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margate, fl - Tuesday, April 28, 2009 1:53 PM CDT

Tam & Randy-- Thinking of you today as always. How are you doing? Love from all of us! Camie & Crew
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
- Wednesday, April 8, 2009 5:26 PM CDT

Tammy, what a wonderful surprise to see you signed my guest book! I have missed hearing about you and Randy and how you are doing. It sounds like you both are busy and have a wonderful purpose, raising money for St Jude/children's cancer. You are such a wonderful, caring couple.

May God bless you both and help you find peace, passion, and purpose in each day.
Sue G (www.caringbridge.org/visit/sueguenther)
- Saturday, October 18, 2008 11:13 PM CDT

HELP ST. JUDE BY CREATING A PEPPER AT CHILI'S TO FIGHT CHILDHOOD CANCER!!!!

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Visit www.createapepper.com and to make an online donation.

PASS IT AROUND!!!!

GET YOUR FRIENDS/FAMILY TOGETHER!!! TRUST ME ITS SUCH AN AMAZING CAUSE :)

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Cindy Choi
Miami, FL - Monday, September 15, 2008 11:08 PM CDT

I have followed your story for quite awhile and miss hearing updates. I hope you are both doing well and are still in my prayers. Everytime I visit seeing Gavins face brings a smile to mine. Heaven may have gained an angel but this world is a little more empty.
Monica <rulonm@hotmail.com>
Flanders, nj - Sunday, August 24, 2008 8:16 PM CDT

Wishing you all good things.
Kim Frazier <kgfrazier@charter.net>
St. Louis, MO US - Saturday, July 12, 2008 8:38 PM CDT

Dear ^i^ Gavin's family
Thank you for leaving your 4th of july message on my Jacob's page
I wish you and your family a wonderful 4th of july weekend
just think our ^i^ have the best seat to see the fireworks
how beautiful they must look from heaven
love always Jacob's Mum

Jacob's Mum ^i^Jacob playing soccer with angel wings
Australia - Thursday, July 3, 2008 4:38 PM CDT

Dear ^i^ Gavin's family
thank you for visiting our Jacob's page and for leaving a message
My heart break for you in the loss of your sweet little ^i^ Gavin may he fly high in heaven happy healthy sending angel kisses down to you all
with Love Always jacob's Mum

17th June 1991-16th June 2005
Sometimes the angels fly
close enough to you that you
can hear the flutter of their wings...

Jacob's Mum ^i^Jacob playing soccer with angel wings
Australia - Sunday, April 20, 2008 8:43 PM CDT

Happy belated birthday Gavin! We are thinking of you.

Tammy,
I need your help. My 11 year old nephew was just diagnosed yesterday with Germ Cell Carcinoma (a rare type of dangerous cancer).
We are asking for prayers ASAP through the caringbridge families.
He is at Palms West Hospital in Loxahatchee Florida.
His caringbridge website is as follows:

www.caringbridge.org/visit/carsonruffa

Thank you so much.

Jackie

Jackie
WPB, FL - Thursday, April 17, 2008 7:42 AM CDT

Happy Birthday Gavin! Your mom and dad miss you so much.
Kelly J <shelbymommy207@roadrunner.com>
Corinth, ME USA - Tuesday, April 8, 2008 4:44 PM CDT

Thinking of you again today on yet another difficult day. May you be filled with beautiful memories of your precious son.
Sherry Contento <boberry608@hotmail.com>
Palm Beach Gardens, FL - Tuesday, April 8, 2008 8:30 AM CDT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEL GAVIN
WE ARE ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT YOU.I KNOW YOU ARE HAVING A GREAT BIG PARTY UP IN HEAVEN WITH ALL YOUR LITTLE FRIENDS. WE MISS YOU BUNCHES. LOVE KIM RYAN, JIMMY, ERIC, PAT
Kim Mead <kdmemm@rainierconnect.com>
eatonville, wa - Monday, April 7, 2008 5:29 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Gavin. Know we are thinking of you.
God Bless You.
Karen
franklinville, nj usa - Monday, April 7, 2008 2:24 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Gavin.
You are always in our thoughts and heart.

Sharon <Sharonfuriato@aol.com>
Port St Lucie, Florida - Monday, April 7, 2008 2:17 PM CDT

Happy Birthday angel Gavin! As always, you're all in my thoughts!
Sherry Contento <boberry608@hotmail.com>
Palm Beach Gardens, FL - Monday, April 7, 2008 8:24 AM CDT

Your son is beautiful ..Iam so sorry for your loss
rachel allen <racheal_allen420@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, April 3, 2008 2:25 PM CDT

I wanted to say first off that gavin is a beautiful little man.I am so very sorry for your loss.you may not be able to hold him in your arms right now but at least no one can take your memories of him away and you can hold them in your heart forever.i look forward to the day i can hold my baby in my arms again.from one angel mom to another,let's keep our babies memories alive, god bless kathy
kathy cast <livedinthe80s@yahoo.com>
atlanta, il usa - Thursday, April 3, 2008 11:53 AM CDT

Tammy I've been here once or twice before. I just was so heartbroken to hear all that Gavin, all of you went through. It's just not fair. I can not wait to find out the reasons why children, babies suffer so. Gavin such an adorable little guy. I pray you hold tight to your memories, I'm sure you do. The happier times. I wish I could ease your pain and find a way to make sense of this. My prayers are with you.

karen
Franklinville, nj usa - Thursday, March 27, 2008 0:23 AM CDT

Heyyy love he is sooo cute..im sooo sorry for you loss...hes is a better place..and you can think of him as your guardian angel...
Cearrah <cearrahb@aol.com>
Collierivlle, tn 38017 - Thursday, March 27, 2008 0:02 AM CDT

Just wanted to check out Gavin's site and sign your guestbook! He is such a cute boy! I see you are looking to adopt? I wish you Good Luck with that! =]
Jessica ... [Jersika]
Canton, IL US - Wednesday, March 26, 2008 11:59 PM CDT

Oh Tammy Gavin is such a handsome little man. Are you adopting? Oh how beautiful that would be. Just wanted you guys to know you are loved.

Love Angie
Angela <theradachs@comcast.net>
Savannah, Ga - Wednesday, March 26, 2008 11:59 PM CDT

I hope your family has a wonderful Easter! Keep your head up. :]
Nicole <nikki_la33@yahoo.com>
Avon, IN USA - Saturday, March 22, 2008 9:10 AM CDT

Hope you have a very Happy Easter surrounded by family and many beautiful memories of sweet Gavin!
Sherry Contento <Boberry608@hotmail.com>
PALM BEACH GARDENS, FL - Saturday, March 22, 2008 5:25 AM CDT

happy easter!!!
love ashlee and payton <afshopper69@aol.com>
- Saturday, March 22, 2008 5:05 AM CDT

Dear ^i^ Gavin's family
Thank you so much for visiting our Jacob's page and for your easter gift and message
I hope all goes well with your Adoption I know your little Angel Gavin will pick out the perfect little one to join your family
also good luck with the "borrowing a child for the day" assignment ;-) I had to do thet once for a class I was taking :-) other peoples kids always behave better for you :-)
Have a peaceful easter I know you will feel your beautiful Angels kisses sent from heaven
Love Always Jacob's Mum

17th June 1991-16th June 2005
Love doesn’t end with dying
Or leave with the last breath
For someone you have loved deeply
Love doesn’t end with death

Jacob's Mum Our Aussie^i^Jacob and Jacob's memorial page
Australia - Friday, March 21, 2008 4:44 AM CDT

I don't think you should ever take this page down. Its a beautiful tribute to your little man. He is so adorable, those dimples make me smile. Take care
Kelly J <shelbymommy207@roadrunner.com>
Corinth, ME USA - Wednesday, March 12, 2008 4:15 PM CDT

I am so glad that you both are doing well and moving forward. Chin up and lots of love are coming from me to you and Randy.
Love,
Cat
Cat Ingram-Rohde <cat2581@aol.com>
Pfafftown, nc usa - Friday, March 7, 2008 10:27 AM CST

Tammy I'm praying for you and Randy..for the process to be quick and get you guys on your way to getting a child..you have so much love to offer... Gavin has the most adorable facial expressions. You have tremendous heart and spirit...your courage and tenacity is an inspiration..always in my thoughts and prayers..Congrats on the promotion too!!
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@comcast.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Thursday, March 6, 2008 3:06 PM CST

Well, it must have been divine intervention which led me to your page today because I know you have not been doing a lot of updating lately. How wonderful to read the news that you are both happy, busy, and preparing to enlarge your family. God is so good, Tammy. I know He will give you a child to love again. We know that no one will ever be Gavin but Gavin, but I know that you and Randy will absolutely encourage and develop a child to be his/her own person. You both have such unique talents and personalities, and you would want to support that in a little person! May God bless you with a child soon...I already know the child will be blessed by you both.
Sue G (www.caringbridge.org/visit/sueguenther)
- Wednesday, March 5, 2008 10:11 PM CST

so happy for u god bless u and ur husband love ur pics he was such a handsome little boy.
mitzi mcginnis holler <mcginnismitzi5@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, March 5, 2008 6:36 PM CST

Hi Tammy & Randy, Im so happy you both are doing good. I just came back from seeing Mitch, Cheryl & Ashley they send there love.. You should call Mitch when u have a chance he would love to hear from you.. Keep safe ok and Im praying that the adoption goes through with flying colors.. Love ya hope to see u soon.
Melissa <vmissy261@aol.com>
Mobile, AL - Wednesday, March 5, 2008 3:42 PM CST

I am glad to see you have kept the CB page. I can't really bear to leave mine either, although I update less often.
I am glad things are going so well.
Cheryl and Angel Haley <bandcvincent@aol.com>
- Friday, February 22, 2008 8:43 AM CST

What a beautiful article. Such a wonderful tribute of your love for each other and your love for Gavin.
Thank you for giving us the link.
God Bless you both and keep you safe.

www.caringbridge.org/visit/kathydubois
Jackie
WPB, FL - Friday, February 15, 2008 9:19 AM CST

Tammy, what a wonderful surprise to see that you are again updating. I haven't really come back to visit this site since you wrote that you were not going to keep it updated anymore. But, today, for some reason, I clicked on...and there was that beautiful photo of Gavin. What a beautiful, beautiful boy (you must really think of him when you hear that song!).

Tammy, I read the story about you and Randy and thought it was so sweet and very positive. In fact, I even understood the reference to divorce. The reporter didn't say you considered it...he/she merely said it must have been an attractive option when you both felt you were letting the other one down. So, don't waste time focusing on that, honey. Just enjoy the wonderful way this reporter captured how special what you and Randy have is...and the special little boy that forever links you together.

Good to hear from you!
Sue G (www.caringbridge.org/visit/sueguenther)
- Thursday, February 14, 2008 9:30 PM CST

Dear ^i^ Gavin's family
I found your link today and just wanted to say how sorry iam for the loss of your beautiful gavin
may he fly high in heaven sending kisses down to you all
with love Jacob's Mum

17th June 1991-16th June 2005

Jacob's Mum Our Aussie^i^Jacob and Jacob's memorial page
Australia - Sunday, February 10, 2008 3:40 PM CST

Tammy, His House is an excellent place to adopt a child from. The web site is http://www.hhch.org. Very minimal fee.
Bonnie Knowles <dgk1717@bellsouth.net>
- Saturday, February 9, 2008 0:22 AM CST

remembering Gavin.www.groups.yahoo.com/group/tenderlovingprayers
David melton <DMelton321@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, February 7, 2008 1:59 PM CST

Hey Tam...are you at the Sports Clip up the road from POSH Salon & Spa in Boynton???? (That's where I work-massage therapy) I saw that place during my many errands and stops to Best Buy/Target.....wow...if you ever need/want a massage let me know, I'm sure you could use one..maybe we could trade sometime..anyway..keeping you in my thoughts and prayes and getting my dose of sunshine coming to Gavin's page and seeing his beautiful face. Hugs,
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
p.s.-if you ever want free tickets to open mic at the palm beach improv...let me know..dave performs up there a fair amount....
kathy <joy2jak@comcast.net>
Boynoton Beach, fl usa - Tuesday, February 5, 2008 6:18 PM CST

I teared up when you said you were quitting this page. then I read that you arent and I still teared up, what is wrong with me? I guess that I am a woman too and I can do whatever I want at anytime. But I am happy that you are sticking around. It wouldnt be the same around here with out you.
Trinity <takridge1@msn.com>
Emmetsburg, IA - Saturday, February 2, 2008 0:02 AM CST

Hi Tam-
I'm happy you have found your peace in this journey. I cannot imagine each step you had to go through to arrive at this place in your soul, clearly you moving on does not mean Gavin is not with you every step of the way..I believe he is your light and guide. I will pray for an easy time at your adoption process! How very exciting!! Where is your school? I'am a massage therapist and wouldn't it be nice to go for my own massage! The school sounds like a perfect opportunity as my massage friends are like me...busy and just need time for ourselves....wishing you well with prayers and blessings Tam.
Kathy-mom to David
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@comcast.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Friday, January 25, 2008 8:24 PM CST

I am so happy you are feeling more at peace. The passing of time does help.

We have two adopted children, one domestic and one from Guatemala. Feel free to email me if I can help in any way.
cheryl and Angel Haley <tnvincentcrew@aol.com>
- Wednesday, January 16, 2008 5:41 PM CST

I am so happy to hear that 2008 is bringing about so many positive changes in your life. I am sad to hear that you are stopping Gavin's caringbridge page, but I understand. Thank you for letting me be a part of this journey. I have learned a lot from you. I think that your adoption journey is a great one! There are so many little ones out there that need someone like you in their lives. I work for the state of Iowa and know that there are a lot of kids in foster care that need good homes. Not only babies and toddlers, but older kids too. Good luck with what life has to bring you. I have visited this site many times and am so happy that things are looking up for you! Good luck. I will definitely visit Gavin's foundation website! In fact I look forward to it! Good bye and good luck to you.
Trinity <takridge1@msn.com>
Emmetsburg, IA USA - Tuesday, January 15, 2008 7:19 PM CST

Hi Tammy & Randy,
Hope all is well and going good! We all have u in our hearts and prayers. Its been along road and I just pray everything gets better for you. I'll always stay in touch. Love and miss you all!
Schuknecht Family <vmissy261@aol.com>
Lake City , Fl USA - Tuesday, January 15, 2008 12:34 AM CST

thank you for letting me in to your journey. Gavin is such a beautiful boy. I say "is" instead of "was" because I know that he still exists, just somewhere else for now. I'm glad you have found some peace. I'm always here for you. Love and hugs, Megan (tannersmom)
megannielson@msn.com <megannielson@msn.com>
USA - Sunday, January 13, 2008 12:00 AM CST

Dear Tammy and Randy:
Moving on is difficult but oh so necessary. I am so glad that you discovered this truth and can now encompass the joy that is Gavin into everything you do. May the grace of God continue to protect and guide you as you continue on this journey. Life is meant to be lived, cherished for the wonderful opportunities and blessings it offers. Every journey, no matter how painful, has joy of some sort in it because it has God in it.

Best of luck with the foundation, with your careers, and especially with your impending adoption. There are so many children just aching to be loved by you both.
Sue G (www.caringbridge.org/visit/sueguenther)
- Sunday, January 13, 2008 11:56 AM CST

Glad to see that you are happy in school and all is well.
Have a very happy new year!

www.caringbridge.org/visit/kathydubois
Please visit Kathy and leave words of encouragement
Jackie
WPB, FL - Friday, January 11, 2008 10:59 AM CST

Tammy and Randy

I wanted to wish you both a Happy New Year filled with lots of love and happiness.

Love
Sharon
Sharon <sharonfuriato@aol.com>
Port St. Lucie, FL - Tuesday, January 1, 2008 11:02 AM CST

Tammy,
I met you at Cam's funeral. I come to your page often but I have never signed. I am so glad that you love your school. I have a website for you to check out. It is an awesome organization and it is a great place to visit. Email or call me if you want to talk about it. 954-383-1000.

http://www.hhch.org
Bonnie Knowles <dgk1717@bellsouth.net>
Cooper City, Fl USA - Monday, December 31, 2007 3:56 AM CST

Thinking of you often
Lynn (& Keith & Becky & Sam)
- Sunday, December 30, 2007 10:00 PM CST

Hi! I check in on you all the time. I'm glad things are going well. I really hope you had a good Christmas, and that Gavin was close. Love and Hugs, Megan (tannersmom)
Megan Nielsen
USA - Friday, December 28, 2007 10:59 PM CST

Hey Tam & Randy---
We have been thinking about you so much. Great to read your update. AND--Your thoughtfulness never stops amazing me! Thank you! Hope TeTe has a chance to wear her new outfit! :) So sorry to hear about your aunts. Love you guys! Camie & Crew
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
Leawood, KS - Thursday, December 27, 2007 10:23 AM CST

Thinking of you all.
Jackie Hiter <jackie@hiterfoods.com>
Mt. Juliet, T N USA - Wednesday, December 26, 2007 2:18 PM CST

Tammy & Randy-Hope all is well. My Mother Lou Nebergall wanted me to send you this note to let you know she is thinking of you all the time. We wish you the best for the holidays. She would love to hear from you.
Chris Orton <dorton1@bellsouth.net>
Morristown, TN USA - Wednesday, December 12, 2007 6:06 PM CST

Hope that all is well with you. I check back often for an update. I hope that you enjoy the holiday season as much as possible!
Sherry Contento <Boberry608@hotmail.com>
palm beach gardens, FL - Wednesday, December 12, 2007 1:20 PM CST

Hope you are well.
XXOO
Suleica <suleicamelow@bellsouth.net>
- Friday, November 9, 2007 12:22 AM CST

Just stopping by to say hello and hope all is well.
Hoping for an update soon.

www.caringbridge.org/visit/kathydubois
Please visit Kathy and leave words of encouragement
Jackie
WPB, FL - Tuesday, November 6, 2007 7:26 AM CST

Thinking of you
Love and prayers, Megan (tannersmom)
Megan Nielsen
USA - Sunday, November 4, 2007 0:54 AM CDT

Hi Tam &Randy,Hope you guys are doing well. I think of you guys often since i moved.You are always in my prayers. I am so very happy that you started a foundation in gavins name. All our love .Kim ,Jimmy, Eric,Ryan
Kim Mead <kdmemm@rainierconnect.com>
Eatonville, Wa USA - Friday, November 2, 2007 1:59 PM CDT

Hope you are doing okay! Just thinking about you both.
God Bless you.

www.caringbridge.org/visit/kathydubois
Jackie
WPB, FL - Wednesday, October 24, 2007 8:32 AM CDT

Tammy & Randy, it has been far too long since I have visited this site because it always hurt my heart so much. This is a very positive step forward and am I so pleased that you have been able to organize this foundation. I believe that Angel Gavin will give great direction on how to make this help other families. I love you so much! Peg
Grandma Peggy Ward <pward@desmoinesradiogroup.com>
Clive, IA USA - Saturday, October 13, 2007 3:19 PM CDT

Thinking of you Tammy.
Hope you're doing well and have a nice weekend.
Suleica <suleicamelow@bellsouth.net>
m, fl - Friday, October 12, 2007 7:37 AM CDT

Thinking of you and hoping your having a peaceful day.
Stay strong and God Bless.

www.caringbridge.org/visit/kathydubois
Jackie
WPB, FL - Thursday, October 11, 2007 11:25 AM CDT

You are so right. Nothing can prepare you for losing a child.

Praying for you....
Cheryl and Angel Haley <bandcvincent@aol.com>
- Tuesday, October 2, 2007 1:45 PM CDT

{{{{hugs}}}}

Suleica <suleicamelow@bellsouth.net>
- Monday, October 1, 2007 4:10 PM CDT

Just saying hello. I just looked at the photos you have up on this site right now, and I can't stop crying. What a beautiful, special, brave boy. And he lives on in your memories and now in his Foundation. In addition, Gavin has touched the lives and hearts of so many people like me who never even met him.

Blessings and Peace to you,

Kim
Kim Frazier <kgfrazier@charter.net>
St. Louis, MO US - Friday, September 28, 2007 9:06 PM CDT

Thinking of you and sending prayers your way!

Jackie
www.caringbridge.org/visit/kathydubois
Jackie
WPB, FL - Thursday, September 20, 2007 8:31 AM CDT

What a GREAT thing!! Keep us up to date! Maybe we can get Gardens Learning Center involved. God Bless you always,
Susie Puyol <spuyol@comcast.net>
North Palm Beach, FL USA - Tuesday, September 18, 2007 7:56 PM CDT

I can feel your excitement over the Gavin Ward Foundation - and I share it! You're really creating something beautiful. Congratulations and I wish you much success.
Always reading and praying,
Suleica <suleicamelow@bellsouth.net>
- Monday, September 17, 2007 10:41 PM CDT

We are celebrating a family birthday on Monday the 24th and we will be at Chili's! Large family, lots of money!!!!!
Always praying for you.

www.caringbridge.org/visit/kathydubois
Please visit Kathy and leave words of encouragement
Jackie
WPB, FL - Monday, September 17, 2007 4:55 AM CDT

Tammy and Randy,
I am glad to here you two are doing well. Tammy I miss you and I miss Gavin!
Love Always,
Cat
Cat Ingram-Rohde <cat2581@aol.com>
Pfafftown, NC USA - Sunday, September 16, 2007 10:07 PM CDT

Dear ^i^Gavin's family
Thank you so much for visiting my Jacob's page and for your message
Thank you also for leaving your beautiful Angel's page address
My heart breaks for you in your loss
your sweet little man now in heaven flying high happy and healthy
please know that I share in your sorrow the loss of a child is the hardess loss to deal with
love to you and your Angel
jacob's Mum

17/June/1991-16/June/2005

Jacob's Mum Our Aussie^i^Jacob 17/06/91-16/06/05
Australia - Sunday, September 16, 2007 4:26 AM CDT

I love the new front page picture of Gavin. What a little sweetie.
Hugs, Megan (tannersmom)
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
- Friday, September 14, 2007 10:19 PM CDT

Hi Tammy! Thanks for stalking me (lol). Hope you are doing as well as can be expected. Have to say that was really interesting about the deodorant.... I might just have to stop at my local health food store and see what they've got in there.... I might be putting some rocks under my arms (lol).... Take care you.....
Carol Mack (Mom2Angelz Meghan & Taylor) www.caringbridge.org/fl/meghansjourney <mmm723@ aol.com (ELM-Everybody Loves Meghan)>
Titusville, FL USA - Friday, September 14, 2007 12:01 AM CDT

Tam: Thinking of you and Randy from afar.
James & Dominique <mccreavy@aol.com>
Val des Monts, PQ CANADA - Tuesday, September 11, 2007 4:29 PM CDT

As your fellow classmate I can say, without a doubt, that you are doing MORE than well. Without exaggeration, you are the by far the most knowledgeable, intelligent, perceptive student in the whole school! The process of channeling those negative emotions in a positive way is has been initiated and doing exceptionally well! Maslow calls it the need to self-actualize. Your story has just begun, Tammy. Somewhere over this rainbow, you will find the answers to the unanswered questions, because the SPIRIT of your son is with you forever. NOTHING can change that.
Rita <remedy22@bellsouth.net>
Quint, FL USA - Tuesday, September 11, 2007 1:23 PM CDT

Glad to see the latest update. Happy that you are doing something that you are enjoying. Keep up the good work.
Sherry Contento <Boberry608@hotmail.com>
palm beach gardens, FL - Monday, September 10, 2007 2:21 PM CDT

Great update, Tam! I still check in every few days to see if you've written anything, and I was pleasantly surprised to see such a positive (and informative) update. Glad you are doing well, feeling productive, and enjoying life. I know your loss is profound, but it is good to see that there is some good stuff to provide some balance. And hope for the future.
Sue G
- Sunday, September 9, 2007 3:50 PM CDT

HEY TAM MY PRAYERS ARE WITH U EVENTHO I HAVE KNOWN U FOR A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME I THINK YOU ARE A WONDERFUL PERSON AND I HOPE EVERYTHING WORKS OUT FOR U AND I WILL C U IN CLASS TUESDAY CHOW
KAWANDA <kawandaramsey@yahoo.com>
WEST PALM BEACH, FL USA - Thursday, August 30, 2007 10:28 PM CDT

Thinking of you today and always!
Sherry Contento <Boberry608@hotmail.com>
palm beach gardens, FL - Thursday, August 30, 2007 4:22 PM CDT

So glad to hear that you both are doing well and are able to enjoy each other.
Continue to have peace.

www.caringbridge.org/visit/kathydubois
Please visit Kathy and leave words of encouragement
Jackie
wpb, fl - Monday, August 27, 2007 9:16 AM CDT

Sending a big hug to you, Tammy! My heart aches for the pain you and Randy are going through. I have to say that counseling did help to teach me some coping mechanisms. I do miss talking to Raeann, though. She sure was wonderful and I truly believe that she helped save my life. I do believe that our babies will always be a HUGE part of who we are.

You're such a very special person, Tammy. Thank you for the card and gift for Jacoby. That was incredibly sweet of you! :)

Please know that you're in my continued prayers.

God bless...
Love,
Terry {Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw"} http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Friday, August 17, 2007 5:46 PM CDT

Hello, Tammy:

I can't even remember how I first found Gavin's page. I am a family member of a little angel who has a caringbridge page, and somewhere along the line I read about your site and clicked over, and have been clicking over ever since. Your last post made me feel compelled to stop in here and say hello. And offer a hug. Here's the best I can do, hugwise:

((((((((Tammy))))))))))

I do not have any brilliant words of wisdom for you, but what I do have is a heart that is open to you and your pain, and a wish for you and your husband that you find peace and continue to build your lives without your firstborn physically in it with you. Gavin will always be a huge part of who you are, no question. Your qreatest tribute to him and legacy for him will be for his mommy and daddy to continue on and to live lives that are full of hope and love. Gavin would want no less for you, and please allow me to say that he expects no less from you --his beautiful mommy that he couldn't take his eyes off of.

Those of us who have not walked in your shoes cannot possibly understand your experience. While everyone loses loved ones, the loss of a child is singularly painful.

Know that people who have never met you wish you peace, love, and happiness.
Kim Frazier <kgfrazier@charter.net>
St Louis, MO US - Saturday, July 28, 2007 8:20 PM CDT

I also feel compelled to write to you today and let you know that there are strangers out there that feel your pain and pray for you to find your peace in life. NOBODY has the right to tell you how to grieve, where to grieve, when to grieve or how much grieving you are allowed. This is your life, not theirs....
I pray real hard that you can find your peace and your strength so that you may be able to put yourself in a place where you can find happiness in what you do have and then move forward in getting what you so badly want.
Don't knock yourself down, fight hard to stay in the game and God WILL get you through this.
You have an Angel on your shoulders. Feel him, listen to him, let him guide you, let him lift you up.
YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS TAMMY!
Let GOD take over for now, you might need the break......

Guestbook Readers,
Please leave your words of encouragement for Tammy in this guestbook. She needs to hear from us right now.

www.caringbridge.org/visit/kathydubois
Jackie
wpb, fl - Friday, July 27, 2007 6:05 AM CDT

I am so sorry that you have to go through all of this. No one should... ever. My heart breaks everytime I visit this page and read your words and look at your pictures. Gavin's beautiful face, smile and dimples brings tears to my eyes everytime that I look at them. I feel like I know you personally and that I have too gone through this loss with you. I pray everyday in the hopes that you will find peace.
TA
- Thursday, July 26, 2007 3:57 PM CDT

Hello. I am a long time lurker and apologize for not having signed the guestbook sooner. It is difficult to know what to say to someone who is grieving. I chose to write this time because I want to wish you well and even though I do not you personally, I can empathize with you. You need a good support group and I don't necessarily mean the kind you visit a few times a week/monthly, etc. I mean a network of family and friends whom you can talk to and share your feelings with - people who are willing to listen and not judge you. You have the right to grieve and I don't think it is written anywhere that you have to grieve within a certain time frame. I don't think people understand this and so they criticize and judge what they don't understand. I hope and pray that you are able to become a parent again if you so choose and that you find a job that is willing to work with you and your situation . . I hope there is something like that out there - maybe a job at a counseling center, a clinic, somewhere where others are having difficulties in their own lives because you can understand them? I really hope that I have not overstepped any boundaries because I only wish to let you know that there are people who believe in you and that things will get better eventually. Please continue to take care of yourself and think positively about going forward with your infertility treatments, etc.

Yvette
TX USA - Wednesday, July 25, 2007 8:47 PM CDT

Hugs, Tammy! I'm going to be praying and sending some really good pregnant vibes....
Love you! Megan
Megan Nielsen
UT USA - Saturday, July 14, 2007 12:46 AM CDT

It was good to see you updated. I come here often to see how you are doing and to leave my words of prayer.
I wish you all the best in your pursuit in fulfilling your dreams.
Relax, it will come.......
God Bless you all.

www.caringbridge.org/visit/kathydubois
Please visit Kathy and leave words of encouragement
Jackie
WPB, FL - Tuesday, July 3, 2007 6:47 AM CDT

Just thinking of you guys. Not much new here. Taffy continues to put up with Leo, despite his rough affections.
Miss you!
Moni & family <ramonagaukel@msn.com>
- Wednesday, May 16, 2007 9:55 PM CDT

Hi Randy and Tammy! Happy Mother's Day Tammy! I am sorry to hear about the loss of your father, we just started checking Gavin's website again...I think the last time we saw you it was at Bill & Ginny's wedding last year! Well a lot has happened since then...Anthony and I had a beautiful baby girl on April 3, 2007. Her name is Gianna, she was 5lbs 9oz... So this was my first mother's day! Just wanted to give you guys the good news! We would love to see you guys, send me an e-mail!
Lillian & Anthony Alfano <LillyRuby405@aol.com>
Ft Lauderdale, FL - Monday, May 14, 2007 3:56 PM CDT

Thinking of you extra today. I hope today was a good day for you. I know angel Gavin was looking down on his mommy today...
Love and prayers, Megan (tannersmom)
Megan Nielsen
USA - Sunday, May 13, 2007 8:32 PM CDT

Thinking of you and beautiful Gavin.

Sending continued prayers of peace...

Terry {Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw"} <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Saturday, May 12, 2007 5:31 AM CDT

Hoping you have a memory filled Happy Mother's Day!

Sherry Contento <Boberry608@hotmail.com>
Palm Beach Gardens, FL - Friday, May 11, 2007 4:57 PM CDT

If the Prophet is right....GREAT joy awaits you! The picture of Gavin in the crib melts my heart. It looks like Gavin is wearing one of the boys shirts in the picture of Randy holding him. Memories.... Keeping you both in our thoughts and prayers. We love you!
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
- Saturday, May 5, 2007 8:53 PM CDT

Who's business is it "if" and "when" you move on? You have been dealt a horrible hand. Life is made of memories. You will always have your memories. I know people whose children have passed away 20 or 30 years ago, and they still break down from time to time. You love Gavin with all of your heart and soul. You may never actually "move on", but just be at peace with everything and always remember that everything happens for a reason. Sometimes it takes years to find out what those reasons are. And sometimes you never find out why. If anyone feels justified to sit back and critique your family, shame on them. You need to do what you need to do, and it is no ones business but your own. Take care and be grateful that you guys have each other. Good things will happen for you. Promise.
TA
- Tuesday, May 1, 2007 9:24 AM CDT

Hey Guys-- I can only say...you haven't even had time to come up for air in the last 2 years...how can you possibly just move on?! We are thinking about you so much! Love to you both...and the critters!
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
- Monday, April 30, 2007 10:47 PM CDT

I forgot to say in the last entry that I ADORE that picture of Gavin. I bet you kissed those little lips a million times!

Megan Nielsen
USA - Sunday, April 29, 2007 10:20 PM CDT

I don't think anyone can (or should) tell you how to grieve or how to live or what to feel. You are who you are, and we haven't been through what you have. It makes me angry (maybe more hurt than angry) whenever I hear people say things like "It's been a year", or "They should be over it by now."

I don't think having a child die is something that you EVER can or should "get over" or "move past." Somehow you'll have to find how to both live WITH the past, yet live IN the present and FOR the future.
Don't feel pushed to change anything you don't want to. He was, and still is, your son.

Take it one day at a time?

Let me know if there's something I can do...
Love and prayers, Megan (tannersmom)

Megan Nielsen
USA - Sunday, April 29, 2007 10:17 PM CDT

Tam, What I would do if I were you. I would get preggy with twins, sell your house, move up to Lake City. There's a house on the next street that is for sale. Raise your kids with family around and continue nursing school.
Just do it! Love, MOM
MOM
Lake city, Fl. usa - Sunday, April 29, 2007 5:44 PM CDT

Hi Tammy and Randy. We are so very sad to hear about your dad's passing. He was a special man. We will keep you all in our prayers.

Love,

Moni & all
Moni, Erich & the kids <ramonagaukel@msn.com>
- Thursday, April 26, 2007 9:31 PM CDT

Hey Guys-- My heart is so heavy. I am so sorry. All I can say is...Gavin is being well cared for now with his Papas and Great Grandma taking care of him. Enough already...no one else needs to be called up! We love you and are thinking about tons. The Kansas Crew--
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
- Wednesday, April 25, 2007 12:44 AM CDT

Tam, I'm so sorry. I've been thinking about you nonstop.
Back when you first posted about your dad, I checked out his website. He was a phenomenal artist!
My love and prayers are with you...Megan (tannersmom)
Megan Nielsen
Layton, UT USA - Wednesday, April 25, 2007 10:45 AM CDT

So sorry about your loss. Gavin must be happy to see his Grandpa. May the days that go by lessen your pain. You are in my thoughts and prayers!
Sherry Contento <Boberry608@hotmail.com>
Palm Beach Gardens, FL - Wednesday, April 25, 2007 10:08 AM CDT

Continuing to think of you!
Sherry Contento <Boberry608@hotmail.com>
Palm Beach Gardens, FL - Sunday, April 22, 2007 6:23 AM CDT

So sorry to hear that your Dad has taken a fast turn for the worst. I wish you strength to get through yet another very tough time. Just know that Angel Gavin is looking down on his Grandpa and will be waiting for him with open arms when he makes his arrival in Heaven. My prayers are with you and your family now and always!
Sherry Contento <Boberry608@hotmail.com>
Palm Beach Gardens, FL - Friday, April 20, 2007 3:09 PM CDT

You are in my thoughts and prayers. Every time I come to visit, I get teary eyed. You are an inspiration to me. So real about your feelings. You are not scared to say what you feel. Keep plugging along please. You deserve good things and they will happen to you.
TA
IA - Tuesday, April 17, 2007 2:19 PM CDT

Hi, Gavinsmom
I was just thinking about you. I check in everyday. That's such a sweet picture of Gavin.
Love and prayers, Megan (tannersmom)
Megan Nielsen
Layton, UT USA - Monday, April 16, 2007 7:01 PM CDT

That is a really beautiful picture of Gavin!
Suleica
Miami, FL - Monday, April 16, 2007 6:51 AM CDT

I know this was a difficult week for you and I'm glad it's behind you. Thinking of you and Randy and hope you are well. Love, Aunt Cindy.
Cindy Cottrell <ccottrell@harmonandsloan.com>
Panama City, FL usa - Tuesday, April 10, 2007 8:27 AM CDT

Thinking of you.....
Sherry Contento <Boberry608@hotmail.com>
Palm Beach Gardens, FL - Monday, April 9, 2007 6:38 PM CDT

Thinking of you and sending hugs your way.
Sharon <sharonfuriato@aol.com>
Port St. Lucie, FL - Sunday, April 8, 2007 8:13 PM CDT

Tammy and Randy,
Today Gavins life is celebrated.
Your son truely touched our family in so many ways.
Thank you, Gavin taught us lessons in life that will always remain with us.
His life was truely a gift.
He will always be remembered and loved.
Love
Sharon

Sharon <sharonfuriato@aol.com>
Port St. Lucie, FL - Saturday, April 7, 2007 8:04 PM CDT

Tam & Randy this is not for you, it is for all of us that have know idea what you are going through. I found on another caringbridge site and thought I would share.
THE GRIEVING PARENT'S WISH LIST

(author unknown)

1. We wish you would not be afraid to speak our child's name. They lived and were important and we need to hear their name.

2. If we cry or get emotional if we talk about our child, we wish you knew that it isn't because you have hurt us; the fact that they have died has caused our tears. You have allowed us to cry and we thank you. Crying and emotional outbursts are healing.

3. We wish you wouldn't let our loved one die again by removing from your home his pictures, artwork, or other remembrances.

4. We will have emotional highs and lows, ups and downs. We wish that you wouldn't think if we have a good day our grief is over, or that if we have a bad day we need psychiatric counseling.

5. We wish you knew that the death of a child IS different from other losses and must be viewed separately. It is the ULTIMATE tragedy and we wish you wouldn't compare it to your loss of a parent, spouse, or a pet.

6. Being a bereaved person is not contagious, so we wish you wouldn't stay away from us.

7. We wish you knew all the crazy grief reactions that we are having are in fact very normal, depression, anger, frustration and hopelessness and the questioning of values and beliefs are to be expected following a death.

8. We wish you would not expect our grief to be over in six months. The first few years are going to be exceedingly traumatic for us. As with alcoholics, We will never be "cured" or a "formerly bereaved" but forever be "recovering" from our bereavement.

9. We wish you understood that the physical reaction to grief. We may gain weight, or lose weight, sleep all the time or not at all, develop a lot of illnesses and be accident prone, all of which are related to our grief.

10. Our child's birthday, the anniversary of his death, and the holidays are terrible times for us. We wish you would tell us that you are thinking about him on these days and if we get quiet and withdrawn just know that we are thinking about him.

11. We wish you understood that grief changes people. We are not the same people we were before our child died and we will never be that person again. If you keep waiting for us to get back to "our old selves" you will be frustrated. We are new creatures with new thoughts, dreams, aspirations, and values.

Kelly
Enterprise, fl - Tuesday, April 3, 2007 2:31 PM CDT

Hello---
I can't even believe it has been almost 2 years since Gavin became an angel...in some ways the 2 years have gone so fast...in other ways, they have been so painfully slow. Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine what all could happen in 2 years. You guys amaze me...and still...you continue to think of others. Your hearts are so huge. The kids have been beside themselves with excitement over the bunny money! Thank you so much for your never ending thoughtfulness! I marvel at how you do what you do! Please know our thoughts will be with you this weekend....Papa and Gavin will have Easter and birthdays all together. We love you!
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
- Monday, April 2, 2007 10:38 PM CDT

Hi Tammy & Randy. Hope you're both doing well. Thinking of you always, and sending special prayers for April.
Love, Suleica
Suleica Melow <suleicamelow@bellsouth.net>
Miami, FL - Monday, April 2, 2007 11:17 AM CDT

I'm so sorry to hear about your friend....love and prayers, Megan
megan nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
usa - Thursday, March 15, 2007 7:11 PM CDT

I am so sorry to hear of your friends passing. It is unbelievable the pain you have gone through in such short time. I will continue to pray for you and Randy and hope that God will continue to watch over you and protect you.

www.caringbridge.org/visit/kathydubois
Please visit Kathy and leave words of encouragement
Jackie
wpb, fl - Thursday, March 15, 2007 8:49 AM CDT

thinking of you and sending my love...
Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
UT USA - Thursday, March 8, 2007 6:53 PM CST

Thinking and praying for you!!

Jackie Hiter <jackie@hiterfoods.com>
Mount Juliet, TN 37122 - Wednesday, March 7, 2007 10:24 AM CST

Hi Tam. Hope you and Randy are doing well and taking care of yourselves.
Love,
Suleica
Suleica Melow <suleicamelow@bellsouth.net>
Miami, FL - Wednesday, March 7, 2007 8:01 AM CST

Hope your days are getting better. Always praying for you and Randy.

www.caringbridge.org/visit/kathydubois
Please visit and leave words of encouragement for Kathy
Jackie
WPB, FL - Monday, March 5, 2007 9:21 AM CST

Hi Tammy & Randy! I came into work this morning at 5:30 AM to avoid the blizzard they are predicting here today.

The kids and Erich are fine. Erich hasn't heard if he got into school yet. Hopefully we will know soon.

I've been thinking about you guys a lot lately. We love you a lot. Big hugs.
Moni <ramonagaukel@msn.com>
- Thursday, March 1, 2007 7:52 AM CST

Hoping that every day your heart heals a little more. Remember that each and every day your gorgeous son with those beautiful dimples is watching over you. My daughter has dimples just like Gavin's and I often think of him when she smiles. I didn't even know him and he has left a lasting impression in my life~how truly amazing is that?
Sherry Contento <Boberry608@hotmail.com>
Palm Beach Gardens, FL - Monday, February 26, 2007 12:49 AM CST

Hey Tam-- Good for you! Life is way too short to allow someone treat you so poorly! Enjoy the time off! I'm sure there is a reason for the experience--who knows what!? Baby leopard gecko is doing well. Soon to be adding another 4 legged girl to the family. Her name will be Elsie Mae. She was bigger than T.T. at 5 weeks old. Nat want's to name her Sno-fee! It's her new "kissing dog". Love you guys! C-
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
- Friday, February 23, 2007 2:29 PM CST

Hi Tammy--I've been meaning to stop by and say "hi" so you wouldn't think I was slacking off--so here I am, finally! It may take me a while but I'll always get here eventually--HA! I hope this finds you and Randy doing well, and I've also been thinking of and saying extra prayers for your Dad. And okay, I'll admit it--even though I don't sign in, I DO stop by everyday to get my Gavin fix; the beautiful "Mr. Dimples"!!!!

Kim D. <kdanielson@earthlink.net>
MSP, MN - Thursday, February 22, 2007 5:49 AM CST

Wishing you both a Happy Valentine's Day!
Sherry Contento <Boberry608@hotmail.com>
Palm Beach Gardens, FL - Wednesday, February 14, 2007 4:05 PM CST

Thinking about you always. XXOO.Suleica
Suleica Melow <suleicamelow@bellsouth.net>
Miami, FL - Wednesday, February 7, 2007 7:12 AM CST

You're amazing, Tammy--you and Randy are amazing! You really, really need to be proud of yourself; my opinion is, Gavin is so proud of his Mom and Dad as you work out the way to honor his life. It takes strength and courage to not give in and let the grief be all-consuming, and you are doing it--every day! I admire the two of you, and am also keeping your Dad in my thoughts and prayers.

Kim D
MSP, MN - Wednesday, February 7, 2007 5:49 AM CST

Thinking of you and hoping that your days have been filled with only happy memories of your sweet boy!
Sherry Contento <Boberry608@hotmail.com>
Palm Beach Gardens, FL - Tuesday, February 6, 2007 3:45 PM CST

Hi Tam, found your site thru another caringbridge site. My heart goes out to you and your family. I'm sure you know that one day you will be reuinted with your beatufiul boy. I'm not good at writing, just wanted you to know that you and your journal has touched my heart and I will pray you have a good day! :)
Kelly
Enterprise, Fl - Wednesday, January 31, 2007 6:23 PM CST

Hey Tam,
Blah, blah, blah, I LOVE YOU. Blah, blah, GAVIN IS FOREVER FINE. Blah, blah HANG IN THERE.
Love, Blah, blah
Blah Smith <blah, blah@aol.com>
Bl, Bl Blah - Wednesday, January 31, 2007 12:04 AM CST

I found your website through Cam's and have been following your journey for about a year now, although I have never signed the guestbook. I think of you and Randy daily and pray that you may have the strength to get through your day. You seem like incredible people and are very lucky to have one another. I hope that each day you find some peace to help you through. Gavin is looking down from heaven and is very proud of you......always remember that!
Sherry Contento <Boberry608@hotmail.com>
Palm Beach Gardens, FL - Tuesday, January 30, 2007 7:49 AM CST

Good Morning, Tammy! Ya know what? Suddenly, I sort of like Joan. She made sense. Here's something for you to ponder; just think about it, okay? Yesterday you had a grief burst that was debilitating for a time, but you overcame it and salvaged your day. Now you are waiting to get hit with Wonder Woman Tammy. Here's the food for thought--there is a LOT of space between debilitating grief burst and Wonder Woman. It would be okay if you didn't expect yourself to go directly to Wonder Woman, as the steps in between are there for a reason. In fact, for several reasons, including for you to take a couple steps back sometimes. Then you go forward again. It's just my opinion, but beating yourself up and putting unrealistic expectations on yourself is almost like setting yourself up. I'm just sayin'...be good to yourself, Tammy. Buff arms are NOT an easy thing to come by--HA! Hug yourself for me.

Kim <kdanielson@earthlink.net>
MSP, MN - Monday, January 29, 2007 10:34 AM CST

Hi Tammy--How are you now--good? You know that's what I'm hoping for. I also checked in on Zachary today, and I agree completely with your friend that signed below me. My opinion is that there was no reason whatsoever for you to apologize for yourself. I do not know you and will not pretend I do, but I have read your whole journal history here. And I truly think, through that, I got a glimpse of who you are--and that is not a person who ever needs to apologize. Yes, it's true--I don't know you, but I sure wish I did, and I'm always hoping for good, peaceful, happy days for you. With good, happy thoughts of your beautiful, beautiful boy. Such a look of pure love on proud Papa's face in this new picture--it touches my heart in a special way! Please, keep them coming! And take good care of you.

Kim D <kdanielson@earthlink.net>
MSP, MN - Thursday, January 25, 2007 6:29 PM CST

Tammy,
I just came from Zachary's web site. Don't appologize for yourself. You are an amazing woman. I don't know anyone quite like you. Unless people know you personally, they sometimes may not understand your sense of humor.Some people may think it's strange but the ones who know you are lucky to say that you are our friend-forever hopefully.
We love you and Randy so much!
Keep in touch.

Toni B.
Jupiter, FL usa - Thursday, January 25, 2007 4:17 PM CST

I have been reading your story. My heart breaks for you. I hope that you can somehow find the strength to go on. Take care.
T.A.
- Thursday, January 25, 2007 3:48 PM CST

Found your site thru Zach Finestones.. your boy is beautiful.. You're in my prayers..
M Burns
Albany, NY - Thursday, January 25, 2007 8:09 AM CST

Sending extra love and hugs today...
Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Wednesday, January 24, 2007 10:31 AM CST

I love the picture, too. Those wet lips and the little bit of drool.
Hope work is good...
LOVE ya, Megan

Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Saturday, January 20, 2007 11:57 PM CST

Hi Tammy--Awwww...ya got me with another one! Each new picture is more precious than the previous; love them all! How is everything going in Joanland? I have thought of you so much, as things are not going real good in Caringbridge world. You know all too well what this is like. So, I'm hoping you're busy, happy and healthy!

Kim D. <kdanielson@earthlink.net>
MSP, MN - Saturday, January 20, 2007 3:39 PM CST

Hey Tam--
Missing your posts this week. Hope all is well. Timothy wants to call you. He's decided on his lizard...and now Owen is saving for some critter too. They both want to come to WPB to see lizards running free! Love the new picture of your beautiful boy. Love you guys! C-
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
- Saturday, January 20, 2007 12:05 AM CST

Hi Tammy. TGIF? Hope your week went well!
Suleica
miami, FL - Friday, January 19, 2007 7:32 AM CST

Hi Tammy. :) Best of luck with the new job!

Thinking of you and your beautiful son and sending continued prayers.
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw" forever and ever) http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Sunday, January 14, 2007 5:59 PM CST

Hi Tammy. I hope your week went well.
Thinking of you always and sending good thoughts.
Suleica <suleicamelow@bellsouth.net>
Miami, FL - Saturday, January 13, 2007 8:15 AM CST

Hi Tammy--I was thinking of you, so thought I would stop by and say a quick hi--and, of course, take a look at your beautiful boy. I hope everything is going okay with work???? It does sound as if that is a whole new set of challenges--cough**Joan**cough--HA! But you can do it! :)

Take care!

Kim D <kdanielson@earthlink.net>
MSP, MN - Friday, January 12, 2007 3:55 AM CST

Hi Tammy,
I was wondering if the ice cream store will sell bubble gum flavored ice cream (our favorite) LOVED reading Gavin's page all last night when I couldn't sleep; you are such an inspiration.
Much Love,
Adriana (and the Samargia kiddos/pets)
Adriana Samargia <singdoula@aol.com>
WPB, FL USA - Wednesday, January 10, 2007 7:33 PM CST

I just found your site and had to stop in and say hello. I love your New Year's resolution; mine is a lot like yours. You are an amazing woman and mother. Take care.

Michelle www.caringbridge.org/visit/noahphilpott
Michelle Eldridge <meldridge@cox.net>
Gilbert, az - Tuesday, January 9, 2007 12:47 AM CST

Hi, Tammy! Your journal is wonderful. I think of you guys and your sweet boy often - you're in my prayers. I'll be sending you an e-mail too. Fondly, Steffi Tassos
Steffi Tassos <Steffi@KeepSafeMusic.com>
West Palm Beach, FL USA - Monday, January 8, 2007 12:02 AM CST

Hi Tammy--Just wanted to drop by quick and say hi and I'm thinking about you, I love Gavin's picture (which picture of Gavin DON'T I love!), and how happy I am about all the guestbook signers! Oh, yeah, and I agree with your Dad!
Kim D <kdanielson@earthlink.net>
MSP, MN - Sunday, January 7, 2007 9:58 AM CST

I love your writing...so clear, witty, inteligent...you make me so proud.

Dad

ps: thanks for everyone's well wishes and compliments.
Larry Williams <deaconlw@yahoo.com>
Tallahassee, Fla - Thursday, January 4, 2007 6:22 PM CST

OH, TAM. That picture on the front page is the absolute cutest thing I've ever seen. Maybe that's what he'll look like when you meet him again in heaven.
Hopefully the shopping won't be absolute torture!!!
Always thinking of you, Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Thursday, January 4, 2007 1:08 PM CST

Hang in there, Tam!
Mom
Des Moines, IA USA - Thursday, January 4, 2007 8:04 AM CST

Thinking of you.
Jackie Hiter <jackie@hiterfoods.com>
Mt. Juliet, TN USA - Wednesday, January 3, 2007 9:53 AM CST

I could get on with your message, but cannot get on by just going to the google site : (. STRANGE! I'm so happy that you are going to start being more positive! I have learned that no matter how bad things are, you can just look around and find someone so much worse off. We love your visits, and hope you will come again. If I can't get on any other way, this worked. Love Aunt Pat
Pat Schuneman <pattywrited@mchsi.com>
Okoboji, IA US - Wednesday, January 3, 2007 9:12 AM CST

Ok..me again!!
Love that list..Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Tuesday, January 2, 2007 4:16 PM CST

Okay Tam...If I can do 2 things you have on your list, I will feel like my year has been a great success! I am so happy to hear you sounding so positive and upbeat! Sounds like 2007 is off to a good start. Keep us posted on the new job. Happy 2007 to you both!

Camie Stamper <Camie@thestampers.net>
- Monday, January 1, 2007 8:18 PM CST

Happy New Year my friend.
Suleica <suleicamelow@bellsouth.net>
- Monday, January 1, 2007 11:02 AM CST

I love the new picture on the front page.
Hope all is well,
Megan

Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Sunday, December 31, 2006 7:21 PM CST

Awwwww..I just can't say it enough..such a BEAUTIFUL BOY! Tammy, I can't even tell you how much I am enjoying all of the different pictures of Gavin. One CAN get lost in those eyes; which is something I'm sure I don't have to tell you :)! I feel happy each time I see a new picture...

Sending my best wishes to you, Randy and your Dad for a very Happy New Year, and healthy too!
Kim D <kdanielson@earthlink.net>
MSP, MN - Sunday, December 31, 2006 9:22 AM CST

Hey there,
Just wanted to stop by and wish you a happy healthy new year. Also to tell you I was thinking about you.

www.caringbridge.org/fl/zacharyfinestone
Scott, Rebecca and Zach <srfinestone@hotmail.com>
Jensen Beach, Fl USA - Friday, December 29, 2006 3:48 PM CST

Hi Randy & Tammy,
Hope you have a great New Year, think about you lots.
Evelyn & Ben
Evelyn Digeorge <slotslady@bellsouth.net>
- Thursday, December 28, 2006 9:38 AM CST

Merry Christmas Tammy & Randy! I am glad to hear you are doing better Tammy, Your Father is in our prayers!
Lillian & Anthony Alfano <LillyRuby405@aol.com>
Fort Lauderdale , FL - Tuesday, December 26, 2006 7:56 AM CST

Tammy !!
I just got your card...it was wonderful to hear from you ...I think of you often and wonder how you are....I didn't know Gavin's website was still up and running...I have spent the last hour reading the journal entries. Are you back in the ice cream business again ?? Am I reading that right ?? WOW !!
Thinking of you lots....
Anne ( Harris ) Dale
Anne Harris Dale <cadale@bellsouth.net>
Gainesville , FL 32606 - Monday, December 25, 2006 7:13 PM CST

MERRY CHRISTMAS, WARD FAMILY!

Kim D <kdanielson@earthlink.net>
MSP, MN - Monday, December 25, 2006 1:17 PM CST

I just visited the lunchforlife.org web site, an organization which accepts donations to fund neuroblastoma research. They have something they call the Giving Tree, a Christmas tree that fills up with ornaments when someone gives a donation in a child's name (each child gets his/her own tree). I noticed that Gavin has a tree, but it has NO ORNAMENTS on it yet!!!! I thought I would share this information with Gavin's carepage family. If you are looking for a way to help eliminate the threat of neuroblastoma, one of the most deadly childhood cancers and the cancer that took Gavin's precious life, please consider donating to Gavin's tree. I don't know Gavin's lunchforlife number, but if you click on the Giving Tree link on the side of the page, you will get to a list of names as well as an online donation form on which you can select Gavin. We can't do anything to change the outcome for Gavin, but we can honor Gavin by helping to one day change the outcome for other children so that their parents would not feel the ache of empty arms and broken hearts. I don't know who signed Gavin up for this because I don't believe I have ever read Tammy mention it in her posts, but someone put his name there and I can only imagine that it was done to honor the life of this brave baby boy.
Sueg
- Saturday, December 23, 2006 9:42 AM CST

Thinkin' about you, Tammy, and hoping for a good day; also remembering your beautiful boy, as always! Hold your puppy close!
Kim <kdanielson@earthlink.net>
MSP, MN - Friday, December 22, 2006 7:45 AM CST

Hi Tammy--Hopefully this finds you having a good week as Christmas approaches with lightening speed! As always, you're in my thoughts and prayers, as are Randy, your Dad and Gavin. My co-worker's daughter had her first child on December 18; a baby boy named GAVIN! Cool, huh? :)

Kim <kdanielson@earthlink.net>
MSP, MN - Wednesday, December 20, 2006 8:40 AM CST

Good Morning Tammy--Awwwwww! How sweet is that husband of yours!!!! Isn't it just the best to be so adored by someone that you adore just as much in return? Sigh! Now, however, I want a burrito...or two :)! Hey, before I forget, how is your puppy?

I'm SO GLAD to hear your Dad is doing better and that he seems to have found a good oncologist. It sounds like progress is being made, and that's a good thing. Just my opinion, here, but I think June Cleaver was a wonderful Domestic Goddess, and you turning into her--along with a little bit of a modern-day update, TAMARTHA :) HEHE--sounds darn good to me. How wonderful to have that option. Since you are starting to feel better, it will be nice to be able to nest, take deep breaths, and enjoy the tranquility you can create in your home. Wow! What's not to like about that...I used your link and went over and looked at all the pictures of your boy; ahhh, be still my little grandmotherly heart! :) :)

Have a great weekend!
Kim <kdanielson@earthlink.net>
MSP, MN - Saturday, December 16, 2006 9:26 AM CST

I checked out your dad's website. It just amazes me that people can draw like that. They look like Photos, I am so in awe!!!!!!!!!!!! He is an AWESOME Artist. Wow!!!
It was so great to talk to you the other day. I love the picture of the three of you in your album. You're a hottie!
Always thinking of you, Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Thursday, December 14, 2006 11:21 PM CST

Guess who, Tammy :)! For some reason, after I read your update, I went over to the "photo" page where I haven't looked for a while--love your family picture! And Mall Rat Gavin? Well, I'll just never be able to say it often enough...beautiful/handsome boy! That is such a touching story about your Dad and his time on the Onc floor with you; doesn't that just do your heart good? Plus, I was SO, SO happy to hear that you can smile now...it's so hard, I know, and there can even be setbacks. But any time you can smile instead of crying is good. Here's the way I try to look at it--we need to honor their LIVES, not just make it about the ending. Ya know? I know you do....

HUG to you! I think you should tell more stories about your Dad...okay, now you get to "hear" me being bossy--HA!

Kim <kdanielson@earthlink.net>
MSP, MN - Thursday, December 14, 2006 11:05 AM CST

You're right...your dad is an amazing artist. Thanks for suggesting his web site.

Tammy, I have a friend who had multiple myeloma 25 years ago. She, too, was stage IV, I believe. We had lunch two weeks ago. There IS hope!
Sueg
- Wednesday, December 13, 2006 11:32 PM CST

Hey Tam & Randy-- As always, you are in our thoughts and prayers. I just couldn't believe what I was hearing when my mom called to tell me the news. Enough already! I'm so sorry you guys are going through this with your dad! I just shake my head and wonder how so much can happen in such a short amount of time! On a lighter note...Timothy only wants a 10 gallon aquarium, light and stuff for a lizard for Christmas! Wonder who put him up to this!? :) Loved your Christmas card. We all talked about how much fun we had when we last saw you. Everyone in the family looks forward to our next visit! We love you! C-
Camie Stamper <Camie@thestampers.net>
- Wednesday, December 13, 2006 9:04 PM CST

Hi Tammy--Oh, how cute is that picture of Gavin!!!! Those dimples, awwww! I won't even get going on the eyes. Being the nosey person that I am, I HAD to go check out your Dad's art. THAT, my friend, is beyond being gifted! WOW! My husband and I used to go to every car show and MN Street Rod Association gathering that we could find--lovers of old cars here! Bill, my hubby, would have loved your Dad's work--just as I do! I think that, sometimes, amongst all of the caretaking hub-bub, it's nice to have someone who will just sit and be with the person all the hub-bub is for. In my humble opinion, I think you are very wise in knowing what your Dad needs from YOU--to be his daughter who cares so about him, as well as her husband and child. What more could a Dad want....

Kim D <kdanielson@earthlink.net>
MSP, MN - Wednesday, December 13, 2006 1:20 PM CST

Tammy--Just wanted to stop by to look at Gavin's precious face and to tell you that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Take care!

Kim D <kdanielson@earthlink.net>
MSP, MN - Sunday, December 10, 2006 6:41 PM CST

Tammy...I'm so very sorry to hear of the news of your dad. Please know you're all in my prayers.

Sending lots of love...
Terry (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Saturday, December 9, 2006 5:47 AM CST

Tammy--I am so, so sorry about your Dad. Man, just exactly how much can get piled on your family...enough, already! My thoughts and prayers are with you, and extra for your Dad.
Kim D <kdanielson@earthlink.net>
MSP, MN - Monday, December 4, 2006 8:37 AM CST

Hi Tamartha! Hehehe. Okay, I sort of feel like a guestbook hog, but I doubt it will stop me :)! The Somersizing it seems to be doing the trick, huh? Is there a book? Cause I sure could use it :)! I also could use some of your fresh cilantro here in MN! I'm so glad that you're feeling so good; isn't it such a relief when even a little bit of the "fog" lifts, for whatever reason? For me, even after all of this time, it still seems like I take three baby steps forward and then a giant step backward with the "fog" thing. What a process! I don't know if you've already done this, but I would love to see a picture of Gavin's garden and pond and, of course, any and all pictures of Gavin himself are always good for melting my heart. Such a beautiful boy. Good thoughts to you and Randy from MN!
Kim D <kdanielson@earthlink.net>
MSP, MN - Sunday, December 3, 2006 11:34 AM CST

I'm so glad to hear your Thanksgiving was good, and also that TeaTea had a playmate. I know exactly what you mean about the difference your puppy has made. Within months of my husband passing, both of our cats also passed. It may sound stupid to some, but it was incredibly hard; I'm betting you understand what I'm talking about. I got a new one right away, and it made all the difference! Then, a year-and-a-half ago, I got him a little girl playmate and, I have to say, they make a huge difference in my household! They are the first faces I see every morning and the last faces I see each night, and that counts for something! I love them and they love me...well, they love their food--HA! They're no dummies!

Your diet sounds wonderful! White asparagus? NUM! I've just recently, on the recommendation of a girlfriend, started buying more organic and the taste it SO good!

Before I close, I just have to say that, in this new picture of Beautiful Boy Gavin, I noticed he has the BIG box of crayons and, for some odd reason, that makes me happy. Go figure, huh?
Kim D <kdanielson@earthlink.net>
MSP, MN - Wednesday, November 29, 2006 12:06 AM CST

Dear Tammy--I just have to say, I think I agree with Gavin's assessment of Jolly Old St. Nick; he just looks a little...how shall I say it??...stern? That is one of the things I love about young children; you always get the truth from them! Hair, no hair--Gavin is beautiful/handsome. And being the casserole queen is GOOD! I'm making the corn/cornbread one you posted before. I hope you and Randy have a good Thanksgiving.
Kim D <kdanielson@earthlink.net>
MSP, MN - Tuesday, November 21, 2006 7:16 AM CST

Dear Tammy--I just recently found your page through another, and have been "lurking" since...I just haven't known what to say. Don't know why I'm taking the plunge and signing now because I STILL don't know what to say, except your baby boy is so beautiful...those eyes! I read back through your soul-wrenching journal, and I just had to let you know how much I've been touched by your family. I lost the love of my life, my husband, to kidney cancer just over five years ago, my mother just over eight years ago, and several other close family members, too; so, although I don't know your pain at losing your beautiful boy, I do have an idea...and it isn't exactly a walk in the park. You and Randy have my admiration (the two of you remind me of my husband and me, only younger and better-looking--HA!) and now that I've signed, expect to see my more name again! Love, hugs and admiration from MN!
Kim Danielson <kdanielson@earthlink.net>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Sunday, November 19, 2006 5:20 AM CST

Wow Tam - glad it wasn't worse and I hope they catch them! They didn't know who they were messing with - I'm so glad you got Tea Tea back and she's okay. Hope your eye feels better soon.
Suleica <suleicamelow@bellsouth.net>
Miami, FL - Friday, November 3, 2006 12:27 AM CST

Oh my gosh. That just seems unreal! I'm so sorry to hear that you were hurt. I just don't know what goes through people's minds sometimes. What is wrong with them? Man, how traumatic! I'm glad you got your dog, though. Good for you, you're a fighter!!
Thinking of you, and wishing I was closer, Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Friday, November 3, 2006 11:39 AM CST

Just lurking..and wanted to say "hi".
Cheryl and Angel Haley <bandcvincent@aol.com>
- Sunday, October 29, 2006 4:06 PM CST

Somebody has a birthday coming up :)
Hope you're doing well.
Suleica
Miami, - Thursday, October 26, 2006 7:24 AM CDT

Hey--
I'm so excited for you! I can't wait to see a picture of this little peanut! Are you going to get one of those cute little dog purses to carry him? Yes, do tell his name! Will you post a picture? I found Timothy at the computer this morning making a price list of all the things he would need to buy a lizard!! Wonder who put this crazy idea in his head??? He took one of the books to read on the bus this morning. He can't leave them alone! Thanks again! You guys are great!
Camie Stamper <Camie@thestampers.net>
Leawood, KS - Thursday, October 19, 2006 6:05 PM CDT

YYYEEAAAHHH!!! A puppy fills up your heart so much!! Congrats!! Love to you and Randy and (puppy's name?), Aunt Cindy
Cindy Cottrell <ccottrell@harmonandsloan.com>
Panama City, FL USA - Thursday, October 19, 2006 2:40 PM CDT

I wish we could all know the answer to your great question. All I know is...you and Randy are amazing parents. Maybe God knew Gavin was only going to be in this life a short time and He needed parents who could give the MOST in the least amount of time?! It's so unfair and I pray one day---some how--some way---you will hold your next child in your arms. Of course any answer to this difficult question sounds shallow as it is such a huge question. I just know you are amazing & loving parents. Not just when Gavin was sick...but from the beginning---I think of those videos of you with Gavin as an infant...you were so tender and loving...such a gift to such a beautiful baby! We love you guys!
Camie Stamper <Camie@thestampers.net>
- Sunday, October 15, 2006 11:56 AM CDT

Tammy,
I really wish I had some kind of answer for you... But I have been asking something similiar to that myself... In 1989 I was 7 months along in my pregnancy when my daughter was stillborn... I still havent been able to have a child... The doctors cant figure out why... So I have asked why would God give me a child to feel for all those months then take her from me before she was able to show us her little eyes... I also ask why cant I have a child when all these other people have kids and kill them and so on...
You can email me at Dhn565@aol.com
Belle
Belle <Dhn565@aol.com>
OH - Saturday, October 14, 2006 5:32 PM CDT

I also visit this website, http://www.caringbridge.org/ky/reidmiller

I had a good cry last night listening. I think you'll like the song she has playing as the background. "Held"

Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Saturday, October 14, 2006 1:35 PM CDT

First of all, I wish Utah and Florida were closer so I could give you a hug in person. (And, I'm really not the hugging type. I just want to give you one, I guess.)
"WHY WOULD GOD LET ME BRING AN ONLY CHILD AND GIVE HIM ALL THE TEACHINGS AND LOVE THAT TWO PARENTS CAN GIVE. COMPLETE OUR LIVES, MAKE US THE HAPPIEST WE'VE EVER BEEN. THEN LET US WATCH HIM GO THROUGH PAIN AND LET HIM DIE IN OUR ARMS."

First of all, don't think I'm trying to say that I understand what you're going through, because I'm sure no one can really understand the pain unless they've lost a child themselves. But, if you want opinions, I can give that!!
First, I think that this life is just part of something bigger. We lived before we were born, and we live after we die. This is just the middle. A "test" to see if we will obey God and live how he wants us to live. I believe before we were born, we chose to come here and be tested. In this life we are subject to mortal and earthly sufferings. Even the most wonderful people in the world still suffer. No one is exempt. But, if through the good times and the bad, we rely on God, he will help us through. And at the end of this life we will be able to live with God and our families again, and know joy that is more than anything we could imagine. God gives us gifts, sometimes they don't last long, but are eternal. I think of the scripture in John 11: "Jesus Wept." His friend Lazarus, brother to Mary and Martha, had died. When Jesus came to them, Mary and Martha were crying, and Jesus cried with them. He knew that he was going to raise Lazarus from the dead, just as he will raise all of us from the dead some day, but at that time he just grieved with Mary and Martha. Our Lord knows our pain, he suffered all the pains of man in the Garden of Gethsemane. He truly understands. He will comfort us if we let him. He gave his life as an atonement so that we can all live together with our families and God again.

Why would God let Gavin live such a short time? I don't know. Will God allow you to live with him again? Yes. Can God make you stronger? Yes. Is it OK to question? Yes. Is it OK to hurt? Yes.
I don't know what else to say. I come to your page everyday. When I first read your journal history I sobbed. The day he died I sobbed so hard. I just didn't want it to be so. I am so sorry. I know that you are a better person for being Gavin's mother. You can be with him again.
I love you!! Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Saturday, October 14, 2006 1:31 PM CDT

Horrible things happen to good people. That is the way life goes. Great things happen to horrible people, it goes that way too. Maybe I did something in my passed life that I am paying for in this life.
Tam Ward <wardpalm@aol.com>
wpb, fl usa - Friday, October 13, 2006 6:11 PM CDT

Well, Tammy, I guess it is better to weed out the thorns BEFORE they start working for you rather than hire what you think is a rose only to have it choke out the rest of your garden afterward.

(You know, I never was very good at metaphor or simile, but you get my meaning!)
Sueg
- Thursday, October 5, 2006 6:54 PM CDT

Good luck in finding employees Tam.
Reminds me of all the "make your own sundaes"
you used to let me make at Bresslers!
Take care.
Suleica
Miami, FL - Thursday, October 5, 2006 7:51 AM CDT

Hey Tam--
We had Brusters in Atlanta. Everyone loves it! There were always long lines. I have a friend here from Atlanta. She says when she goes back, that's the only place she HAS to go! What a great place to work! You'll have a blast when you get started! Love you guys! C-
Camie Stamper <Camie@thestampers.net>
- Monday, October 2, 2006 7:09 PM CDT

Oh, Tam. That picture of Gavin is so beautiful. I can't even imagine what it's like to have your arms ache to hold your baby. All I can say is I'm sorry and I love you and if I could ever do anything for you I would.
Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Tuesday, September 26, 2006 10:41 PM CDT

Welcome home. Training sounded busy and stressful, but you made it through!!! I've been thinking about you, and was glad to read your update tonight.
Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Friday, September 22, 2006 10:37 PM CDT

Tammy,
Good job on the training.. I knew you were smart.. but all those A's.. just kidding. Welcome home.

www.caringbridge.org/fl/zacharyfinestone
Rebecca, Scott and Zachary <srfinestone@hotmail.com>
Jensen Beach, FL USA - Friday, September 22, 2006 6:20 PM CDT

I'm glad you're home - somehow it felt odd not being able to come here and check on you. Tell Randy I said "Yo". Hope to see you next time you come anywhere near PC. Love, Aunt Cindy
Cindy Cottrell <ccottrell@harmonandsloan.com>
Panama City, FL USA - Friday, September 22, 2006 3:36 PM CDT

Hi Tammy,
Hope the training is going great!
Thinking of you always.
suleica
Miami, fl - Wednesday, September 13, 2006 11:39 AM CDT

Just wanted to let you know that we're thinking of you. I hope your job training goes great. Take care!
Moni Gaukel <ramonagaukel@mchsi.com>
- Monday, September 11, 2006 1:33 PM CDT

Hey, Tam
I check on you everyday. I've seen that picture of the 3 of you several times, but I didn't know it was right before he died. When I read that it made me cry. I can't even begin to imagine how it feels to go from a family of 3, to a family of 3 with one of the members in Heaven instead of here. (I was going to say a family of 3 to a family of just 2. But you're still a family of 3.)
Sometimes my 7 year old will express his feelings about not wanting Tanner to die. I'll tell him that if Tanner dies, he'll really still be alive, but he'll just be living in Heaven instead. He'll say "But I don't want him to live in heaven, I want him to live here with us." I think that's how grown-ups feel too. Kids just say whatever they're thinking.
You're doing a great job!
Thinking of you, Love Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Friday, September 8, 2006 11:00 AM CDT

Hey Tam--
We are always proud of you! I can't wait to hear more about the new job as things move forward. Glad you survived the storm. Thanks for the e-mails. :)

Camie Stamper <Camie@thestampers.net>
- Thursday, August 31, 2006 7:27 PM CDT

Hi Tam...Thank you for signing Jalen's guestbook. We're okay here...thankfully, the storm doesn't look like it will be bad at all.

Best of luck with the new job! It sounds great and I wish you all the best with it.

Sending lots of love and continued prayers of peace...
Terry (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw" forever and ever) http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Wednesday, August 30, 2006 5:47 AM CDT

I send my love and prayers that you and your husband may be comforted.

P.s. I am a cousin to tanner nielson in salt lake. I am also a former Floridian best of luck during the hurricane season! Go GATORS! ( I'm from gainesville)
Trieste mecham <tkmecham@gmail.com>
Syracuse, ut usa - Tuesday, August 29, 2006 10:42 PM CDT

Tammy,
It sounds like you are getting a hold of the burst and learning to control them. I look forward to hearing about the new job and all that fun you are having when you pick the decor. Thinking of you... Rebecca

www.caringbridge.org/fl/zacharyfinestone
Scott, Rebecca and Zachary Finestone <srfinestone@hotmail.com>
Jensen Beach, FL USA - Monday, August 28, 2006 6:12 AM CDT

Dear Tammy -
I commend you for speaking so openly of your emotions and actions. Grief hits all of us in different ways. I pray that your journey of healing will continue. I also pray that when feelings of sadness hit you that you will be able to grieve and move forward, not back. Stay strong - you deserve happiness. Best of luck in the new job. It sounds like you have a great boss!
Lynne <L.Beard@sbcglobal.net>
Dallas, TX USA - Sunday, August 27, 2006 12:29 AM CDT

Tammy,
I honestly don't remember who guided me to your page. Maybe Cam? I am not sure. I just read all of your entries. I am so sorry for your loss. I read all your entries before I looked at the pictures. Not sure why, as I normally don't do that, but your words just made me want to read more. I have spent so much time staring at his sweet face. The pic of you holding him after he was born.....I just sat with tears streaming down my face. I will keep you and your husband in my thoughts and prayers (the entry he wrote about his morning walk and getting a good hour of crying in)....so hard to read. Society pushes the tough man thing on all of us....not true when faced with what you two have been through. Your words have touched me. I cannot understand your pain, nor will I try to say I can. I just wanted you to know that Gavin's story has touched me. I am so sorry you didn't get more time. What an amazing little boy : )

www.caringbridge.org/ca/jackson
Jennifer Smith <lakerdog2@yahoo.com>
Hidden Valley Lake, CA USA - Thursday, August 24, 2006 7:08 PM CDT

Tammy,
Hey, just wanted you to know I think of you often. I hope the new job works out.
I think if I had to eat some of those recipes you wrote of, well, I would be sick. Take care.
Smile, Gavin is looking down at you.
Cindie <cindie.terzo@nortonhealthcare.org>
Louisville, Ky 40229 - Tuesday, August 22, 2006 3:11 PM CDT

The new job sounds great - I think it's a perfect fit for you to interact with new faces everyday. And work in shorts? Can't beat that! Keeping you in my prayers always.
Suleica
Miami, FL - Monday, August 21, 2006 7:08 PM CDT

You've got to give me more notice about the hair thing. Remember - I almost didn't recognize you when you walked into Susie's house last September!!

I admit that during the week I check your website 3 or 4 times a day. Just to keep up, just a way to stay close to you.

Take care. I love you. Aunt Cindy.

P.S. I'm making you a little album with all my grandbabies' pictures. I want you to know them and them to know you.
Cindy Cottrell <ccottrell@harmonandsloan.com>
Panama City, FL us - Monday, August 21, 2006 4:41 PM CDT

Hey-- I must know--Do you look like Natalie with the new hair style? Yes, you need to post a picture! The new job sounds like fun. Keep us posted! Love you guys!
Camie Stamper <Camie@thestampers.net>
- Sunday, August 20, 2006 10:21 PM CDT

Hey Tam,
I would love to hear some of those recipes... I am sure they are YUMMY!. Good luck with the new job offer. I look forward to hearing about it.

www.caringbridge.org/fl/zacharyfinestone
Scottt, Rebecca and Zachary <srfinestone@hotmail.com>
Jensen Beach, FL USA - Sunday, August 20, 2006 7:23 PM CDT

Hey, it's me again! How, about a picture of you with your new cute haircut? Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Sunday, August 20, 2006 12:25 AM CDT

Just stopping by to say "hi."
Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Tuesday, August 15, 2006 11:31 PM CDT

Tammy & Randy,

It was so great to see you both last week. Sometime we're going to make it down there too. We love you a bunch.
Moni
Grimes, IA - Friday, August 11, 2006 12:49 AM CDT

Tammy, Glad you and Randy had a nice vacation! It sounds like you are feeling better too! Anthony and I would love to see you and Randy! Hope things keep going well for you, Vacation is always a good thing!
Lillian Alfano <LillyRuby405@bellsouth.net >
Ft. Lauderdale , FL USA - Friday, August 11, 2006 11:40 AM CDT

Tammy,
I just spent the last 4 hours reading your entire journal. Your son Gavin, what a beautiful boy, endured so much in his short time, and the pain that you and your husband have gone through, it isn't fair. I was so excited when I got to the entries that your were pregnant and then you weren't. I am so sorry for the loss of Evan, I hope that God will give you another child soon to wrap you arms around and hold tightly. Until then, enjoy your fairytale marriage, as many of us don't have that. I am so grateful to you for allowing me into your live. I only wish it was on a different website that we could have met. God Bless you and Randy. Always remember that you have a angel in heaven that looks forward seeing his Mom and Dad shower their love onto one another.
Cindie <cindie.terzo@nortonhealthcare.org>
Louisville, Ky Usa - Friday, August 11, 2006 11:37 AM CDT

I'm glad you both had a great time and arrived home safely. It's true...sometimes we have to throw ourselves into the process of living to see we still have a life. I'm glad you took this opportunity to travel and reconnect with family, friends, and the joy of looking forward to each tomorrow.

You both have so much to look forward to in the life you share with each other. I know God has something special in store for you.
Sue G
- Friday, August 11, 2006 11:14 AM CDT

hi! I'm just checking in. I'm glad you had a good trip.
--Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT 84041 - Friday, August 11, 2006 11:08 AM CDT

So great to see you guys! The boys wanted to know why you couldn't stop on the way home too. They really enjoyed seeing you. It was a huge treat for the entire family! :) Thanks for taking the time to stop. Glad to know you are home safely! Love you!
Camie Stamper <Camie@thestampers.net>
- Friday, August 11, 2006 9:07 AM CDT

I hope you both are having a great time!!

Praying for you both!!
Jackie Hiter <jackie@hiterfoods.com>
Mt. Juliet, TN USA - Thursday, August 10, 2006 9:16 AM CDT

Darlin', I can't begin to tell you how good you make me feel.
Dad <deaconlw@yahoo.com>
Tallahassee, Fl - Monday, July 24, 2006 11:57 AM CDT

Tammy and Randy,
I just got the cd for Scott.. thank you so much for taking the time to make that for him. I hope you are well. I miss talking to you. Stay strong!

www.caringbridge.org/fl/zacharyfinestone
Rebecca Finestone <srfinestone@hotmail.com>
Jensen Beach, FL USA - Tuesday, July 18, 2006 9:30 PM CDT

Praying for you both!!!
Jackie Hiter <jackie@hiterfoods.com>
Mt. Juliet, TN USA - Tuesday, July 18, 2006 4:21 PM CDT

You will never know how much your entries mean to all of us out here who care so very much for your family. Hope to see you when you come to North Florida. Who else up here is as important to see as ME! Thanks again for taking the time and energy to let us into your world and your heart. Love, Aunt Cindy
Cindy Cottrell <ccottrell@harmonandsloan.com>
Panama City, FL usa - Tuesday, July 18, 2006 10:14 AM CDT

Oh Tammy...I'm so very sorry for your loss. I had no idea. I just don't know why these things have to happen to such good people.

Thank you for visiting Jalen's grave. That was very sweet of you.

Sending continued prayers and lots of love...
Terry {Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw"} http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Sunday, July 16, 2006 9:29 PM CDT

Hello--
Hope the day of testing went well. Whatever the results...you are not hopeless!!! You are amazing parents and there is a child for you---one way or another! :) We are living proof you don't have to give birth to a child for him/her to be your OWN! :) Having done it both ways...they all warm our hearts and lives more than words can say. Sometimes babies grow in our hearts instead of our wombs! Just ask Miss Natalie! Praying things are going well for you guys! Love you!
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
- Tuesday, July 11, 2006 10:48 PM CDT

Hey Tam! I haven't talked to you in quite a while. I still think of you and pray for you. I would love to talk to you. Please e-mail me or call me. PLEASE keep me informed with what's going on. I feel I'm in the dark here since I left the bank. Love ya always~ Sarah
Sarah Wagner <Wag10401@aol.com>
- Monday, July 10, 2006 8:43 AM CDT

hey,
I'm so glad you let your mother in law help out while you rested. I'm sure you needed it.
I'm so sorry about Evan. I'm glad you were able to bury him in Gavin's garden.
I have a personal belief that a person has the ability to experience joy to the ability that they've experienced sadness. So, the greater the sadness they have to bear, the greater the capacity for joy. Hope that makes sense. I know it makes me feel better, when things seems like they can't get any worse.
If there is anything I can do for you, please let me know..
Love, Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT 84041 - Wednesday, July 5, 2006 11:38 PM CDT

Dear Tammy:

No update today. I hope that means you are in bed resting and Ivy is taking good care of you! You are in my thoughts and prayers, always. Take care, Sweetie.
Sueg
- Saturday, July 1, 2006 8:29 PM CDT

You go, Girl! Your spirit shines through all of your posts, and today that spirit is soaring. I am so glad to read that you have set your sights on your goals and will not let anything stop you! You ARE a great mom, and you WILL have another great child to love and to teach and to raise surrounded with the wisdom that only you can give him or her. You will receive all of God's blessings, Tammy. Of that I am sure.

Please know that you and Randy are being lifted in prayer daily by many people who have come to love your family. Last night, I attended church and stood in a prayer line to enlist the help of the elders on your behalf. God is listening. He has a plan. It is for your good. He will prosper you and give you the desires of your heart.

Why you have had to experience this side of the journey so far is a mystery to me and will probably remain such. Perhaps someone out there in cyber space is using your strength and example to see him/her a difficult time...to get to know the Lord...to give them hope. Whatever God is using you for right now, I know He will continue to direct your path and reveal your purpose in ways that will provide you with much peace and even more joy. Joy DOES come in the morning!

Thank you for updating the web page and sharing the truth of your heart. You are an inspiration to all of us. I am so proud to be your (new) friend.
Sue G
- Thursday, June 29, 2006 9:48 AM CDT

I had four miscarriages before I was able to carry one successfully to term.

I'm sorry, so sorry...
Kathy, mom to Steven and aunt to angel Kyra
San Diego, CA USA - Wednesday, June 28, 2006 11:35 PM CDT

I am so very sorry for your loss. It doesn't make sense.
Shari Shine <playparent@aol.com>
Davie, FL USA - Wednesday, June 28, 2006 8:28 PM CDT

It is not fair! Not fair, not fair, not fair! I am so, so sorry. We love you guys.
Moni Gaukel <ramonagaukel@mchsi.com>
Grimes, IA - Wednesday, June 28, 2006 7:39 PM CDT

Tammy & Randy---
My heart is so heavy. I have chills that won't go away. If I could do something I sure would. I am so sorry. I will keep praying for you. Take care of yourselves.

Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
- Wednesday, June 28, 2006 4:22 PM CDT

Just found your site and Gavin yesterday, via Bennylove.

I love your brutal honesty, tortured grieving and all.

I hope you will try again for a little one. It's so obvious you deserved being a parent.

This just SUCKS.
Joan Kellogg
Taylorsville, KY USA - Wednesday, June 28, 2006 3:26 PM CDT

My poor baby girl! I love you. Aunt Cindy.
Cindy Cottrell <ccottrell@harmonandsloan.com>
Panama City, FL usa - Wednesday, June 28, 2006 12:51 AM CDT

Praying for Gavin's little brother/sister. Hope this is just a small bump and the best is yet to come! God Bless and keep your family!
Cori <joeandcoriplace@aol.com>
Detroit, MI - Tuesday, June 27, 2006 3:30 PM CDT

I just came from Gavin's Tribute Page. What a beautiful little boy! I don't think I will understand why God must call some home earlier than others. I can understand why Gavin touched so many lives though:)
Love, Tracy and
Katia (a.k.a. "The Ladybug")
Fighting leukemia AML with a vengence!
Sharing Hope on the Wings of a Ladybug

Tracy and Katia <tmsol87@aol.com>
- Tuesday, June 27, 2006 12:49 AM CDT

Hi Tammy,
This is only my second time signing your guestbook but like I said before I have been checking your site for some time now and always remembering your family in our prayers. I am pregnant too, with my third son. I had spotting with all three of my pregnancies into the third and fourth months. Everything always worked out just fine. I would always try to take it easy for the next couple of days after the spotting. That seemed to help. I was so glad to read your good news! You both seem like amazing parents to Gavin , he was a lucky little boy to have you just as this new little one is too!! Wishing you all the best and praying for a healthy pregnancy for you!!
Chris Costello
Mokena , Il - Tuesday, June 27, 2006 10:36 AM CDT

I had some spotting with my second pregnancy. Maybe I should clarify that: with my second pregnancy when I was carrying twins. Maybe you have a double gift from God!
Melinda
SD - Tuesday, June 27, 2006 10:05 AM CDT

I'm so sorry you're having a horrible time right now. Please know that I am praying for you. Love and prayers, Shelley in Indiana
Shelley Klein <sklein@kheslc.com>
Floyds Knobs, IN USA - Monday, June 26, 2006 2:27 PM CDT

Hey Tam---
Thinking about you both today...as always. I am so sorry this is such a hard time. I understand the worries about pregnancy oh too well! Continue to have faith. We are all praying for your new little one. Owen planted a flower garden for Gavin again this year. We have our little angel statue watching over the flowers. I too am so thrilled your friend Michelle is going to medical school. She is an amazing woman! I am a better mom because of both of you. We love you!

Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
- Monday, June 26, 2006 2:12 PM CDT

Tammy, Randy and Gavin,
I'm here, reading, and have you in my prayers always.
Suleica

Suleica Melow <suleicamelow@bellsouth.net>
Miami, FL US - Monday, June 26, 2006 9:17 AM CDT

Tammy:
I just LOVED the story about the frogs. If Ivy created it, I think it would make a wonderful children's book. Anyway, its theme explains why I reach out to certain strangers who are going through or who have gone through difficult journeys...especially the journey through cancer. I do it because it is so important to me that people have words that uplift, encourage, support and define the human spirit. It is limitless! But when people constantly try to limit us with their words, they defeat the power of our internal self and of our ability to file our experience in truth. The truth is that love abounds, even in the most tragic circumstance, there is love. And love never fails, nor does it ever die.

If people can't support the truth of your heart, they have no right to interrupt your journey with their presence or their thoughts. NO ONE will make you a victim during my watch, and I absolutely know they certainly will not make you a victim during God's. There is always a larger picture based on love. If what is coming at you doesn't have love at its foundation, then it isn't from God.
Sue G <sueg7@cox.net>
- Thursday, June 22, 2006 11:47 AM CDT

Never listen to other people's tendencies to be negative or pessimistic...these people will try to take your most wonderful dreams and wishes away from you~the ones you have in your heart.
Gav's Mom <wardpalm@aol.com>
- Thursday, June 22, 2006 9:37 AM CDT

It is a lovely bench!
Kris
- Wednesday, June 21, 2006 7:07 AM CDT

Tammy:

The only thing that could possibly make our budding friendship even better would be to get some good recipes out of it!!!! Thanks for the update with the recipe. I don't care for most of the ingredients...and that is usually the barometer I use to determine whether a recipe is good or not. If it has lots of stuff in it that I don't like, then I know that normal people will love it!!!!! (When you get to know me better, you will learn just how true this is. My most popular recipes are ones I have never tasted because they either have cheese or something creamy or gooey in them.)

I'm glad that you and Randy are having a blessed day. It is an answered prayer.
Sue G (chemoangel)
- Sunday, June 18, 2006 2:56 PM CDT

There's that "double-dimple" smile. Who could resist that? So happpy Tammy for your "condition" and the beautiful dreams when Gavin visits.
Gavin's Gram
Ivy M. Ward <IowaMrd @hotmail.com>
IA - Friday, June 16, 2006 10:32 AM CDT

What a beautiful son! OH those eyes and that smile!
belinda
- Thursday, June 15, 2006 3:36 PM CDT

Hey guys... congrats on the big news!!! What kind of Air purifier the old or the new Ionic Breeze? I used to sell them; they do work, but there were some concerns regarding the ozone emmissions. If you keep on in a large enough area, it shouldn't be a big deal, but you shouyld do a little research anyway, especially since the news.
Anthony Alfano <anthonya@jmfield.com>
Ft Laud, fl - Monday, June 12, 2006 8:52 AM CDT

Congratulations Tammy and Randy!! We are so happy for you both!! We would love to see you guys! Anthony is off on the weekends now and he built a small studio/music room in our home. It would be nice if you and Randy ccould come over sometime! Let us know when you are both free on a Saturday or Sunday, just send me an e-mail or give us a call! We wish you a happy and healthy pregnancy!
Lillian Alfano phone# 954-492-0630 <LillyRuby405@aol.com>
Ft. Lauderdale , FL USA - Monday, June 12, 2006 8:35 AM CDT

Congratulations Tammy and Randy. That is such wonderful news and you both must be so excited. I hope that this baby is just as beautiful as Gavin was. I wish you a good and healthy pregnancy. Take care.

Yani, Joe, Anthony and Joey Botto <yani_botto@yahoo.com>
Lake Worth, FL - Saturday, June 10, 2006 4:37 PM CDT

Hi, this is the first time to your website. I am truly sorry for your loss of Gavin. He is a beautiful boy. I saw where you were accepting advice from strangers so here I go.....I work with children in Broward county and want to help you bring a healthy baby into the world. Drink only water that has been through reverse osmosis processing. Aquafina or Publix has a new purified water in small bottles look on the back for reverse osmosis. This will cut the amount of mercury, and or other minerals that will cross the placenta. NEVER go to the dentist while pregnant, stirs up your amalgams and right into your bloodstream will go the mercury. Do not use anything that comes out of a spray can. NO fish. NO pitocin during birth. If you are going to vaccinate, educate yourself. Give cod liver oil before and after shots to pull mercury from tissues before it settles. 1/4 teaspoon for babies. You can also delay shots till 2 yrs old when the immune system is fully functioning. Equally important to get baby's central nervous system up and running is to put baby on it's tummy right away. Don't wait. The first two weeks are the most important to integrate all senses. This back to sleep thing is creating STAGGERING delays and disorders in this generation of children. I see them come in one by one. I hope you are open to the suggestions I have listed. I love to pass on all the information that drs wont tell you. You have been through an ordeal that I hopefully will never know and if I can help prevent problems in your future children than I will. If you have any questions please feel free. I will follow your website and know there will be good days ahead!
Shari <playparent@aol.com>
Davie, - Saturday, June 10, 2006 3:17 PM CDT

Congrats on your "secret"!!!
suzie
- Friday, June 9, 2006 1:44 PM CDT

Personally, Tam, I think that a stranger who would give you unsolicited advice, deserves what you give her! Hang in there! I love you, Aunt Cindy
Cindy Cottrell <ccottrell@harmonandsloan.com>
Panama City, FL usa - Friday, June 9, 2006 11:00 AM CDT

Tammy:

I wouldn't pay a lot of attention to anything someone says about clothes when she can't even spell the word. (Not the nicest thing I have ever said about anyone, but you bring out my maternal instinct of protection!)

Now, more importantly, fabulous photos of your beautiful, beautiful little boy.
Sue G
- Wednesday, June 7, 2006 8:10 PM CDT

Tam - so glad you responded to that e-mail. I was so mad, I couldn't think of any words. This website is not an opinion poll or anything other than to share and uplift each other. I hope everything continues well for you and hope to see you and Randy soon. I love you. Aunt Cindy.
Cindy Cottrell <ccottrell@harmonandsloan.com>
Panama City, FL usa - Wednesday, June 7, 2006 8:10 AM CDT

Hey Tam---
Love the new picture :) Thanks for sharing!
As for the woman who felt the need to comment on the clothes thing....she needs to get a life! Too bad this site is open to people like her. If she has a need to show concern in the future, I hope she will focus on her own children! This site wasn't created to be a "Letter to the Editor" page for her!
Love you guys!
Family in KS <FAMILYWHOLOVESYOU@HOME.COM>
- Tuesday, June 6, 2006 2:26 PM CDT

Hi Tammy..My name is Maggan. My son, Jesse went to daycare with Gavin at Gardens Learning Center. I just wanted you to know that I was the one that posted the "Mother's" poem on your site around Mother's Day. I never claimed to have written that myself. I happen to get it by email from a friend & thought of you so I decided to post it. I apologize for any misunderstanding. I hope all goes well with your "secret". Take care.
Maggan <MJG572000@aol.com>
Palm Beach Gardens, FL - Tuesday, June 6, 2006 11:54 AM CDT

Weird that she wants to take her clothes off and wear Gavin's cloths. And, even weirder that you'd let her. Does her Mom know this?
A concerned Mom <Mom2two@aol.com>
- Monday, June 5, 2006 1:34 PM CDT

The long story about Mother's has been going around in emails for several months. SO, this person didnt write it. BUT, it IS a good poem and so true.
May God continue to bless you.
A Mom <thanfulmom@msn.com>
- Saturday, June 3, 2006 10:20 PM CDT

Hi Tam...LOVE the new pictures. What an incredibly beautiful boy! Thinking of all of you and sending continued prayers of peace.

Lots of love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw" forever and ever) http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Saturday, June 3, 2006 7:29 AM CDT

Dear Tammy:

You don't know me. I read your guestbook entry to Jake Widman's family on his web site. I am a ChemoAngel, and Jake was a special holiday assignment I was given. Well, that family is so special, I just had to stay in touch to see how they were doing. When I read your entry, my heart went out to you. Cancer is such an insideous disease. Childhood cancer is unthinkable. And neuroblastoma is just about the worst. I am so sorry for your loss and the pain that you live with. But I want you to absolutely know that your pain is understandable, warranted, and necessary to your eventual healing. I have not lost a child, but I imagine that when you do, you have a hole in your heart for the rest of your life. Nothing will ever replace Gavin. He is not replaceable. But pain is, and in time it will be replaced by something else. My prayer for you is that you will find a peace within that will result in joy rather than sadness...joy for having had your time with Gavin...joy for knowing how much light he brought to your life and how much sweetness you brought to his...and joy in Knowing that whatever the future brings, he will always be a part of it. I know it isn't the way you planned for him to be with you. But please know that he is. And as for your sense of humor, consider it just another way to cope. If people don't understand it, then let them walk in your skin for a day. Years ago, my best friend lost her only child to cancer when he was only 18 months old. In fact, it was four weeks from diagnosis to death. At his funeral, we were crying and hugging and I said, "Gail, he never even got to know me." She gave me a dramatic look as if she were deep in thought and finally said, "You know, it might not be such a bad thing after all." We cracked up, and every head turned in horror and shock that the mom and her best friend were laughing so easily. Well that was our bond...humor. And that was what got Gail through the difficult days ahead. So never compromise your humor or your need to share what you need to share. Just find better friends! There are people in this world who would appreciate that your life has changed dramatically and stand by you for who you are, even while you are searching. Our friends should be the ones to help us discover and articulate a new or enhanced definition of ourselves and to remind us that we are only human. Congratulations on what you promised not to tell us! Stay well.
Sue Guenther <sueg7@cox.net>
Mesa, AZ USA - Sunday, May 28, 2006 6:11 PM CDT

I came across your site through Jake Widman's. I am so sorry for your loss and can not even imagine what you have been through this last year and during Gavin's illness. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Amy Martin <paak9744@comcast.net>
Gurnee, IL USA - Friday, May 19, 2006 11:57 AM CDT

This is my 1st visit to your page, (I am friends with the Finestones.) your story is heartbreaking... I read about you wanting to volunteer, I work at Quantum House & we would love your help. It is important to us to have people that have been through a life changing situation to help others in need....so if you are interested, email me. You are so kind to think of others! Stay strong.
Colette McKnight <cmcknight@quantumhouse.org>
West Palm Beach, FL - Thursday, May 18, 2006 8:32 PM CDT

I check Gavin's website every day, I guess as a way to stay close to you. I'm glad you're writing again. I want you to know that I think of you always, love you madly, and want to see your sweet face soon. You are especially on my mind this week. What a phenomenal mother you are. Please remember that God chose you to bring precious Gavin into the world and He knew you would be the right mommy for him and his special time on earth. I love you. Gavin's little cousins are growing up so fast, Samuel just had his first birthday in March, Zoe will be two years old in July, and of course, Abby is thrilled to tell you that her next birthday she will be five (not until December but she's already planning her birthday party!) Zoe finally learned to say Nana, but not until she learned to say "Deal or No Deal" and "Swiper, no swiping". I tried to tell Zoe that Nana was much easier to say, but she didn't say it til she was good and ready!

I love you and pray for you and Randy always. Aunt Cindy.
Cindy Cottrell <ccottrell@harmonandsloan.com>
Panama City, FL USA - Friday, May 12, 2006 8:33 AM CDT

This is for the mothers who have sat up all night with sick toddlers in their arms, wiping up barf laced with Oscar Mayer wieners and cherry Kool-Aid saying, "It's okay honey, Mommy's here." Who have sat in rocking chairs for hours on end soothing crying babies who can't be comforted.
This is for all the mothers who show up at work with spit-up in their hair and milk stains on their blouses and diapers in their purse. For all the mothers who run car-pools and make cookies and sew Halloween costumes. And all the mothers who DON'T. This is for the mothers who gave birth to babies they'll never see. And the mothers who took those babies and gave them homes. This is for the mothers whose priceless art collections are hanging on their refrigerator doors. And for all the mothers who froze their buns on metal bleachers at football or soccer games instead of watching from the warmth of their cars, so that when their kids asked, "Did you see me, Mom?" they could say, "Of course, I wouldn't have missed it for the world," and mean it. This is for all the mothers who yell at their kids in the grocery store and swat them in despair when they stomp their feet and scream for ice cream before dinner. And for all the mothers who count to ten instead, but realize how child abuse happens. This is for all the mothers who sat down with their children and explained
all about making babies. And for all the (grand) mothers who wanted to, but just couldn't find the words.
This is for all the mothers who go hungry, so their children can eat. For all the mothers who read "Goodnight, Moon" twice a night for a year. And then read it again. "Just one more time." This is for all the mothers who taught their children to tie their shoelaces before they started school. And for all the mothers who opted
for Velcro instead. This is for all the mothers who teach their sons to cook and their daughters to sink a jump shot.
This is for every mother whose head turns automatically when a little voice calls "Mom?" in a crowd, even though they know their own offspring are at home -- or even away at college. This is for all the mothers who sent their kids to school with stomach aches assuring them they'd be just FINE once they got there, only to get calls from the school nurse an hour later asking them to please pick them
up. Right away. This is for mothers whose children have gone astray, who can't find the words to reach them.
This is for all the step-mothers who raised another woman's child or children, and gave their time, attention, and love... sometimes totally unappreciated! For all the mothers who bite their lips until they bleed when their
14-year-olds dye their hair green. For all the mothers of the victims of recent school shootings, and the mothers of those who did the shooting. For the mothers of the survivors, and the mothers who sat in front of their TVs in horror, hugging their child who just came home from school,
safely. This is for all the mothers who taught their children to be peaceful, and now pray they come home safely from a war. What makes a good Mother anyway? Is it patience? Compassion? Broad hips? The ability to nurse a baby, cook dinner, and sew a button on a shirt, all
at the same time? Or is it in her heart? Is it the ache you feel when you watch your son or daughter disappear down the street, walking to school alone for the very first time? The jolt that takes you from sleep to dread, from bed to crib at 2 A.M. to put your hand on the back of a sleeping baby? The panic, years later, that comes again at 2 A.M. when you just want to hear their key in the door and know they are safe again in your home? Or the need to flee from wherever you are and hug your child when you hear news of a fire, a car accident, a child dying? The emotions of motherhood are universal and so our thoughts are for young
mothers stumbling through diaper changes and sleep deprivation...And mature mothers learning to let go.
For working mothers and stay-at-home mothers. Single mothers and married mothers. Mothers with money, mothers without. This is for you all. For all of us. Hang in there.
In the end we can only do the best we can. Tell them every day that we love them. And pray.
Anonymous <xxx@aol.com>
PBG, FL - Thursday, May 11, 2006 9:01 AM CDT

Dear Tammy,
I think this is the first time I'm signing your guestbook. I have been checking your site for about a year now. My sisters niece has a caringbridge site and somehow I was directed here. Your precious little boy has touched my heart and I think of him often. I have two boys 5 and 2. I thank God for them every minute. I can not imagine the pain you and your husband feel. I was moved when I read this last entry. It is amazing what a child can do to your spirit. I hope this little girl brightens your days and makes your heart happy remembering all the cute things Gavin did. From what I have read in the past,you two are definetly meant to be parents and were the best to Gavin. Please know that someone in Illinois is praying for you and your husband and sweet Gavin.
Chris Costello
Mokena , Il - Wednesday, May 3, 2006 3:57 PM CDT

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sharon <studela@aol.com>
- Friday, April 28, 2006 10:36 AM CDT

HEY TAMMY. THIS IS SHARON (WE WENT TO SCHOOL AT NEW ENGLAND TECH TOGETHER, REMEMBER? ME AND GEORGIANNA AND A FEW OTHER PEOPLE DID THE CLOWN PRESENTATION IN OUR PSYCHOLOGY CLASS? U WERE JUST SITTING THERE BOBBIN YOUR HEAD FROM SIDE TO SIDE EATING THE POPCORN!) BUT I WAS JUST WANTED TO SAY HI. NAD SEE HOW YOU (AND YOUR FAMILY) ARE DOING. I WOULD LOVE TO GET TOGETHER WITH YOU (AND MAYBE SOME OF THE GIRLS, MORGAN, ELLEN, GEORGIE) AND HAVE LUNCH SOMETIME. YOU CAN CONTACT ME AT STUDELA@AOL.COM. PLEASE GET BACK TO ME, ID LOVE TO HEAR FROM YOU. TAKE CARE!!
SHARON TUDELA <STUDELA@AOL.COM>
- Friday, April 28, 2006 9:40 AM CDT

My friend, We care

^^HUGS^^

The Dobrowski's, Dave, Judy, Katie, Dana and ^Angel^ Emily Ann
<davidd@comporium.net........www.caringbridge.org/page/emiann.....www.rainbowchildren.homestead.com>
Rock Hill, South Carolina
Duke-5200 and CMC-7T Family, Rainbow of Hope and Cancer Sucks Club Members - Thursday, April 27, 2006 9:21 PM CDT

Hi Tammy! It has been so long since we last saw each other. I think it was at Grandma's house. Aunt Cindy gave me this web address tonight. She kept me up on what was going on last year. I am so sorry I did not write sooner. I'm sure you heard about my mom. We found out the last week of March last year that she had cancer to. I think of you often. I'm sure this year has been hard. I wish I had the right words to say. You are in my prayers. Love, Karen your cousin in Panama City.
Karen (Stephens) Tayes <ktayes@knology.net>
Panama City, FL USA - Saturday, April 15, 2006 10:09 PM CDT

Dear Randy and Tammy,
Just looked through my datebook and couldn't believe it had been a year already. Happy Birthday to your little angel in heaven. Our love and thoughts are with you.
Adriana, Josef, Jacob and Milica Samargia
Adriana <singdoula@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL USA - Tuesday, April 11, 2006 6:42 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Gavin! You are in our thoughts and prayers today and always.
Suleica Melow <suleicamelow@bellsouth.net>
Miami, FL 33143 - Friday, April 7, 2006 1:17 PM CDT

Just wanted to let you know we are thinking of you today, the next few days...and always! It's hard to believe so much can happen in a year. Papa and Gavin will be celebrating their first birthdays together in heaven. The boys want to celebrate Gavin's birthday today too. They say even though he's in heaven he IS 3 years old today! Please know you are in our thoughts and prayers. We love you!
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
Leawood, KS - Friday, April 7, 2006 12:55 AM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy (and Gavin always), We are thinking of you all, especially now at Gavin's birthday and anniversary of his passing. We got an email from a friend about a boy who recently passed, Cameron, and when I linked to his page I saw that you knew each other. I guess its a small world, even in heaven. I was very touched by her description of his conversations with the angels. Maybe one of them was Gavin. Anyway, it prompted me to visit your site again, and I see you are going away to celebrate Gavin's birthday, which is awesome, although I know it must be so very hard. Bill and I will never forget being there that day, and although this may sound strange, in some way it was an honor, because Gavin was surely an old soul sent to help heal the world and soften people's hearts. Happy Birthday Gavin! Love, Ginny and Bill
Ginny and Bill Meredith <popeye42@aol.com>
- Friday, April 7, 2006 12:32 AM CDT

Happy birthday in Heaven, Gavin. Thinking of all of you and sending lots of love and continued prayers.
Terry (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw" forever and ever) http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Friday, April 7, 2006 9:47 AM CDT

I came to your site through Cams site which I came to from my best friend's daughter Ava's site. Your little boy is amazingly adorable. I imagine that he and Cameron are two of the most beautiful Angels in Heaven! I picture them hand in hand, smiling and laughing. I know that your life will never be the same without him, but it will never be the same because of him, too. By that I mean, everything he brought to you for those two years can never be taken away! I only hope that you have the happiest future and have many beautiful stories to tell your son when you see him again.
Justine Andollo <90millas@comcast.net>
Estero, FL USA - Thursday, April 6, 2006 12:17 AM CDT

Hi Tammy,
I just wanted to let you know that what you shared with us tonight at Cameron's service was beautiful and echoed by many of us there. I know it took a lot of courage to stand up and speak of something so close to your heart, and I know tonight was hard for you with the anniversary that is at hand. Our paths haven't crossed much, my son Matthew is a patient of Dr. Gowda's, his name is Matthew (5yrs old, ALL diagnosis 3/2004), but please know you are on my heart and in my thoughts tonight, I just wanted to let you know.
Lyn Monnette <Lamonne@aol.com>
Lake Worth, FL - Wednesday, April 5, 2006 10:15 PM CDT

I am sorry for your loss. Grandparents are the Best.
audrey
Los Angeles, - Friday, March 31, 2006 3:43 PM CST

I'm thinking of you both.

Love,
Sharon
Sharon <drifter101296@cs.com>
Psl, fl - Wednesday, March 15, 2006 8:37 PM CST

Hi Tammy & Randy,
Just wanted to let you know that our family has your family in our prayers all the time. Hope each day gets better for you. Just keep believing ok. Hope to see you maybe for Thanksgiving or Christmas in Lake City! Gold Bless You Both!
Schuknecht Family <vmissy261@aol.com>
Homestead, FL USA - Tuesday, February 21, 2006 10:26 PM CST

Hi Guys---
I have been thinking about you lots. I'm glad to see updates. It's just good to know you are still there. I have been so bad about getting thank you cards out. The kids loved the surprise in the Christmas card. You amaze me....always thinking of others. I have a nice picture of you guys from Iowa. One day I will get my act together and send it your way. Please know you are always in our thoughts and prayers. Lots of love----Camie & Crew
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
Leawood, KS - Saturday, February 11, 2006 8:40 PM CST

Hi Baby, even though I don't update our wepage as much as I should. I still think about you every minute of the day and wish we were together. We will be one day. Mommy & Daddy miss you more than words can say. Always on our minds, your very loving Mom & Dadda
Tammy Ward <wardpalm @aol.com>
West Palm Beach, Fl USA - Thursday, January 26, 2006 8:26 PM CST

Thinking of both of you and of beautiful Angel Gavin during this difficult holiday season. May you feel Gavin's love all around you!

Terry (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw" forever and ever) http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Saturday, December 24, 2005 9:33 AM CST

Tam, I'm right here, all the time. I love you and care about you both so much. Such a hard year in so many ways. Love, so much love, Aunt Susie
Susie Proper <sprop@comcast.net>
Tallahassee, FL USA - Thursday, December 1, 2005 9:52 PM CST

Hi Tam--
Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers during this very difficult time. Our hearts are all so heavy. It's hard to get my mind around all that has happened since this day one year ago. Missing you.
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
- Tuesday, November 15, 2005 4:05 PM CST

I've had the news about Gavin in my computer since it happened and couldn't bare writing--always putting it off. I've been dealing with my father's cancer since last year. He passed away in May. I hope you guys have read some of the Elizebeth Kubler Ross stuff on Childhood cancer. I find her stuff helps me. I'm playing at Georges Music in West Palm tonight and figured it's time to reconnect. I didn't get an answering machine and you may not have power back yet. I've been on the road so much this year I feel shattered, but am taking 3 months off starting mid Nov and will try to reach you then if I don't see you tonight.
Jennifer Batten <mondocongo@earthlink.net>
Gresham, or usa - Tuesday, November 1, 2005 10:28 AM CST

Tammy and Randy,
You've been on my mind so much lately. This is just a quick note to let you know that you are still in our thoughts and prayers and always will be.

Sharon Doherty <sdoherty@newenglandtech.com>
Palm Beach Gardens, FL USA - Thursday, October 6, 2005 7:27 PM CDT

Gavin's bench is beautiful! It looks like it was worth the wait to get the right legs. Glad to hear your back to work. I'm in banking too. I enjoy getting to know other people, and manage their finances. In October, we may be making a trip to South Florida. Maybe we can get together, I'd love to see Gavin's bench. Take care of yourselves..........Betsy
Betsy Shapiro-Crawford <eaglekeep203@hotmail.com>
Green Cove Springs, Fl - Sunday, September 18, 2005 6:50 AM CDT

Hey Tam & Randy----I am thinking about you guys. I hope work is off to a great start. I'm headed to Iowa later today. I don't know if I'm needed but I need to go. Love you both! Camie
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
- Monday, September 12, 2005 3:26 PM CDT

Hi to Tam and Randy, I am Anthony Alfano's Mom. read you'r journal today. My heart goes out to you. I wish i could take some of you'r pain away. I have printed it out and will bring it to my job. I hope that some of my clients will take the address and mail out the empty ink cartrages to the cancer society also some money to Dawn would be nice. My friends sister lost her 12 year old to cancer last year I want to send it to her.I just don't know how to approach her. I hope you find peace soon. This is a good purpose to have. To become active in a cause that has effected you'r life is to take away it's power over you. God's blessings on you and your's. Ann
Ann Prisco <Parvati830@aol.com>
Palm Beach Gardens , Fl Palm Beach - Tuesday, September 6, 2005 1:41 PM CDT

Hi Tammy, It's me Hibby. I was just looking over Gavin's pics. He was a handsome little guy. Please email me when you get a chance. :)
Hillary <Hillarysherd@aol.com>
west palm beach, Fl USA - Monday, September 5, 2005 9:21 AM CDT

A big sigh of thanks that you are back telling me how things are going with you and Randy! Thank you. I was concerned that you would hear about Hurricane Katrina, jump in the truck and go back home. Then you would have missed over half of your vacation. What a fisherman you are Tam! Bless all three of you. Love,
Mom
Des Moines, IA USA - Sunday, August 28, 2005 1:19 PM CDT

The pictures are beautiful his eyes are beautiful!! We still check on your web site and you are often in our thoughts and prayers.
Anthony & Lillian <LillyRuby405@aol.com>
Ft. Lauderdale , FL USA - Thursday, August 18, 2005 1:00 PM CDT

Yes, the last picture makes me melt...but so does every picture I see of Gavin! We have the black & white out---always! We check on you daily. I am so thankful you are keeping this journal. We love you and hope we can see you before too long!
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
- Thursday, August 18, 2005 10:13 AM CDT

IF TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME

"If tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things, We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready,
In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye, For all my life,
I'd always thought, I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for,
So much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all that we shared,
And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for a while,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized,
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories, would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne,
He said, "This is eternity, And all I've promised you."
Today your life on earth is past, but here life starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow, But today will always last,
and since each days the same way,
There's no longing for the past.

You have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true.
Though there were times you did some things,
You knew you shouldn't do.
But you have been forgiven, and now at last you're free.
So won't you come and take my hand, and share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me, I'm right here, in your heart "

I thought of you when I read this. Hope it helps for a sec.
praying for you.
LA, CA - Wednesday, August 17, 2005 12:56 AM CDT

Sending prayers your way and thought you might need to read this today:

DON'T TELL ME THAT YOU UNDERSTAND
-Don't tell me that you understand,
-Don't tell me that you know.
-Don't tell me that I will survive,
-How I will surely grow.
-Don't tell me that this is just a test,
-That I am truly blessed.
-That I am chosen for the task,
-Apart from all the rest.
-Don't come at me for answers
-That can only come from me,
-Don't tell me how my grief will pass,
-That I will soon be free.
-Don't stand in pious judgment
-Of the bonds I must untie,
-Don't tell me how to grieve,
-Don't tell me how to cry.
-My life is filled with selfishness,
-My pain is all I see,
-But I need you and you love...
-Unconditionally.
-Accept me in my ups and downs,
-I need someone to share.
-Just hold my hand and let me cry,
-And say, "My friend, I care".

You are an inspiration to so many people who you don't even know. Please hang in there for you, your husband, your family, your friends and US.
-

jackie
wpb, fl 33406 - Monday, August 15, 2005 10:21 AM CDT

Ya know, Tam, we're kinda honored when you talk to us for hours on the phone. All of us love you and Randy totally.
Dad <deaconlw@yahoo.com>
Burbank, Ca It's own country - Sunday, August 14, 2005 11:32 PM CDT

Hi Tam,
It was, as always, good to talk with you yesterday. Each and every day I hope you and Randy feel just a bit better. And to all of you who care about my daughter and son-in-law...thanks.
Larry <deaconlw@yahoo.com>
Burbank, Ca - Saturday, August 13, 2005 6:38 PM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy,
I'm praying hard for you both.
Here are some verses that you must hold on to with all your might. They have been a rock for me in times of intense trouble. Meditate on these, write them down and post them where you can see them. Read them outloud to yourselves over and over. These are very powerful truths!

Is 41

10Fear not [there is nothing to fear], for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with My [victorious] right hand of rightness and justice.(C)

John 16 ( Jesus speaking)

33I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace and confidence. In the world you have tribulation and trials and distress and frustration; but be of good cheer [take courage; be confident, certain, undaunted]! For I have overcome the world. [I have deprived it of power to harm you and have conquered it for you.]
Frank Axtell <frank@frankaxtell.com>
West Palm Beach, fL - Thursday, August 11, 2005 1:03 PM CDT

Thanks for the Bannana Nut Bread! We loved it!

My my little buddy would not let go of that paper plate with the dinosaur on it. The picture you gave me is now sitting with the rest of our family photos in our living room.

Kelly <klmcclain@earthlink.net>
- Monday, August 8, 2005 6:25 PM CDT

I just wanted you to know that I think of you often.
God bless you, Randy and Gavin.
Betsy Shapiro-Crawford <eaglekeep203@hotmail.com>
Green Cove Springs, Fl - Sunday, August 7, 2005 7:59 PM CDT

Hi Tammy & Randy;

Just wanted to say thanks for the articles you sent, and that you are both always in my thoughts. When Gavin was first diagnosed, Randy gave me a picture of him. I put it in my wallet, right on top, so that every time I took out the wallet, I'd think of Gavin. Since he left us, I just haven't had the heart to remove it, so it's still in there, and I still see his beautiful face every day when I put gas in my truck, buy a cup of coffee, or whatever.

From what Randy has told me, and from what I've read in your journal, it sounds like you two are really doing a great job of taking care of each other through this awful time. I can only hope that I find someone some day like that. I'm working on it, though, finally!

Anyway, as I've said to you both before, just remember to keep breathing, and maybe eat something when you can. Glad to hear you've decided to take up Jody's offer of the cabin. I'm sure that'll be a nice getaway.

Love always,
Tom
Tom Lippincott <tomlippincott@bellsouth.net>
Hollywood, FL USA - Friday, August 5, 2005 1:58 PM CDT

Wednesday, August 3, 2005

Tammy & Randy,

We are so pleased that your Georgia trip is in the near future. Sounds like that is a beautiful area.

Sorry to hear about your Uncle and I'm sure Gavin is with your fishing buddies now! Your Grandaddy and Uncle will take good care of Gavin for you.

Thank you for sharing those wonderful pictures of Gavin. I sure hope everyone takes time to see the other photos you have posted.

Love to you!!!

Grandma Peggy & Papa Tom
Peggy Ward <pward321@aol.com>
Urbandale, IA - Wednesday, August 3, 2005 8:22 PM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy,

Just went to the journal, and was so pleased see that smiling little face. What a charmer he must have been. You can see in those eyes that he was full of joy. It is good to hear the hope in your journal entry, it will be good for you to have a respite at the cabin. God Bless you both.

Fondly,
Beverly (G-ma Peg's friend)
Beverly Walsmith <bev@walsmith.com>
Des Moines, IA USA - Wednesday, August 3, 2005 3:13 PM CDT

Tammy: I just wanted to stop by and let you know I am thinking about you. I just e-mailed you so you should be getting that. That's a great picture of Gavin on the front!!! What a beautiful, handsome little boy. I'm sure he's a gorgeous Angel!!!!
Carol Mack (Mom2Angelz Meghan & Taylor) www.caringbridge.org/fl/meghansjourney <tmcmbm@aol.com>
Titusville, FL USA - Thursday, July 28, 2005 6:59 PM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy, 7/28/2005
I was reading the Word and came across these verses. They will be a real help to both of you.

Ephesians 6

10In conclusion, be strong in the Lord [be empowered through your union with Him]; draw your strength from Him [that strength which His boundless might provides].

11Put on God's whole armor [the armor of a heavy-armed soldier which God supplies], that you may be able successfully to stand up against [all] the strategies and the deceits of the devil.

12For we are not wrestling with flesh and blood [contending only with physical opponents], but against the despotisms, against the powers, against [the master spirits who are] the world rulers of this present darkness, against the spirit forces of wickedness in the heavenly (supernatural) sphere.

13Therefore put on God's complete armor, that you may be able to resist and stand your ground on the evil day [of danger], and, having done all [the crisis demands], to stand [firmly in your place].

14Stand therefore [hold your ground], having tightened the belt of truth around your loins and having put on the breastplate of integrity and of moral rectitude and right standing with God,

15And having shod your feet in preparation [to face the enemy with the [a]firm-footed stability, the promptness, and the readiness [b]produced by the good news] of the Gospel of peace.(B)

16Lift up over all the [covering] shield of [c]saving faith, upon which you can quench all the flaming missiles of the wicked [one].

17And take the helmet of salvation and the sword that the Spirit [d]wields, which is the Word of God.

18Pray at all times (on every occasion, in every season) in the Spirit, with all [manner of] prayer and entreaty. To that end keep alert and watch with strong purpose and perseverance, interceding in behalf of all the saints (God's consecrated people).
Frank Axtell <frank@frankaxtell.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Thursday, July 28, 2005 9:04 AM CDT

Good News for you both Tammy and Randy!
Mathew 5
4Blessed and enviably happy [with a [d]happiness produced by the experience of God's favor and especially conditioned by the revelation of His matchless grace] are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted!
Frank Axtell <frank@frankaxtell.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Wednesday, July 27, 2005 1:42 PM CDT

Hi Tammy and Randy : 7/26/2005
Just a note to let you know that I'm thinking of you and that I am praying for you both. Something that helps when your feeling down.... do something good for someone else who is going through a difficult time. It has helped me in the past.
Frank Axtell <frank@frankaxtell.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Tuesday, July 26, 2005 10:32 AM CDT

Hey guys!

I think about you two every day and must check up on you at least every other day here. I'm glad you post here a lot. I made something else for you. Drop me a line to let me know how to get it to you.
Kelly <klmcclain@earthlink.net>
FL - Monday, July 25, 2005 11:30 AM CDT

I love the pictures of your beautiful..beautiful boy! Thanks for the birthday greetings. You are so sweet to think of others during such a difficult time. Sure hope the trip to GA works out. We spent so much time in the mountains while living in Atlanta. It's such a peaceful place to be. We love you!
Camie Stamper < camie@thestampers.net>
- Sunday, July 24, 2005 10:02 PM CDT

I think is is good you are able to write this diary, Tami. The girls and I think and talk about you and Randy often and wonder how you both are able to find the strength you do. Just thinking of you and thanking you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. Kathy Tompkins
Kathy Tompkins <kathy.tompkins@mchsi.com>
Estherville, IA USA - Saturday, July 23, 2005 10:06 PM CDT

Tammy,

I'm so glad that you are having a great day!
We think of you both everyday.

Love,
Sharon
sharon <drifter101296@cs.com>
port st. lucie, fl - Tuesday, July 19, 2005 6:42 PM CDT

Monday, July 18, 2005

Tammy & Randy,

Hey, your message sounds pretty uplifting. As Randy sees you making progress hopefully he will, too! About thinking ahead to Christmas -- that is five months from now and who even knows how different things can be by then? We just might have something new to think about.

You are very beautiful and I am sure you looked stunning today when you went to the doctor.

Please know that we are loving you. We check this web page a couple times a day to see what's new.

Thanks so much for the progress report. Thanks to everyone else who takes time to write.

Loving you,

Grandma Peggy & Papa Tom
Peg Ward <pward3214@aol.com>
Urbandale, IA USA - Monday, July 18, 2005 9:21 PM CDT

Hi Tammy and Randy...just thinking of you two right now and sending happy thoughts and energy.
J. McCreavy <mccreavy@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL USA - Monday, July 18, 2005 4:36 PM CDT

Tam - I'm so very happy that you are keeping in touch with all of us. It's how I check on you and Randy and it's also how I stay somewhat connected to Gavin. As long as I can go to this site, I feel peace. It's hard to explain, but I know it's helping a lot of us to go here everyday and check on our precious family (all 3 of you!)

Abby, Zoe and Samuel are all well and happy. Samuel weighs almost as much as Zoe even though there's 8 months' difference in age. He's going to be tall like his Mama. And poor little Zoe is going to be short like her Mama.

I saw your Daddy this past weekend when we evacuated to Aunt Susie's. He spent so much time with Abby on the computer. I think he had fun and I know Abby did.

Please keep writing . . . please keep loving.

Love, Aunt Cindy
Cindy Cottrell <ccottrell@harmonandsloan.com>
Panama City, FL USA - Friday, July 15, 2005 8:58 AM CDT

Though I wish it could have been under different circumstances, it was nice to, finally, meet you tonight, Tammy. I won't be at the next session because that's the Light The Night kickoff party. I will see you at the following one though.

The picture at the top of Gavin's page is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing it with us.

Sending continued prayers...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Wednesday, July 13, 2005 8:15 PM CDT

Hi there Tammy and Randy,
It's been so lovely to see the pictures of Gavin from your lives together. You are in my thoughts. Love, Sydnee
peters
kazoo, mi usa - Monday, July 11, 2005 2:48 PM CDT

Thanks for signing Lance's book. I am sorry to hear of Gavin's passing.
Tina & Lance <lneonkia@comcast.net>
- Sunday, July 3, 2005 9:07 PM CDT

Hi Tammy and Randy
Tammy I wish we had met for a different reason but glad you came and shared at group. It helps.
You little boy is beautiful...

Yes I agree the "better place" will always be here with us. People mean well but they don't know what to say and that kind of stuff comes out. They don't realize the impact of what they say has on a parent who has lost a child.

Sometimes "one day at a time" is too much, it is often more like one hour or even one breath at a time. Raeann often said as long as we get up in the morning and we are upright and breathing we are doing good and that is enough to expect for today.

There are some books out there you might find helpful if you have not been over whelmed by them already. One of the ones I got so much out of was called "The Worst Loss"

If you ever want to chat please feel free to contact me or my husband...he is really good at sharing his feelings and insight.

Thinking of you
Ruthie, Seth's mommy ...www.caringbridge/fl/sethlovestrains.org <Sbunk@bellsouth.net>
North Palm Beach, Fl - Friday, July 1, 2005 9:43 PM CDT

Romans8

For all who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God.

    15For [the Spirit which] you have now received [is] not a spirit of slavery to put you once more in bondage to fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption [the Spirit producing sonship] in [the bliss of] which we cry, Abba (Father)! Father!

    16The Spirit Himself [thus] testifies together with our own spirit, [assuring us] that we are children of God.

    17And if we are [His] children, then we are [His] heirs also: heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ [sharing His inheritance with Him]; only we must share His suffering if we are to share His glory.

    18[But what of that?] For I consider that the sufferings of this present time (this present life) are not worth being compared with the glory that is about to be revealed to us and in us and [g]for us and [h]conferred on us!

    19For [even the whole] creation (all nature) waits expectantly and longs earnestly for God's sons to be made known [waits for the revealing, the disclosing of their sonship].

    20For the creation (nature) was subjected to [i]frailty (to futility, condemned to frustration), not because of some intentional fault on its part, but by the will of Him Who so subjected it--[yet] with the hope(D)

    21That nature (creation) itself will be set free from its bondage to decay and corruption [and gain an entrance] into the glorious freedom of God's children.

    22We know that the whole creation [of irrational creatures] has been moaning together in the pains of labor until now.(E)

    23And not only the creation, but we ourselves too, who have and enjoy the firstfruits of the [Holy] Spirit [a foretaste of the blissful things to come] groan inwardly as we wait for the redemption of our bodies [from sensuality and the grave, which will reveal] our adoption (our manifestation as God's sons).

    24For in [this] hope we were saved. But hope [the object of] which is seen is not hope. For how can one hope for what he already sees?

    25But if we hope for what is still unseen by us, we wait for it with patience and composure.

    26So too the [Holy] Spirit comes to our aid and bears us up in our weakness; for we do not know what prayer to offer nor how to offer it worthily as we ought, but the Spirit Himself goes to meet our supplication and pleads in our behalf with unspeakable yearnings and groanings too deep for utterance.

    27And He Who searches the hearts of men knows what is in the mind of the [Holy] Spirit [what His intent is], because the Spirit intercedes and pleads [before God] in behalf of the saints according to and in harmony with God's will.(F)

    28We are assured and know that [[j]God being a partner in their labor] all things work together and are [fitting into a plan] for good to and for those who love God and are called according to [His] design and purpose.

    29For those whom He foreknew [of whom He was [k]aware and [l]loved beforehand], He also destined from the beginning [foreordaining them] to be molded into the image of His Son [and share inwardly His likeness], that He might become the firstborn among many brethren.

    30And those whom He thus foreordained, He also called; and those whom He called, He also justified (acquitted, made righteous, putting them into right standing with Himself). And those whom He justified, He also glorified [raising them to a heavenly dignity and condition or state of being].

    31What then shall we say to [all] this? If God is for us, who [can be] against us? [Who can be our foe, if God is on our side?](G)

    32He who did not withhold or spare [even] His own Son but gave Him up for us all, will He not also with Him freely and graciously give us all [other] things?

    33Who shall bring any charge against God's elect [when it is] God Who justifies [that is, Who puts us in right relation to Himself? Who shall come forward and accuse or impeach those whom God has chosen? Will God, Who acquits us?]

    34Who is there to condemn [us]? Will Christ Jesus (the Messiah), Who died, or rather Who was raised from the dead, Who is at the right hand of God actually pleading as He intercedes for us?

    35Who shall ever separate us from Christ's love? Shall suffering and affliction and tribulation? Or calamity and distress? Or persecution or hunger or destitution or peril or sword?

    36Even as it is written, For Thy sake we are put to death all the day long; we are regarded and counted as sheep for the slaughter.(H)

    37Yet amid all these things we are more than conquerors [m]and gain a surpassing victory through Him Who loved us.

    38For I am persuaded beyond doubt (am sure) that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities, nor things [n]impending and threatening nor things to come, nor powers,

    39Nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.


Frank Axtell <frank@frankaxtell.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Friday, July 1, 2005 5:49 AM CDT

4Rejoice in the Lord always [delight, gladden yourselves in Him]; again I say, Rejoice!(A)

5Let all men know and perceive and recognize your unselfishness (your considerateness, your forbearing spirit). The Lord is near [He is [a]coming soon].

6Do not fret or have any anxiety about anything, but in every circumstance and in everything, by prayer and petition ([b]definite requests), with thanksgiving, continue to make your wants known to God.

7And God's peace [shall be yours, that [c]tranquil state of a soul assured of its salvation through Christ, and so fearing nothing from God and being content with its earthly lot of whatever sort that is, that peace] which transcends all understanding shall [d]garrison and mount guard over your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.

8For the rest, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverence and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and lovable, whatever is kind and winsome and gracious, if there is any virtue and excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on and weigh and take account of these things [fix your minds on them].
Frank Axtell <frank@frankaxtell.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Wednesday, June 29, 2005 7:13 PM CDT

Philippians 4

4Rejoice in the Lord always [delight, gladden yourselves in Him]; again I say, Rejoice!(A)

5Let all men know and perceive and recognize your unselfishness (your considerateness, your forbearing spirit). The Lord is near [He is [a]coming soon].

6Do not fret or have any anxiety about anything, but in every circumstance and in everything, by prayer and petition ([b]definite requests), with thanksgiving, continue to make your wants known to God.

7And God's peace [shall be yours, that [c]tranquil state of a soul assured of its salvation through Christ, and so fearing nothing from God and being content with its earthly lot of whatever sort that is, that peace] which transcends all understanding shall [d]garrison and mount guard over your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. 4Rejoice in the Lord always [delight, gladden yourselves in Him]; again I say, Rejoice!(A)

5Let all men know and perceive and recognize your unselfishness (your considerateness, your forbearing spirit). The Lord is near [He is [a]coming soon].

6Do not fret or have any anxiety about anything, but in every circumstance and in everything, by prayer and petition ([b]definite requests), with thanksgiving, continue to make your wants known to God.

7And God's peace [shall be yours, that [c]tranquil state of a soul assured of its salvation through Christ, and so fearing nothing from God and being content with its earthly lot of whatever sort that is, that peace] which transcends all understanding shall [d]garrison and mount guard over your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.

8For the rest, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverence and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and lovable, whatever is kind and winsome and gracious, if there is any virtue and excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on and weigh and take account of these things [fix your minds on them].
Frank Axtell <frank@frankaxtell.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Wednesday, June 29, 2005 7:10 PM CDT

June 28, 2005

Tammy & Randy,

Your journal entries are encouraging and give us new hope. We are so pleased to learn that the days are becoming a bit more normal for you! It is amazing but we are having more restful sleep knowing that your days aren't as challenging.

We pray that the days will become easier for you.

Love to you both!

Grandma Peggy & Papa Tom
Peggy Ward <pward3214@aol.com>
Urbandale, IA - Tuesday, June 28, 2005 8:27 PM CDT

Tammy, It is so good to "hear" the changes in your journal writing. Girlfriend, you will always be Gavin's mama, but someday you will be Tammy L Ward, a strong level-headed woman with new goals to meet and the determination to meet them; and some day (maybe with the help of God and modern medicine)you will be someone else's mama.
Love, Ellen 561-301-1230
Ellen Gorman <ellengorman@bellsouth.net>
West Palm Beac, FL - Monday, June 27, 2005 8:49 PM CDT

Tammy,
Cindy took the words out of my mouth and put them down before I Could. You both will always be parents. You will always be Gavins mommy and daddy forever. I'm so glad that your feeling stronger. Your night sounded so touching.
Most couples don't get to connect with their partner like that.

Love,
Sharon

sharon <drifter101296@cs.com>
psl, fl - Monday, June 27, 2005 4:41 PM CDT

Tammy, you will always, always be Gavin's mommy. That will never change; all of us see you that way; all of us acknowledge that you and Randy are parents and will always be parents. You have earned the right to see yourself in those terms. I love you. I check this site two or three times a day. You are always in my thoughts and my heart. Love, Aunt Cindy.
Cindy Cottrell <ccottrell@harmonandsloan.com>
Panama City, FL USA - Monday, June 27, 2005 3:59 PM CDT

Sunday, June 25, 2005

Dear Tammy and Randy,

Sleep is such a powerful thing! Especially if you are finding some restful, peaceful sleep. This will help you move forward. Knowing that you are able to sleep helps us have a more peaceful rest.

It is great to know you have been able to eat a little bit, too. Then a movie at home in addition to having gone to the library was a very eventful day.

We are so grateful that you are getting help.

We hope this news continues! Glory Be to God!

Love you,

Grandma Peggy & Papa Tom

Peggy Ward <pward3214@aol.com>
Urbandale, IA - Sunday, June 26, 2005 2:24 PM CDT

Tam---You should be proud of yourself! We are all proud of you too. Grief is a powerful thing. Please know we love you both and are praying for the journey forward to be filled with happiness. Yes, baby steps----they seem small but they are really HUGE! Love you guys!
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
- Sunday, June 26, 2005 9:26 AM CDT

Hi Tammy, This is Ivy's dear friend, Gene in DM. I just wanted to encourage you to hang on and the nursing class can later. What I really wanted to say that I went to a psychotherapist who did hypnosis. It did wonders for me. I was having trouble getting myself in control so I could have knee replacement.He worked withme and made tapes that I took into the operating room with me and after surgery I had one on relaxation and healing. I was wonderfully calm and can do self hypnosis now any time it. Try it. I think about you and Randy often. I think Ivy is feeling down. An email or phonecall would from either of you would make her feel better. All my best wishes to you, gene
Gene Rosenberg <grosenberg2002@msn.com>
Des Moines, IA USA - Thursday, June 23, 2005 3:27 PM CDT

Tammy and Randy, know that you are deeply loved by friends and family. I feel your pain and wish I could alleviate some of it for you. All I really can do is tell you that in my own times of deep despair, I tried to look forward to a new day when time helped me to heal. As the Irish say, for each tear two smiles will follow...so you are well paid in advance for those smiles to come...
J. McCreavy <mccreavy@aol.com>
- Thursday, June 23, 2005 10:14 AM CDT

Gavin is seated in the heavenly places with Christ. It's a promise. Get some rest, cry, and get some more rest, read God's Word, that's how He speaks to us, that's how He comforts us- even through the valley, His rod and His staff.....
Know that there are many people in prayer and interceding for you and your family.
Kim <augie5@verizon.net>
Lakeland, Fl USA - Wednesday, June 22, 2005 9:30 PM CDT

4But God, who is rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, 5 even when we were dead in trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved), 6 and raised us up together, and made us sit together in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, 7 that in the ages to come He might show the exceeding riches of His grace in His kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. 8 For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, 9 not of works, lest anyone should boast. 10 For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.

Kim <augie5@verizon.net>
Lakeland, FL USA - Wednesday, June 22, 2005 9:20 PM CDT

Dear Tammy,
You may not remember me. My son, Jesse went to daycare with Gavin at Garden's Learning Center. I just learned of your loss today & I wanted to express my condolences. I honestly don't know what to say..I am in shock. I couldn't read all of our journal entries, they broke my heart. You are very courageous to share your thoughts. My thoughts and prayers are with you & your husband. Good luck with nursing school.
Maggan Guadalupe <MJG572000@aol.com>
Loxahatchee, FL - Tuesday, June 21, 2005 2:20 PM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy,
This is my first time visiting your Gavin's page. What a beautiful brown-eyed boy! I am sorry I have not been here for any of the journey...Tammy, no good excuse, but I have not been online in a couple of weeks; I need to write to you and such...you are doing a great job keeping up and going on...images such as those that you are seeing in class are so haunting and they grip our minds and memories ot the point that it cause physical pain. I lived with this sort of dull sharp pain in my right temple and with this painful pit in my stomach for so long...I trust you all made it through Father's Day. What a lovely story and insight from Randy, thank you for sharing. How precious to see that and feel the way you did about that photo and the little tugging on your ear from sweet Gavin.

Warm thoughts of you all-Kathy
Kathy Charlton <ckcharlton@aol.com>
- Tuesday, June 21, 2005 8:35 AM CDT

Monday, June 20, 2005

Randy and Tammy,

Just wanted to say "Hi" and that we LOVE YOU GUYS!!

Hang in there. Talk to you soon!

Peg
Peg Ward <pward3214@aol.com>
Urbandale, IA 50323 - Monday, June 20, 2005 8:33 PM CDT

Tammy and Randy :

Remember this....

Isaiah 41
10Fear not [there is nothing to fear], for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with My [victorious] right hand of rightness and justice.(C)

13For I the Lord your God hold your right hand; I am the Lord, Who says to you, Fear not; I will help you!
Frank Axtell <frank@frankaxtell.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Sunday, June 19, 2005 2:20 PM CDT

Tammy

You made it through your first week of school.
That is such an accmoplishment to be proud of. There are so many people cheering you on. I hope that you can enjoy your classes.
Anyways, just wanted to say what a great step.
Hope your instructors aren't working you to hard.

Love
Sharon
sharon <drifter101296@cs.com>
psl, fl - Friday, June 17, 2005 8:19 PM CDT

What absolutely beautiful pictures! Thanks for sharing them with us.

Sending love and continued prayers...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Friday, June 17, 2005 6:21 PM CDT

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Tam and Randy,

Hi! You think you are not making progress, but I think you are. You've been to school for three days and you are going to make it. You realize you have to get your focus on your studies. You can do it! Sometimes you wonder if Gavin knows what is going on with you. My perception is that he wants you to find peace and be able to move forward in your life. He will always be with you and everyone who loved him.

We were supposed to go to an Urbandale Planning and Zoning meeting tonight, but we were 30 minutes late. They had already discussed the petition to change the zoning for the property across the road from us. They want to make it commercial so they can have a strip mall and a grocery store. We realize that we can't change it, anyway. Even if we hire a high powered lawyer we can't stop progress. Our feelings all changed on April 8th. That day the world shook first because of all the earth moving equipment around here with the housing development that is going to encompass our rural acreage. Later that day our world truly shook because Gavin went to Heaven. We now value things differently. This is just property.

I pray for you during the day that each time you go out it will be easier to see the world and not cry. I pray that you can make it through your classes and study times without feeling burdened. I think you are followign this course of study to be stronger and to make a difference not only in your life, but that of others.

Please be kind to yourself. You are trying and you will be successful -- I know you.

Take care, and may you find peace in your dreams.

Love to you!!

Peg
Peggy Ward <pward3214@aol.com>
Urbandale, IA - Wednesday, June 15, 2005 8:03 PM CDT

Tuesday, June 14, 2005 Flag Day

Tam and Randy,

Well, I don't have any words of wisdom to offer. I wish that I did, but what can I say? What words will comfort a young Mother who is struggling to rebuild her life. And what can I say to a Brave Husband who wants to comfort His Wife -- the Mother of his Son. You want to comfort each other, we want to comfort you.

I remember recently thinking of Mary Mother of Jesus and how she felt when he was crucified. I had never thought about how she felt until I was comforting a friend who lost her child. Now I am thinking about that again. I've been thinking about the many pioneer women who saw very few of their children reach adulthood because they didn't have antibotics. Until you have a child you never understand how your parents loved you!

I pray that each day will get easier for you. I pray that you will feel Gavin's presence with you as you are in school and while Randy is at work.

Soon you will have your first week behind you. That is a major step forward.

Love to you both,

Peg
Peggy Ward <pward3214@aol.com>
Urbandale, IA - Tuesday, June 14, 2005 8:16 PM CDT

You got through your first day of school.
Your'e on your way to becoming a great nurse.
I'm sure today took alot of courage.
It's a huge step it's also a step to be proud of.
If you need help with terms call.

Love
sharon

sharon furiato <drifter101296@cs.com>
port st. lucie, fl - Monday, June 13, 2005 2:40 PM CDT

Here is the Apostle John's description of heaven.

Revelation 21
1THEN I saw a new [a]sky (heaven) and a new earth, for the former [b]sky and the former earth had passed away (vanished), and there no longer existed any sea.(A)

    2And I saw the holy city, the new Jerusalem, descending out of heaven from God, all arrayed like a bride beautified and adorned for her husband;

    3Then I heard a mighty voice from the throne and I perceived its distinct words, saying, See! The abode of God is with men, and He will live (encamp, tent) among them; and they shall be His people, and God shall personally be with them and be their God.(B)

    4God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; and death shall be no more, neither shall there be anguish (sorrow and mourning) nor grief nor pain any more, for the old conditions and the former order of things have passed away.(C)

    5And He Who is seated on the throne said, See! I make all things new. Also He said, Record this, for these sayings are faithful (accurate, incorruptible, and trustworthy) and true (genuine).(D)

    6And He [further] said to me, It is done! I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To the thirsty I [Myself] will give water without price from the fountain (springs) of the water of Life.(E)

    7He who is victorious shall inherit all these things, and I will be God to him and he shall be My son.

    8But as for the cowards and the ignoble and the contemptible and the cravenly lacking in courage and the cowardly submissive, and as for the unbelieving and faithless, and as for the depraved and defiled with abominations, and as for murderers and the lewd and adulterous and the practicers of magic arts and the idolaters (those who give supreme devotion to anyone or anything other than God) and all liars (those who knowingly convey untruth by word or deed)--[all of these shall have] their part in the lake that blazes with fire and brimstone. This is the second death.(F)

    9Then one of the seven angels who had the seven bowls filled with the seven final plagues (afflictions, calamities) came and spoke to me. He said, Come with me! I will show you the bride, the Lamb's wife.

    10Then in the Spirit He conveyed me away to a vast and lofty mountain and exhibited to me the holy (hallowed, consecrated) city of Jerusalem descending out of heaven from God,(G)

    11Clothed in God's glory [in all its splendor and radiance]. The luster of it resembled a rare and most precious jewel, like jasper, shining clear as crystal.

    12It had a massive and high wall with twelve [large] gates, and at the gates [there were stationed] twelve angels, and [on the gates] the names of the twelve tribes of the sons of Israel were written:(H)

    13On the east side three gates, on the north side three gates, on the south side three gates, and on the west side three gates.

    14And the wall of the city had twelve foundation [stones], and on them the twelve names of the twelve apostles of the Lamb.

    15And he who spoke to me had a golden measuring reed (rod) to measure the city and its gates and its wall.(I)

    16The city lies in a square, its length being the same as its width. And he measured the city with his reed--12,000 stadia (about 1,500 miles); its length and width and height are the same.

    17He measured its wall also--144 cubits (about 72 yards) by a man's measure [[c]of a cubit from his elbow to his third fingertip], which is [the measure] of the angel.

    18The wall was built of jasper, while the city [itself was of] pure gold, clear and transparent like glass.

    19The foundation [stones] of the wall of the city were ornamented with all of the precious stones. The first foundation [stone] was jasper, the second sapphire, the third chalcedony (or white agate), the fourth emerald,(J)

    20The fifth onyx, the sixth sardius, the seventh chrysolite, the eighth beryl, the ninth topaz, the tenth chrysoprase, the eleventh jacinth, the twelfth amethyst.

    21And the twelve gates were twelve pearls, each separate gate being built of one solid pearl. And the main street (the broadway) of the city was of gold as pure and translucent as glass.

    22I saw no temple in the city, for the Lord God Omnipotent [Himself] and the Lamb [Himself] are its temple.

    23And the city has no need of the sun nor of the moon to give light to it, for the splendor and radiance (glory) of God illuminate it, and the Lamb is its lamp.(K)

    24The nations shall walk by its light and the rulers and leaders of the earth shall bring into it their glory.

    25And its gates shall never be closed by day, and there shall be no night there.(L)

    26They shall bring the glory (the splendor and majesty) and the honor of the nations into it.

    27But nothing that defiles or profanes or is [d]unwashed shall ever enter it, nor anyone who commits abominations (unclean, detestable, morally repugnant things) or practices falsehood, but only those whose names are recorded in the Lamb's Book of Life.

    Revelation 22
1THEN HE showed me the river whose waters give life, sparkling like crystal, flowing out from the throne of God and of the Lamb

    2Through the middle of the broadway of the city; also, on either side of the river was the tree of life with its twelve varieties of fruit, yielding each month its fresh crop; and the leaves of the tree were for the healing and the restoration of the nations.(A)

    3There shall no longer exist there anything that is accursed (detestable, foul, offensive, impure, hateful, or horrible). But the throne of God and of the Lamb shall be in it, and His servants shall worship Him [pay divine honors to Him and do Him holy service].(B)

    4They shall see His face, and His name shall be on their foreheads.(C)

    5And there shall be no more night; they have no need for lamplight or sunlight, for the Lord God will illuminate them and be their light, and they shall reign [as kings] forever and ever (through the eternities of the eternities).

    6And he [of the seven angels further] said to me, These statements are reliable (worthy of confidence) and genuine (true). And the Lord, the God of the spirits of the prophets, has sent His messenger (angel) to make known and exhibit to His servants what must soon come to pass.

    7And behold, I am coming speedily. Blessed (happy and [a]to be envied) is he who observes and lays to heart and keeps the truths of the prophecy (the predictions, consolations, and warnings) contained in this [little] book.

    8And I, John, am he who heard and witnessed these things. And when I heard and saw them, I fell prostrate before the feet of the messenger (angel) who showed them to me, to worship him.

    9But he said to me, Refrain! [You must not do that!] I am [only] a fellow servant along with yourself and with your brethren the prophets and with those who are mindful of and practice [the truths contained in] the messages of this book. Worship God!

    10And he [further] told me, Do not seal up the words of the prophecy of this book and make no secret of them, for the time [b]when things are brought to a crisis and the period of their fulfillment is near.

    11He who is unrighteous (unjust, wicked), let him be unrighteous still; and he who is filthy (vile, impure), let him be filthy still; and he who is righteous (just, upright, in right standing with God), let him do right still; and he who is holy, let him be holy still.(D)

    12Behold, I am coming soon, and I shall bring My wages and rewards with Me, to repay and render to each one just what his own actions and his own work merit.(E)

    13I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last (the Before all and the End of all).(F)

    14Blessed (happy and [c]to be envied) are those who cleanse their garments, that they may have the authority and right to [approach] the tree of life and to enter through the gates into the city.(G)

    15[But] without are the dogs and those who practice sorceries (magic arts) and impurity [the lewd, adulterers] and the murderers and idolaters and everyone who loves and deals in falsehood (untruth, error, deception, cheating).

    16I, Jesus, have sent My messenger (angel) to you to witness and to give you assurance of these things for the churches (assemblies). I am the Root (the Source) and the Offspring of David, the radiant and brilliant Morning Star.(H)

    17The [Holy] Spirit and the bride (the church, the true Christians) say, Come! And let him who is listening say, Come! And let everyone come who is thirsty [who is painfully conscious of his need [d]of those things by which the soul is refreshed, supported, and strengthened]; and whoever [earnestly] desires to do it, let him come, take, appropriate, and drink the water of Life without cost.(I)

    18I [personally solemnly] warn everyone who listens to the statements of the prophecy [the [e]predictions and the consolations and admonitions pertaining to them] in this book: If anyone shall add anything to them, God will add and lay upon him the plagues (the afflictions and the calamities) that are recorded and described in this book.

    19And if anyone cancels or takes away from the statements of the book of this prophecy [these [f]predictions relating to Christ's kingdom and its speedy triumph, together with the consolations and admonitions or warnings pertaining to them], God will cancel and take away from him his share in the tree of life and in the city of holiness (purity and hallowedness), which are described and promised in this book.

    20He Who gives this warning and affirms and testifies to these things says, Yes (it is true). [Surely] I am coming quickly (swiftly, speedily). Amen (so let it be)! Yes, come, Lord Jesus!

    21The grace (blessing and favor) of the Lord Jesus Christ (the Messiah) be [g]with all the saints (God's holy people, [h]those set apart for God, to be, as it were, exclusively His). Amen (so let it be)!
Frank Axtell <frank@frankaxtell.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Saturday, June 11, 2005 10:27 PM CDT

Tammy you ask of how we percieve you.
I have never met a women whos truely as beautiful on the inside as well as on the outside until I met you. You have so many good qualities it's hard to know where to start.
I see a person who when I went to cash my check every week, that I would look for because I enjoyed cathing up with you on the week and how I love your personality. You are a very sweet person and a funny one. If I was having a crappy day I was always laughing when I left the bank.
I've seen you put others first even in your most darkest time, I don't know how you did it.
You are a person who holds a lot of strength
You are a person who has more courage than ANYONE that I know
You are a person who has a lot of love to give.
You are a person who has a lot of warmth.
You are a person that from what I see is very compassionate.
You are a friend thats dear to me.

Most of all you are an inspiration to us all in many ways!

sharon furiato <drifter101296@cs.com>
Port St. lucie, FL - Saturday, June 11, 2005 8:12 PM CDT

oops! Sorry I entered the same thing 3 times! I didn't think it was being added---That's what happens when Summer comes and my brain gets taken over by too much craziness!
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
- Saturday, June 11, 2005 2:34 PM CDT

I have put much thought into the questions you have asked. I just couldn't seem to find the words to express my thoughts and feelings---hmmmm---I just read what my mom wrote and she has said it perfectly! You and Randy amaze me. How you are able to remember our children at a time like this blows my mind. I often have tears in my eyes when the kids play with Gavin's little dinosaur bath toys. The way you have shared his life and things with others in bigger than I can get my mind around. To remember Timothy's birthday at a time like this is unbelievable. I could go on and on. I do believe there is a another VERY blessed little soul out there waiting for you and Randy to parent him/her. We love you both and look forward to the day our kids can see you! They are going to adore both you and Randy!
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
- Saturday, June 11, 2005 2:31 PM CDT

Saturday, June 11, 2005

My Dear Tammy,

Here I am with two assignments from you. The first is to share my perception of what Heaven is like. Having never been there, or at least having no recollection of it if I was, I can only share my thoughts with you. I do have some questions about recycled souls and have read that they often times come back into the same families, which I find very intriguing. Anyway, my perception of Heaven is that people are in their healthiest state. So, I imagine Dear Little Gavin as being a healthy robust Little Angel. I see him very near God, and YES I deeply believe in God. I believe Gavin was a messenger from God, and I am constantly wondering if I received the messages that be brought to us. I believe that he is now near you and with you. Sometimes we feel his presence here in our home, too. When you go to school I think he will be there. As you know, you can not see him, but he will be your Guardian Angel where ever you do what ever you do. Do I think he hears you when you speak to him? Absolutely. I think he knows what you think and feel. I believe that he wants to comfort both you and his Dada. He was a very strong boy and wise way beyond his experience. Does he want to see your burden of grief lightened? Yes, absoultey! There is no pain in Heaven and he wants you to work your way toward letting your pain go away. To Release it into the Universe.

For many years I have believed that our loved ones visit us through our dreams. Some day I will take the time to share some of those dreams with you. They made an impact on my life.

I also want to share that I've been witness to and have been told by others that when an adult has died they have the vision of others coming to escort them as they transcend into their passing. It may be death on earth, but is also a beginning of a new phase of being. What I am trying to say is that I believe Angels came to comfort Gavin as he was leaving. They cradled him and loved him as he was set free from his pain. There were escorts for him -- though none of us could see them.

Your dreams are incredible!! You are illustrating such a beautiful story for us in your journal. I know lots of people visit this site and don't write. They love you and Randy, and are praying for you to find the strength to carry on.

Now for my second assignment . . . what do I think of you, Tammy Ward? How do I perceive you? I see you as a very beautiful person both inside and out. You have demonstrated great strength as you helped your son enjoy every day of his life. You have shown such love in the things you did during Gavin's life and since he went to the other side - life after death. I loved watching your smile at your little guy. I loved watching you snuggle him so I can honestly say I see you as a wonderful, capable and caring Mother. To me you are the right person to be Randy's wife. I often think how lucky Gavin was to be born into a home where his parents love each other! You have always shown love to us and made us feel welcome in your home. You are so thoughtful and sharing with others. Examples of that would be the care packages that you have sent to Gavin's cousins -- sharing his clothing and toys. You took time out to think of other young families while struggling with the Big C!! You are obviously quite ambitious in wanting to become a Nurse. And, I know you will be kind and caring. You will be compassionate with the people you deal with because you have been the parent of a patient. You realize that there is a huge difference between compassionate care givers and those who have become hardened to the pains in life. You are very loving toward animals, pets and wild critters. Whenever I've been outside with you I sense your oneness with Nature.

I so apprecaite the fact that you take the time to keep this journal updated and that you share your feelings with us. It is impossible for you to communicate with us one by one everyday so we are very grateful when we log on and find a message. This reinforces the fact that you are caring and thoughtful. Your strength to carryon is very evident. And I believe that your exams will be good. You are a good student, and will again be a wonderful mother to some lucky child.

Speaking of lucky, we are lucky to be in your family.

Ms. Tammy Ward, I am VERY proud of you!! Carryon young woman, go to school, make your future and Gavin will be with you. I beleive that with all of my heart!

God Bless you!

Peg Ward also known as Grandma Peggy
Peggy Ward <pward3214@aol.com>
Urbandale, IA USA - Saturday, June 11, 2005 11:46 AM CDT

check out this website about heaven

http://bibleprobe.com/nde.htm
Frank Axtell <frank@frankaxtell.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Friday, June 10, 2005 8:00 PM CDT

Matt 11:25
At that time Jesus began to say, I thank You, Father, Lord of heaven and earth [and [h]I acknowledge openly and joyfully to Your honor], that You have hidden these things from the wise and clever and learned, and revealed them to babies [to the [i]childish, untaught, and unskilled].

    26Yes, Father, [I praise You that] such was Your gracious will and good pleasure.

    27All things have been entrusted and delivered to Me by My Father; and no one [j]fully knows and [k]accurately understands the Son except the Father, and no one [l]fully knows and [m]accurately understands the Father except the Son and anyone to whom the Son [n]deliberately wills to make Him known.

    28Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy-laden and overburdened, and I will cause you to rest. [I will [o]ease and relieve and [p]refresh [q]your souls.]

    29Take My yoke upon you and learn of Me, for I am gentle (meek) and humble (lowly) in heart, and you will find rest ([r]relief and ease and refreshment and [s]recreation and blessed quiet) for your souls.(E)

    30For My yoke is wholesome (useful, [t]good--not harsh, hard, sharp, or pressing, but comfortable, gracious, and pleasant), and My burden is light and easy to be borne.
Frank Axtell <frank@frankaxtell.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Wednesday, June 8, 2005 2:32 PM CDT

Hi Tammy and Randy,
On Jun 3rd I caught a part of a program on NPR's Diane Rehm Show. A man named Frank Ostaseski was talking about death and dying in a way that I thought was spiritual. I stopped my car on the side of the road to listen. Turns out he is founder of something called The Zen Hospice Project and the Alaya Institute. I went on the site (have copied it below) and I thought it was interesting. I myself will keep the site on file.
http://www.alayainstitute.org/FOstaseski.html
Thought I would share it with you.
Love, Sydnee

peters
kazoo, mi usa - Wednesday, June 8, 2005 9:14 AM CDT

A friend of ours stopped one day with a little angel statue. She wanted us to have something special in our garden in memory of Gavin. Owen went flower shopping this week. He picked out several different kinds of flowers and designed a little flower garden for Gavin. The little angel is sitting under the tree near the flowers. We will send you a picture.

I am thinking of you so much. Thanks for keeping us posted on current events. I'm so proud of you for getting into school so quickly! You amaze me!

Love from all of us--
Camie & Crew
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
- Saturday, June 4, 2005 4:10 PM CDT

Dear Tammy And Randy:
Hear is more very good news!

Psalm 139

   1O LORD, you have searched me [thoroughly] and have known me.

    2You know my downsitting and my uprising; You understand my thought afar off.(A)

    3You sift and search out my path and my lying down, and You are acquainted with all my ways.

    4For there is not a word in my tongue [still unuttered], but, behold, O Lord, You know it altogether.(B)

    5You have beset me and shut me in--behind and before, and You have laid Your hand upon me.

    6Your [infinite] knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high above me, I cannot reach it.

    7Where could I go from Your Spirit? Or where could I flee from Your presence?

    8If I ascend up into heaven, You are there; if I make my bed in Sheol (the place of the dead), behold, You are there.(C)

    9If I take the wings of the morning or dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,

    10Even there shall Your hand lead me, and Your right hand shall hold me.

    11If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me and the night shall be [the only] light about me,

    12Even the darkness hides nothing from You, but the night shines as the day; the darkness and the light are both alike to You.(D)

    13For You did form my inward parts; You did knit me together in my mother's womb.

    14I will confess and praise You for You are fearful and wonderful and for the awful wonder of my birth! Wonderful are Your works, and that my inner self knows right well.

    15My frame was not hidden from You when I was being formed in secret [and] intricately and curiously wrought [as if embroidered with various colors] in the depths of the earth [a region of darkness and mystery].

    16Your eyes saw my unformed substance, and in Your book all the days [of my life] were written before ever they took shape, when as yet there was none of them.

    17How precious and weighty also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How vast is the sum of them!(E)

    18If I could count them, they would be more in number than the sand. When I awoke, [could I count to the end] I would still be with You.

    19If You would [only] slay the wicked, O God, and the men of blood depart from me--(F)

    20Who speak against You wickedly, Your enemies who take Your name in vain!(G)

    21Do I not hate them, O Lord, who hate You? And am I not grieved and do I not loathe those who rise up against You?

    22I hate them with perfect hatred; they have become my enemies.

    23Search me [thoroughly], O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts!

    24And see if there is any wicked or hurtful way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
Frank Axtell <frank@frankaxtell.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Thursday, June 2, 2005 2:10 PM CDT

June 1, 2005

Our Dear Tammy & Randy,

We are so glad that you are going to start school in a couple of weeks, Tammy. It may help to have things to think about. As we all know there is no magic answer, but it is important that you try to carry on, difficult as it may be.

I can certainly relate to the counselor at school -- I am one of the grandma's of Gavin and it is a heartbreaking thing to share with others that he is now in Heaven. Every week people are still crying about our Loss of Him. We have his photo every where -- at work, at home in the living room, in the kitchen and in our bedroom.

I keep telling people that I feel he was a messenger for God, and that it is important that we learn from the lessons he taught us. One thing he taught us is not to take each other for granted. We must take the time to love and laugh with our families. There is nothing greater than the love for our children. No amount of money can buy that love.

Gavin taught us that smiles can brighten the lives of others. I think of him when I smile -- and sometimes I don't feel like smiling because my heart is breaking. There are days when I feel like I am going through the motions of what needs to be done, but my heart is wondering when the aching will ease.

Most of all -- our hearts are aching for Gavin's parents. Daily I pray that I will discover what I can do to help you find Peace in your Hearts and Rest in your Sleep!

It is now time for me to head to bed.

May God Bless you! May your Counselor Help you!

Love to you Both!!
Grandma Peggy & Papa Tom Ward <pward3214@aol.com>
Urbandale, IA USA - Wednesday, June 1, 2005 10:38 PM CDT

Hi Tammy and Randy,
Since I spoke to you last we got a new addition, a bird! His name is Corelli. That name after Rothko, then Angus, Gweedo, Pipin, Fender (as in the guitar) and finally Corelli it is! He's a kiel, so much fun and full of himself. Likes it when Tony plays guitar, sort of sings along.

Gavin was such a beautiful boy, I love the pictures you have of him on the site, what a smile ~ like a beam of light. It's wonderful to see those pictures, I'd love to look at a whole album full of Gavin and your lives together.

You share these times ~ moments and feelings here in this format with us who you have invited in, thank-you. You each have these experiences... dreams, tears shared with someone you just met, your time with Reanne and your willingness to put yourselves in her care allowing her to help you. From my standpoint I percieve that you are taking these baby steps not away from Gavin, but somehow and eventually closer to him. I doubt there is a formula for learning to live with someone in your heart, carving out a space where memory of them can comfortably reside. It's probably different for everyone who suffers the loss that you and your families have suffered, it's the kind of thing that cannot be imagined.

Have you ever noticed how when you carry around a bird feather it feels warm in your palm? Your words on these pages is like that ~ except instead of my palm I feel the warmth of your words in my heart.

You are in my thoughts. Love, Sydnee

sydnee p.
kazoo, mi usa - Wednesday, June 1, 2005 11:52 AM CDT

Raeann is wonderful and I'm hoping that, with time, you'll feel that she's helping you.

Sending love and continued prayers...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Monday, May 30, 2005 8:35 PM CDT

Randy and Tammy:
Keep these words of Jesus in mind....
Luke 12
22And [Jesus] said to His disciples, Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious and troubled [with cares] about your life, as to what you will [have to] eat; or about your body, as to what you will [have to] wear.

    23For life is more than food, and the body [more] than clothes.

    24Observe and consider the ravens; for they neither sow nor reap, they have neither storehouse nor barn; and [yet] God feeds them. Of how much more worth are you than the birds!

    25And which of you by being overly anxious and troubled with cares can add a [g]cubit to his stature or a moment [unit] of time to his [h]age [the length of his life]?

    26If then you are not able to do such a little thing as that, why are you anxious and troubled with cares about the rest?

    27Consider the lilies, how they grow. They neither [wearily] toil nor spin nor [i]weave; yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory (his splendor and magnificence) was not arrayed like one of these. [I Kings 10:4-7.]

    28But if God so clothes the grass in the field, which is alive today, and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, how much more will He clothe you, O you [people] of little faith?

    29And you, do not seek [by meditating and reasoning to inquire into] what you are to eat and what you are to drink; nor be of anxious (troubled) mind [[j]unsettled, excited, worried, and [k]in suspense];

    30For all the pagan world is [greedily] seeking these things, and your Father knows that you need them.

    31Only aim at and strive for and seek His kingdom, and all these things shall be supplied to you also.

    32Do not be seized with alarm and struck with fear, little flock, for it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom!

    33Sell what you possess and give donations to the poor; provide yourselves with purses and handbags that do not grow old, an unfailing and inexhaustible treasure in the heavens, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys.

    34For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.
Frank Axtell <frank@frankaxtell.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Sunday, May 29, 2005 2:32 PM CDT

I am so appreciative of this web site. It shares thoughts from both of you and tells me how you are. Sometimes I pull out lots of pictures of Gavin and remember times that I spent with him. It is like putting your tongue on a tooth that is already hurting very much. His smile and his very expressive sounds, his own song that he sang, the way he knew every spot and sound of the Mozart Cube and put them togethter for his own orchestra are things I remember. He was a beautiful child and a child full of charm and wonder. How blessed we were to have his joy and love for a while.
Ivy M. Ward <IowaMrd@hotmail.com>
Des Moines, IA 50312 - Saturday, May 28, 2005 2:07 PM CDT

Dear Randy & Tammy,
We have been reading your journals daily and think its great that you are letting us all know how you are doing. You are still in our thoughts and we'd love to talk anytime you feel like it.
Love, Evelyn, Ben, Jen & Laura
Evelyn DiGeorge <slotslady@bellsouth.net>
Lake Worth, FL Palm Beach - Wednesday, May 25, 2005 9:47 PM CDT

Hi Tammy, I am sick to my stomach with grief for you and your family. I do not know how to help, or what to say. Except that you are not alone, I hope you dont mind others who don't know you share in your grief. I wish I could bring him back for you. He is though in loving great arms. Trust that is true.
Audrey, a mommy too.
Los Angeles, CA - Wednesday, May 25, 2005 12:09 AM CDT

May 23, 2005

Randy & Tammy,

I am at a loss of what to say -- the words do not come easily as we watch the days go by on the calendar. I now measure the passage of time as before Gavin passed away and now that he has gone to Heaven. Yesterday would have been my Dear Sweet Mother's Birthday. I really do think that Grandma Goodie is loving that little guy up for us.

We are so pleased for you Tammy that you are going to resume your education next month. Your litte Guardian Angel will watch over you as you travel this newest path of your life.

We are so touched by the memories and experiences that you are sharing with us. Thank you for doing that!!

For Mother's Day the Stampers gave me an Angel Windchime. The angel's wings glow in the dark. It is in memory of Gavin. A friend, Julie Connolly, gave us a beautiful heart shaped stone with blue flowers on it inscribed with Gavin's name. Soon I will create a flower garden in Gavin's memory.

Papa hung a beautiful big windchime on Saturday, so between those two we have frequent memories of Grandma Goodie and Gavin.

Please know that we are loving you and praying for peace in your hearts. Only then will we find peace in our hearts, too!

Much love to you. Grandma Peggy and Papa Tom
Peggy & Tom Ward <pward3214@aol.com>
Urbandale, IA - Monday, May 23, 2005 9:12 PM CDT

Hear is another great verse of comfort:
Isaiah 40
28Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth, does not faint or grow weary; there is no searching of His understanding.

    29He gives power to the faint and weary, and to him who has no might He increases strength [causing it to multiply and making it to abound].(I)

    30Even youths shall faint and be weary, and [selected] young men shall feebly stumble and fall exhausted;

    31But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wings and mount up [close to God] as eagles [mount up to the sun]; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired.(J)
Frank Axtell <frank@frankaxtell.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Monday, May 23, 2005 9:08 PM CDT

Randy and Tammy:
Check out the good news in Jeremiah 29
(God speaking)

11For I know the thoughts and plans that I have for you, says the Lord, thoughts and plans for welfare and peace and not for evil, to give you hope in your final outcome.

12Then you will call upon Me, and you will come and pray to Me, and I will hear and heed you.

13Then you will seek Me, inquire for, and require Me [as a vital necessity] and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart.(A)
Frank Axtell <frank@frankaxtell.com>
West Palm Beach, FL - Sunday, May 22, 2005 3:12 PM CDT

RANDY & TAMMY

OUR THOUGHTS & PARYERS CONTINUE TO BE WITH YOU IN YOUR TIME OF SORROW.

JOHN & SUE BLAIR
CHANDLER, AZ - Sunday, May 22, 2005 1:22 PM CDT

Congratulations Tammy on passing your exam!! Best of luck with school ~ I think you are going to be a really great nurse!
Love, Sydnee
sydnee
kazoo, mi usa - Thursday, May 19, 2005 9:51 PM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy,
We check your website and are heartbroken for all your pain and suffering, we pray for your family. I think everything you are doing to try and cope is necessary, and it is good that you are seeking help and guidance. We would love to see you again soon, please call us when you are up for it. Good Luck in school! Our phone# is 954-492-0630
Lillian & Anthony Alfano <LillyRuby405@aol.com >
Ft. Lauderdale , FL USA - Tuesday, May 17, 2005 10:23 AM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy,I am thinking about you, reading all you have written, I have no doubt it is so hard. While your hearts and souls grieve and grieve another part of you makes plans to attend school, to go to Lowes, to get out of bed and go for a walk, to live and to love. One of my favorite quotes by Viktor Frankl, a man who suffered many losses: "What is to give light must endure burning." There is a light that comes through on these pages from YOUR words, written from YOUR heart, and in the midst of this sad sad loss there is this lovliness that comes through in that light. Easier then imagining what you are going through I can imagine that Gavin would be so proud to be so loved by parents who are so deeply good and affirming of life itself. Love, Sydnee
sydnee
kazoo, mi usa - Saturday, May 14, 2005 4:39 PM CDT

Tam & Randy: When I lost my friend Bill rather suddenly from cancer, I had a therapist friend teach me this coping mechanism for the non-stop crying and it helped. I could cry every day if I wanted to, but only at certain times. At first I allowed myself to ball twice at day at specific times. If the tears were coming, I'd tell myself I could let it out at 4:00 (or whatever) and I was able to hold it off til then. After a week, I was down to once a day, after two weeks, I was down to once a week. It seemed silly to me at first, but it worked. Of course, my friend Bill was 54 years old and had finished most of what he wanted to do in life; he was not a precious baby who barely had a start. But I think the process is the same for any loss and might work a little for you. I love you and you are in my prayers constantly. Aunt Cindy.
Cindy W. Cottrell <ccottrell@harmonandsloan.com>
Panama City, FL USA - Friday, May 13, 2005 10:48 AM CDT

Hi Uncle randy and aunt tammy,
I'm sorry I didn't write sooner but I have been bussy finishing up with finals. I just wanted to let you guys know how deeply sorry I am to hear about gavins passing. It seemed like everytime I talked to gram about how he was doing it always seemed he was getting better, thats why I was shocked to hear about the news that he passed. I never thought one person could change the way I looked at life as much as he did. I now find myself once in a while helping out where I can with cancer and its reaserch in hopes that there will be a cure soon. I just wanted you to know that I will always keep you close in my thoughts.
Love,
Mitch
Mitch Benson <ADIDASBOJI@aol.com>
Cumming, Ia USA - Thursday, May 12, 2005 9:54 PM CDT

Tam: I think it's wonderful that you are coming back to school. We all miss you very much.
Ellen Gorman <ellengorman@bellsouth.net>
West Palm Beach, FL - Thursday, May 12, 2005 7:44 PM CDT

May 12,

Dearest Tammy & Randy,

Here it is not quite 5:30 AM and I am sitting at the computer with tears running down my face after reading your Mother's Day message of several days ago and then that of Camie's to you. By the way, thank you again for the beautiful Mother's Day card that you sent to me. I feel so blessed to have been able to help you learn how to do the little things that a Mommy does for her new baby.

I've told several people that Gavin had a Mission here and it is amazing how much that little Guy has done in spreading love and the importance of treasuring each day.

I find myself praying even more than I did before. At Walnut Hills United Methodist Church they are still praying for you in church and in the prayer groups. Indeed Gavin is an Angel.

I join Camie in thinking about the mother in China who placed her baby girl to be found by someone at the orphanage. And she was rescued.

As you progress in your healing others will follow. It makes my days better to know you are able to meet with friends. They can help you regain the strength to carry on. I am sure Angel Gavin is watching over you and nudging you along the way.

Peace and Love to you.

Grandma Peggy & Papa Tom

Peggy & Tom Ward <pward3214@aol.com>
Urbandale, IA - Thursday, May 12, 2005 5:35 AM CDT

Tam-
Thinking of you ... I still check the site daily. Please call me if you are up to it ... I would really like to see you. I am home until the 22 of May. I hope you are doing as well as you can be. You all take care and know you are in our hearts.
Much love, Michelle,Erik,and Cam
Michelle Jorgensen (Cam's mommy) <largo142@aol.com>
- Wednesday, May 11, 2005 10:36 PM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy::
Here is more good news to comfort you both.

Psalm 34

   1I WILL bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth.

    2My life makes its boast in the Lord; let the humble and afflicted hear and be glad.

    3O magnify the Lord with me, and let us exalt His name together.

    4I sought (inquired of) the Lord and required Him [of necessity and on the authority of His Word], and He heard me, and delivered me from all my fears.(A)

    5They looked to Him and were radiant; their faces shall never blush for shame or be confused.

    6This poor man cried, and the Lord heard him, and saved him out of all his troubles.

    7[a]The Angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear Him [who revere and worship Him with awe] and each of them He delivers.(B)

    8O taste and see that the Lord [our God] is good! Blessed (happy, fortunate, to be envied) is the man who trusts and takes refuge in Him.(C)

    9O fear the Lord, you His saints [revere and worship Him]! For there is no want to those who truly revere and worship Him with godly fear.

    10The young lions lack food and suffer hunger, but they who seek (inquire of and require) the Lord [by right of their need and on the authority of His Word], none of them shall lack any beneficial thing.

    11Come, you children, listen to me; I will teach you to revere and worshipfully fear the Lord.

    12What man is he who desires life and longs for many days, that he may see good?

    13Keep your tongue from evil and your lips from speaking deceit.

    14Depart from evil and do good; seek, inquire for, and crave peace and pursue (go after) it!

    15The eyes of the Lord are toward the [uncompromisingly] righteous and His ears are open to their cry.

    16The face of the Lord is against those who do evil, to cut off the remembrance of them from the earth.(D)

    17When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears, and delivers them out of all their distress and troubles.

    18The Lord is close to those who are of a broken heart and saves such as are crushed with sorrow for sin and are humbly and thoroughly penitent.

    19Many evils confront the [consistently] righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all.

    20He keeps all his bones; not one of them is broken.

    21Evil shall cause the death of the wicked; and they who hate the just and righteous shall be held guilty and shall be condemned.

    22The Lord redeems the lives of His servants, and none of those who take refuge and trust in Him shall be condemned or held guilty.

Isaiah 41
   10Fear not [there is nothing to fear], for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with My [victorious] right hand of rightness and justice.

13For I the Lord your God hold your right hand; I am the Lord, Who says to you, Fear not; I will help you!

Isaiah 43
1BUT NOW , thus says the Lord, He Who created you, O Jacob, and He Who formed you, O Israel: Fear not, for I have redeemed you [ransomed you by paying a price instead of leaving you captives]; I have called you by your name; you are Mine.

    2When you pass through the waters, I will be with you, and through the rivers, they will not overwhelm you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned or scorched, nor will the flame kindle upon you.

3For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel

Frank Axtell <frank@frankaxtell.com>
West Palm Beach, FL U S A - Wednesday, May 11, 2005 1:23 PM CDT

What a beautiful message you have written Tam-- My heart is so heavy---I write this with tears on my cheeks and a lump in my throat. You are both such amazing and beautiful people. You really have no idea the gift you are to everyone around you. I knew 2005 would be an emotional Mother's Day but never dreamed it would be because my heart ached so for you. Mother's Day has different meaning for me these days. I think of the moment our beautiful little girl was carefully wrapped in a blanket just after her birth and left at the gate of an orphanage on the other side of the world. One mother's pain and courage has changed our lives forever. I think of the heart ache of a woman in China who was forced to leave her newborn....and pray she will somehow know her beautiful baby is being showered with love. I believe your little precious Gavin will see to it wonderful things come to you both. I always knew you guys would be great parents...but watching those videos of you with Gavin confirmed it. You have such a gentle and loving way about you! We are thinking of you and keeping you in our prayers today and always! Lots of Love---Camie and Crew
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
Leawood, KS - Sunday, May 8, 2005 3:54 PM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy:

Meditate on these verses of truth

Ps. 91
    14Because he has set his love upon Me, therefore will I deliver him; I will set him on high, because he knows and understands My name [has a personal knowledge of My mercy, love, and kindness--trusts and relies on Me, knowing I will never forsake him, no, never].

    15He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.

    16With long life will I satisfy him and show him My salvation.

Rev. 21
1THEN I saw a new [a]sky (heaven) and a new earth, for the former [b]sky and the former earth had passed away (vanished), and there no longer existed any sea.(A)

    2And I saw the holy city, the new Jerusalem, descending out of heaven from God, all arrayed like a bride beautified and adorned for her husband;

    3Then I heard a mighty voice from the throne and I perceived its distinct words, saying, See! The abode of God is with men, and He will live (encamp, tent) among them; and they shall be His people, and God shall personally be with them and be their God.(B)

    4God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; and death shall be no more, neither shall there be anguish (sorrow and mourning) nor grief nor pain any more, for the old conditions and the former order of things have passed away.(C)

    5And He Who is seated on the throne said, See! I make all things new. Also He said, Record this, for these sayings are faithful (accurate, incorruptible, and trustworthy) and true (genuine).(D)

    6And He [further] said to me, It is done! I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To the thirsty I [Myself] will give water without price from the fountain (springs) of the water of Life.(E)

    7He who is victorious shall inherit all these things, and I will be God to him and he shall be My son.
Frank Axtell <frank@frankaxtell.com>
West Palm Beach, FL U S A - Sunday, May 8, 2005 3:26 PM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy,
I have been thinking a lot about you and about what you said Friday in your journal entry. I wanted you to know that as long as you write in these pages, I will read what you write. I hear your pain and in some small way, I share it, as a friend. I'm glad for the moments when you each feel better. I will carry that along just like I will carry along the times when you share your hurt.
Love, Sydnee
sydnee
kazoo, mi usa - Sunday, May 8, 2005 12:30 AM CDT

Tammy & Randy...Thinking of you on this very difficult day and sending love and continued prayers.
Terry (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw" forever and ever) http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Sunday, May 8, 2005 11:46 AM CDT

May 7, 2005

Tammy & Randy,

It is good to see your message today. We love the cute photo of Gavin! We are glad to haer that you went to your friend's home for dinner, Tammy. It seems like you have made some major strides.

How kind of you to wish others a Happy Mother's Day when your heart is aching. I've been thinking of you because tomorrow is Mother's Day and also one month since Gavin earned his Wings. Many Mother's will be praying for you.

Papa Tom and I are about to drop from all of the yard work we have been doing and there is so much yet to be done! Maintaining an acreage is a lot of work. We are with you in spirit. As for the heat - the best thing is to either work early in the morning or in the evening - not the heat of mid-day.

We send many hugs, much love and prayers for your healing process. Hug each other, too.

Love you! Grandma Peggy & Papa Tom

Peggy & Tom Ward <pward3214@aol.com>
Urbandale, IA - Saturday, May 7, 2005 3:27 PM CDT

Hi Tammy and Randy :
Here is another good verse to feed your spirit in this difficult time. It has help me and many others also...

John 16: 33 ( Jesus speaking )

"I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace and confidence. In the world you have tribulation and trials and distress and frustration; but be of good cheer [take courage; be confident, certain, undaunted]! For I have overcome the world. [I have deprived it of power to harm you and have conquered it for you.]"
Frank Axtell <frank@frankaxtell.com>
West Palm Beach, FL U S A - Saturday, May 7, 2005 12:01 AM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy, Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us. I think of you daily and pray for the Lord to give you strength and guidance.
Crystal Dodson <cdodson1@columbus.rr.com>
Galloway, OH USA - Thursday, May 5, 2005 8:38 PM CDT

Hi Randy and Tammy,
Everyday I look at your site and search for words to respond, because I want to, but the words don't come. They all seem so insignificant in light of what you and your families are experiencing. It can be so hard to proceed, I've experience it, but not like you are now. Somehow we do that, we put one step in front of the other, we tend to our gardens and our hearts and hope to be healed and hope for those we care about who are in pain to be healed.

There is a red winged black bird at my bird feeder singing right now this minute. I know where his mates nest is. There are our friends Randy and Tammy whose hearts are positively broken, God how I feel for you. It all get's mixed up. It might seem like healing will not happen, but from these pages I can tell how strong and beautiful your spirits are.

It's so hard to know what to say but this is just to let you know that we (me, my family) think about you daily.
Love, Sydnee

sydnee peters
kazoo, mi - Thursday, May 5, 2005 2:47 PM CDT

Hi Randy & Tammy,
Just thinking of you as always and letting you know you are both always in our thoughts, Love Evelyn & family(DiGeorge)
Evelyn DiGeorge <Slotslady@bellsouth.net>
Lake Worth, FL - Wednesday, May 4, 2005 10:38 PM CDT

May 4, 2005

Tammy & Randy,

It was so wonderful to be able to speak with you both on the telephone today. As I told you I had to call because I as I walked through a store a windchime made a beautiful sound for me. Of course, I thought of Gavin and his parents.

We are so pleased that you are going to have a visit from one of the Hospice Grief Counselors.

It is amazing how many lives Gavin has touched. He taught many lessons to others during his short time here on earth. I believe he is one of God's Angels. We were so blessed to have him in our family. You were chosen to be his loving parents! Indeed you are wonderful parents. May you find some Peace in your hearts.

We send our love to you!

Grandma Peggy & Papa Tom

Peggy & Tom Ward <pward3214@aol.com>
Urbandale, IA 50323 - Wednesday, May 4, 2005 7:45 PM CDT

Hi Tammy & Randy, I have been checking back here every now & then to see how you guys are doing. I think it's great that you have decided to get grief counseling. I've heard nothing but good things about Hospice. Tam, when you're ready to go back to work, call me (967-9294).
Ellen Gorman <ellengorman@bellsouth.net>
West Palm Beach, FL US - Wednesday, May 4, 2005 5:46 PM CDT

Tammy and Randy,
I'm always checking on your journal updates to see how you guys are doing. I think it's really good that you guys have decided to seek counseling. I know it will help a lot with the healing process. My heart hurts when I think about the loss of your son, Gavin. I can't imagine the pain of losing a child and I will never understand why some of us have to suffer such pain. All I really know is that I hate cancer. I think about you guys all the time and you are always in our thoughts and prayers. I also hope and pray that one day your tears will turn into smiles when you think of Gavin and your hearts will be filled with all the happy memories that you shared with him.
love,
Yani and Joe Botto

Yani Botto <yani_botto@yahoo.com>
Lake Worth, FL usa - Wednesday, May 4, 2005 1:32 PM CDT

Love and Prayers to you Tammy and Randy. I have no words to comfort you, I wish I did. I just felt I needed to reach out to you. People all over are with you now while you grieve. Love and big hugs from California.
a friend, Audrey
Los Angeles, - Wednesday, May 4, 2005 11:35 AM CDT

May Day, 2005

Tammy & Randy,

Our hearts are breaking because we are at such a loss as to what we can do to help ease your pain. We,too, have thrown ourselves in to doing lots of yard work. Today we are weary and must rest. We are dealing with the clean up of large trees damaged by storms some time ago. Keeping busy does help.

You have touched so many lives with your strength, and also your sorrow. Please know that many people care about you and are with you in mind and spirit.

We are praying that one day there will be a sound - perhaps a bird singing or the wind chimes ringing that help bring peace into your hearts.

None of our lives will ever be the same without Gavin. Please let any of us know what we can do to help you.

Love,

Grandma Peggy & Papa Tom

Peggy Ward <pward3214@aol.com>
Urbandale, IA USA - Sunday, May 1, 2005 11:56 AM CDT

Randy, Tammy:
Here is a verse that has helped me in the past greatly...just wanted to share it with you.............1 Peter 4:12
Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal which comes upon you to prove you, as though something strange were happening to you. 13 But rejoice in so far as you share Christ's sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed. 14 If you are reproached for the name of Christ, you are blessed, because the spirit of glory and of God rests upon you.
Frank Axtell <frank@frankaxtell.com>
Wet Palm Beach, FL U S A - Saturday, April 30, 2005 1:18 PM CDT

You don't know me, but a young boy that I tutor goes to guitar lessons via Frank Axtell. Frank told me that his bass player (Randy) lost his son. I asked what his name was and said Gavin. I knew of your family because my best friend is Joe and Yani Botto. Their son has lukemia, his name is Joey. Although my wife Susan and I don't know you, we hurt with you. We wanted you to know that you are in our thoughts and prayers and that we care. Please take it a day at a time and the sun will shine again someday. Love, Gary and Susan Acedo - Royal Palm Beach, FL
Gary and Susan Acedo
Royal Palm Beach, FL United States - Saturday, April 30, 2005 1:16 PM CDT

I am constantly thinking of you both. And feeling so helpless. I wish that I could take just a tiny part of the pain away, but I know that I cannot. What I can do, though, is tell you that I'm here, never leaving you, always sending you warmth and strentgh and the love I have for you.
Susie <guerino626@msn.com>
Tallahassee, Fl - Friday, April 29, 2005 7:42 PM CDT

Randy and Tammy,
Although we are no longer in Florida, you are always in our thoughts. It sounds as if you both are preparing a wonderful place of rememberance for Gavin, I'm sure he would have loved it. You both are such a strong and loving couple, take care of yourselves.
Love, Melissa, Mark and Alison Hoffman
Melissa Hoffman <Melissawalks@hotmail.com>
Augusta, Ga USA - Friday, April 29, 2005 2:48 PM CDT

Reading your entry absolutely broke my heart. Please know all of you are in my thoughts and continued prayers.

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Friday, April 29, 2005 1:00 PM CDT

I just learned of Gavin's passing and my heart goes out to my old friend Randy. I look forward to seeing you again so you can tell me all about him. Love to you and Tammy.
Bob Schleeter <bschleeter@ma.org>
Novato, CA USA - Friday, April 29, 2005 11:06 AM CDT

Tammy, it was nice to see you this afternoon. I am still praying for you daily..... See you soon.

Teri Reid <Teri2Reid@aol.com>
- Wednesday, April 27, 2005 8:53 PM CDT

4/25/05

Dear Ones,

This Journal is amazing, and it helps keep us connected with what is actually happening within those of us who were fortunate to have been touched by Gavin's life.

Last evening we had a call from Laurie & Mike Anderson in Northern Minnesota to say that their prayer group is continuing to pray for you as are many other prayer groups across the country.

As for the pain you mention Randy, your Dad wakes up mentioning the same thing. He says when he frist awakens he has the feeling that he is ill, and then as the sleep fades away he realizes that it is grief that is encompassing him. I feel the same.

We are so amazed with all the sympathy cards we continue to recieve, which we will be sending on to you. Again, we thank our friends and those who care. We are getting cards from people whom we have never met because they are so grief stricken when they learn the loss of Gavin.

It is good that you are able to cry, but it makes us cry as we understand how broken your hearts are at this time. We grieve right along with you!

We have several friends who have recommended grief support groups. Only you will know when it is time to turn to others.

It is so difficult living so far away from you. Please know that we hold you in our hearts. As one friend wrote in her card, there just are no words that are appropriate or adequate to offer at this time.

We love you! Peg & Dad a/k/a Papa Tom & Grandma Peggy
Peggy Ward <pward3214@aol.com>
Urbandale, IA USA - Monday, April 25, 2005 8:29 PM CDT

Thank you for continuing to journal. Gavin's visit must have been such an incredible feeling for you. It gave me a sense of peace when I read it. I truly believe that our loved ones are always with us. You are still in my thoughts.
Betsy Shapiro-Crawford <mom2boys@bellsouth.net>
Green Cove Springs, Fl - Monday, April 25, 2005 6:51 PM CDT

Dear Randy,

I am so sorry to hear about Gavin. There is a new trial of one of our chemotherapy drugs starting up in pediatric patients, and I will be thinking of your family whenever I work on it. If only we had come up with a drug which could have cured him... we'll keep working on finding better therapies to prevent such heartbreak for other families. Please accept my condolences and prayers.
Nancy Gustafson <statsoprano@comcast.net>
Wallingford, CT USA - Monday, April 25, 2005 5:01 PM CDT

Tam, my girls are back in my arms, promising never to leave me again. In my joy, I'm reminded every day of your pain. All of my family here in Panama City are sending you love everyday. Love from Samuel, Lee and Yasya, love from "Daddy" Rupe, love from Counsin Carol, Mac, K-K, Kallie, Trent, Grandmama, Lesli, Abby and Zoe. We all hurt for your loss and for ours that Gavin has slipped from our arms. Love, Aunt Cindy.
Cindy Cottrell <ccottrell@harmonandsloan.com>
Panama City, FL USA - Monday, April 25, 2005 4:26 PM CDT

I'm so glad you continue to write! I love to hear how things are going. You are both in our thoughts and prayers daily. Owen tells me Gavin is beside him even though I can't see him. He says he's and angel to us all. I believe him! :) Out of the mouth's of babes!
We love you! Camie & Crew
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
Leawood, KS - Monday, April 25, 2005 8:45 AM CDT

Dear Randy and Tammy, on Friday the 15th of April I was on my way out the door, it was about 5pm and I noticed a beautiful rainbow spectrum in the shape of an iris flower on a woodblock picture of a turtle we have hanging on a wall. I could not figure out where the image was coming from because our prism hangs in another room. I followed the line of light and saw that it was was indeed coming from that prism in the other room but was bouncing off one of the picures on the fridge and landing on the picture of the turtle. I followed the light line to the exact picure the light was bouncing off of and it was a picture of Gavin that we have had there for some time. It was such a quiet and beautiful moment.

We think about you every day. It's a lovely thought to think about you out in your garden. Love, Sydnee
sydnee peters
kazoo, mi usa - Sunday, April 24, 2005 4:31 PM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy, I got the note today from Tammy and Randy. I felt so bad that Gavin is gone that I cried. I saw the picture of Gavin and he still looked the best. I read the part about Tammy and I thought it was sort of funny about the doorbell ringing. I also read what Gavin's Grandparents said and I thought they were very kind. I hope I get to meet you guys someday. My mom typed this for me but I said it to her. From Samuel Peters
samuel peters
kalamazoo, mi usa - Sunday, April 24, 2005 4:02 PM CDT

4/24/05
Tammy & Randy,

Yesterday morning, Saturday morning I awoke to hearing beautiful windchimes -- the story is we don't have those windchimes and we have no neighbors nearby. When I told Papa Tom about it he said "Ah, yes, Gavin came to visit us!". So, Our Dears, Tammy & Randy, we too believe Gavin is making his presence known.

It is so difficult for us as parents to watch you with your broken hearts. Our hearts are broken twice -- for the loss of Gavin our Grandson, but also for the loss you as parents are experiencing.

We are praying for your comfort. We are thrilled that you had the first visit from your Beautiful Boy. AS you have said He is free now, free of pain and suffering.

We love you so much!

Also, thank you to the many, many people who have expressed their words of kindness and sympathy. I wish more of you would be brave and write a note in this Guestbook for Tammy & Randy. Your support is priceless.

Love to you! Grandma Peg & Papa Tom Ward
Peggy Ward <pward3214@aol.com>
Urbandale, IA USA - Sunday, April 24, 2005 2:05 PM CDT

Hi guys,
Just sending a note to say hello and am thinking about you guys alot since the service. Your words in the journal continue to inspire all of us and are a testimony of courage and strength that we can all only imagine.
Hang in there!!!
Dave

Dave Schanzer <indigostar@mindspring.com>
- Sunday, April 24, 2005 1:07 PM CDT

We are so sorry to hear about your tremendous loss. We will miss sweet little Gavin's strolls around the neighborhood with his father. From your neighbors on Doane Circle.

Jackie Estep
(West Palm Beach, FL ) , - Sunday, April 24, 2005 11:58 AM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy

My heart is saddend to hear about your loss, Gavin was our miracle angel at GLC and now as his up in heaven with the rest of the angels his looking down watching over both of you feeling thankful of what great! parents he had and the unconditional love that you both gave him that will go on forever and ever. He may not be here physically but he lives in our hearts and in our memories. Your not alone God is at your side.

Angie Alvarez <carolina218@Aol.com >
(North Palm Beach, FL ) , - Sunday, April 24, 2005 11:56 AM CDT

April 12, 2005
I am so sorry for the loss of your precious son. May God bless you

farida greene
(belle glade, FL ), - Sunday, April 24, 2005 11:55 AM CDT

song of songs 8.7

Many waters cannot quench love, nor can the floods drown it.

GAVIN'S grace and love is unforgettable and eternal!

trish paul
(wpb, FL ), - Sunday, April 24, 2005 11:54 AM CDT

Dear Randy and Tammy, I wanted you to know that I've been thinking and praying for all of you and for Gavin and will continue to for many years to come. I am so sorry.
Sidonie Rosenberg <Sidro3@juno.com>
Minneapolis, mn Usa - Saturday, April 23, 2005 8:01 PM CDT

Dear Randy & Tammy,
We are very sorry and sadden to hear about Gavin, there are no words to express how one feels. We all pray for you both everyday that passes. Have faith!
The Schuknecht Family <vmissy261@aol.com>
Homestead , Fl Dade County - Wednesday, April 20, 2005 10:37 PM CDT

Dear Randy and Tammy,
We are very saddened about Gavin passing away. We wish you much strength. The fond and loving memories of Gavin will stay forever. We think of you.
Tobias & Natasha
Tobias Franoszek
Miami Beach, FL - Wednesday, April 20, 2005 6:11 PM CDT

Tammy and Randy, Mark and I are thinking about you! Our hearts are sadden by the loss of you beautiful angel! He will always be remember for the wonderful child he was! We love you both.
Melissa Hoffman <melissawalks@hotmail.com>
Augusta, Ga USA - Wednesday, April 20, 2005 9:20 AM CDT

Dear Tammy and family,
Im sorry to have heard about Gavin. Now he is in a better place with no worries, having fun, and going on all the fun car rides in heaven. He is in a safe place where he is loved and can be loved more than anything else in this world... no more pain, just carfree days doing what makes him happy! I hope the best for you and your family... keep your head up!
Sharon Tudela <mystygirl169@aol.com>
p.b.g, fl. u.s.a - Monday, April 18, 2005 10:08 AM CDT

Randy and Tammy, we were saddened by the news of Gavin's passing. Our thoughts are with you. Last year it was my good luck to run into Randy and Gavin at CompUSA. It was so clear to see the love Gavin had for his dad as I am sure he felt for his mom. His love and our blessings are with you.

Michael and Paisley
Michael and Paisley Uhrich <uhrichm@bellsouth.net>
Lake Worth, FL - Monday, April 18, 2005 5:47 AM CDT

Tammy and Randy, Weekend before last I sat with Roonie and looked at new pictures of Gavin. I wish I had been able to see him. Please know you both are in my heart and prayers. Love you,
Vickie Crook <snowboundbuddy@comcast.net>
Panama City Beach, FL USA - Sunday, April 17, 2005 6:48 PM CDT

Randy and Tammy,

We were deeply saddened to hear the news about Gavin. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.

Karl, Debbie and David Ott <ottk@Bellsouth.net>
Lake Worth, FL USA - Saturday, April 16, 2005 3:40 PM CDT

Randy and Tammy,
I was so sorry to hear about Gavin. I work with Randy's dad and he had been keeping us posted on all the medical updates. No words can express my sadness for your loss.
I hope this caringbridge questbook brings you some comfort in knowing how all your family, friends and even strangers are thinking about you.

Caryn Wolf <cwolf801@yahoo.com>
Des Moines, ia - Saturday, April 16, 2005 8:25 AM CDT

There are no words to comfort you. Know you are being thought of and prayed for. Your baby boy will never leave you in your heart. God Bless your family during your times of need.
a mother.
Los Angeles, CA - Friday, April 15, 2005 6:12 PM CDT

I am a friend of Kim Mead, your neighbor, and she has kept me informed of Gavin. I am sorry to hear of your loss and I hope that both of you seek the support that you will need to help you through this chapter in your lives. You have been extremely strong and courageous through this and your experience will prove helpful to those still struggling. May GOD bless you both and give you the peace you most deserve.
Barbara King <pkslittle1@earthlink.net>
Port St. Lucie, Fl USA - Friday, April 15, 2005 12:34 AM CDT

Dear Randy and Tammy, Just got the word about Gavin from Marty. I am so sorry you have to go through this, but from the looks of this guestbook you have a terrific support system to help you through. Please know you have my most heartfelt sympathies, as well as Harriet's. Be very gentle with yourselves, and laugh when you have the chance. Love and hugs.
Deirdre Moore
San Diego, CA USA - Thursday, April 14, 2005 10:13 PM CDT

Randy and Tammy,
We rest assured that Gavin's passing brings him ultimate peace. Many of us will carry him in our hearts. Our very best thoughts are with you both.
Jon and Rhonda Spath <jonspath@hotmail.com>
WPB, FL - Thursday, April 14, 2005 7:21 PM CDT

Randy and Tammy....... I am so sorry to hear about Gavin.... seeing his little cherubic face in the pictures you have posted and knowing your loss is overwhelming.... again, I am so sorry........
Kevin Kaufman <ktimemuse@aol.com>
Lantana, FL. USA - Thursday, April 14, 2005 6:17 PM CDT

Randy and Tammy - I just now heard the news. My sincere condolences at this difficult time.
Neil Kaplan <newattitude1@bellsouth.net>
Hollywood, FL United States - Thursday, April 14, 2005 1:08 PM CDT

Dear Randy and Tammy,
Our thoughts and prayers are with you. May God's peace sustain you during this difficult time.
Jackson and Trina Bunn
Jackson Bunn <pianoslam@bellsouth.net>
Miami, FL USA - Thursday, April 14, 2005 11:28 AM CDT

Our thoughts and prayers are with you guys.

From my family to yours,
Kelly
Kelly McClain <klmcclain@earthlink.net>
Lake Worth, FL 33461 - Thursday, April 14, 2005 10:44 AM CDT

Randy and Tammy: Love, strength and solace to both of you...peace and serenity for Gavin...
jim and dominique <mccreavy@aol.com>
W.P.B., FL USA - Wednesday, April 13, 2005 11:11 PM CDT

Dear Randy and Tammy, We were in Chicago and this is the first chance I have had to look at our email. I called Tony and we cried, there are no words right now, we are so sad and sorry for your loss. Even though we have not met you Tammy, your written words on these pages gave us a sense of Gavin, and how he was such a wonderful little person, so completely loved by his Mom and Dad, and how he loved and trusted you both. By bravely writing this down and sharing how it's been for you and Randy and Gavin you have given us all something here at my house, something special to carry along in our hearts. I feel like I know Gavin and I will miss him. Love and Peace to you both, Sydnee
sydnee peters <abpeters@voyager.net>
kalamazoo, mi - Wednesday, April 13, 2005 2:10 PM CDT

Randy and Tammy,
Words can't adequately express the sorrow that those around you feel for you. I do know that Gavin was fortunate to have a loving, caring family there with him during this ordeal. My deepest sympathy, Bunny Minnich and family
Bunny Minnich <dkminnich@msn.com>
Boise, ID USA - Wednesday, April 13, 2005 11:56 AM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy, All of us at Gardens Learning Center are so sad at the loss of our little Gavin. Our thoughts and prayers have been with you. He touched so many lives in his short little life. These things are not understandable, but one thing I do know is he is "Angel Gavin". Now he can be with all of us always. May God's peace, and strength hold you both forever. Stay close and know that we are here WHATEVER you need. Love you, Susie
Susie Puyol <puyol@adelphia.net>
North Palm Beach, FL USA - Wednesday, April 13, 2005 7:32 AM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy:
I was heartbroken when Morgan called me yesterday with the sad news. I don't know the words other than to say i am so sorry for your loss. I'm not a very religous person, but I have to believe that Gavin is now your guardian angel and will always be looking over you and Randy.We (your friends from NET) all love and miss you very much. Love always, Ellen
Ellen Gorman <ellengorman@bellsouth.net>
West Palm Beach, Fl - Tuesday, April 12, 2005 6:52 PM CDT

DEAR TAMMY AND RANDY, OUR DEEPEST CONDOLENCES TO YOU ON THE LOSE OF YOUR SON. OUR HEARTS GO OUT TO YOU BOTH.
JOE AND CAROL MALINCONICO (MAL) <JOMAL@ADELPHIA.NET>
DELRAY BEACH, FL. USA - Tuesday, April 12, 2005 1:20 PM CDT

Dear Tammy & Randy:

My thoughts and prayers are with you,Randy and your family at this time. I know Gavin is with god and watching over you and blowing you lots of kisses. Take time to reflect on all the precious and wonderful times you spent with Gavin and cherish every moment. I love you girl and my prayers are with you during this time and always.

Christine <christine.curry@akerman.com>
Coral Gables, FL - Tuesday, April 12, 2005 9:32 AM CDT

Nothing I know of puts us in a more vulnerable position than the health our children...Gavin's Healing has come with his passing...a difficult measure of life for us to comprehend. So we approach our difficult times with faith. A Faith that he is in a better place...A faith that heals all...Healing is now needed for those here who remain in his awesome memory . Memories that will last a life time... Remain faithfull that you will be reunited in the better place!!!

Tammy and Randy, our condolences for your loss...If you need anything please know that we too are here for you in anyway that we can be...ALL OF US!!! Jody, Lee, Valen and your friends in Hot Brass Monkey.
Our Love, Prayers and best wishes for you guys always!!!~ J
Jody Marlow <Hotsaxmonkey@yahoo.com>
Wellington , FL United States - Tuesday, April 12, 2005 7:37 AM CDT

Tammy I am so sorry to hear about your loss, Our prayers are with you & your Husband. Kristy told us what a Beautiful Little boy he was.He is God's Angel now. May god Bless You Both!!!!Lots of Love Connie & Dale Barron (Kristy's sister)
Connie Barron <Cdizzilee@verizon.net>
Lake Alfred, Fl USA - Tuesday, April 12, 2005 5:18 AM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy: There are no more powerful yet powerless words than 'I'm sorry for your loss." I/we
truly understand the tremendous loss you feel as we too have suffered the loss of a child some 25 years ago.
Gavin's life and his loss will be a part of your lives
forever. It's a long road you have to travel...stay
close...talk to each other...and learn to accept each other's ways of grieving. My/our hearts go out to you.
We will keep you in our prayers.

Diana & William Seiberling (Vincent's parents) <Flncduck@aol.com>
Fuquay-Varina, NC USA - Tuesday, April 12, 2005 4:57 AM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy,
I'm so sorry to hear about Gavin. I don't know what to say that could possibly help. And my tears are getting in the way. Take care of yourselfs and my prayers are with you.Gene Rosenberg
Gene Rosenberg <grosenberg2002@msn.com>
Des Moines, IA US - Monday, April 11, 2005 9:49 PM CDT

Tam & Randy

We were so shocked and saddened to hear about your loss. We are unfortunately unable to attend the services, but please know that our thoughts are with you both.

Mary and Gwen <msjujube32@adelphia.net>
Port St Lucie, FL - Monday, April 11, 2005 8:29 PM CDT

Dear Randy and Tammy

Words cannot describe how sad we were to hear the news of Gavin's passing. We send our heartfelt condolences and wish you strength. Whether near or far know that you are always in our hearts.
The Seiberlings <vbbotts@aol.com>
Chatham, NJ - Monday, April 11, 2005 8:04 PM CDT

Dear Tammy & Randy,
May God bless you and your family and keep you strong. Your beautiful Gavin is in heaven - no longer suffering here on Earth. Unbound from his illness and pain in this world and forever at home with God, he is truly your little angel. My deepest sympathy goes out to you both and to all who loved Gavin. You have endured the most painful loss one can experience and my thoughts and prayers are with you.
Sincerely,
MaryJane Hand

MaryJane Hand <mmj2820@aol.com>
Coral Springs, FL - Monday, April 11, 2005 7:53 PM CDT

I am a PEO sister of Peg Ward & Cami Stamer and just learned your sad news. Please know my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Anne Wheeler <abwheel75@aol.com>
Runnells, IA - Monday, April 11, 2005 7:21 PM CDT

My thoughts and prayers are with all your family. I am from the Lake Worth, FL area but have liven in Alaska since 1981. I'm with Weekenders and Peggy is our Queen Leader. My 'Little Angel Daughter' is also with Gavin, she was laid to rest at Queen of Peace in 1977.
Elaine Rennie <esrak@gci.net>
Eagle River, AK USA - Monday, April 11, 2005 7:19 PM CDT

I was shocked when I heard the news from Keith. Little Gavin is in my prayers as are you both. God Bless
Spencer Wood <SpencerWoodGroup@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL USA - Monday, April 11, 2005 6:14 PM CDT

We are friends of Camie & Tim Stamper. Camie shared Gavin's story with us. We have a grandson who has a fatal disease, so we have some idea of your sorrow. We will never understand why such painful sadness enters our lives but our Christian faith will guide us through. He was a beautiful boy. God bless you and give you strength.
Norman & Virginia Skeirik <nskeirik @aol.com>
kENNESAW, GA USA - Monday, April 11, 2005 2:23 PM CDT

Randy and Tammy, Keith just gave me the horrible news. I have no words to make it any easier. I will keep Gavin in my prayers and I am sending you both an enormous spirtual hug.Randy, Im sorry you never shared, I would have had my prayer group pray for him. I know it doesn't make things any easier, but Gavin is home with his Father in heaven,where he is free from all his pain and waits for some day to be united with his loving parents.
If there is anything I can do you both, don't hestitate to ask
Love
Dale(Boca By Design)
Dale Capuano <dcapuano@bocaresort.com>
BOCA RATON, Fl United States - Monday, April 11, 2005 1:46 PM CDT

Dear Tammy & Randy: My thoughts and prayer's are with you during your time of grieving. Please know that I'll be praying for you both and for Gavin's safe journey to Heaven. Sincerely, Jerry @ Kenny Mondo's
Jerry Saccal <jerry@kennymondo.com>
West Palm Beach, FL USA - Monday, April 11, 2005 1:41 PM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy:
We are both so sorry for your great loss. Kim and I will keep you both in our prayers. I know Gavin is with our Lord Jesus Christ in paradise.
Frank Axtell and Kim Edinger <frank@frankaxtell.com>
West Palm Beach, FL U S A - Monday, April 11, 2005 1:02 PM CDT

Dearest Tammy & Randy,
We were so saddened to hear of your great loss.There are no words that can ease your pain,but you can cope, with the knowledge that he is now with God.He will be forever smiling down at you untill its your time to be reunited with him once again.With much love..Terry & Elaine Harris (Kristy's parents)
Terry & Elaine Harris <LainieBee@aol.com>
Belleview, Fl. USA - Monday, April 11, 2005 10:17 AM CDT

To Randy and Tammy, our thoughts and prayers are with you, love, Lewis and Lynn.
Lewis Rainbow <lewbow@bellsouth.net>
Miami, FL USA - Monday, April 11, 2005 7:40 AM CDT

Dear Randy & Tammy,
We were shocked and saddened when Bill called us to tell us about Gavin, we are so sorry to hear he has passed. We have thought of him everyday since we heard about the tumors, he was constantly in our prayers. we will be at the viewing on Wed.
Anthony & Lillian
Anthony Alfano <LillyRuby405@aol.com>
Ft. Lauderdale, FL Broward - Monday, April 11, 2005 7:01 AM CDT

You know how much I love you guys. I can't even begin to imagine how you feel but my heart and love is with you. I will see you at the service on Thursday
Nicky Yarling <knickee@adelphia.net>
Boca Raton, Florida Palm Beach - Monday, April 11, 2005 6:29 AM CDT

Dear Randy and Tammy,
I'm so sorry to hear about the terrible loss of your beautiful sweet precious baby Gavin. I can't imagine the pain that you are going through! Please stay strong for each other. Our love, prayers and deeply saddened hearts are with you always.
Love,
Adriana, Josef, Jacob and Mila Samargia

Adriana Samargia <singdoula@aol.com>
west palm beach, FL USA - Monday, April 11, 2005 2:26 AM CDT

I am so shocked and sorry to hear of Gavin's passing. I know there are no words to comfort you but just know that there are so many people all over praying for you and for Gavin and that he is no longer in pain. You're in my prayers..
Love, Erin Doyle <boltsfan19@hotmail.com>
Gainesville, FL - Monday, April 11, 2005 1:34 AM CDT

I never met Gavin. I only have the photo of him on my refrigerator, where it still sits. I love that photo, he's sitting in the grass, and in the background he's walking busily towards his toys. What a clever, beautiful photo. What a beautiful, innocent child. I can't imagine what this feels like for you guys. I love you both.
Jeff Renza <funk101@bellsouth.net>
Margate, Fl USA - Sunday, April 10, 2005 11:53 PM CDT

I just want to express my sorrow and sympathy for the loss of your darling little Gavin. So many people were praying for his recovery and it sounded so positive. I admire you for agreeing to an autopsy and hope that because of it, other children will be healed. I bet he's checking out the zoo in heaven right now! Love and prayers ...
Beverly Kilman <bevae1@msn.com>
Des Moines, IA - Sunday, April 10, 2005 10:15 PM CDT

Randy & Tammy, I am so sorry. I can only imagine what you are going through. God's plan is hard to figure sometimes...... Gavin is with Him now. If there is anything I can do, please let me know.
Jonathan C. Genck <coppagruv@bellsouth.net>
Coconut Creek, Fl USA - Sunday, April 10, 2005 8:18 PM CDT

Dear Randy and Tammy,

i pray that you are healed from this episode in your lives. it's hard to imagine why things like this happen. May you be comforted and blessed with happiness and fulfillment.

our best wishes,

nori and reuben hoch
reuben hoch <rhochjazz@att.net>
rhochjazz@att.net - Sunday, April 10, 2005 8:12 PM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy,
Our hearts go out to you and your family.
Wishing you all our love and much strength....
Love,
Heidi and David
David Schanzer <indigostar@mindspring.com>
Boynton Beach, Fl. USA - Sunday, April 10, 2005 7:35 PM CDT

dear randy and tammy,
we feel so sorry for the loss of little gavin.may god be with you.accept our deepest sympathy in that particular moment.
keitel and gina belancourt (your neighbor at 6298 harwich ) <belancourtk@bellsouth.net>
west palm beach, fl usa - Sunday, April 10, 2005 6:59 PM CDT

Randy & Tammy,
I am shocked and saddened to hear of Gavin's passing -words cannot express my sadness....It just breaks my heart...My thoughts and prayers are with you always...
Your hermit friend, Jim
Jim Nerini <Jnerini@Aol.com>
Julian, CA USA - Sunday, April 10, 2005 4:53 PM CDT

Deat Randy & Tammy,
We are so sorry for your loss.
Love, Ben, Evelyn, Jen & Laura
Evelyn DiGeorge <slotslady@bellsouth.net>
Lake Worth, FL Palm Beach - Sunday, April 10, 2005 4:46 PM CDT

Thank you for being such wonderful parents...you are an inspiration to me as I raise my son now 19 months. My prayers are with you and know that Gavin is with God. May God continue to bless you and give you comfort and guidance in the coming days.
Crystal Dodson <cdodson1@columbus.rr.com>
Galloway, OH USA - Sunday, April 10, 2005 4:44 PM CDT

Tammy and Randy...I'm so very sorry for your loss. My heart aches for what you're going through and just want you to know that I'm sending many, many prayers.

Much love...

Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Sunday, April 10, 2005 3:44 PM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy,

I am deeply saddened by you'r loss, I went up to visit him and see tammy and was sure that with prayer he would be all right. He was a beautiful little boy that made the whole room light up and he will be truly missed. If there is anything I can do, please let me know.
Love you! Kristy
Kristy Oneill <kristyoneill@aol.com>
Lake Alfred, Fl Polk - Sunday, April 10, 2005 2:37 PM CDT

Randy and Tammy,

We are so sorry to hear of the loss of your little Gavin. Tom and Peg are dear friends, and they have kept us updated on Gavin's progress since he was first diagnosed with the cancer. There are no words to express the profound sense of sadness at this time as you say goodbye to your precious little angel--my heart goes out to you both, please know you are in my thoughts and prayers. My faith assures me, that though we may not understand why his time on earth was so short, Gavin's life was not lived in vain, and you will see him again. He's playing with the other angel babies, and is strong again in body and mind, free of pain. God bless you and keep you as you work through your grief.
Beverly Walsmith <bev@walsmith.com>
Des Moines, IA USA - Sunday, April 10, 2005 12:25 AM CDT

Dear Tammy and Randy,
I am a friend of Camie's. I have been praying for Gavin and for you since he was first diagnosed. I cannot begin to imagine the hurt and loss you are now experiencing. There are many things in this world that I do not understand. One of the greatest is why children suffer. But I do know that our Lord is faithful. One day all of our questions will be answered and you will see your precious Gavin again. His life, although brief, has touched many. Thank you for sharing him with us. Know that you are in our thoughts and prayers.
Deborah Epps <kmepps@bellsouth.net>
Watkinsville, GA USA - Sunday, April 10, 2005 9:00 AM CDT

My mother just told me about your beautiful Gavin. I am so sorry. Just know that Gavin has a great friend up there. I bet he and Jalen are playing right now. I hope that one day you and I can meet and share stories about our little angels.

God Bless,
Jeanette (Angel Jalen's Mommy)
www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <tru2200@aol.com>
- Sunday, April 10, 2005 7:55 AM CDT

I have followed Gavin since susie puyol e-mailed me your story for prayers, and I must say I was glued to your sight and fell in love witht hat little boy. I was shocked when i checked the sight today. I am so sorry for the loss of your precious angel. You are amazing people and pillars of strength. We send out our deepest sympathy to your family. Gavin has impacted so many lives including some of us who never knew him. WE will keep praying for your familys strength.
Marji Engle <mapet@adelphia.net>
palm beach gardens, fl united states - Sunday, April 10, 2005 7:33 AM CDT

Tammy and Randy....
I don't have the words, don't know where to begin. I cannot begin to imagine the incredible pain and loss you must be feeling at this moment.I am so incredibly saddened and sorry. Please know I am thinking of you both...
All my love and prayers,

Anne Dale <cadale@juno.com>
Gainesville, FL - Sunday, April 10, 2005 7:09 AM CDT

Dear Randy, I'm so sad to hear the latest news. God bless Gavin. I'll keep you all in my prayers.
Sandy Poltarack <stratstringer@aol.com>
Miami, FL USA - Saturday, April 9, 2005 10:22 PM CDT

My heart hurts to hear about Gavin. Your journal has kept me fighting with you everyday. I am so saddened today and feel your loss too. You are true saints and Gavin is an "Angel".
Life is about loving and being loved. Your unconditional love for your son showed in each entry. When I met you in Gainesville I saw that same love when Gavin looked at you. Please keep in touch with me.
Betsy Shapiro-Crawford <mom2boys@bellsouth.net>
Green Cove Springs, Fl - Saturday, April 9, 2005 9:03 PM CDT

My heart aches for your loss. It doesn't matter how sick our child is, we hope for a miracle. This isn't the way it is suppose to be. . . . our children are suppose to outlive us. I am so sorry for your loss. (I'm a friend of Grandma Peggy)P.S. We lost our son 5 years ago at the age of 29. We still miss him very much. God bless you.
Mary Johnson <jermarjo@kdsi.net>
North Platte,, NE. USA - Saturday, April 9, 2005 8:27 PM CDT

I'd like to tell all of you who've written in over the past months how much I appreciate your caring.

Tammy's dad
Larry Williams <deaconlw@yahoo.com>
Tallahassee, Fl - Saturday, April 9, 2005 11:45 AM CDT

I am so sorry to hear of the passing of your sweet son. Although I never met him, you could see God's love in his eyes. Words aren't enough to express my sympathy for your entire family. I'm a friend of Gramma Peggy's...
Suzanne Loperfido <leapofaith99@comcast.net>
Brentwood, TN USA - Saturday, April 9, 2005 10:18 AM CDT

I'm so sorry to hear Gavin has gone to be with the Lord, my prayers are with you and your family. Tom and Peggy are dear friends and I want you to know you have been in my prayers these past few months.
Mary Gross <grossma52@mchsi.com>
Des Moines, IA USA - Saturday, April 9, 2005 10:14 AM CDT

Dear Randy, Tami, Ivy
I guess I didn't realize how this worked. Just want you to know how very much Gavin is in our thoughts and prayers. Love Kathy
Kathy Tompkins <kathy.tompkins@mchsi.com>
Estherville, IA USA - Friday, April 8, 2005 10:29 PM CDT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAVIN!

Tammy, my son Myles is 3 feet and 24 pounds, so I understand your worries! I'm always trying to find higher calorie versions of his favorite foods! Nothing low fat. Myles loves the Gerber meat sticks...lots of good protein. He is a meat lover...won't touch his vegies though!

I hope the pneumonia passes quickly so he can get on with being back at home!

Keep hanging in there! You are an inspiration to all Moms and Dads!
Crystal Dodson <cdodson1@columbus.rr.com>
Galloway, OH USA - Thursday, April 7, 2005 8:49 PM CDT

Happy birthday to you, Happpy birthday to you.
We wish you all the fun and excitement that being 2 has to offer. Mom and dad get your running shoes out.

Lots of love,
The Furiato's
sharon furiato <dirfter101296@cs.com>
Port St. Lucie, fl usa - Thursday, April 7, 2005 7:59 PM CDT

Happy birthday precious boy! Love, Aunt Cindy.
Cindy Cottrell <ccottrell@harmonandsloan.com>
Panama City, FL USA - Thursday, April 7, 2005 4:51 PM CDT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to our sweet little nephew/cousin. We love you and we are singing to you even though you are too far away to hear us! :) We wish for age 2 to be filled with much good health and happiness! XOXOXOXOXO Camie & Crew
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
- Thursday, April 7, 2005 1:24 PM CDT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GAVIN!!!! I hope you have at least 100 more.
Much love,
Grandad
Larry Williams <deaconlw@yahoo.com>
Tallahassee, Fl USA - Thursday, April 7, 2005 9:08 AM CDT

Hello Dear Family, It is 1 AM and here I am at Gavin's Web-site checking to see what's up. Today is Gavin's Second Birthday! Things are sounding encouraging. I think maybe I can find peace in my sleep. I'll go back to bed and count our Blessings. It is wonderful to read all the messages from others who care. I think your new hair style sounds attractive, but I can't imagine Tammy without long hair. Seems like shorter hair happens along with Motherhood. Thanks to everyone who is including Gavin in their prayer groups! Love from Grandma Peggy & Papa Tom
Peggy Ward <pward3214@aol.com>
Urbandale, IA USA - Thursday, April 7, 2005 1:08 AM CDT

Dear FAmily, So glad to hear Gavin's appetite is picking up. He's a brave little boy and is blessed with great parents! Sharon Furiato (my daughter) has told me about your challenges with his illness. I'm glad that you have had good news.

Priscilla Guay <rrguay@bellsouth.net>
Jupiter, FL - Wednesday, April 6, 2005 8:45 PM CDT

The brain and abdomen are CLEAR.
WHAT WONDERFUL WORDS TO HEAR!

love sharon
sharon furiato <drifter101296@cs.com>
Port St. Lucie, fl usa - Wednesday, April 6, 2005 8:29 PM CDT

Randy, Tammy:
Gavin looks great! Praise God!
The website is the best! May God bless the Ward family richly.
Frank Axtell
Frank Axtell <frank@frankaxtell.com>
West Palm Beach, FL U S A - Wednesday, April 6, 2005 5:25 PM CDT

Hello Tammy, Randy, and Gavin. My name is Kim Reed, I am longtime friends of Tom, Peg, Camie, and Moni. Camie has shared Gavin's story with me and my family and I just wanted to write to you and let you know that I am praying for you and Gavin. Cancer has touched my life in many ways, some very good and some very bad. One thing that I have learned, in all situations, is to just take every moment as a blessing and cherish it. Please know that I am praying for you and Gavin and will send many good vibes down to you!!! Peace and love, Kim Reed
Kim Reed <stellablue39@hotmail.com>
Urbandale, IA USA - Wednesday, April 6, 2005 2:37 PM CDT

Hi Tammy and Randy~ It's impossible to imagine the wellspring of strength you are each having to muster up and the bravery to go along. We think of you everyday and keep you in our prayers and in our hearts. Sydnee
sydnee
kalamazoo, mi - Tuesday, April 5, 2005 7:24 AM CDT

Hello Gavin,Randy and Tammy. Just dropping all of you a line. I hope Gavin is feeling better. I am thinking about all of you all the time. Take care of each other. John.
John Yarling <freethought@bellsouth.net>
deerfield beach, Fl USA - Tuesday, April 5, 2005 3:34 AM CDT

Hello, Just a spring Hello for Minnesota. We have had little Gavin in our prayers and on the prayer list at church ever since Uncle Tom & Aunt Peggy told us the news of Gavin's illness and we will continue to do so untill Gavin recieves a clean bill of health. He is also on the prayer list in Tower-Sudan, Minnesota & Dayton Ohio. All Our Love and Prayers: Mike & Laurie Anderson
Mike & Laurie Anderson <mum.writes@verizon.net>
Meadowlands, MN United States - Monday, April 4, 2005 10:25 AM CDT

Hi guys. Just got your info from Tom Lippincott. Wishing all of you days filled with sunshine and carefree thoughts. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there. All the best, Sandy Poltarack
Sandy Poltarac k <stratstringer@aol.com>
Miami, FL USA - Monday, April 4, 2005 9:58 AM CDT

Hi Randy,
Heidi and I just want to send you guys our best.....
As usual we're a little behind the 8 ball, but we hope everything is going as well as can be expected and wish you guys all the strength in the world....
Love,
Dave & Heidi

Dave Schanzer <indigostar@mindspring.com>
WBoynton Beach, FL USA - Monday, April 4, 2005 9:40 AM CDT

dear gavin's family:
our girls attend gardens learning center, jordan and tyler, and we want you to know that your son is always in our thougts and prayers. we are thinking of you and your family. with love, mike and sandi karnbach from the GLC family. god bless.
mike and sandi karnbach <skmediate@aol.com>
- Sunday, April 3, 2005 6:32 PM CDT

Dear Ones,
I think "ahrah" might sound like "I hurt" but it is just a guess. (a (I) harh (hurt)

We will pray for your little son and his healing.
We are praying for a few people right now struggling with cancer and we will pray for Gavin as well.

As far as food goes, check out a book by Jordan Rubin called the "Maker's Diet." Very interesting. We know someone who is doing Chemo and has received a lot of help with his eating through this book. But, with a 2 year old this can be really tricky as you well know.
You might also try and see if he will drink a Dannon product called "DanActive" It comes in small bottles in a pack of four near the yogurt. It is BIG help with the immune system and puts the good bacteria back in the intestines. Lots of kids like the taste. It comes in Vanilla, Strawberry and Orange. Very tasty for kids! Find it at the grocery stores, esp. Publix. This might be a big help to him and you. Hope these suggestions help.
bkburger@comcast.net

God bless.
BK

BK <bkburger@comcast.net>
Franklin, TN USA - Sunday, April 3, 2005 2:26 PM CDT

Hello Dear Ones. We pray that Gavin is feeling better today. We hope that you can get some rest now Grandma Ivy is there with you. It feels like Spring is here a bit early this year -- Spring in the Midwest brings HOPE. Our hearts are fllled with Love for you! Grandma Peggy & Papa Tom Ward
Peggy Ward <pward3214@aol.com>
Urbandale, IA USA - Sunday, April 3, 2005 9:59 AM CDT

I just read all of the entries, and my throat is tight. I also have just been in the hospital and know how uncaring people can seem at some times. My new rule is - "don't spend Easter in the hospital"! I'm glad you didn't have to do that. Our whole family is praying for you. Keep working on your getting stronger and eat lots of good food. Love Aunt Pat and Uncle Smitty
Pat Schuneman <pattywrited@earthlink.net>
Okoboji, IA US - Thursday, March 31, 2005 9:56 AM CST

Hi Gavin, Randy, and Tammy, I'm encouraged by Gavin's recovery and we wish you all the best.
Lewis and Lynn Rainbow <lewbow@bellsouth.net>
Miami, FL USA - Tuesday, March 29, 2005 10:56 PM CST

What a joyful Easter for Gavin's surgery to be over and to have him at home. We are sending love and prayers to you every day. The prayer chains are still at work for all of you. Soon we will be celebrating Gavin's Second Birthday on April 7th. What a BRAVE little boy!

Grandma Peggy & Papa Tom -- Urbandale, Iowa

Tom & Peggy Ward <pward3214@aol.com>
Urbanda.le, IA USA - Tuesday, March 29, 2005 8:46 PM CST

Another step closer to playing with our cousin! We are thrilled with the great news! Lots of love to you all! :)
Timothy, Owen & Natalie (Camie & Tim too)
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
Leawood, KS - Monday, March 28, 2005 8:23 PM CST

To the ward family,
HAPPY EASTER!
Gavin and Connor will have to get together and have a jam session with their gutiars.
Love, Sharon
Sharon Furiato <drifter101296@cs.com>
Port St. Lucie, FL USA - Sunday, March 27, 2005 2:21 PM CST

I can't put into words how happy I am for you for the test results. CONGRATS!
Let me know when your ready for an outing at the zoo.
I'm happy that your news gets better and better.
Love sharon
sharon furiato <drifter 101296@cs.com>
Port St. Lucie, fl usa - Friday, March 25, 2005 7:36 PM CST

Praise God!! Awesome news. It is so wonderful to see how God just went into Gavin's little body and killed all those tumors. Wow! We are so happy and excited. Keep your strength, love, peace and joy. Ms. Susie
Susie Puyol <puyol@adelphia.net>
North Palm Beach, FL USA - Thursday, March 24, 2005 6:05 AM CST

I am so excited to hear that the surgery went well. You have not only been in my families prayers, but also in my co-workers prayers. I have shared your fight with them to start a prayer chain. Can't wait to hear about your recovery!
Hugs!!! Betsy
Betsy Crawford <mom2boys@bellsouth.net>
Green Cove Springs, Fl - Wednesday, March 23, 2005 6:50 PM CST

Gavin, Tammy, and Randy
Another hurdle down and GREAT things to come.
Yeah Gavin!
sharon
sharon furiato <drifter101296@cs.com>
port St. Lucie, fl usa - Wednesday, March 23, 2005 6:43 PM CST

We are thrilled that Gavin did so well today. Our wishes are with you as always. Love Ben, Ev, Jen, and Laura
Evelyn <slotslady@bellsouth.net>
- Wednesday, March 23, 2005 4:44 PM CST

YEA!! Go Gavin. Love to you and Mama & Daddy. Aunt Cindy.
Cindy Cottrell <ccottrell@harmonandsloan.com>
Panama City, FL USA - Wednesday, March 23, 2005 4:21 PM CST

Totally awesome news Tammy! My family woke up this morning thinking about Gavin. Hope you can all get some rest now. Love, Sydnee
peters
kalamazoo, mi - Wednesday, March 23, 2005 3:29 PM CST

Hi Gavin and Family,
We just wanted to wish you luck today. Your in our thoughts and prayers. Lots of hugs and kisses are being sent your way. We love you all!
Mary Ellen and Cat <cat2581@aol.com>
Palm Beach Gardens, fl - Wednesday, March 23, 2005 10:42 AM CST

Randy- I am amazed at your strength. I guess we all rise to whatever we must, but sometimes when the obstacles are so huge, people buckle. You are a good man, and I respect you. Though I haven't met Tammy, I am in awe of her as well. Gavin is a trooper. I have read the logs and am amazed at his strength and attitude. Our thoughts are with you, and we will check in frequently to see how things are going. I have a good feeling about this...
Duncan Moore <drumz@cox.net>
Oceanside, CA United States - Wednesday, March 23, 2005 2:49 AM CST

Having access to this website is the best thing ever; and Tammy, I agree with Randy's mom, you do write well. I'm thinking about y'all constantly.

Dad
Larry Williams <deaconlw@yahoo.com>
Burbank, Ca - Tuesday, March 22, 2005 10:00 PM CST

Gavin, you are the Little Engine That Could. And Randy & Tammy, you're amazing caretakers, parents, and people.
Bill Meredith & Ginny Williams <bmeredith@jazziz.com>
Lake Worth, FL USA - Tuesday, March 22, 2005 11:57 AM CST

From Carolyn and Pete to Gavin, Randy and Tammy.
We send huge LOVE and PRAYERS for a successful surgery and
quick and not so painful recovery.
GAVIN, YOUR MOM AND DAD are your precious angels.
RANDY keep up that strong will my friend.
The difference youn two are making in many peoples lives including Gavins cannot be measured.

Pete and Carolyn

Pete and Carolyn Le Vine <psl707@netscape.net>
Palm City, FL USA - Tuesday, March 22, 2005 9:00 AM CST

My thoughts are prayers are with you and randy! The website is beautiful and a wonderful display of your love for your child. You are always in our prayers!
Melissa Hoffman <Melissawalks@hotmail.com>
Evans, GA USA - Tuesday, March 22, 2005 8:53 AM CST

Tammy,Randy, and Gavin, our positive thoughts and prayers are always with you. It was good to see you in Feb. at City Place and we know you guys will beat this.
Rob and Nedda Rimmington <robboyz@bellsouth.net>
Boca Raton, Fla USA - Tuesday, March 22, 2005 7:31 AM CST

All The Best To U!
Victor L. Wooten <vic@victorwooten.com>
Nashville, TN USA - Monday, March 21, 2005 11:23 PM CST

Hi Guys,

Melissa, Alison and I are always thinking of you!
Mark Hoffman <gumbytrain@earthlink.net>
Miami, FL USA - Monday, March 21, 2005 9:53 PM CST

My thoughts and prayers are with you - I think of little Gavin constantly and I wish him with all my heart a speedy recovery...Your Pal, Jim
Jim Nerini <Jnerini@aol.com>
La Jolla, Ca USA - Monday, March 21, 2005 7:48 PM CST

Hi Gavin, Tammy and Randy,
While I've never met you Gavin, I've known your Dad for about 22 years. We were in college together. He's a great guy and a super positive person and I know he loves you and is making you laugh a lot. Your Mom's journal is a great read and I'll be checking in from time to time on your progress. I wish you all the best with your surgery this week. Your strength is inspiring to all of us. I hope we get to meet someday and hang out, you seem like a really cool guy.
Teddy K
BROOKLYN, NY USA - Monday, March 21, 2005 6:43 PM CST

I received this e-mail from Susie Puyol and WOW he is a beautiful child. My thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time. Gavin is precious gift and we pray for a speedy recovery.
Marji Engle <mapet@adelphia.net>
Palm Beach Gardens, Fl. us - Monday, March 21, 2005 6:10 PM CST

It's so great to be able to go here and communicate with you. Gavin, you are such a big boy. You will have a new cousin (2nd) in a week or two. Your Uncle Lee is having a son, Samuel. I hope he's as wonderful as you are. I'll be thinking of all of you this week and keeping up. I love you all! Aunt Cindy
Cindy Cottrell <ccottrell@harmonandsloan.com>
Panama City, FL USA - Monday, March 21, 2005 4:42 PM CST

Hey Gavin, Tammy and Randy. So GREAT to see Gavin and you last week Tammy. Gavin's life has impacted all of us at Gardens Learning Center. We will continue to pray for you and believe that God's healing power is alive and working in our little Gavin's life. Keep being strong and I'll see you this week. Let me know what time the surgery is so I can be there. Ms. Susie
Susie Puyol <puyol@adelphia.net>
Palm Beach Gardens, FL USA - Monday, March 21, 2005 11:08 AM CST

Hello! It's so great to be able to check on you through this site! As always, you are in our hearts, thoughts and prayers. These journal entries will make a great book one day! :)
We love you all! Camie, Tim, Timothy, Owen & Natalie (The Kansas Cousins)
Camie Stamper <camie@thestampers.net>
Leawood, KS - Friday, March 18, 2005 7:14 PM CST

Dear Gavin and Tammy and Randy - We have you in our thoughts and close to our hearts. On Wednesday we will light a candle and keep it glowing all day long in honor of the very courageous Gavin Ward family.
Love ~ Sydnee, Tony, Austin, Samuel
peters
kalamazoo, mi - Friday, March 18, 2005 3:30 PM CST

Hey Gavin and Family.
My thoughts are always with you. We miss you and your funny ways here Tammy. I love you all. Good luck next week.
Cat Ingram <cat2581@aol.com>
Plam beach gardens, fl 33410 - Friday, March 18, 2005 12:06 AM CST

Surgery on Wednesday and it sounds like a biggie. You and Randy are giving that little guy so much love and care, and this sounds like several days of intense care. I know you will be fine. Prayers and hugs, Mom
By the way Tammy, you are quite a writer, I see a book in your future! The journal is not only informational, it is entertaining.
Ivy M. Ward <IowaMrd@hotmail.com>
- Friday, March 18, 2005 11:17 AM CST

Tammy, I am praying for Gavin everyday and want you to know that your family is in my thoughts everyday! If you need me for anything,don't hesitate to call!! Love ya! Kristy
Kristy Oneill <kristyoneill@aol.com>
Lake Alfred, Fl U.S. - Friday, March 18, 2005 8:39 AM CST

Gavin & family :)
Gavin you look great and we miss you so much at the little dude ranch !!!! come stop by any time ....
love , shana and all the girls at the little due ranch pre- school
shana <littlemansion@cs.com>
boynton beach, fl - Friday, March 18, 2005 6:16 AM CST

I agree with Debbie. GOD sent His only son and raised him back up and see what trust in His son has done. There is and always will be hope. Praise the Lord Jesus Christ for this wonderful miracle. Remember to let Gavin know who did the healing so that GOD can use him for His purpose. GOD Bless you all.
Barbara King (friend of your neighbor Kim Mead)
Port St. Lucie, FL USA - Thursday, March 17, 2005 3:46 PM CST

I was introduced by Bev Kilman to your prayer needs, and have prayed so much for this little guy! I'm so glad to see the picture and see this site. Praise Jesus for today's news of a miracle. I hope you all are acknowledging that it's Jesus answering those prayers.Give Him all the praise!!
Debbie Hopkins
Goose Creek, SC USA - Thursday, March 17, 2005 3:37 PM CST

Hi Randy, Tammy & Gavin,
We are so HAPPY about Gavin's progress! You are right, miracles do happen! You are always in our thoughts-Evelyn & Ben
DiGeorge Family, Ben, Evelyn, Jen & Laura <slotslady@bellsouth.net>
Lake Worth, Fl Palm Beach - Thursday, March 17, 2005 11:42 AM CST

Tammy, Randy & Gavin: You'll never even know how many people all over this country has been praying for your little family. I love you and hope to you all of you soon.
Aunt Cindy <ccottrell@harmonandsloan.com>
Panama City, FL USA - Thursday, March 17, 2005 10:31 AM CST

Hey Gavin,
just dropped in to say, that my mom and I are praying for you, and we hope that you kick this nasty cancer, just like I did.
I’m 4 years out from treatment now, and doing great. I’ve got a list of Girl friends to prove it!! I hate that you are going through this, sometimes it makes me angry that so many kids have to fight cancer!! We have to trust God, and lean on him, in times of need.
Stay Strong!!
My Moto....
CANCER....HAD IT
CHEMO.....DONE IT
JESUS.....FIXED IT
Always in our prayers,

http://www2.caringbridge.org/ar/myleswilder/

myles and mom <prayingforgavin'shealing@answers.net>
Glenwood, AR - Thursday, March 17, 2005 7:11 AM CST

tammy,randy,and gavin: Thankyou for doing this page. your family is always on my mind. your in our prayers. Gavin is a fighter! I'm so glad to hear that he's smiling again. I'm REALLY glad to hear that he was toddling across the parking lot today. Soon he'll be RUNNING!
love, sharon, mike, and connor
sharon Furiato <drifter101296@cs.com>
port St. Lucie, Fl usa - Wednesday, March 16, 2005 7:58 PM CST

Tam, your dad only told me about this page today. And today is filled with great news. The three of you are with me all the time. I love you.
Aunt Susie
Susie Guerino <guerino626@msn.com>
Tallahassee, Fl USA - Wednesday, March 16, 2005 6:44 PM CST

Tammy, Randy & Gavin: Hi guys! Gavin looks great. We are all so happy that he is doing so well. We all miss you Tammy and hope you will be able to come back to school soon.
We love you!!
Ellen, Morgan, Tiffany, Georgie, Sharon & Rachel
Ellen Gorman <ellengorman@bellsouth.net>
West Palm Beach , FL Palm Beach - Wednesday, March 16, 2005 6:49 AM CST

Good looking Grandson! Can't wait to teach you some new tricks to try out on your parents. See you soon, love Grandma and Grandpa Spisiak....
John and Bobbie Spisiak <jspisiak@juno.com>
Lake City, Fl USA - Tuesday, March 15, 2005 8:38 AM CST

Hi Gavin! You look so handsome with your dad!
You've been in our thoughts and prayers since we saw you in Gainesville. You're a miracle little man.
Hugs.......Betsy, Craig, lil Craig & Adam Crawford
Betsy Crawford <mom2boys@bellsouth.net>
Green Cove Springs, Fl - Monday, March 14, 2005 7:09 PM CST

Hi Gavin,
Seems things went well today and good luck for tomorrow. We'll be keeping an eye out for you over the fence. Tammy thanks for keeping us updated.
Luv Mr. Bob & Ms. Rose
Bob & Rose <bobnbez@aol.com>
west Palm Beach, Fl - Monday, March 14, 2005 6:21 PM CST

HI!!! NAOMI GAVE ME THE PICS THAT MOM PRINTED OUT OF GAVIN.
I LIKE THE HAIR!!! LOOKS LIKE IT'S COMMING BACK MORE BLONDE
NOW I WILL HAVE A NEW PICTURE TO POST AT MY DESK AT WORK. WE ARE ALWAYS THINKING AND PRAYING FOR YOU ALL. GIVE GAVIN A HUG FOR ME
DRU BENSON <BOJIBUMS@AOL.COM>
CUMMING, IA - Monday, March 14, 2005 1:56 PM CST

I called Tom to learn about Gavin, and learned about this web site. Wow, Gavin looks a lot like his dad did when he was small. I'm thankful to know of this site so I can keep better track of your progress. Our whole family is pulling for your recovery. We really care more than you can guess. Love Aunt Pat and Uncle Smitty.
Pat Schuneman <pattywrited@earthlink.net>
Okoboji, IA US - Monday, March 14, 2005 11:34 AM CST

Hi Gavin!
I've never had a chance to meet you, but my mom (Pat), sister (Kim) and nephews (Ryan, Jimmy & Eric) all live next door to you and they told me that you are the most wonderful and handsome little boy. And from looking at your pictures, I can see what they are talking about. Your mommy and daddy are truly blessed to have such a beautiful boy, as you are blessed to have such a great mommy and daddy.

My little boy Michael is going to be 13 years old and my little girl Mia just turned 6 years old. We all pray for you and ask that God look over you on your road to recovery. I can't wait until we come to visit, so we can get a chance to meet you. But, until then, we will be thinking about you every day and checking out your cool website to see how well you are doing. Keep smiling sweetie and God be with you.
Karla Osolin <kosolin@kelley-ferraro.com>
Willoughby, OH USA - Monday, March 14, 2005 9:21 AM CST

Well, Gavin, you and your dad look pretty cool sittin' there.
It sure was good visiting with you.
Grandad <deaconlw@yahoo.com>
Burbank, Ca - Sunday, March 13, 2005 11:23 PM CST

Tammy, Randy, and Gavin,
I am so glad that you got my mail and that you did the webpage. Gavin is a cutie. Remember I am just a phone call away IF you ever need anything.

Your New Friends,
Scott, Rebecca and Zachary Finestone <srfinestone@hotmail.com>
Jensen Beach, FL USA - Sunday, March 13, 2005 4:24 PM CST

Gavin, Tammy, & Randy,
Gavin is so cute! We will keep him in our prayers. We love the website!
Love,
Anthony & Lillian
Anthony & Lillian <LillyRuby405@aol.com>
Ft. Lauderdale, FL US - Sunday, March 13, 2005 8:55 AM CST

I learned about Gavin from his grandma Peggy. I pray for him everyday. I appreciate this website...nice to put a face with the name! I look forward to great news!
Crystal Dodson
Galloway, OH - Saturday, March 12, 2005 7:40 PM CST

What a lovely suprize to see you both today. Gavin you are looking fantastic. Mr Bob says sorry he missed you. You are in our prayers for Monday......take care. Luv Miss Rose & Mr Bob
Bob & Rose Sullivan <bobnbez@aol.com>
West Palm Beach, FL USA - Saturday, March 12, 2005 6:22 PM CST

Gavin, Randy & Tammy
We send our love and support and will keep you in our thoughts. What a beautiful picture...
Sincerely, Vince, Christie and Owen Seiberling
Vincent, Christie and Owen Seiberling <vbbotts@aol.com>
Chatham, NJ USA - Saturday, March 12, 2005 4:48 PM CST

I often wonder how Gavin is doing thanks for the update and the great pictures.
Shawn Alfonsetti <Fonsetti@aol.com>
- Friday, March 11, 2005 7:13 PM CST

This is a great picture. Thanks for sending it. We're all pulling for Gavin.
Dave Hubbard <profhubb@bellsouth.net>
Boynton Beach, FL USA - Friday, March 11, 2005 6:26 PM CST

Tammy and family !!
Thanks so much for sending this link, with the picture of Gavin and his Daddy !! Gavin looks wonderful !! So nice to see him smiling :>)
You are in my thoughts and prayers often,
Love and hugs to all of you,

Anne ( HARRIS) Dale <cadale@juno.com>
Gainesville, FL USA - Friday, March 11, 2005 6:16 PM CST

What a wonderful picture of Gavin and Randy!!!!! Gavin has grown so much since your last picture. What a brave boy and so lucky to have such loving and caring parents.
Kathy Tompkins <Kathy.tompkins@mchsi.com>
Estherville, IA USA - Friday, March 11, 2005 6:16 PM CST

What a great picture of Gavin and his Dad! I am looking forward to visiting in April for Gavin's second birthday. Love, Gram
Ivy M. Ward <IowaMrd@hotmail.com>
Des Moines, IA USA - Friday, March 11, 2005 5:48 PM CST

Gavin is a beautiful child. I know that with all of this support, he is going to recover and overcome this illness. Things happen for reasons we don't always understand - and sometimes the outcome is not what we fear. I'm with you!
Marty Duitch <duitchfamily@comcast.net>
Beaverton, OR 97007 - Friday, March 11, 2005 5:09 PM CST

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