave a thought or prayer for her daddy? Mr. Barney was just dignosed with Colon Cancer. I can't imagine how they must feel. It has to bring back a lot of memories of Emmma Grace. I pray that he will not suffer and will get to remission. www.caringbridge.org/ar/emmagrace

Also Zoie's friend Madelyn: Her cancer is back and has spread. She needs prayers. I know Zoie is there with her. Zoie said she wasn't taking Madelyn to Heaven with her just Stanton and Emma Grace. So lets hope that was true and Madelyn will get to remission again. www.caringbridge.org/tn/madelyn Also her mom is due in 10 days with a new little girl. Brandi, if y'all read this... I'm sorry that we didn't get to go. But Mason and I ended up with the flu. We can't wait to see y'all in April. Also we are looking forward to meeting that new little angel.

We got a call from St. Jude last week. I'm so excited about it~ You only get to go to Rememberence day twice after your child passes. Well we did our limit. But our Social worker called and invited us to go back this year to speak. They want 6 parents to go back and talk about what has helped and not helped get through losing your child. And they invited us to go. How great is that? I'm so excited to be asked to do that. Of course I said yes. But I had to also let her know that I would talk but we all know Travis won't. But that's ok. He can take care of Mason and I do enough talking for both of us. It will be in April. I can't wait to get to go and see all of our friends and show off Mr. Mason Jude.

Well, I will try to update sooner than I have. Thank you for checking on us.

Zoie: thanks for coming by and turning on your light the other day. I may cry but it's tears of joy to know you are here with us. I love you and miss you more than words can say. Thank you for watching out for brother.(especially when he fell off the desk at pa's work)


Split heart half in heaven with Zoie and half here with Mason and Travis,

Chastity


Sunday, January 7, 2007 12:10 AM CST

NEW SLIDESHOW OF MASON JUDE! 01/25/07

Yes we are still here...

We are doing well. Christmas was simple at home with a few family members. New Years we had a little party get together with family and friends. It was a nice time. Now we are back to our normal lives. Nothing exciting.

I have to say a big thank you to Zoie's Angels ~ they have already started to shop for the children at The Ronald McDonald House. We have so much stuff for them and it's only January. I can't imagine how much we will have when Dec. gets here. It makes me feel so good when we buy stuff for the kids or the house. Just to know that we are going to make one person smile and happy in Zoie's name. That was Zoie's thing. She loved to make people happy and laugh. And if I can keep that spirit alive, I will. This year Zoie's Angels are going to try to do more and get out in the public more. I want everyone in our town to know who we are and what our group does. My dream is to one day pull in at RMH with an eighteen wheeler full of supplies and toys for the kids. I think with Zoie's little touch from upstairs we will get there. This year our trip is Nov.30(Zoie's b-day)to Dec. 2. We will leave on the 30th and cook at RMH on the 2nd. We are trying to make a trip to St.Jude before that just to visit all of our second family and friends in Memphis. That is where part of our hearts remain.

Now to Mr. Mason Jude. He is growing and being a normal baby. We weighed him on a home scale the other night just to see and it said he weighs 14.8 pounds. He is a big and healthy boy. I sit here and look at him and think what did I do before he came along? He is such a joy and blessing. Now he can drive you crazy when all he does is cry but I wouldn't change or give that up for anything in the world. We tell people all the time that he isn't the spoiled one... we are!

Well I will try to update soon if I can ever find the time to.

Everyone is doing fine here. Yes even MoMo Monkey.

Well until next time... Hug your kids and live as if there isn't a tomorrow.

Thank you for checking on us.

chastity,travis,mason jude and Princess Angel Zoie



Thursday, November 30, 2006 1:48 PM CST

Happy 7th birthday, big girl. We just got back from visiting Zoie. Some special people beat us there. They left her some special gifts. It makes me smile to know that so many people still love and think about Zoie. Zoie's memories and sprit will never die. I wonder if they have a party in Heaven on your birthday to earth and on your birthday to heaven? Wouldn't it be great just to be able to see what Heaven is like? But then when you would see it you probably wouldn't want to leave. Anyway... I don't want to go on and on about sad things because I know in my heart she isn't sad. She is dancing and being a normal 4yr. old princess.

Mason is doing well. He is growing and starting to laugh when you talk to him. We put Zoie's balloon stings in his hand and he got to send big sister her birthday balloons. I can't wait until he is old enough to understand. We talk to him all of the time about his angel Zoie.

Thanksgiving was nice. We spent it in New Orleans with Troi (Mason's nanny)and her family. We had a nice time. I don't know yet what we are going to do for Christmas. It won't be that big of a deal as Mason isn't old enough to know better.

Well, I have to get back... Momo monkey is babysitting Mason. So thank you for not giving up on us. We are still here and sorry the updates are so far apart. It's hard to find time to come and use the computer. Hope all is well with you and your family.

Zoie: Pa said he will take 6 since you don't need it now that your 7. We miss you and love you big like Heaven. Hope you like your balloons brother sent you. Have a wonderfulb birthday with Jesus and the Angels.


Thursday, November 23, 2006 3:21 PM CST

We had a great trip to Memphis. It was nice to see our second family. We were excited to see the new things at The Ronald McDonald house. First, there is a huge picture in there conference room of Zoie,Stanton and Emma Grace. It makes me proud to see that they are using her picture. Then, they finished the new playground with the memory plaques. Zoie's is yellow of course and it says, "In memory of Zoie Schexnayder and all of her angels."(she has many Angels) We brought lots of supplies to Sherry. We filled the whole supply room. It was great to see what we were able to do for the house and kids. We didn't get to go into the hospital but the trip was still nice and I can't wait to do it again next year!
LOVE YOU BIG LIKE HEAVEN ANGEL!


Saturday, November 4, 2006 3:59 PM CST

Here we are again. We are doing well. Mason went to the doctor yesterday for the tummy. He put him on some meds to stop the cramps. So far so good. He is doing better and sleeping a little longer. So mommy is sleeping a little more too! When he sleeps for a while at night I still get up. I have to make sure he is ok. I guess once you lose a child and have another you are over protective. Poor Mason... he won't be able to get out of our site. I just worry about everything now. When he was first born I cried to Travis. It was hard because I am so scared that we will lose him also. I know that we won't but it's just the idea. But anyway on to better things.

Zoie's Angels: we will need to work on getting supplies for our trip. If there is someone who wants to help but doesn't have time or doesn't live near enough to donate supplies but would like to help... you can send a check and we can buy the supplies. I started going and talking on the radio this week and will do so until the trip. Also our flyer is on www.973thedawg.com I'm working a deal with Wonder Cuts they are letting us put a box and collect items. On Nov.11 if you donate an item they will give you so much off a hair cut. I thought that was really nice of them. I can't wait to go to RMH (our second home) just to go and make the children happy and see them smile. If anyone has any questions they can call me at 337-654-8408. We are leaving on Nov. 17 so if anyone can help we do appreciate it.

chastity


Sunday, October 22, 2006 12:26 AM CDT

I hope y'all haven't given up on me yet. It's so hard to find time to come to Travis's work to use the computer and update. Sorry...

THANK YOU MISS MELINDA FOR THE UPDATE AND PICTURES OF MASON YOU ARE GREAT. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO WITHOUT YOU. ALSO THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE ZOIE BOOK AND THE MONKEY BLANKET. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. OF COURSE YOU MADE ME CRY. WE LOVE YOU AND CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU.

We are doing well. Mason is growing and not sleeping. I am learning how to live with very little sleep but it's worth it. We are loving and spoiling him like crazy. He goes to the dr. tomorrow for his 1 month check up. I can't wait to see how much he weighs. All he does is eat and eat.
He's going to be a big guy like his daddy. I have big dreams for him. I know he will turn out to be something great in life.

We are getting ready for our 3rd Zoie's Angels trip to Memphis. Nov.17-19 I am so excited. I miss all of our St. Jude family. So all of Zoie's Angels we need y'all to start collecting items for the Ronald McDonald house. Also, try to get other people and companies to help out. I have the flyers. If you need any let me know. I will be going on the radio and tv soon to try to get people to help us out. I know y'all can do it. Just think of how many kids we can make happy and I know Miss Zoie will be smiling down on us.

Talking about Zoie... I have to tell you this story. Mason has the horrible stomach virus that's going around. So, poor baby screams with his tummy. Well, Friday afternoon he was doing nothing but crying and nothing would help him. So I started talking to him telling him that his sister Zoie was coming to make him stop crying. I kept saying " Zoie where are you? Come make brother stop crying." Needless to say it didn't help. Well a while later Travis got home and changed to take his turn at trying to help Mason. Travis comes in the living room and tells me I need to go look in Mason's room. I was like, "what is it?" He starts smiling and says go in there and turn off Zoie's night light. She must have come when I asked her to. And she let me know by turning on her favorite light. I sat there laughing and crying. She showed her mommy she is always there with us. She never stops amazing me. Well I guess I kept you long enough I promise I will try to make updates sooner.


Half my heart is here with Mason and the other half is in Heaven with Angel Zoie

chastity


Friday, 10/13/06

I hope y'all enjoy the new photos. Mason and Chastity are doing well. Travis is loving doting on Little Man Mason and Moma Monkey is the first to volunteer to watch Mason so Chastity, "can run errands..." (Any excuse to have Mason all to herself! LOL)
I'm back...
Mason,Travis and I are doing great. Mason has colic very bad so we are up all night. But you know it's worth it. I thought having him would help alot with missing Zoie. I think I miss her more now. Everytime he does something we say remember when Zoie did this or that. I cry alot just thinking she would be his little mommy wanting to do everything. I could see her feeding him and pulling off his socks to clean between his toes that was thing she did all the time. She could be sick from chemo but she would pull off her socks and clean between her toes. I laugh alot thinking of the crazy things she did. Anyway we are enjoying every second with Mason. If he could learn to sleep alittle more it would be great. I guess that will come with time.

Thank you to everyone who has sent us gifts. We love them. We got a special blanket in the mail with Mason's name on it. I think it's his favorite. I haven't had time to send out thank you cards. Sorry..

I have sent Melinda pics of Mason so they should be on here soon. Just keep checking for them.



Thursday, Sept. 21st.... MASON'S BIRTHDAY!

AND NOW... THE MOMENT WE HAVE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR....
Angel Zoie is a BIG SISTER... Mason Jude Schexnayder was born this morning, Thursday Sept. 21st at 10:55AM, weighing in at 8 pounds, 5 oz.

In true Schexnayder fashion, Mason's birth was anything but ordinary or NORMAL! Chastity was started on induction medication last night. This morning an emergency c-section was done as Mason was coming, "cord first."

Chastity is currently under full anesthesia and will, "be under," for about an hour. Please keep her in your prayers.

Mason Jude is doing well and his proud daddy and, "moma monkey jane," just layed eyes on their healthy BLONDE hair precious boy.

What a miracle... a sweet baby born to the most deserving family!

Thank you Zoie! We know that you are up there dancing around and so proud to be a BIG SISTER. We LOVE you BIG LIKE HEAVEN and you'll ALWAYS be our BABY GIRL!

Keep those prayers coming.

More to come!
Love,
Melinda ("CHELINDA,") Moma Monkey's surrogate daughter!



Ok I know everyone is waiting. No baby yet... I know I'm ready too. I just left the dr. he said I have to be at the hospital Wed. night at 5:00pm to induce. Finally I see the light. I am so excited. I will be working to get every little thing ready. We will probally have him sometime Thursday. Someone will update and let you know excatly what's going on. Please pray that everything goes easy and safe. You know it will be a very hard time. Welcoming a new life into the world and then having to remember the angel we lost. It will be bittersweet. I know Zoie will be there holding my hand to welcome her new brother to us. Thank you for sticking with us and keep checking there should be a new angel on earth in a couple of days.

Thank you and please pray that everything goes well.

chastity and travis


Tuesday, September 12, 2006 6:26 PM CDT

Ok this will be short and sweet.

The Dr. weighed Mason on Thursday he is now 7lbs. 11oz So he said if I don't go into labor this week he will induce either Monday or Thursday of next week. He's coming soon I hope. WE are ready. I will probally have someone else update for me. I don't have computer access anymore. Thanks for checking on us and hopefully soon there will be an update about Mason being here.


Love you all
chastity

Yes our address is still the same.


Saturday, September 2, 2006 3:06 PM CDT

Ok sorry it has been so long. Where do I start....

Last Thursday they weighed Mason and he weighed 6lbs 7oz. They are going to weigh him again in two weeks. So I know they will be taking him soon. They told me that 6lbs was really big for the weeks that he is. And that the baby gains 1/2 pound every week. So we are going to have a big boy.

My baby shower was great. I cried just thinking of what Zoie would of been doing and saying. She would be the little mommy. She would have had to open all my gifts. God I'm missing her more and more. I guess knowing that there will be another baby in our lives. We got alot of great things for the shower. Lots of clothes. Thank you to everyone who came and those who sent gifts in the mail. WE love it all. We are so ready now. We have 4 weeks to go, but I don't think we will last that long. If I get any bigger I'll pop.

Thank you Troi and mom for the shower. It turned out so nice. The food was great and the cake couldn't of been better. Thank you Troi for all that you did. Even making me cry with the single yellow rose for Zoie.

Zoie: I hope you like getting the balloons. I know everyone enjoyed sending them to you. Please be with mommy and daddy. This time coming is going to be happy but sad. I love and miss you big like Heaven.


Saturday, August 19, 2006 12:03 AM CDT

Ok I know it's been a while. First I can finally say congrats to Brandi Madelyn's mom. There are having a baby. I pray everything goes well and they baby can be a match for Madelyn. I bet she will be a great big sister just the same way Zoie would of been.

Well I am doing fine. Just very ready. It's so hot here. So I stay in the house all day. I have 6 weeks to go. I am counting the days. I went to the dr. Thursday they didn't weigh him this week but everything looked good. Now when they weighed me I like to have a cow. Keep in mind I have not gained anything this whole time. I gained 6 pds in one week. I hope that is my weight and the baby didn't gain that. If he did he would now weigh 10 pds. Next week they are going to weigh him to see how much he is up too. If he is too big they will check his lungs and induce labor. So I'm hopeing he isn't too big. I don't want to miss my baby shower. That would be my luck. My shower is Sat. I can't wait. I'm so excited. I can remember Zoie's shower it was great. Well I have to run. I will update sooner I promise.


Sunday, August 6. 2006 4:27PM CST

Well I guess it's time for an update. We have been busy every night helping my brother move. Ok, let's see, what is going on.. Last week I started my every week ultrasound. Travis came with me for the first visit. It was really great to see the baby moving and his little heart beating. They weighed him and he is big for the weeks that he is. He weighed 4lbs 1oz. They said that is bigger than normal. Which we knew already he would be big. This week they just checked to make sure all the fluids were good and he was moving ok. Next week will be the same then the following week I start going twice a week and they will weigh him again. They have to watch him and make sure he doesn't get too big. As of yesterday we have 8 weeks to go. I hope I can last that long. I'm ready.

Mason's nanny mailed out the baby shower invites Sat. so you should be getting one. The shower is Aug.26th. IF you would like to come and don't get an invite please get in touch with me. I will get one sent to you. I'm excited about that. I hope I make it to then. If not he will just have to be at the party with me.

Other than that we are doing good. Nothing really exciting. Just getting last mintue things ready. Thanks for checking on us.

Zoie: I am missing you like crazy right now. Please come and be by my side. I really need you right now big girl. I love and miss you big like heaven...


Sunday, August 6, 2006 4:27 PM CDT

Well I guess it's time for an update. We have been busy every night helping my brother move. Ok, let's see, what is going on.. Last week I started my every week ultrasound. Travis came with me for the first visit. It was really great to see the baby moving and his little heart beating. They weighed him and he is big for the weeks that he is. He weighed 4lbs 1oz. They said that is bigger than normal. Which we knew already he would be big. This week they just checked to make sure all the fluids were good and he was moving ok. Next week will be the same then the following week I start going twice a week and they will weigh him again. They have to watch him and make sure he doesn't get too big. As of yesterday we have 8 weeks to go. I hope I can last that long. I'm ready.

Mason's nanny mailed out the baby shower invites Sat. so you should be getting one. The shower is Aug.26th. IF you would like to come and don't get an invite please get in touch with me. I will get one sent to you. I'm excited about that. I hope I make it to then. If not he will just have to be at the party with me.

Other than that we are doing good. Nothing really exciting. Just getting last mintue things ready. Thanks for checking on us.

Zoie: I am missing you like crazy right now. Please come and be by my side. I really need you right now big girl. I love and miss you big like heaven...


Thursday, July 20, 2006 8:45 PM CDT

Just had to add this in....July 24,2006 Thank you Travis for 13 wonderfull years. I love you with all my heart. I can't imagine my life without you... I guess Miss Melinda changed Zoie's website. I love it. I know Zoie would have. She always called herself Princess Zoie Belle. God, how I miss her. This week has been rough. I sit there and think ok July 20,2002 ~ Zoie had her line put in and we were told how bad her cancer was and what they would do for her. July 20, 2003 Zoie was put on the vent and we were told she probably wouldn't make it. And it seems every year on July 20th, something terrible would happen. July 20th is my dad’s birthday. I talked to him today and we talked about what happened every year. Travis and I visited Miss Zoie tonight. I sat there and just cried and cried. I don't know if it's worse because I'm pregnant or I just miss her so much. I hate July and wish it would zoom by. Ok I know you are tired of hearing me cry.

I went to the Dr. today. Nothing new. Everything is good. I have not gained any weight. I actually weigh less than I did before I got pregnant. I'm so glad. I don't know what I would do if I were to gain like 50pounds. I did the same thing with Zoie. After I had her I weighed a lot less than before. I guess the baby just takes it all. Next week we are doing an ultrasound and a Bio test. He said we will do one every week from now on. It's to check the weight and health of the baby. He has to be watched now since I'm high risk. But I know everything will be ok. Now he may come early and be at his own baby shower. That would be funny. Well I guess I bored you enough for now. I'll update next week. Thanks for checking on us.



Tired and heart broken ~ Missing my baby girl
chastity


Wednesday, July 12, 2006 7:25 PM CDT

Well Monday was a very hard day. I think this year was harder than last year. I really don't know why. But I cried almost all day. But little Miss Zoie let me know she was with me. I was home by myself in the shower and my dog starting going crazy I thought he needed to go out. So I told him to stop and I would let him out when I was done. Well, I finished and got dressed and walked down the hall. I was surprised to see Miss Zoie had been there and turned on her night light. I cried and talked away to her. I know she was there with me. Later that day I checked the mail. I had a package from St. Jude. It was another cd where they used her story with another song for Radio Cares. Of course I listened to it and cried like a baby again. Zoie had to give me all of those signs to let me know she is always with us and is happy in Heaven.
That night about 17 of us went to Zoie's grave and sent her lots of balloons. I know she loved that. Then we all went to eat out and had a nice time.

Thank you to everyone who came out. I really needed the support. Also thank you to everyone who either said a prayer,happy birthday or just thought of Zoie. I really appreciate it. It means a lot to us that so many people still care. I think that helps us get through this.

Ok... as far as Mason ~ he is good growing and kicking. I have a check up tomorrow.

Well, until next time take care and thank you for stopping by.

Missing Zoie
chastity


Thursday, July 6, 2006 6:57 PM CDT

Well, it's that time of the year that we hate... July...I wish we could just skip it. July was always our bad month. Zoie was diagnosed in July, 2002. In July, 2003 she was put on the vent and we were told she wouldn't make it. But God wasn't ready for her. In July, 2004 our Angel had to go home to Heaven. Do you see why we hate July? Monday will be Zoie's 2nd Heaven Birthday already. So we are asking anyone who would like to send her a balloon and stop and say a prayer for her or just tell her Happy Birthday. We will be going to her grave and sending her lots of balloons. If anyone would like to join us you are welcome to. Everytime she got a balloon she would always ask if she could send it to her angels. So I know she would love to get lots on Monday. Zoie passed away July 10, 2004 at 11:10am. I can just see her angles coming in the rmh room and saying Zoie it's time to come home. I hope when my time comes she is there to take me home. So please if you can and don't forget Monday send Zoie a balloon or just a birthday wish.


Travis, Mason and I are doing good. I have been really depressed lately. I have been missing my baby girl so much. She has been on my heart more than usual. I can't belive it has been two years since I heard, "I love you, mommy." I pray that none of you ever have to feel this way. It's the hardest thing in the world to have to live with. They say it gets easier but it doesn't. You just learn how to live without her here. I have to keep reminding myself she is in a better place and not suffering. She is dancing from cloud to cloud and singing away. I guess you heard me complain enough. Please join us on Monday for Princess Zoie.


Monday, June 26, 2006 7:50 PM CDT

We had a great weekend. My husband bought me a new car. I love it. It's a sliver mecury milan. I really didn't need a new one the honda was just 2yrs. old but I don't mind. I love the new one. Thank you Travis you are the best. I love you. Sunday we went to the St. Jude dream home giveaway. Of course they showed video of Zoie and then put us on the tv. Like always I talked and Travis stood there supporting me. Talking on tv or the radio isn't his thing. That's ok I do it enough for the both of us. That's about all the excitment here. I go to the dr. on Thursday and the eye dr. Friday. Mason is doing fine. He kicks enough to remind me he's in there and ok.


So that's the life of the Schexnayders for now. We will update next week. Thanks for stopping by.


Monday, June 19, 2006 6:41 PM CDT

We had a great Saturday. Travis started and finished Mason's room. It came out so good. Thank you Travis. He didn't want to wait on any help. He painted and my mom put up the stickers and helped put down the new carpet. I love it. I can't wait to bring home Mason now. It is so different from a princess room to a boy Cars room. We put up the baby bed and all the new things for a boy. The only girly thing in the room is Zoie's princess tv and dvd player. It will stay until he is old enough to say I want a boy's tv.

Sunday I was in bed sick all day with a stomach virus. So it wasn't the best day for Travis. I did get him the duffle bag from ST. Jude that he wanted. He was wonderful taking care of me. I hate being sick. Mason is doing well he reminds me very often that he is in there. I don't remember Zoie kicking me as much. Maybe boys are different.

A couple of people have asked what we need for the baby. We need everything. The only things we have are a bed and stroller. When Zoie got sick I gave everything away and swore that I wasn't having anymore kids. So much for that idea. We would love anything anyone gives us.


Zoie: Your 2nd Heaven birthday is coming up. It seems like just yesterday you left us but yet it seems like years since we heard you voice. I can't belive 2 yrs already. I miss you more and more everyday. I love you big like Heaven.


Sunday, June 11, 2006 1:18 PM CDT

I'm back. I have been busy. Thanks Melinda for the updated website. I love the background. You're the best.

We have been doing well. I go to the dr. every week now. I don't mind because I like knowing everything is ok. Mason likes to move and kick a lot. It's funny... he will be kicking away then when Travis comes to feel it, he stops. We are getting things ready to have a baby shower. How fun. It will be in August the 12th. I will post more about it when it gets closer. That's about all that's going on around here. Nothing really exciting.


Troi: I had a great time with you and Hannah Tuesday and Wed. I think we are getting too old to stay out until 5:30am. It was fun. It brought back the old times. Thanks for all of the baby shower stuff. You are doing such a great job.

Richard and Emily: Thanks for coming Wed. night to the class. We had a fun time going eat out with y'all. We will have to do it again.


Tuesday, May 30, 2006 6:15 PM CDT

Sorry I'm late on updating. This weekend was really nice. We spent some much needed time with my nephew, Gavin. He is my brothers 18 month old. He played with a lot of Zoie's toys and brought back a lot of memories. It was also nice to spend time with my brother. He hasn't been around in so long. Now I have to tell you what happened to me on Sunday. We have been working in Zoie/Mason's room. Well, we have been pulling down princess boarder to paint and replace it with something for a boy. By the way we are going with the Disney movie, "Cars" for Mason's room. We found the cutest border and wall stickers. Anyway. You know how I said I had a talk with Zoie to let her know why we were packing her things and changing things. Well I was in there pulling down the rest of the border. Travis just leftthe room when her night light came on(by itself) I started laughing cause I knew that it was her. So I started talking to her. Well as I'm talking, the light would go off and on. I was laughing and crying at the same time. I talked for a while and thought, "I have to get Travis in here for this." So I went to get him. HE comes in the room and I said, "OK Zoie daddy's here. Show him you're here." She would not do it for the world. So after a while he gave up. That whole afternoon I kept thinking that was my sign. She was letting me know it's ok to do what we are doing. I felt so close to her. To know she was right there. If only I could have held her. I feel blessed for her to do that for me. I just wish she would give Travis a sign. I know that sunday was my day. Well that's our crazy life for now. I go to the dr. on Thursday for a check up so I'll update later this week. Thank you for checking on us.


Zoie: All I can say is thank you....


Sunday, May 21, 2006 12:54 AM CDT

For those of you who haven't read the last update we found out that It's a BOY! His name will be Mason Jude Schexnayder. Let me explain why we picked Jude. There are two reasons. First all of you know because of St. Jude but the other is. When people would ask Zoie if she had a brother or sister. She would say yes a pretend brother named Jude and a sister named Emily. They came before she even got sick. Emily and Jude went everywhere with us. She would even talk to them on the phone all the time. Let me tell you a funny Jude story. One day Zoie said "mom you have to take me to Johnston ST.(a major st. in lafayette)Jude just got in a wreck. A lady hit him and broke his leg. The cops are there getting the lady for hurting Jude. WEll then she had to call my mom and tell her about Jude's wreck. Well needless to say my cousin's husband is named Jude so my mom at first thought it was him then I had to explain it was pretend jude. Well anyway that night we watched Zoie has she would talk to Jude. Here she came down the hall acting like she was carrying something. It was Poor Jude. She put him on the couch and covered him with her blanket. It was so sweet. Well here comes big Daddy Travis and sits on poor Jude. She started crying and yelling. We today still laugh at that. So that is why I had to pick Jude. I know he is her brother she is sending us.

This weekend has been emontional I thought it was time to start working on Zoie/Mason's room. Well packing up all of her things turned out to be the hardest thing in my life. You don't know how hard it is to have to take her fav. toys and clothes and pack them in a box. We even had to take down her princess bed. I cried more than anything. I also had a talk with her. I explained we are just packing stuff not her or her memories. They will always be in my heart. It's hard to walk into a empty room. No more pricness everywhere. No more signs that say Zoie's room. I know she is ok with it. Thats why she is sending us a boy. Some of toys I left out for Mason to be able to play with even though Travis keeps telling me he a boy not a girl. But I don't see anything wrong with a boy playing with a Barbie talking kitchen. Maybe he'll be come a cook. Anyway it has been along and hard weekend. We are now going to the grave yard to put her new flowers and bring her some balloons. Thank you for leaving us a message. I am printing them to put in Mason's scrap book.


Zoie: I know you understand what we did and you are going to watch over Mason. I can't wait cause I know that you are going to make him laugh and smile when no one else is around. I love you big like heaven..


Thursday, May 18, 2006 6:36 PM CDT

Ok here it is....... It's a BOY!!!! I knew it. The mintue we started the ultrasound Travis was asking what is it. The doctor took his time and went from head to toe then asked us what we wanted to have. I told him it didn't matter as long as it was heathy. He said well if it's a girl she has three legs. We laughed. I know that I have mixed feelings. I wanted a girl that way we don't have to change any of Zoie's stuff and can use her things but then I know if we would have a girl she would always be compared to Zoie. So a boy is good and different. I know Zoie sent us this boy because there is only one Zoie and she can't be replaced. The doctor said everything looks good. So come on Sept. 30 I'm ready for my little man Mason Jude Schexnayder.



Zoie: Thank you big girl. Mommy knows that you can't be replaced. I knew that you were sending your brother to us. Please keep watching over us. I miss and love you big like heaven...


Wednesday, May 17, 2006 7:36 PM CDT

Just a quick update. We are doing well. Mothers day was ok until I got to the grave yard. Then it was hard. We watched a father and his two sons visit their mom his wife's grave site. She was 34 and pregnant. I'm not sure what happen to her but she died and her baby lived one day longer then passed away. I know that my heart hurts and I'm old enough to kinda understand why God took Zoie. So I know those little boys have to be hurting. I can't imagine.

Tomorrow is the big day. WE are having an ultrasound and hopefully be able to tell the sex of the baby. I will update tomorrow night and let you know....


Monday, May 1, 2006 8:02 PM CDT

We had a great weekend at Cajun woodstock. I'm not sure how much money they raised for St. Jude yet. Saturday wasn't a good day. It stormed most of the day and not many people showed up but sunday was alot better. It was great to see Gabby and mom. We got to spend some much needed time with them.(www.caringbridge.org/la/gabbylou) Thank you again Gabby for helping me when I was crying. On sunday they took the big picture of Zoie and her Queen rocking chair placed it in the middle of the dance floor then played her cd. It was hard to sit there looking at her pic. and thinking she should be in that rocker. But the cd toched alot of people. There were so many strong biker men crying like babies. That what the cd is about to hit peoples heart and let them know St. Jude needs help.

Thank you to all of Zoie's Angels who came out to support St. Jude yall are great. IT was also great to see yall. Richard sorry to make you cry. Travis surprised him and asked him to godfather to the new baby. Over all it was a nice weekend. We needed the good Zoie cry. Thats about it for now. I go to the dr. thursday so I will update later.


Travis: I have to say thank you so much I don't know what I would do without you. It meant so much to me for you to get out in the horrible rain to get me so fried chicken. Then to go on a search for ketchup. I love you so much.

Zoie: please keep doing what your doing. I love and miss you big girl..


Monday, April 24, 2006 7:03 PM CDT

First of all to all Zoie's Angels I have called and changed the date that we are going to cook for RMH in Nov. we are now cooking on Sunday Nov.19 It will be alot easier to get hotel rooms then...


Hey everyone. Like always this update is late. We are doing fine. Easter was ok. It was really just another day to us. It was a hard one for Travis. He doesn't have them often that I know about. I let him know it's ok. We all have them and will always have them. He misses his baby girl. I don't know what to do for him when he has those days except be there for him like he is always there for me.

I went to the dr. thursday everything is going good. He said we will do an ultrasound around May 18. I can't wait I want to know what I'm having so bad. In my heart I know it's a boy. We don't care what it is as long as it's healthy. Even though we are going to have a problem if it is a boy. You know Zoie's room is nothing but purple and yellow and full of princess. Everyone in my family has said that they can't change it. They won't help back up her stuff. I know excatly how they feel. It will feel like we are getting reid of her. I can't see myself doing it. Maybe we'll just have to get a bigger house. We wish Sept. would hurry and get here. Just to hold that little baby and know that Miss Zoie had so much to do with sending him/her to us.

This weekend is the cajun woodstock fest. to raise money for ST. Jude. They are the ones that made Zoie their forever Queen. Visit there website at www.cajunwoodstock.com or come out and help support st. jude.


Monday, April 10, 2006 9:26 PM CDT

Just a quick update. Our trip to Memphis was good. We drove in when the weather was horrible. But it was nice to get there and see our second family. I love visting with the nurses and hearing their favorite Zoie stories. When we are there I feel so close to Zoie. We got to see Stanton and Emmagrace's families which was nice. We haven't seen them in a while. Friday night we went eat and out and to bed early after the long trip. I woke up Sat. moring in horrible pain. I really thought something was wrong with the baby but it turned out to be a horrible stomach virus. I was in bed sick all day Sat. I didn't get to go shopping or to St. Jude that day. I think I slept all day. That night Travis and mom got to spend some time with Madelyn and her family. I missed out. They said Madelyn looked great and was her silly ole self. Sunday moring we got up and headed home. I was feeling alot better by then. Today Travis and I went to visit our other second family. The st. Jude affiliate in Baton Rouge. It was great to see them. We haven't seen them in almost a year. It was funny to see Zoie's favorite nurse Ms. Kim pregnant. I can honestly say we had a great weekend.

I went to the dr. on Thursday and everything is great with the baby..


Zoie: I know you were with us this weekend. Thank you for letting us have a safe trip. Please keep watching over us and help us to live day by day. I love you...


Tuesday, March 28, 2006 8:30 PM CST

Most of you should be getting your cd in the mail. I have mailed almost everyones. If you didn't send me your address to get one please do. I will send you a cd with the two country cares songs about Zoie to you. We have mailed out so many cds. I'm so excited to know how many people want one. I did warn you it will make you cry. Most of you probally have read Zoie's story I wrote about her angels. If you havent and would like a copy of that let me know. I love sharing her story with anyone.

Happy birthday to Travis...I love you and hope you have a great day. We are 1yr and 10 days apart. I'm older.. That's why I'm the boss.(but don't tell Travis)

We are doing well. I go to the dr. on Thursday. I can't wait. I love going to the dr. to make sure everything is ok with the baby. I wish I would go back to going once a week. Everything else around here is the same. Nothing new or exciting.

Zoie: Make sure daddy has a great b-day. I love and miss you big like heaven.


Monday, March 20, 2006 8:17 PM CST

Happy Birthday to me... Yesterday was my 32nd birthday. God I am getting old. I had a great day thanks to mom and Travis. Thank you guys. I couldn't do it without yall. You know 7yrs. ago yesterday on my b-day I found out I was pregnant for Zoie. What a b-day present. We were so excited. We had tried 6yrs to have a baby and it finally happened. Only to have had her for such a short time. But the best 4yrs of my life. I wouldn't change them for anything.

Well we got our cd's from St. Jude today. So, yes I cried over and over again listening to the song they made for Zoie. I also found out there is two songs for Zoie the one
I told yall about and another by Wynnoa Judd "here is my angel" I don't know which one I like better. They both will make you cry. So if you would like a copy just send me your address. Either mail it to me or put it in the guest book and I'll get a copy to you. Make sure your ready to cry. They did a great job making them. I sure couldn't be the person who does that. I would cry the whole time having to hear all those stories.



Zoie: like always we miss you and love you. Please keep watching over your brother or sister.

My address is Chastity Schexnayder
126-c Brumley lane
duson, La 70529
I would be happy to send anyone a copy.


Monday, March 13, 2006 7:52 PM CST

Ok sorry the update is soooo late. Things have been crazy. Like always. First of all I quite my job. The stress was killing me. I would go home every night crying and I know that wasn't good for the baby. Second I have been very depressed lately. My doctor took me off my depression meds. because they can cause birth defects. So I have been not a nice person to be around. Lets see what's next. Mom was rushed to the hospital with chest pains. They found she had 90% blockage. So they had to go in and put 2 stints. She was in the hospital for a week. Other than these little things we are doing ok. We all know that God is giving us these little bumps in the road. We will be ok. I just got back from the doctor a couple of hours ago. He put me on a depression med. now that I'm 3 months(it won't hurt the baby) we also did another ultrasound. While looking at the heart beat the baby moved it was so great to see that and know that everything is ok. We are getting ready to go to st. jude on april 7. We can't wait. Well that is what is going on in our crazy life. Please pray for my family we need it.


travis and mom: sorry for being so horrible to live with. It will get better.




Tuesday, February 14, 2006 10:19 AM CST

I have lots to update. First the ultra sound went great. My doctor told me "you should smile now look at the heart beat." I cried like a baby. It was great to see that little heart beating away. Travis was with me and got to see it also. Which I was very happy about. My doctor said that everything looks great. I'm on 3 insluin shots a day and about to go to 4. But it's worth it. I pray that it will keeping going this good. Second, I found out that St. Jude finished Zoie's country cares song. It is where you go in and talk about your child and their life at st. jude and what they went through and just everything about them. Then St. Jude finds a country song and edits it with you talking about your child. I haven't heard the song yet but two people I know have. It was played in Houston for their radiothon then it was played in Baton Rouge,La for their radiothon. I can't wait to hear it. Before they played it in Houston they said that when they came back they would talk to Angel zoie's mom. So I'm guessing it has alot about her angels visting her. I'm trying to get a copy right now. Now to the song they picked. It is so pretty and once you hear it you'll say thats Zoie. The song is by Brad Paisley with Dolly Parton. Here are the words:

WHEN I GET WHERE I'M GOING

"When I get where I'm going
On the far side of the sky
The first thing that I'm gonna do
Is spread my wings and fly

I'm gonna land beside a lion
And run my fingers through his mane
Or I might find out what it's like
To ride a drop of rain

(Chorus:)
Yeah when I get where I'm going
There'll be only happy tears
I will shed the sins and struggles
I have carried all these years
And I'll leave my heart wide open
I will love and have no fear
Yeah when I get where I'm going
Don't cry for me down here

I'm gonna walk with my grand daddy
And he'll match me step for step
And I'll tell him how I missed him
Every minute since he left
Then I'll hug his neck

(Chorus)

So much pain and so much darkness
In this world we stumble through
All these questions I can't answer
So much work to do

But when I get where I'm going
And I see my maker's face
I'll stand forever in the light
Of his amazing grace
Yeah when I get where I'm going
There'll be only happy tears
Hallelujah
I will love and have no fear
When I get where I'm going
Yeah when I get where I'm going"



So listen to the country stations to hear it. And once I get a copy of the one with the story I will let you know and I can copy one for whoever may want one.

Zoie:thank you big girl for taking care of mommy,daddy and your brother or sister. I love and miss you. Thank you for you sign the other night we got it. You made us cry like always. You will forever amaze me.

Travis:I'm glad you were with me yesterday for the dr. visit. I'm glad you got to see it too. I love you and thank you for the gift I love it.


Wednesday, February 8, 2006 4:53 PM CST

Sorry the updates are so far apart. I'm feeling good. My doctor had to put me on insulin. My sugar levels are crazy. He is going to do a ultra sound on monday. I can't wait. I pray everything is going to be fine with this one. We are doing good. Working like crazy. I'm ready for a vaction. To beable just to sleep late. That would be great. Anyway nothing else going on around here. Just waiting to know that everything is ok with the baby. He said I'm about 7 weeks but hasn't given me a due date. I will update more when I get more news.

thanks for checking in on us.


zoie:I love and miss you. Please take care of your baby brother or sister. love mommy


Wednesday, February 1, 2006 10:36 AM CST

Well I guess I can now update. I have been very busy with work and everything else. We found out almost two weeks ago... We are having a baby... I am about 6weeks. So far everything is going good. I go to the doctor next week. Please say extra prayers. I know that this one will be fine. We are excited but scared at the same time. I have been feeling good. I knew that this year would be a good one. New great job and now I'm pregnant. God is Great. And all the good things are rolling our way finally.



Zoie: Thank you big girl. I know you are watching over mommy and the baby. Pa told me what you keep telling him. I guess your sending us a little boy. We will take whatever is sent to us. Please make him/her healthy. I love you and miss you.


Monday, January 23, 2006 12:36 AM CST

I love my job..... I can say that over and over. The people I work with are great. I never thought in my life I would end up working for a great company with great people.

Please say extra prayers for our little friend Madelyn. She is in need of prayers. Please visit her website and let her parents know you are supporting them. www.caringbridge.org/tn/madelyn



Travis: I love you and am sorry for being so horrible lately. I thought I could make it without the meds. But I can't yet. Thank you for putting up with me.


Zoie:like always big girl I miss and love you. I know you are with Madelyn right now.


Monday, January 16, 2006 8:16 PM CST

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU to everyone who prayed that I would get a great job. I did... It's wonderfull. I work for a company called Stratos Offshore Com. We offer cell phone,beeper,internet and any other communcation services the offshore rigs may need. I answer the phone take orders and take care of typing up the problems they maybe having. The best part is that I now make $10.00 a hour and it's full time with all the benefits. I love it. I that God sent it to me. I always tell my mom we have to wait until he is ready to show us the way. I know this job is the first step to a better life. Today was my first day and it was so great. I work great hours 8-5 no nights or weekends. I can't get over the idea I got such a great job.

Everything else is going well. We are taking it a little at a time. Again thank you to everyone who helped me get this job.


Zoie:Thank you so much big girl. I got the message that you were here. Thank you for showing me you were at home. (Zoie turned her night light on for me last night)
I love you and miss you. Please stay be my side and help me do great at work.


Monday, January 9, 2006 3:48 PM CST

What a way to start off the New Year. I quit my job. I couldn't stay there any longer. Most of you know what kind of boss I had and why I had to quit. I will be able to go into more detail later. We are doing ok. I am enjoying staying home for now. You know by next week I will be going crazy. Travis is worried staying home will hurt me and make me get more depressed. But I think I'm ok for now. I am looking for a new job. But I want a job that I will enjoy going to and enjoy doing. I don't want a job that will make me worst off than what I already am. I hope everyone's new year is going great. I am determined to make this year a great one for me, travis and my mom. We went visit miss Zoie yesterday and cleaned her grave. I would stay there all day if I could. Just knowing that my daughters body is right there under all that. But I know in my heart she is happy and better off up in heaven.

I will update more later.

zoie i love you

missing zoie
chastity


Sunday, January 1, 2006 5:35 PM CST

Happy New Year to all..

We are doing ok. We didn't do anything great for New Year's Eve. I think we were in bed and sleeping before 12am. I think we are getting old. I just feel we have nothing great to celebrate. I just keep going day by day. I have been working alot more and have no time to update. I am praying that this year will bring good to our life. Hopefully God will answer our prayers and take care of us. I know that we just have to go through the bad to get to the good. I know he has a wonderful plan for us.

I pray that everyone had a safe New Year and also may the year bring nothing but good to you and your family.

Zoie bug: I bet you haven't been called that in a long time. like always mommy and daddy miss and love you. Please ask God to make mommy and daddy's year great.


Friday, December 23, 2005 9:34 AM CST

Sorry the update in very late. I just have been feeling yuck. I don't want to do anything. It's not that I'm sick or anything. I just want christmas to be over. This year is just as hard as last. This year my dad isn't home. He is around sometimes but it's not the same. But we will be ok. Zoie is going to take care of us like always. I pray that next year will be the year of good for my family. Please pray for us. We need all we can get. Nothing else exciting is going on. It's the same every day go to work and home. That's about it.


I wish every one a happy and safe Christmas. Please say a extra prayer for all the children who are in the hospital for christmas.

Also go to http://www.lunchforlife.org/giving_tree_children.aspx
and find Zoie's name and donate your lunch. Thank you Brandi and Neal that was so sweet of yall. Yall are great people and like I always say God brought yall into our lives for a reason and I thank him for doing it. We love yall.

Zoie: I can't imagine what christmas is going to be like in Heaven. I hope you have a wonderful Day and mommy and daddy miss you and love you. Thank you for turning on your night light. I know that you are always with us.


Tuesday, November 29, 2005 9:04 PM CST

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIG GIRL!!!!!!!!

To think that 6yrs. ago I was in labor. I would have never in my life thought I was in horrible pain having her to only have to suffer a more horrible pain only 4yrs later. A pain that will last my whole life. I thank God everyday for letting me have her for 4 wonderfull years. She came and did her job and had to go back home to God. I just wish she could of done her job a little slower. But God needed her more than we did. She left behind wonderful friends and memories.

Please send Zoie a birthday wish and balloon. She loved to send her balloons to her angels everytime she got one.
Heaven has to be a wonderful place. I know of one very special angel there.


missing zoie for life
chastity


Here is our home address for those who asked
126-c brumley lane
duson,la,70529


Thursday, November 24, 2005 12:59 AM CST

HAPPY TURKEY DAY TO ALL....

This will be very short. I don't have much time...
I got in a wreck on Tuesday. I am sore but ok. No one was hurt. I ran into the back of a lady. My car is messed up. $4,500 worth of damage. So I am without a car until probably the 1st of the year. Look out mom, you will be bringing me everywhere. Have a great day.

chastity

zoie:I love and miss you big girl.

Please send Zoie a birthday balloon and wish on Nov.30 She will be 6


Monday, November 14, 2005 10:59 AM CST

We made it... What a wonderful trip. First of all thank you to all of Zoie's Angels. Y'all did a great job. Our ride in the car was just exciting. Poor Suzie Q (Erin) and Aunt June probably never thought that you could laugh so much.

We pulled up to Rmh with so many supplies. When we opened the trailer door things were falling out. It was great to see that so many people opened their hearts to help us. We stayed and had supper with a great group that cooks at rmh every month. Their food and company are wonderful. We spent some much needed time with miss Madelyn. We really must have helped her spirts, she was able to get out of the hospital and spend time with us at her home. She is so much like Zoie. I love her and her family very much.

Thank you Brandi,Neal,Tyler and Miss Madelyn for allowing us to sleep in your home. Thank you for making us feel welcome.

We surprised mom with a Birthday cake of course it was of Elvis. I was suprised she let us cut it. She cried like a baby when she saw it. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!!!!

Well I have to head to work. But thank you to everyone who made this weekend wonderful.

Visit


Tuesday, November 8, 2005 7:40 PM CST

Sorry the update is so late. WE have been busy getting things ready for our St. Jude trip. I have never been on the radio so much in my life. I feel like I work for them. But that's ok I'll do anything to get the word out about Zoie's Angels. WE have collected so much and have so much more to get. I can't wait to go and see our st. jude families. I miss them.

Thank you to all Zoie's Angels for coming out thursday to the st. jude concert. It was great to see all of yall supporting st. jude.


Zoie please be with us on our trip. Please watch over us and let us have a safe trip. I love and miss you big like Heaven. I know you are with Madelyn right now holding her hand. She needs you big girl. Please don't let her suffer.


Please visit Madelyn's website and say a prayer for her. She is having a hard time right now. www.caringbridge.org/tn/madelyn


Tuesday, October 18, 2005 12:12 AM CDT

Sorry the update is way late. We have been busy. We are getting everything ready for our Zoie's Angels trip to Memphis. I can't wait. We have so much already and haven't started with the radio station yet. On Nov.3 there is going to be a concert to support St. Jude. It cost 97 cents to get in. If you want more info about it go to www.973thedawg.com. They are also going to collect items for Zoie's Angels. This year is going to be bigger than I thought it would. I just knew it would be hard to get items from people. Most people are tried of giving after the hurricane. But I guess the royal St. Jude supports will always help out.

Anyone wanting to help us or need a copy of our flyers let me know.337-654-8408 I can get one sent to you. If you go to www.973thedawg.com there is a link to get to a copy of our flyer(minus the pretty angel and heading) but it is almost the same. Check it out. Thanks for all the help. I know that Zoie is smiling down proud of everyone who is helping.

So thats about it. Nothing exciting going on here.



Zoie- You are missed so much. Mommy is having a rough time right now. Please help me. We love you big like heaven. I can see you dancing on the golden streets in heaven. I bet you have yellow and purple ballet shoes and angel wings. I smile everytime I think of the crazy little things you would say and do.


Missing my angel
chastity


October 5, 2005

Well we are ok... I think. We ran from the Hurricane. We went to our second home. Of course Memphis, TN. We had a great time. We got to visit with Zoie's favorite nurses and Doctor. We also got to spend time with our Memphis Family. Brandi,Madelyn,Neal,Tyler,Allsion,Benjamin,and of course Miss Melinda. We enjoyed our time with them. I really think Brandi cheated at cards. She just wanted our money.. But it was so much fun. We got home on Sunday. We had very little damage. Zoie did her job and protected everything. It's amazing how her plant from her funneral and her playhouse didn't get any damage but our and my dad's shed has damage. She was watching over her stuff. We are ok and will be ok. There is so much going on in my crazy family but I put it all in God's hands and know he is going to show us the right way and take care of us. So that's really all that is going on in our crazy life. Nothing really exciting.
Look we have music! Isn't it great? Thank you so much Brandi(Madelyn's mom) you are so good. I feel we have this connection. God brought them in our lives right before Zoie passed away. I know it was for a reason. When I held Madelyn that weekend it was like I was holding little miss Zoie. They look and act so much alike. It is so unreal. And to hear that Madelyn is now talking about Heaven. It brought back so many good and bad memories. I pray everyday Madelyn will be the one to make it. Please visit her website. www.caringbridge.org/tn/madelyn

Ok now to my thank yous...

Tina,Jeff and Hayden: Thank you for calling to see about us and offering your home. We might take you up on the offer one day. Tina keep your head up and don't give up. It doesn't get easier but you will make it. God will make sure of that.

Melinda,Brittnee and Taylor: Thank you for a wonderful time. Thank you for taking care of Momo Monkey while she slept with y'all. She enjoyed herself.

Allison,Ben: Thank you for letting us sleep at your home. I always feel welcome with y'all. You are wonderful.

Brandi,Neal,Tyler and Princess Madelyn:
Like always you made us feel so loved. Thank you for supper,taking our money(ha Ha) shopping and spending time with us. Brandi thank you for letting us be part of y'all lives. Neal, I know Brandi will probally hate me for saying this but you are a great cook. Everytime we go you have cooked something great.

Miss Zoie: Thank you big girl for watching over us and getting us there and home safe. I miss and love you big like heaven. Please help us to make the right choices and help us to get our new house and make a life for us and momo monkey. I know you will. We all miss you more than we can say.




Don't forget to order your Leaves book. Zoie's story is in it. Here is the address and phone number. I ordered extras so I know they will send it too you.
LEAVES
P. O. Box 87
Dearborn, Michigan 48121-0087
313-561-2330
Just call or write to them make sure you tell them tha you want a copy of Volume 71 Sept-Oct 2005 No.5
You should get it in a couple of days. Her story is on page 13.
I think it's wonderful that they did this.


Getting by one day at a time.
chastity


TEARS ARE THE PROOF OF LIFE

"How long will the pain last?" a broken hearted mourner asked me.

"All the rest of your life," I answered truthfully.

No matter how many years pass, we remember. The loss of a loved one is like a major operation; part of us is removed, and we have a scar for the rest of our lives.

This doesn't mean that the pain continues at the same intensity. There is a short while, at first, when we hardly believe it. It is rather like when we have cut our hand, we see the blood flowing, but the pain has not yet set in. So when we are bereaved, there is a short while before the pain hits us. But when it does, it is massive in its effect. Grief is shattering.

Then the wound is healed, so to speak. The stiches are taken out....The scar is still there, and the scar tissue too. As the years go by, we manage, but the pain is still there, not far below the surface. We see a face that looks familiar, hear a voice that has echoes, see a photograph in someone's album, and it is as though the knife were in the wound again.

But not so painfully. And mixed with joy, too. Because remembering a happy time is not all sorrow; it brings back happiness with it.

"How long will the pain last?"

All the rest of your life.

But the thing to remember is that not only the pain will last, but the memories as well. Tears are the proof of life. The more love, the more tears. If this be true, than how could we ever ask that the pain cease altogether? For then the memory of love would go with it. The pain of grief is the price we pay for love.

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Friday, August 12, 2005 10:37 AM CDT

Ok here it is. Not much to update. Nothing exciting is going on around here. Just trying to live with a broken heart. You know if everything would have gone right Travis and I would be having a baby. Today was my due date. But I know that God has other plans for us. Also sit here and think about this. A lot of parents have lost their child to cancer. But we know of at least 5 who have passed and yeah their parents know and hurt the same way we do but our hurt is different. Those parents lost their child but they also have other kids. Travis and I went from being a parent to nothing. We have no other child to keep living for. So do you see how our hurt is different? I have been thinking about that lately. But anyway that's the way God chose it to be.

I have to tell everyone about my experience early this moring. Some of you may think I'm losing my mind but I'm not. The other night while missing Zoie very much I prayed to her and asked her to give me a sign to let me know she is here with me. Well about 6:30am I got up to see about our new puppy and I passed her room. I thought it looked kind of bright in the hall. It was to early for the sun to be that bright. I opened her room door and started crying. Her night light in her room was turned on. Now keep in mind we got home at 2:00am this moring from the casino and it was dark in the house and no lights were on. Then to get up and her night light to be on. This isn't the first time that it gets turned on. So I know she was there. I thought maybe y'all would like to hear that story.

Zoie: Thank you so much big girl. I love and miss you big like heaven. Please don't leave mommy and daddy.

missing Zoie
chastity


Monday, July 25, 2005 8:05 PM CDT

Hello everyone. This weekend was really nice. It started out Friday. On Sunday Travis and I celeabrated 12 years together. So I thought I would be nice and sent Travis balloons to his work. Well I thought I got him good. We kept joking about it. Well when he got home I went in the room and was teasing him that I got him. To my surprise he got me better. There on the counter was a diamond ring. I cried he got me good. He got me better than I got him. Later that night we decided to go to the casino. Well about 3am I was playing a penny machine and won 1,000 dollars. How cool is that. We were very excited. I didn't know what to do. Travis was yelling. Saturday we spent with my mom. And sunday we went to a party at another casino it was nice. We had lunch with mom,Troilynn,Donald,Paula and our new friend Miss Stephanie. It was really nice. I wish every weekend could be like this.

Zoie: Thanks for the money I know you had something to do with it. Also I found jessie's horse that you left for me. I know you are letting me know you are around. I love you big girl. I wish you could of been here to be with mom and daddy this weekend. I look back at all the things you would go shopping with daddy and buy for me. Let me tell everyone about a special gift that I will never forget. Zoie always wanted me to have those red pasta pots you would see on tv. Everytime she saw them any where she would say mom you want those. So for mother's day last year Travis took her shopping and bought them for me from her. she was so excited. The mintue she got home she walked in and said "mom you know those pots you want we bought them for you" I started laughing and Travis told her not to say that was a secert she turned and looked at him and said "well we got her a card too." That is a memory I will never forget. It was so cute. Travis always says he is so glad he did that with her and made her so happy.

Travis: Thank you for 12 great years. I hope we have many more. If we could get through everything we have been through we can take on the world and make it. Lots of people have tried to get in between us but look at us still going strong. Thank you so much for my new ring. I will get you back. You just wait. I love you....


Monday, July 11, 2005 10:34 AM CDT

Yesterday was a very emotional day. I was hurting until we got to her grave site. Two things happened to make me feel better. First of all, while waiting for everyone to arrive, it started to sprinkle(keep in mind it was a nice day there were no clouds)after a few sprinkles it stopped. I laughed all night. I kept telling Travis that was Zoie letting us know she was there with us. The second thing that happened was seeing how many people still love Miss Zoie. Over 40 people showed up at her grave to send her prayers and balloons.

I have some special thank yous to send. First to Erin. Thank you so much for coming out. You don't know what it means to us that without even knowing or meeting Zoie you came out to be with us.(Erin only knew of Zoie through her website. We had never met Erin before) You are a great person. I hope one day your dreams come true and you can work for St. Jude. We would love it for you to join us in Novemember and come with us to St. Jude with Zoie's Angels.

Mr. John and Ms. Nicky,
I never thought in my life we would meet strangers that would end up loving our daughter, help make some of her dreams come true, help make sure she went out like the princess she is, and continue to be part of our lives. You don't know how much y'all mean to us. I can't say thank you enough.

Ms. Stephanie(from our local radio station)
I never thought after meeting you once on our great trip to Nashville you would be come part of our life. You didn't even know Zoie but came out to show your love. Thank you so much.

Ms.Gabby and Sheena, thank y'all so much for coming. I can see Gabby and Zoie playing at RMH. I love spending time with y'all. Gabby is a sweet little girl. Please keep in touch with us. I will say a extra prayer next Monday when she goes for scans. I know Zoie will watch over her and make everything good. Tell Paul he needs to get a job where he can come and be with us for some of our outings.

Now to Zoie's Angels. Once again y'all seem to amaze me. Thank all of you for coming out and sending our princess a note of love. I don't think Travis and I could get through this with out the help of y'all. Please don't give up Zoie's Angels. I know she is proud of all of us. It was great to see everyone. Aunt Brenda hope your foot is better.(sorry) Chad, I know Zoie is watching over Gavin. She gave him lots of angel kisses before he came to earth. Daddy, I know it was hard yesterday to have Gavin there but not have Zoie yelling, "Pa." Know that she watches over you. Mom(momo monkey) thank you for everything. I love the blanket. It will make me think of Zoie when I use it. Please know that you are not alone. Zoie is always by your side. Hannah, I know that mo and Zoie got your special balloon. To all of the other special Angels, I can't name everyone by name but please know that y'all all mean the world to us. Now that we have gotten through this we need to work on collecting supplies for the RMH and blankets for the kids. I know y'all can do it. Y'all ars angels. And Angels can do anything.

Ok one last Thank You. To everyone around the world who sent Zoie balloons and prayers. You don't know how good y'all make us feel. Knowing that Zoie got balloons from all over the place. I bet she had all her friends catching balloons. She probally has so many every St. jude child has one to play with. If you are ever in need of help pray to Zoie I know she will help answer your prayer. We love you all.

Last but not least Miss Zoie.
Mommy and daddy hope you got all the balloons. I hope you like the Princess ones on your grave. I also know you like the stickers of Mary we put on the balloons. Thank you for the sprinkle of holy water. I know you were letting us know not to cry that you are happy and you were there with us. I love and miss you big like Heaven. You will always be mommy's big girl.

Thanking God for sending us his true Angel,
chastity and travis


Saturday, July 9, 2005 8:00 PM CDT

***PLEASE DON'T FORGET TO SEND ZOIE PRAYERS AND BALLOONS TOMORROW AT 6:00. I KNOW SHE WILL BE WAITING ON THEM. I CAN SEE HER SITTING THERE WITH HER ST. FRIENDS WAITING TO CATCH THEM. EVERY TIME ZOIE HAD A BALLOON SHE WOULD ASK US IF SHE WOULD SEND IT TO HER ANGELS. SO I THINK IT IS ONLY RIGHT TO SEND MY ANGEL A BALLOON ON HER FIRST HEAVEN BIRTHDAY****

Tomorrow is going to be a hard day. On the 7th it was hard. Thinking back that a year ago her doctors told us she had 2 weeks to live and she only made it three more days. It had to be her time and her way. My heart is hurting. I keep trying not to think of what we felt last year but it so hard. I keep telling myself think of the good times not the bad ones. My mind is just going crazy. I just want to hide somewhere. I feel if I just yell or beat someone up I would feel better. And I know thats not true. I just have to be strong and get through this.
Please pray for us tomorrow. Don't forget to join us in prayer.

chastity


Tuesday, July 5, 2005 11:09 AM CDT

****WE ARE ASKING EVERYONE ON JULY 10 AT 6:00 TO STOP AND SAY A PRAYER FOR ZOIE. WE ALL ARE MEETING AT HER GRAVE TO SEND HER BALLOONS AND PRAYERS. IF YOU CAN AND WOULD LIKE TO JOIN US PLEASE DO SO. IF YOU NEED DIRECTIONS PLEASE CALL ME AT 337-654-8408 ******

We had a wonderful weekend. We went to Memphis. We visited Ronald McDonald house. It was hard and I cried but we needed that. Just being there and thinking that one year ago our baby was there dying. We did have fun. We spent time with Melinda,Allsion and our special little friend Madelyn. I think I really needed that time with her. She is Zoie all over again. Brandi and Neal, thank you so much. We loved playing cards and winning all of your money. I hope to do that again soon. It was great seeing y'all.

Well, I have to hurry to work. I will write more later.


missing zoie,
chastity


Sunday, June 19, 2005 12:02 AM CDT

This is a really tough time. We are getting to the one year mark. Today is fathers day and Travis is having to spend it without his baby girl. We are all missing Zoie very much right now. They did a special about her on the 6:00pm news. It was so amazing to see and hear her for the first time. It's like we haven't heard her voice in years. It was so good to hear her. You can't imagine whats it's like to not hear your child's voice. We will never hear I love you or just the silly things she would say. Have a great day.

Travis: I know that today is hard but please know she is here with us and I love you. Thank you for taking up for Zoie and I yesterday.


Zoie: I love you. I wanted to tell you something.. I bet it's five oclock somewhere..


****ON JULY 10 WE ARE ALL MEETING AT ZOIE'S GRAVE. WE WILL BE SENDING HER BALLOONS AND PRAYERS. IF YOU LIVE HERE AND CAN MAKE IT PLEASE DO. IF NOT WE ARE ASKING THAT EVERYONE PLEASE STOP WHAT YOUR DOING AT 6:00PM AND SAY A LITTLE PRAYER TO ZOIE. THANK YOU SO MUCH*******


Tuesday, June 14, 2005 7:06 PM CDT

Ok where do I start? Our trip was amazing. We did things people only dream of doing. First, let me start with who we saw: Alan Jackson,Craig Morgan,Andy Griggs,Dolly Parton,Bryan White,Tanya Tucker,Big and Rich,Cowboy Troy,She-dasiy,Jimmy Wayne,David lee Murphy, Phil Vasher, SaraEvans, Grethen Wilson and so many more. We got to meet LeeAnn Wolmack, Kevin Sharp,Charley Pride,Blake Larson,Craig Morgan,Joe Diffy,Glenn Cummings,Jay Teter, lots more but one special newcomer named Curtis Allen. Everyone needs to support him. He donates 15f all his proceeds to St. Jude. I had to meet him and thank him. I felt a special connection with him. I told him what he is doing is great. He was a very nice person so if you hear him please support him.

On Saturday night we got to go to the Grand Ole Opry. That was so great. We actually got to go on the stage and watch the singers. We had back stage passes.(How cool is that?) The stars would walk right next to us. We got to meet them all and take pictures. We saw all the dressing rooms and sat in their green room. I would never have dreamed we would get the chance to be there. You can't even buy tickets to get back there. You have to have connections or be a star. I don't think we will ever experience something like that again.

We have to thank the radio station for letting us go. Thank you 97.3 The Dawg.

Thank you Zoie for being with mom and dad. We had a scare but I know you were there holding mommy and daddy's hand. We love you and miss you so much.


Monday, June 6, 2005 6:19 PM CDT

First of all I have sad news. Emma Grace earned her angel wings today. The three buddies are together again. Please visit her website and let her family know you care. www.caringbridge.org/ar/emmagrace

We are leaving to go on our trip Thursday. We are excited. Please pray we have a safe trip. I know that Zoie will be with us. We don't have much going on. Nothing really to update.

There are some things I do need to say. So let me say I'm sorry for having to put this on here but I tried doing it another way and it didn't work. I hope I don't offend anyone but the person that it's meant for.(you know who you are)

There is a message that was left for us to read. It is nothing but lies. First of all if Zoie's grandfather loved her as much as y'all claim then why at his GRANDDAUGHTER's funeral did he made the remark that he wished this sh..t would hurry and finish so he could go and cut his grass. That doesn't seem like love to me. There were strangers at Zoie's funeral who cared more than Zoie's own grandfather. Zoie knew who loved her and who didn't. So, Travis and I would appreicate that you don't put lies on her website anymore.

thank you
chastity and travis

Zoie: mommy and daddy know you are happy. You got both of your buddies now. You told us before you died you would take them. I miss and love you very much.


Saturday, May 28, 2005 7:41 PM CDT

****I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPEN TO THE HUG COUNTER BUT IT'S BACK.. SO LETS GIVE ZOIE BACK HER HUGS********
Please visit Zoie's Quilts they are so cute..
http://quiltsoflove.com/quilt/zoieS/zoieS.html

http://smilequilt.com/zoie.html

Little Miss Zoie did it again. We got a book from a St. Jude worker. In the book in a picture of Zoie. She will never stop. I am amazed at what that little angel conitues to do. I love her so much.

Life is getting hard these months. And someone up there knows it. I know she had something to do with us winning that trip. We won a trip to Nashville to Fan Fair to see the country singers how cool is that. They are flying us out on June 9 and we will fly home on the 13th. They are putting us up in the hotel and giving us tickets to all the events. We can't wait. It is going to be a nice get a way. I can't wait. We will also get to see Miss Chelinda. She just so happen to be in Nashville the same time. Please pray we have a safe trip.

zoie: thank you big girl I know you had something to do with this. I love and miss you.

travis: I love you so much and can't wait to take our little vaction.

to the Lott family: here is how you fry pickles.
a jar of dill pickles
flour
milk
eggs

dip the pickles in a mixture of eggs and milk then in flour.
then fry like chicken. Hope this helps and enjoy.
send some to us..


Saturday, May 14, 2005 5:56 PM CDT

Friday, May 27, 2005
Travis won a trip to Nashville, Tennessee! We will be flying to Nashville and enjoying Fanfare from June 9th - June 13th! It will be a much needed vacation! YEAH!


Life is really hard right now. It was a year ago Thursday that we found out Zoie's cancer was back and we started that St. Jude life again. I had a really bad day and night last night. Making a year of everything is really getting hard. I don't know what I'm going to do on July 10. I know I should look at it that she isn't in any pain and not suffering but I would give anything to hear her say mommy I love you or to be able to hold her one more time. Nothing will ever stop this pain. I wish no mom would ever have to feel this way. It's horrible.

Mothers day was sad. Travis did his best to make it good. He suprised me with flowers and a card. That was very sweet he is such a sweetheart. Thank you travis for always being there and being the strong one. I love you forever.

Zoie: They say that when you cry an angel comes and bottles up your tears. I know you have been busy picking up mommys. I love you and miss you more than anything. Please watch over Madelyn and take care of her.






*HUGS* TOTAL!
give Zoie more *HUGS*

Get hugs of your own



Sunday, May 8, 2005 2:23 PM CDT

We had a wonderful night friday night. We drove to Baton Rouge to spend time with Madelyn and her family. I cried sitting there watching her. She is Zoie all over again. Just some of the things she would do and say. I just sat there watching but really seeing Zoie. I know Zoie is with us all the time. We drove back home Saturday for my cousins wedding. It was really nice. We have not been doing much. Just working and missing Zoie bug.

Last weekend we were invited to a wedding. It was for Zoie's nurse Kim. I felt so special we were the only St. Jude family invited. Then at the mass they even talked about Zoie. I felt good knowing that Zoie made such an impact on Kim. It makes us feel so proud when someone speaks of Zoie or uses her picture.

Zoie: I know you are here with mommy today. I miss you more than ever. I sat on my bed today looking at the little box and flowers you made me last year for mothers day. Of course I cried.

On May 11 it will be one year already that Zoie's cancer came back. It seems like yesterday.


Wednesday, April 27, 2005 10:38 PM CDT

This weekend was wonderful. To see so many people come out and support St. Jude. We sold alot of Zoie stickers and I still have plenty if you would like one please get in touch with me. I have alot of thank yous.

Melinda: thank you for coming and being with us. It meant so much to me to have you here with us. Thank you for the poem in the guest book. I don't know where you got it but it is so true. It made me cry. Please everyone go and read it. We love you. You are part of our family. I'm glad God brought into our lives.

Zoie's Angels: thank you all who came out to be with us. It means so much to me to know that yall cared about Zoie so much that yall would help us keep her name alive.

To all the new visitors: Thank you for taking the time to read Zoie's website. Please leave us a note and let us know you were here. (her website address is in the paper)

Zoie: We love you big girl. Thank you for visiting mommy and daddy tonight. We heard you. Please continue to help mom and dad. WE want to make you proud of us the way we are proud of you. We are so proud and feel so good everytime someone gets on here and lets us know that they saw your picture somewhere. WE are still touching hearts. I miss you more than ever. Also I know you will be with Miss Kim this weekend at her wedding. Please let her have a great day.


Friday, April 22, 2005 11:01 AM CDT

Let start with Thank you to St.Jude. They are flying our favorite Child Life Specialist, Melinda here to Lafayette to be with us this weekend at Cajun Woodstock. It's the fund raiser for St. Jude in Zoie's Honor. WE are very excited. She was a big part of Zoie's life. Nothing else really is going on. Just getting everything ready for that. We are going to be selling Zoie stickers. I hope we do well with them. The money will go to help buy for our trip to Ronald Mcdonald House in November.


Zoie: I know I say this everytime, but we miss you like crazy. Please help your daddy.(You know what I'm talking about.)Please be with us this weekend. It will be hard to see your picture everywhere and hear your name all day long. I love you big like Heaven.


Tuesday, April 12, 2005 9:00 PM CDT

Gate Called Beautiful

Pale winter sun means the days are getting shorter, But somehow each one seems a bit longer. It's been a hard year.

They say, "patience is a virtue," but it's been so long to wait, Praying for answers, clinging to faith. C'mon now, dry those tears.

At the gate called beautiful, may you find your miracle. Angels watch you through the night, Wake you with the morning's light.

So you sit by your window, as the world passes by, Oh to be a cloud, to have the freedom to fly, And rise above the pain.

But freedom's elusive when you feel so alone, When the view is your companion and a chair is your home. You'll be free again.

At the gate called beautiful, may you find your miracle. Angels hide you in their wings, Perfect peace to you they bring.

Now the battle you've fought has taken its toll, Your flesh has grown weak but there is strength in your soul, And resolve in your voice.

And as the springtime approaches, the days are getting longer. With each passing day, I see you a big stronger, Oh how we'll rejoice!

At the gate called beautiful, you have found your miracle. Angels watch you through the night, Wake you with the morning's light. Angels hide you in their wings, Perfect peace to you they bring.

Copyright 2002 Courtney C. Patty/CCP Music


Well we had a nice but hard weekend. It was nice seeing all of Zoie's favorite nurses and child life people. It was very hard walking in to the hospital without her holding my hand. Driving up was hard because she would have been in her car seat yelling,"Look it's Aunt Jude. (That's what she called it.) I felt so proud when a nurse came up and told us that we are the most talked about family at St. Jude. It feels good to know that Zoie made such an impact on so many people. We even got to see Dr. Santana. It was nice talking to him. We got to hear the nurses talk about their fav. stories of Zoie. We laughed and cried.

Saturday was the hardest. It hurt to see Zoie's picture come up on the slide show of all the kids that passed away. We all sat there crying. I know Zoie was with us the whole time. I bet she was up there with the other angels saying" Look our mommies are talking" We got to spend some time with our St. Jude families. Little Madelyn Beamon is a sweetheart. She is Zoie all over again. We also went to see Emma Grace who is in ICU on the vent. That was very hard. She is in the same room Zoie was in. It brought back a lot of memories. Please pray for her. We also spent time with Ms. Allison and Ms. Melinda. It was nice to see them and catch up with them. I hated having to leave them. I feel so close to Zoie when I'm with them. I want to go back to St. Jude sooner than Novmember. I felt like I was home being there. WE would take that life back in a heart beat but wouldn't want Zoie back with cancer. I know she is better off.


Zoie: Hey big girl. I miss you so much. I know you were with us (mommy,daddy,pa,momo monkey, and Troi) this weekend. WE did get the lady bug you sent to us. Hope you like the balloon. I love you big like Heaven. Please don't stop coming around. WE are so proud of you.....


Tuesday, March 22, 2005 12:14 AM CST

Happy Easter to everyone. We have been very busy lately. We have been helping out with the Cajun Woodstock fundraiser for St. Jude. They had flyers made and guess who is in it? Of course Miss Zoie! Then thanks to a very nice lady in Mississippi we got a poster that St. Jude made for a walk-a-thon and of course again there on the top is Miss Zoie's picture. She is just everywhere. I'm so proud of her. We are getting ready for a very hard trip. We are going to St. Jude april 8-10 for Day of Remeberance. It is going to be so hard going to the hospital. It will be nice to see all Zoie's favorite nurses and Child Life Specialists. Well I gotta run to work. That sounds funny... me working. I will try to update sooner.

Zoie: I love you big girl...


Friday, March 4, 2005 6:16 PM CST

I am sooo sorry I haven't updated in a long time. Life has been crazy for us. WE thought this year would be better but if it gets any worse I'll go crazy! First of all I lost the baby, and had to have two D&C's. Then Stanton died. My dad decided he doesn't want to live with my mom for now. So he moved out. So I'm taking care of mom and loving it. Then on Monday night my mom was in a horrible car accident. She was stopped and some stuipd boy didn't stop and hit her. It totalled her car. She was put in the hospital for 3 days and is still hurting. She was hit so hard she flew up and hit the steering wheel. Her head, back, shoulders ,neck and leg are hurt. So since my dad wants to be a free man it's all on me. Which I don't mind at all. I love my mom and would do anything for her. I'm just tired and ready for something good to happen to our family. Please pray for us. I need all the prayers I can get.

I have to say thank you to my cousin Troi. I don't know what I would be doing with out her. She has helped me with my mom. Thank you so much. I love you .


zoie: i know you were there with ma when she wrecked, she told me. please help her to get better. and please help our family be happy again. mommy and daddy are missing you so much. we love you big like heaven.


Wednesday, February 9, 2005 10:25 AM CST

First, let me start by letting you know that Little Stanton is not doing well. There is nothing more that St. Jude can do. They are to the point we were at in July. I cry everytime I read his website. It is like we are reliving it all over again. Stanton is doing all of the same things Zoie did her last week. From peeling the skin off his lips, not going to the potty, wanting to just sleep, to the tumor on the liver. It's Zoie all over again. I know in my heart that Zoie is with him the same way her angels were with her. So please visit his website and let them know you care.

Well, yesterday was Mardi Gras. We had a good time. It was sad not having Zoie there with us. Zoie's Angels were there and all of the beads we got are now going to St. Jude kids.

We have a lot going on in our lives right now. This weekend we are flying to Connecticut for a St. Jude telathon in Zoie's memory. Please pray that we have a safe trip. This will be the first time Travis and I fly. I am so scared. I know that Zoie will be with us but I am scared. I can't stress that enough.

Anyway, please remember we have stickers. And if anyone would like to help or become a Zoie's Angel let me know.

chastity schexnayder
126-c brumley lane
duson,la,70529

Zoie: Please be with Stanton and let him know it's ok to go home to Heaven. Hold his hand and take care of him like your angels did you. I love and miss you, big girl. I hope you are proud of all of the things mommy is doing to keep your name and sprit alive. I love you.



Stanton's website is... www.caringbridge.org/la/stanton


Sunday, January 30, 2005 10:16 AM CST

"You're in a better place, I've heard them say a thousand times.
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you.
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry, is how long must I wait to be with you?
I close my eyes and I see your face.
If home is where my heart is then I'm out of place.
Lord, won't you give me the strength to make it through somehow.
I've never been more homesick than now.
Help me Lord because I don't understand your ways. The reason why I'll never know.
But even if You showed me the hurt would be the same.
Because I'm here and so far away from home.
In Christ there are no good-byes.
In Christ there is no end.
SO I'LL HOLD ONTO JESUS WITH ALL THAT I HAVE, TO SEE YOU AGAIN."

We are doing okay. We went to Texas for the weekend. It was nice to get away. I went shopping. I love shopping in Texas. I have been keeping myself busy with getting things for our trip to The Ronald McDonald House in Memphis. We can't wait to go and cook for them and bring those children toys and make them smile. Sherry better be ready this time because it is going to be so big! We have already gotten so much for them. We are hoping that one day we will need an eighteen wheeler to carry all of the stuff to them. I have been picking up different things for the kids. We are going to supply them with lots of goodies this year.

While in Texas we had lots of Zoie stickers made. They look really nice now. We changed up the colors. So they are purple on top and yellow on the bottom. They look a lot better. So if anyone wants one, let me know. They are $5.00 All of the money we make is going to pay for the food for us cook for The Ronald McDonald House. You need one of these stickers on the back of your car!

Also if there is anyone who would like to help with donations for the children at RMH please let me know. We have been picking up little things that are marked down like book bags,games,toys... they enjoy anything.

Thanks for everything.
chastity and travis schexnayder
126-c brumley lane
duson, LA 70529

Princess Zoie: We miss you of course. I think about you and miss you daily. I guess we will cry for you for the rest of our lives. Please continue to give us the faith to keep going on.
We love you like Heaven big girl.


Sunday, January 16, 2005 7:10 PM CST

Don't Forget to check out the new pictures of Zoie's journey.

*** URGENT PRAYER REQUEST*** Chastity is having surgery today (1/18/05) at 4pm. She has been experiencing a lot of pain and other symptoms since the DNC. An ultrasound today revealed that the placenta was inadvertantly left in and was causing the problems. Please, please pray. The Schexanayder's and familie's spirits are down and they continue to be heartbroken.


Well life sucks...I have just been really down in the dumps. It seems like nothing good will ever happen in our life. I wonder what we did to have to go through all of this hurt. I guess I will never understand. We have to keep going through pain. I sit here and say, "why me?" Maybe one day God will shine on us again. I shouldn't be upset; God gave me the greatest gift of having Zoie for 4 years. I'm just hurting. I wish we could be one of those people who are happy and have kids. I want to be able to share my love again with a child. Zoie still has my heart but it would be great to have a child to teach all about Jesus and it's big sister Zoie. I'm sorry to pour out my heart but I'm hurting and need to get it out. Crying and hiding it isn't working anymore.

Sorry for such a depressing update. Please pray for all the St. Jude kids. Stanton is in the hospital with a fever and needs extra prayers, his cancer just won't go away. And Emma grace is back in the hospital. All these kids need prayers. I know my Angel Zoie is helping take care of them.

Zoie: I miss you. Did you see all the crosses Pa made for us to send to St. Jude for the kids? I know you are proud of us. We will never let anyone forget your name or who you are. We love you. Mommy and Daddy.


Tuesday, January 4, 2005 7:57 PM CST

*Check out the new photos in Zoie's album!

*** UPDATE *** It is with sadness that I report that Chastity lost the baby yesterday, January 5th. Please keep Chastity, Travis and family in prayers as they are once again grieving another loss.

Chastity had a DNC last Friday. Her mom and Travis are taking good care of her. Today (January 10th,) is the 6 month anniversary of Zoie's death.


Sorry we haven't updated in a while. Christmas was horrible it was like any other day. But we are doing ok. Of course we miss Zoie like crazy everyday. Well Zoie is a cousin for the first time on my side of the family. My parents second grandchild was born to my brother and his girlfriend on Dec.27. Visit this web address to see him
http://www.growingfamily.com/webnursery/babypage_view.asp?URLID=8H1Z8R8D4I I hope that works. He is a cutie. His name is Gavin James Doucet. He is small compared to what Zoie weighed. But he is such a good baby. You never hear him cry. I hope our next one is that good. We can't wait to know what ours is. I really feel in my heart that it's a boy. I don't think God would send us another girl. I know he knows that she would be compared to Zoie even though we wouldn't do it on purpose. No matter what we have that child will be very loved. We are having another ultrasound tomorrow. My doctor wants to make sure everything is ok. I know it will be. I know Zoie is taking care of this baby. She will be the best big sister.


Zoie mommy and daddy miss you. We know you are smiling in Heaven knowing that you made mommy and daddy happy by helping send us this baby. Always remember you are our one and only big girl. forever and ever.


Wednesday, December 22, 2004 10:37 AM CST

Merry Christmas! This has to be the hardest time of the year. We are missing Zoie so much. It's hard to go to Christmas parties or get gifts knowing she should be here opening her presents. She loved doing that. We are happy about the new baby but missing Zoie so much. We didn't put up any Christmas stuff this year, not even a tree. I'm just not in the mood for Christmas.

I had an ultrasound yesterday and got to see the baby and heart beat. I cried so much knowing God took my big girl and now is sending us another. I'm 7 weeks and the baby is due on Aug.12,05. We truly know that Zoie had a lot to do with this. She wil be a great big sister.

Have a great Christmas and please pray for all of the St. Jude kids.


Saturday, December 11, 2004 9:25 AM CST

Well I have to let everyone know about the early Christmas present Travis and I got two days ago. We are going to have a baby! We will find out for sure about the due date at a doctor's appoitment on Monday or Tuesday. We are in such shock. It's like it's not real. It took us 6 years and drugs to have Zoie. And now for us not to be trying and end up pregnant. We know exactly where and who this baby is from. I guess Zoie had a talk with God and told him I want my mommy and daddy to be happy again. Please know that I could have 50 kids and not one would EVER take the place of my Princess Zoie. We are hopeing for a girl but we don't care as long as it's healthy.
Zoie: Thank you big we know you had a lot to do with this baby. You wanted to be a big sister. We miss you and love you. Please know that you will never be replaced or forgotten.


Heaven now has another St.Jude(neuroblastoma) child. Aaron Hunter passed away yesterday moring. He had a long hard battle. He did a lot of suffering in the end. Please visit his website and let them know we are praying for the family.
www.caringbridge.org/il/aarondhunter


Wednesday, December 1, 2004 4:02 PM CST

I have to start off by saying THANK YOU to all Zoie's Angels, Mr. John and Mrs. Nicki and to the Ice Gators. Last night was wonderful. We collected so many toys for the St. Jude Affilate. I don't know what the best part of the night was. I loved it all. From collecting toys to giving out thank you cards with zoie on them to getting to see Kim and Haley from Baton Rouge Affilate to being on t.v. or to having a moment of slience for Zoie before the game. I loved it all. I also want to say a big thanks to Mr. Frank Morris we know that Zoie and Justin arranged for you to be in Lafayette last night just to be with us. Thank you for dinner it was great talking about Zoie and Justin. We miss them both very much. I know Zoie is proud of all the toys and support people have given Zoie's Angels.

We have already started on our next mission. We are making christmas stockings for all the ronald mcdonald house and we are trying to make as many as possible for St. Jude. It helps to do things in Zoie's name. We have so much planned. In Feb. we are going to Connecticut to the St.Jude telethon Then in April we going to a St. Jude fund rasier Zoie is their Forever Queen. We will be doing all this at the age of 70 just to make sure no one ever forgets Princess Zoie.

Thank all of you for wishing our Princess a Happy Birthday. I know she danced and had a great time. I know she was there with us last night at the game.
I love you Zoie!!!


Sunday, November 28, 2004 12:33 AM CST

Well our Thanksgiving was ok. We went to my family's house to be with family and friends. The first thing when we walked in my cousin's 4 yr. old little boy asked, "Hey where's Zoie?" I cried. Then I thought about it. It did hurt but also made me feel good knowing that they aren't forgetting about her.

As most of you know, her birthday is Tuesday. She would be 5. So we thought about it and said she wouldn't want us sitting home crying. So Zoie's Angels teamed up with our Ice Hockey team, "The Louisiana Ice Gators" and we are doing a toy drive at the game Tuesday night for the St. Jude Affiliate in Baton Rouge,La. I thought since everyone would have been buying Zoie a gift they could buy a gift for another St. Jude child. So at the game they are going to talk about Zoie and show pictures of her. It feels good to do things to give back in her name. I know she is proud of everything we are doing in her name. We have about 20 of Zoie's Angels going to the game. We are all wearing our zoie's angels shirts. I don't remember if I put on her website about her name being in the Ice at the game. It is in purple at every game for everyone to see. I can't wait. Of course it will hard. We should be giving her a party and she would be giving her pa number 4. When she turned 4 she told me dad that he could have 3 she didn't need it anymore so now she would be giving him 4. He has made her a birthday cake out of wood that says "I'm 5." We are going to put it at her gravesite. Please say extra prayers for us that day. We all know Zoie doesn't need prayers, she is where we all hope to be one day.

Zoie: Happy birthday!! We will be sending you some gifts. We miss you and love you more than anything.


Thursday, November 11, 2004 10:38 AM CST

Well we did it. We went to Memphis. The trip was great. It was hard of course walking in that house down that hall, but I had to do it. I was so excited to see how big this thing turned out to be. In three months we got a trailer full of stuff for RMH and even $700 dollars. Isn't that great? Just think we did all that in 3 months can you imagine what we will do in a year???

It was great seeing everyone again. I loved spending time with everyone. Stanton is still the same. We had dinner with some of the St. Jude workers and Little Miss Madelyn. She is Zoie all over again. There is just something about her that reminds me of Zoie when we first started. I love her, she is such a doll. She had us all laughing and then she asked Travis the question I knew one child would. "Where is Zoie?" Of course we cried but we told her Zoie is in Heaven with Jesus and is now her angel. I didn't want to say goodbye. They made me feel so close to Zoie. I can't wait to see them again.

It really hit me hard when I walked in RMH and went to wake up Tina and Jeff. It was like Zoie was supposed to be there with Stanton. But I have to tell myself that she is in a better place. We hung her picture and story at RMH. I know when people read it it will help with their battle. We looked so good this weekend with everyone wearing Zoie's angels shirts that were either yellow or purple and said "Zoie's Angels."

I could go on and on but there is more that I have to tell everyone about.

I got a phone call from someone and they told me that St. Jude employees got their benifits book in the mail. For those of you who don't know keep in mind that St. Jude has over 5,000 empolyees. We couldn't belive who is on the cover of this book. Little Miss Zoie! Someone else called me and told me when she got hers she cried. Zoie is not letting anyone forget about her. She wants everyone to be talking about her. I am so proud to know that she made that much of an impression on St. Jude for them to use her pic.

Please keep the sticker orders coming. And please contiue to pray for the St. Jude kids.

I would like to say a big Thank you to all of Zoie's Angels... it was great. Now we have to make next year even bigger.

Zoie: Thank you for helping mom and dad do this. I know you were with us. I love and miss you big girl.


Wednesday, October 13, 2004 1:17 PM CDT

We are doing great with selling the stickers. This thing is turing out to be bigger than we thought. We are going on two radio stations to get supplies donated to the Ronald Mcdonald house. We have so many companies willing to help. It is wonderful. Tomorrow is the St. Jude Radio-o-thon. They asked for us to go up and talk about our story. I know I will probably cry through the whole thing.

I don't know if I should write this but I have to get it off my chest. There are a couple of people I have to tell something to. You will know who you are when you read what I have to say. I was told that some people that claim to love Travis and I were not happy with me before Zoie died. They were mad at me because when Zoie was suffering I told her that Jesus came to get her and for her to go with him. I was tired of seeing my daughter suffer. I was the one that would catch her throw up, brush her hair for two hours when it fell out, take her to the doctor every other day,and most of all I was the one Zoie would cry to and ask to make the pain stop. I really feel in my heart that I did the right thing. Travis and I both agreed that needed to be said to her. I didn't want her holding on and suffering because she felt her mommy and daddy wouldn't be ok. If it is ever your child then you make the choice you have to. But Zoie was our child and we know that we did the right thing and gave Zoie the best life and treatment we could. I know that Zoie and God are happy with the choices Travis and I made. So how can you sit there and say you miss us and love us when about 3 1/2 months ago I was no good.

Travis: I love you very much. And want to thank you for being there for me. You are my rock. I don't know what I would do without you. You are there for those bad Zoie days and there when I'm happy. You make me happy and make my feel loved. Thank you.

Zoie: Mom and dad love and miss you. We hope you got the balloons we sent you. I know you enjoy seeing us do that. Please don't stop coming around. We know you are here with us holding our hands.

Sorry this was a long one but I have been fighting with this for a while and I finally had to get it out.

Thank you all for the prayers.


Monday, September 6, 2004 1:13 AM CDT

Please keep the sticker orders coming. It is great to know that Zoie's name is all over the world. Her name will never die. We are looking forward to going to Ronald McDonald house to cook. We want to give back for everything they did for us. We miss St. Jude staff, Ronald McDonald house and especially our friends. It's hard to go from going to St. Jude everyday to not seeing the hospital.
Life is still horrible. I miss Zoie's smile and little voice. I feel if I could just hold her one more time I would be ok. In my heart I know that if God gave me an hour with her I would want two. But we also know that life doesn't work like that. One day we will all get to see her little princess face again. Thank you to all who have been praying for us. I certainly need it. Some days are really hard. I just cry and wish that God would take me to be with Zoie.

Zoie: Mommy and Daddy love and miss you. We love you big like Heaven to Disneyworld with all our heart. Please help mommy and daddy get through this horrible time. Also please help mommy to find a job.

We need to get Zoie's stickers out there. Please let people know about them. Thank you to all the people who have sent money for us to use to cook for Ronald McDonald house.

Live life to the fullest like Zoie did.


Saturday, August 7, 2004 9:16 PM CDT

Thank all of you who have bought one of Zoie's sticker. We have been selling a lot of Zoie's stickers. It is great to know that Zoie's name will be all over the place. It feels good to know that people cared enough about Zoie to help us keep her name going. We still miss her more than anything. It's still really hard living day by day without her. She still comes around.

Princess Zoie: mom and dad miss you more than ever. I know you were with me to day. I smelled you all day. We love you with all my heart and big like heaven. Now and Forever.... Amen.

We had some stickers made that go on the back window of your car. They are kinda like the support our troops ones but they are yellow and purple(Zoie's fav. colors) and they say childhood cancer awareness on one side and on the other they have zoie's name. We are selling them for $6.00 to help raise money so we can go and cook for the Ronald Mcdonald House in Zoie's name. We also have shirts that have an angel and above that angel it says Zoie's Angels. They are $20.00. If you are interested please get in touch with me and I can get you one.

My address is:
chastity and travis schexnayder
126-c brumley lane
duson,la,70529

Don't let a day go by without loving your child. You don't know how much time you have with them.


Wednesday, July 21, 2004 9:22 PM CDT

We would like to say thank you to all who have sent flowers cards and your thoughts. We are ok. Nights are the hardest. We miss her so much. Life will never be the same without her. We will always remember everyone who cared for Zoie. Please keep praying for all the St. Jude kids they are still fighting for a cure. One day Zoie will help the doctors find a cure.

God Bless you


Saturday, July 10, 2004 12:07 AM CDT

It is through many tears that I share with you that Zoie earned her angel wings at 11:10 this morning.

Tina

Arrangements:

Del Homme Funeral Home
705 Marie St.
Scott, La.
(337)235-9445

Visitation Tuesday, July 13 9:00 -
Rosary Tuesday, July 13 7:00 p.m.
Burial Wednesday July 14 9:00-2:00


Wednesday, July 7, 2004 9:23 PM CDT

This is Tina again. I have put off this journal entry, one because I am just not sure what to say and the other because I can't see through the tears.

Travis and Chastity met with the doctors today and got the news that they were expecting although this made it no easier on anyone. The doctors confirmed that there was nothing that they could do to help stop the cancer that would not hurt her more. He gave them a time frame of about 2 weeks. Those of you who know Zoie know that it will be in her own time.

Today has been especially difficult on everyone as reality set in. I think it was something that we all knew was coming but just didn't want to hear.

Zoie does not want to go home, she wants to stay at the Ronald McDonald House, which to some of you may seem strange but when you think that she has spent 2 1/2 of her 4 years here, this is home. Travis and Chastity are granting her wish and will stay here. They will continue to increase her pain medicine as she needs it to keep her comfortable.

Again, I just ask for special prayers for this very special family. They are handling this as any parent would but I stand in awe of the strength that they are exhibiting.

To Travis and Chastity-We love you guys more than you will ever know. I hate we have had to share this journey and I surely am hating the outcome but I am thankful that God placed you in our lives January 6, 2003. I am sorry that I have not been able to be stronger for you but it is my love for Zoie shining through. You will never know how much our quiet time the other day meant. We love her like our own.

Tina
www.caringbridge.org/la/stanton


Tuesday, July 6, 2004 5:56 PM CDT

Hi everyone, it is Tina again. I know everyone is anxious for an update on Zoie. It has been such an emotional rollercoaster for Travis and Chastity this week she has just not been able to update. Feeling helpless, updating her website is the least that I can do.

On Friday the doctors told Travis and Chastity that the tumor on Zoie's liver is growing rapidly. She is on a pain pump and still in a great deal of pain. Her little stomach is so swollen. She wants to be held a lot and eats very little. Dr. Santana told Travis today that he wants to meet with them tomorrow without Zoie with them. I know Travis and Chastity have many questions for him and hopefully will get some answers. They do know that there are really no treatment options left.

Please pray for this precious family as they are facing decisions that no parent should ever have to face. Please also take a minute to sign the guestbook. As a parent it means so much to hear from everyone that is praying for them.

Tina
www.caringbridge.org/la/stanton


Wednesday, June 30, 2004 1:19 PM CDT

We need lots of strong prayers. Zoie's belly is getting bigger. She is now on pain medicine 24hrs. a day. She was hurting. The doctors told us if the tumor continues to grow it will kill her. But they can't start chemo now cause it will kill her. So right now we are stuck with no way to turn except to prayers. We aren't giving up. We know what God can do. Its hard not to give up but we have to be strong for Zoie.

So please whatever prayer list you can get her on please do so. Please tonight pray hard. We are doing the same.


Monday, June 28, 2004 1:05 PM CDT

Zoie had a good weekend. Troilyn,Hannah,Aunt Pamm,Dustin,and Papa Calvin came up. Zoie didn't know who to be with Aunt Pamm or Papa. We had a good time with them. Yesterday we rode the trolly and went eat out and just spent sometime with them. I don't know who cried more when they left Aunt Pamm or Zoie. Aunt Pamm got to do something she hasn't done in along time. She got to rock Zoie to sleep.

We should start chemo this week. Then they said there will be a point that we will be able to go home for a couple of days. I don't know if that will be a good idea or not. I think we will have trouble getting Zoie to come back to St. Jude.

Please keep the mailing coming she is loving it. Please also keep those prayers going. We know God is hearing them and will heal Zoie.


Wednesday, June 23, 2004 1:54 PM CDT

Zoie has something to say...
uuyyyy itiuiuuuigydde.
This says thank you for praying for me and keep on. And thank you jesus for healing me. Amen.

Zoie's surgry went well. They did it yesterday moring. She is feeling good. We should start chemo next week or the week after. They want her counts to come up a little more. Please keep the mail and prayers coming. Zoie looks forward to getting the mail.

God Bless you


Saturday, June 19, 2004 4:04 PM CDT

Ok I'm not going to say whats next. But we can't take much more. Yesterday we found out that Zoie's scar on her head from her brain surgery is growing a fungus in one spot. With a fungus there is no med. to kill it so they have to go in and cut it out. Today they took a part out to see excatly what kind of fungus it is and to get an idea of the size they need to cut out of her head. They also did a bone marrow test to see how much cancer is in her bone marrow so they can start her next round of chemo. They want to start soon so they can stop the liver from getting even bigger. We are waiting on good news. Hopefully this week will be the good news week.

Zoie is loving all the mail she is getting. We now have to start hanging all the cards on the other side of the door. She has gotten so many. She loves ripping open the envelopes. So if you don't get a thank you card back from us, it's because she ripped the address.

Please send lots of prayers up to the big man above. We need lots of prayers. We know everything will be ok. We know God will take care of her and yourselves.


God Bless you all for all the support.


Thursday, June 17, 2004 4:53 PM CDT

Well good news doesn't last long. Today we Zoie woke up we noticed her belly a little bigger than normal. We brought her in right away. They did a xray and ultrasound. The xray was good but the ultrasound shows that Zoie's tumor on her liver is getting bigger. We don't know if it the protocel is working(that is what happens when the protocel kills the tumor. it gets bigger than dies) So we are praying that is why. Dr. Santana said that they don't know what they are going to do. Zoie's counts aren't up to start chemo again. But they can't let her go long with chemo. They are thinking about starting a different chemo. He doesn't know if it work but we can't sit around and wait on her counts. They can't do radation to the liver it will give her vod again and kill her. Santana doesn't want to loose her that way he said. So we really need lots of strong prayers. We aren't giving up but it is so hard right now. I pray that the protocel is working. It has to be I'm ready to loose me angel yet. Please help us with.


Wednesday, June 16, 2004 2:22 PM CDT

Zoie finished her last day of radation yesterday. So now we move on to the next step. We meet with Dr. Stanley today he told us that we could go home for 2 weeks but we said no. I don't want to take Zoie home and then have to take all that away again to come here. So,we will go home for 4 days the weekend of July 4. Travis is going to go home and try to work for the next three weeks. Since everyday will be really nothing here. The week of July 16 we will have scans and see what is going on. So we need lots of prayers. After scans we will start some experimental chemo. I hope and pray the will work. We did get good news yesterday. One that can't find the spot of cancer that was on her brain and two Zoie had a hearing test and they were really amazed by the results. Zoie's hearing is back to normal she doesn't need her hearing aids anymore. They said this never happens that the hearing loss is usually for lifetime. They don't understand how it happen. She is the first child this has happen too. I told them you know Zoie she is her own person and we know who did it. We have to give that credit to the big Man above. God can do anything if we ask. So always belive and never give up. We haven't and look how good Zoie is doing.


Monday, June 14, 2004 10:26 AM CDT

We had a nice weekend. We couldn't do much Zoie's counts are still down but slowly coming up. We had no visitors this weekend but we did ok. She has no more hair. It was falling out like crazy so I buzzed the rest off. I love her little bald head. It didn't bother her at all. We should find out this week when we do scans again to see if the chemo and radation worked. Please send up prayers that it did work. We want to go home. Zoie is missing her playhouse and swing set. The ones at Ronald Mcdonald House aren't the same. She wants her own.
I have to write about this even if I shouldn't. I just need to let off so steam. My mom called yesterday to let us know that some nasty person who lives by us went and stole the battery off Travis's truck. Isn't that horrible everyone around us knows where we are and that we are helping our daughter fight for her life. They are going to just walk in our yard and steal from us. I guess they heard my mom talking to us about it. Later that night we mom and dad got home they looked and his battery was back. Isn't that strange the battery just reappeared. We think we know who it is but can't prove it. Why would someone do that to us knowing what we are going through. I know you probally didn't want to hear about this but I was so mad I had to get it out.

Please pray for Zoie and her St. Jude friends


Wednesday, June 9, 2004 2:45 PM CDT

Sorry we haven't updated in a few days. Zoie is doing well. Still enjoying being put to sleep everyday for radation. Her scar on the head is very sore and red from radation. Other than that she is feeling fine. Her counts are still down. The should be up by the end of the week. She is loving all the mail she has been getting. She gets so excited then puts all the cards on her door. Soon we will have to start on the wall. I can't say Thank you enough to all the people sending her mail and sending prayers. We belive in prayers and we know that is what is helping us get through this. Please keep them coming not only for Zoie but all her St.Jude friends.

God Bless you all


Saturday, June 5, 2004 6:14 PM CDT

Zoie is having a great weekend. She got out of the hospital yesterday and her pa and momo monkey came to be with her. She won't let them get out of her sight. I know tomorrow will be hard when they go to leave. Zoie's counts are still down but her doctor didn't think she needed to be in the hospital anymore. After two days in she was ready to get out. Thank you to all the wonderful people who have sent her mail. She makes he hang all the cards on her door so everyone can see them. Thank you to all the Ice Gator fans Zoie loves the pin yall sent her she has to wear it everyday. Thats about all that is going on today. Please keep those wonderful prayers going up to God. He is hearing them and will take care of our little princess angel. God Bless you all.


Thursday, June 3, 2004 3:06 PM CDT

Well we are now in the hospital. Zoie had a fever of 103.0 last night and her counts are down. Her doctor came by this afternoon and said if she doesn't run fever today or tonight she will be set free to get out tomorrow. She is feeling good. I think she just needed a dose of antibodies. She is waiting on her momo monkey and pa to come visit this weekend. Zoie cried last night she thought if she came in the hospital she wouldn't be able to see Stanton anymore. We had to explain to her that he isn't going anywhere he will be there when she gets out. We found out Zoie can't have a chemo angel this round of treatment cause I couldn't update after we went home. She is very upset. Chemo angels are people who send someone going through chemo gifts all through the month to make them feel good. But that is ok there are alot of people already doing that. Please keep the prayers coming. God Bless you all and please pray for the other st. jude kids.


Wednesday, June 2, 2004 2:46 PM CDT

We had a very good day today. Zoie is doing well. She is getting radation to her head everyday. She likes it cause they have to put her to sleep everyday. She gets so excited she loves the way the sleepy meds. make her feel.(we have to watch her when she gets older one try of drugs and shell be hooked). All the prayers are working. We got her MIBG scan results today and they didn't show anything new. Which means she has a small spot of cancer on the head, seven spots on the liver and 5 percent in her bone marrow. We were really excited to hear this news. We started her on the Protocel(herb drug) and she is back to herself again. We are loving every min. with her and making every day count. Please don't stop the prayers and please keep the mail coming. She gets so happy when she gets mail. Thank you and God Bless you.

Ronald McDonal house
zoie#34
535 Alabama Ave.
Memphis,tn,38105
our number here is 901-312-7437

Thank you to all the special people who have sent things to Zoie she has loved it all. Thank you I don't know what we would do without people like yall.


Thursday, May 27, 2004 2:17 PM CDT

Hello everyone its Chastity for today. First of all I need to say thank you to Tina. I don't know what we would of done with Tina,Jeff,and Stanton. The past three weeks has been horrible. This time is worse than the first. It's so hard to look at Zoie and think that the cancer is just trying to take over her little body. We know its the devil trying to take over but we are not giving her up with a fight. We will fight to the end and let God be the winner. Thank you everyone for all the prayers -please keep them coming. We have been spending alot of time with Tina,Jeff,Stanton,Trish and EmmaGrace. If I didn't have them I think I would have gone insane by now. I just don't understand any of this and its hard for me to accept it right now. God Bless you all and thank you.

Zoie loves getting mail so if you would like to mail her something here is our address..

ronald mcdonal house
zoie#34
535 alabama ave.
memphis,tn,38105


Sunday, May 23, 2004 10:10 PM CDT

Okay everyone, it is still Tina. I feel so helpless and helping keep this website updated helps me to feel needed so I have offered to continue for as long as they need me to.

Last weeks tests did show another spot on Zoie's head/brain (probably between the skull and brain like the first one). They have met with the radiation doctors and are going to radiate her head and her liver as much as is safe for her. She is also taking an oral chemo (I believe VP-16). They will be doing more tests this week. Please just continue to pray for little Zoie and her complete healing. Also for Travis and Chastity and the strength and wisdom that they will need.


Wednesday, May 19, 2004 9:12 PM CDT

Hey everyone! It is Tina again. I updated last night but for some reason it didn't make it to the page I don't think. Zoie is out of the hospital and at the Ronald McDonald House in room 34.

I don't even know where to go from here or if I will I can do this update through the tears. Today Chastity and Travis got the news that we had all prayed that they wouldn't hear. The CT yesterday showed several spots on her liver (I don't want to say a number because I am not sure). Her bone marrow biopsy was also positive for neuroblastoma cells. So where do they go from here? zoie will start on oral chemo (VP 16) tonight. They will watch her counts closely as her bone marrow will have a very hard time recovering if they get to low. She will also meet with the radiation doctor tomorrow to begin radiation to the head and the liver. The doctors are just taking it one step at a time looking for the best option for Zoie.

As you can imagine today has been an emotional roller coaster for this family as well as all of her extended St. Jude family. The decisions put before this family today are some that no parent should ever have to make for their child. I ask that everyone pray for wisdom for the doctors treating Zoie, strength for her parents and grandparents, and most of all strength and healing for Zoie. For you who have never met a St. Jude child, they are amazing. Zoie has gone through more than most adults that I know and has continued to fight with such strength.

Chastity and Travis-We love you like our brother and sister and you know Zoie might as well be my niece. We have felt your pain this past week and want you to know that we are here for you if you need anything.

Tina
www.caringbridge.org/la/stanton


Saturday, May 15, 2004 8:14 PM CDT

Hi! It is Tina again. I just wanted to let everyone know what is going on with Zoie. I haven't seen her in a couple of days as Stanton is not feeling well and doesn't need to be around her but we talk to them daily. Zoie was moved from ICU to a room yesterday. She was still sleeping quite a bit but did not seem to be in much pain. Travis told Jeff that they had a scare today when her hemoglobin dropped a good bit. A CT revealed no bleeding though so she was receiving a blood transfusion. I think the plan is to try to get her back to St. Jude's by the first of the week so that she may begin scans.

Please continue to keep Zoie and her family in your prayers.


Thursday, May 13, 2004 9:38 PM CDT

First I will introduce myself, my name is Tina and I am a member of Zoie's St. Jude family. Chastity does not have access to a computer right now and I know everyone would want to know what is going on with her. I will do my best to get the facts as accurate as possible.

Early in the week Zoie started having headaches. A CT revealed a tumor in her head. They drove to Memphis yesterday and upon arriving discovered it appeared that the tumor was bleeding. Zoie was in a great deal of pain. They decided to send her to LaBonheur Children's hospital, which is where St. Jude sends all of their neurosurgery patients. The doctors decided to watch her for a couple of days and try to get the swelling down before trying to do surgery on Friday. About 2:30 this morning Zoie began having trouble breathing and had to be intubated and it was determined that emergency surgery would be necessary. She underwent what I think was about a 2 1/2 hour surgery which seems to be successful in removing all of he tumor. The tumor was not actually in the brain but in the cavity between the skull and the brain. It also was not bleeding into the brain but into itself. She is currently in ICU on much pain medicine to let her rest. We stopped by to see her and she really looks good for al that she has been through.

Please hold Zoie up in prayer for her speedy recovery and that this is the only place that the cancer has reoccurred. Also keep Travis and Chastity in your prayers as this is the scariest experience any parent will ever have to face. They are also in a different hospital and we are all spoiled to St. Jude.

I hope this entry gives a little insite to what this family has been through the past few days.

Tina


Thursday, March 18, 2004 11:23 AM CST

Sorry we hanven't updated in so long. Zoie is doing good. We are leaving on Sunday March 21 to go to St. Jude for scans. Please we need lots of prayers. If Zoie's bone marrow has any cancer cells in it she will have to have another bone marrow transplant. She has a feeding tube in right now. Her doctors want her fat. We will update after the scans. Please pray for Zoie.


Saturday, October 25, 2003 2:31 PM CDT

Zoie is doing great. Only 6 more days. We are going home on Nov.1 We can't wait. Momo monkey and daddy are coming up here to see Zoie for Halloween and to help bring home all the goodies we have collected while being here for 6 months. We will need a house just for all of Zoie's stuff. She is really excited. She is doing good with radation it is making her alittle sick but we can deal with that. Please keep my family in your thoughts and prayers I don't think we can take anymore.


Monday, October 20, 2003 4:00 PM CDT

Zoie is doing great. Yesterday she got to meet Justin Timberlake. He came and toured the RMH. She was not shy. She gave him high five then played basketball with him. It was so cute. Then when he was going to leave she asked him if she could give him a hug. I wish I could of got a picture of that but we weren't allowed to take pictures. Oh well it was still nice. Only 7 more days of radation and then hopefully Home here we come. Please pray for my family they are going trough alot of personal problems right now. God Bless you.


Wednesday, October 15, 2003 5:57 PM CDT

Zoie started radation on Tuesday. She is doing great. She is back to her normal self. MISS ATTITUDE. She thinks she 16. But thats ok we will have to deal with it. She misses her daddy still. I know he is having a hard time not being here with us. We found out today we only have about three weeks left then we can go home for good. We will come back once every month. We can't wait. Uncle Chad is doing good. He is still in pain but Zoie helped him move his leg. She thought that was so great to help Uncle Chad. Please keep praying my family needs all the prayers we can get.


Tuesday, October 7, 2003 3:37 PM CDT

Zoie went home for the weekend. She had a blast. It was the first time since May. She got to see so many people. Ryan,Cameron,Hannah,Taylee,Leighton,Brittany and many more even Miss. Kim and Mrs. bonnie and Haley. On the way back to Memphis we got a phone call her Uncle Chad was in a bad accident and broke his leg. He is in the hosp. but doing ok. I don't think we can handle much more.


Sunday, September 28, 2003 2:43 PM CDT

Zoie is doing great. She is walking everywhere. Not running yet but one day she'll get there. Today is a bad day I am very home sick. But I keep telling myself soon we will be home. Zoie has to have some radation. So she will start that in about two weeks. She is suppose to get radation for three weeks then we should be home bound. All Zoie keeps talking about is her birthday party and playing and seeing everyone. All she talks about is seeing Ryan and Cameron. Please keep the prayers coming.


Monday, September 15, 2003 12:07 AM CDT

Zoie is doing wonderfull. We are trying to take her wheelchair away. She only wants or needs it when she sees it. She is walking so much with help. She is going to have to get two and half weeks of radation. We are ok with that. We said to do whatever it takes to keep her cancer free. She is feeling great. Her counts are still up and down but getting better. She is missing her momo monkey. She keeps crying for her. We have been taking her all over to keep her mind off of missing everyone. Thanks for all the support and prayers.


Tuesday, September 9, 2003 12:02 AM CDT

Sorry we haven't updated in a while. We have been busy with scans and test. Well we got the news yesterday that we have been waiting for and the answer is that Zoie's bone marrow is CLEAR.... NO CANCER.... We are so excited. She is doing great. She wants to get up and walk by herself. She is trying her hardest. We are so proud of her. We dont know when we will be able to go home but thats ok. Ronald Mcdonald house isn't the same without Emma Grace and Stanton. Zoie misses them so much. She keeps asking when is Stanton coming back. Hopefully we will only be here alittle while longer. She is still needing blood and platelets every so often. So once that is better we will probally get to go. Zoie misses seeing her Uncle Chad and family back home. We would like to give a big THANKS TO GOD and everyone for praying and knowing Zoie would get better.


Tuesday, August 26, 2003 11:03 AM CDT

Zoie is doing so good. Everyday gets alittle better. She is starting to walk alittle everyday with a walker. She wants to ride the bike. Her legs are still sore but getting better. Today has been the best day so far. She is actting silly and wanting to eat. Her liver counts are almost normal. They went from being 21.9 and today they are 2.8. Everyday is another wonderful day with Zoie. God is wonderful and hears every prayer. Hope you have a great day.


Sunday, August 24, 2003 2:25 PM CDT

We are free. Zoie got out of the hospital on Friday. She is doing great. Liver counts are still hanging in there but they are on the way down. She is very happy to be out. She isn't herself yet but I guess it will take alittle time. She hates her wheelchair so I know she isn't going to stay down long. Again we have to give thanks to the Lord above for our mircale. Please keep those prayers coming we still have a short path to take.


Thursday, August 21, 2003 5:03 PM CDT

First of of all we have to say THANK YOU GOD FOR OUR MIRCALE. Zoie is getting out of the hospital tomorrow. The doctors said they don't see any need in her being stuck in here anymore. She is doing well enough to get out. She is doing so good. She can now sit up on her own and hold up her head. She still can't stand yet but with time and prayers she will. She doesn't like the idea of not being able to get up and walk but she's alive and thats all that matters. We can deal with the little things. Thank you to everyone who has been praying for Zoie. They say if two or more people belive it will happen. And I know we had alot more than two people beliving. God bless you.


Saturday, August 16, 2003 12:03 AM CDT

Well Zoie had enough of the tube down her throat. She pulled her tube out yesterday moring at 7:30am. The doctors weren't happy. The thought she would have to go back on it after a couple of hours but Zoie showed them how much of a fighter she is. She is doing so good. She wants to be held. She figured she hadn't been held in 30 days she wasn't letting go of mommy and daddy now. Last night she made us cry. She finally talked she looked at me and said"mommy I Love you" I didn't know what to do. I was so excited to hear that little voice again. Last night she didn't want to sleep she made her daddy stay up with her until 3am. We also found out yesterday that none of her bone marrow doctors thought she would make it. They all knew that Zoie was going to pass away from VOD. I knew she wasn't going anywhere she is our little mircale angel. Thanks for all the prayers and please keep them coming. Her liver counts are still coming down which means her liver is working. Thank you God for our mircale.


Thursday, August 14, 2003 12:46 AM CDT

Sorry I haven't updated in awhile. Zoie is doing good. Her liver counts are down to 11.4 we have to get them to 0-2. The doctors are talking about taking her off the vent tomorrow. She is doing really well. She is more awake and wants that tube out of her mouth. She pulls on it and we have to stop her. She cries when we tell her it can't come out yet. Please don't stop praying yet. Thanks again for all the support.


Tuesday, August 5, 2003 10:28 PM CDT

Keep those prayers coming. Zoies counts are doing alittle better. The next two days will tell us if the meds. or working. Please pray hard. I don't think we can take any more bad news. It has to be good. She is still moving and able to shake her head yes and no. She is a fighter and won't give up. We won't let her give up. Having her daddy and mom here with her is a huge help. Again thank you all who have been praying and helping us. We couldn't do it without all the support we have been getting.


Thursday, July 31, 2003 10:25 AM CDT

Keep the prayers coming they are working. The doctors are trying to get Zoie off the ventalatour. They have stopped some of her meds. This moring Zoie started moving her toes and fingers. We were so excited. Her liver is still not working but her lungs are clear enough to be awake and off the vent. We were told yesterday they can't get her expertmental drug anymore. So she started a new med. yesterday to help the liver. They did do an ultrasound and see that the blood flow is getting better so we have some good news. We are hanging in there and taking it one day at a time. There are so many people back home trying to help us so Travis doesn't have to leave and go to work. I just want to say thank you to everyone for everything. We couldn't do it without the money help and most of all the support and prayers. God Bless you all.


Saturday, July 26, 2003 10:13 AM CDT

We still need lots of prayers. Zoie is still in ICU on the eventalatour. She isn't better but isn't worse she is stable for now. Shes getting all the meds. she should to help her. The doctors said its just wait now. It will take time before she will show any signs of getting better. She is a fighter and will make it with the help of yall who are praying for her. God Bless you and please tell everyone to PRAY FOR PRINCESS ZOIE.


Tuesday, July 22, 2003 8:10 PM CDT

We need some STRONG PRAYERS right now. Zoie is in ICU on a ventalator. She couldn't was having alot of trouble. We found out that from all the chemo Zoie got she was hit with the side effects. She now has liver diease. She has something called VOD. Her liver isn't working. She is getting alot of meds. and they started her on an expermental drug today. Hopefully it will work and her liver will start working again. The doctors said it will take about 14 days to see if it is working. Please pray that she will come out of this. We know she will she is a fighter.


Friday, July 18, 2003 3:45 PM CDT

Zoie started running fever on Monday 15th. She was put in the hospital. They think she has an infection. She is hurting really bad in her stomach. Her counts are starting to come up. Hopefully this is nothing major and she will start to feel better and get out of here. Please pray hard for her.


Monday, July 14, 2003 5:37 PM CDT

Zoie is doing really good. Her counts don't want to come up. They started doing test again. To see if she is cancer free. Today we had a bone scan and ct. And guess what?? The was no cancer to be found.HORRAY..... We still have other test to do but I know with all the prayers she will be cancer free. After her counts come up we should be able to go home. She is done with treatment. Please keep the prayers going we are almost home.


Sunday, July 6, 2003 12:28 AM CDT

Zoie got out of the hospital yesterday. She is doing good. She is still not eating or drinking but the doctors said thats ok. She is happy to be out. Her momo monkey and papa came and spent the weekend with her. It was nice they got to spend time with her outside the hospital. She cried today when they left her. We are almost done. Soon Zoie will get to go home and have a some what normal life again. Please keep praying that she will continue to do good.


Tuesday, July 1, 2003 10:09 PM CDT

Zoie is doing ok. She hasn't eaten in the past 10 days. She has sores in her throat and can't swallow. She was running fever. They put her on alot of med. She is finally starting to feel better. She can't even talk. Things are getting hard for us right now. We dont want Travis to go home and work but we have no money. The bills are getting behind. So as soon as Zoie is out of the hospital Travis will have to leave us and go home and work. We are almost to the end and thanks to everyones prayers Zoie is going to be in remisson. Please don't stop praying yet. We have about two more months to go.


Friday, June 20, 2003 8:42 PM CDT

Zoie had her transplant on wed. She did really well. She is a little sick and not eating much. Please keep praying hard this is the time anything can happen. We know that God brought her this far. She will make it the rest of the way.


Monday, June 9, 2003 12:25 AM CDT

Today Zoie gets admitted into the hospital. She will start high dose chemo tomorrow. She will get 6 days of chemo and then on the 17th she will get her bone marrow transplant. Her doctors told us she will be very sick and will be able to catch anything. They have also told us the good with the bad. Lots of things can happen to Zoie while her counts are down. Please pray hard for her. She has made it this far she can't give up now. If you would like to send something to Zoie you can by sending it here to the Ronald McDonald house at:
Ronald McDonald House
zoie#50
535 Alabama Ave.
Memphis,Tn,38105
or to the hospital the address is on her website. Please if you do wish to send her something she can't have flowers or stuffed animals.


Thursday, May 22, 2003 10:34 AM CDT

Zoie has been here at St. Jude since Monday. We found out this week we finally get to move on to bone marrow transplant. Tomorrow she goes in to have her bone marrow harvest. On Tuesday we find out if she needs one more round of chemo or if we can do transplant. She is doing well. She is missing everyone at home. Please pray that everything goes well tomorrow and that she can have the transplant soon.


Tuesday, May 6, 2003 6:08 PM CDT

Well its Tuesday and we are still here in the hosp. in Baton Rouge. Zoie had an infection in her eye. So she has been getting lots of antibotics. They won't let us out until her counts start to come back up. They had to push back our trip to Memphis. We are going around the 19th of this month. Zoie says hi to everyone. Thank you to all who have visited her webpage and prayed for her.


Friday, May 2, 2003 8:11 PM CDT

Well Zoie went to Baton Rouge for blood and ended up with a fever. So here we are in the hospital cause her counts are down. They said we may get out on Sunday. Then we leave on Tuesday to head back to Memphis. One more round of chemo to go.


Monday, April 28, 2003 9:20 PM CDT

Zoie is doing good. She is enjoying being home. Tomorrow
she is going for her check up with the doctor in Baton Rouge. Hopefully everything will be ok. We are hopeing she won't get fever and have to go to the hospital. Hopefully she can spend her time at home. Please keep praying for her.


Sunday, April 27, 2003 1:43 PM CDT

Well we are home unil May6. Zoie hasn't stopped yet. She is already at Mcdoanlds and the park. She is enjoying every minute. She is feeling really good. I want her to go and enjoy herself before her counts drop and she has to stay home. Please pray hard that this chemo is working.


Thursday, April 24, 2003 8:47 PM CDT

Thanks to everyone for the prayers. Zoie started chemo and is sick from it. Hopefully that means it working. We probally get to go home Sunday for two weeks. Then back again for another round. We love it here but its not home. Please keep the prayers coming. God bless you.


Sunday, April 20, 2003 9:15 PM CDT

Zoie had a really nice Easter. She got to spend time with Hannah,Troi,Mama Monkey,and papa calvin. We took her to see the water and the French Market. She had alot of fun. We found out bad news on Thursday her chemo didn't work. So she will start another round Tuesday. Her doctors think two more rounds will do it. So please prays that this one works.


Tuesday, April 15, 2003 11:35 PM CDT

Tomorrow Zoie has to be put to sleep for her bone marrow test. Please pray hard that she will be ok and the results will be good. We are staying at the Ronald Mcdonald house. I will update tomorrow night and let everyone know how it went. Please pray hard tomorrow. God Bless everyone.


Thursday, April 10, 2003 6:37 PM CDT

Zoie is getting out of the hospital tomorrow. She will get to be at home for the weekend. Then we go to St. Jude on Tuesday. On Wed. we start all the testing again to see if chemo worked. Please pray that the chemo worked and she can have her bone marrow transplant.


Monday, April 7, 2003 4:23 PM CDT

Frist of all our prayers go out to Justin Morris's family. Justin passed away yesterday. I can't imagine what they are going through. Zoie is doing well and getting out of the hopital either wed. or thur. We have to been in Memphis for the 16th. Please keep the prayers coming.


Saturday, April 5, 2003 10:53 PM CST

We found out Zoie has an infection in her line. She is getting lots of meds. They called Memphis and postpong our trip there. They want her to stay here in the hospital for 7 days. So that pushes bone marrow back. She is doing alot better. She hasn't had fever since the first day here. Please keep a friend of ours from St. Jude in your prayers. His name is Justin hes not doing well. He picked up an infection that has spread and he may not make it. Our prayers are going out for him and his family.


Thursday, April 3, 2003 8:04 PM CST

Zoie was doing good then this moring she started running a fever. By the time we got to the Baton Rouge hospital her fever was 104.4 she had the shakes so bad. They finally got it to come down. She is feeling alot better tonight. Hopefully they will let her out before we leave on Monday. She has to be back in Memphis on Tuesday.


Sunday, March 23, 2003 8:03 PM CST

Zoie finished her chemo today. She is doing good. We get to go home Wed. until April 8. Hopefully this trip will be better than the last. We are ready to get home and have a some what normal life. Now that I don't have a job I will get to be home and spend more time with Zoie. Please keep all the prayers coming.


Tuesday, March 18, 2003 2:19 PM CST

Zoie is doing well we should start chemo Thursday. Yesterday we found out I lost my job. Gateway computers closed 76 stores and one just so happen to be where I work at. I guess we can make it as long as Zoie does well. God knows what he is doing. God bless you and please pray for Zoie.


Tuesday, March 11, 2003 3:43 PM CST

Sorry we haven't updated in so long. We got to go home and the second day home I was put in the hospital with an inner ear infection. Then the next week Zoie was put in the hospital with an ear infection. So we were very busy. We are now back at St. Jude for a round of chemo. We got here yesterday and will find out tomorrow when we start chemo. Her daddy stayed home to work and her momo monkey came with us. Zoie is feeling really good. She got her hip hat today and thinks her long yellow hair is the best thing in the world. Well I will try to update daily. Thank yall for the prayers and please keep them coming.


Sunday, February 23, 2003 1:48 PM CST

Zoie just finished her chemo. She will be getting out of the hospital today at 7:00pm. We should be able to go home Tuesday for two weeks. She did really well with this chemo. She didn't get sick. She is just really tried. Hopefully this chemo is working. It has to be. Please keep the prayers coming.


Thursday, February 20, 2003 5:11 PM CST

Zoie started chemo today. So far so good. She isn't sick. I hope she does this well with all three days of chemo. We are ready to go home for a while. Zoie keeps crying for her momo monkey. Its time she needs a rest from all this. Please keep the prayers coming.


Monday, February 17, 2003 7:21 PM CST

Today we signed papers to start with chemo. Her doctors changed her plans. She will be put in the hospital wed. night and start chemo on thursday moring. She will be in the hospital until sunday. On monday she gets to go home to Lafayette,La. We will go home for two weeks then come back here for a week and then back home. We are praying when the time comes her bone marrow will be clear. She is still doing very well and gaining weight. Tomorrow she will have a hearing test,cat scan,and kidney test. Please keep praying.


Sunday, February 16, 2003 10:06 PM CST

Zoie had alot of company this weekend. Her momo monkey,papa Calvin,Troilynn,and Hannah. She really had fun. They left to go home today. Zoie was a big girl she didn't cry. Tomorrow we meet with her doctors and sign the papers to ok the start of her next round of chemo. Tuesday Zoie starts chemo and has a hearing test. We will be at the hospital from 8:00am until 5:30PM. I guess its ok as long as she can get chemo and stay out of the hospital. Please keep the prayers coming. God bless you all.


Friday, February 14, 2003 1:46 PM CST

We got horrible news today. Zoie's chemo didn't work she still has 5-10 percent cancer still in her bone marrow. So they are going to start a new chemo on Tuesday called ICE. She will get it for three days. They are going to let us go home for two weeks after chemo then come back and get another round then check to see if it worked. Please pray this chemo works if not they don't know what to do next. God can't take my angel away so please pray this chemo works. She is looking and feeling really well. You wouldn't even think shes sick. They said her last round of chemo didn't do anything to her cancer. I know that this round will work. She hasn't lived her life yet. Please keep the prayers coming stronger now then ever.


Monday, February 10, 2003 10:27 PM CST

Sorry we haven't updated lately. Zoie got out of the hospital on Wed. The doctors said she could go home to Lafayette,La for a couple of days. They didn't have to tell us more than once. We left for home that night. We stayed at her momo monkeys for a couple of days. Zoie went to a wedding friday night. Saturday she spent the day with papa Calvin they went to the park to feed the ducks and went for ice cream. Saturday night she went to spend time with her nanny Kellie. Sunday we spent the day at momo monkeys we gave Shana a little b-day party and then went and spent the night in New Orleans at Hannahs. Zoie had a blast she didn't want to come back to Memphis. She cried not to leave. She is doing really well. She is gaining weight and looking healthy. Wed. she has a bone marrow test then we will start the process for bmt. Please keep the prayers coming we aren't through with this yet. Also you can go to http://smilequilt.com/zoie.html


Friday, January 31, 2003 at 03:12 PM (CST)

Zoie is doing better. Her fever is staying away. They are talking about her getting out at the begining of the week. Today her uncle Chad and Shana were on their way to see her and got in a wreck. They are ok but Chads car is messed up. But thank god we can fix the car we can't replace them. So keep the prayers coming Zoie keeps doing well and can get out of here.


Wednesday, January 29, 2003 at 12:07 PM (CST)

Yesterday Zoie got a fever while getting blood. They put her in the hospital. Today they did an ultrasound of her belly to see what is going on. The ran test and found she has a bad infection. She is getting lots of antibotics. The doctors said she will probally be in here for about six days. Please pray that she can fight off this infection.


Monday, January 27, 2003 at 04:31 PM (CST)

We spent most of the day at the hospital. She got chemo and then Zoie had a really bad nose bleed for two hours. The doctors had to come in and pack her nose to make it stop. Her platelets were low and caused this. She is doing better now that it stopped but now she can only breathe out of one side and that bothers her. Zoie said hi to daddy and she loves and misses you.


Sunday, January 26, 2003 at 04:18 PM (CST)

Zoie's vistors left today including her daddy. She cried alittle while. I think I cried more. Daddy has to go home and work for a while we need money to pay bills. It hurt him to have to leave. Tomorrow is Zoie's last day of chemo this round. She will be tested later in the week to see if it worked. Please pray it did and we can move on to bone marrow transplant.


Thursday, January 23, 2003 at 10:20 PM (CST)

It snowed!! It snowed alot last night. It looked like a thunderstorm but it was snow. It is really cold so it stayed all night and most of the day today. Tonight it is 8 degrees. It is very cold. Zoie started her last 5 days of this round of chemo. She is doing really well. The prayers are working no fever. Tonight she played bingo and won two prizes(toys of course). Zoie is happy and waiting on momo monkey to come and visit. They will be here tomorrow. Zoie will enjoy their stay and probally cry when the leave.


Tuesday, January 21, 2003 at 09:57 AM (CST)

Zoie has been getting chemo for the past couple of days. Her chemo is making her run fever. The doctors said if it keeps up she'll have to be put in. Today is her day off no chemo or doctors appt. so hopefully no fever. We are going to take her to the Childrens Palce to play. It was hot here yesterday but freezing today. Say prayers for no more fever she doesn't want to be put in the hospital. Zoie said thanks for all the emails she loves hearing me read them to her. She also said she loves everybody.


Saturday, January 18, 2003 at 07:42 PM (CST)

Zoie had a blast at Barney Live. Today she had chemo. This afternoon she ran a fever of 102.8. We brought here in for the doctors to check her. They let her come back to the rmh and said everything was ok. Today it snowed alot. We took Zoie out to play in it she made a snowball and put it in the freezer to show her grandma when she comes up to visit.


Friday, January 17, 2003 at 02:41 PM (CST)

Today after Zoie's chemo she got to meet four new country singers. She really enjoyed it. She made the sign her baby's hat also. She meet Dusty Drake,Jimmy Wayne,Brett James and Steve Holy. They were really nice to the kids and spent time with them. Tonight we are taking Zoie to see Barney Live here in Memphis. I hope she has a good time.


Thursday, January 16, 2003 at 04:22 PM (CST)

Yesterday we found out that Zoie will have to get another round of chemo before she can have her bone marrow transplant. Her chemo didn't kill enough of the cancer in the bone marrow. She is doing well. Today was the first day of her ten day round of chemo. Hopefully this round will do the job and kill all the cancer.


Monday, January 13, 2003 at 04:14 PM (CST)

Zoie was diagnosed on July 17,2002. She has stage four Neuroblastoma. She has had seven rounds of chemo and is now waiting to see if she needs more or if its time to have her bone marrow transplant. She will be her own donor.


Monday, January 13, 2003 at 04:14 PM (CST)





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