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Our Hero 
We wish to keep this caringbridge page as a way for us to always keep in touch and remember Ben (our angel)! We also figured we would update with Hannah's progress, so this way we can all keep in touch!
Journal
Thursday, April 9, 2009 9:28 AM CDT It has been almost 3 years since Ben has been gone. We miss him everyday. He still is in our hearts constantly. It is hard to believe it has been that long. In a way its feels like it was just yesterday but in another way it feels like forever since I held him in my arms. I am so grateful for the time he was here but it wasn't long enough. When I watch Hannah play I feel like she got cheated out of knowing her big brother. I just wish she could have known how awesome he was. I guess that is our job to teach her that though. She has been such a blessing. When I get sad thinking about Ben I watch her and I feel so blessed. God knew I needed her. My heart just jumps for joy everytime I hear her say HI MAMA! She is such a cool kid. She still has Ben's smile. She says ANGIE BEN which is Angel Ben. When I look back on that whole situation, I have so many thoughts running through my head. Like what could we have done different, did he know we were there in the end and was he scared. I guess that is just questions we will always have. I still am so grateful for all our family and friends who were there for us and continue to be there for us and for everyone who says a prayer for a sick child. People try not to think there are more kids out there going through what Ben did but there are. So Pray for them Pray every night to give them and there families the strength to fight each day. Because trust me it is tough. Love All.
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Links: http://childrensmemorial.org For Directions http://quiltsoflove.com/quilt_2005/benjamin-am/benjamin-am.html For Ben's Virtual Quilt
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