Cade Mateo Forever in Our Hearts...12/11/00 - 11/09/07

Welcome to Cade's Web Page. It has been provided to keep people updated on his progress. Cade was diagnosed with a Genetic Disorder called Mucopolysaccharidosis(MPS)1 in May of 2002. Cade is currently receiving weekly enzyme treatments to slow down the progression of this disorder.

Journal

Friday, August 8, 2008 9:55 PM CDT

This page is so hard to update for me as I so wish I was coming to this page to give an update on Cade's health, instead I am being faced with the challenge of experiencing life without him here with me...Tomorrow will be 9 months since his passing and I am just beside myself with the extreme pain I feel day in and day out. As much as I try to realize that he would not want me to be so hurt I can't help it. This isn't the way that life was suppose to be and I am so bitter.

I move from one day to the next, managing, just barely, to force myself out of bed and into the shower. I eat because it is what I'm supposed to do. I go to work because I must. I try not to think too much. I try not to feel too much, and soon, thank goodness, another day is over, and I can climb back into bed, spent from the tension of forcing myself to live. I can't look ahead yet, nor can I allow myself to sit and reflect on that day. I simply try to get through each minute of every day, each day of every week, each week of every month, putting one foot in front of the other. It is my hope that with sheer repetition it will somehow get easier.

I know that I am not the only that has ever gone through this, but I can say that I don't care how prepared someone thinks they will be when their child is diagnosed with a terminal illness this has to be the worst thing anyone can experience in life.

Cade on this day as I say to you each and every day; please know that every second of every day, Mommy thinks of you, loves you and misses you more than you will ever know and we will be together again someday...Buddy, I ask for your strength now more than ever because I feel as if my whole life has fallen apart. I know that I am not the only one in this family that is struggling right now and I just ask that you look over us "Little Man" because if you were here you wouldn't want things to be this way. Don't ever forget that Mommy is ALWAYS sending moochies to Heaven and I WILL ALWAYS LUV U Boo Bear

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Links:

http://www.mpssociety.org   Description of MPS
http://cademateomorrissey.memory-of.com/about.aspx?c=1   Cade's Memorial Website

E-mail Author: slimpikens1@yahoo.com

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